#she didn't do any harm

[springs-hurts]

Do you remember when the Dragon said 'A half cannot truly hate that which makes it whole.'

AND DO YOU REMEMBER HOW ARTHUR WAS TAUGHT MAGIC WAS EVIL HIS WHOLE LIFE AND YET COULDN'T HATE IT EVER TRULY?

Do you remember how after years of suffering, thinking magic is evil, he accepted Merlin? Asked him to hold him? Because I can't-😭😭😭

#arthur really couldn't hate it fully #because he was a good person #and because his other half was magic itself #arthur and merlin #remember when Arthur defended gwen? in episode 3? #didn't deny her magic #but said #she didn't do any harm #remember when he told his father he'd be a fair and just king??? #I'm crying #king arthur #arthur pendragon #show should have given you the character development #continuity #you deserved #golden prince #Albion's king #you deserved to live

[inkskinned]

this is sort of pathetic, but when you were younger, you were sort of puzzled by the cartoon representations of fathers: how a kid would be outside with a mitt, waiting to play catch.

it's not that your father never played catch with you, but you also didn't like when he did. something about a hard ball coming quickly towards your face doesn't seem exciting. not that you'd ever say you don't trust him. you trust him, right?

it's not like he never tried to teach you anything. or never tried to parent. on rare days, a strange person would walk in your father's skin. bright, happy, magnificent. this version of your father was so cheerful and charismatic that you would do anything to keep him. and this is the version of your father that would laugh and gently coax you try again. this is the version of your father that would break down the small elements of a problem and point them out so you have an easier time with them.

as a kid, those days happened more often. but somewhere around 11, you started being too much of a person, and he was often cross about it. when he'd try to sit you down to learn something, you spent the whole time with your shoulders around your ears, nervous, uncertain. terrified because you didn't immediately understand how to navigate something. worried you will run out of his goodwill and then you will have the Other Father back, and you will have ruined a good day for your entire family. something about you being visibly afraid - it just made him angry. he would accuse you of not wanting to learn and storm away.

on tv, it's not like there's a lot of versions of men-who-are-mostly-fathers. they can be good dads, but usually their stories are not told in the household. so it's normal that your father is there, but he's never around. you know he was in the house, somewhere, it's just not that you guys ever... "hung out". he just seemed to get kind of bored of you, annoyed you weren't made in his perfect image. frustrated with how much energy it took to raise a kid. over time, you kind of adopt a bittersweet band around your throat - he knows nothing about me. he says at least i never abandoned my family.

and it's technically - technically - true. he was there for you. sometimes he even made an effort and made it to the big moments; the graduations and the dance recitals. he grins and tells everyone that he taught you. it almost erases the days in between, where he complains because you need a ride to school. the weeks that go by where he doesn't actually ever speak to you. the times you say i am struggling and he says figure it out on your own. i can't help you.

and that's fine! that's all fine. you can call him if you are having a problem with your car. or if you need a ride to the hospital. he loves playing hero, he just doesn't like the actual work that comes with being a father. and you've kind of made your peace with that; because you had to, because you don't want to live your life like he does; the whole world at a managed distance, a little rotating and controlled orb he can witness and take credit for but never truly love.

as an adult, you are rewatching some dumb cartoon - and again, the child standing in the rain, with a mitt, waiting for their father to come play catch. as an adult, there's this strange creeping dread - this little thing? this little thing, and their dad can't even show up for that? oh god, holyshit, it's not about the mitt, is it. oh god, holyshit, your father spent most of your life leaving you hanging.

#spilled ink #writeblr #:) lol . anybody notice how i write about dads in second person exclusively #me: haha silly cartoon #also me: ): this child is not getting what they need #also btw this is about a father but it might apply to any parent or caregiver #there's a really weird space of like #''this person was technically around me but either ignored me or was actively harmful to me'' #and like u learn this very strange ritual of like... this person is my parent/caregiver on a technicality #that you almost spend all ur time with them like... tiptoeing and acting as THEIR parent so u don't upset them. #like you're 17 and ur mom is suddenly hit by a wave of wanting to talk to you so she's like :) lets make breakfast together :) and ur like #uhhhhhh okay?? bc you feel like this is absolutely going to go wrong and is why u usually make breakfast alone #and she starts being like: THIS is called a TEASPOON ... & u know all this stuff but you also know to just be very quiet #bc if you say like ''mom ive been making this breakfast every day since i was 13'' she would FREAK OUT and be like #DONT ACT LIKE I NEVER DO ANYTHING FOR YOU DONT ACT LIKE I DONT CARE ABOUT YOU. FUCKING DISRESPECTFUL . #so u have to smile like ur a preschool teacher and be like. OH COOL! i didn't know A CUP existed! tell me MORE! :)

