#OUR NUMBERS LOOK WEIRD

[snowfea]

Been working on a school project for 48 hours almost non stop, if I hear about PV panels again I'm yeeting these things into the sun

#Belette's life #We -group project- will have to pretend to be a real estate developer #and act like we're competing to get a project in a French town #and I FOOLISHLY said I'd take care of doing the maths to know how much the PV panels were gonna cost us VS what they would give back to the #to the future users #and NONE OF THE MATHS MAKE SENSE #OUR NUMBERS LOOK WEIRD #Are they even correct? Idk but I sure as hell gonna announce them as though nothing's wrong #we have three (3) presentations tomorrow #I have another presentation on Tuesday #thankfully none on Thursday? yay #an exam on Friday - law exam. haven't started studying. that'll be a problem for Wednesday #don't have time before that #then next Monday another presentation #THEN ON TUESDAY A FUCKING FINAL PRESENTATION IN FRONT OF COUNCILLORS AND SUCH #and possibly the mayors of the towns we're working on? #after that #holidays #still don't have an internship but that's a problem for after I'm done with all that #at least I have my cat and my gf

[tka-trashfire]

Love that I (somehow?!) still own some stories I wrote* wayyyy back when I was four years old.

Also love that it was, uh, shit like this?

(* yes, my teacher clearly did the actual writing down of my narration, bless her, because how else would anyone have any idea that that's what this honestly baffling art is apparently supposed to be depicting XD)

#my mother didn't allow horror or ghost stories to be told in our home #but holy shit is all my kindergarten fiction just... death and weirdness #also a stunning number of dead-and-dying Jesuses #which is apparently what you get when your parents convert to a religion when you're four-years-old #(funny aside: my mother has long told this story about how much it annoyed her that my school got a therapist to check on me #when I was in kindy bc they were worried about me and/or what was happening in my personal life. #My Mum's take has always been that it was very unreasonable of them #and I guess I've never really questioned that stance too much. #Until uh now #after looking at what I was apparently drawing and writing. Dead Jesus really is Kind Of A Lot as a leitmotif ngl.) #...very random post brought to you by an unplanned segue in my Drowning In Paperwork Tasks Shit #lol

[neuromantis]

the tattoo artist said my collarbones are "incredible" and "aesthetic", thanks, i am dying for these.

#ed tw #one of our clients came in for the first time in a year and she went like ''i haven't seen you in a year and you've gotten so thin!'' #like some random person remembered how i looked a year ago? #it's like that weird ed limbo #i want to be told i look good because that's what i am striving for #but mostly people tell me i look sick. and that is ALSO true of course #but i've always been concerningly thin for my height because of marfans - never in my life i have been ''average healthy weight'' #it was just acceptable ''model'' type levels so no one gave a shit about my health #and now you do when i actually don't want you to? #i personally think i look good. and if that's killing me? well. like i wasn't dying before? at least my coffin wouldn't be hard to carry #if that's concerning to you too - i am eating. i am not planning to lose more and mantain just this #my GW was ridiculously low because i am number-obsessed #like many ana people #but i personally finally decided that perhaps it was TOO ridiculous #and since i like how i look now - i just have to keep this weight

[ijustwannamakeemojis]

Is it okay if you give the temp you use for the little flags?

This, this is going to sound selfish and I can't really stop you from doing so anyway but I would prefer not to?

There is a technical issue of I don't really have base versions of the flags? If I need a six stripe flag I just recolor a different six stripe flag. I also just use a little app on my phone so I can make em at work and I'm not sure what I can save it as that would be helpful?

And my poor justification for this is there aren't really a lot of pride pixel heart designs at least like that have a lot of them I can only think of one user whose name I can't remember whose hearts have a white shine to them? So a part of me wants more different styles, maybe with a different shine shape or brighter colors or sparkles or a little bigger or smaller.

But deep down the reason is just I want to make them and the idea of missing out on making one because someone else did is irrationally devastating and I don't wanna be an ass and outshine them by making it myself and posting it here. Kinda of like imagine you are putting a puzzle together and having fun. You are enjoying the hell out of the challenge, especially a particularly hard part it's exciting! and then you come home one day, and that part has been done by your roommate because they wanted to help and thought you were struggling. You say thank you because you don't wanna be an ass but you don't really wanna do the puzzle anymore because it doesn't feel like your puzzle.

