#si's talking now

[nei-ning]

Pharmacy worker, earlier today, also recommended me female doctor's blog. She writes a lot about the lack of iron in woman's blood / body. I've been reading the said blog now a bit, finally coming on symptoms (lack of iron). And guys, holy shit!

Tired, out of strength *

Dizziness / fainting *

Cold fingers and toes *

Muscles get tired, weaker recovery *

Restless feet *

Feeling of lacking air and increased heartbeat *

Difficulties to find words, stutter *

Wounds at the edges of your mouth, stinging on tongue

Stinging on feet

Hands and legs becoming numb

Bleeding and easily bruising *

Hair lost *

Weaker immunity system

Flaking nails *

Dry skin and itching *

Pale skin *

Trembling

"Brain fog" *

Behavioral disorders

Dryness of the eyes

Headache *

Sleep disorders *

Depression, Anxiety *

PICA symptom (the need to eat something which is not made to be eaten) I got 16 out of 24! To be honest, I wouldn't be surprised if I lacked iron. After all in my family we never ate anything else than potatoes, wheat and maybe some sausages. In my adulthood, I'm not eating much better... Blood test in next month will tell me more.

#text #neis life #healthy #lack of iron #raudanpuute #Ilona Ritola #No wonder I've felt like I feel #now I can't get over the thought that maybe I lack iron instead of having an actual depression?? #and now then this makes me think that should I call to my doctor on Monday and talk about this with her? #Make her arrange my blood test sooner? #but it would have to be on next week before I go to visit my sis 5h trip away #it could come too soon

[ksksksrahrah]

#Drawing #holostars #Rikka #guitar playing is so hard to draw but I wanna draw it #Guess what. Remember when I was talking about him losing his voice in the tags #Well now he has the ok to sing again #It’s been 5 months can u believe it #But his voice is like raspy if he sings too high #My sis says she can’t tell but I can #But it was obvious he was holding back for the new years stream #Anyways he can sing now so u should probably check out his singing streams

[itoshi-s]

I think you know enough hq characters at this point so, who do you think in haikyuu would fuck their step-sis and why is it tsukishima (also ushijima but hes more lowkey)?? - 💔

🥲 if u were to crack my silly little head open and take a look inside. this would be the only thing u see. just pure hell pure chaos nothin else. NONNIE.. do u really want me dead :(

cw stepcest, dubcon, timeskip tsukki n ushi

sob sniffle sister fucker tsukishima. i am literally going to lose my mind thinking about him. he’s so mean, shrugs all your tears and whining off whenever the sibling banter pushes a few too many buttons. it’s just how he is and you’ve grown used to it — his snarky comments and how he could spark all sorts of deepest insecurities w just a few teasing, light hearted comments. but kei nii doesn’t rly mean that, and you know it. it’s just how he is, with the kindest heart buried somewhere deep under the cocky demeanor — that’s what you think, until you come home from uni for holiday break and go out one night.