[naamahdarling]

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#my psych who prescribes my psych meds is a resident and is moving on in a couple of months #i don't even remember the names of them all at this point #this happens over and over and I cannot find a clinic that will put me with someone who intends to stay #thst will also prescribe my adhd meds #and my anxiety meds #and the real kicker is that twice now they have LIED about it and said they would #only to reveal after all the hoop-jumping that oops sorry they didn't really mean it #so it's a risk i have to take any time i leave #and rhen there's the issue of new people almost always wanting to DO something #but instead of talking to me about it they just decide that my meds need overhauling and pressure me to go off shit that works #but that they morally object to i guess #and my psych for some stupid reason has decided she wants bloodwork for my cholesterol and blood sugar stuff and im just like #what hell does THIS presage because if she harasses me about the results or tries to put me on drugs for that #I'll give her a nasty scrap about it #im not interested in those meds at all #and im certainly not messing with my diet since food is the only pleasure i get most days and even that is marginal at best #and removing that would just make me worse #but medpros for the most part really don't give a fuck about that #and so now im afraid - because i do not and cannot trust them - that if i disapprove of the meds they will retaliate somehow #which good luck proving that when management and oversight often don't even care if they course of treatment will HARM you #if it relates to being fat or having bad numbers #they just gotta pathologize! #so yeah im sick of everything and just kind of want to bury myself in a bog forever #i shouldn't have to deal with this

[iwasbored777]

The most beautiful thing in the entire Trolls franchise will always be Branch's character in the first movie when he wanted Poppy to understand that life isn't as perfect as she thinks but when she got betrayed and hurt and lost all hope he did everything to make her happy again because he wanted her to understand the pain but not experience it because she didn't deserve that and he didn't think that others have to suffer because he did.

#i know so many people who would look at her crying and say your problems are not that bad mine were worse she literally thought her kingdom #will be cooked alive #she got betrayed by a person she trusted and for whom she risked her life #she learned that some people never change #and no one knew what to do #but branch knew he had to heal her emotional damage first and let her know that he's there for her #so many people would tell her i told you so lol i was right you were wrong at least now you understand but he knew that she deserves better #because she didn't mean any harm #and because it's not her fault that he suffered #this is so important to show #because so many people want others to suffer too just because they did #so many people want to see optimists with broken spirits because life is bad #yes it is but don't hurt innocent person for something that has happened to you years ago #the writers understood the assignment #the writers fucking understood the assignment #and she loves him so much for it #trolls movie #trolls 2016 #trolls branch #branch #Poppy #trolls poppy #trolls band together #trolls world tour #trolls holiday in harmony #trolls holiday #Broppy

[leatherbookmark]

my life is such that every once in a while my mother says something confusing in a conversation and i make the dumbest mistake of asking further questions (like a total moron who likes to know what their conversation partner actually means) and with each question she looks and speaks with more contempt for my subpar intellect and deliberate obtuseness and eventually i feel like the next question will result in truly lethal amounts of contempt so i go "ah... ah okay okay then!" and walk away and as i do i hear her muttering with disgust. and this is normal

#shrimp thoughts #one day i'm going to kill myself and it's going to be funny as fuck #i guess she reacts like this because when i furrow my eyebrows in confusion i look really like idk. upset or aggressive but you'd think #maybe you'd figure something out when its your kid you've known for over 2 decades but like. i don't know man #it's free season for everyone to interpret everything i do as badly as possible while the second i feel hurt by someone's actions everyone #rushes in to assure me they didn't mean ANY harm and i should chillax so again as previously stated idk.

[goldeneyedgirl]

Oh boy, this is probably so irrelevant to you, but I've read the little piece you made for Babyverse about Jasper having to leave Alice and their son to go hunt and I swear I wept, thinking that's exactly how my baby brother gets everytime I leave. Literally the cutest AU ever made!!! Also, I have a weak spot for Damage Alice. May I ask for some of any of these two masterpieces?