God this is such a rambly way to say no but I'm not gonna stop you from saving and editing them but until I can get over this weird possessiveness towards the project and the part of my brain that is screaming "but I can make it for you!!" I don't think I can help without causing ourselves distress and I'm very sorry about that

#i do hope we can get better at this but group projects are so hard for us unless we go into it wanting it to be #but seriously just save them we use uhh pixel studio and the fill bucket is a life saver the like weird one below the normal fill tool #should probably add something to our pin about this #a smaller note is we don't get a lot of asks 90% of the flags we make are popular terms or terms we personally use and idk i wanna grow #brain like when number go up aldjha #we are looking into starting therapy so yea hopefully that goes well

[sophieswundergarten]

I would like to commend Rhonda for joining Mr. Benedict in the first place. Now, this is not to judge any of the characters, but, imagine, that you are a young orphan who has just been through several levels of an extremely weird test, only to find out they were designed by Some Guy and his adopted daughter who is a bit older than you but extremely blunt and intense (And possibly a random guy who looks like he could maybe be trustworthy or maybe mug you in a dark alley but overwhelmingly looks incredibly sad that is just s t a n d i n g t h e r e, depending on the time frame), and then all the "adults" in this situation (Or, at least, older and hopefully more knowledgable than you) tell you that the world is going to be taken over by some ambiguous entity who is using the radio to brainwash people.

Think about this.

I know that the kids had to do it, too, but when Rhonda joined, the Benedicts weren't an actual team yet. They were still in the beginning stages, with less experience and less information than by the time Reynie and the others show up. Can you imagine if they had Number Two run the cheating trick during the first tests? And if this was before Milligan arrived, then either she or Mr. Benedict would be running everything on their own, so, a lot less smoothly, and I bet less of the children respected her when she was closer to their ages. Mr. Benedict likely wouldn't have been able to kick all the kids out of the test, once they started crying and things. Why do you think it was Number Two and Milligan's job?

Like, the Mr. Benedict and co. that Rhonda had to make the decision to trust were a lot less trustworthy-seeming than the one we meet. So, good job to her for seeing them for who they were, instead of being freaked out by their strangeness.

#that or she was an incredibly weird child who just grew out of it a bit by the time she met the kids #and mr. benedict took one look at her rocking back and forth on her heels while waiting in line and speaking bembi or french #or whatever to herself and reciting types of stitches #or maybe calming a younger child who was nervous about the test #and he was like “number two i want that one. she needs to be part of our team” #and number two's like “she hasn't even taken the tests yet. you literally took one look at her and called adoption. you can't do this” #and he's like “oh yes i can i did with you and i'll do it again” #anyways i just think rhonda is super neat #and it would be fun to hear more about what she was like when she was younger #because it's said that she's only like twenty or so at most #or at least that she is only *just* an adult so she can still pass for a child #so she must have had an interesting time growing up with mr. benedict and everyone #i would enjoy reading about those years of her life #either way! #rhonda is a lovely character!! #mbs #the mysterious benedict society #rhonda kazembe #number two #mr. benedict #nicholas benedict #milligan #milligan wetherall

[semercury]

Helpful tip! Did you know? You can put items back where you originally found them if you decide you don't want them anymore. This will cause good things to happen, like preventing an employee from going postal from finding raw fucking salmon on the shelf with coconut oil!

#stuff sarah says #im going to commit acts of violence against my fellow man #its not a big store #you KNOW the fish needs to be refrigerated #this is what that tweet meant when it said retail is psychological horror genre #i take so much psychic damage when i find weird shit where it doesnt belong #artichoke on some beer cans. bananas by some flavored water #a stuffed animal hidden behind bags of whatever #that and the dumb questions #like i get not knowing where stuff is or being like i think it would be here but im not seeing it #but i got asked where the rice is #and its like. in the aisle that fucking says rice and grains #someone is looking for a thing and i say ''its in the aisle with the rice and beans all the way at the end on the right'' #and she asks me which aisle #and im like... the one that says rice and grains and global flavors #our aisles are not numbered

