#pretend i'm competent

[vapemaster42069]

Ep. 11 Angelstone

The longer Apotheosis progresses, the more concerned I am for Peter and Rumi’s relationship, and after episode 11 I’m super interested to see where their dynamic is taken. Cue Angelstone rant:

Rumi is always showering Peter with praise, telling him how he’s perfect, he’s all Rumi wants, he’s more than Exandroth, he’s destined to be great and loved and powerful. And Peter, of course, preens under the praise. He’s a normal-to-below-average dude who has been constantly ignored and cast aside his whole life, and suddenly a gorgeous, tall perfect-looking celestial figure with magical powers and a sparkly sword shows interest in him-- of course he’s going to respond! It’s understandable! But this sudden influx of praise from one person, particularly one he’s in a relationship with, can be dangerous considering his overall mental state because Peter is slowly becoming used to being appreciated. It’s easy to fall into trap of feeling like he may owe them something in return for their love-- favors, loyalty, a relationship he may not fully want or one that isn’t good for him. From Peter’s perspective, the only people who are willing to appreciate him in this way will only stay with him if he helps them, submits to their will, or spends time with them. He may try all manner of things to win their favor out of a fear of rejection by the only people who have reciprocated his love. Although this may not happen, and if they handle it right in the future, it makes their relationship more volatile to become toxic.

Peter’s codependency from a past of emotional distance and dismissal makes him reliant on Rumi--although he genuinely loves Rumi, that love is shaped by his past and it may influence Peter more than he thinks. For instance, Charlie has said multiple times out of character that Peter is only following along because he wants to be with Thanatos and Rumi, the only people who have ever given him the time of day. (remember, he may be doing this because he feels that he has a debt to the both of them, although I’m speculating bc it hasn’t been discussed much in canon) In episode 11, he challenges their goals outright and says he disagrees with their motives, but he stays anyways. He compromises his own values for Rumi and Thanatos because he’s lonely and he won’t stand up for himself. If he’s showed a propensity for bending to others’ (especially Rumi’s) wishes, he’s definitely primed to do so in the future--and that could be dangerous, especially in a partnership, because it leads to an imbalance of power.

Plus, Rumi’s dynamic with Peter is becoming more and more concerning, especially after their relationship became explicitly romantic in episode 11. A bit after the hour mark of that episode, there’s a moment that stuck out to me: Rumi and Peter are discussing their goals with Thanatos, and Rumi makes a comment that there’s no point to arguing with him, because obviously Thanatos will never understand Peter the way that Rumi does. And later in that episode, Rumi becomes competitive with Thanatos for Peter’s attention, becoming easily jealous and giving Peter gifts so he doesn’t feel closer to Thanatos than to Rumi. Rumi, whether he realizes it or not, has a significant amount of influence over Peter because he controls a majority of his life, (leading their adventure, choosing him, claiming to have divine sight that shows him the future, which he needs Peter for, emotional stability with a lack of loneliness or dismissal, etc). By separating Peter from Thanatos, the only other one in the group, he is isolating Peter and making him more reliant on Rumi himself. He is assuring that no one, not even Thanatos, can be trusted above Rumi. These are not the only instances of this either-- a lot of Rumi’s dialogue after the Fade to Black in episode 11 is truly unnerving to watch.

tl;dr: Although they may not be trying to establish one, Angelstone is showing signs of building an unbalanced power structure in the future, with Rumi on top, that will probably lead to a toxic environment for them both down the line.

#queue #help girl I’ve become emotionally invested in fictional characters again #and i WILL go into heavy detail #is this coherent #i tried to get All of the Thoughts Out but if y'all need clarification i would be happy to elaborate lol im not great at articulating my tho #thoughts #rumi jrwi #jrwi rumi #peter sqloint #angelstone #apotheosis #jrwi apotheosis #uhh #how to tag #tag tag tag #pretend i'm competent

[tricoufamily]

no ok we finished episode 2 what they have done to katara is unforgivable. they have completed zapped every ounce of her personality away. why. why. look how they massacred my girl

