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icedteaandoldlace · 3 months
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It started the night of the electrical storm. No one knows exactly where the storm came from or why it ended as abruptly as it started; all Kamilla knows is that one minute, everything was normal, and the next, there were streaks of lightning in all colors lighting up the sky and wreaking havoc all over the city.
And okay, maybe it was stupid to go outside in the middle of it—maybe it was really, really stupid because this is Central City, and the aftereffects of natural and unnatural disasters here are a million times weirder than anywhere else in the world. But as dangerous as this freak lightning storm looked to be, it was also really cool, and even kind of beautiful, in its own way. And Kamilla didn’t want to be a bartender forever, and no one’s ever impressed the editor of National Geographic with their portfolio of senior portraits on railroad tracks, so of course she had to go out to try to get a picture of it and grow her collection of unique and incredible shots. She’s an artist, after all; this is what she does. Photography is practically fused in her DNA.
Of course, it’s not the only thing fused in her DNA—not after that night, anyway. Not after a blue bolt hit the sidewalk just yards away from her, and a dark wave of whatever-it-was rushed over her, knocking her off balance and making her camera smoke and spark, before everything around her went silent.
For a moment, she thought she’d gone deaf. She could see the lightning still flashing, and the people on the streets running for cover, but she couldn’t hear the thunder, the crackling, the footsteps, or the screams anymore. There was no sound anywhere.
The sound of her own breath catching stopped the panic before it could really take hold, but the relief that she felt afterward was quickly replaced with confusion. Her hearing was normal within a very short radius, but everywhere else, it was like she was watching a 3D movie on mute. What’s more, she could sense an odd sort of tingling all around her, like she was surrounded by energy that was in constant motion—rushing, swirling, vibrating—and there was a space where that energy came to a standstill.
A little time spent focusing on that space, and she was able to tell—without really knowing how she could tell—that that space was the same as the space where her hearing range stopped. From there, it didn’t take her long to find that the longer she focused on the edge of her range, the wider that range grew.
“Oh, fuck.”
Coming outside was definitely a stupid idea.
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It took some time to figure out how this new ability worked, but now she pretty much has the hang of it. Whatever this omnipresent energy is, it seems kind of like how she imagined the Force, as Obi Wan first explained it to Luke. She can’t control it fully; she can only stop it, either from reaching a certain point, or from moving altogether. She knows that some of the vibrations she feels are sound waves, and she can stop the waves before they reach her ears. This comes in handy at work, whenever a sleazy customer tries to hit on her, a coworker tries to dump their responsibilities on her, or the owner of the place decides to showcase another terrible band. Her coworkers start to joke that she has selective hearing. They have no idea how right they actually are.
Other types of vibrations are trickier to understand. She knows there’s something moving through the atmosphere at all times, and she knows that she can stop it in its tracks, but she doesn’t know where it came from or what its purpose is. She knows she can hold it back so it just vibrates in one place, and when she does that at the farmers market, the fruit flies bothering everyone else can’t pass through the vibration field to buzz her.
She understands now why people say that some people give off bad vibes. This should make reading people’s emotions and intentions easier, but instead it makes some things more confusing. She doesn’t know why she feels a sense of foreboding when she walks into a cute little pawn shop, but it’s strong enough to make her leave without buying anything and never go there again. She doesn’t know why she feels perfectly safe walking past the scary looking guy standing outside her apartment late one night, or why the fact that he lingers and watches her go inside doesn’t give her the creeps. She doesn’t know why the man in the black cap she sees on the subway gives her such a weird feeling—not bad, just different—or why her cell reception suddenly returns the exact moment that feeling leaves. And the day she first sees Cisco Ramon, she feels something unlike anything she’s ever felt before.
Technically it happens before she sees him; she can feel it the moment he walks into the bar, something like a rip current among the usual waves, but it takes her a little while to figure out that it’s him that it’s coming from. It’s only part of the reason why she feels drawn to him; the lustrous, wavy hair, the warmth in his dark eyes, and the fact that he acknowledges her more than anyone else at the bar does (and not in a creepy or contemptuous way), all play a pretty significant part as well.
But then he picks up a piece of the glass that Truck smashed against the bar, and…Kamilla doesn’t know what hits her. Something changes—not for long, but for a few seconds, the vibrations in the bar start moving in all different directions, changing frequencies, and…and she really wishes she understood the science of how this energy works, because she’s no expert, but she’s pretty sure it shouldn’t be possible for it to move that way. She can’t see what it’s doing, but she can sense it, and it is chaotic.
In an instant, everything goes back to normal, and almost immediately after, Cisco throws the glass shard away from him. For one wild second, Kamilla wonders if he felt the energy shift, too—if maybe him holding that piece of glass caused a weird reaction in the universe. But that’s silly—even for Central City, something as simple as a man picking up a piece of glass shouldn’t butterfly-effect a potential cataclysm.
She lets it go, writing it off as a coincidence. But she keeps her eye on him, anyway. He doesn’t appear to be having a good time, and if the hellhole that is Liquid Kitty is just not his kind of scene, he might not ever come back—which would be a shame, because he is such a hottie.
She shoots her shot when the opportunity presents itself, and she finds that he’s sweet and smart and adorably goofy, and he ends up leaving the bar in a better mood. He also leaves with her number.
They begin texting, and Kamilla becomes so taken with Cisco that she almost forgets all about the weird thing that happened with the vibes at the bar. And even though he’s an hour late for their first date and positively radiating with the irregular energy she only feels around him, it doesn’t take long before she starts to feel like she’s falling in love.
One night, she runs into him at Jitters. He’s ordering a lot of espressos for how late it is, and she asks him what’s up.
His answer is vague, just a quick explanation that his team is pulling an all-nighter and he’s providing the fuel, but something is off. It seems a little odd that he’d need to pull an all-nighter now, when the big project he keeps alluding to is already finished. He’s also visibly anxious about something, and not in a rushing-to-meet-a-deadline kind of way.
After a little gentle nudging, he finally comes out with it: someone broke into the lab where he works. The place has been thoroughly trashed, a lot of his equipment destroyed.
It’s clear he doesn’t really want to talk about it with her; he reassures her that everyone is okay and the break-in is being investigated, but he says very little other than that. He just wants to take his coffees and get back to work fixing things up.
Kamilla understands that she needs to just let him have his space. She understands that he needs to deal with this in the way that is best for him, which is apparently to dive right into work with just his team, and to do more than say. She understands that maybe he is capable of talking about it right now, just not with her, because maybe they’re not close enough for that kind of conversation yet. She understands that catching the burglar is a job for the police, and that there really isn’t any meaningful help she can offer him right now. Still, she wants to do something. Telling her as much as he has seems to have made him process the situation a bit more, and now he’s shaking, looking antsier as he waits for the barista to return with his order. She can’t leave him to walk back to his lab alone when he’s like this.
She decides to try something new. Maybe she can’t fix the problem for him and maybe she can’t make his anxiety go away, but if she can get his body to calm down, maybe it’ll be easier for his mind to follow suit. She takes hold of his forearm, causing him to look her in the eyes. She smiles, then she stands on her toes and gently kisses his cheek—distracting him, just in case he can feel it when she steadies the turbulence inside him, causing his muscles to relax.
When she pulls away, he looks at her differently than he ever has before, and when she tells him that she’s there for him if he needs her, he actually smiles.
He leaves with his coffees shortly after, looking much calmer than he was before, and Kamilla smiles to herself. Mission accomplished.
She doesn’t know how Cisco would feel if he learned he was dating a metahuman—because that’s what she is, she’s finally determined; she is a metahuman. Her powers may not be anything spectacular, but she is a metahuman nonetheless. Cisco’s pretty cool about a lot of things, so he probably wouldn’t be bothered by this—if she decides to eventually tell him about it, anyway.
She’s honestly not sure how she feels about it. It doesn’t affect her life in any major way, and if she pleases, she could go her entire life without anyone else ever knowing it. Still, it makes some already uncomfortable comments about metahumans even less fun to hear. At the same time, the majority of the known metahumans don’t do themselves any favors by choosing a life of crime, and she’s not sure she wants to align herself with that kind of crowd. The Flash and the rest of the local heroes are widely regarded as the exceptions, not the rule. But maybe there are more metas quietly living their lives like her—maybe even the true majority of metas are. Would being out and proud about it make it easier for others to do the same, or would it just put her in danger? Would it even make a difference? Does it even matter?
Part of her wants to tell him because he’s a scientist, and maybe he can help her understand how her powers work. And yet another part of her feels like there’s no need to bother. She’s happy, she’s healthy, and while she is unnerved about there being a metahuman serial killer on the loose, she doubts he’ll know to target her. Besides, the Flash and his team can probably handle him, right? They always trump the bad guys and save the day in the end.
Cisco is with Kamilla at the farmers market when she casually brings up the new metahuman cure. She’s pleased that his thoughts on it boil down to being glad that metahumans who don’t want their powers now have the choice to get rid of them. Choice is the keyword here. He doesn’t think metahumans shouldn’t exist, and he doesn’t think they should be forced to take the cure against their will. And at the same time, he doesn’t think they should have to keep their powers if they’d rather live their lives without them. It’s comforting to know that he would support her whether she chose to keep her powers or not (hypothetically, anyway—she still doesn’t know if she wants to tell him about them or if she just wants to keep that information to herself).
