#smth of the person they used to be. the person who wanted to make others happy and be praised for it

[puppyeared]

what if i snapped and made an oc carrd

#i mean.... i could #this isnt the first time ive thought of doing it but i drop ocs so easily its not even funny. so idk if itd be worth it #id consider toyhouse or smth but i dont have money lol. right now everythings on artfight but thats more for drawing purposes #what ocs would i even talk abt... i have some standalones like auggie and ocs i think look cool but dont plan on using #but some others have their own stories.. not like a huge thought out plot but something i pick up and twirl around in my head #like luckys whole deal is being a hiking guide who accidentally gets tied up with some werewolves pretending to be a hiking group to eat pp #and then i have the magician rivals. although i kinda wanna tie theirs with the nightguard and thief story ive been cooking. maybe in the #same universe? it would be pretty funny if they lived in the same apartment complex since a couple stories i have in mind revolve around th #its like some sort of omnibus or anthology to me. kicks my feet #and then fan characters like xin ya and sleight who i want to have their own expanded lore and stuff. i think that would be cool #im making crow a powerpoint of xins updated lore but the assignmence are making it hard. hopefully it turns out good though #i have a hard time writing personality and xins is always the hardest bc theyre probably the least like me. i tend to stick to #characters similar to myself to get in their head. but bc their backstory affects their personality so strongly i have to do some thinking #anyway. hopefully i remember this later #yapping #oc #oc talk #ive also been playing neko atsume recently for nostalgia and why did we as a society ever stop playing it. its so chill #you just take pictures of silly little cats and leave them silly little toys and treats. and the music is cute

[whumpshaped]

im just gonna say it. more ppl should embarrass helle. theyre cute when theyre embarrassed. i feel like if u were to play ur cards just right u could scratch them under the chin and make them purr and do whatever u want. metaphorically. but also maybe literally idk

#theres smth in there #smth of the person they used to be. the person who wanted to make others happy and be praised for it #the kid who wanted to make their parents happy and the spouse who wanted to do everything for their wife #the servant who wanted to do well for lady marie so they wouldnt be hurt #the sibling who wanted to be loved by the others and who wanted to make their undeath less miserable #if ur timing is just right and u angle ur comment just right and u say the right words and u get them in the right mood #its there #its still there #u'd meet someone so much less cynical #ugh im so rambly im sleepy #at my beck and call #ambac lore #helle

[astrxealis]

sorry to ffxivlovepost always anyway Man the way the devs & game did so good in making an mc that is Basically a blank-slate for the players, and there's so many opportunities to make your oc However you like but. the game itself adds so much story and character to that blank-slate guy. amazing

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა ffxiv ໒꒱ *·˚ #i think abt this a lot. and also a lot of other ffxiv stuff LMFAO #it's amazing ..... drk is a huge example of this i think #bcs it plays into the guilt and whatnot the wol feels and all that. spectacular #endwalker !!!!! shadowbringers!!! the way the game uses the concept of hope is just always so beautiful and fascinating to me #and yeah bunch of games may have like. mc you create & design but not always can you like. ehvejfhsjf idk how to explain LOL #it is 4 pm i woke up 2 hours ago but priorly woke at 7 am after havingn a rlly. weird sleep. #to which my twin told me 'i wont tell u what time it is' as we went to sleep so it def was Really late #bcs we were going thru re2 and she was also playing games on steam i've been telling her to play #(to which i got her fav characters right and knew fr how'd she'd like the game LMFAO. twins amiright.) #actually that is also smth so fascinating to me bcs. i always have had someone w me in my life. i am literally never alone. #to which what i'm getting at here is Wow... it's like having a sleepover every single day. and i was a kid always sad never to have #sleepovers bcs my parents were strict (they r cool tho!) but i was a kid who wanted to experience all the kid things #but i didn't rlly but that's fine :P i am a grateful person LOL anyway back on track back on black #ffxiv... the game that u are..... #it's the 1st game that rlly actually made me invested in the ocs of others and also make a fully fledged oc that wasn't just originally mine #but for a fandom or something. and also it got me back into writing and Into making poetry and prose so. yeah. #it's amazing how much. oc x canon ???? yeah. ffxiv is so Wow #like eveyrhhting w themis or graha and how u can AAGGGHHH shit w your oc . so many possibilities #and that character. those possibilities. are already in game but also expanded by the player and the fanbade and #idk it's so beautiful to me WHAGHSGDJDH. and yes me saying themis or graha up there is self-indukgent bcs #both of them are so Insane it's so. insane!!!!! i will never forget what happened in abyssos in particular that Broke me #and anabaseios... :)) i cried so much it is almost embarrassing. and wow. asphodelos. wverything w themis just. yeah #anyway graha... self-explanatory if u know..... idk he's the character of all time to me. simply said. but themis is crazy bcs going thru ab #yssos made me think for a bit 'hey themis might be my fav character in ffxiv now' but No but also Wow. wow #kinda cute bcs me and my twin have a thing where she has a certain type of chara she likes and me too #so sometimes. most times. all times. we have our own characters we like anyway but sometimes they overlap but either the case we kinda #lowkey 'segregate???' idk if that is a good word but we do that w our fav characters. so like emet is her fav elidibus is mine. #and that was all the way in arrr alr and we barely knew spoilers so that's kinda crazy! anyway

