#earlier than I shouldve

[b4kuch1n]

took a mock ielts test today

#bakuspeech #honestly can not estimate how well I did with written competencies at All they could give me a goose egg and I'd be like. harsh but fair #but the speaking test was SO funny. bc I had to sit there and pretend like I didn't learn english from using tumblr for a decade #and. well. from writing anime fics. and [redacted] fics #so yeah yesterday and today's been dedicated to lunar new year stuff and mock test prep #as in. trying to remember the things I needed to bring to the exam room. which I did forget at home btw. good thing I went two hours #earlier than I shouldve #taking one single formalized aptitude test like ah yeah . this is why I'm not in school no more #twelve years of french to beat language aptitude testing into my very bones and five years out its all already a big open beautiful void #how did I manage that C1. they were 100% taking pity on me #anyways. I think Im good to sleep now. just figured a thing out excited to see it take shape properly #alright have a good night lads. enjoy uhhh words I guess. nice shoelaces u got there

[colorful-horses]

ponytober day 28: elements

#mlp fim #my little pony friendship is magic #my little pony #mlp #shes. an. elemental. pony #grass and water on her body. little stars from her antlers to be. fire #whatever #it was gonna be better than this but i literally had only an hour to work on it before i was gonna post it too late #so this is the best i got #definitely one of my worse inktobers i gotta say #they cant all be winners #i wasnt actually able to start drawing until around 9 30 pm so this is literally all i can do lmao #i shouldve just posted that g5xg4 crossover inktober i did earlier this month #really wasted that drawing on that prompt LOL

[cacowhistle]

thinking about the fionna and cake finale and. i've been seeing people upset or annoyed that betty & simon's story focused on how simon had to learn to recognize that what they had was unbalanced and not necessarily fair, because they wanted betty to also realize that she placed too much of her self worth in simon, and they wanted her to learn to live for herself.

i think these people forgot about the episode in adventure time that does this. mainly because, at the end of the episode, it seems like she didn't learn anything at all.

In s10e11, "Temple of Mars," Finn, Jermaine, and Betty have to go through a mind maze to find Jake--and many parts of the maze are relevant to Betty's obsession with Simon/Ice King.

The second room of the "maze" has a chalkboard with a long and complicated equation on it. Betty tries to solve it, thinking it will help, while an Ice Thing messes up the equation as she tries to solve it, preventing her from doing so. It's meant to represent how trying to "solve" the crown's curse is leading nowhere, and that Betty is trying for a hopeless cause.

The last room is the most important to Betty's story, though--it's a window into her past, where she realizes that she needed to take more time for herself. She needed to focus on her, instead of dropping everything for Simon. She makes this realization and changes things for the hypothetical, maze room version of Betty--but naturally, this can't change the past. She's made her choices, and she has to live with that.

I think at the end of the episode, when she takes the "wrong" message away from all of this--she dedicates herself to trying even harder to "fix" Simon--it's mostly because she's scared to accept that she... not wasted, but lost so much of her life because she was so focused on what Simon wanted, or what she thought that Simon needed. She's also still under the effect of the Magic Man hat, so she's still affected by the sadness/madness of that, which likely twisted her view of the situation as well.

But then in the AT finale, she makes her choice to leave Simon. She does it through wishing for his safety, sure, but she still makes the choice to leave him. And in Fionna and Cake, what we see of her--or what's left of her, because we don't know how she's changed, really--is something bigger than what she was before. GOLBetty seems to have realized her own part in the unbalancing of the relationship between them. But that's not what Fionna and Cake is about--it's about Simon, and how he has to move on. Betty has already moved on by the time we see her again. She's showing Simon that, and she's showing him that he has to move on, too. But it's her choice. She could have stayed with him, but...

She takes the bus to the airport. And she takes it without him.