He spots a vendor selling tomatillos, and he leaves Kamilla to pay for her mushrooms while he buys the final and most essential ingredient he needs to make his famous Ramon Sauce, which Kamilla is excited about getting to try for the first time tonight.
As the mushroom vendor is handing Kamilla her bag, she hears a creaking sound from above. She turns around, following the sound with her gaze to see one of the big fans on the pavilion ceiling fall—right over the tomatillo stand.
With a gasp, she reaches out and puts all she has into stopping the vibrations over Cisco’s head, her hold on them loose enough not to still them completely, but tight enough to hold them in place.
The fan bounces off the vibration field, crashing into a flower pot display across the aisle and making a huge mess.
Cisco turns suddenly at the noise, startled and confused, but unscathed. The rest of the market quickly becomes abuzz with everyone wanting to know what happened. Some people scurry toward the fallen fan, others away from it, and questions are asked and answers are given. No one looks Kamilla’s way or says anything about her, and even the mushroom vendor, still staring at the ceiling, seems to have been too distracted by the fan itself to notice the way she’s holding out her arm (which she quickly draws back in before anyone can notice).
Kamilla rushes to Cisco’s side, arriving just as the tomatillo vendor is recovering his bearings, though Cisco is still stunned.
“I don’t know how that thing didn’t hit you,” the vendor is saying. “Can’t imagine what would make it land all the way over there, but lucky thing it did!”
Cisco’s breathing deepens. The initial shock appears to be wearing off as he now looks more disconcerted at the knowledge that he was almost taken out by the big hefty thing. He looks around anxiously—for what, Kamilla doesn’t know. It’s almost as if he expects to find the phantom of the farmers market lurking in the shadows and singing about his plan to make some other young engineer the most renowned in the city (okay, so technically Cisco doesn’t hold that title, either—but he does to Kamilla).
“Babe, are you okay?” Kamilla asks, setting a hand on his shoulder.
“I don’t know,” Cisco says bemusedly. “Did you see what happened?”
Kamilla shakes her head. “I missed the whole thing.”
Cisco looks up at the ceiling again, and Kamilla can see the math happening in his head right now. She was never an ace at physics, but even she can tell that the fan’s falling path wouldn’t be possible without interference.
A lady in an apron starting to clean up the mess pulls Cisco’s attention as she rants that she’s been telling the owner of this place that they need to replace those piece-of-junk fans, and maybe now he’ll listen to her. He looks a little reassured by her words (not the work of the phantom of the farmers market after all?), and he finishes buying his tomatillos, though he’s still befuddled about the whole thing.
“I just don’t understand how it ended up hitting the flower pots,” he says as they’re walking out, arm in arm.
“I don’t, either,” Kamilla replies. “But why question a good thing?”
Cisco shrugs. “Yeah, I guess. But it’s so weird—I mean, right before the crash, for a second there it felt like—”
Kamilla’s stomach drops. It shouldn’t be possible for him to have felt the change in the energy. No one else has ever noticed it when she held it still before. For the first time in months, she thinks about the weird phenomenon in the bar the night they met. “It felt like what?”
She must be projecting, because for a split second, Cisco is the one who looks nervous. But his expression looks normal again quickly enough. “Nothing.” He turns to her and smiles. “You’re right. Why question a good thing? I must just have someone up there looking out for me.”
Kamilla smiles back. Or someone down here, she doesn’t say.
She’s starting to think she’s just gonna keep these powers after all. Not that she was too seriously contemplating getting rid of them before, but now, more than a set of pros and cons, she has incentive. She may not be quite superhero material, but if she can keep one person safe with them, that’s worthwhile cause enough—especially if that person is Cisco.
Besides, the Flash and his team can only take care of so much at once. If she doesn’t stop heavy falling objects from flattening her boyfriend, then who will? It’s not like she can speed-dial Vibe.
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mariejordans · 4 months
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i honestly don’t even know where to begin with this post, so i guess i’ll start with hi! sorry, i’ve been gone so long, though probably most of you didn’t even notice i was gone lol. sorry for not giving any warning to my absence, and i am especially sorry to the mutuals who have reached out to me that i haven’t responded to. i was and still am struggling with anxiety and depression and towards the new year it was getting to be a bit much for me, so i decided to take a mental health break from social media.
i’d honestly been contemplating coming back, but today i received a dm from someone with a link to a post that was accusing me of bullying and creating fake accounts to bully other people in this fandom. first of all, i would like to emphasize that this is not true. attached below is a screenshot of all the blogs that i own (EDIT 2/9/24: i have since deleted the screenshot for my own privacy and i believe that since i made this post, there has been more than enough evidence to clear my name.) milfsociety is my main account, which i have linked before on this blog and many of my mutuals also follow me on my main, and the rest of them are just me saving my old usernames or other sideblogs that i rarely use, but all of them have been inactive for two months at least.
i do NOT condone bullying ever, and to be continually accused of it by this person is very disheartening. it started with this post (seen below) that i made back in november after seeing a post discrediting marie as the main character of gen v. i admit that my language was probably a bit harsher than was necessary, but honestly my intention was not to send hate to op (which is why i never tagged it with any gen v related tags) but to defend marie. it also wasn’t meant to be solely specific to this one person but as a general post because at the time, there were lots of accounts discrediting marie and to be honest, i was just kinda venting bc of how sick of it i was. (also, just to mention, i have intentionally left out their username because the last thing i want is to send hate to this person.) this was the only post i made on the topic and later i heard that apparently op blocked me afterward (which does not offend me in the slightest since i have since done the same thing) so this honestly should have been the end of it.
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i honestly hadn’t given this post a second thought until a little under a month later i received this ask out of nowhere, accusing me of ableism and bullying. i replied to this ask, which i will link here. honestly this ask came as a complete shock to me, because i had honestly forgotten all about my previous post.
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i responded to anon and in the reply i apologized to their friend for my hurtful comments and expressed that it was never my intention to attack anyone, especially anyone with a disability, which i did not know about when i initially made the first post. i also explained my side, stating why i made the post in the first place, which i still stand by. originally, i had linked their post in my reply, which in hindsight was a mistake that i regret and i should’ve known better. again, my last intention ever is to spread hate and negativity or to bully anyone, so i deleted the link when i was asked by a third party. this person has also since deleted that post about marie entirely.
shortly after i posted the reply, i guess i can only assume that whoever anon was told them about the reply. i’m honestly not sure if they’ve ever actually read this reply or not, but they made a response to my reply, accusing me of harassment and bullying. honestly, it really confused me at the time, since i’d only made two posts in reference to them, and one was a reply to an ask, but we ended up having a third party account who was mutuals with both of us acting as a mediator to settle things and i genuinely wanted to move on from the situation. we both had each other blocked and it seemed to me that anon was just trying to instigate more drama between us, so i thought it best to just leave it at that. i was also going through some mental health issues at the time (unrelated to this situation even though it didn’t help) and had been considering taking a break from tumblr, and so i thought it would be best to just go inactive for a while.
this is honestly the first time i’ve used tumblr in the two months since i’ve been gone, so i have no idea what else has been happening regarding any other blogs and this person, but apparently i am being named as the sole instigator here and i just wanted to once and for all clear up this issue and my name. i’m honestly not sure if this person will see this post or if they’ll even accept it as truth. i can’t force them or anyone to believe me as i really don’t know what else i’d have to do to prove that i don’t have any other secret accounts other than making this post.
i will probably continue to be inactive on this account as i think it is in everyone’s best interest. i never wanted to contribute or start any drama in this fandom, but i feel like i am partially responsible in how this situation has turned out, so i would also like to apologize to you all as well. i’ve never had an account of mine get as big as this one has (thank you to everyone who liked and supported my silly little ramblings!) and i can honestly say i have had the best time interacting and fangirling with you all about this show and these characters that i love so much and i will continue to enjoy and love gen v and marie from afar!
goodbye for now,
rose (aka mariejordans)
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sirenium · 11 months
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Guys I made a carrd lmfao (link)
My sideblog (link) where I coin shit and make flags. Our system blog (link)
Time for a long overdue introduction!
I'm Canis/Canid (you can always just call me 'Sirenium' if that's easier!). I am a namehoarder, as well as namefluid, so I tend to prefer different names at different times (I will attempt to stick to a certain pair of names per theme) I'm 18, have ADHD, and am autistic. My pronouns are in my bio, but for the sake of convenience my current preferred ones are it/its, they/them, cor/corpse, haunt/haunts, and hallow/hallows (among others). I cannot keep a consistent theme for the life of me, lol. Despite my current theme, I am not wolf kin; I am werewolf kin, among other kins.
My interests include, but are (just barely) not limited to, the Sonic franchise (I now have a specific tag for sonic related content. It's #random self indulgent sonic related post, and I went through and tagged [hopefully] every sonic related post with it), The Legend of Zelda: Tears of The Kingdom, music, and LGBTQ+/xenogender flags.
I have decided to lift my DNI. Be warned, however, that I use the block button frequently.