[dutybcrne]

Kaeya is rather touch averse, cringing away from casual contact people give him under the guise of being distracted or idle movement. He's used to it, the Ragnvindrs and Adenlinde got him used to frequent affectionate physical contact, but it can still be entirely Uncomfortable if he's touched by someone outside those he is close to or someone he's otherwise Allowed to touch him.

#hc; kaeya #//Mentioned before; but am Elaborating on other aspects since Aven get brain juices flowing for this #//Unlike Aven; he's FAR more tolerable of people who touch him unprompted. & more willing to indulge for himself outside his comfort people #//Unless he himself had actively given the indication he doesn't want it; in that case THEN he's likely to anger & retaliate #//But yeah; his response is usually Discomfort & trying to get away from it one way or another. Can tolerate it to appear friendly; sure #//But would rather not want people to touch him so easily. Is decently okay with brief touches tho; like shoulder pats or the like #//Will actively lean into it & encourage further touching ONLY as a means to an end; adjusting any wandering hands only when going too far #//Esp if he can use that like a carrot on a string–if they concede to what he wants; they can touch him more. Maybe MORE than just that too #//He won't initiate any touch unless he deems it Absolutely Necessary; WILL internally scream if they Immediately reciprocate the contact #//Uses it as a 'reward' sometimes; a little pinch of the cheek; a hug; getting right into their space; if he sees they'll react favorably #//Maybe more if they have connection enough; like Huffman or one of his longer-running liaisons. Is p ok w/ sleeping w/ them as reward #//Sometimes he forgets some people don't like that he does this; like Rosie. Tries the tactic to get a favor then Remembers #//Absolutely apologizes; feels mortified when she scrutinizes him for it. Esp since she'd be one of few ppl who KNOWS just how Averse he is #to it in the first place. Him slipping up like that in front of HER is smth he'd STRESS over. She could hold over his head for all he knows #//How can he even joke abt it? Worse if she asks abt his way of doing things or indicate she doesnt Like that he uses himself as bait #//Has absolutely accidentally tried to seduce/bait sb like that who he absolutely should Not have. Like Jean. Ended up playing it off like #a joke between friends; but damn near had a panic attack from the guilt the moment he was safely in his office. bc Jean is SPECIAL to him #could he treat her like THAT? How could he almost let her SEE that side of him? His casual charm and facade are ONE thing #//But him actively doing something like THAT; esp for Jean of all people; is COMPLETELY off-limits; no matter his feelings #//Actually; especially BC he harbors feelings for her. Ppl like Lisa on the other hand; he is VERY comfortable doing this with/to #//She GETS the flirty habit & dishes it back without losing image of him in the way someone he regards at Jean's level possibly could #//And as far as Lisa knows; it's Only a playful habit; not a means to an end. The ones who prolly Know might be certain folks in the church #//But that's just bc he gets frequent checkups after every lil Rendezvous of his. Which is why he's got dirt on Every Single Person There #//Except Barbara; but he absolutely makes SURE she's not the one he's dealing with whenever he goes. Wants to spare her his messes #//Damn; veered a little but it's alright. 'A little'; HA. Nah; my tags are but the cluttered corkboard of my thoughts jhdbfjdf #//Diluc; Addie & Jean are the people he most Fears finding out abt his methods. Doesnt wanna THINK abt how they'd feel/regard him after tha #//Knows for SURE it'd be painful if the way they treat him changes even a SLIGHT. ESP Addie; he can bear the other two; but Addie??? #//Nah; he'd be fucken DEVASTATED. That's the ONE person he knows hold true unwavering unconditional love for him; no matter what #//To do anything to damage that? He'd be so fucken GUTTED. He expects everyone to get fed up with/disdain him at some point. But not HER #//Keeps this shit on the down low by always having dirt on the people he gets Involved with; if not using keeping it up as an incentive

