#so many good childhood memories

[chaos-in-one]

I wish all the people who tried to tell me after I came out as trans that it was a phase and I'd grow out of it a very "lmao how does it feel to be fucking wrong"

It's been roughly 6 years since I came out now

Even longer since I started thinking my gender might be different from my agab

Still trans and proud as fuck <3

Trans people's existence isn't a phase to grow out of, and I'm happy to be showing that more and more with every day that passes since I came out

#just randomly remembered how many times Ive been told thar #gave me a good laugh #but yeah no #my childhood memory is shit so I can't pinpoint the exact time #but pretty sure it's been a good decade since I started thinking of my gender as different from my agab now #trans #transgender #trans pride #transgender pride #fuck transphobes #trans positivity #transgender positivity

[kens-puku]

Y'all are gonna think I'm so weird.

But I'm running with this idea I've had for a while for my mcl ocs. Well, other than the actual other mcl ocs I've made.

It's part lazy, part bizarre.

Clones.

Yep, clones.

My MCL NG oc is a clone of the original Puku, but different. I haven't figured out the details yet, but it's like what I did with Pukun, Puku's male clone. It has the idea of a type of clone theory idea of nature vs nurture. The DNA and nature of the puku clones is the same, but the nurture is always a bit different depending on circumstances. Puku "prime" is the parent of all the clones made, but Puku "prime" had a different parentage and upbringing than the clones. Not to mention, the events of each mcl game has different outcomes for clone Puku.

This Puku has -teal- hair and is a zoomer, I guess. Raised by Puku "prime" and has the existential grappling of dealing with being a clone in general.

There's... still a lot of ironing out to do. Like... Where does Kentin fit into all this? How should I incorporate the family given to Puku 2.0 in New Generation?

Why am I giving this plot to an MCL OC!??

lol

#my candy love #my candy love new generation #mcl ng #not that it matters at all. i don't believe I'd really write much lore on all this. it's just what my mind thinks of when regarding thispuk #actually I'm leaning more towards Puku 2.0 being raised by the family in universe. but Puku prime is like the creepy person that pops in #from time to time to make sure teal puku is doing alright #all of the pukus are adopted anyway lol #i have to study zoomers so I can know what zoomers are all about #wait... being a zoomer is all about upbringing during a certain time period.. so technically this Puku should be a gen alpha but JUST GO WI #dw guys I'll program this puku with the memories of a gen zoomer #When the teal puku was “born” from the test tube #puku prime put all the things zoomers grew up with on a crt television and had her watch it for a couple years while the body grows rapidly #it's all good fams we got this #teal puku would be like to peers “what do you mean your parents didn't have you watch your memories before they became memories?” #so like... teal puku will be “raised” by puku prime for about 4 years with programming. Then she'll be dropped off at the door step of the #family in NG with the instructions that she needs them to be her new family #yeah it's perfect! #just... so many of those gen z starter packs that I seen around #like minecraff and fortnite and the wii... yeah it's perfect #i need to remember how much aging happens in one year that I must have decided at one point. like a dog. #i think it was 1 year = about 4 years of growth but I can't member rn #but as per usual that growth cycle only goes on until reaching the age of the dna sampled. then it goes back to normal puku dna human growt #so actually 1 year of zoomer childhood programming #wait... the plot holes... are still.. T__T #I'll workshop it.

[ofgalaxiesandstars]

Don't mind me I'm just quietly screaming over the fact that Link never got to give the champions a proper goodbye when he saw them again because he couldn't properly remember them :')

#mun thoughts #he had like what #1 maybe 2 memories each of them? #mipha was his childhood friend and he couldnt remember that at all #he and daruk used to train and enjoy food and challenges together but he didnt remember #the most he remembered about revali is that the guy hated him because he was the knight with the master sword #and he didn't have much of a good memory of urbosa at all besides that she helped him learn more about zelda #he couldnt make amends with revali #or share one more laugh with daruk #or assure urbosa that zelda was okay and that he'd protect her #OR listen to and respond to miphas feelings about him #and then in totk the gifts they gave him were suddenly ripped away from him so now the only connection he has left to them are the weapons #i have so many feelings #link #loz #legend of zelda #breath of the wild #botw

[holyghostflo]

Sis, I grew up on Arthur.