This is absolutely not irrelevant - I'm not around small children, so I am relying entirely luck and vague memories to make any depiction of Ollie convincing, and I am SO glad that I am on the right track!

You caught me in a weak moment, so have a little of both <3

babyverse.

It’s been six fucking weeks since he’s seen them, and he’s trying to convince himself that this is another false lead, another dead-end, even as he presses his foot further on the accelerator. 

He knows the old motel he’s going to - it’s been abandoned for decades, with a cracked sign caked in filth declaring it the Rose Spring. It’s a thrice condemned shit-hole, untouched because of alleged chemical leaks or something that the government don’t want to have to clean up to sell the land off. It’s irrelevant though; the Rose Spring, like all the other falling-down, forgotten motels across the country, is a regular haunt for vampires looking to avoid the sun, to meet other travellers, to pass messages back and forth. 

He pulls into the motel, barely shutting off the ignition as he gets out. The back is laden with supplies, and he pauses only long enough to grab the bag that Esme has labelled with a big red cross. 

The stairs are flimsy and buckle under his step - no place for a human. Half the balcony has collapsed, and at least two of the rooms have crumbled in on themselves - probably in the last storm. 

Room 37 is tucked in the corner, and he doesn’t bother to knock as he throws open the door. 

Ollie is sitting on the first rancid, rotting bed and his face lights up as he sees Jasper, his arms stretching out towards him. He’s wearing filthy, mismatched clothing that aren’t his, and is sucking on a pacifier again, and for some reason that’s more upsetting than anything else to Jasper - he was just beginning to give it up before everything happened. And now it’s back. 

Maria is seated on the bed with Ollie, looking equally as filthy and surprisingly solemn. 

“You made it faster than I anticipated,” she says, standing up and motioning to Ollie as the bed tilts slightly without her weight. “He’ll be hungry, but he’s unharmed.”

Ollie makes a whining noise as soon as he’s in Jasper’s arms; a reassuring weight, but Ollie is about to start crying. 

“Where’s Alice?” He demands, rubbing his son’s back and hoping they can get out of here, and back north tonight; somewhere they can clean up and talk and he can make sure that they’re okay. 

Maria looks grimmer and motions for him to follow her out the door and into the next room. 

Ollie gets agitated, straining towards Alice the second they set foot in the second room. 

The scent of blood saturates the air.

Alice is lying on the bed, unconscious. There’s an angry wound on her head, and bother her arms. Some rough bandages have been wrapped around her leg, and it’s obvious that someone - perhaps Maria - tried to clean her up. 

“Alice?” His alarm is evident in his voice, and he almost hands Ollie off to Maria to go to her side before his brain clicks back into place. “Alice, can you hear me?”

Ollie’s reaching more and his whimpers are turning to wails as Alice doesn’t flinch.

“For god’s sake, give me the child, and deal with your mate,” Maria says, almost crossing. “I didn’t eat him before, I’m not going to eat him now.”

damaged alice.

The race to the ballet studio is the longest journey of his life.

Alice can’t defend herself. She’s never fought in her life. When Maria came to Calgary, Alice had been carefully protected by Esme and Emmett. 

He’s never run faster in his life. 

The scene that he finds in the ballet studio is one that fills him with anger and terror, and his first instinct is to get Alice out. 

Not Bella bleeding out on the floor and screaming (oh god, he knows that scream) with an extremely broken leg. 

Or to destroy James, with his joker-smile.

Alice is standing over Bella, blood on her face and dress and hands, and she’s getting upset about it, a thin cry coming out of her mouth as she stares down at her maybe-future-best-friend’s blood smelling so tempting…

But when James laughingly steps forward towards Bella, Alice growls protectively. 

He swoops in, barely pausing as he grabs Alice and gets her out of James’ reach, smoothing her hair as he tries to look her in the eyes; but Alice’s eyes dart, never meeting his. Not a surprise that today would become a bad one, that Alice can’t communicate right now. 

(James was alone with her for too long; he hates himself for that. He’s terrified she’s been hurt in some way, that the damage is worse than being slathered in her maybe-friend’s blood. )

“Are you okay?” 

As soon as the words are out, James slams into him from nowhere, and he can’t worry about Alice or Bella in that moment. 

But all he can hear are Alice’s soft cries from where she’s standing in the corner. 

