#so i had covid all last week

[jamlabs]

I just realized while walking into work today that my entire young adult life has been during COVID. The pandemic has almost lasted 4 years. Some of my old classmates have never seen my face (I never stopped masking in the classroom and always ate outside when I could). My boss caught COVID last week. This has been happening for four years. I'm one of the only people I know who still wears a mask at the grocery store and is up to date on vaccinations. Almost four years ago I went home for spring break and never went back to school. I don't know. It just doesn't feel real

#j.txt #COVID #<- tagged for people who may have it blacklisted #idk i just. i was always so careful and am still so careful #ive never caught jt #my boss caught covid last week so we all had to work from home #it just feels so weird. idk. i can't explain it

[dollsome-does-tumblr]

our health is important! and precarious! let’s keep masking in public and not going out to spread germs when we’re sick! please!!!!!

#this post brought to you by: #had some relatives knowingly come over sick last weekend and now our entire extended family is crumbing into coughs and fever and vomiting #(i tried to fight for sick people not coming over. it was overruled. don’t you know it’s 2024 and people don’t get really sick anymore? 😩) #i haven’t gotten sick yet but there’s no way i am not gonna #and i am not looking forward to my impending long dark night of the soul; it sounds so so bad. #anyway: wish I could say this to my extended family but I’m too conflict-avoidant! #so I’m saying it to the blue abyss instead! #😷😷😷😷😷😷 #MASK UP! TAKE PRECAUTIONS! NURTURE YOUR HEALTH! IT’S NEVER GUARANTEED! #dollsome's deep thoughts #and now to try to put all of next week’s work online because no way am i spreading this evil … #idk if this is covid but like. you can actually mask to help avoid all contagious illnesses! 🤯 #god i really struggle with coexisting w/ my fellow humans sometimes #why does everyone else so consistently not give a crap

[hxhhasmysoul]

wouldn't it be nice if the author of the fics finished them. the author is me.

#vent #for the last 4 months my life has been in stupid crisis mode #like constantly #from major ones where i had to move out for a while because it was impossible to stay where i lived #to not being able to use my kitchen for over a week #and like other more or less minor house related stuff that made it impossible for me to use something normally #not a single week without something like that or shit at work which is constantly being so fucking chaotic #and now someone died in my family #not someone very close but i liked them #and of course like feeling sad that they are gone can't be the only thing #because it has to come with the headache of i need to travel for their funeral and it's just before easter #so there's no one in this city to leave my dog with #because most of my friends either live abroad or have cats or are busy before easter.. #i'd just want a week where nothing happens #and like the writing is weighing heavy on me #because i miss it #also i wish i could finish something #i wish something good would happen that i could feel proud off #also because i'm mentally ill and fucking stupid when i was going crazy with my kitchen not working and work shit #i bought new furniture #because after 15 years i've finally had enough money to buy some that aren't fucking black and inconvenient and ugly #which is like a huge project and a crisis i brought onto myself #just because i was too burnt out to write #and i wanted something nice to happen to me #like a nice living space that doesn't make feel like i have no ownership over it because everything in it was some else's choice #and that old furniture was bought by my mother and my brother ages ago and it's handmedowns #and my fucking horrible mother feels personally slighted that i want to get rid of a bed that is broken #because my brother's kids jumped on it regularly when they used to visit pre covid #yeah it's been broken that long because i lost all my savings during covid and had to change careers to a souless pointless corpo job #long pathetic whine and overshare over

[willowfey]

starting to think maybe waking up with an anxiety stomachache every single morning and then needing to spend the entire day trying to get rid of said anxiety just to maybe have a few minutes in the evening of feeling relaxed before going to bed is perhaps not normal