you take a few shots too many, those airhead friends of yours that kei never really liked busying themselves w some random guys, and you end up calling him to pick you up. there’s some creep at the club that just doesn’t let up, you’re a little scared, and your phone is almost dead. he’s the only person you really know that’d actually pick up at this late hour and come get you — he’s your brother after all. and yet, you regret ever calling him in the first place as soon as you get in the car, listen to him calling you even dumber than he’d thought of you, jaw slack and eyes firm yet tired behind his glasses as he drives. you hold back tears on the way home, and for the very first time in your life, you feel like kei nii might actually hate you :( and that he meant every single jab he’s gave you throughout all these years. he tugs you inside the house, unaware of your silence, and grumbles something about u being lucky that mums not home to see you this fucked up. you sit at the edge of your bed, shaky fingers struggling to undo the straps of your heels, and kei lets out an exasperated sigh as he crouches down in front of you. he slaps your hands away, works on unclasping the straps and tells you you’re hopeless. you’re just so annoying with how reckless you’re being, he’s got practice tomorrow morning and yet its 3 am and he has to deal with you — careless as always. he sets your shoes aside and is about to get up and leave when he hears the choked little sound. a tear or two falls on his hand and he looks up — breath hitching in his throat upon his step sister crying. he’s seen it so many times before, being the very cause for your tears more often than not, and yet this time, he’s confused. you wipe at your eyes, a poor attempt to hide the heartbreak, and swallow back little muffled cries. you tell him you’re sorry, that you never wanted him to hate you. you’re sorry that you’re annoying, sorry that you’re being a bother as always. kei watches in sheer astonishment as your bottom lip wobbles, still glimmering with your gloss. just don’t hate me, nii chan. he almost feels bad, for the first time in forever, as you sit there in your tiny black dress, with those pretty long falsies on, and cry your heart out — for him. its the exhaustion, he thinks, it has to be as he reaches a hand up and rests it on the back of your neck. he calls you silly, wipes a thumb below your eyes and furrows his brows a bit — he could never hate you, why’d you even think that? you really are a dumb thing. he’s just tired and not thinking straight, kei’s sure, as he leans up to press his lips to yours and taste you. your tongue is heavy with intoxication and shock, and he makes out the faint vanilla of your lip gloss and remnants of liquor as he kisses you, languid and sloppy, something to slow down the haywire in your mind. he could never hate you, he repeats, easing you down on the bed and hiking your dress over your hips — groaning when you give him the prettiest wide eyes, glossy with tears still but oh, so hopeful. kei nii is a good brother, despite his sharp tongue and teasing nature — and makes sure you never, ever doubt his love for you again :(

ushijima though,, he’s a whole another story you’re so right. i’m p sure he doesn’t even give you any remotely dirty thought — anything that would be immoral considering your relation. you’re his little step sister, and there’s nothing more to it. sure, he’s never been too close with you — always solely focused on his career — but he does appreciate you. you’re nice, sweet and caring with the way you always pick him up from the airport or fly over to some of his games. (you always cheer for him the loudest, and grin wide as you tell the couple sittin next to you that the ushiwaka is your older brother.) you always welcome him with the warmest hug, standing on your tiptoes to wrap your arms around his neck, and laugh as he squeezes you — welcome back, nii chan, i missed you lots. he’s no fool and sees how you’ve grown into a beautiful young woman, too. he’s aware of all the looks you get when you two walk down the street and how it’s hard to keep count of all the boyfriends you’ve mentioned before. for some reason, none of them lasted, though, and yet you’d always brush it off and give him a small smile when he asked if you were okay. wakatoshi doesn’t know a lot about girls in the first place, but you’re a whole another enigma. like i said, i think he wouldn’t even dare think of you in any other way than purely platonic — and so, you render his entire giant frame putty when you first crawl into his lap with that pretty little glint in your eyes. barely a minute earlier you were just scrolling down your phone, w your legs in his lap as he goes through his calendar — next thing he knows, his little step sister is grinding down on him, breath minty on his lips as you moan. large palms rest on your hips and it takes all your willpower to stand your ground, considering he wouldn’t even have to put any work into pushing you off. he fixes you a confused look, eyebrows knit together and voice low when he asks what are you doing, why are you— you cup his handsome face in your hands, a manicured thumb pressing to his lips and it shuts him up ridiculously quick n effectively. s’alright, nii chan, it’s nothin’. you need him bad, you tell him, and prove your point by the sinful roll of your hips against his hardening cock. you see he wishes he could deny you, that he could tell you that it’s wrong and fucked up and that you can’t be doing this — cause you’re siblings, blood bound or not — but his silence gives him away. always so blunt and straightforward, your nii san now sits completely quiet, and you know that the cogs in his mind must be struggling, but if he had any second thoughts abt all of this — he would’ve already told you. but he doesn’t tell you anything, doesn’t speak at all before he exhales and pulls you flush against him, lips finding yours with way too much ease. toshi nii doesn’t have to speak at all — his actions do it for him, as he has you all spread out n making the prettiest noises for hours on end that day </3

