#please hang in there for me

[inkskinned]

there are days that it is hard, and unfair, and some horrible part of me wishes i could have been born in a different world. i love being queer, i hate how others react to it. when i first came out at 15, my mom whispered: please don't say that. your life would be so much harder.

it is harder.

it is also a tuesday, walking my dog. we are both skiving off of work, and yes both of us have dyed hair and pronouns. mine is patchy - it was my first time trying bleach; i didn't have enough. theirs is a resilient toadstool green. a little girl comes up to us and asks um, excuse me? is your hair real? 'cause jason says you're a fairy.

it is sunday brunch, all of us talking over each other, overfull on love. she is trying out a new name today, and we made her a cake with today's name scrawled in shaky purple letters. she laughs so much she cries and then gets frosting in her hair. someone young at a different table keeps giving us these large, wide eyes: the same look we have all been on the other side of. the kind that says, breathless: wait, is that possible?

it is a half-fight in a supermarket because he loves "dance moms" and says abby's tiktok is funny and meanwhile i think the children in that show should be allowed to sue abby lee miller for child abuse. i tell him that it led to the casual acceptance of child harassment for mainly adult views; and then i am standing, suddenly, in someone else's thrown soda. there's a white lady standing there, furious, saying something about hell-on-earth. i had forgotten i was wearing stuff with pride colors. and then it is this: he had just been casually arguing with me - and within an instant, he squares his shoulders and goes after her like i am his sister

on saturday i sat in a circle while beca played with my hair and we were all over 30 and we laughed about how much happier we are being this old, how much more we appreciate our community. 25 minutes from now, we will be on stage to dance in baggy beige clothing, but for now we look on with envy to the dancers in loud-and-bright buttondowns. where are they getting these shirts! i cry, distraught. everyone laughs. one of our friends has a mushroom witch hat. this would have been cringey in high school, probably. instead we are all delighted with each other; happy just to be here and alive and moving

it's that last week my new friends cried with joy for me when they heard i'm getting top surgery. every so often i have the honor of being the first person someone feels comfortable enough to tell. i'm trying to make long fluttery butterfly wings to wear to pride; but i don't know anything about fabric or dye, so my friends have been sending me their personal advice.

i think in a different poem i would talk about how sometimes you walk into a room and put the mask back on. but i'm sleepy and my whole brain is fuzzy so i think in this one, it's a monday, and my dog and i took a nap on a couch, and i had missed texts from friends. i used to wake up lonely. i think this poem is about walking into a room and seeing someone and just knowing, the way you just-know-sometimes, and then giving them that little smile, and seeing them light up with joy and relief. it is how we always seem to be able to find each other in a crowded room. how we always seem to make friends with each other before even we know-it-to-be-true. it is saying: we're very different people; but i belong to you.

it is harder, yes. but it comes with a built-in family.

#wish this was better written!!! but im sleepy!! #writeblr #pride #lgbt #but for real please help me make these lesbian wings. gonna get the supplies tomorrow . i have #no sewing machine but know how to hand sew #have never done a good job with tie dye so idk why im just runnin with it #ps im specifically going to boston pride next weekend come hang out with me

[welcometogrouchland]

ANOTHER SKETCH DUMP! Featuring more of me playing with lineless art. Batman reborn era trio (dick, damian and steph) I miss you...when will you return from war. Also featuring Steph designs bc I've seen ppl dissatisfied w/ her current look, some good mom Talia, and Jason Todd poetry club. Duke is confused not that Jason would start a poetry club but that he'd have such mid poetry opinions. (ID in Alt)

#dc comics #batfamily #damian wayne #stephanie brown #dick grayson #talia al ghul #duke thomas #cassandra cain #mine #woo new art tag. please god let me keep this up all year #uhh anyway yeah! still a big backlog of sketches but i got burnt out which means i had time to collect some #i feel like my art looks. extremely different w/o lines compared to with? idk i worry that's it weird/off-putting #but hey at the end of the day I'm hardly worrying about my brand integrity on tumblr dot com #duke and cass being at poetry club is based on them canonically being into poetry and for a good while duke and jason got along well #Steph is there for both jason and cass' emotional support (unfortunately there's a design flaw. she can't do both simultaneously) #(which is fine bc cass is fleeing the scene at the idea of having to casually hang out with jason) #(they're the exact amount of similar and more importantly different that it's like putting two firecrackers together. bad) #i really like the steph mask designs... it'd be fun to do something with them but idk what y'know? #I'm just like. if we're assuming that her mask has to be different from both babs and cass then this is what I've got as alternatives #i mostly wanted to practice character interaction with the talia and damian one... and also i love them #looking at james gunns batman movie proposal. you keep your hands OFF HER MR GUNN #please if shes evil in a movie they're never gonna let her be good in the comics again 😭 #dc when you inevitably cave and do your next big reboot let the ppl finally have the son of the demon origin (w/ tweaks of course) #idk it's canon in my heart. heartcanon if you will <3 #anyway yeah uhhhhhh enjoy?

[virune]

some lansoni as a warm-up!!