#the first thing i do when i become conscious is check my phone to make sure nothing terrible happened to anyone i love while i slept #i never ever ever have plans and if anyone Else has plans i feel sick with anxiety until they’re back from them #if i have smth planned that week i feel completely tense and on edge until it happens #i didn’t used to be like this i hate hate hate it #i used to feel safe in my little house in the forest where i knew everyone in town and knew my way around with my eyes shut #it’s still the only place in the world i feel safe. that’s so unfair #my separation anxiety is ridiculous. if my mom goes to the store and doesn’t answer a text right away i start panicking #if my sister goes to a class or smth idk what to do with myself until she gets back #if i’m in the shower or have the fan on or headphones in suddenly i’ll think i hear someone shouting and i’ll have to quickly turn it off #ever since i moved here it’s been getting worse. i don’t feel safe here to begin with i feel so out of place it’s unreal #but then covid and trauma with my mother’s health and my uncle dying and multiple relatives getting sick and things happening to my friends #i know i have ptsd from very specific things that happened and i live on a hospital path so every day i hear sirens #and every time i do it fully triggers an anxiety attack in me for at least an hour. and my mom too #since being here my hometown burned and friends i thought would never grow apart did and my brother moved out #i know a lot of that is just Being In Your Low Twenties but also some of my worst trauma has happened in the last handful of years and now #now i’m just always scared. always uneasy. always worried. never fully relaxed. never feel fully safe. & idk how to be myself through that #i’m always paranoid and i never trust people irl anymore. ppl my mom or sister meet. i am so suspicious of them constantly. #if anything small changes at all i can’t handle it. my ability to deal with change has gone so downhill #in the last 5 years of being here i realised i was autistic which led to me unmasking a bit and that. comes with pros & cons doesn’t it #my own health has declined. my body changed a lot in ways i wasn’t prepared for and i had to get rid of most of my comfort clothes #sometimes i just wanna sit on the ground and cry about it and not have to also be the one that picks myself back up. y’know??? #but at the very least i’d love to just wake up One Day w/o feeling sick with anxiety already. just one day i want to wake up feeling rested #i want to be myself again but can i start with not being scared? not being tired? i don’t know what to do anymore #i just watch my comfort videos and read my comfort fics and stay in my daydream world

[compacflt]

tweet from a year ago :) <3

#thanks everyone for a wild year! #when i think about how the 65k first draft of wwgattai was written in exactly 14 days all the plot issues make a lot more sense #right i was minmaxing/speedrunning storytelling okay i had to cut some corners #DEBRIEFING WAS WRITTEN IN THREE FUCKING DAYS #all my friends got covid over Labor Day weekend so i locked myself in my dorm and wrote all 35k words of debriefing in 72 hours #🤷🏽‍♀️ #praying i will someday be that motivated to uhhh… find a job or smth #But really thank you guys for such a great/crazy year and all of your support #❤️❤️❤️ #can’t come up with words for how much i have loved being here over the last year #such a wonderful experience #i am very strangely obsessed with anniversaries etc so if i spend the next couple weeks gushing i apologize

[adelaidedrubman]

also i think i am having a bad allergic reaction to the mold in my office. there’s mold in my office btw

#their solution was to clean the carpets and talking about hiring pros to come in and clean the walls #then sending out an email about how taking everything off the walls would too hard. #but there’s lysol wipes in the hall if you’d like to clean them yourself #anyways i started getting a really bad cough and a little congestion last week. #also had a covid exposure at the office so i was freaking + testing like crazy bc i was getting respiratory symptoms + mildly elevated temp #all negative‚ requested an extra remote day just to be safe. cough went away and i felt much better after a few days. figured it was a cold. #worked my first full day in the office again today and the cough is mysteriously back and worse. #now i’m no doctor house but — #ig my next move is getting tested for mold allergy? #and if i have to submit an ada request to have Working In A Place With No Mold be granted as a reasonable accommodation. #that will legitimately be the funniest thing ive ever done. #there is everyone’s too much personal detail liz update of the day We Live in A Society

[stars-inthe-sky]

UGH.

#went on my first real work trip in FOUR YEARS yesterday. had one meeting. #woke up this morning and was getting ready for a day of stuff with another one tomorrow #only to find out that one of the only five other people in the wednesday meeting just tested positive for covid #and another had found out she'd been separately exposed as well #so today turned into doing all my meetings on zoom and rearranging travel plans #and now instead of a professional thing i'd been really looking forward to and then a fun weekend add-on with the fam #i'm flying home late tonight to isolate in our third-floor guest room while boyfriend parents etc. #at least we got credit for his and bébé's last-minute flight cancellations #and we decided to leave the dog with the sitter that had already been arranged to just have one less thing on the collective plate for now #but UGH #and what's extra infuriating is that i am probably fine. i got boosted just a few weeks ago and wasn't like hugging anyone or whatever. #but you just don't know and when there's an actual case it's reason to be actually careful #and i'm just so exhausted and bummed about a lot of things already and had so been looking forward to this whole trip #best laid plans #as they say #anyway cross your fingers for me and the battery of rapid tests i'll be taking this weekend #and in addition to staying negative i'm also very concerned about whether anyone will be comfortable will me at thanksgiving #so that's a whole other thing #UGHHHHHHH #fucking #coronavirus

[janiedean]

will get to all your lovely replies asap but for now let me get down the mood with my usual

fuck but i really do hate this month and everything it represents or better the fact that each single year it gets just more miserable