New tag for when I reblog things from my flag blog here (please block if you get annoyed by self promotion): the siren hands you a trinket
BYF (before you follow)
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Unless you give me a reason to block you, I see no reason to bar certain people from interacting with my posts (please note that if I go to your blog and am exposed to some dumbass take about mspec lesbians or something, that is typically grounds for a straight up block). Now that that's out of the way, let's move on.
Here, we believe that there's no such thing as an invalid queer identity, and this encompasses lesboys, m-spec lesbians, gaybians, and anything else that people hate for no reason. We are pro endo, believe that pronouns and presentation don't necessarily equal gender, anti capitalism (especially rainbow capitalism), pro-choice, pro self diagnosis, are of the opinion that PCOS can be an intersex condition (but honestly it's up to the individual to identify as such), queer isn't a slur (though I don't immediately jump to demonizing those who think it is, bc there are certainly older people who've had that word used against them in a derogatory way), xenogenders aren't transphobic, paraphile≠abuser, and more that I don't feel are necessary to state on this blog.
Stance on transID and radqueers (link). Since it apparently needs to be said, don't fucking derail my posts because of my stances on these things. It's not up for debate, especially on a random ass post. Your comment will be deleted and I will most likely block you, because in my humble opinion getting your panties in a twist about something unrelated to a post is obnoxious. Thanks!
What's this blog about?
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I don't even know anymore, man. There's stuff about being neurodivergent and queer, sonic shit, and whatever I feel like reblogging. Enjoy your stay.
Lastly...
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I will block any exclusionists, TERFS/SWERFS, truscum/transmeds, or pro-lifers who touch my posts because frankly, I'm not interested in interacting with y'all (I will cave occasionally when I am extremely bored lmfao).
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Thanks for reading. :)
Please note:
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I don't look at peoples DNIs before interacting all the time (banners are right there so like, obviously I check those. I'm talking about DNIs in bios or pinned posts). Please, if I'm included in your DNI because of my beliefs and identity, block me and/or message me to remove anything I've reblogged from you if you need to. It's basic human decency: I wouldn't want someone who fits any description on my DNI to interact with my shit, so it's only fair I provide that same respect to others (even if they're exclusionists or other people I generally don't like). Additionally, I'd rather handle situations like this with mutual maturity in the case that they happen. Thank you.
Also you can message me if you just don't want your stuff on my blog, btw.
I reclaim slurs, and there are posts that feature slurs on my blog. There's serious subject matter discussed here, and I don't add trigger warnings all the time. Please be careful if you are triggered by stuff like death, transphobia, etc..
I often don't make image descriptions for things I reblog, but I try to make IDs for things I make/post myself.
Quick warning: stuff about the Gaza war shit will appear on this blog every once in a while, though I hope to provide a space that is mostly void of reminders that humanity is horrible and people are dying for no reason. That being said, fuck off zionists I stand with Palestine.
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jiangwanyinscatmom · 1 year
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For the new followers and lurkers, I feel the need for both of our sakes, to let you know what to expect on my blog before we all commit to each other and some basic ground rules here on my humble tumblr land piece and if you as well need to block me:
1: You follow or reblog from any self titled “Anti-MXTX” bloggers with that specified carrd description, unfollow me and don’t reblog my posts please. 💜 This also involves anything do with “MXTX critical” as well.
2: Jin Guangyao stans don’t try me, I am not nice about him so just block me if you don’t enjoy that as well as me very much despising Xiyao as a ship. I generally tag anything to do with him as, I hate jin guangyao and jin guangyao stans block me. (I still hate Jin Guangyao and no this isn't gonna change)
3: I adore my submissively breedable Jiang Cheng as a joke because he is damn trash, if you portray him as best UwU jiujiu and bro evar blocking me is best for your benefit. To put bluntly, if you think Wei Wuxian was more in the wrong toward him through the plot, my meta here are not going to be for you as my sympathy for this character is low. I don't tag anything as anti jiang cheng, as I do like him as one of my favorite characters to analyze, and what I have here is simply reiterating what we are given from text and the author. No I am not an anti so if you're also looking for pure Jiang Cheng hate, that's going to disappoint.
4: I am rather critical of the portrayals of fandom tropes for MDZS (This further extends to SVSSS now given it's featured more now here too) that is horribly prevalent on Twitter and this runs the gamut of all sides. I am more than happy to expand on my thoughts on anything for this as well for any questions sent my way about what I think of "so and so".
5: I am a Wei Wuxian and Lan Xichen stan first and foremost and will make that apparent through my meta as I get rather annoyed when the points of these two are missed. Now I need to stipulate that this includes Luo Binghe, don't bother me with devil advocate arguments regarding him.
6: Don't come to my inbox because I ranted or made fun of a bad OOC fandom headcanon and it personally upset you, your bad takes upset me. Equivalent Exchange, as Edward Elric said.
With that, Call me Orion or Ava!
98% MDZS here with a few smatterings of the other MXTX novels, c-dramas, Priest’s novels, video games and shitty memes. And uhhh, lots of clothes and pretty photos.
Only other info that is needed is that I am a lesbian, mexican/latina and 30+.
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mrslittletall · 11 months
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This morning, a side blog of mine got shadowbanned. It isn't even the first time it happened. It is my kink blog and it got shadow banned around the end of last year/start of the new year and when I tried to appeal for it, it got deleted for apparently having art of "underage characters in sexual depictions". Which was... not a thing on this blog. Yes, it is a kink blog, but I am pretty sure that a majority of the characters I reblogged are adults, the ones who were depicted in sexual positions were definitely adults and there were a few where I didn't know the age, but they clearly looked like adults. And I don't draw for this kink myself, so it couldn't have been my art. I only write and my writing is a) a link to AO3 b) tumblr allows to post erotica (which I didn't even do, it was a LINK. Thing is, my kink blog is one of the most harmless in the community and it is tagged and names are censored and I make sure that only people of the community should find it and not someone random who didn't want to see it. You have to know, other blogs of our kink have blatant IRL gifs of kink behaviour and sex and sometimes you can see downright genitals. IRL genitals! The only genitals I had on my blog were reblogged fanart and they were all tagged with nsfw so that people had something to block. And because this happened again, I am pretty sure that someone tries to damage me and reports my blog and that someone must be from within the community. I have no clue who it is and if I find them, I will block, it is just... When I saw the block shadowbanned, I was like "Man, that sucks" and moved on with my life. But over the day, I got really upset about it. And that was when it dawned on me... All the stuff that happened lately... I was barely hanging on a thread. My husband still in hospital -> Fine My cat got sick -> Fine My car is damaged -> Fine My stupid kink blog is shadow banned -> The end of the world. I was already having so much stuff to worry about, that this little thing, which was probably born from malice, made my mental health tank and I was close to tears for the rest of my morning and feeling like I want to go offline forever and live back in the 90ies because nobody cares about me and everyone hates me and they have fun taking the little things of joy of me that I still have. That thoughts spiralled into the thought that my husband could die during the transport to another hospital thanks to an accident, the thought that Geraldina would lie dead at home because her sickness was worse than I thought and finally the thought of me wanting to end it all because I couldn't live like this anymore. Yeah, the mental health was extremely in the dumps. I feel better now, I got over my intrusive thoughts. Geraldina is fine, my husband surely will not die during an accident and I won't take drastic measures. I just wonder... the people who do something like that, do they even think what the other person is going through? Maybe one day someone really does something they can't take back just because of something that should not be bad, but for them, it was the last drop into their barrel... Anyway, I wanted to say this here, where I have more followers and where I am not shadow banned, and excuse me, I will put this into the tag of my kink, because I want you guys to see my trouble.
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wolfnesta · 1 year
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https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTR75bFKL/
This TikTok makes me want to kms. The comments are truly the worst part. They wonder how anyone could slander Feyre. They’re living with rose-tinted glasses if they think Feyre has never done anything wrong. One reply (under the top comment) says:
“ofc not!! i love nesta and feel bad for & understand her, but i’m still happy ppl like rhys and cass put her in her place at times!! she needed it”
She didn’t need to be “put in her place.” She needed therapy for fucks sake and for someone to understand what she was going through. I can’t stand this line of thinking. Telling her “everyone hates you” in response to Nesta saying she (rightfully) doesn’t like Rhys isn’t putting her in her place, it’s abuse. That is actually verbal abuse because Cassian is in a position of power over her, not Nesta being mean.
Call me a granny but I couldn’t figure tik tok out for a minute so I just don’t use it (I guess people can see when you go check out their profile for videos?? Long story short I was left so embarrassed). I’m so sorry anon that this ask has been waiting forever 😭 but I did check the video out and I’m sure the top comments changed by now but they seemed to go along the lines of ‘yes finally the side of tik tok I need’ which I take to understand that they’ve been seeing anti takes. Which lets just say I’m not unhappy to see 😅 If the problematic stuff of the series is being talked about even on tik tok I mean good for them🤷🏻‍♀️ I think though that I’ve learned you can’t and shouldn’t deal with these people in the comments. Can’t because they have the work of a problematic writer to fall back on. Some go as far as claim to be non- haters- here- for-the-fun but complain about people that engage in questioning canon and proceed to make posts trying to debunk our opinions using that same canon material as if that doesn’t exactly prove most of our arguments. It’s grinds my gears worse when I see some say things along the lines of suggesting we should leave the fandom if all we do dislike the characters as if it’s not because of some of the characters that we stay. It’s very simple when I filter tags and block blogs that annoy me but that same energy can’t be given back because apparently any anti take is born out of misery (which is far from the case) and we should just leave the fandom (wtf). Anyways sorry for the side track 😅
And also I said shouldn’t engage in discourse with them because at the end of the day just let them enjoy what they want. I say this mostly for your own peace and theirs. There’s alot of sweet kind people on this side of the fandom that totally get what you mean. If you’re out there and see this ❤️ I hope all is well ❤️
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squeiky · 10 months
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Sometimes I get really sad and lonely and then I scroll through tumblr.
