#so fucking overwhelmed

[mysecretboringlife]

what if you work so fucking hard and still cannot achieve your goals. Then what?

After everyone being so sure that you'll make it, what if you don't? what if you are too overwhelmed that you cannot function anymore but you dont even have time to take another breath and calm down?

What is wrong with the (spanish) educational system that every high school senior (2º bach) is stressed to the limit and considers it normal, bc its the last year, there is a lot of pressure with the exam to enter university (ebau) that will literally determine your entire life that its considered normal to be emotionally unwell and overwhelmed every fucking day of the school year.

#stress #school #high school #ebau #evau #senior #2º bach #university #educational system #overwhelmed #so fucking overwhelmed #and so fucking tired

[imblocking-you]

Im so burnt out and unhappy it's insane

#just cant be an okay amount of anything #im so fucking tired #so fucking annoyed #so fucking overwhelmed #why cant i fix me

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

going through my old journals as part of therapy homework and i'm reading a section written in the emotional wreckage of a full-on breakdown when i get hit with this line:

There is never a satisfying answer to ‘Why didn’t they love me?’

like wow babe. good fucking point

#like you were on the ground biting the carpet and dry sobbing while you wrote that and still. good fucking point #not a shitpost #cptsd #and it's true. there's never a satisfying answer #the truth is i know why i wasn't loved #i analyzed my parent's traumas and abuse to death. i understand why i alienated and was alienated from my siblings #i know why my mom was too overwhelmed to be capable of nurturing #i know why my dad vanished into addiction and avoidance #the details of our cycles of trauma and cptsd and family history i have a phd in all of it #i understood perfectly. i spent years studying and now i knew the answer #and guess what? IT WAS NOT SATISFYING!!! #because they still didn't love me! and i still couldn't change that! #it was still a completely unsatisfying state of affairs! #so like. when the people who are supposed to love you...don't. #when the people who are supposed to take care of you...fail to #you can look for answers and reasons and explanations #but that's not actually going to FIX your situation. #and it's probably not within your ability TO fix the situation. (and definitely not your job) #because you don't need answers--you need a new situation #*inserts Just Walk Out. You Can Leave!!! (Running Skeleton) Meme* #and yes. walking out isn't always possible. #but for you i hope it will be one day soon. and i hope you build the courage to take that leap. #stepping away from the people who failed to love you...it feels like being untethered but also like being lighter than air #new and scary. immensely relieving. the future opens up. empty but empty like a canvas. blindingly bright until your eyes adjust #like climbing out of a pit you called home and for the first time realizing how bright the light of day can truly be #when you aren't just getting glimpses from the bottom of a hole

[modjisan]

happy birthday shigaraki my beloved!

#WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING #I DID HOT HAVE A GOOD MORNING #i also have so many wips with tomura it’s really overwhelming #oh man #anyway #mha #bnha #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #shigaraki tomura #mha shigaraki #tenko shimura #dabi #touya todoroki #twice #toga himiko

[nyxofdemons]

THE WAY THAT THEY INVENTED ROMANCE WITH THIS SONG???? HELLO?????

#'i don't know why you waste your time on me' 'baby; all i got is time!' OH MY *GOD* #WHY IS THAT THE MOST ROMANTIC THING THATS EVER HAPPENED #im screaming and crying knowing no one else will ever have what they do #like i am so serious ive never REALLY cried at this show before but this song got me so bad #theyre so fucking cute. im going to lay on the floor and be overwhelmed by yearning #mine #fave #<- yes im tagging my own posts w this #helluva boss #helluva boss spoilers #fizzarolli #asmodeus #fizzmodeus #helluva boss fizzarolli #fizzarolli helluva boss #asmodeus helluva boss #helluva boss asmodeus #e: mammon's magnificent musical mid-season special

[skrmbrks]

i wish for peace in our lifetime, i wish for love to seep into every crack of this planet, i wish for it to penetrate every heart and soul. i wish for brutality to face its end, i wish for evil to turn to light. i wish for us to create such a place where cruelty cannot resurface. i wish for communities without borders, i wish for human and nature to be reunited by love and protect each other.

#kayramblies #hopeposting #hopepunk #ive been feeling very overwhelmed as of late #the state of the world will only get worse before jt gets better #despite knowing that we must stay hopeful #because only that will be the solution #its so... hard watching all the hate thrive #all the suffering increase #its so fucking overwhelming : ( #i really hope we can live in a world where evil cannot reign #late night rambles #i guess