#my fic: damaged alice #my fic: hybrid baby-verse #babyverse alice will recover #damaged alice has a little more trauma first #didn't mean for both of these to be jasper-rescue snippets #maria is a bamf #and she's not going to kill jasper's 'wife' and kid #that's beyond tacky and completely inefficient and just not necessary #why harm them when helping them might get you a Future Favour? #i'll put a post up last but i'm not doing any more snippets for a hot minute so that I can get on top of ficmas and all my wips #i'll go through the existing ones that I've got in my ask box #but anything else will be politely set aside until I've got the priority stuff done

[new-lorien-artist]

Drawing Five according to his canonical UaO epilogue description is so messy and saddening because there's so much to account for that got him physically fucked up and you know the writers were hammering in this whole disfigurement as punishment thing with him

Because first you have the eye hole where Marina pierced him, and I'm not sure if he's still wearing that gauze eye patch on the island because eventually it'll get dirty and he'll have to toss it

Then you have the scar marks from when Setrákus Ra clawed right through his metal skin "like butter" and it's not mentioned whether those marks are still there or they disappeared when he returned to his flesh skin (and it's doubtful those were healed at all, we don't even know if Marina had a proper visit and talked to him and possibly healed those away)

Then you have the goop that created some patchy spots all over his skin and show up all web-like on him

And then how it's implied he starved on the island because he lost weight so fast and is described to have flaps of skin on his arms and torso and a body so skinny you could see an outline of his ribs and spine

Bro he has so much physical trauma on him, like they did the most on him and left it like that till the very end

#number five #not sure whether to put the main ll tag on this #don't wanna put it out there to see but a friend hasn't read ll yet and blocked the main tag for now #well i already told em about five so i think this is fine #hmmm rereading the epilogue and i wanna write an analysis on the justifications of harm without closure #on everyone toward five but especially marina #because she had the most personal reason to hate five but she never got any closure or chose to move on #and it left her character arc hanging because she never found a conclusion to her moral dilemma #how to handle five and what do with her grief if it's painful and no one can relate to her on an empathetic level #because she was the 'moral compass' yet flet that title fleeting her sometimes and didn't know how to process these changes #and then john literally whisked her away from that instead of helping or letting her find a conclusion #and we never hear from her again until the very end of the series without any answers #she was literally the only other person to question these moral changes and aspects and the writers took that from us #similarly to five and his questioning of lorien treating the garde and their lack of will or identity beyond child soldiers #both had the questions but no one heard an answer #if that's intended by the writers I don't buy it because those are really cruicial to the themes of the series and it sucks to leave it out #they just punished and humiliated and disfigured five again and again and again to an excessive degree #dude what that's a lot to throw on him

[cherrymoonvol6]

the worst part about flapjack's death is that luz and hunter's friendship died right along with it lmao

#idk it's just funny. TTT goes so fucking far in order to say that luz and hunter have built a strong bond between them #to the point that luz calls him family #then luz is the only one who refuses to fight possessed hunter #she only gets close to him to hug him and do the 'this is not you!' middle school couple trope on him #not only that but flapjack entrusts his powers for luz when he sees what's become of hunter and THAT is what she CHOOSES to do #you know. flapjack who was caleb's palisman. who was there for the entirety of caleb and evelyn's romance to the point that belos- #-considers him a symbol of caleb's betrayal (his love for evelyn) #this is the same flapjack that looks at phillip trying to harm 'caleb' again and decides to literally put his powers in luz's hands #and ultimately his sacrifice means neither caleb or evelyn have to die again #which is kinda confirmed by the way hunter goes like 'there's a reason you and i are alive and here right now and it's because- #-it's our turn to defeat belos' like i didn't even have to reach for this. hunter says it himself #and this is all great and compelling and makes sense except for the fact that the show just forgets about this on the next two episodes #and so where the first episode establishes that luz and hunter are close friends FTF and WAD are like 'do they even know each other?idk idc #and i get to stare at the camera because OBVIOUSLY if hunter and luz were a couple this wouldn't be a problem to begin with #and flapjack's death loses meaning when it turns out that nothing about evelyn or caleb or the previous confrontations between belos and- #-the other grimwalkers has any bearing in the plot anymore #flapjack gave its life to preserve the love that changed the world back then but because it's just never acknowledged it's like. who cares #someone had to die and we can't kill one of the kids #shrugs #sorry i have so much resentment in my heart #but do not get it twisted. it's HILARIOUS to me that TOH is at its most compelling when the lunter/witteclaw parallels are at its strongest #and then shoots itself in the foot when they realize that they paired off both characters with other people #okay that's all i have to say by now #lunter #is this anything