That egg shaped blue duck from Peep and the Big Wide World was an icon for me and my older brother.

Seven year old me used to daydream about becoming a Wild Kratt so I could travel around the world and save the day with my own creature power suit.

I had the biggest crush on Theodore McCallister the Third from Wordgirl and TO THIS DAY I could not tell you why.

I may have been the saltiest girl alive when they got rid of PBSkids GO!

Odd Squad happened right around the time I started middle school, when I pretended I was too old for that "kiddie stuff" but I secretly watched (and loved) it anyway.

Long story short? We had no cable.

#There are SO many more shows I wanted to mention but i didn't want this post to be too long #like Fetch with Ruff Ruffman #or Cyberchase #clifford the big red dog #that one is my comfort show cuz it reminds me of good memories #there was Super Why too #ELECTRIC ELECTRIC COMPANY #curious george #sid the science kid #that one i both equally loved and hated #oh yeah we also watched qubo #rip qubo #2000s nostalgia #childhood nostalgia #childhood memories #pbs kids #no cable #but we still here

[morningmask27]

I do sometimes find it really annoying that most of the things I do right now are At Least tangentially related to a trauma I lived through.

I am living in a university dorm right now, it's a very typical thing to do, but most people return to their family home during the weekends and only really stay in the dorms because they have classes in the week and having to go from their home to the classes, especially the 9 am classes, can be heavy if they live somewhat further away. I stay in my dorm the entire week. For Reasons I don't want to go back to my old home for longer than half a day to drop my laundry and leave with clean clothes, some food and a chat with my mother. I wouldn't feel good doing so anymore, but mentioning that is weird because most people (except internationals because going to a full on other country just for the weekend, every weekend, would be a bit dumb) return to their home (My dorm feels more like home to me right now than my old house did btw).

When I say I stay in my dorm people are somewhat confused, as it on its own already implies that something must not be that good at the familial home for me to not go there for the weekends. By the simple fact I don't go back it's already implied there is something wrong, and it's true, there Is something wrong, but I can't just start explaining the whole thing, it's not really appropriate for most conversations, and I simply don't want to open up about this part of my traumas. So I just have to quickly and very blatantly brush off that fact and the unpleasant implications to continue the conversation without making it awkward and it's so annoying.

Most of my weird trauma responses at least have the added thing that if I don't verbalize them nobody will really notice. I am good at hiding them, I kinda had to, but this dorm situation is such a blatant sign of something Weird (and not the good kind) that I cannot hide since my actions on their own imply a situation already.

I am somewhat good at dealing with all of these issues, brushing off The Problems is a typical part of normal conversations, but it does get frustrating sometimes when I get severely affected by something traumatic, and it's The Only reason that my problem happened, but I cannot talk about it in casual conversations because of how heavy and intense it is. I have to vaguely mention The Horrors (They Are Complex) and move on before I make my conversation partner uncomfortable. It happened when I had to miss a class because of a severe relapse in my mental health, it happens every time I mention I stay in my dorm the weekends, it happens whenever I get too jittery and weird because of stress (I don't even always know Why I am stressed) and I just cannot explain anything about the cause because it's too heavy for most people to hear. (I do understand that fact, it makes sense you're not going to tell classmates casually about the horrific stuff you went through in your personal life, but it fucking gets annoying when it is fully related to a situation and I have to Shut The Fuck Up anyway.)

It's just frustrating to me that I have to deal with all these Weird Things because of trauma, and everyone sees them, but I cannot explain where they come from truthfully because of how much they are. It's in this weird middle state where people See I am weird hurt, but they don't Know why. I do things differently for reasons they can assume are unpleasant, but I cannot ever truly explain everything to them.