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Let’s play a game of “How many sensory items can I accumulate before people suspect there’s something odd going on with my brain”

#like ok I can buy a lot of stuff; but they are never on impulse #I typically wait three days before buying something small and inexpensive after seeing it for the first time #that number increases with the amount of money I have to spend #because I MUST determine if I will like and use it before I even think about buying it #to the point where I was actually mulling over which cheap bamboo flute to get at a garage sale one time (there were two; I couldn’t choose) #and my dad was like ‘just get both; they’re only 25 cents a piece’ and I went ‘Oh? I’m allowed to do that… I forgot’ #same with snacks and sweets #I cannot eat a large cookie twice in a day unless the second large cookie is a different flavor than the first #But I can eat as many small cookies as I want in a day; so long as they are in multiples of three #I can only eat one of each thing a day because it’s weird to eat the same ingredient for two meals in a day; unless it’s cooked differently #like scrambled eggs vs egg drop soup; but if I ate pancakes in the morning I won’t eat pancakes for dinner #unless they are leftovers from eating out #I can only comment once per meeting; otherwise it feels ick #anyway I bought a lot of sensory stuff in the past year lol #and I thought about each one before I bought it #I waited four whole months to buy chewelry when I knew I wanted some #but somehow that fail safe gets overridden if it’s a small business and they have something I’ve been looking for #because why wouldn’t I buy from a small business? we love our artisans in this household #especially if the business is owned by a minority group or nonprofit for a good cause

[proteuus]

im probably the second most annoying supervisor in the district rn but im so small and nice what r they going to do abt it

#i love to text my managers like hi <3 can i change my availability again to smth rlly weird <3 #i submitted this bizarre series of very specific time off requests did u see it <3 #next time i come in will you show me all the little numbers u can see in the computer with ur store manager login i want to see them <3 #i also really want to see all the other stores and store managers im like banging down their doors #let me into your store let me into your store let me into y #something i would love love love to do is spend each week at a different store until I've seen them all #this would be largely infeasible and i would need our district/ops manager to set it up for me. but would be cool #i did ask my manager tho if i could guest star as a closer for a week bc im an opener and idk what happens in the store after like 11 am #i was a closer at my old store for a long time but this new store is bonkers bananas who knows what their closes look like #oh yeah the first most annoying supervisor in the district tho is this other person that works at my store shes literally so bad.

[shiningstages]

Don't know if I said it out loud here or not, but idk how much writing I'll be able to get done in these next couple of weeks. I work 39.5 hours this week and next, with only my availability days off as my true "break time", but I usually spend those days with my dad (this Saturday I'm also going to a memorial thing.........yay). So I may just be drained of energy whenever I get home from work, soooo........See you guys when I can / my body and mind say I can!!!!!!

#;big bubble blowing baby! ( ooc ) #( i also may have to have a not fun talk with my store manager #because a fall on my knee and ankle from december has been really hurting lately; so i was gonna get the workmans comp / help #but it either was never inputted properly or it closed way too early #because when my mom and i tried to call the people: #1) my boss i did the accident report with never gave me a copy of the report itself #2) the people (to my current knowledge) never called me #3) when we asked our HR for the case number and phone number she gave us both as typos AND the case number was written wrong #on the report itself??????? #4) the people couldn't find my case under my name or case number (the woman on the phone was v sweet) #so we've had to reopen the case; get the right case number; make sure i memorize the phone number b/c they should call me #but they haven't called my yet............and my store manager requested the security footage from my fall #it's through corporate not through my store though (the workman's comp) so corporate must've thought it was weird #i promise i'm not trying to rip anyone off or cause trouble; i just want my knee and ankle to feel better;; #i also don't want him getting on my case of “well you do your job / you don't look like you hurt” because i will - #i'm one of the most hardworking in my part of the store. my mom and i aren't going to stop just b/c we hurt #we're trying to do our best jobs for the store despite pain #if they wanted me to complain about every time i hurt i would #i would gladly sit on a chair at a checklane all day if possible #all the scenarios for a talk are just running through my head rn and i'm like gfhggfkgfhgfcgckhjfg #i get in before my mom tomorrow............she said if he has to talk i can wait until she gets there so we can all talk together #i love my mom........so sweet.........i'd hate if she had to pay for anything )

