#people who bleed problems

[mizz-stress]

That anxiety of not remembering if you have something inside you 👀 and digging around until you find out.

#periods #menstration #menstruation #menstrual cycle #diva cup #tampons #period cup #people who bleed problems #bleeding vagina problems #uterus problems #txt #mizz-stress

[queenie-blackthorn]

sometimes i feel like i hate everyone

#if i ever say “i hate you” dont take it personally #everyone does stupid shit sometimes n thats fine but its happening sm and im sick of it n i need to speak up #chances are if u see this ur not part of the problem bc ur actually reading the shit i post #the fact that barely anyone realized that i relapsed into sh yesterday is crazy #im not doing this for attention its a fucking cry for help and most of yall are ignoring me #you ignore me when im fine and you ignore me when i need you #what am i supposed to do ffs #do i have to show you my bleeding thighs for you to ask how i am? #do you have to wait until i scream and cry and hurt myself for you to care abt me? #do i not matter unless im hurting? or do i not matter even when i am hurting? #do i have to fucking die for any of yall to realize theres something mentally wrong w me? #fuck you all youre just as bad as my parents #except for the four people who talked me out of spiralling last night #two of which were people i barely/dont know #so yeah maybe try harder n actually ask ur friends how they are #dont push them to the point where they need to be comforted by strangers

[cienie-isengardu]

Bi-Han when talking to his (story mode) allies who also are enemies of Kuai Liang

MORTAL KOMBAT 1 (2023)

Havik: Aid me and I'll destroy the Shirai Ryu. Bi-Han: That is *my* privelege, Havik.

Shao: If I *ever* see your brother --- Bi-Han: You won't unless you visit his grave.

Shang Tsung: Kuai Liang's betrayal cost us dearly. Bi-Han: He will bleed for it, sorcerer.

BONUS: Noob Saibot [Mortal Kombat 11 (2019)]

Geras: Bring your brother to Kronika. Noob Saibot: The dead are my clan now. Geras: Do you serve or do you not?

#mortal kombat #mortal kombat spoilers #bi han #sub zero #noob saibot #I think no fan of Lin Kuei is truly happy about the MK1's take on Bi-Han and Kuai Liang's strained relationship #without givings us first some good brotherhood moments to root for #but i like the creators at least keep bi han's remarks about dealing with brother as an ambiguous rather than straight up I will kill him #as his specific choice of words reminds me a lot about Noob Saibot #who did not have any problem with admiting kuai liang is his brother to people who in general were on good terms with kuai liang #but when asked by geras to bring kuai liang to kronika he was suddenly like what a brother sorry only dead are my family now #and i meant it #bi han has never once said he is gonna kill kuai liang (or smoke for that matter) #sub zero will say stuff about hurting kuai liang / shirai ryu to brother's face or kuai liang's allies #sure #but so far only to shang tsung he said kuai is gonna bleed for betrayal (still being hurt/punished not killed) #while his replies to shao and havik are more ambiguous #like the one for shao - you will see my bother only if you visit his grave #there is no addition AFTER I WILL KILL HIM #more like you are not allowed to see kuai liang until he died #i like that there is some unsaid stuff one may read in various ways when it comes to Bi Han's family matters

[horsemage]

I think we should bring back basic etiquette lessons such as shutting the fuck up when you’re watching a movie in a group that is not exclusively your friend group 🙂

#welcome to another Mick Airs Out Their Grievances and by god is it a VERY long one #prob best if u don't expand the tags #am I being maybe a bit meaner about this than I would be for any other movie? maybe but pac rim is one of my favorite movies of all time #so I think I get a pass on this one. #one of the groups on campus is hosting movie nights & I went to this one bc I've only ever watched pac rim on my laptop and wanted to watch #it on a larger screen. yay yippee I love this movie! #there r maybe 10-ish of us in this room and a three person friend group is sitting on the couch one of whom has seen the movie and two who #have not. okay so far so normal. #and then the movie starts and they won't! stop! fucking! commentating! the whole fucking movie!!! I don't have a problem with doing that #when I'm in just my friend group because I know that I can tell my friend to stop talking or pause the movie or whatnot but not when I'm in #a large group w people I'm not good friends with ffs #and the comments aren't even funny or anything they're all oh this is JUST like in iron widow!! oh they're SO gay and autistic!!! and #they're talking so loud about this that it completely drowns out the movie audio which has already been turned up a few times #like. be considerate!! some of us want to yknow actually listen to what's going on and not whatever bullshit you're saying #I nearly walked out three or four times before I actually wound up doing so #I may have been a bit of a bitch at the end but I don't care. I got up to leave because this was not an enjoyable environment and one of #them offered to turn the movie down if it was too loud. this caught me a bit off guard since I expected them to still be so wrapped up in #their convo and. well. I may have said 'it's not the movie that's too loud' before closing the door #this also reminds me a lot about my issues with online shipping culture and it bleeding through into how we interact with media irl #this is probably heavily influenced by my aromanticism but I'm so sick of people constantly reading romantic relationships into everything #AND placing more importance on those relationships than any other form. I don't mind romance in media. I think if done right it has great #emotional impact on a story but when a movie is running and when other people who may not want to hear it are in the room watching it too #is not the time to be loudly saying 'he's autistic!' 'they're in love!' 'she has a crush on him!' #I have my own interpretations of the movie some of which agree with what they said and some of which don't but that's beside the point of #knowing how to coexist politely in public #anyway. I think they were awful and annoying and they ruined my night out. #I think I'm just so incredibly mad about this because I love the movie and I was looking forward to watching it in a group of people who #found it cool as well while still having some modicum of politeness #I almost wish I had been meaner but that's the extreme annoyance talking I think #hater hour over love u guys bye