[critterofthenight]

i had such a fun dream, i didn't wanna wake up :c

#my art teacher was a former goddess and she was looking after treasure in the secret room of a church #and i was the only human who could see the other gods so she decided to make me her heir #and she taught me magic and other things and the secret room became my safe space #then one day few of my classmates accidentally got into the room when noone was there and they were gonna start investigating wtf is this #when they tried to leave without raising suspicion they ran into me the art teacher and the priest in the church garden #but we didnt realize that smth was going on so we all started playing some kinda ttrpg set in the middle ages #my classmates talked about how much more fun that era was bc this whole dreams setting was a combination of modern day and the 1800s #we played in the church garden and there was a wishing well next to us #if you looked into it your reflection became the person you wanted to be #the art teacher was sad bc she wanted to look different but i showed her that my reflection was her so she laughed and hugged me #the game was very fun and when we were leaving my former crush was waiting outside of the gates #her new best friend was with her but she smiled at me and caressed my head and i literally purred #we were walking home and she told me that dating apps suck and she doesnt know what to do #i took her hand and told her to forget those assholes bc there are so many people who love her #and the two of us started running through the forest next to the road hand in hand #we looked like two nymphs of the forest and we were laughing and i was sure she loved me #and then i woke up :c #✩‧₊˚

[waywardsalt]

in post-ph specifically a really old idea ive had is that linebeck is extremely, extremely possessive of his coat, but if in a situation where he fears he might actually die, he gives it to the person he trusts to save him, or he gives it to someone he cares about that seems to be on the brink of death

#its not permanent unless he dies. which he doesnt in any of the cases of this happening #at the end of the day its like a symbol of his immense trust and respect for the person and a sign that he really thinks hes not making it #bc otherwise you cannot touch that thing. rn i really only have one scenario with this with link damien and bellum each #link’s is the one where hes afraid the other person will die but hes also afraid hes going to die at that moment its a whole thing #other cases are if he thinks he wont be able to get out of smth without it being damaged or if he just wants it to be safe #theres a bit where he has to be separated from the crew for a bit so he preemptively gives it to damien for safekeeping #generally if linebeck hands his coat to someone its a Bad Sign. something is very wrong #bellum is the only one who understands the gravity of it when he first sees it bc like. hes been in linebecks mind he knows the abstract #idea of how protective linebeck is of it. and he has no idea how to feel the first time linebeck gives it to him. its a warm feeling #with damien its a mixture of terrified and dutiful he understands it as being trusted with it and makes sure to keep it safe #he understands what the coat means to linebeck just not on the same visceral level as bellum. link also has a good idea of how much #linebeck cares about his coat but its filtered through being a slightly mischievous kid whos tried getting to it before. when hes actually #given it or sees linebeck hand it off the first (few) times hes really scared and a bit confused until the idea clicks for him #this is an ooooold idea i think its from back when post ph was mostly going to be a 50 chapter thing using a 50 word challenge list #if anyone remembers those. this shit originates from middle school. the olden days. before damien existed #i like linebecks coat being an item tied to his identity its what he wants its something he finds comfort in its something he made himself #salty talks #post-ph #this might carry over a little to some other aus but these situations dont really happen the same was as they might in post ph

