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Do you guys remember how I had an idea for an au where Todd’s family is Scottish and he speaks Scots Gaelic?

…..Anderson is a Scottish clan name.

Granted, I’m not sure if they’re a highlands or lowlands clan, and if memory serves only highland clans spoke Scots Gaelic historically

#musingsofmemory #dead poets society #todd anderson #dps #that one au where Todd’s family is Scottish #I will never not project onto Todd.

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In a modern au, one of the poets would eat alphabet soup and when the words somehow form a ghost of a sentence they take a picture, send it to Todd and go “Todd look! Pure poetry in its raw form!” And Todd’s almost immediate response (aside from almost throwing his phone into the wall) is “I’m so tempted to block you right now, friend.”

#musingsofmemory #dead poets society #dps #dps memes #dps fandom #neil perry #todd anderson #charlie dalton #gerard pitts #steven meeks #knox overstreet #Mr. keating #hey guys I’m back kind of maybe

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I haven’t posted DPS in a while (which is even more horrendous considering that this is basically a DPS fan account-) (I don’t regret what I’ve posted but I should also post some DPS)

I don’t have much right now but I will say my friend posted a picture of a poster we saw for Strange Way of Life and tagged Ethan Hawke and he saw it. This was after I had been traumatized by reading certain scenes from the book version of Call Me By Your Name without any warning beforehand whatsoever-

#ethan hawke #strange way of life #the poster looked like a meme

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If anyone is wondering how I’ve been recently due to my inactivity,

I got all four of my wisdom teeth removed today, proceeded to communicate exclusively through sign language for at least 4 hours after waking up and cried an embarrassing amount of times over stupid things.

#life updates #here is a list of all of the times I cried #upon waking up because I thought I was being a burden to the nurse #upon my mom recording a video for my friend in which I only cried and signed ‘I love you’ #upon finding out I wouldn’t be able to brush my teeth #when my cat wouldn’t snuggle with me when I got home #when my mom went to order me a smoothie and I thought I was being a burden #when I remembered how I asked Jesus to hold my hand during the IV insertion and procedure #(I don’t handle needles well because my veins are stubborn so it takes a few tries to get it which hurts) #musingsofmemory

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“I heard the bells on Christmas day

Their old familiar carols play;

In music sweet the words repeat,

‘There’s peace on earth, good will to men.’

I thought how, as the day had come,

The belfries of all Christendom

Had rolled along th’ unbroken song

Of peace on earth, good will to men.

And in despair, I bowed my head:

‘There is no peace on earth,’ I said,

‘For hate is strong, and mocks the song

Of peace on earth, good will to men.’

Then pealed the bells more loud and deep:

‘God is not dead, nor does He sleep,

For Christ is here; His Spirit near

Brings peace on earth, good will to men.’

When men repent and turn from sin

The Prince of Peace then enters in,

And grace imparts within their hearts

His peace on earth, good will to men.

O souls amid earth’s busy strife,

The Word of God is light and life;

Oh, hear His voice, make Him your choice,

Hail peace on earth, good will to men.

Then happy, singing on your way,

Your world will change from night to day;

Your heart will feel the message real,

Of peace on earth, good will to men.”

-I Heard the Bells On Christmas Day by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

#musingsofmemory #poetry #poems #i heard the bells #I Heard the Bells On Christmas Day #Henry Wadsworth Longfellow #christianity #God loves you #Jesus loves you #christian

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I feel like I’m going deaf.

Deaf to the noise.

Deaf to the world.

Deaf to my own common sense,

Deaf.

The TV is nought more than static

I have sight, but do not see anymore

Tunnel vision consumes the corners

Drastic

Tired, I watch in chains.

Bombings, blood soaks the earth and it recoils in return.

Not again.

Not again.

Not again.

The world does not decry the evil.

Do they see???

No. They are blind.

They buy into the noise.

We are eating ourselves alive

From the inside

A parasite.

Make it stop.

I want to see the light

To remember what is true.

But it’s hard. I’m stumbling.

Going against my being,

My mind recoils against me.

It screams.

I am afraid.

#musingsofmemory #vent poem #political poem #poetry #original poem

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Friendly reminder that feeling you’re hurt is part of the healing process. Acknowledging that just because your story is different from someone else’s doesn’t mean you aren’t allowed to be affected by your hurts.

And always remember that Jesus knows your hurt, He cares and will heal, and He has a purpose for your pain. He has beautiful things planned for you.

#musingsofmemory #healing #Jesus heals #God heals #Jesus loves you #God loves you #christianity #mere christianity

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As kind of severely unfortunate as our world may seem, and get, never forget that God is in control. He sees what’s going on, He knows whats happening. Nothing has caught Him by surprise.

That financial struggle you’re going through? He knows. That mental health struggle you’re going through? He knows. That event that threw your life completely “off track”? He knows. That grief, that loss of a loved one? He knows.

No matter what it is you’re going through, God knows.

Not only that, however, God cares. God feels your pain and anguish with you. When you’re hurting, so is He. When you cry, so does He. He sees every tear, and cares about each one. Psalm 56:8 says “thou tellest my wanderings: put thou my tears into thy bottle: are they not in thy book?”