[icryyoumercy]

i love that a legitimate way to prevent tetanus in an unvaccinated individual is 'just make the wound a whole fucking lot bigger'

#three cheers for thorough investigation #a study in sex drugs and french #oh this problem is most common in deep narrow wounds that don't bleed a lot? #get my knives we're gonna stop people from having such wounds #is there any study on the treatment of tetanus in people who refuse a vaccine? #like this is one vaccine you can refuse with a clear conscience! #you cannot infect other people with tetanus #unless you actively try #in which case that'd be murder #and also very difficult to accomplish

[marinerainbow]

Hey! ^^ Hope you're doing well and work is better ^^

I was just reading our old Cousins chats and like- we accidentally write 'terry', so often when we're meaning Teddy! This made me start thinking about how Teddy and Terry might get along... and I think its safe to say they would get along XD They're both so no-bullshit!

Here are some Teddy and Terry things XD

They meet when Teddy's 4 and Shiny's babysitting her at the club (Teddy's easy. Shiny just has to keep her lemonade topped up and she'll just sit at the bar side and colour unless she needs to go pee. And she knows to ask Shiny to go with her when she does.). Shiny has him sit down next to the kid so no wierdo's sit next to her, cuz she trusts him. He talks to the kid a little bit ('Yer Wheezy's kid?' 'Yeah. You're Shiny's friend?' 'Yeah' 'For the love of god you two, broaden your vernaculars.'), but they're both pretty content to just Sit.

Imagine Terry protecting Teddy from a creep!! Whether she's 4 or 21- there are always creeps. And since Teddy likes the club (People watching is great there), she's in contact with them more then most. And Shiny beats them off most of the time but every now and then she leaves Terry in charge of the Teddy Guard. (Side note- imagine w h e e z y seeing a creep bother his kid)

Imagine Terry and Teddy sharing a look before Shiny does something particularly nutty. Like, they aint gonna stop her- but they know when its coming XD They know the signs well XD

Grandpa!Terry and Kid!Teddy sitting with newborn Jewel while momma and daddy work!! Teddy sits on top of the bar and plays with Jewel in her bassinet while grandpa Terry has his drink and watches over them both.

Teddy being startled if she sees Terry slip away from his hands XDD Like okay... thats n e w-

Follow up- Terry showing Teddy 'its nothin' and reattaching his hands so she can see.

Imagine Uncle Smartass coming into the joint one day and seeing Terry and Teddy together and acting before thinking, of course, and almost decking Terry cuz he thinks he's a creep bothering his too-relaxed niece!! 😂😂😂😅 Shiny has to yell from the other side of the bar, like 'ITS OKAY MAN!! THATS TERRY!! HE'S COOL!!'

Tween!Teddy seeing a guy flirt with Terry and Terry not really rebuffing him like most men in this era would have (But also not really flirting back, cuz like-- theirs a kid here.), and Greasy who's at the club too rushes to try and explain to Teddy what being 'gay' is- but Teddy's just... doesn't react. Like 'yeah, okay uncle greasy. can we get cake after this??' 'em... sure. what flavour?- ' 'chocolate! ^^' Its just not in Teddy's nature to judge or care about harmless things, and besides- her mum's an lgbtqia+ rights advocate.