#✧.* ✉ zari’s mail: 💔 anon #nghhhh THIS HAS ME SLOWLY GOIN INSANE SHSJJSXHXJSI #kei especially </3 he’s got me all choked up i love love looooove him he’s so mean #ushi bein all ffed up in this head of his he’s so cute. i wanna bite him #but in all honestly some of the others i’d think would ABSOLUTELY dick down their stepsis are #kags.. 10000% you cant tell me otherwise #AND last but def not least the one and only oikawa tooru. NGHHHHDHDHDH #everyone always bein head over heels for him but they don’t know he only has eyes for his lil sis </3 najdhakshsksksjsj STOOOOP #he’s so deranged . this clicked in my mind sooooooo quick u get me ??? she’s always there to give him all the praise he needs #there’s no one else that matters for her. only tooru nii #always </3 and he goes completely n utterly dumb on the ego trip #thx for comin to my ted talk. if anyone wants to elaborate feel free #now brb gonna go sob abt this #haikyuu smut #hq smut #tsukishima smut #ushijima smut #haikyuu x reader #ushijima x reader #tsukishima x reader #tsukishima kei x reader #ushijima wakatoshi x reader #★ ‧ ₊ after hours

[tianmijun]

Lost You Forever Ep.29 (2023)

their last real bit of happiness for a long while...

#i don't want to talk about ep30 #but like i also got so much to say because ALL MY BABIES BE HURTING GDI #this show is so sad now #xiao yao #tushan jing #yang zi #deng wei #chang xiang si #lost you forever #cdrama #thisseatgifs

[miutonium]

Off-balance 💃

#she fall for him ahaha get it?????? #okay that was not funny and horrible i am going to sleep now #i cried the whole day today lol but i am happy again because of them #also because i realize that I can basically draw this so like i have solved my issue temporarily 👍👍👍 #10/10 recommend making selfship content for myself to cure sadness woaaaghh #asukart #selfship #selfshipping #selfship art #selfship community #selfship talk #self insert oc #self insert art #self insert community #self insert x fictional other #oc x canon #si x fo #professor utonium #ppg professor #selfshipping community

[softhe4rted]

february mb

#hashtag rant ahead #lol #oooooohhhh guys i’ve gotten myself in a complicated situation and can’t really discuss it with my close friends #oooohhh i’m feeling things for a friend and i think maybe she’s feeling things too and we’ve been living in such tenderness #but si pasará it’d messed up so many things about our friend group and our day to day routine #so i can’t really talk about with anyone and mmm sabemos que sería mejor to stop it now before it’s too late pero literal ninguna quiere #not really so uuuughjskaoqa #i just needed to tell someone on the intenert #its just she kissed the inside of my arm yesterday and i can’t stop thinking about it #anyways hoping for a wiser february …. or just bolder or something #moodboard #visual moodboard #pinterest

[thiagodasilva]

they can try to villianize him all they want, that’s still Enzo Pookie Fernandez

#y lo de mas me vale #there’s a way to talk about this but I kinda don’t care right now lmao #maybe later #just know I’m seeing dumb takes all over the place #que se quede para siempre…si no…. #enzo fernandez #chelsea fc

[dootznbootz]

I think the universe hates me for always having shit that needs a lot of work whenever I'm FUCKING BLEEDING

#couple days ago?? Had to chop wood and burn it. NOW??!? SNOW AND DRIVEWAY #Like my legs get all fucked up lksdfj s #That's not even talking about the chronic pain!!! #like my period si “scheduled”!!! why does the hard work shit have to happen whenever it's a scheduled “pain!!” #idk maybe it's because it FEELS like more because of pain despite it being normal otherwise #idk #tummy hurty #Mad rambles #I needed to vent!!! #vent #period

[sweatermuppet]

i think what has helped keep me motivated + curious abt all matters of the world is to acknowledge when smthng is not for me. it's too broad, advanced, unrelatable, or just unlikable, & instead of being discouraged or frustrated in my inability to understand or enjoy, i say "this not for me, but i can recognize it may be for someone else." OR, & this helps me the most, i say "this is not for me right now. months or years from now, this may suit me better."