#adventure time #fionna and cake #simon petrikov #betty grof #adventure time analysis #fionna and cake analysis #idk. thinking thoughts. #they're so important 2 me. they are so in love #they had to MOVE ON and they have to LIVE WITHOUT EACH OTHER and they have to do whats right for themselves and im so normal abt it i swear #and betty made that realization earlier than simon did but she was too afraid to admit it until now #and she was right!!! and simon recognized that!!! and he let her go!!! and she wanted to go!!!! im so. augh. #also hot take but some ppl saying they wanted betty to “realize that she was also at fault” are just taking the whole situation as like #“uwu simon didnt do anything WRONG betty never TOLD HIM how was he supposed to know it was happening so really its HER FAULT” like girl no #they are both at fault. she shouldve done something but he shouldve noticed #augh. im unwell about them. anyways

[elegyofthemoon]

i love the readables sm in penacony because the unsuspecting readables also have a lot of lore to them

so i'm currently trying to read through Hanu's Adventure so i can be sure to have all information before i start rambling but the little pieces of dialogue that is from the original memory of what happened with the rebellion made me so curious:

assuming that clockie stands for the watchmaker, the watchmaker tried to create a plan to lure the IPC into their own territory before trying to attack, but from the way that this is written - with clockie not understanding the significance and how offensive his actions are - it makes it sound like clockie is new to the scene ie the watchmaker was new to the rebellion

might be reading too into it though, but it's just fun when you think about the possibility that the watchmaker could have been a nameless himself

think i just need a note to self about which characters signify who on top of the "timeline of events in penacony history"

#avil plays hsr #i have a mission today and it is to read a bunch of the readables. #im going to fail miserably but ill just be rambling through it dont mind me asdklfaklh #TBH I SHOULDVE WRITTEN WHAT I HAD THOUGHT ABOUT FOR GALLAGHER EARLIER #BECAUSE I REALLY DONT REMEMBER WHAT I WANTED TO SAY #THATS WHY I JUST POST ON THE SPOT INSTEAD OF WAITING ASDLKFJASDKLAFHDL #IF I WAIT THEN I FORGET LMAOOOOOO #technically i did already post about gallagher and then pink and i were discussing it so :D theres THAT at least #but idk if i wanted to say more than that #i think my mission today is just 'clear up the penacony timeline in my noggin' #and then see how that plays out into the rest of the story

[bidamonalbarn]

ty @noraincsl for the tag!!!

my top nine films of 2023 in no particular order

this was so hard I only picked films I saw for the first time in 2023 to ease the pain

Stars At Noon (2022)

i'm thinking of ending things (2020)

All Of Us Strangers (2023)

Shut Up And Sing (2006)

Boy Erased (2018)

Run Lola Run (1998)

Spiderman: Across The Spiderverse Pt 1 (2023)

Un Prophète (2009)

Flee (2021)

tagging (no pressure!): @naomismcpherson @surrowndedbylights @alltheliars @anxiouspunk @kitsebastianconnor @thebadwitch @thelastattempt and anyone else who wants to!!

#also ignore the ones i definitely shouldve seen earlier than 2023 (un prophète) #tag game

[britneyshakespeare]

i hate that i've been complaining about everything in my life lately but if you're a frequent reader of my personal posts (side note, if you are: why. also i'm sorry) but if you remember earlier this week on tuesday i slipped outside and hurt my knee. i didn't end up seeing a doctor about that bc they literally had no openings when i talked to the secretary she was like i am so sorry sweetie. we can't take you for the rest of the week and i was like oh. and after a couple days it didn't hurt sooooo much although i think the limp ive been walking w has not been doing me any favors. but now today especially (? for some reason) BOTH of my legs were really hurting. i'm wondering if that might somehow be related to me getting my period today bc sometimes. you know how period pain can just end up wherever it wants. but then around 8 o'clock today i stubbed the SHIT out of one of my toes and i think i might have injured it (? i dont think it's broken but i cant stand on it and it's been hours). this is my left foot and the knee i hurt on tuesday was on my right leg. i am literally limping on both sides of my body now and i cant stand or walk.