No matter what you’re going through, know that God (who is all powerful, remember) sees. He knows. He cares.

He is in control, He has the victory, and through Him you also have the victory. Remember who fights for you. We are more than conquerors through Him that loved us.

Take heart. Take some deep breaths, allow yourself to feel what you are feeling, and trust in Jesus.

#musingsofmemory #christianity #christian #Jesus loves you #God loves you #Jesus saves #mere christianity

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We suffer for the mistakes of a previous generation…..

And the next generation will suffer for ours.

How much more will they struggle to survive than we?

We will push forth their execution orders just as ours have been pushed forth, years before we were born.

We strive too much, fight too much, pointing the fingers to each other instead of striving for betterment.

Whatever change is spoken of, it is all talk. Mindless, empty chatter to fill the silence that we somehow think is worse than the growing pains of a better tomorrow.

#musingsofmemory #poems #poetry #vent poem #political poetry #it’s an endless cycle that no one seems to care enough to break.

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“Tell me every terrible thing you ever did, and let me love you anyway.”

Though its a quote from dear Edgar Allan Poe, it reminds me so much of Jesus.

“But God commandeth His love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.” -Romans 5:8

God knows all of our sins, past present and future and yet He still loves us. He died for our sins, our sins are what nailed Jesus to the cross, and yet still He loves us. He wants to save us. He loves us more than any human on earth ever could. I didn’t realize how my quote in my bio could remind me of Him so much until yesterday, but now it’s such a dear and gentle reminder.

God speaks to us through His word, primarily, and His Holy Spirit, but on occasion He will speak to us through other people.

#musingsofmemory #christianity #Jesus loves you #God loves you

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Mumford and Sons reminds me of dark academia.

#I dont know if its just me but #theyre such a dear band to me #musingsofmemory #dark academia #dark academia aesthetic #mumford and sons

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The hardest part of being a Christian is this: trusting. Waiting. Knowing that God’s will and God’s timing is far better than our own. Believing that He is faithful when we are so used to being betrayed and lied to, being tricked and fooled.

The hardest part of Christianity is trusting that when God says He’ll forgive us, He actually will. That when He says He loves us, He actually does, and in such an intensity no other love could ever compare to. It’s trusting that when He says He will never leave us nor forsake us, He means it.

It’s believing that He loves us more than our partners. More than our closest friends. More than our parents could ever hope to love us and more than we could ever hope to love our own children.

The hardest part of Christianity is, in the simplest of words, stepping out in faith and trusting God to be faithful and keep His word. But the rewards are many, because once you take that final step off of the cliff’s edge, off of the safety of land, only then will you find out that yes, He can, yes, He does and yes, He will. Because it’s who He is.

#musingsofmemory #christianity #christian faith #Jesus loves you #God loves you #step out in faith #when C.S. Lewis said that Christianity is not a religion for the comfortable he wasn’t wrong #Christianity is a religion that will make you so uncomfortable that you forget what comfortable was like. #but in the best way possible because you know that God is with you and for you #and that whatever change regardless of how uncomfortable is going to better you and grow you and bring you closer to Christ.

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“For in much wisdom is much grief: and he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow.” -Eclesiastes 1:18 (KJV)

Ignorance really is bliss, huh.

#King Solomon REALLY got it. #Scripture will always be relevant. #musingsofmemory #I’m not calling myself wise nor am I saying I have much knowledge #but from an overthinker’s standpoint… yeah.

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If you can't tell already, I'm a huge fan 🥹🫶🏽

Oh, thank you so much, dear. I really appreciate that,

#yeah waking up to notifications from here is always so nice #because it means people like some of the stuff I’ve made #and it makes me very glad to make things people enjoy #or that make people think #so yeah- #I hope that doesnt make me spind selfish or arrogant because thats not at all the intention-

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I hold onto your memory

Somewhere within my heart

Within the music and songs

Ill find you there, I know it

There will always be a part

Of me that always wants to hold on

Fading now as you may be

You’ll be there, in my heart

And I wont allow it to move on

#poem I wrote for a guy I saw at a concert momths ago #he’s still in my brain #musingsofmemory #poems #poetry #I haven’t posted in a while so have this short blurb

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The Wait

Are we crying

For an answer

As we leave our dreams dancing in an empty room

An empty hall

With glittering mirrors on ceilings tall

And to think

That for a moment

We dropped our guns and danced together

With blushing hearts

Which tore more quickly apart

We are parchment, we are paper cutouts of ghosts.

I reach out

Towards the night

The stars which shine above in heaven beyond my grasp

A pale memory

Of a place I have yet to see

And I ponder

And wait

And drag my mind along on a useless tether

To bring it to peace

To rest at last knowing you played a part

In me

We played a part

Together, our matinee

Of the grand production that would burn the theater

In ashes we lay

In rubble, I will lay my laurels on the mosaics again

Were they ever mine to begin with.

And so I wait.

In silence, in darkness, in stillness,

I wait.

Calling into the unknown.

I am calling to you.

#musingsofmemory #poems #poetry #notes app poems #The Wait

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