[bunnihearted]

i hate positivity posts bc they just make me angry and bitter that so many other ppl get to have nice experiences but i dont

#'ppl love it when u exercise ur boundaries bc then they know they wont make u uncomfortable' #HAHAHAHHAHAH LMFAOOOOOO #ppl get angry w me if i dare to even express smth the tiniest bit #everyone around me gets upset and mad and distance themselves from me if i dare just trying to say how i feel #fuck y'all who gets to experience healthy good shit bc i never do im so sick of everyone nd everything #im manipilative if i have emotions!!!!! im a terrible person for feeling upset or mad or hurt!!!!!!!!! i need to shut the fuck up abt #everything i feel or think otherwise i'll always be alone #skksksksksk goddammnittttt i hate to be aware of how great other ppl get to have it #i used to be happy for others but my empathy dies little by little everyday. i've been hollowed out by how much im forced to give but never #recieve. im just so fkn exhausted i just wanna be normal and healthy and i want to be happy but i know that'll never happen for me

[rubberbandballqueen]

since i just rb'd a poll abt high school grades now's probably a good time to drop one of my many million-dollar ideas for how to run a high school classroom, which is that i think that at the start of a quarter/semester kids should be asked if they want hw to count towards their grades or not bc i was So Fucking Bad at submitting hw in high school, but my test scores were really good, so i'd rather have not had hw count towards my grades. but obviously there are a good number of kids who are either bad at taking tests or anxious abt their grades dropping and are diligent abt turning in hw, so letting hw count towards their grades would give them some padding in that situation.

#i really Do need to just maintain a doc of all my ideas for how to run a classroom #bc i've been storing some of these in my brain since i was like 12. that's a fucking decade by this point What the hell #the worm speaks #unfortunately it's probably unfeasible to Not have tests n the like count towards a grade at all #like personally as a student i do not hate testing!! as someone who enjoys gathering data / information i'm kind of obsessed w/it!!! #but i also have very strong opinions on TEST DESIGN as well as curriculum design n stuff #like tests CAN be a useful tool for measuring knowledge! if you design it right. and even then it's like. not perfect #one of my other million dollar ideas is that rather than giving out a final i'd give kids the choice to either do like #a freeform project to demonstrate their knowledge in literally Any Way They Want (foster creativity n stuff) #or! they could also just take a paper exam if they want. idk if anyone would take that option but idk. #mostly i'm just fond of the idea of giving high school students a sense of autonomy over their grades n education #like another reason why i think the 'do you want hw to count to your grades?' question should be re-asked at the start of quarters or w/e #is bc sometimes we also make mistakes! and evaluate consequences wrong. or situations change!! so they should be allowed to change things #how much would hw count for if they made it worth anything is honestly not smth i'm sure abt rn tbh #but i also know that i like. would also not even grade their hw on correctness just on completion anyway #a number of my high school teachers did that; bc the point was that we were responsible for ensuring its correctness #they all knew that kids would copy off each other and if that's how you learn. go for it!! my ap calc teacher openly acknowledged this!!! #anyway good lord i really do have limitless rants n tedtalks abt education in me lmao i need to sleebies now #so i can study for my calc quiz tmrw morning ( •̀ ω •́ )y

[dangaer]

as a lot was discussed yesterday i'll probably get a bit clearer on my shipping rules as im always second guessing if my shipping rules make sense.

my shipping rules are essentially that if we're shipping canon muses, i ask that you don't go ahead with shipping with duplicates. it's something i've had to think about a lot on but it's something i like to keep to. this is also to help conquer peoples fears that they might feel, perhaps, part of a shipping pile.

i do, however, do ship exclusivity (aka where i close my muse off to just one sole ship), but only when this is returned. on this blog, it's shin who is singleship and therefore i won't be pursuing any romantic dynamics, but i am always open if there is one or two other muses that you might wish to be closed off on.

i also extend the reminder that if you ever, ever want to back out of a ship that is completely a-okay! just let me know so i can make the appropriate changes. my ships mean a lot to me in general, but it pales in comparison to the idea of my partner being uncomfortable with proceeding with something further.

