#so debilitating that checking email rn makes me nauseated

[thestarlightforge]

I’m trying so hard to hold it together, y’all. But I’m nearing the point of constant travel, social demands, stressful situations and work for such a sustained period with almost no break or personal time—all right after the end of graduate school, keep in mind—that I’m finding it difficult to continue functioning at all. I pulled a muscle in my back from exhaustion last week, but was forced to just keep going. I can barely even sleep anymore. I love my family, I love my jobs. But it’s getting bad, I won’t lie

Update: I love y’all ❤️‍🩹

#I hit a point of exhaustion where I laid down for 2 mins & crashed for 2 hrs #but I was in and out of #nightmares #the entire time #what sleep I’m getting is no longer restful because I have so much stress #currently fighting with a friend and my teacher on top of everything else #social anxiety #so debilitating that checking email rn makes me nauseated #all I want is a day to sit alone and relax and write my fanfiction #or do any individual activity #without being asked to go anywhere #or being fussed at by someone #it wouldn’t totally fix the problem. but it might help #mental illness #mental health #stress #disability #disabled #ableism #cptsd #ptsd #anxiety #social anxiety disorder #generalized anxiety disorder #depression #intrusive thoughts #there are so many problems with #accessibility #boundaries #not all of them are their fault. but the gaps in understanding get exhausting. & I have to insist on more limits even when ppl get mad