#i’m sorry fuck i wish i liked christmas i do #but i haven’t felt anything close to enjoyment of the period since what was it right ten exact years #every single fucking one of them it just got MORE fucking depressing #we dont talk about covid times because god i wish i could delete them from my existence #two years ago it was just depressing af #last year for a miracle it was halfway okay and hey managed to spend one with the grandmother for once #except she died three months later and this one it will be….. meh but the rest of the month has been a total nervewreck already #but of course EVERYWHERE around you is like JOYOUS TIME EVERYONE IS HAPPY SEASON OF MAGIC #as it is i’mma have to do half of the presents in january ffs #ah right forgot today was the anniversary of the other grandmother dying #and the entire first week is anniversary of 2020 nervous wreck of doom so hey that’s all fine #yeah that happened no i had no plans to mention it good luck to me wanting to move over that specific instance ig #i just wanna stop feeling stuck in being miserable until december 26th arrives and i can hope to get my shit under control the year after #yeah sorry for the pity party i’m just not feeling great whatsoever add feeling totally useless to the list and here we are #i’mma just go catch up on replies now just god now i feel like crap bc the moment i opened the app i just vomited out negativity g r e a t #personal for ts #janie rants

[soulaans]

covid has had me so.. paranoid as of late and rightfully so but it's gotten to the point that even thinking about it for a few minutes makes me break down and just cry.... i'm terrified to be around my own family at home bc i know they do not mask in public and i have no clue who or what they could have come in contact with outside

#my sister had covid literally last year and it put her in the emergency room for a week and half... #AND THEY STILL DON'T CARE #i wear my mask all the time but it seems so pointless if the people i come home to are the ones i could catch it from

[valyrfia]

anyone else incapable of listening to the music they listened to in 2020-2022? i have talked to enough people that this seems to be a common denominator among many of us and is such a sign of how deeply traumatic it was to live through a global pandemic

#it's a trauma we don't speak about either and we should....no wonder we're all tired and anxious! #we were just expected to go back to normal and how can we #for context glass animals were my top artist for 2020 and 2021 and i just......never listen to them anymore. i physically can't. #i heard a song of theirs played in a bar last week and had a physically bad reaction to it #for no reason! i still think their music is great and it's the kind of psychedelic pop i like #but i associate it so strongly with covid and lockdowns that it makes me shiver like someone's walked over my grave

[barksbog]

sorry for having been quiet/slow with fulfilling orders.

i got really sick in the middle of renovating my bed/living room and it was a rough few weeks of sleeping on my broken couch and working to get this room liveable again as fast as my health allowed

i'm healthy again tho and the room is overall done so i will get back to work on Tuesday!

#picking up a puppy on Monday (: #like actual dog puppy #so excited #but the last weeks were really hard #my mom helped me a lot but she got sick too #my brothers goes out into clubs a lot and brought home Something that gave us all horrible bronchitis #covid tests were all negative at least #but i had to get an inhaler because for a week i straight up couldn't breathe

[jukeboxhound]

Our usual angel wouldn't stay upright on the tree, so Dad and I found an alternative.

Other options from my childhood Beanie Baby hoard included a snake and a penguin in a Santa hat. Unfortunately, Dad wasn't as entertained as I was by the thought of using a serpent to top a Christmas tree.

#christmas #hound barks #beanie babies #i've had covid for the last two weeks so i never actually got to spend christmas with my father :/ #making up for lost time now #he made fun of me for the beanie baby having a tag protector and i'm like first of all #ALL my beanie babies have tag protectors i'm not IRRESPONSIBLE #second of all tell me more about the lengths you go to for your train collection SIR

[danielnelsen]