#i haven't even GOTTEN to azula mai and ty lee i'm scared #why the hell they're even IN season 1 is beyond me but whatever #i cannot fucking believe the amount of exposition dumping. did a 10 year old write this #this actually would be a very good lesson for young beginner writers actually #if someone's like 'i don't really get the show don't tell rule' show them this. then show them the cartoon. THAT is show don't tell #all. they. do. is. TELL. it's INSANE #zuko is the best actor at least but that's kind of like winning a game of chess against a broom #it's statistically impossible that they could only find ONE actor who can deliver a line competently. it's impossible #i delivered better lines pretending to earth bend w my sister at age 7 #i'm so confused about katara though. #like yeah the 'sokka can't be sexist that's problematic (that was the entire point)' is stupid #but that is at least AN explanation for why he's different. why on earth would you make katara like that #i can't even make an ember island players joke. at least their katara showed emotion??? #really fun hate watch to do w other avatar fans 10/10 recommend #when gran gran started saying the intro and it was so awkward jdskfjdsfldsjfslkfjlkfs i was LOSING IT

[b4kuch1n]

took a mock ielts test today

#bakuspeech #honestly can not estimate how well I did with written competencies at All they could give me a goose egg and I'd be like. harsh but fair #but the speaking test was SO funny. bc I had to sit there and pretend like I didn't learn english from using tumblr for a decade #and. well. from writing anime fics. and [redacted] fics #so yeah yesterday and today's been dedicated to lunar new year stuff and mock test prep #as in. trying to remember the things I needed to bring to the exam room. which I did forget at home btw. good thing I went two hours #earlier than I shouldve #taking one single formalized aptitude test like ah yeah . this is why I'm not in school no more #twelve years of french to beat language aptitude testing into my very bones and five years out its all already a big open beautiful void #how did I manage that C1. they were 100% taking pity on me #anyways. I think Im good to sleep now. just figured a thing out excited to see it take shape properly #alright have a good night lads. enjoy uhhh words I guess. nice shoelaces u got there

[tosahobi-if]

if you don't mind me asking who were the other ros?

i'm guessing you mean the ros who didn't make the final cut? there are three of them:

gender-selectable walking red flag

the human embodiment of the "this is where i watched my parents die raphael" "COWABUMMER" audio

First Class Hater <3

you'll still meet them and they play a fairly large part in the story, they're just on the back burner for now! there's four official ros so i guess you could call them "unofficial" ros? something like that? flirtmances? (we'll cross that bridge when we get there.)

#anon #as long as you don't codedive #we can all pretend i'm competent at game dev

[keelanrosa]

terfs when a study shows literally anything positive about trans people/transitioning: 'hm i think this requires some fact-checking. Were those researchers REALLY unbiased? Because if they were biased this doesn't count and if they weren't knowingly biased they probably were unconsciously biased, woke media affects so much these days. Have there been any other studies on this? Because if there haven't been this could be an outlier and if there have been and they all agree that's a bit odd, why aren't there any outliers, and if there have been and any disagree we really won't know the truth until we very thoroughly analyze them all, will we? Were there enough subjects for a good sample size? Did every single subject involved stay involved through the whole study because if they didn't we should be sure nothing shady was going on resulting in people dropping out. Are we 110% sure all the subjects were fully honest and at no point were embarrassed or afraid to admit they didn't love transitioning to the people in charge of their transition? Are we 110% sure none of the subjects were manipulated into thinking they were happy with their transition? In fact we should double-check what they think with their parents, because if the subjects and their parents disagree it's probably because they've been manipulated but their cis parents have not and are very unbiased. How many autistic subjects were there because if there weren't enough then this doesn't really study the overlap between autistic and trans and if there were too many then we just don't know enough about what causes that overlap to be sure this study really explains being trans and isn't just about being autistic. How many AFAB subjects were there because if there weren't enough this is just another example of prioritizing AMAB people and ignoring the different struggles of girls and women and if there were too many how do we know sexism didn't affect the results. Was the study double-blinded? We all know double-blinded is the most reliable so if this one wasn't that's a point against it even if the thesis literally physically could not be double-blinded. Look i'm not being transphobic, i want what's best for trans people! Really! But as a person who is not trans and therefore objective in a way they cannot possibly be, i just think we should only take into account Good Science here. You want to be following science and not being manipulated or experimented upon by something unscientific, right?'