[pulsingvoid]

not negating anybody's experience i know black sails is outstanding regardless of how or when or how quickly you watch it. but also, as a gay person who watched it in real time, you really had to be there. they introduce anne bonny and you know your pirate history so you KNOW she's a girlliker. she has a moment with max but youre not sure where it's gonna go. because it's 2014. you wait over a year for 2x01 and she and max fucking obliterate you with the sword drop kiss scene. all anybody is talking about in the tags is vaneeleanor. a few weeks later 2.05 drops and flint is not only textually gay and kissing a man but he is waging war on england, on all of civilization for taking away his male lover. you find this out after investing fourteen hours on this show that have spanned over a year and a half in your real life. not to mention the miranda stuff and silver's arc and mr scott and madi and the death march that seasons 3 and 4 feel like when you have no inkling of how it's gonna end. but you stick with it regardless because it's good and besides it's 2014-2017 and the only genre show with gay people in it is fucking... the 100? lol anyway. more gay people flock to black sails between seasons and the tag becomes more about the gay shit than vaneeleanor, thank fucking god, finally. you all dread the last season. you brace yourselves for the worst. you thank the stars this show airs weekly because watching even just two episodes together is too overwhelming. 4.08 airs. you cry. 4.09 airs. you cry. 4.10 airs. your life will never be the same. you cry so hard you catch a fever and have to stay in bed all week to recuperate. you know this was a once in a lifetime experience never to be repeated again but you can't help but hold every other show to this impossible standard.

#black sails #i cherish this experience so much #i never rewatched. i had seen each episode exactly once shortly after it aired and never revisited it because it was so dense #and unique and overwhelming #i never rewatched‚ that is‚ until i showed it to my girlfriend #and not to be a wifeguy but it was such a special experience rivaled only by the winter she sat me down and showed me all of twin peaks #watching with someone you Love that Gets storytelling the exact same way you do comes with its own warmth and excitement #the only way to follow up my real time fucking odyssey with this show #i moved CONTINENTS between seasons.

[midnight-moth]

THEY WERE HOLDING OUT ON US! THERE WERE MORE PUPPY PICTURES. Credit to the lovely motley zoo animal rescue IG who really just blessed us all. Also I hope A Nameless Ghoul is getting all the treats and cuddles and partying with Satan right now 😭😭

#I have to go hide in the closet and cry from overwhelming cute #CMLS looks so unimpressed with Phantom #she’s like what the god damn fucking hell I need a nap #I’m going to puke on this motherfucker in lkke 3 seconds #sorry Phantom #she loves Dew more #I know both of their sets of goggles are fogged with tears #nameless ghouls #the band ghost #dewdrop ghoul #phantom ghoul #aeon ghoul

[stil-lindigo]

LINK

Israel immediately broke the ceasefire by the way.

#I saw someone say that all a four day ceasefire meant was that Israel was about to drop four days worth of bombs #here’s a reminder that 100 palestinian children are murdered by Israel every day #I saw a video on twitter of a young boy bleeding out on a hospital floor bc there was nothing thst could be done #I just had to stop and close my eyes and fucking. internalize that #Palestinians are human beings #I’m so overwhelmed by the scale of suffering being allowed to continue #fuck this shit so hard #palestine #israel #free palestine

[redrobin-detective]

I finally read the Screaming Staircase book and while it's been fun to compare and contrast it against the 3 episode Netflix arc, there is one book moment that is clearly superior.

At the end of episode, when Skull speaks to Lucy for the first time. Lucy is so overcome by the psychic connection that she full on faints requiring George and Lockwood to carry her upstairs. I'd accepted that until I read the novel in which Lucy hears this gross this ghost man whisper weird shit from within his glass prison about life and death and whatever. And Luce - who'd just run downstairs to grab extra treats for their impromptu celebration - says "nah I'm not dealing with this today" closes the jars speaking valve and leaves.

I will always support Lucy Carlyle being That Crazy Bitch and I love her So Much.

#lockwood and co #its so funny??? #its this big dramatic thing in the netflix series and poor Lucy is totally overwhelmed #whereas in the book she just stares in vague disgust and confusion at this ugly skull making weird faces and speaking nonsense #and is just like Nope I just want donuts #and turns off his tap and fucking walks out casual as can be #this girl!!!! I want to study her like a big also chew on her like a chew toy

[rainbowresurrection]

I understand that Kirk and Spock weren't initially formulated with the specific intention of them becoming a "couple" But WHY DID THEY ACTIVELY MAKE THAT SHIT SO FUCKING ROMANTIC

#what the FUCK #shouting #star Trek #k/s #the Premise #Im a pretty well put together autist but internally I'm the kind that gets so passionate about something #that it overwhelms me and I just want to SHRIEK #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #they did not have to do all the shit that they did with the movies they did NOT #but they DID #it was GAY #the end #sttmp #wrath of khan #star trek iii #etc #kirk/spock #reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee #shits violently