#morningcries #yeah late night frustrations as I just thing about all my friends and such going back to their homes and the occasional somewhat awkward #Lull in a conversation whenever I say I don't return to my kot (so Every time I say that) #Honestly having such a shit childhood really set me apart. But not in a good way #I am weird in many ways. All related to traumas I had and I can't relate to most people #I don't want to return to my home. I don't know what I feel about my sister but it sure as hell isn't a normal sibling relationship. #I have severe attachment issues and fucking cut myself when I was 14 #This mutilation fucked up my brain in the long term too as I now just crassly mention them Like That. They don't mean anything to me anymor #School left me a lonely hurt mess filled with anger and resentment. I had no friends left during my last year there. I had no friends when #I began university. My childhood was horrible and I now have to build something new from the shattered pieces I have left #Some people do help me but in a way my childhood is and always will be lost. I can't relate to what most people got to enjoy #Yes some small moments I do. I went on vacation and stuff and it was fun But somehow something always showed up to make the memory taste ba #When I talk about my past I always have to choose very specific small stories and shave off every negative detail and the grander (bad) #Context

[gurorori]

i say this with utmost seriousness i wish i was employed

#i need income so badly but im terrified of the prospects of havin 2 live independently but otherwise bein abused 2 death is the only option #:[ im so scared i wish things were easier #it doesn help when they constantly talk abt our neighbor slash childhood bestie whos jus a bit younger than us but alrdy has like #most of her life sorted out shes workin n studyin n they got her a car 4 hwr bday n she has a boyfriend n they r movin out next month #a middle class family btw with two alive parents yadda yadda. her tuition is effortlessly paid n she works on da side 4 her own expenses #n it's like first of all im nawt a well off cis girl. second of all she had qn actual support system n an upbringing — we didn't #i literally vaguely remember spendin most of our childhood n early teens over at her apartment since it was literally two steps away #they'd let us stay 4 hours cuz they felt bad 4 us n they dunno the whole story but they kno we r one of those 'unfortunate' families lol #but yeah the difference between us is night & day. it honestly feels a little crazy since we live literally on the same floor of the same #building despite the feasible differences. idk if dats a good or a bad thing #im jus tired of bein compared 2 her cuz we were failed on so many levels by everyone in our life who was supposed to care 4 us #meanwhile she's an average white blonde girl with a good life by here's standards #i wish we were still close but it became hard approaching teens... still we owr majority of our happy childhood memories 2 hangin out @ her #house or goin places w their family. it almost kinda felt like we were part of it but ik im. exaggeratin #yea idk why i ranted but um i need a job or ill die i think #mika caws

[lobotomyladylives]

having a frozen pina colada and it's good but it was literally 16 fucking dollars after tax. good thing I've only had a handful of cherries to eat all day

#drinking on an empty stomach is so unhealthy but so cost effective. #anyways idk what i expected with prices #it's fucking navy pier lol #they love to bleed tourists dry. which is why a local such as myself should hate it but i just dont. too many good childhood memories #& memories of catching pokemon that one summer that everyone was playing pokemon go

[darkfinch]

i have to ask. why do you not like clane crawford

you MISUNDERSTAND FUNDAMENTALLY

i do not know him as a person, so i can't like him Personally, but i enjoy mr crawford very much as an actor; i think he's very good at what he does and i appreciate the unique chaotic all-in energy he brings to his baffling filmography. i am enjoying his 500 dollar indie movie era and the SECOND that the integrity of joseph chambers (or, as my dad calls it, "the honour of jonathan whatshisname") Becomes Streamable i will be streaming it in whatever legal way i can. he has good hair. cool guy

the "i can't perceive this dude" vibes are just like.....like you know how you watch someone give an interview and they've obviously got a prepared, media-appropriate headspace they've slipped into + carefully curated established barrier between Real Self and Publicly Perceived Self? customer service persona? and they'll naturally curate their energy and the things they say to come across a certain way? they're prepared? they know what they're saying and doing and what they're trying to present to you?