terfs when they see a study of 45 subjects so old it predates modern criteria for gender dysphoria and basically uses 'idk her parents think she's too butch', run by a guy who practiced conversion therapy, 'confirmed' by a guy who treated the significant portion of subjects who didn't follow up as all desisting, definitely in the category of 'physically cannot double-blind this', completely contradicted by multiple other studies done on actual transgender subjects, but can be kinda cited as evidence against transitioning if you ignore everything else about it: 'oOOH SEE THIS IS WHAT WE'RE TALKIN BOUT. SCIENCE. Just good ol' unbiased thorough analysis. I see absolutely no reason to dig any deeper on this and if you think it's wrong you're the one being unscientific. It's really a shame you've been so thoroughly brainwashed by the trans agenda and can't even accept science when you see it. Maybe now that someone has finally uncovered this long-lost study from 1985, we can make some actual progress on the whole trans problem.'

#science #transphobia #cass review #less 'cass review' generally more 'zucker specifically' because this same problem exists outside cass #have lost count of the number of times i've seen 'well THAT study may have said most trans kids persist but it MUST be wrong' #'there's another study says the exact opposite. that one's right. obviously.' #but cass is why i'm annoyed by it now #normally i don't have a problem with critical observations and questions. yeah check your science! that's good! #there have been some bullshit studies and some bullshit interpretations of good studies! scientific literacy is important! #and normally also am willing to pretend the people pulling reaction 1 on some studies and reaction 2 on others are. not the same group. #but now there's a ton of cass supporters tryna say 'oh the cass review didn't reject or downplay anything for being pro-trans!' #'some studies just weren't given much weight for being poor evidence! not our fault those were all studies with results trans people like!' #…….………….aight explain why zucker's findings are used for the 'percentage of trans kids who don't stay trans' stat instead of anyone else's. #would've been more scientifically accurate to say 'yeah we just don't know.' #'studies have been done but none of them fit our crack criteria sooooo *shrug*' #like COME ON at least PRETEND you're genuinely checking scientific correctness and not looking for excuses to weed out undesirable results #am also mad about zucker in particular because his is possibly the most famous bullshit study #quite bluntly if you're doing trans research and think 'yeah this one seems reasonable' you. are maybe not well-informed enough for the job #there's just no way you genuinely look at the research with an eye toward accurate science regardless of personal bias #and walk away thinking 'hm that zucker fellow seems reasonable. competent scientists will respect that citation.' #that's one or two steps above doing a review of vaccine science and seriously citing wakefield's mmr-causes-autism study #it doesn't matter what the rest of your review says people are gonna have OPINIONS on that bit #and outside anti-vaxxers most of those opinions will be 'are you actually the most qualified for this because ummmm.' #people who agree with everything else will still think someone more competent could've done a much better job #people who disagree with everything else will point to that as proof you don't know shit and why should we listen to you #anyway i'd love a hugeass trans science review with actual fucking standards hmu if you know of one cause this ain't it #……does tumblr still put a limit on how many tags you can include guess me and my tag essay are about to find out.

[chaos-has-theories]

Absolutely devastated to learn that I was misremembering a specific detail from HtN.

She was glad to see that someone—maybe his mother, the mawkish Sister Glaurica—had painted his face as his father had once painted his own, with a solid black jaw to represent the Mouthless Skull. This was not because she had any especial love for the Mouthless Skull, as paint sacrament went. It was merely because any jawéd skull he affected became a wide white skull with depression.

For some reason I was convinced that Ortus exclusively wears the Mouthless Skull. I thought I remembered a discussion - or at least an implication - that he does it deliberately. He knows what happened to his father. He never speaks of it until he starts suspecting that he's dead, and may well die a second time. It would not be too surprising, if he'd at least suspected the truth about the creche flu. I thought -

I thought it was a deliberate act of rebellion. Something like civil disobedience. Look at me, it seemed to say. I am silent. I am silenced.