I think I have to start making a routine to walk outside, but i keep making excuses not too. The only outside place I want to be is on my porch and a park that’s 30 minutes away.
I’m really lonely apparently. It’s a side effect of having very little of a social life (aside from the few interactions on here. Since I don’t interact with anyone on any other site tbh.)
I think it’s just easy for me to be alone. Like I’m sure I developed some kind of abandonment issues and I’m fully aware of how it makes me feel- and that might be why i keep avoiding irl interactions.
Everything feels easier here. No anxiety no pressure. I know people here are okay and already know my goofy little self. I don’t have to worry about appearances and present how I desire. I don’t feel trapped.
I can scream into the void here. I can keep screaming and maybe one day, someone might just scream back. It’s a good feeling.
I keep feeling guilty for posting or rebloging so much. I look at other people getting asks or interactions as “successes”. I see comments and tags and it’s “success”. At what? Hell if I know. Perhaps some social game like popularity, or the fact that somebody is liked enough to have people talk to them.
Ugh, I used to read my old blog posts from an account long abandoned. Reeked of insecurity. I see myself falling back into that spiral over and over again whenever the darkness creeps up a little to closely. Like I can only eve ignore it for so long, until I’m back to screaming again like I am now.
It’s like that stupid feeling, like someone in the back of my mind is screaming “please be with me.” It’s crying all the time.
I don’t know what freindship is, I only see people in black and whites of “useful” and “not useful” the definition of useful isnt exact and varies person to person, but I recognize this is my thought process.
I guess there’s the guilt of it all too. Some underlying shame or guilt constantly pestering me. I hate annoying things and it’s really annoying.
I’m young, and I’m still figuring things out. Though that doesn’t really invalidate or solve how I feel now. Idk.
At some point in time I forgot how to talk to people in real life. It’s like when I do my soul leaves my body and I just go on autopilot. Only to return to a state of constant evaluation and analysis (which are my saviors).
Sometimes I just want to stay broken. Or maybe I was never broken to begin with. I don’t know. I’m sad and buttnaked writing this at 11:54 because I’m slowly developing a fear of sleeping (technically I just have s very strong desire to stay awake for no reason in particular.)
I fucked up with the alt descriptions for my art. I’m unsure if I’m making excuses not to make alts because it’s too much effort-or it’s something else.all I know is that I feel guilty about it.
I hate guilt (or is what I feel shame? I’m uncertain). I wish I never felt it. It’s a disgusting feeling that only does me bad. Usually I can just determine via logic when ive fucked up. But if what I feel is guilt then I do not like it. I wish it wasn’t there I wish it didn’t exist because it annoys me.
I cleared out my wounds too. I’m hopping I made it better by opening up a covered path that was clogging the infection gunk from getting out- and some dead skin. Getting hurt sucks.I thought I would be stronger. But I am reminded I am frail.
Screaming into the void in hopes of a freind. It’s a strange habit to have. Always screaming never a reply. I wish I could make things like this one person I follow. I’ve never seen them ever sad about their lack of interactions (atleast in this platform). I’m trying to be like that. But it sucks that I can’t register likes Orin the same way I do as reason people’s tags or comments or seeing their reblogs.
Since I’m always reblogging other peoples stuff, there’s always that nagging feeling when ever I make my own shit that it’s never enough.
One day though I think I’ll feel “enough”. I’ll drink champagne on that day and eat a chocolate cupcake. Just like a birthday celebration.
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19 and 24 for the asks
19. you're mad/ashamed/horrified you actually kind of like...
i cant think of anything i actively like despite my better judgement at this current moment in time. so i guess im mad/ashamed/horrified at myself for sticking out through h0hw for so long and being like "well it has its flaws but it's soooo well written, i can look past the issues!!" like i should've fucking known. when the author threw in the transatlantic slave trade for edgy flavor or whatever i was like yeah ok i shouldve seen this coming.
(obligatory "dont send the author hate" disclaimer like harassment is not the answer here. i am criticizing a fic on my blog but that doesn't mean i condone hate.)
24. topic that brings up the most rancid discourse
izzy hands and race lol. like alex sherman said that the writers hadn't written izzy to be explicitly intentionally racist and that apparently gave people the right to shut down anyone who wanted to analyze like, subtext or the connection between "izzy's revenge" and "montezuma's revenge" and the historical significance of that joke. and on the other side of it, some fuckhead heard "izzy hands is racist" and jumped to "that means anyone who likes izzy is racist! im going to go harass izzy likers and anyone who even reblogs art of izzy–" (hi, that's me, im an izzy hater who got called racist for reblogging fanart of izzy lol) "–right now so that they stop talking about izzy."
OR alternative possibility, someone who likes izzy hands wanted to derail every single conversation about izzy hands and race ever so they started sending asks that stole "izzy critical rhetoric" and now nobody can, for example, make a meta post about izzy and homophobia without someone coming in the comments yelling at you for putting your post about izzy hands in the izzy hands tag. or whatever.
like idk who was harassing the fandom on twitter and instagram and tumblr for months but the one thing they did succeed in is derailing what started out as a thoughtful analysis of izzy that was primarily being led by fans of color. every time i see the phrase "izzy critical rhetoric" i lose braincells because the majority of that "rhetoric" came from fans of color, but those interpretations get brushed aside because someone on anon used their arguments in a death threat.
🔥choose violence ask game🔥
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winterlovesong1 · 1 year
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I posted 8,284 times in 2022
That's 3,676 more posts than 2021!
721 posts created (9%)
7,563 posts reblogged (91%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@winterlovesong1
@sweetoothgirl
@nacefanfic-quotes
@flythesail
@fleur-aesthetic
I tagged 8,271 of my posts in 2022
#tv: nancy drew - 2,173 posts
#nace - 1,632 posts
#food - 730 posts
#nace fanfic - 657 posts
#writing: winter's - 540 posts
#nace fanfiction - 369 posts
#nace drabble - 307 posts
#tv: kenobi - 294 posts
#tv: boy meets world - 290 posts
#nancy drew spoilers - 282 posts
Longest Tag: 139 characters
#reblogging this because it’s pining from ace’s perspective and since we are in the midst of the ace pining era i thought it was appropriate
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
Just forever thinking about that last Nace scene in the episode (3x13), and the profoundness of Nancy waiting a month, isolating herself for a month from those she loves - grieving a life - grieving her life. How she basically lived off the flashes and glimpses she would allow herself to see of Ace in passing as she calculated when and where and how to bypass him, how she knew he was probably thinking of a million reasons why she was avoiding him and none of them were even remotely close to the truth, how that morning, she went to everyone and maybe even debated with herself as she drove in his direction if she would even stop, but then her car is parked before her brain can fully make the decision (her heart does it for her). And then she tells herself the lie of maybe he won’t be home. Maybe I can just see how he’s doing and I won’t have to face him - and that idea doesn’t make her feel any less assured in what she’s doing - it only flares up the persistent and permanent ache residing in her chest.
She breaks in and he’s not there and so she allows herself space, breathing room, to look at how far he’s come, and she’s so immensely proud of him even though she was proud of him before- proud of the man he was - because that’s who she fell for - all these achievements are just affirmations of what she already knew he could be - and she wants to tell him this - that none of it really matters in the end - only he matters to her - so much - and she can feel the tears start to well as…
“…I would have just let you in…”
I know you would have she probably thinks. But some of us aren’t strong enough to ask.
Some us waited a month to even come here. Some us hate that we did because now that you are here, it’s just going to make time all the more cruel - the minutes after I leave - the hours left in this day and the next and the next - they’ll all be filled with you. With the thought of you.
But then he’s in her space because her feeble attempt at conversation is weaker than she anticipated and he’s telling her how far he’s come and she already knows but he didn’t need to - so “you never were” slips out and now he knows - at least a part of the truth - was that enough?
No, because then he has a theory and he was always so smart of course he hadn’t thought of a million wrong reasons - he thought of the singular correct one.
And she wants to tell him he’s right - that he figured it out like he always does - but would that be too much? If she just agreed. Would that spark the start of the curse? They are already this close after all - he’s so close - and if she just -
There’s nothing to be afraid of…
And the familiar echo of glass cracking tells her this scene would always end this way - she could never change the ending.
(it was her fate now)
And so the anger bubbles over because why did she have to be condemned to this life? Why her? Hadn’t she lost enough?
The universe apparently doesn’t think so.