#mike unknowingly helped me lasso this mindset when we were talking abt grit #i said oh i don't like grit very much. all the poems are so... not what id write now #& he was like si... you wrote some of those when you were 16 17 18... yr in yr 20s now #of course you'd write them differently! yr life is different! yr different from who you were then #& it just... flipped a switch in me #like okay!! nearly everything has its timely application & the sooner i understand & apply that the easier it will be to both love & hate!

[pastafossa]

just saw a post that said ‘pasta is an antidepressant’ and my brain immediately thought of you

and i hope you and your mom are doing okay <333

THIS IS SO SWEET! 😭 And also hilarious because I've become so used to Pasta being my name online that my thought process as I read went ''Pasta is an antidepressant' oh hey that's me! -> wait they mean they saw a post about actual pasta -> oh but then connected it to me so it is me!' I'm hopeless. This is why I can't be in the pasta aisle at the store with anyone else, because I have and will say 'Yes?' if they mumble 'Pasta?' into their phone.

And she's doing pretty good all things considered, thank you friend! Coming home has helped her a lot, even if she's still got a lot of in-home PT ahead over the next few months and she can't really be alone in the house for a while. But even then, she's recovering a lot faster than anyone expected - they thought she'd be in the hospital for a good month even after they released her from the ICU to a normal hospital room (she's only just now realizing how really, really, really sick she was cause ironically she was too sick to realize it when it happened). So we'll all happily take it! As for me, I'm mostly tired and still kinda... idk how to describe it. Disoriented maybe. I know all those emotions are all gonna come up and slap me in the face again eventually but at least for now they're just lurking while I focus on the logistics (adjusting schedules, general caretaker duties, house projects to make things easier for mom to move around, etc).

#I AM AN ANTIDEPRESSANT #that makes me so happy #i WANT to make people happy so goal achieved??? #also yeah we're rolling along at least! #mom is doing REALLY well tbh so i'm holding onto that but she had no idea until now just how sick she was #but between me and my dad (retired) and sis on afternoon/night shift at work (hours i'm usually awake) #we're able to basically always have someone with her so we're uniquely set up for this fortunately #and she's still *her*. like she's talking and joking and her happy pasta mama self which helps just as much #however not to use a trt metaphor but i know for a fact there is a trauma boar somewhere in my forest rn and it'll pop up eventually #i just gotta be ready for it

[wizard0rbs]

i desperately need ksu to change their system for domestic competitions

#ranking is so unnecessary #at least dont make it compulsory #like i get it for skaters that otherwise dont get to compete a lot #but surely the world silver medalist can stay on the national team without competing here #also haein yelim and seoyeong just competed last week at nhk why cant they rest now #and the juniors who are going to jgpf next week #shouldnt they be saving their energy #for the arguably more important international competition #ksu im in your walls #why do feds hate their own skaters #figure skating #fs season 2023/24 #si talks about figure skating

[coconut530]

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈

#Nevermore #Nevermore Webtoon #Webtoon #yeah so #I fastpassed this one last week #Bc this week was hectic for me #But now I can talk about it! #YASS LENORE YOUR FRIENDS ARE COUNTING ON YOUUUUUUUUUU #That bit was so badass #And just them being so gay #So lesbian #Everythingggggggg #And when Annabel was like “I shall give you a beautiful death” AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #THE ARTTTTTT #MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM #KISS OF DEATHHHHHH #AND THEN 🔔🔔🔔🔔🔔🔔🔔🔔🔔 #RING THAT BELL SIS #WHO CARES ABOUT WHAT ANNA SAYS #REACHING INTO HER HEART WAS SUCH A SICK MOVE #TAKEN YOUR BLOT GIRL #AND THEN THE BIG THING #WHAT ARE THOSE TENTACLES DOING THEY WERE FROM EP. 1 AND LIKE AAAAAAAAAAAA WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY #WHAT’S THEIR SIGNIFICANCE WITH LENORE #I DON’T KNOWWWWWWWWW #ANYWAY MUSIC WAS SO EPIC #EP WAS SO EPIC #RNF ARE SO EPIC