But no. He wears the Skull of the Anchorite Dying (whatever that means) at the arrival to Canaan House.

Oh well.

#i would like to pretend to myself that the anchorite dying was also jawless but Harrow has clearly seen him with jawed paint before #it just seemed to fit so nicely with all the vows of silence surrounding Harrow you know? #but I'm not sure where I picked that up #but hey: there's definitely something there about Harrow uncharitably assuming that Ortus doesn't do his own paint. #At 'anchorite dying' she says 'some idiot painted it (probably Ortus)' because - yeah who else?? #but I think it's meant to draw attention to her earlier assumption. She thinks him so much less competent and adult than he is #which Gideon does as well - and yes Glaurica can be overbearing and Ortus doesn't seem to have much backbone in life - #but I do think it reflects more on two children raised without parents at all. #the locked tomb #chaos rambles #(i might just add this headcanon to my fanfic anyway. who can stop me etc etc) #no place like home

[setaflow]

My one opinion of Kenobi at this point is that Hayden Christensen deserves to chase George Lucas around with a knife.

#Star Wars #Obi Wan Kenobi #Anakin Skywalker #For context: George Lucas directed Episodes 2 and 3 and most people RAILED against Hayden's portrayal of young Anakin #And I'm not going to pretend it was secretly good or anything: it really wasn't lol #But a good chuck of that is DEFINITELY due to Lucas's writing and directing #Now that he's in an actual series with competent directing/writing? Surprise! He's good now! #Yeah after the prequels basically tanked his career he deserves to make Georgie run for his life <3 #I hope HC gets a bit of a career revival out of this series. LET HIM WORK! #Seta Speaks

[snowfea]

Been working on a school project for 48 hours almost non stop, if I hear about PV panels again I'm yeeting these things into the sun

#Belette's life #We -group project- will have to pretend to be a real estate developer #and act like we're competing to get a project in a French town #and I FOOLISHLY said I'd take care of doing the maths to know how much the PV panels were gonna cost us VS what they would give back to the #to the future users #and NONE OF THE MATHS MAKE SENSE #OUR NUMBERS LOOK WEIRD #Are they even correct? Idk but I sure as hell gonna announce them as though nothing's wrong #we have three (3) presentations tomorrow #I have another presentation on Tuesday #thankfully none on Thursday? yay #an exam on Friday - law exam. haven't started studying. that'll be a problem for Wednesday #don't have time before that #then next Monday another presentation #THEN ON TUESDAY A FUCKING FINAL PRESENTATION IN FRONT OF COUNCILLORS AND SUCH #and possibly the mayors of the towns we're working on? #after that #holidays #still don't have an internship but that's a problem for after I'm done with all that #at least I have my cat and my gf

[allpromarlo]

alonso podium + ocon disasterclass. today was a good day

#alpine's downfall is in full effect and i'm enjoying every second of it #gasly is catching some stray bullets here but that's just the price he has to pay for driving for that fuckass team #also ocon was just hilariously bad today not even as a joke #3 penalties of which you could've avoided 2 if you were a competent formula one racing driver? only ocon lmfao #get bent #sawry #f1 #bahrain gp 2023 #fernando alonso #some rando asked me to keep it out the tags and i'll do it bc i'm nice obviously #but that don't mean i'm gonna pretend he's not there #number 31 for alpine #the french bastard with a spanish first name #ocon #GET IN THE BIN 🗣️🗣️

[autisticcassandracain]

is it just me or is batman like. significantly more tolerable outside of gotham comics than in