#❛ 𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒 ⧽ — ooc. #love my dupes and none of us should feel like the other person. and no one should feel like theyre shipping fodder either. i dont want that #for my blogs! #generally for things like scs i even have habits in checking out who my partners have interacted with so i can give you smth new but also #not to make anyone feel uncomfy with an interaction #when i ship smth i go ott in my head but im trying to learn how to communicate that better. otherwise ill go on and on about it to myself #and just. not come off as great FHDJSSAHD #anyway its as ive said before. ur comfort first but also ships are important to me in the sense #i want to give realistic and fun dynamics that people get excited to see around. i hope ive managed to make my partners feel that way #but we are still on that journey!!

[guideaus]

ohhh my god, i forgot about this

#personal #im still thinking abt comparing shima and vash 🤔 #ive thought abt them and they both are averse to conflict but for different reasons. and diff reasons for self loathing. #my boy shima has low emotional intelligence and is a people pleaser. he'll do what other ppl expect of him. he wants (?) to fill his role #BUT he still wont like it. mitsumi listened to a rumor abt him and he silently got pissed abt it and avoided saying why. he compared #himself to a nazi soldier bc he hates his inability to change/be decisive/commit to improving himself #from ch 10 to almost where the series is at rn he's still struggling w that. he prioritizes how he's perceived over anything else. #how likable he is is how much hes worth. he doesnt think hes allowed to be happy otherwise #shima also doesnt believe himself (?) when hes kind. he claims he doesnt really care. even when acting to make someone happier is #good enough evidence probably that theyre kind lol. if ur actually shitty u wouldnt do smth #while vash has the uwu puppydog babygirl vibe as much more of a strategic way to ease tensions. hes also performative in his role of #human typhoon and his rep. he doesnt like it ofc but chooses to use it in regards to others. while alone he might be full on suicidal #and trigun is ofc an action sci-fi but if u replace the ppl vash has unintentionally hurt w 'disappointed' (to be relevant to shima's pov) #its similar. tho the twin in trigun are meant to be hypocritical. vash specifically imagines second chances/love&peace for everyone but him #and goes out of his way to imagine rem (his mother!! who he idolizes) being disappointed w him if he does make a mistake #how trimax ends also kinda skips past his personal development concerning his perception and unintentionally (imo) uses him as a tool to #end the story #sorry i wrote an essay in the tags FHSDFHJSD

[biandanxious18]

i just finished good omens season 2 and honestly i feel betrayed. i was really enjoying it but after the last episode or so i think i have never before seen such cheapening of characters and plots and themes and just. everything really.

i feel mocked and laughed at as an spectator. i feel like everything i cherished, everything that was meaningful about this story was thrown away in a way that says i was a fool for ever wanting it, ever caring about it. in a way that says “isn’t this what you wanted? have it your way! it sucks!”

#i was honestly enjoying it like it felt like it was fan service done out of care and love #cause i always had the impression neil gayman… liked the fan base? #and now to me it feels like he’s angry at us or smth lol #the cheapening of crowley and aziraphale in every possible way through gabriel and beelzebub #it means nothing that they choose each other it means nothing that they are their own side #it means nothing that the wanted to RUN AWAY INTO THE STARS TOGETHER #crowley and aziraphale aren’t star crossed they aren’t special they aren’t a loved weaved into destiny or capable of changing the universe #that’s what this season told me #and that i was a sucker for ever thinking it #also maggie and nina like it felt like that talk to crowley was directed at me #at the audience #as in calling me ridiculous for ever wanting them to be together #and then when you take the overflowing queer couples in the side lines #which of course as a queer person i noticed and cherished #now makes me feel like it was making a mockery out of it #and i’m not even gonna get into the kids and the i forgive you which honestly made me feel hurt cause what did you do a new season for #if it’s gonna be like this #idc if me and my friend who i watched with are the only people who feel this way and maybe everyone else loved it but yeah #good omens #good omens season 2