[hierneneuro]

i hate how much attention my mom gives to my brother compared to me :( this sounds so childish but it's always been like this. in general i work pretty hard and try to do well, get good grades etc and it seems like he doesn't even try and he's going nowhere and gets so much attention for it. 'oh he needs help oh he needs the attention' well i would like a little bit of acknowledgement too !! i'll hear my mom on the phone with my brother sounding super animated and interested but then when i wanna talk to her about my recent good grades or my plans for next semester she's like tired and disinterested like she just doesnt care :(

#instead i will tell you guys #honours track for law is a no go!! so now my second choice is governance and global affairs #my gpa needs to be 7.0 (i realize thats prob a weird number for americans and maybe others but here our gpas are on a scale of 1 to 10) #right now my gpa is a 6.8 #i'm gonna study hard but not overdo it since i want to be able to do this track slightly naturally iykwim #and not like be working myself to the bone like see if i got my gpa to 7.0 by working way too hard #then the honour's track prob wont be a sustainable option so i wanna try my best but not go crazy #if i don't get accepted then there's still other options too so !! no biggie #in that case i can just do more extracurricular courses but there's other honours options too that aren't a full 3 year programme #those r a little easier to get into so i'll look into that if this doesnt work out #but this track is good for if you want a government job which sounds cool to me !! so i hope i get in !! #rant over

[avatardoggo]

i am the smartest girl in school

#i was at the bus station waiting for my bus tonight close to 1130 and this guy comes up to me and he’s like ‘i just wanted to say yiu look #really cute and that color (this lavender long sleeve top) looks really good on you and i was like “o ty 😊 on the outside 1000% normal but #SCREAMING on the inside and mind you a couple hours ago when i was dt with my friend this guy stuck his head out the window to say he liked #my top too so when this guy at the bus station complimented me i was like o wow ok guess this is my color even my coworkers were saying so #so bus terminal guy introduced himself and i instantly forgot his name bc i big brain smart and we just started small talking and then my bu #s came so i was like cool i can go but then we take the s a m e bus and the same stop but i didn’t tell him that i let him think i got off l #later at a different stop so we’re on the bus just talking about movies and christopher nolan ans quinton tarantino and movie nerd stuff #y’all know how i get and i’m thinking o this guys cool like i’d be his friend and then when his (our) stop comes up he asks for my number #AND I JUST GIVE IT TO HIM LIKE ???!! and i could’ve lied or given another number or just said no but i was thinking o he’s cool like he’s a #movie nerd and we can have a good discussion and like i wasn’t shaky nervous around him like my social anxiety was non existent so i was lik #o friend? but as soon as i went home to text my friend she was like GIRL WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT AND NOW ITS CLICKING THAT HE MAYBE MOST LIKEL #Y DOESNT WANT TK BE MY FRIEND BUT SOMETHING ELSE ANS HE LOWKEY LIVES NEAR ME ANDBJDJDHDHSKJSBDHDJDJJS THIS #has never happened to me like nothing of the sort i’m blaming the top and it’s color like ahshhdjdjdbdbdbd i’m flattered but no i’m not look #i got for that rn and he looked older like late 20s?and i’m baby so no tanks #hopefully i never see him on th street omgoofness that would be the worst i won’t know how to act like i thought friend as if he didn’t call #me cute upon introducing himself goodness i shouldn’t be allowed to speak for myself smh #i need to search up how to be a Normal Calm Girl Who Can Take A Compliment And Reject A Guy If Necessary Withiut Being Weird #wikihow here i come #vk overshares in the tags

[koishua]

you know you miss that person very much when you download google earth to search up your old city's address and find the school you used to go to together and retrace your steps back to your old apartment, because you used to be neighbors, in hopes that you'll see him stepping out of his house again but you know that he won't and it's only a still picture of your apartments but just the image of where you used to live is comforting enough to get you by.