Shiny asking Teddy about kids she might 'like' once she gets to high school and Teddy makes the most uncomfortable, icked-out face around her drink straw!! Like, neither Shiny or Terry have ever seen Teddy give such a visceral reaction to anything!! They laugh at her XD ('Okayyyy then, I guess not!' 'Smart kid')

Okay, i wanted to do more but I have to go ^^ I hope you like these! We need to give Terry and Teddy more attention XD See ya! Have a good day! ^^

THIS! IS! CANON! NOW!

Omgggg I was wondering how Terry would fit into the cousin timeline! It actually makes sense that'd the kids would know him; not just Teddy, but the twins too (Poppy nor Psycho don't necessarily like the idea of their kids being in a club, but Poppy trusts Shiny and sometimes they needs a late night babysitter). And Jewel definitely like you said! If course she'd know about her mom's best man ^^

Ohhh if Terry saw a creep near Teddy (or any of the kids), I think that's the only real time he'll get scary. He'll actually shove the bastard off (he's not strong like Moony, but he is a factory worker and can wrangle in a good sized fish while fishing, so I'd say he's fairly built for his age and health) and tell them to get lost before he calls Shiny over. And any regular at the club knows that a police officer would be a lot more merciful than what that crazy woman will do. Or better yet, Terry will threaten to grab the kids father- and nobody wants to deal with a full blown gangster (I am very certain Wheezy will have zero patience for any creep looking at his kid)

Terry will apologize to Teddy for having to see that and get her a pretzel or something, too.

(I raise you; imagine navy, tough as nails Lottie witnessing a creep on any of her little cousins.)

And Terry and Teddy with Jewel at the club!!! Yes yes yes yes yes!!!! I've been debating whether or not Shiny would bring her baby to work, actually. She knows she can trust Terry and her coworkers, but also- which parent would be better for the baby to stay with? The parent that works in a night club, or the parent that works in the night under a much more sinister job?

As for the hands thing and high school crushes- yeah, he'd be amused XD Terry can't can't resist a snicker seeing the chill sister of the cousin group actually make a face other than lackadaisical. He considers that a win, "'Yer so much like your 'pa, y'know that, kid?"

I wish I could add more, but nothing can beat all this perfection! But this did get me thinking about Moony and how he'd fit in the cousins' lives. If Terry can be well acquainted with them thanks to his friendship with Shiny, than Moony's connection to Poppy definitely has to earn him an honorary uncle title for the twins.

Moony I can see him being introduced to the twins a week or so after they were born. He knew when the due date was, but insisted on letting Poppy recuperate before trying to visit. (It took a lot of convincing Psycho I imagine. His protective instincts were through the roof around this time especially.) He fell in love instantly.

Moony can't babysit all the time due to his morning work, but he pitches in whenever he can ^^ it's especially helpful since Pops and Psycho are working and are still figuring out their schedules so they can be with the kids enough. Moony will not let the babies out of his sight the entire time; he'll carry them around carefully in his jacket, too (can you imagine how tiny toon weasel and rabbit babies could be!?!? Omgggg I can't even!) So Cake gets to have roomies XD

Speaking of Cake; She still disapproves Psycho XD she'll stomp her foot the second she sees hom walk in through the door (it really is on sight with that weasel XD), but will dash over to Poppy and Penny and Percy and give them love. Cake is very obvious in who her favorites are XD

Moony helped the kids learn how to treat animals. He taught Percy to be careful with his claws while petting Cake, and Penny that she can't affectionately squeeze an animal while hugging it. He'd also help the other kids, too ^^

Moony with Jewel!! Percy and Penny's honorary sister!!! Ohhh my god Moony will not be prepared for the evil mastermind this child is XDDD he is genuinely shocked that Jewel isn't their biological sister, honestly XD though she could wind up telling him some cousin secrets-

Jewel, after Lottie dropped her off at Moony's house: She likes your butt and fancy fur, by the way.

Moony: ... What???

Jewel: I read her diary yesterday.

Moony: ... Ok we are gonna have a talk about that, young lady-

Moony and Teddy would be sooo chill, obviously. They could just sit down and watch TV together if they wanted to.

MOONY AND LOTTIE!!! Ok I'm surprised we haven't discussed them sooner; you've mentioned that Lottie would grow a crush on Moony when she was older. I'm pretty sure Poppy would have told Moony at least about her little niece, and they would have seen each other at least once before she went into the navy. But he wouldn't have been too involved, I think; he and Smartass don't know each other, and he understands that he has no place to raise this little weasel, so he gives the father and daughter some space. This guy has no idea Lottie thinks he's hot and his brain would factory reset if he found out 😆😅

Ooohhh Terry would be nothing compared to what Moony would do if he found a creeper around any of the kids. He will throw the guy away and will growl and snarl, with his claws bared. The only thing stopping him from going completely savage is knowing that the little ones are near. So he runs the guy off before worryingly checking the kids, regardless of how old they are.