#my laptop's still letting me use tumblr without major issues and i'll make that everyone else's problem #anyway. i'm not saying batman outside of gotham is never insufferable to read bc he absolutely can be #when they write him like a gary sue and pretend that he's the most powerful member of a justice league that includes you know #superman and wonder woman #but also from the admittedly limited justice league comics i've read so far as well as the cameos i've seen of bats in other comics #he's just like. 200% more likeable #this post is about wonder woman issue 293 btw #he's out there doing a group hug without major blackmail and not protesting when clark announces bats and he both love diana #he's also engaging in casual conversation and treating clark and diana as on equal footing with him #and he didn't even have to go through a 12 issue arc or have an emotional breakdown about any of it #it's like. gotham comics are almost 100% guaranteed to work their reality around him and make sure you know he's the bestest ever #and all the energy goes towards making him grim and serious and traumatized while also being cool in an action figure kinda way #meanwhile a lot of comics outside of gotham go more like. hey this is bruce. he's a cool superhero who's really smart and competent #he's also kind of a loser who takes himself way too seriously and like maybe two people in this building like him #and the rest are not afraid to make fun of him either to his face or the moment he turns around #i know this is not the case for all comics and there's still a very very good chunk of them that make him the Coolest Boy Ever #but like. even just. seeing him treat other people as being on equal footing with him or even better than him #just makes him SO much more tolerable #like tower of babel or whatever that arc was called had a bunch of rlly dumb takes on how bruce could 'outplay' the justice league #but like. bruce still treated the rest of the justice league as on his level or better. it's why he bothered to MAKE those plans #you just don't rlly get that in gotham. the closest we get is if nightwing shows up bc then we might get an 'oh he's the best of us' #inner monolgue about how proud bruce is of dick. sometimes we'll get an inner monolgue about the other heroes too #but those monologues are the exception not the rule and they are almost never said out loud to anyone #and if they ARE it's only after an arc of bruce being a fucking ass as an apology and it's. insufferable. #idk maybe it's just bc i read more batman comics than justice league comics but still. #bruce is usually just. SO much more likeable in basically any comic not set in gotham to me #i bet if you made him spend a few weeks in metropolis or something his mental health issues would go away actually #he's just vitamin d deficient and it's making him cranky #my posts #bruce wayne

[firebirdsdaughter]

Episode idea…

… Someone kidnaps Mac and uses him as leverage to force Jack to hunt down and assassinate someone, w/ Riley and Bozer getting the insanely difficult task of trying to do a complicated dance of protecting the target from Jack while he tries to give them as much leeway as possible without being obvious, while they also try to figure out who has Mac and rescue him.

Naturally the resolution would involve Mac partially breaking out himself, Jack getting to beat the hell out the people behind it.

#MacGyver (2016) #MacGyver 2016 #I have a sudden love for Jack being super terrifying competent and going into scary Delta mode #partially instilled by watching that ep where Mac pretends to be Murdoc and at the end Jack's just #casually shooting the Organisation dudes with a handgun #and I'm just like #when Jack's serious he's scary #so like he's trying to go easy on them but he can't go too easy bc then the villains will kill MAc #anyway while I totally get why people are all after Mac for his skillset #I realised that Jack's probably got an equally desirable skill set albeit in one particular field #so I love the idea of someone trying to use that #like let Jack be scary and cool #I absolutely agree he's jokey and childish as an active choice to cope w/ his past/work #and I do think partially his relationship w/ Mac allows him to do that #he was so down to go home #we know his previous tour did a number on him #but he finds this kid who's a different kind of cocky and not good w/ people and accidentally becomes his dad #they saved each other #Jack helps Mac relax and get out of his brain and enjoy things and Mac gives Jack hope and well a little Jack XD #Jack needed to be a dad and Mac needed a dad #literally fate was like 'I will give these two children the largest father issues ever and then I will send them the most lovable doofus' #Bring Your Son To Work To The Extreme With Spies

[ithoughtuweregoingforahug]

i think employers should be more honest about what a job is actually about. like tell me the worst things i'll have to do, tell me exactly how extroverted i need to be. i don't need to know if i wanna do the easy fun things, i need to know if i'll be okay with the worst parts of the job.