[mwagneto]

legit shaking crying i can't believe they're gay for real like they're gay for REAL like after all these years they're literally gay canonically like they kissed on screen on the mouth coz they're gay. like that really happened and there's no taking it back they're canonically gay in that scene and in every other scene also. when they're hanging out they're doing it gayly. when they're calling each other up they're doing it gayly. when they dress like that and act like that it's coz they're gay when crowley's trying to get aziraphale to run away with him it's coz he's in gay love and when aziraphale continuously puts himself in situations where crowley can feel useful it's coz he's in gay love literally everything they do is coz of gay love!!!!!! and that's mine forever!!!!!!!!! after i waited like half my life for it!!!!!!!!!!! oh my fucking god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#MID TYPING THIS POST THE FUCKING GLUE ON MY CEILING LAMP LET GO AND IT DROPPED AND ALMOST HIT ME #GOD RLY SAID PLEASE SHUT THE FUCK UP PLEASE 🙏🙏 nice try bucko i cant be killed #im legit so overwhelmed like unironically i havent moved in aweek they literally kissed on screen. coz they're in love #if anyone needs me im gonna be here. i cannot be anywhere else. #good omens #gomens #aziraphale #crowley #crowley x aziraphale #crowzira #ineffable husbands #whateverrrrrrhdhrudjedjsjdd they're gay fr...

[xamaxenta]

@itsthefandommash aaaangel im so sorry this took me so long i was suckerpunched by the depression this past weekend and i was struggling with literally everything and all basic tasks and its been exhausting and disheartening but i enjoyed the small serotonins in drawing marcoace 🥺❤️ thank you for commissioning me and forcing me to draw two characters together it was rough i definitely need more practice but this is a start

#marcoace #marco x ace #xam doodies #xam commissions #i….may have totally skipped anatomy bc my brain is just wholly unwilling to focus and work #its something and i really want to do so much more #but yikes whatever this bout of depressonesspresso whatever bs fucked me so bad #a sketch is still a sketch and i should learn to love them #what a horrible time to get overwhelmed lol #marco the phoenix #portgas d ace #i like cried twice and then picked up my ipad and did my best #god knows i can do better but thats not rn and im disappointed i cant bring my A game to these comms rn #ajdnakdhdb im gonna shut up now im beinf cringee #ALSO THEY GOT YAOI HANDS

[hamable]

I hope, however the growing Cassandra plot plays out, that she grows the following and appreciation she deserves. Kristen talks with her cleric Professor about a no one wanting a religion based on uncertainty, but I think that could be massively popular??

Like, a divinity based around the idea that there is no grand plan, nothing is preordained. You are born, you enjoy things, and then you pass on, and what you do with that chunk of time is up to you. No, not all your questions will be answered. How could they be? How comfortable are you with not knowing?

I think a lot of people in Solace would like something like that to pray to and rely on and connect with, even if that connection is “idk either, but I hear you.”

#dimension 20 #fhjy #fantasy high junior year #fantasy high #even as a non magical concept it’s like yeah I’d fuck with that #kristen applebees #but then you also get Magic???? bro you have a line out the door of ppl wanting to sign up #the bad kids entire junior year so far has been ugh uh everything is spiraling out of control what’s going on. and they all feel alone in it #gah like literally every time Kristen was getting overwhelmed and ignoring Cassandra it’s like no bb that’s literally what she’s there for

[sad-emo-dip-dye]

He’s not wearing dazais coat anymore im crying

#what the fuck is happening #idk what to think I’m so overwhelmed #bsd #bungo stray dogs #sskk #shin soukoku #bsd spoilers

[milfygerard]

i really feel like tour ended and we just stopped talking about it like. they sang mastas of ravenkroft for multiple shows. gerard rambled about the band thursday and then failed to stomp a printer named stuart to death. ray and gerard kissed. mikey way talked into a microphone. they played fashion statement. gerard covered himself in some sort of oil and wore a muscle shirt. there were 2 seperate poncho nights. one eyed feral cat who brings me dead. fucking. rats. the RATS. exterminator call 210 KL5 RATS. the cityscape. gerard walking over and staring directly into a stagelight while singing "these bright lights are always blinding to me" gerard saying war all the time before mama. gerard having the crowd sing the bridge to mama. gerard pointing to himself during the bridge to mama. frank taking over the moaning during destroya because gerard was making demon sounds with his vocal sound pedals. ray closing out one of the shows with the sexiest solo ever and then dropping the guitar so it fell to around his knees while fist pumping in the tit window shirt. ray toro leaning over to tell gerard something and giving gerard a wet willy. ray toro donwing a half full glass of red wine and using the glass to make some unreal guitar sounds during the end of sleep. ray toro. meta man. gerard having to explain meta man bc some people online thought it mightve been some bizarre form of advertisement? the pancake vid. the mickey mouse pictures. the outfits. when someone lied online and convinced us they played early sunsets. piss and vinegar.

#barry.txt #filth clown and riot grrrl short shorts are great but so much happened #and im missing so much too like it was so overwhelming and we stopped talking abt half of it like lets have a conversation #DEAD. FUCKING. RATS #SWARM #WHAT IS SWARM