... Ok an angsty thought, but; imagine if Moony is still in love with Poppy, how much it hurts to know she and Psycho are starting a family; Moony knows that Poppy is full blown 100% committed to Psycho now, and the chances of them getting back together are gone. It's painful, but he looks after the twins like his own children too.

THE BABIES PLAYING WITH MOONY'S OR TERRY'S TAILS!!! I REPEAT! THE BABIES PLAYING WITH MOONY OR TERRY'S TAILS!!!!

As much as I want to add more, this is all I've got right now. Thank you so much for sending this ask in!! I loved it!!! ^^

#asks #other peoples OC's #Teddy Weasel #my own OC's #Terry Ratt. T #Shiny Weasel #Moony Wolf #Poppy #Jewel Weasel #Penelope and Percival #Wheezy Weasel #Greasy Weasel #Psycho Weasel #wfrr #who framed roger rabbit #to answer you about work... Theres among problem the managers and its bleeding out onto the workers #lets just say that

[eternal-reverie]

Something in the back of my mind has been bothering me for a long while, and I figured out what it was. I have this tendency of censoring myself when I speak? I dance around a subject, which I keep hinting at, but never explicitly say what I want to say, and when someone doesn’t pick up on that, I get disappointed when they don’t help me open up to the topic.

#the disappointment deepens and I guess the fear of truly opening up of showing my self flaws and all is scary #in short I’m scared to have an opinion!!! #also when people ask me what I’m into reading to watching oh man I feel the pressure to pitch it and possibly defend it #and instead I just vaguely share what it’s about for the sake of not spoiling the experience #then the envy I feel when other ppl share wholeheartedly what they love and take their time with it explaining #and they explain it so clearly and I wish I could do that #click clack #the problem was so vague it’s taken me awhile to discern #I’m guessing this all stems from being made fun of or dismissed for my interests 😔 #a long time ago but the effects still linger #the fear of being perceived is all wrapped in me #I do the same thing here. it bleeds to all the ways of socializing this day and age #I wish I were one of those ppl who have a more lively social life online and talking to ppl regularly #but my first instinct to a message is to close the notification and leave it for later because it’s so intimidating!!! #it feels like I have to perform an image that’s guaranteed to be liked rather than just be me authentically #ok I got to the crux phewwww uhhh lol got all my vulnerabilities out in the middle of the night

[toastsnaffler]

sometimes I wish I was a more interesting + charismatic person just so I could keep conversations going bc I like sharing space with other ppl but they routinely lose all interest and leave once I run out of things to say/start talking abt things that don't concern them :-(

#and boy do I run out of things to say so fast when I'm talking to friends who ik dont give a fuck abt any of my interests... #theres only so much i can make small talk or ask them questions abt their own interests/lives yknow. man #it just makes me feel like im constantly competing with smth else for other ppls attention all the time + constantly losing #eg. when i say smth + my flatmate reaches for her headphones a little dark souls banner appears across my vision like INTERACTION FAILED #and i can feel my rsd + insecurities praying on it like the more i feel this way the more it prophetically fulfils itself #by making me less willing to try and take up space so i become a smaller and smaller person around others #it frustrates me a lot sometimes and i dont rly have the will rn to undo that and force myself to take up more space regardless #ik this sounds like a water is wet complaint like oh nooo woe is me people get bored of me when i talk abt boring things (!!) #but when im spending time w ppl i like i enjoy listening to them talk even if im not interested in the subject bc its Them talking #and if they care abt smth then its worth hearing abt!! to me anyway. but it rly feels like no one reciprocates that idk #oh well not that it matters. at least i like the shit im into so i can talk to myself abt it in my head or on this site lmao #and i like myself as a person even if other people dont so theres always that. ur no 1 should always be urself <3 #voicing this makes me feel so stupid + embarrassed urgh. i hate being anxious abt dumb shit i hate being the sort of person who worries #that their friends privately dislike/just tolerate them or whatever bc id never want a friend to worry abt whether i thought that abt them #and im not naturally a very insecure person!! i think im just feeling particularly vulnerable atm bc of the season + jobhunting so long #+ the fact im dissatisfied with my current social life + still feel very wobbly from not having other ppl i can trust or rely on etcetcetc #and thats just bleeding into other areas. and it sucks a lot. but theres nothing to be done abt it rn bc im not going to communicate it #to other ppl bc im not pathetic enough to make my anxieties someone elses problem + beg for pity attention im too proud for that 👍 #anyway. gonna play some noita + then i rly need to work out today bc thats probs part of why im feeling so shite #if ur reading this ignore me im just venting itll pass. i hope youre having a nice day :^) #.vent #.diaries