#tp #can you tell i have been very sad this entire day? it's been an hour and i have been searching up all of our nine different addresses #and reminiscing the old times #we used to be in a band together haha #i just looked up the tickets to get to that one city again and it costs appr 40 euroes to and back #im thinking about paying my old friend a visit and walking by my old neighborhood hoping to catch a glimpse of him #it's okay if i dont see him. i think even seeing the apartments will be enough for me #and i get to visit my friend too so that's a win :( #she was awesome #i missed her birthday last year when she had invited me and maybe i can make up for that #haha imagine i pop up in front of my friend's doorstep and be like sup bitch it's been a long while <333 #and imagine if i actually meet him again while taking a walk around my old neighborhood #he used to tend to their small garden by their doorstep a lot in the afternoon #i dont think he's stopped haha #is it weird that i still remember their car plate number? :') #man it's been two years already and imjust as attached as always haha #i remember the time we cycled back home together after band practice once #it was a coincidence bc he always too another route and the road was filled with small banters haha #good times good times #he has the most beautiful sister too oml the cutest ever i bet she's all grown up like a head taller at least pfft #all of these bittersweet feels stem from the fact that i dreamt of him last night dbbxbxhc #it was super short and it was the memory of me joining the school band for the first time oddly enough #my other friend always asked me to join their band for like a year and i never said yes and i regret not joining them sooner #i would have had more time to spend with them had i taken up the offer sooner

[slityclayloam]

Well I completely fucked up my car registration forms and my tax is due in two weeks!!! I have never sent a cheque in my life and now I have to send one as I fucked up so badly!!!! I didn't even know we still had cheques in the uk!!! My bank is only open for 4 hours a day!!! Where the fuck am I going to get a cheque book from in time for the car tax!!! Oh god!!!

#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #shit #tbf! half of it was the government being shitty in their online form #the example they gave of a vehicle VIN was only numbers and no letters when its actually a mix so I wasted two tries on that #AND THEN it wanted to continue with my old address which is what I'm trying to change! #so I just lost all three online attempts #very cool #i also STILL don't have a passport so i can't set up a online account to pay my car tax that way #incredible #i'm thinking i'm better off getting the weird money transfer thing from the post office as although I will have to pay more at least I dont #need to wait for a cheque book which im only going to use once #also no idea how im going to print out the request new v5c thing #i very much do not have a printer as we just moved and our last place was small #i GUESS i could buy one now and then go to a post office as its only 10:30am for a postal order #yeAH thats a solution! okay that works #right! crisis now has a possible solution #very nice look into my train of thought very cool #cool just gotta go to the big tesco; buy a printer; go to the post office and then come home and deal with it

[gibbearish]

a weird little thing abt me is i will definitely mock shitty ai art but it never feels right doing it about the hands simply by virtue of the fact that a lot of them look indistinguishable from the hands i was doing years ago when i first got a drawing tablet

#like id have the right number of fingers obv but like. putting the thumb on the wrong side #fingers bending weird directions or connecting in weird places #weird anatomy at joints‚ freaky nails‚ bad proportions‚ bad perspective‚ etc etc etc #people say 'this isnt ai like in sci-fi its just machine learning' but to me its a lot more interesting to look at it as #'this isnt ai like in scifi /yet/' #like yeah the stuff ai does in fiction isnt possible at this point but like. i find it difficult not to wonder if this #is the ai version of infancy stages yknow? like. #ppl go 'its cant write its own stuff its just recycling stuff its been fed' as if thats not kinda how people . learn to talk? #idk i just find it hard to agree with arguments that act like where we currently are at is the furthest these technologies could possibly #evolve in our lifetimes #'it just makes things up' you mean like toddlers going on long winding rambles about unicorns and monsters or w/e #'it cant do art good' you mean like a child? or even just literally Anyone who doesnt know how to draw yet? #like. idk. i feel like people are trying very very hard to insist the ai of today is still the same as it was in the clevverbot days #and that its impossible to evolve any further #people want to cling to the old days when ai stuff didnt pass the turing test by a much wider marging than it tends to now #dont want to admit that it does indeed sometimes surpass the turing test and likely would be able to even moreso were it #not for restraints #(see: that one stock trading ai that did insider trading vs various chatbots not bring allowed to write disparaging things #about copyrighted people or w/e) #if ai stuff was still truly indistinguishable from human works then we wouldnt need to spend so much time #hashtag exposing things as being ai generated #and i just think its bad to‚ in pursuit of that‚ mock things that are like. just stuff all beginner artists struggle with #i guarantee you there is not a single artist out there who hasnt drawn a hand that made them want to curl up and die at least once. #i got very off-topic there but swung it back around at the end there so. hashtag win #origibberish