#job interview went badly and i'm bitter about it #like what do you mean actually we hate it when people who wanna work at a bookstore love literature ??? #hate how you have to be extroverted (or able to pretend you are) to do anything in this economy #major problem that i am not only introverted and shit at presenting myself but also from my core refuse to pretend to be someone i'm not #what are jobs you don't need social competences for asking for a friend #conner.txt

[perlukafarinn]

the first eurovision semifinals are airing in an hour and i will be liveblogging them so blacklist "eurovision 2023" if you hate joy

as repeatedly stated, this may be a spn sideblog (more of a star trek one recently tbf) but eurovision is and always will be my #1 fandom

#eurovision 2023 #we're not competing tonight but i'll be working on thurs so i prob won't be able to liveblog then #not that i'm all that excited about our entry #it's cute and i like diljá but we have yet to repeat the heights we reached in 2020 #(the year we would have won i will die on this hill) #anyway lets not pretend like loreen isn't gonna sweep this year #i'm gonna enjoy the competition anyway even if there's a foregone conclusion #oops can you tell from these tags i'm already drunk from pregaming

[mntcoronet]

*pause moment* hey why the fuck did I just realise that during high school, I felt like a fair number of my peers (from outside my friends group) treated me somewhat more "softly" or like a child than they would've done with other people. and why was that

#maggles ramblings #like idk if they were actually doing that or if that's just what i Felt was happening #but. when they'd have to talk to me for things; like short 'do this in pairs' stuff; i def felt like they treated me differently #like I'd point out something in the thing we were looking at and they'd go 'oh wow good observation!!' as if we weren't the same age #maybe they just acted differently cos they didn't wanna be doing it. which like sure. but man u could at least try to discuss the topic #or did i seem like too much of a shy little creature that only just learned human speech that they forgot i was competent enough to get A's #but hhh man idk. i never know how people perceive me that's the real issue here #i can sorta make estimations based on how they talk to me; i can tell well enough if someone just doesn't wanna keep talking to me #but that doesn't mean i can figure out WHY. but i do know that sometimes it feels like.. they pick up on something about me #like i can roughly tell whether the person talking to me still considers me Just A Normal Guy or if they've realised like 'hey... #this person doesn't quite Get It with regards to social/conversation stuff'. bc of the way they talk. but i still never know why!! #like sure every time i go have conversations with new people i feel like I'm just pretending to be A Normal Person yknow #and when other people who seem very socially competent Keep talking to me i just think oh wow you haven't figured it out yet that's wild #figured what out? idk that I'm just pretending i guess. about what? uh good question just pretending in general #pretending like i know what to say; that it feels completely Natural to talk like that; like I'm not mentally rating each of my actions #but then sometimes there's people i just feel like i don't have to do that around nearly as much. i swear i gravitate towards those ppl #but yeah it's just. it def feels like they know I'm Not Getting something when i talk to a lot of people. like they Know i missed a memo #and i don't even know what the memo is about; or whether I've gotten any of the previous memos or just absorbed the knowledge #by observing things. ya #ok im done with that train of thought i need to go and work on that au i accidentally stayed up till 2am last night thinking of ideas for

[returnforevermore]

when u go to queue things but you post instead >:/

#ooc. #pretend i'm a competent rp-er okay

[wtnytv]

alright babes i think we've really hit a dead end with this crush situation, he might've just gone on a date with someone else 🙃

#okay so i told friends from uni about my interest #so i got some info on him which was great #but they were also like oh yeah i have heard from other people too that they like him #so yeah already not great cheers #and then after class we were gonna drink a soda or something cause it was warmmm #and then we met up with three girls who were also gonna get a drink there #and i stupidly didn't talk to them so i don't have the info #but my friends were like oh he's gonna be here too 😏 so i was like okay fun 🧍🏻‍♀️ #but then the three girls and him went to sit somewhere else so yeah 🧍🏻‍♀️ #and then my friends and i decided to get drinks somewhere else #and when we were leaving they were like yeah they're practically having a double date or something #but idk if it was actually a double date or just a chat for this group thing they're in or whatever #i think they just said that jokingly but #idkkkkkkkkk #i just think it's too complicated if there's other girls interested in him too yk #i don't wanna compete with other girls for some guy ygm #okay bye now i will go and pretend i'm fine and never actually cared about him to begin with ✌🏻 #tihygtg anon #manon's monologue