#shout out to me being irritable with my family. sowwyyyyyy #EVERYTHING HURTS WHEN I TRY TO MOVE FROM PLACE TO PLACE #i dont know if i can handle seeing people tomorrow and it's Literally Christmas #i told kaily i wanted her to carry me to my bed earlier like im a little kid who fell asleep in the car and she said no :( #sisters are USELESS #tales from diana #menstruation cw #injury cw #maybe i shouldve gone to urgent care or the er about my knee earlier this week #i was starting to think i didnt seriously injure it but now im having doubts? or maybe i walked on it too much yesterday #i really was doing WAY too much walking yesterday but i kinda couldnt help it #my adhd body Wants To Move all the time even when i know i should be taking it easy #thats always been a problem w me whenever ive needed to limit my exertion. i just want to wander and fidget #i have a hard time staying still it makes me feel insanely unhappy #theres no better way to describe it #but i cant. move. now. sooooo #i dont know if i mightve broken my toe or not but its kinda swollen #how common is it to break a toe really? theyve got. theyve got a lot of little tiny bones #i dont know id think its more common to break a toe if you crushed it under something #i stubbed it. REALLY hard. like harder than even a normal really bad toe-stubbing. #i dont know. i dont know. i dont know. #can i have a wheelchair for christmas just for like a week at least #and get someone to carry me up and down the stairs?

[piosplayhouse]

This is some deep lore but fun fact about me I went through a period of several months where I'd read nearly every single wangxian fic that was posted on ao3 every single day. So I was literally on the tag like 7 hours a day, and since I did this for a while uh. I firsthand remember when Sexytimes With Wangxian was first posted. And every time it subsequently updated

#also fun fact this didn't even stop when i had surgery so the reason i cant listen to the hamilton soundtrack anymore is because i was #reading fic while super nauseous from wisdom teeth surgery and uh. the fic i read had a lot of hamilton references in it. 😭😭 #in retrospect. i think it was probably part of an ocd compulsion GHGHH #like not trying to say like reading fics every day is cringey youre cool if you do that i just mean i was literally doing it during all #of my free time and i had a weird methodology to it that in retrospect . yeah i probably shouldve started meds earlier than i did #HSJHWJSJ #Deep lore

[ria-starstruck]

hal redesign btw. if u even care

feat me fighting for my life under the cut

#yayyy i loaf her #was fighting 5 my life to get this redesign redesign'd but hehehe im happy w it now im happy w her yayyy #n then was like i wanna color more stuff i wanna finish color more stuff let me do things as rough as possible (a finished piece still took #longer than it shouldve DFSHFDLDHKD) #hale_cale #briars_ocs #my_ocs #bug_world #original character #character ref #may add some small changes to her yet #wanted 2 have her w vitiligo patches on her face too but they just were Not working out...hoping that as i get more familiarized w #this redesign ill b able to figure out good placement for that #an earlier ver had her w white eyelashes but that was NOT working out...was actually contributing to some of the difficulty i was having

[ribbed-vault-heart]

“cloth gowns” did something to my brain i think. i read “goth” and thought “oh cool people are getting into clown fashion :•]”

#you know how your brain cant tell when youre sleep deprived? #i think thats whats up today #i keep reading and seeing things wrong #i woke up earlier than i shouldve and couldnt fall back asleep so #oof

[transgaysex]

sewing hard

#wind howls #i need to finish my wizard robe for tuesday bc it will be a costume prop for my film production class final #'ez arent you on week 7 out of 15. how come youre starting your final now' the teacher wants us to kill ourselves. hope this helps ! #i shouldve finished it way earlier anyway. i started this a bit before halloween. and couldnt finish it then bc i got covid. devastating. #but i just had to go run my mouth and tell my team that i have a robe cape of sorts that could serve as a shady witch's robe. aurgh !!! #what ever. i have a bunch of trims to do (one of the front trims is done but the other isnt. and then the sleeves. and then the bottom) #and the final line connecting the sleeves and whatnot and then its dobe #done* #i can likely finish it tonight. and really i should. because i have to dedicate my weekend to my accessory modelization assignment #worst comes to worst and i dont finish the robe tonight i can speedrun it on monday night but i would rather die than do that #so. wish me strength and luck. sewing is a lonely art

[jeysbvck]

train & coach tickets booked for my birthday!! no longer do i have to panic!!!