mr crawford does not do this

mr crawford just says words. he just says words you cannot ask him about anything he will either sound like a cop who's just discovered the concept of introspection, a man who is actively counting down the seconds until he can exit the interview, or a normal fucking Guy who has completely forgotten that he's being recorded. it's too much i can't do it

like he is SO PASSIONATE about the things he talks about he is KNOWLEDGEABLE he LOVES MOVIES but also i cannot trust that he won't just toss a That's Altogether Too Much Raw Information bomb into the centre of the convo at the drop of a hat. he says so much and i don't need to learn the things he is saying, it's not that it's Bad information it's just that i would like to know less. don't tell me this <3

i like him tho i want the best for him i hope he stops doing nfts

#that's too many words but like #a friend kept sending me interviews of this guy like ''whats wrong with your guy'' and so i have discussed this issue previously at Length #he tells u too much abt him. if the question is ''what are some good movies'' you cannot start detailing like.... #your clearest early childhood memories and your difficult relationship with your biological father and how like.... #the guy who introduced you to movies was very kind except you didn't really think about the structure of the story you were telling until #you reached the end and now you're contemplating the inherent ingratitude of childhood and how little you appreciated or #processed the generosity of this person and also your story doesn't have an ending. don't do that to me. go tend cows #finchtalks

[icanseethefuture333]

I am emotionally in shambles 💔

#my vacation is almost over visiting family #we went to the arcade and love story by taylor swift came on #it reminded me of when i was a little girl and how I'd sing my heart out to this #😭 my nephew was the same age as me when the song was released 💔 #we went on a ferris wheel together and it was really special :') 💖 #i hope this can be a good memory for him #a long time i watched the movie uptown girls and so many parts of that movie has been renacted this year for me #I'm 21 I'll be turning 22 like Molly (Brittany Murphy) #i also feel like I have been going through the growing pains of having to grow up after having a traumatic childhood #i guess it'll be my turn next to have a birthday 🥲 #sighhh... getting older is scary but i can see how it can be beautiful sometimes as well #personal

[allmuddy]

saw a thing about comics never expanding on the mental side of rogue’s powers is so real IT IS A WARZONE IN THERE!! the amount of memories and personalities fighting for dominance in her mind is debilitating and she literally has to be on constant guard (unless it’s one of those issues where Charles helps her out) but even then they (as in the people she’s absorbed) are constantly waiting to catch rogue off guard and take control of her body

#not only that but the memory aspect is so important because #she has so many people’s lives it’s hard to tell which one is her own anymore #hard to remember pieces of her childhood because it’s entangled #w hundreds of others #hard to remember what SHE likes and doesn’t like #hard to remember what SHE experienced #and it isn’t only the good things it’s #everyone else’s traumas as well #she’s carrying along w her own #ITS INTENSE

[majestic-salad]

Yeesh looking through the ballet tag seeing multiple pro-ed posts :/

ballet culture is already toxic af sometimes but damn I wish people could keep their thinspo out of there some of us want to enjoy ballet without stimulating self hate and dangerous behaviour

#ballet #tagging just in case #eating disorder #I miss ballet a lot. it sucks that half the tag is fucking thinspo #I'd like to think of the GOOD memories thank youuuu #Nothing from childhood I miss like standing in the wings with my group. itchy tutus. the younger kids starry eyed at your pointe shoes #idk man I'm nostalgic I don't want to see this #it feels like so many people don't want to let go of these standards and are using it to drag themselves and others down. which sucks

[shari-ya]

nothing kicks you back to your childhood like that one sip of orange juice

#just one sip of perfect oj can instantly evoke so many childhood memories for me as if i never actually grew up as if i am still that #happy silly kid running around my childhood home/the airport/supermarket aisle with my father behind me/at the backseat of our old car with #my sister who has been sleeping for a while now and my little brother who keeps babbling something #it's just so very devastating for me i feel like crying every single time #maybe that's one of the reasons why i absolutely LOVE oj #i miss my childhood i miss how good and simple things were back then #i miss it so much #aaaaaa #tags: #orange #orange juice #oj #juice #childhood #back in time #relatable #🍊 #🍊.txt