But then her frustration rattles her enough that in the heat of the moment she spats it out -
“Look through my eyes…”
She slams the door and rests herself on the other side - she doesn’t know what she left him with- maybe a broken heart - maybe pieces of hers…
Maybe hope…
83 notes - Posted February 8, 2022
#4
“I feel like an open wound, a reopened wound and I’m trying to stitch myself back together…and I can’t get to them on my own.”
So she goes to her anchor, her forever rock, her solace in life for help in retrieving those memories - Bughead saving each other- you love to see it.
91 notes - Posted May 15, 2022
#3
Ace is the definition of patience - he’s literally saying to Nancy in so many words - I’ve waited this long, I can wait longer. You take your time. I’m always here for you.
93 notes - Posted January 21, 2022
#2
What better time to introduce the ever popular locked in one room trope than in Nancy Drew Season 4 when one character has something she can’t possible tell the other because his life is in the balance and the other character knows something is wrong with her just by looking in her eyes.
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My #1 post of 2022
Just a reminder: When Ace figures out the reason for his soulmate’s behavior and they defeat the curse…
Ace has his own place to bring Nancy back to. I repeat, he has his own place.
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carronpatrick · 1 year
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Alright, I have a chance to rant. I have held back for MONTHS, allowing the two of you to abuse and gaslight my best friend and someone I consider a sister, so. Enough is enough.
This will be very long as I am very agitated, lmao. Read if you want or fuck off if you want, I genuinely don't care either way. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Act your damn ages already.
First off, if you want me to tag you (or would you prefer me refer to you like you do when you talk shit "you know who you are") I will, happily. You want transparency, let's do it.
Second. In no way is sending death threats okay. I don't even know if her followers did it to you or y'all are just that crazy to send anonymous hate to yourselves for attention, but even fake, it's wrong.
Next, misgendering someone because you're pissy is a childish, ignorant choice, and it is also wrong. Whoever did it, you should seriously be ashamed and take a long look at yourself and do better.
I am in no way condoning any of the hate, real or fake, being sent back and forth. Or the stalker behavior, racist remarks, and absolute absurd disrespect for someone who tried very hard to be your best friend.
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In case it's not clear, I fully take Ash's side. (@thevampywolf for those who don't know, that's what I call her.) There's no debate happening, no one will sway my decision. I gathered the facts (yes, those pesky things you conveniently ignore when you're trying to make your own point) and she is not in the wrong here. Period. I've asked third parties who have no idea of the situation, they have ALL agreed with me here.
You say she should "make an official post because right now it sounds really bad on (her) end". She owes y'all absolutely dick diddly.
I have just had enough and while Ash doesn't need one single damn person to defend her, she deserves to be defended and I've held my tongue for long enough. The bullshit needs to stop already.
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This all started because you and Ash were best friends. And then you got back/together with your girlfriend (who is now boyfriend, yes, but at the time was identifying as a female, that's why I said girlfriend) and started treating Ash like absolute shit. You commissioned work from her and she delivered, with promises you'd pay her when you got paid, after this drama episode with your roommate, you're helping your s/o through stuff, now they're helping you, now you've just gotta get paid again, oh wait, next holiday, etc. It's been almost half a year. You have your own housing at college and a job. You went out drinking for your birthday. You pay for your own food and clothes and those concert tickets and merch you got. She is not being a bitch to ask you for the payment you verbally/electronically promised in form of a commission.
However, you immediately saw red because HOW DARE she stand up for herself and actually make you follow through and keep your word. Le gasp. It's almost like she's being an adult, wow. And yes, there's also the $60 perfume that you've been holding hostage and gave to your dad to send off. Anyway. Ash asked you, before ending all contact with you, for what you OWE her, and you got pissy and you and your former girlfriend, now boyfriend, (I believe they go by he/him/they/them. If I am wrong, please correct me and I'll fix it.) started talking shit.
If you truly don't want any ties with Ash, you'd send the package you've been keeping from her (not hand it off to your dad and refuse to take accountability for it) and pay her what you owe and stop bringing her up on your numerous blogs and insinuating that she's being a bad person. Don't sit there, hiding behind your keyboards, playing the blame game and being absolute cunts. Grow up. Shame on you.
Ash owes zero explanation, to anyone, for YOUR shitty behaviors or the shitty behaviors of her followers. She's not "condoning the hate as well". That's on y'all and them. I realize you don't apparently have an actual mother figure (your posts, your words - not mine), but she's not responsible for anyone but herself and isn't anyone's mother.
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Ironic how y'all become racist, vile, disgusting, bitter, and petty people when you think no one's looking. But then try to twist the situation and make it seem like it's someone else in the wrong.
For context if anyone is wondering, here's some of what was said and then deleted, this is just from yesterday. Note the tag you added, targeting Ash. She has not named y'all yet, she literally last even had your initial on her blog on December 4th, in this post where someone else brought you up.
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There's so much to unpack, but like. How fucking racist and unacceptable. Imagine being so fucking obsessed with someone that you have to attack them over fake names for fake children in fictional stories with your girlfriend and "burst their bubble". Can't relate. The only reason I can imagine is bitterness, jealousy, immaturity, or maybe you're just that hateful, idk. This is just your vitriol from today. You've both sent hate asks to Ash and said nasty, horrid things.
Let's address the underlying racism. First, Han absolutely can pronounce Clementine. He's fluent in English. Just because a three syllable word is too difficult for you to say, doesn't mean everyone else is the same. It's a simple word, a common one, is a name of characters in very popular media (Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, The Walking Dead, there's an entire children's book series about a little girl named Clementine of the same name, just for example) and isn't exclusive to only English born speakers.
Secondly, there are literally Korean clementines!! They have multiple kinds - Gam Gyul, Hanrabong, Cheon Hye Hyang... I did a very quick search and found them. Ignorance is not an excuse here.
Third, why do you just assume all the international /foreign boys who your American girlfriend has wet dreams and dirty fantasies about - and writes and publishes filthy kink stories about and even SAID could be with her, dressing up for Halloween as a matching couple one day (yes, I have the screen shot, lmao) - will only be with Korean women and would never date outside their race? And they must name their children Korean names? That's just. Wow. So incredibly racist and ignorant.
Eric Nam, Christian Yu, Chrystal Soo Jung, Joshua Hong, Vernon, Jay Park, Rosé, Jennie, Gray, Jessi, FELIX LEE AND CHRISTOPHER BAHNG FOR FUCKS SAKE are all apparently not real Koreans. 🤔 How dare they have English names! And all those Koreans who decide they want their own English names, how DARE they.
Y'all can delete the posts and try to place blame on anyone else but you still did it and I saw and screenshot it all. The comment and how you hearted each racist post, too. Guess we know how you two really feel about the boys and Asians in general, huh.
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Ash has had both of you blocked for quite a while now. I remember the day she did it. So, y'all may wanna make it seem like Ash is contacting you constantly and reaching out, but you're delusional. She literally has both of you blocked on Tumblr, Instagram, Facebook, etc. She only allows you on one social, Snap and that's because you owe her money. She doesn't contact you otherwise. So to go out of your way to stalk her blog and socials and fucking emoji tag, even, is just. Wow.
She has tried, over and over, has given chance after chance after chance (despite being told to cut ties and adandon ship because you're hopeless as a friend and you'll never change your horrible behavior) and went to you saying things along the lines of "hey, if you don't wanna be friends anymore, please just let me know and I'll stop messaging you and let you be" and despite ghosting her like a child instead of facing her like the adult you criticize everyone else for not being, you immediately say things along the lines of "omg I'm soooo sorry, I'll fix it, I didn't mean to do that, of course I wanna be friends!"
But then, surprise, you never change or do better. And you CONTINUE to blame it on anyone and anything else. She realized just how toxic, childish, and wretched you both are, and decided instead of spewing nonsense, to block you and try to end the friendship as quickly as possible. And instead of realizing your mistakes and shitty behaviors, you decided to be ignorant twats online.
I mean, I knew y'all were immature but damn, that's just sad. Ash is living rent free in your heads and it's just absolutely pathetic. I just. You're both so ugly inside, you have to (try to) tear down anyone who disagrees with you or doesn't let the two of you abuse and walk all over that them...
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You constantly act like a victim on here. When you get no interaction for a while, suddenly you have an influx of anonymous "hate" (that's written exactly how you type, interestingly enough) despite saying you're going to turn off the fucking feature in the first place. Either you're so desperate for any attention, you're willing to get the hate and thrive in the negativity, or you're just a liar.
You are a jealous, petty, immature bully who sends people anonymous hate to stir the pot. You're so emotionally stunted, you terrorize and poison the very few people who actually want the best for you (fun fact, not someone who enables you and just agrees with everything you say blindly) and want to care for you - and then tell anyone who will listen that it was their fault for leaving once you've ghosted them for months on end. It's never your own fault because you can't accept responsibility for your actions and fucked up behaviors.
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If the people who follow you two or Ash knew how horrible you truly are, they'd abandon ship as soon as possible. And they should, cause if they're not careful, they'll be your next victims.
And it's just very sad and honestly, I feel sorry for you. I truly hope you go to therapy and one day grow up and act your age. I, personally, go to therapy since my suicide attempt at 16, and it's fantastic. It doesn't make you broken or something bad. It's something you (and many people for that matter) very obviously need in an attempt to heal whatever has fucked you up so much and I hope you don't have to hit rock bottom to reach out to an actual psychiatrist like I did.