[orcelito]

With gay moon post approaching 600 notes (600 notes... 😥) I have had a few realizations

1: not everyone shares the same observations that I do. Which I say just bc I was IMMEDIATELY struck by the framing of Vash with the moon in that one panel the first time I saw it, but I've had a number of ppl mention they hadn't noticed it

Which leads into 2: the reason that post has so many notes is bc pointing out moments like that holds value to people. Plus I guess my commentary & conclusions? Plus acting as something for people to bounce their own ideas off of.

And then 3: there are probably more moments I could explore in such a way, & that could hold value to people

#speculation nation #im thinking about this a bit too matter of fact probably. but im just trying to make it make sense to myself lol #bc it doesnt FEEL like a post that should be approaching 600 notes to me #im just like. i was just saying some thoughts about things i thought other ppl also noticed #mostly a 'hey isnt this cool?' kinda post. which it is for a lot of ppl. and then there r more ppl who are like. enlightened lol #i have ALSO learned that if i have a post i put out there like this. i should uh. plan for the possibility of it blowing up. #aka i should thoroughly think thru it instead of spitballing it out & having ppl comment things i shouldve included #also possibly do IDs? with the post reaching a wider audience that sure is smth that could matter to some #i havent bothered for my personal posts bc like. idk ive never had anyone in my personal circle of followers mention it being necessary #and i probably still wont for dumb offhanded images lol. but for my analysis posts. probably would be good to do. #I Have Learned to not put things out there if i wouldn't want it to blow up in the state it's in hfkshdj #aka. Baby's First Kinda Big Post. #ultimately not that big compared to other ppl's stuff (right now 😥😥😥😥) but bigger than Aaaanything ive ever had #id been hiding with searches off for Years. and prior to that i didnt post anything of value anyways. #in terms of like. fandom stuff lol. mostly just my rambles & live reactions to things #WHICH SOME PPL HAVE BEEN INTERACTING WITH MY REACTION POSTS... most hilarious being the times i was inconsolable #after reading volume 10. like we all get it lol but Lmfao #ultimately i just hope ppl arent expecting perfection with my posts bc im just kinda bullshitting Everything #i have Never had a big blog. only a handful of my fanfic readers ever followed me here. #im used to the attention being on ao3 lol and this just a space for my bullshit #I Will Still Post Bullshit. but i have learned things for any posts i purposefully put in main tag lol #also sorry i keep posting about my post hfkshfj but it's just kinda crazy to me still. i am noooooot used to this.

[supergraphicultramoderngirl]

. sigh.

#met hot neighbor today. it went relatively well #we got along pretty good there were only a couple stalls in the conversation when neither of us could think of a thing to say #but aside from that she was very nice and it was very chill #i have discovered a small problem though and that is no matter how physically/aesthetically attractive she is to me i don’t want to kiss her #like at all #which doesn’t make sense bc i do think she’s attractive and she’s not straight and we got along well so like what’s up with that #but then again i think in my head i’m comparing it to monday night where my best friend who has kissed me before was like all over me #and i wanted her to kiss me again then. just like a little. #except SHE IS FULLY TAKEN NOW. i physically CANNOT do anything abt it. #i have truly fucked myself over with this one #idk maybe i just don’t know hot neighbor well enough yet maybe if i get to know her more and we get comfortable with each other #then i’ll want to kiss her #i think i am learning tho that in order for me to want to kiss someone i need the person to be physically affectionate w me first or smth #in either case. i’m fucked. send help. #mari is irrelevant

[starswallowingsea]

Every single one of those posts that tells people they should at least reblog some of the stuff they like has the replies FILLED with people saying that you can't tell anyone what to do and like. yeah i guess there's always been lurkers on here but like. you realize the people saying this are doing it because they love the culture on this site and don't want to see it taken over by people who refuse to engage with content in a meaningful way.