[beansprean]

sometimes you get diagnosed with ADHD as an adult which finally makes your mom actually listen to what ADHD actually is and that she didn't cure it by making me do 100 jumping jacks as a kid when I got too hyper and then she realizes that she may have it too

And then you both realize that like 70% of the family probably also has adhd and that's why we are all Like That

#adhd #not art #like???? my moms side of the family were always weird to everyone but us #so informal and go with the flow and peppy but cycle through hobbies like toilet paper #never any drama bc we forget that we got mad and just get over it and were generally nice to people #we never learned to set boundaries with other people bc we all had invisible understood nd boundaries #and just didnt ask each other weird questions #like turns out we r just a super nd family???? but it makes sense??? #my 2 cousins were diagnosed as kids but they were the only ones that was when adhd was starting to be understood as a childhood disability #but you only got diagnosed if u were getting bad grades etc so me and my sister got overlooked and everyone else was too old #but DEF my granny has combined like me and my mom has hyperactive type and probably my uncle as well #and my great aunt bipolar i wouldnt be surprised if she had comorbidities her daughter idk tho #great grandparents hard to say but i wouldn't be surprised and time will tell with cousins kids #would not be surprised to see some autism in there im sure my sis on the spectrum and i may be too but with adhd its hard to differentiate #anyway this is a v personal post but its kinda crazy to look back and be like huh #thats why the fam dynamic is so different from everyone elses #we dont talk to each other for years but relationships dont deteriorate in our heads so nbd #now my dads side....my dad does have a lot of adhd symptoms as well as his dad #plus Alzheimers runs thru there which has a slight predilection for adhd anyway #why would a bunch of intelligent chatty anxious and kind people choose to live in the middle of nowhere and have silly hobbies #why neurodivergency my friend #ANYWAY the culture shock of moving away from that as a child and my parents remarrying neurotypicals who didnt understand the dynamics #dunno if it was the southern thing or the nt thing but turns out the normal way i always interacted with my parents #was seen by others as deeply disrepectful mean teenager nonsense that should be culled #shout out to the nd kids with nd parents who just spoke to each other like adults and played with each other like kids #this is TOO MANY TAGS thats how u know the vyvanse kicked in #personal

[11oh1]

I get see Bad fuckin Bunny live tomorrowww!!! Que sentimiento mas hijoeputaaa coñooo 😩😈🖤

#pstexttt #personal #day 1 fan over here and hadn’t had a chance to see him until now #I feel like a lil kid #shout out to my fucking BESTEST FRIEND for making this possible 🥹💕✨ #i am hyperventilating #God send help #I will never stop talking about this #si me muero despues de mañana muero feliz #te amo benito #bad fucking bunny #p fuckin r #bad bunny #ready to lose my voice forever #like do you understand how much I love this man? NO! #que viva el reggaeton y la musica Latina #I can’t even get my thoughts out so ima leave it here #i’m still in shock #🥲🥲🥲 #lo tuyo viene tambien mi amor 😘✨ #nyc #puerto rico #dominican #reggaeton

[miutonium]

Pathetic little meow meow 😳

________

Anyway my commission is open ∠( ᐛ 」∠)＿

#cw suggestive #i love this silly rectangle man i want him to be pathetic for Chloe heehee #ok i will sleep now mimimimimi #selfship #selfshipping #selfship commission #selfshipping community #selfship art #selfship talk #self insert oc #self insert art #self insert community #si x canon #oc x canon #professor utonium #ppg professor #asukart #waffles and wishes on wednesday 🧇

[ragnar0c]

Called my friend and we drew today.

I like Enid's colors.

Bonus: Cute Lope...

#i like drawing with others... now that i think about it... doing it with someone around to talk to about it is why i got into it #one of the very first times i started drawing my sis came back from school and asked to draw too and we drew together #its :] #ragna thumbnails #ragna ramblings #eoc: Enid #they are very calm in this comic because A: Its later in the timeline and B: They are thinking really hard about smt so.... #they are cute :3 #i would at some point like to draw him looking more masculine but i think thatll come as they age too. #another bit with Tank and Enid is that Enid looks in their early 20s and Tank looks like hes in his late 30s #(they are only 2 years apart)