[vycegrip]

i need to be normal i need to be normal i need to be normal i need to be normal i need to be normal i need to be normal i need to be normal i need to be normal i need to be normal i need to be normal i need to be normal i need to be normal i need to be normal i need to be normal i need to be normal

#ive decided the voices arent real and im a whole person and nothing is wrong and i love remembering my childhood i love feeling like someth #ing really bad happened but not being able to know what it is. i love it. i love knowing what i looked like as a young child. i know i was #left alone way too often with too many people for things to have been a good childhood. i cant remember it but i can feel it in there #i can feel it digging itself through the good memories and corrupting them like a drawing in a compost bin. i feel so fractured #im never fully there or here

[puppyeared]

How about 9 and/or 24 :)

9: tell a story from your childhood

In fourth grade I remember my class got to go on a field trip to a conservation area for our science class I think? It was winter and because I was the smallest the snow was up to my hips. But we were playing this game called Food Chain, all of us were assigned different animals and we had to hide from predators and catch other animals and get food and water stamps from these posts on the trees. I remember feeling really powerful because I got the wolf, all the way at the top of the food chain behind natural disasters, and it was really cool cause I’m the smallest and shyest in my class and they did not expect me to go nuts catching everybody lmao

24: what’s one thing you’re proud of yourself for?

Ummm trying harder these days!! It’s kind of a meh answer, but I’m happy with where I am right now doing a different program and with my job ^^ I’ve been trying this thing recently where you count down from 5 to 0 really quickly before your brain hesitates, so basically taking advantage of my impulsiveness, and it’s worked really well getting me out of bed every day and doing stuff

#AHHH EHHH I kinda blanked on the story from your childhood question so many come to mind but I couldn’t think of a good one shfjgjs #it’s one of my favourite memories tho.. I wish I could go back to those woods sometime it was really nice to visit in the winter #we also got to use snowshoes and hike in the woods!! and we got chocolate and fed chickadees and it was the best #I’d prefer visiting in late autumn or winter when there’s snow over summer. I get there’s more to see in the summer but there’s just smth #really nice about everything in the snow and wearing a warm coat and mittens aaahhhh #ask #ask game #yapping

[musingsofmemory]

“O Captain! My Captain! Our fearful trip is done,

The ship has weather’d every rack, the prize we sought is won.

The port is near, the bells I hear, the people all exalting,

While follow eyes the steady keel, the vessel grim and daring

But O Heart! Heart! Heart!

Oh the bleeding drops of red

Where on the deck my Captain lies

Fallen cold and dead.

O Captain! My Captain! Rise up and hear the bells,

Rise up— for you the flag is flung— for you the bugle trills,

For you bouquets and ribbon’s wreaths— for you the shores a-crowding,

For you they call, the swaying mass, their eager faces turning,

Here Captain! Dear Father!

This arm beneath your head,

It is some dream that on the deck,

You’ve fallen cold and dead.

My Captain does not answer, his lips are pale and still,

My father does not feel my arm, he has no pulse nor will,

The ship is anchor’d safe and sound, it’s voyage closed and done,

From fearful trip, the victor ship, comes in with object won,

Exult, O shores, and ring, O bells!

But I, with mournful tread,

Walk the deck my Captain lies,

Fallen cold and dead.”

-‘O Captain! My Captain’ by Walt Whitman

#in memory of the great Robin Williams #I had to memorize O Captain My Captain years ago in school but now I’ll never remember it without remembering him too #he was a major part of my childhood and I have so much to be grateful for #so many memories #dead poets society #dps #mr. keating #john keating #o captain my captain #mrs. doubtfire #the birdcage #night at the museum #good will hunting #patch adams #jumanji #flubber #hook #here’s to you Mr. Williams #musingsofmemory

[roachfurby]

my dad has been searching for his mothers recipe for goetta his whole adult life and by god i WILL recreate it for him!!! for my papa anything is possible!!!!!

#he deserves so much i love my dad!!!! #he had such a rough childhood n many of his good memories are tied to food he doesnt know how ti make. i want to give this food back to him