#sonic the hedgehog #shadow the hedgehog #sonadow #lansoni #satbk #art by op #still getting the hang of drawing hogs again please bear with me <3

[ventiswampwater]

Kurt Russell as R.J. MacReady THE THING (1982) dir. John Carpenter

#the thing #the thing 1982 #r j macready #kurt russell #filmedit #horroredit #scifiedit #mine #a macready gifset? on tumblr dot com? groundbreaking. #<-this is all to say that these scenes have been giffed 7397493849 times before in far more gorgeous detail #but I'm throwin these in the tag anyway. bc we should all ponder our orbs about him from time-to-time #I played around w/colors on these and I'm kinda digging the blue #obsessed w/the fact that universal was leery about hiring kurt russell for this part bc he was ''too young and pretty'' fhsdjfhdsjhfdsjhfd #incredible. valid concerns. he was indeed v young and v pretty here #to use my previous tags: #macready if you read this im free on thursday night and would like to hang out #please respond to this and then hang out with me on thursday night when I’m free #guy of all time truly

[seaofdaydreams]

"You're the princess, daddy! Lie down, go to sleep and we'll save you!"

Inspired by this lovely dadstarion fic by @wilteddreamsofbaldursgate ✨

I got sick and was for all intents and purpose dead but this was so good I came back to life briefly to do this sketch. Y'all should check it out!

Also, it made me think of the song "King" by Lauren Aquilina and now I'm drowning in the feels.

#ok back into the coffin I go #astarion please take care of me #astarion #dadstarion #astarion headcanons #bg3 astarion #i think I'm finally getting a hang of drawing this infuriating man #art #wip #miri

[stonerbellybabe]

Doing what I do best (shoving handfuls of popcorn into my face like it’s my job)

#can we talk about how my belly hangs over the side of the bowl please #fucking hell dude #me #stonerbellybabe

[royalarchivist]

It's so wild seeing the official Tazercraft account posting old videos of the boys doing random stuff when they were all teenagers, but it's also sorta sweet seeing Pac, Mike, Cellbit, and Felps all hanging out and being friends, even way back then. :')

#Cellbit #Pactw #Mikethelink #Felps #Tazercraft #Mike #Pac #IT'S REALLY SWEET... #I wonder when they got to know Bagi #it's just so cute seeing them all hanging out #I think that's the first time I've seen what Felps looked like as a teen #If anyone's wondering what they're saying #Cellbit's offering him some coxinha and Pac says he doesn't like it #and then Mike and Felps wander over and they're like ''why are you guys on the ground???'' #It's VERY cute seeing Cellbit's baby laugh when I'm so used to his normal laugh #or well I guess teenage-voice laugh #idk man I'm old. They're all babies to me in this video #Edit: Tumblr PLEASE stop deleting my alt text every time I try and post something with it #Not QSMP but QSMP adjacent so.... #QSMP #for my own sake so I can find it later #IRL #Please feel free to add a transcript / better translation in the replies or reblogs if you'd like! #I'm not a native Portuguese speaker so #if there's ever a translation I'm super iffy on I just won't add it #plus they aren't really saying much. the tags about sum it up

[wifegideonnav]

honestly the worst part about being in the tlt fandom is that now im so fucking spoiled for Girl Content. like i go engage with other fandoms of mine now and im like oh yeah lol people fucking hate women. oh yeah lol no there isn’t nearly as much content of my favorite character as angsty boy number 12. hmm. fuck.

#me joining the homestuck fandom (only fandom I’ve properly joined since reading tlt) and realizing that it’s completely male centric #specially aggravating when it’s a fandom LIKE hs where literally half of the characters are girls and they’re all so well written #lesbians and honorary lesbians please promise me that we’re gonna hang out celebrating women forever please :3 #op

[morbart]

Unrealistic Zonai Beauty Standards

#Mineru #The Legend of Zelda #Tears of the Kingdom #very mild spoilers #please give me DLC that's just four hours of hanging out with Mineru please I beg of you

[katabay]

original thief series basso & garrett :)

ngl, it's about quality over quantity for me. an npc can have a total of three minutes of screen time, but if they have a cool name, they can live rent free in my head and I'll spend several hours trying to decipher drawable features from a blurry screenshot of pixels

there is a vague hint of a story here, and that's because every time I try to play thi4f, I get incredibly frustrated with how Not Fun the game play is. like, is the story good? well. but it has a PLAGUE. that should've given it instant 'I'll replay this once a year' status in my heart, but the game play sucks so bad that I've never finished it. I can't believe Not Fun gameplay beat out my obsession with narrative plagues.

anyway, the idea is basically if the original era had a game with a plague centric narrative and some other stuff I liked out of thi4f thrown into a narrative blender, with a heavy dash of horror thrown in because some parts of the thief games were scarier to me than entire dedicated horror genre games.