you don't have to reblog every single thing you like (and hell since reblogs are now something that can be turned off, sometimes you cant) but like. you should reblog some things. whether its memes or fanart or fanfic or informational posts or whatever. you could also try to start a gimmick blog that posts a specific type of content and you can utilize the tags to get out there since plenty of people do check general tags on this site. you can also have side blogs if you want! which can be themed around specific things! this is also a super common thing!

you're new here so you're still feeling things out and trying to get your foot in the door so just start reblogging content and following people. i know some of you are looking to gain a big following really quickly but tbh growth on this site is incredibly slow so you have to be patient and you have to put in the effort to get real people interested in following you, and your reblogs can say a lot about you

#like its so weird to me that some of you are soooooo adamant about not reblogging things like what do you get out of this #if you want to make friends on here people have to think there's a real person behind the url #and being a blank blog is not going to inspire confidence in other users #and i need to reiterate that you dont have to reblog every single thing you see but you should reblog some of it #i get followers sometimes who have reblogs going back like two years but there's only like. 10 reblogs total #which is also something i dont understand unless they have smth somewhere saying #they use a sideblog as their actual main which also happens sometimes #shout out to eri and reede who ik have done this #its just so baffling 2 me conceptually like i get being nervous but u just gotta jump into it #once you start interacting with content you'll find other users who will follow you and interact with you #and then you can make friends and mutuals! #also you dont have to be mutuals w someone to reblog something from them #im mutuals with maybe a fourth of my followers and like 60% of the people i follow im not mutuals with #and i still reblog from non mutuals and my followers who arent mutuals still reblog from me and thats FINE #thats how things SPREAD #tumblr is an active social media site. you have to put in the effort to enjoy your time here #shay speaks #ok2rb

[milflewis]

sometimes i look at my sister and i see all the worst parts of me and it’s not terrible bc i don’t want that for her. which i don’t. but it’s terrible bc she’s doing it wrong

#like. she is showing it Wrong ! #she is taking all this anger and rage at herself and shoving it at everyone around her and making her problem everyone’s problem and smth in #me physically recoils every time lol #like. visceral. smth deep inside me. just. says No <3 with teeth #but this isn’t wrong ! she is fifteen ! this is a child. this is a person. who is angry and in pain and messy and doesn’t know how to deal #with it and is being so v unkind to herself and is going through it by putting this on other ppl and picking fights so the anger can go #somewhere. and this isn’t healthy but holy fuck is it so much better than what i did and just internalised all of that until i couldn’t #speak about it for years lmao #it’s not wrong. it is not. but it feels like it is. my knee jerk reaction is what are you doing. stop. stop! keep that to yourself like the #rest of us. i don’t say this to her obv bc. ofc not. but jesus . yeah . yeah #and so i end up saying nothing to her or the diluted version of the right thing bc i’m so scared to tell her to do it like me which i do Not #want. like at all. she is not me and this is such a good thing #she also has a tendacy to bite the hands that fed her which. doesn’t help lmao #just. needed to get that out #delete later

[princemick-archive]

🌸 do your worst

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mutuals send a 🌸 and I'll compliment you

#I guess ur like nice to me or smth idk #okay no but fr ur dumb but i guess i love ur and I guess ur one of my best friends and I GUESS that the way you get me is really amazing #and that the friendship we have not just us two but the whole lil fam is incredible and so dumb important to me because its genuinly good #and like the way you and others but you make sure to show me you actually like me and want me there and it means so much to have friends #that get it and that dont shame me like god its so dumb but saying shit that id normally get bullied for by friends and yall just like #answering my questions and not even saying anything abt it and not making fun of me for asking things and not knowing things #and having people around me who are willing and want to understand and care is so like surreal but amazing and im so like #i cant really easily put it into words how amazing and surreal it is to have you and the others as friends #yes #also ur dumb and are the only person who lets me talk about f1 irl which fucks SEVERLY #kyle.answers #yukierree #ren