I'm not saying this to be cruel or snide or cutting. This is genuine. You deserve to feel better about yourself and your family and friends. You deserve peace, even if you don't act like you deserve it. I'll pray for you - but as you pretend your boyfriend is God and blaspheme regularly, I'm not sure you'll appreciate the sentiment. I'm still doing it, regardless.
Also, this will sound cunty, but you need to hear it. I realize the blog is deleted and you've deleted the posts but.
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Stop glorifying and blaming others for your suicidal desires and tendencies. Being suicidal is not a quirky personality trait, it's a sickness and needs to be taken care of by an actual doctor, not smothered with sex and bitterness and memes.
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And now, bring on the hate anons and bullshittery. I've so very suddenly been blocked (then unblocked so I'm just not following anymore) and unfriended as some anons came in. Interesting how that happens. 🤔
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Edit: I mistakenly put Lisa (who is Thai) and Mark Tuan (who is Taiwanese-American) under the Koreans with 'English' names. I apologize, sincerely, for my dumbness. 😅 And thank you very very much to the anon who pointed it out cause I'd have never realized it. 🫣
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trillgutterbug · 2 years
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tagged by @malewifemanhunter ty!!
name: trill q gutterbug, the q stands for queer
star sign: who knows or cares
height: 5'10, which means i can definitively say coffee doesn't stunt your growth, even if you start drinking it age 4
time: 9:38am 😓 i do NOT want to be awake rn but the rest of my family is gone atm so the grisly burden of letting the chickens out at ass o'clock fell to me. (eta it is now 12:13 bc i fell asleep for two hours before posting this)
birthday: the day laura ingalls wilder was wed
favorite bands/artists: of montreal, why?, clipping., and nine inch nails are the eternal faves i can't get sick of, but im also tremendously partial to kendrick and lil nas and hozier and mcr and twenty one pilots and the like. also i listen to a lot of chillhop and electroswing, because im a good person with good taste
last movie: i think mad god, which was fantastic and completely incomprehensible. i don't usually have the attention span to sit through a movie if im watching it alone, so.... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ (eg, the way i still have to finish everything everywhere all at once, which i got an hour into last week, enjoyed tremendously, then got up to walk around and listen to a podcast and play a video game and jerk off or whatever the fuck, and just haven't gone back!)
last show: i believe the latest ep of what we do in the shadows.... or maybe sunny? or euphoria? whatever it was, i was watching it with jackie im sure!
when did i create this blog: idk where to find that info, but im p sure 2014, after LJ shat the bed and i dipped from active fandom for a couple months and when i came back it was like.... owo where'd everyone go?! here, apparently.
what i post: constant thirsty nonsense about a rotating string of fandom obsessions, shitposts, sometimes a bit of tumblr-brand anarchism and socialism bc even the junkfood buffet churns out a smidge of healthy caloric content every once in a while
last thing i googled: i don't use google but the last thing i duckduckgo'd was........ where's wade wilson from, bc i saw something that said vancouver and one of the movies implied regina but i swear to GOD i know it's winnipeg from some other source. results annoyingly inconclusive.
other blogs: @truelevelb1tch, my rick and morty side, which is going to pop off again in a MONTH (!!!!!!!!!) when s6 starts dropping 😱😱😱. i do not apologise for the person i become when r&m occurs, fair warning
do i get asks?: not enough to worry about, thank goodness
following: idk where to find that info either, but it's probably a few hundred, the vast majority of which are inactive at this point. i probably see <50 blogs on my dash??
average hours of sleep: like eight, which is NOT enough for me, but it varies wildly between 5 and 10 depending on what im doing for work on a given day/whether i have to get up early for animal-related reasons/if im up reading fic until 3am/time of year/blah blah
instruments: flesh flute....,,,
what i’m wearing: nuthin
dream job: I Do Not Dream of Labour
dream trip: i hate travelling! but i am partial to visiting my cousins' farm on the reg, so let's say that
nationality: canadian
favorite songs: the trapeze swinger by iron and wine has been my fave song for about ten years. it's almost ten minutes long and if stats across various laptops and ipods and phones could be collated, it would show a playcount in the thousands lol. i first heard it as the closing music on the amazing podfic for the inception fic presque vu and it gutted me on the spot. ode to the mets by the strokes is also on the same trajectory. otherwise, my fave songs come and go in the usual way, by liking something and listening to it repeatedly until i can't stand it. (eta: just went into my music app to see if i'd forgotten anything, and literally the only thing on my "most played" list is the trapeze swinger, so...)
last book i’ve read: currently reading (aside from the massive eternal stack of ww2 ref books) the half life of valery k by natasha pulley and grimscribe by thomas ligotti. most recently before that i read borne by jeff vandermeer, the kingdoms by natasha pulley, blood meridian, the d&d 5e player's handbook, and some postapoc scifi thing that was so forgettable i genuinely cannot conjure up the name of it or its author!!
top 3 fictional universes i’d like to live in: idk, they all seem uniquely bad in ways that do not necessarily improve upon the unique ways in which our current universe is bad. but to be sporting i'll say star trek of course, anything jared harris is in bc i want to fuck him more than im afraid of space terrorists or freezing to death or nuclear radiation, and the fictional universe i've been manifesting in my imagination for years where we never invented agriculture and i died at birth for simplistic umbilical cord-related reasons
lowkey tagging @kaasknot, @collapsinghorizons, @mollynoble, @twobrokenwyngs, @pohjanneito, @lingua-mortua, @sloppyplanetary, @alakeeffectgirl, and @quiescentire
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jiangwanyinscatmom · 2 years
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Hello there twitter refugees! As I have seen an uptick with followers I feel the need for both of our sakes, to let you know what to expect on my blog before we all commit to each other and some basic ground rules here on my humble tumblr land piece and if you as well need to block me:
1: You follow or reblog from any self titled “Anti-MXTX” bloggers with that specified carrd description, unfollow me and don’t reblog my posts please. 💜 This also involves anything do with “MXTX critical” as well.
2: Jin Guangyao stans don’t try me, I am not nice about him so just block me if you don’t enjoy that as well as me very much despising Xiyao as a ship. I generally tag anything to do with him as, I hate jin guangyao and jin guangyao stans block me.
3: I adore my submissively breedable Jiang Cheng as a joke because he is damn trash, if you portray him as best UwU jiujiu and bro evar blocking me is best for your benefit. To put bluntly, if you think Wei Wuxian was more in the wrong toward him through the plot, my meta here are not going to be for you as my sympathy for this character is low. I don't tag anything as anti jiang cheng, as I do like him as one of my favorite characters to analyze, and what I have here is simply reiterating what we are given from text and the author.
4: I am rather critical of the portrayals of fandom tropes for MDZS that is horribly prevalent on Twitter and this runs the gamut of all sides. I am more than happy to expand on my thoughts on anything for this as well for any questions sent my way about what I think of "so and so".
5: I am a Wei Wuxian and Lan Xichen stan first and foremost and will make that apparent through my meta as I get rather annoyed when the points of these two are missed.
6: Don't come to my inbox because I ranted or made fun of a bad OOC fandom headcanon and it personally upset you, your bad takes upset me. Equivalent Exchange, as Edward Elric said.
7: I do not and will not post anons linking to other blogs, this is basic courtesy only on my part as I am not comfortable with providing direct links that are not my own or of those that I have reblogged or commented on with my additional post commentary If I get particularly annoyed enough to say something in reaction.
8: FengQing shippers can block me instead of responding to my posts, I take none of what you say into account, thank you, don't come again 😊
9: Yue Qingyuan owes nothing to Shen Jiu himself and as the plot significantly changes due to Shen Yuan, there's nothing more for him to take responsibility for by the end as Shen Yuan exonerated him from any further responsibility to move on. Don't argue this with me as any what if's are unwarranted, needless and useless semantics.
With that, call me Orion or Ava!
98% MDZS here with a few smatterings of the other MXTX novels, c-dramas, Priest’s novels, video games and shitty memes. And uhhh, lots of clothes and pretty photos.
Only other info that is needed is that I am a lesbian, mexican/latina and 30+.
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izzyizumi · 2 years
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(Please never go to "DigiTwit" {Digi-side of Twitter}) {Unless you know how to immensely Curate your Feed TM}
(or the main tags / not-ship tags)
You'll save yourself a LOT of grief and IMMENSE headaches
Trust me
-Someone who has been frustrated over this ever since Tri started, and also since Kizuna started, & also since DigiAdv 2020 started,,,,, {Isn't it weird how I never saw this at this level on L.J for multiple years pre-Saikai release???} (The worst I remembered before was from mid-F.F.N days and even Then!)