⭐ places I’m at! bsky / pixiv / pillowfort /cohost / cara.app

#if i had a laptop and the skillset i would attempt a story mod because the thief modders who create whole mission stories #are GENIUS and also somewhat terrifying. love them! xoxox #anyway im actually kind of obsessed with parts of thi4f but its also like. not at that sweet spot of almost good enough to be fun #to talk about. which. for the record. has not stopped me from talking about it at length to people #the city itself actually fucking fascinates me. its almost alive and im SO mad that not a single part of that game is actually terrifying #it should be gnarlier and instead it feels a bit like it doesn't quite want to be trapped in the story it has to tell? #but between the level that has the bodies on the meathooks #and the scene with the bodies hanging from the rafters or whatever that was and garrett living in a clock tower #because the game is very much ALMOST about changing times and authoritarian violence and capitalism #(like. by virtue of how the story sort of spins out i think it misses it's mark on a lot of stuff here #in the sense that i dont feel like it actually wants to tell that story. it wants to. go in a different direction. or at least walk on top #of those themes instead of through it) #ANYWAY between all of those things. it does kind of live in my head rent free. they did create a compelling setting #SHAME THEY DIDNT WANT TO ACTUALLY EAT ANY OF IT #unrelated but i would've given thi4f a 10/10 if they kept garrett's fucking nail polish from the concept art. cowards. unforgivable #thief the dark project #i still have no idea how to tag the game series as a whole RIP #sorry for the dedicated dark project fans. if you know what the general series tag is. please let me know #garrett thief #basso thief

[toolateforus]

Jean Vicquemare

#Disco Elysium #Jean Vicquemare #satellite officer vicquemare if you read this im free on thursday night and would like to hang out please respond to this and then hang ou #my art #Ill draw a mf wearing suspenders if i wanna nobody can stop me #im sick about this man............ sick.... #next jean crying jean in the bathtb jean on a horse jean tied up and gagged jean

[sallymew4]

literally a cry for help

#‘you should invite me to hang out sometimes’ #did you mean #‘please please please spend time with me i am begging you’ #the way he ASKS to be invited instead of just inviting THEM #that is the closest he’ll probably ever get to pleading for them to hang out with him #hes way too proud to just be forrealsies with them about how lonely he is #lonely little guy #also #what do you mean by its been a while ??? #how long is a while ??????? #so sad. alone for thousand centuries #mob psycho 100 #mp100 #teruki hanazawa #hanazawa teruki

[ljsarts]

'Warlin Door! Warlin Door everywhere i look its posters for his talkshow...'

I love how chill Tim is about being stuck in the dark place but i think he should be able to go a little crazy a-la A pepe silvia moment every now and then for enrichment.

So please accept this badly drawn tim as an offering (while i try to beat my art block)

#up next Alex casey in the dark place death pose as the hanged man tarot card #if youve seen that design before please let me know! i swear ive seen it but cant find it #anyway proper tags now- #alan wake 2 #tim breaker #sherriff breaker #alan wake meme #i did a tonne of 3d modelling and now traditional art is blocked lmao were getting there

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

wooooo warlock Wally and his delightful totally normal patron

#in my mind home can change his form drastically #like they only have hands or a humanoid form if they so please #theyre simple a writhing pit of darkness with red eyes/teeth #i imagine that when they first met home had zero affection for wally #it was purely an 'im using you. youre nothing but a puppet to me' #but then yk time passes shit happens #and before you know it home is all 'if anything happened to wally id kill everyone in this room and then myself' #scribble salad #wh fantasy au #and yes i Will restate their dynamic over and over and over again bc i love it and i love repetition #to home wally is.... a companion. a pet. a puppet. a home. a friend. a lover (kinda its complicated). a host. a plaything. an accomplice <3 #and then wally looks up at this horrific Demon and goes 'my home <3 @:)' #he doesnt get why everyone is afraid of home... hes just a lil guy c'mahn.... #(except hes not little at all and the home shown here has scaled itself down to hang more easily with wally) #wally likes to paint for home! his paintings are the only physical objects home keeps in their house form! #theyre like 'yeah you can drive nails into my body so i can keep pieces of you with me. thats cool no no it doesnt hurt at all i promise'

[delicatepointofview]

HARRY: I am a directioner first and a human being second (real)

#harry styles #stylesnews #stylesedits #hledit #hlcreators #hljournal #1dsource #gif* #europeans besties i know youre awake please dont leave me hanging i worked on this through the breakdown #harry should pay me i am pushing the correct agenda thank u very much #https://www.tiktok.com/@fabiwndrlnd/video/7123308200018971909?is_copy_url=1&is_from_webapp=v1&lang=pt-BR #there was more on my little list but this already took me an eternity #i had to download the whole bta doc just for that gif lmao

[feluka]

#often it hits me that i will never ever see an egypt that is free from military dictatorship #it has been under military rule from my grandparents' time and i have to assume it will remain under military rule long after i die #i just want to know how it feels to not live in a military state #disgusts me to the core. i can't stand our rulers. #likewise for jordan my heart aches for jordanians #i can't wait for all of us to be free i can't wait to see a free swana people all of us together starting with palestine please #i know we will be beautiful without the sword hanging over our necks