always fun to remind myself of the side effects of my thyroid meds

#the first time i treated my thyroid my endo was like ‘i havent had a patient who had this happen for a while so im due for one’ THANKS MAN #personal #im just waiting for it to hurry up and work. my health has PLUMMETED in the last week or so #im so sick and i can’t DO ANYTHING. including SLEEP. even if i was getting enough good sleep i was be exhausted but i’m not so. #the energy’s doing Great #and i’m so hungry all the time but also nauseous so all food is unappealing #genuinely have no idea how i made it through years 7-10 undiagnosed. no wonder i ended up with such a severe phobia of going to bed???????? #i don’t have to worry about routine right now so it’s not as stressful (just horrible because i’m so tired) but i COULDNT SLEEP back then #im just relieved that this time it was found through a routine check rather than me getting a test because of symptoms #usually i test when my anxiety gets really bad in a specific way #but my anxiety isn’t bad this time. no panic attacks and also no migraines. those are all usually the worst to deal with #so comparatively this isn’t even a particularly bad episode?/relapse?/flare? #still more sick than i’ve been in……..years? #im not sure if covid was better or worse. but it was only really bad for a week #this’ll be worse overall because it’ll last a lot longer #hopefully only a month or two but that’s still a few months of my life that just vanish. cool!!!!!!!!!!! #and there wasn’t even a notable event to trigger it this time. first time was whooping cough and subsequent times have been things like— #starting uni and then the last 2 years of uni where i took 10 units in one year then overworked myself doing my thesis #im SLIGHTLY worried that maybe i’ve developed rheumatoid arthritis and that set it off because it’s also autoimmune #i should see my gp soon to get a general antibody test. my joint have been so bad it’s been hard to walk for quite a few months #idk man it all sucks. but for now at least i have my white blood cells (even if they’re literally the problem lmao)

[hobisexually]

x

#hm its time for a rant again <3 #but my roommate has a date again and that makes me feel…….. extra mentally ill snsnsnsn #I’m a little bit upset because I spent this entire year trying to rebuild right. rebuild my social life rebuild the me I used to be #and every time I think I’m almost there shit derails me? #like okay first my dad and I. collide in unprecedented ways #then my back problems got worse than ever before #then I try to recover from not speaking to said dad and work throws a blow in my face that I quite frankly still haven’t really gotten over #then new body problems arise! #then we find out I definitely have pcos and can’t ignore it any longer #then everyone in my life is. moving on to a life phase I can’t follow to #but I had it all under control I was taking it in stride I was Coping #and then ……… I catch covid again #and it really triggered 1) my anxiety again in ways that. Sigh #and 2) im still not okay? it’s been three weeks and I’m still dizzy every day I have a headache all the time I am So tired I can’t focus #and my eyes are being weird #and idk that happened in the last week and also my neck is FUCKED and my shoulders feel like concrete #and last time my eyes were weird and I couldn’t focus and had a headache all the time it was also my neck #but I just…….. am 1) terrified it’s long covid I am so so so scared #2) how can I live life normally if this. keeps happening. #but mostly 3) I am so tired of it being blow after blow after blow #I am too generally busy with work or therapy or physio therapy or FUCKING pelvic floor therapy #which is a whole different kind of hell I can’t even begin to discuss on this website it makes me so uncomfortable #that I. can’t even date. #like where do I have the energy to. #I am about to turn 32 and what the fuck do I have to show for it #and what if this is it #what if? this is it?????!!???! #I don’t know if I can live with that #ugh this doesn’t even touch the root of it but I am Deeply Upset and I don’t like complaining or acting like a victim (im not!) but Jesus #I for once would just like to. be carefree. instead of feeling like I need to fix 29292993 things about myself before I can Live. fuck.

[thegreatbeyondmp3]

bro it sucks so much to have to go to work when you're sick

#i dont wanna go but literally if i miss another day they could fire me 😬 #i don't have covid at least according to the home tests but like. i still have a cold or something #and i can't call out because our time is so restricted #and its not even the worst attendance policy i know of but it still sucks to have to work around #esp coming from my last job where i could take off literally as much time as i needed to basically whenever i needed/wanted to #added on top of the fact that i just don't want to fuckin be there anyway #and that im scared im gonna pick up covid bc my immune system is currently weakened #ugh. i have to get through tomorrow and the next day #and then im off again #and then im on one more day before im back off again #so i will have a rest day again pretty soon at least #after being off the last three days #(the first was my legit day off but it was very busy and few days before that were the roughest of a tough couple of weeks - #the second i took off bc i had to babysit and. being completely honest. i watched all of fellow travelers thr night before. and esp after #how bad a time id been personally having lately. all the suffering and the loneliness and the romance just hit me so hard #tbh i just felt like i deserved a break and i could do some work at home to balance things out - #third day i woke up feeling sick and coughing pretty hard and just feeling generally miserable. which continued for most of the day. #but with less coughing until now bc im laying down) #i just wish i could take an extra day or two to actually kick this 😭 #sorry this is so long i can get locquacious when im tired

[catboywizard]

this last week-ish has been just so awful and i’m so fucking tired

#i have therapy later today and i have no idea how ill be able to talk about everything i need to talk about #usually one hour a week is too much time #but they had covid last week so we didn’t have it #and i’ve got 2 really big things i need to talk about #i’m so tired #at least i can look forward to birthday gift shopping for my mom #and getting dinner from one of my favorite places #but it all just feels so hollow right now #op #random thoughts