Thankfully I have a bunch of cool & AWESOME mutuals here who Are Not About That Kind Of Thing, Ever and can I just say all of you who don't partake in that / come onto TAICHI FANS' posts with blatant hate / contempt / bad-faith Takes on Post-02!Taichi or Taichi's ships are amazing???? Thank you (Eternally) {/Genuine}
{& If I never have to block a clearly anti-Taichi, or otherwise anti-Taichi [insert my Taichi ships here] Stan for the rest of my life I could finally rest}
(Don't ask me why they come onto the blog that constantly spams Taichi and KouTai O.T.P + A.M.V.s into my void 24/7 w username 'izzyizumi')
But yeah this was a huge reason why my P.S.A re-blogs started and why I pulled out from making DigiAdvs news updates posts (I was trying to actually spread some Positivity / contribute back then, which is really difficult for me under normal circumstances because outside of Yelling In My Tags, I'm usually actually pretty socially awkward / reclusive...) and the like (some of you may remember I did that around pre-Kizuna dropping, and also when 2020 was starting) because I'd get these kind of Stans lurking on my not-Taichi or Koushiro (at all) posts for whoever their {~Fav~/equally not canon ~O.T.P~} was and I HATED IT.
Some of them are STILL AT IT on DigiTwit weekly after new eps drop (sometimes they jump around socials too, and I'm on other places too... hell some of those names I remembered from L.J days when I was Younger so this pattern seems constant for them) ;; and if they happen to see this post, I just hope they know I was never amused & I'm never going to support their rhetorics. The same person who I mentioned Blocking earlier was also a part of that seeming "group". (But apparently there's also multiple pockets of anti-Taichi Stans???!)
My queue's cleared out a lot since and my blog may finally return to its pre-Bokura no Mirai end state by the time of "The Beginning" release, (though also a lot of my ship tags died out since again...) but I became a lot more hyper-aware of Issues as a result of all that and yeah sometimes I'll still re-blog a post if I feel it genuinely explains an actual concept I'd like to explain well (especially informative posts about Disability and Autism because, like, I'm Autistic, I don't know how many more times I have to ""~confirm~"" that with people before they actually believe me after these 5~8~ straight years of me talking about Being Autistic TM because it's... my blog and my LIFE????)
So yes if you do decide to go onto DigiTwit please prepare to possibly be Blocking multiple amounts of people. Unfortunately
#izzyizumi replies#izzyizumi no rb#izzyizumi no rb posts#izzyizumi commentary#taichi commentary#(Its almost relieving to actually get this expressed finally because this has been genuinely bothering me and stressing me out)#(for SO LONG)#(I know those people will never see it in the way I do and never apologize for their actions)#(Including when they all jumped onto my posts of their ship to 'Like' it after I expressedly asked them in my banners NOT TO)#(I DIDNT EVEN WANT TO MAKE THOSE)#(I HAD TO BECAUSE OF THIS)#(But thankfully reblog controls function is helping me get my blog back under some actual control)#(And less likely to Break Containment TM in some cases like the news updates and linking)#(If people know what I'm talking about)#(I hope they also know I check my activity feeds where I can as long as it's not half exploding with a post)#(So Yes I See when they jump on my posts like that)#(And I hope if their own mutuals notice them doing it that they tell them to stop and back off)#(I've not Blocked some of their mutuals fully yet but I'm still so stressed any of this happened to begin with)#(I have an appointment today and its the second major one Ive had since COVID started around early 2k20)#(Its only a general checkup appointment but I'd be amazed if it actually found something after all this)#(And I have to wonder how badly my levels were affected because I've been having more Issues occuring lately DUE to said Stress)#(Then again I don't know if any of that affects Hyperthyroidism much or if I even changed levels AGAIN yet but we'll see!!1!)#(That already happened once around 2k17 and thats when I somehow swung from Hyper- to Hypothyroidism I was off by a SMIDGE)#(I also just realized I could mark this post no rbs but yeah wow HEY I can actually reply somewhat again on my own blog now!!1!)#(ALSO to people who rb my Taichi positive posts and works without doing that kind of thing let me say again THANK YOU)#(It genuinely means a lot and it's what kept me churning out more works for Taichi + KouTai into My Void after this started happening)#(EDITS to fix a typo and yes I'll try my best with that appointment but i depends if they can find anything!)#(I'm also really nervous about said appointment still I've legit Quarantined myself in home ever since Covid Started)
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gamergirl929 · 2 years
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Hey you don’t have to answer my ask but I again just came across your blog and saw that you beat yourself up about it. I was the anon who wrote to that blog what you said about kerr. First I would like you to know that I wasn’t the one who named you that word or even made asks to you that might have been mean. I only send that one ask to the blog because I remembered you calling kerr cocky and that you don’t like her so wanted to let the kerr fan blog know. But you are obviously also right that you don’t have to like her but you said I was spreading lies about your blog and that’s not true. I was quoting what you said about kerr. If there was someone else making shit up about you then I’m sorry and you don’t deserve that but what I said was true and apparently your opinion about kerr even though I don’t agree with it.
Okay, so it wasn't like, it was a worry that you were spreading lies, which wasn't a fact and I'm sorry, I was just worried that, that was happening and I was clearly wrong, so again I am sorry and I will delete any post that says so, I was honestly just concerned that you and the anon who referred to me in that way were one in the same and I was wrong.
I get being angry because someone doesn't like the player you like, but it's not that I don't like her, I'm just not a fan, I haven't been for a long while, I do find her cocky, but that's just my opinion, which I am at liberty to have.
And besides, when that post was made, it was not tagged, it was not broadcasted to anyone, and it was asks, I never truly made a post bashing anyone, or said anything that was broadcasted to the tags or anything like that, it was simply my opinion, on my blog and I wasn't about to bash anyone for no reason, not being a fan does not mean I am anti anyone, and finding someone cocky doesn’t mean I’m anti them either. 
On the same hand, going to another blog, a blog I like, like really like, and putting my name out there was wrong, I'm not 100% sure if it was you, but someone, an anon, which again, I'm not sure was you, kept sending messages to said blog about me, even name dropping me a couple of times, which opens me to getting hateful messages on here, all because I'm not a fan of a player, which was entirely wrong, so if that wasn't you I apologize.  
Asks are sent with the intention that they’ll be answered AND posted to someone’s blog, which obviously put me on the chopping block in a sense if Sam Kerr fans saw, and I don’t deserve hate for not being a fan of someone. 
If you ARE the anon who name dropped me, I’m going to say this...
Trying to pit two blogs against one another is wrong as well, just because they're a Kerr fan, doesn't mean I would ever comment negatively on their posts, I have no desire to bash Sam Kerr, I am just not a fan, plain and simple, there's no more too it, I have never commented, or spread my opinion anywhere other than my blog, which were asks I recieved, which were again, untagged and on my personal blog only. 
I'm glad that you sent me an ask, and I am sorry for confusing you and the anon who sent me that offensive word, I was worried you were one in the same.
I will remove any posts that I claimed I was fearful you were spreading lies, I trust that you aren't, you are at liberty to have whatever opinion you want, as am I, and I won't attempt to change your mind or react negatively to that fact, I have no reason to.
Now, I hope that you get some form of closure with this response, as I have, I wish you no ill will and I hope you have a great day, and thank you for contacting me with your side.
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bumblely · 10 months
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People like you are so disgusting. Defending bad behaviors and trying to act like 'everyone should just get along' when in reality you're trying to defend a spoiled rich kid. You'd be silent if it wasn't Lando that was getting called out for his yet again ignorant behavior
hi, anon! I'm the disgusting person when you came to my blog to send this kind of ask and, of course, even if it's really predictable, anonymously? let me laugh and you're still about this 2 days after? touch some grass and took a few deep breaths, it's going to be okay.
dear anon, I guess you saw my tags (and nothing was scandalous here, I stand by what I said) and decided you wanted to know more about my opinion when you despise it? doesn't sound really healthy to me but it's a you problem. I'm a writer so it's not a problem for me. I'm asking you, as you're here and want to talk about it —I guess you kept the name of my blog somewhere to come back —, what was Lando supposed to do once the trophy was broken in pieces on the podium, then? as it was part of the post and what I precisely replied to.
he apologized to Max, they’re friends, it'll become a story to tell in a few years. he's not going to magically fix it up there, be for real, because now you're blinded by hate. I guess you're part of those saying he insulted a whole country because of an accident —I've seen and rebloged the 2 other times it happened, just scroll down it was long before your ask— but you can't convinced me it was intentional or he had any malicious intent with his celebration, even if he could have done it differently.
this whole thing is going way to far, so even if you were right at the beginning —he should have been more careful and acted differently the first few hours after the accident— as you used it as an excuse to just hate on him for whatever reason you decided was fair, it's making you in the wrong because it's disproportionate now. the post I rebloged against him wasn't fair and you know it, some things weren't even true. I happened to see it because a mutual rebloged it, I'm not lurking on any anti tag don't worry, they're actually all blocked but it just wasn't properly tagged by the previous blog.
he understood and apologized to the factory, the case is closed. as someone really clumsy, I now this kind of things can happen, stop acting like someone died or it was done on purpose. and you better have never broke anything in your entire life because that's just how life goes, not everyone is being careful 100% of time, even when they should be (me included). especially after a race as tiring as this one and a P2. you can be mad at people for many things but not because they're happy and joyful after a good race.
also, for someone who apparently knows who I like, you should have a better look at my blog and what and who I trully stand for. spoiler, it's not Lando 😂 I just always do what seems to be right and fair and some of y'all went too far with this, hence my reblog with my point of view, which is allowed on this app, you liking it or not.