[backjustforberena]

Life In The Freezer

#DO NOT #(do) #TALK TO ME ABOUT HOW THIS IS NOW A DIRECT PARALLEL TO SERENA #COMING TO SEE BERNIE AFTER HER RESCUE #AND HELPING HER RECOVER IN SPAIN #all the harshness and toll it took on bernie #and serena still just sees the woman that she loves #and vows not to let her down #or let her go #or let any harm happen to her #AND NOW THEY ARE MARRIED #Serena didn't see Bernie #broken and traumatised #unwilling to reach out to her family or confront ANYTHING or go back to her life that she had #and think 'not worth it' #or that it would cause too much pain for herself #she went for it #and was grateful for what they had #and I also love that even though they weren't on the same page in this episode #(reading different flipping languages tbh) #by the end they are so together and so on the same page and ready and brave and trusting in what they have #urgh these two #bernie wolfe #serena campbell #holby city #my gifs #also shoutout to bernie for being such an active listener #genuinely this is my fave bit of the scene #even more over the flirting towards the end

[gideonisms]

sometimes I like to think that maybe there is an older version of me who has different problems and understands why I was the way I was and is able to have pity for this version and maybe would come back and sit next to me if she could. I'd like for there to be a sexy 40 year old version with silver streaks in her hair and glasses. I'll probably be obsessed with myself if I get that old. I've always wanted to look like the one random lady general from the first 30 minutes of any star wa rs movie

#sometimes i think! you know i felt bad about my religion for the entire first 18 years of my life and then it just. stopped being a problem #well it didn't stop being a problem it became an entirely different problem opposite to the one i had #i felt weird about liking women for ages until once again. it became a totally different problem! #idk there are so many things about me that probably are just going to be different someday. i never like to assume i won't change #maybe one day i'll even muster some compassion in my soul for the version of me who lived from 2013-2022. idk. that one's difficult #it's easy to look at yourself at age 11 and be like aw she was trying! give her a break #ages 17-27 are harder. she was grown up all of that was cringe and fail #being kind to your past self is for people who never actually did any harm #i've been kinder the past few years by just leaving a situation when i get angry or sometimes prematurely before i can make anything worse. #but it's not like i'm a better person i just take myself away until i can be nice #i kinda hate that bitch (me) but like what are you going to do. it's wildly impractical to live in that emotion #better to have other emotions instead so you don't think about that one

[the-valiant-valkyrie]

talking abt wigfrid and critisism but the further you go the less coherent it becomes. no i will NOT simplify it. read my flop analysis boy.

Something very interesting about Wigfrid that I don't really see in characterizations a lot is the concept of her having... I don't really know what to call it. Not 'a thinner skin', but I suppose the concept of her being wary of how people perceive her.

A lot of interpretations of Wig that I see tend not to go beyond the surface of her persona, that being a confident and overzealous warrior. And to an extent, that is what she is. But I also feel as though it's very important to her character to consider how she got to embracing that persona the way she has to begin with.

'Wigfrid' the actress- whoever she may have been- was clearly incredibly concerned with how she was perceived by others... Most of them being complete strangers to her- people who she'll never meet or get to know, who will never know her in turn. Hell, the opinions of those strangers were the driving force to her accepting Maxwell's deal to begin with! Yes, she wanted her popularity back, but were it not for the people who tore her down with their words alone, she never would have lost it to begin with!

I think the snake motif in Curtain Calls was a very interesting choice for Klei, if only because to me it feels deliberate. The giant serpent she fought within her fantasies manifested itself from her newspapers... The term 'snake' is frequently used to describe individuals who are deceitful and dishonest. To me it doesn't really feel like a coincidence that- of all the beasts, that is the one they choose. A creature who's very title is a double meaning, used to represent the critics who so viciously tear her down, fangs dripping with venomous lies that she can only fight against within the safety of her mind.

"Oh, Savvy-" I can hear you cry, "-Savvy, I think you're reaching a little bit here". Normally I would be inclined to agree. Very frequently I find myself grasping for straws to prop up Klei's otherwise sparse characterizations. However, if the snakes = liars = critics theory isn't enough on its own, I would also like to remind you of what happens after Wigfrid defeats the snake in Curtain Calls. She falls back into reality at the sound of a disembodied voice, and from the newspapers manifests a silhouette of Maxwell. A direct parallel to her fantasy, the news has yet again taken the image of a 'snake'... Of a deceiver. To me, that seems incredibly intentional.