[florida3exclamationpoints]

Completely random thought but I'm really grateful I've never had any huge body image issues but it's crazy how much other people tried to give them to me 💀

#i have one very vivid memory #of me and a few other girls talking #and for some reason our clothes sizes came up in conversation??? #i think a group of 13yo girls should never be talking about clothing sizes anyway but #i was the ~curviest~ of us #and there were these 2 sisters who were both a lot smaller than me #and they were talking about how teeny tiny their clothes were #and how sometimes 00 jeans were too big #and they asked me what size pants i wore #i felt weird about being asked and i didn't even exactly know #i remembered that i had gotten some jeans from old navy #and they were specifically curvy cut. but size 0. curvy size 0 #and all i remembered when they asked was the number 0 #so i said that #and they looked me up and down. like. Disgusted #and said 'NO way YOU'RE size 0. WERE 00. and look how much BIGGER than us you are' #and LAUGHED at me!!! like i was lying on purpose!!!! and was disgusting!!!!! #and that!!! messed me up a good bit!!!!!! #and as ive looked back on it as ive gotten older (and curvier) im like. wow. how do people think its ok to say stuff like that 😭 #we were young but one of the girls was a few years older than me #like. come on. you think it's ok to say that???? #what kind of PARENTS???? #tw body image

[arolesbianism]

Horrible realization that if I go through with recollecting all the oni logs then I'll have to actually find out how to get "a seed is planted" like for realsies this time. Maybe I should just cheat them all in actually. <3.

#rat rambles #oni posting #a seed is planted sucks so bad its like my second favorite log and its been such a pain in the fucking ass to find #appearing then dissapearing so thourougly that I thought I might have made it up somehow making me learn to look into the god damn code to #find out if Im crazy or not only to find it along side all the story trait logs despite it being in the research notes section and Then I #open oni again to chech smth completely different and it fucking reapears out of nowhere and then the game updates and all my logs explode #this fucker has tormented me for so long and Ive seen no one else talk abt it so Im still not 100% convinced it wasnt a glitch somehow #it probably is a real log thats in the game and it disappearing is the glitch but boy do I have no way of knowing #if that is the case I can only imagine it relates to it seemingly having been intended as a story trait log #I assume it was moved to research notes because of how long it is but idk #anyways nails you motherfucker why must you have recorded one of the more lore heavy logs in the game and then made it a bitch to find #like genuinely I think its one of like 3 max logs that directly mention duplicants by name #ok ok there might be 4 I dont remember exactly #but two of those would be by jackie and one by probably nikola so nails mentioning them by name is a pretty big deal #and thats if Im remembering those logs correctly which I am likely not lol #its like 3 am ok #a seed is planted also just gives us some juicy lore relating to the actual tech we see in game #along with. that whole unnamed human subject thing. that still haunts me. #who are you subject whatever your number was and are you olivia specifically to spite me #if it wasnt for the b111-1 thing I wouldn't consider her that strong a canidate but it is a thing so she is #not only is she a strong candidate but shes like. one of like 3 real candidates we have for that #it's a weird case because it could very easily be a complete rando especially given the subject number instead of a work id being given #but also given its relation to dupes itd be weird if it wasnt someone who either worked at gravitas or otherwise got duped #which thankfully does free olivia of some possibility since as far as we know there are no olivia dupes lol #jorge and dr.holland are the other two main options in my minds eye but thats based on very little #dr.holland in particular would kind of vaguely make sense given hes mentioned in that story trait's artifact reward #but ofc given that nails does not choose to elaborate on that whole thing all I can do is blindly speculate #they also mention a name which is fun because its one of our rare complete randos in oni lore #now. he could easily be revealed to be some dupe but Im pretty sure the name was like bruce or smth so I dont consider it likely #also I am deeply curious of what this bruce guy was to nails given nails calls him 'my darling bruce'