#shan shouts into the void #i still will tho #ive checked my tickets are right 4 times already and i booked them 30 mins ago #i did kinda fuck one up & get an earlier coach than i shouldve but its fineeeeee

[wresadd]

Im not sure why you're here, but hello!

I mostly reblog others' art and writings. I post my own stuff rarely, so don't expect it.

My (re)blog(s) are very disorganised because i forget to tag, and it's probably too late to go back and tag everything, but i might attempt to at some point.

#pinned post #i shouldve made this earlier i think #but better late than never

[kip-has-fleas]

real moment in my life 5 years ago

me at age ten: puberti my mom: chest buperty holder *gives bra* me: me: *genuine panic* what my mom: will make pubooby look big me: *refuses to wear the bra*

#shouldve known i was #transgender #way earlier than i did

[aroacesigma]

sitting in the counselling office doing my work and seeing that mfing teacher that is currently half the reason im stressed walk by . currently resisting the urge to run out and whack him

#ramblings #i hate this motherfucker hes the worst teacher ive ever had #sir our exam block is in less than a week !!! you think you shouldve taught us stuff earlier ?? no ?? #or do you think you should have fucking pulled out ur dj board in the middle of class after being late to every class #so many times that we missed the equivalent of 20 lesson last semester

[tfshouldidohere]

i have never felt that anxious in my entire life

#ok so i went to the mall today #and my mom usually picks me up from the mall wnvr im there cuz she passes by the mall when shes coming home from work #but today her sched was running a lil later than usual so she wouldnt be able to get off of work til 8 #so she told me to go home first using the Mall's Bus™ #i have nvr used the mall's bus within the two years ive lived in the city mind u ^^^ #and bcuuuuuuz of that #i spent an extra 2hrs waiting for the bus bcuz i didnt know there was #1: a ticket booth area (cuz usually most buses here pay on the bus) #and 2: a fucking line for first come first serve seats #which tbf i shouldve figured that out cuz there were literal signs but i wasnt thinking straight ok 🧍🏻‍♀️ #so when its almost 8 im like "oh no what if my mom gets out of her meeting earlier than expected n that she's looking for me and im not hom #omg she might think i got kidnapped (there was a recent incident of #someone getting stabbed w a needle w drugs in the busier part of the city) #and i didnt want her to panic so i tried chatting her on messenger that im still at the mall waiting for the bus #and i was suuuper panicky so i ended up phrasing it like i wanted her to pick me up #and then i realized “i have no internet” cuz i forgot to buy cell data 🧍🏻‍♀️ and tht means i cant text her too #so i have to ask the girl next to me for her hotspot thingy so i can message my mom #and then she doesnt even *seen* my message bcuz she was probs still in her meeting #and then i realized im on 6% ?!?!!??! and the bus arrives ?!!?!?!?!? and i cant connect to the girl's hotspot cuz she alrdy turned it off #and alrdy got on the bus !?!?!? #and like 10 mins into the ride n then my phone vibrates and its my mom ?!?!?!? #she said she was on her way to the mall to pick me up ?!?!??!?!?! #and im trying to contact her but ?? my ?? chats ?? wont ?? go ?? thru ?? cuz i have no data ?!?!?! #AND to make things worse #i rmbrd that my BusFi teacher told me to retake the quiz i missed the other day online ?!?!?! #and she SPECIFICALLY mentioned itd be available for like the entire afternoon #but then i rmbrd that i was on my phone most of the time when i was in the mall but i didnt get any notifications for it tho ??? #so im like “?!??!!?!? what do i do ?!?!?!?!” #and so thats the story of me dying on the Mall's Bus™ #tfshouldirambles

[spootsaline]

also im 100% going to make more scene/emo sprited trolls again bc i have some of my own that i use but i need to test out how that'd work first

#basically test round #also i love scenemo so much is so hard to not come back to it again and again #i stand by the fact that ideally i shouldve been born several years earlier to properly experience that as a young tween/teen #rather than a kid trying 2 desperately get in and getting constantly cockblocked by my mom to wear rainbow and black and be generally crazy #like i got an experience but not The Experience yk?