NOT TO MENTION that if the theory is true that MAXWELL MADE UP THE NEWSPAPERS TO BEGIN WITH in an attempt to emotionally manipulate her, then the snake metaphor would make EVEN MORE SENSE because he is LITERALLY making himself tangible out of HIS OWN lies. but i'm NOT GETTING INTO THAT RABBIT HOLE right now because i'm ALREADY DIGRESSING!!!!!

So, now that we can ALL AGREE that Wigfrid's hatred of snakes stems from a bit of self projecting, we can bring up Wigfrid's current, in game hatred of snakes, and perhaps draw a couple of conclusions about how criticism may be effecting her now, as opposed to how it was pre-Constant:

Her unabashed hatred is visibly obvious. She goes about engaging with snakes in a VERY unique way she does the rest of her quarry. She takes great pleasure in their destruction, and goes so far as to label them her enemies, specifically. I looked it up, and as far as I can glean this wouldn't be a pre-establised trait of her persona. This vitriolic snake hatred is entirely stemming from the person underneath.

So. With the context we previously gathered that implies that maybe the reason she sees snakes in such a way is due to the fact that they are practically synonymous with critics and 'liars' to her, I can safely conclude that. um. No, I really do not think she has grown any more of a hide against criticism than she had before accepting Maxwell's deal.

Wigfrid's hatred of snakes was a big part of her character from even before Curtain Calls (obviously, bc shipwreck released way before her refresh did), but I feel like them taking this specific facet of her character- one that's lesser known from her, buried behind her more stereotypical motifs- and adding such important context to it was a intentional act. I refuse to think otherwise.

Even outside of the whole. Snake Thing I spent two hours describing, though. To me it still seems plausible for Wigfrid to act all tough, but take insults very poorly. Yes, in a prideful sort of way- where she feels the need to actively defend herself and her 'honor'- but also just in a... regular way. I don't think it'd show up much in the Constant because. i mean, there's more important things for the survivors to do. but i really do feel like scathing insults would bite her more than someone would expect it to.

Also I just think it would be funny and help flesh out her nuance. Is that a crime. To want to give my girl some nuance. Is that a sin.

#wigfrid: when you've been in the industry for as long as i have you develop a thick skin #maxwell: navy blue is *not* ur color #wigfrid: NAVY BLUE BRINGS OUT MY EYES YOU PRICK #anyways. can you tell i've been wanting to talk abt the snake motif thing for like. months. #idk. if this doesn't make sense yes it does. #you don't know her like i do. i know her flawlessly though. klei told me that all this is true btw #also whoever wrote her hamlet quotes and didn't give her vitriolic lines for the pugalisk DROPPED the ball and should lose their job /j #YEAH. i GUESS you could see her snake hatred as stemming from a personal hatred of poison #but not every snake IS poisonous and she hates them all the same #also impo i kinda feel like. poison. is ALSO a metaphor for critics. when u rlly think abt it. #bitter and venomous words. that insidiously sneak into your mind. killing you slowly. and you can't even fight against them. #to 'spit poison/venom' is to speak maliciously/with intent to harm. #would NOT be surprised if thats how she took slights against her #am i making ANY sense here. idk #“dst wigfrid”

[lesenbyan]

man it's completely different bc Fordola did absolutely did War Crimes against other Ala Mhigans but maybe I (and Eve) relate to her so much bc, again, she's hated by her own people for trying to fit in with the empire when she was raised and taught that was the only way to survive and like. Yeah.

#personal; #raine plays fxiv; #sb spoilers; #i should make a tag for my musings on shit like this #like I've not commited any Huge Racisms or anything but like #watching the scene where the mob is demanding justice just makes me think #bc like. killing her doesn't do anything. that's not justice. it doesn't bring back the people she killed. #you want her dead bc she's a traitor. not bc she wronged you specifically (as there are many in that mob she didn't directly harm) #and I've been implied heavily by other black people to be a race traitor for being half white #and it is ENTIRELY DIFFERENT but I can't help but see me a little on Fordola #more than I do in Lyse #and Lyse better mirrors my actual circumstances but after very early SB no one pushes against her anymore #whereas Fordola honestly thought she was trying to help her people. she wants accepted again #for all she knows she can't be #(see: the healer role quests in EW)