I honestly couldn't care less about people's backgrounds —in life, not only about f1. I don't like or dislike anyone because their family is more or less rich and influent, I rather dislike them for what they do with their money and influence, like who they choose to support for example. I like some paid drivers and dislike some 'self-made' ones because I judge people for who they are and, once again, I always do what seems to be right. as being rich means something bad for you, you believed the hate against Zhou was justified because he grew up privileged and his sponsors helped him to get his seat? and now that you can see he's an amazing person you're taking his side? not just because hate and racism are vile things.
about me defending Lando because I have an undying love for him and not because all of this is ridiculous and out of line, you should check someone's blog before claiming this kind of things, especially when I always tag my posts/reblogs, it's really easy to do. I checked and I rebloged less than 5 posts about him, a little weak if he was my fave 😂. also, I'm far from being silent to defend my drivers: Lewis, Yuki and Guanyu's hate was pointed out here. what have you done again?
also, I don't keep up with people and drivers I don't like because what's the point of doing so and wasting my precious time for someone I don't like? you're keeping up with what you believe is bullshit and even go on people's blogs to insult them because they don't believe on the same things as you, that's far from being healthy, ask yourself the right questions and use your time to show some love to your faves instead.
believe me, if I could, I would block you because we don't need more hate in this sport, there is already more than enough but you're too much of a coward to show who you are and to take responsibly for what you say. I believe that everyone can co-exist peacefully within the big f1 family as long as they know about respect and decency and stop going after each other's throat for everything and anything. if you're being hateful in your post (and lying), people will be in the comments/reblogs, be nice, more people will be. treat people how you want to be. also, as a Lewis fan, I've blocked many fan accounts because all they did was insulting Verstappen over the stupidest things, I ain't following hate accounts because hate is disgusting when it's not justified (being sexist, homophobic, xenophobic and on). so I hope you're keeping this energy for the real fights: racism, xenophobia, sexism, ineffectiveness of the fia and their fear of addressing the right problems (like their deafening silence towards the abuse Zhou got ahead of his debuts), driver's safety (especially in Spa and Miami but also everywhere), mental health and so on.
as I mentioned in the tags about trophies never being in a situation they could break, and as you know, Lewis is known to throw his trophies after a win (which I really miss) and he threw this one as well. I kept the same energy by not hating on him even if the trophy could have been broken by doing this. it's called a celebration as podiums aren't made for art but to celebrate the top 3. did you kept your energy back then and hated on him too? I'm true to myself, I'm not hating on drivers over these things, and especially not on accidents.
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last but not least, instead of being hateful, you could have used your time to teach people about the trophy: its history (shape and painting as it's traditional) or about the history of the factory or the manufacturing process as you know so much about it. it would have helped the community but, sadly, it's not the choice you made and it's sad. it was a good opportunity to be a kind person.
on a different level, I feel like F1 isn't doing enough to promote the trophies: this one is in fine porcelain and hand-painted since a long time, yet most people only got interested because it was broken and most of the times, the artist name is unknown when so many are interesting. they did more promotion for the annual collaboration between Louis Vuitton and the Automobile Club de Monaco than for the collaboration of Richard Orlinski for the French Grand Prix trophy when he's a known artist. F1 and their love for money 🙃. I know Alfa Romeo created the #GetCloser and invite artists but I hope this accident will open the talk about art and trophies —I would love them to be as hyped as the special helmets designs.
this being said, have a nice day anon,
looking forward to seeing you again maybe kinder this time,
— bumblely.
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goron-king-darunia · 1 year
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Problem...
Annon-Guy: I had to use Submission to say and ask something important.
Apparently, I NEED a tumblr account to ask anonymously from now on and that's stupid!
I'm also not sure about a tumblr page, but are there benefits to having a Page. It would destroy my anonymous persona and I'm don't wish to run into problematic people despite having a YouTube and Fanfic.Net account
GKD here! That does seem weird. Maybe it’s to cut down on anonymous hate messages?
I enjoy having my blog and my page, personally. But I have been here for 10+ years. Honestly, I’ve never had trouble with people being mean to me or running into “problematic people.” Honestly, any time there’s a confrontation, I’m usually the one being the asshole/ unnecessarily aggressive.
Honestly, especially if you intend to lurk/not post original content often, Tumblr is pretty chill. For me at least. I got, like, exactly one piece of legitimate anon-hate thrown at me exactly one time. I’ve talked with people on Tumblr who have the exact opposite political opinions to me and not had explosive dragging drama fights about it.
Granted. Most of the stuff I do on Tumblr is gush about Legend of Zelda, DotNW, a few other fandoms, and then repost a bajillion memes. But I’m pretty openly political with what I reblog, and fairly opinionated. Though most of my opinions are about a game that most of the USA fandom HATED. So my bubble here is pretty niche. But, like. Most of the people in my immediate circle are excellent people and all the people in their circles have so far been delightful. I can honestly only think about exactly one time that someone random searched up a post of mine to get irrationally angry at. And yes I drafted several pages of clap back and then just... the fire of anger fizzled and I never posted it because their irrational hatred just wasn’t worth my time.
I can’t promise you a drama-free experience on here. But I’ve got this blog and a side blog where I mostly talk about my writing or my experiences with video games. And neither of my blogs are lightning rods for anyone’s ire. Hell, when I started this blog, my about section on my page was basically giving people ammo to harass me with. Unless your blog becomes massively popular, I think you’re going to be fine. And if assholes do come knocking for whatever reason? We have the handy little block feature.
That said, you don’t really have to provide any IRL info when you make a blog here. My real name isn’t associated with either of my accounts. You could theoretically just whip up an account with the handle “ThatOneAnnonDude” or something generic, set up your blog title to be “I’m just here to talk games and read memes, and I’m all out of memes.” and just... post absolutely nothing or absolutely anything. And I think you’d generally be okay. I dunno if I’m just lucky, but my experience with Drama™ on Tumblr has mostly been as a spectator. At arm’s length. More like looking over to the mountains on the horizon with binoculars and seeing some smoke rising and thinking to myself “Glad that’s not me, wow.” and continuing with my day.
Personally, I like being able to curate my blog. Gather up a bunch of things that I like and categorize them with tags so I have my own little scrapbook of goodies I can look at (I literally have a tag that’s just “#for the sad times” so if I feel sad I can just pull up that tag on my blog and find all sorts of cute puppy and kitten videos or recipes, or nature photos, or whatever I saw that made me smile once so that I can feel better again. It’s nice.) It’s nifty to be able to tag a bunch of things so that if I want art inspo or a nice reference photo or a knitting project I want to emulate, or whatever, I can just search it up on my own blog and find a bunch of stuff I liked before. It’s nice to be able to search through my Richter tag and see pictures of him that other people drew or re-read some of my own opinions (all the while nodding along like “Yas, I agree so much!” while fully knowing that’s my own damn post. XD) It’s fun to follow a bunch of cool people and get introduced to stuff through osmosis. (I have, like, one person I followed on here for their exquisite taste in ramen art and I am learning so much about the “The Last of Us” HBO show. I have another friend who I followed for DotNW stuff and it turns out they’re just mostly into birds, and it turns out I enjoy learning about birds.)
Honestly it does suck that Tumblr is removing a feature that makes it easier to communicate with me. But Tumblr has been an enjoyable experience to me. I’m just a young whippersnapper practicing for the granny years, sitting on my metaphorical porch with a glass of metaphorical wine, sipping and scrolling through memes, knitting a hat for one of my buds, deciding on a new recipe to make for dinner, listening to goth icons talk about Tumblr culture or a politics video or a Archie Sonic Comics deep dive, procrastinating on my novel. I’m just vibing. I’m having a good time. And occasionally new people with DotNW icons will start following me like I’m a mother duck and I’m like “yes, good, even if we ship different ships, you have impeccable tastes. Welcome to the DotNW table, here are 900 memes, the rare fanfic, and occasionally some opinions. Also here are a billion other memes about irrelevant things, enjoy your stay.”
I’m like an old man at the swap meet. I’m sitting here with a table full of bootleg Yugioh cards (memes), Random DVDs (gifsets of things I like), old classic literature (the really good memes that get passed around a lot) and Slim Jims (opinions, curated art, and idea prompts about specific characters and games.)
It’s fine if you’re shy or prefer not to have a Tumblr for any other reason and I understand if we might have to communicate only through submissions from now on. But honestly, Tumblr is a pretty chill place to be as long as you don’t go picking fights on purpose and block anyone that makes you even remotely unhappy. It takes a little getting used to, since Tumblr as a site has its own sort of culture. But hey! Tumblr also has resident meme historians.
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If you want to give Tumblr a try, I think it’s worth a shot. My only gripe is that I get major FOMO, so I compulsively scroll Tumblr every day and then overwhelm myself by drafting an infinite number of posts that look neat but I want to read and tag properly before posting and WHOOPS now I have 300,000 drafts to comb through instead of just deleting them all because “what if there was something good in there that I’ll miss?”
But if you have even an ounce of self control and don’t have to compulsively read or reblog everything, then congrats! Tumblr’s probably worth a shot.
It’s also worth noting that I’m a massive mother hen, so I will keep you nice and cozy and tucked under my wing and if anyone gives you a bad time I will peck the shit out of them for you.
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