[wizardnuke]

"why do half of your dnd characters have names with v's" because it sounds crunchy and my characters are crunchy. next question

#avelle and levlia wouldn't necessarily get along but they'd have an understanding #levlia is way too gung-ho on the violence front of things for this support caster-healer but #they have a similar backstory. avelle would understand where he's coming from #lmao. levlia would have some difficulty existing around avelle Because they come from similar places and she isn't?? super violent?? #how do you Cope? avelle how do you cope. #thing is. like. at the moment I don't see avelle ever.arcing out to show any intentional kind of aggression. she's intimidating but #that's kind of just her face. she doesn't want to be violent (levlia doesn't either but that's rough buddy!) #the horrors of choosing to do no harm and what that does to a dnd character lol #she's not a pacifist. she'll defend but she won't be happy about it. smash cut to levlia giving a guard the people's elbow just unprovoked #side note I didn't mean for them to have similar mafia-avoiding backstories like they do. both of these dms were just like #'the mafia's a big thing and you should have opinions abt them as a character' #avelle is fully on the run. deserter with a death sentence. levlia is meandering away but like at a speedwalk to avoid arson accusations

[septembersghost]

friends, as i said and tried to be clear, there are topics i don't feel comfortable publicly addressing, and i really don't like doing condemnations/whataboutisms with people's mistakes, as if one can win a "more moral" challenge, but if it's old hollywood related, just assume i already know. then assume almost anything you've read in passing is way more complicated than whatever clickbait is on the internet.

anyway, far less complicated, natalie wood's mother was a monster

#which is the story behind the story there #it was already too late so while the situation is murky at least he took her under his wing and didn't violently abuse her #considering other things she went through #you either find a way to reconcile the facts of people and their lives being complicated and full of difficult perhaps even wrong things #(and he was particularly far from perfect we know that but he also wasn't an evil man by any means) #or you never engage with anyone's art ever again because it might be problematic and that's simply untenable #we can't do anything about it because everyone involved is dead and not here to speak for themselves #all we can do is make up our own minds. and f's given me far more good and listening to him isn't doing anyone harm #anyway by contrast if you ever wonder why her relationship with e went the way it did and why she didn't understand him #especially in regards to him wanting to read to and just be with her rather than other things #yet again thank her abusive monster of a mother who taught her there was no other way to get validation #i'm more concerned with doing what we can here in the present than litigating the past

[nastychastity]

i guess i shouldn't be surprised about this but re: the introduction of claire as a character in the bear--y'all really love hating women and completely disregarding larger narrative arcs don't you

#by y'all i mostly mean like #ppl in youtube comments complaining about claire being a boring manic pixie dream girl and not having chemistry with carm or whatever #but i've also seen some opinions on here that have me hmmm #carmy should not be in any kind of romantic relationship right now and for the foreseeable future and he gets into one anyway #and that's the point #he is a deeply traumatized deeply maladjusted man who is barely just scratching the surface of his healing process #and everything about claire and his relationship with her is meant to be directly symbolic of his regression back into harmful behaviors #that put him deep in his trauma #he's backpedaling and that's the point #it's supposed to make you angry and frustrated as the viewer. because you want him to continue to heal and focus on his growth #but he backtracks because it's easy #it's safe #he literally starts their connection by trying to self sabotage and giving her a fake phone number #he knows he shouldn't do this! he knows he can't! #but it happens anyway so he tries anyway because he thinks he should #not because he actually wants to #but hating on claire as a character is misdirected and often misogynistic #she didn't do anything wrong #and i don't think she's an uninteresting person #i honestly think she's quite lovely and i know she doesn't deserve to be with carmy's ghost #like yes we're supposed to be frustrated that they're together because they definitely shouldn't be but it's not because claire sucks #it's because carmy isn't in a good place for a relationship and because they're not right for each other #at least not now #and like completely separate from carmy/sydney--which i love #the narrative is clearly spelling out that the harmony isn't there #story and character wise carmy and claire aren't good for each other #and claire is still a well written and interesting character #and both of those things can be true at the same time #the bear

[gowonfacts]

chaeyoung is so stupid my god 😭

#like i don't think she meant any harm but still.. HOW do you not know what that means come on #her walking around the us with that stupid thing on and going to a JEWISH owned restaurant i honestly don't know how she didn't get jumped #.☆