[captainofthetidesbreath]

absolutely spoken like someone whose career in piracy ended (possibly very recently) because his boatswain, lover, and partner in warlock shenanigans tried to ritually murder him after she identified his distrustful hesitation and disillusioned exhaustion and considered it weakness and cowardice

#Vandran has so many emotional problems. It's amazing. #Is he giving the best advice to Fjord? No. Do I see absolutely where he is coming from? Yes. Is this actually stuff Fjord needed? Also yes. #It gave Fjord new and exciting emotional problems but.... was Vandran wrong lmfao? #Fjord did very much want to learn and did greatly benefit from many of these things even as he had to unpack and unlearn parts of them. #He did very much benefit from being able to control whether and how other people saw him. #And while what Vandran taught him developed a struggle with vulnerability in Fjord—it did help Fjord a lot to learn to hold his guard. #It's a..... super complicated thing really. #It wasn't always good and Fjord did need to let go of parts of it. But it served Fjord at the time in a way he desperately needed. #(Like trying to stop someone from bleeding out and being less concerned about whether the wound will heal pretty. As long as it closes.) #(Aabria voice: Nature heals and sometimes it heals a little stupid but it does heal.) #As immensely flawed as these lessons were they enabled Fjord to find his footing and stability and build a foundational sense of himself. #That allowed him in turn to continue to grow in a way that let him let go of these things as well. Like outgrowing your coping mechanisms. #And I feel like this comic underscores and articulates all of that very clearly. Stepping stones. #Anyway this post is about Vandran who also has massive emotional issues bc yanno his girlfriend tried to murder him for ~weakness~ #Critical Role things #MNO spoilers

[aq2003]

its so. wild seeing dudebros out there hating ten (or fourteen) for being "too emotional" or having breakdowns like um <3 i think that's a you problem first of all. second of all way to miss the whole point of his character lol

#they did not hire david tennant to play a fuckin... macho unfeeling cool-guy hero. lmao. #ten is so so good precisely bc he's halfway the lonely near-immortal alien that watched all their people die #and knows that getting too attached to people will end in disaster. and he's halfway someone created out of love #that gets attached so easily and will actually start being driven insane when left on his own for too long. #he snaps in anger he has a bleeding heart he laments the unfairness of the constant tragedy surrounding him #and that is the point! the flavor! #and if you think it's cringe that's a you problem. thats a severe skill issue. at least hate him for something he actually did #dr who #arhghgh dont even get me started on ppl that compare kilgrave to ten just bc theyre both angry sometimes. #WHERE is the media comprehension

[deus-and-the-machina]

ngl the worst thing about the xenoblade fandom (which I think is the root cause of a lot of other issues) is that it’s mostly on twitter. I have to subject myself to twitter for any real consistent fan talk or content. legit there's always some new stupid topic of argument ive noticed in the past few weeks on there and its all very silly and frustrating and what im saying is everyone should move to Tumblr. please. for me. 

#siren says #the other root problem in the fandom is that as of 2 there's just a lot of fans who are clearly there for sexy anime lady reasons. and that #in turn bleeds into certain peoples perception of those characters as mostly sex symbols and attracts a lot of...certain kinds of #individuals. specifically ones who dont really understand what fandoms basic principals are. the amount of times ive seen someone going "um #but thats not canon or some comment along those lines is so stupidly high. and I thought it was just homophobia and certainly part of it is #but I also saw it on a fucking glimmer/nikol art??? like. neither of them have any other love interests and its a perfectly cute if cliche #pairing and you STILL have people being contrarian? I think a lot of these gamer bro types just dont understand basic fandom guidelines ngl #and idk I also feel kind of alienated from other queer fans bc I kind of like some of the ships most of them hate and I felt like if I ever #tried to reach out it would just be awkward idk. at least the people I see on tw who I think are very cool writers or artists or whatever #xenoblade really should be bigger on here Tumblr goes on and on about the romanticization of cannibalism and weird divine imagery #and machines that are also alive and maybe even angels and im like. BOY HOWDY DO I HAVE A SERIES FOR YOU #including saga and gears btw ESPECIALLY them actually. tumblr would love A's gender fuckery I just know it but A is stuck to mostly being #known by twitter a cruel fate for an enby if I ever saw one. free A :((((( #actually I just need to get a bunch of Aros into xenoblade they'd understand me then :3 understand me and my nontraditional relationship hcs #xenoblade #putting this in the main tags o7 pray for me

[dixiedingo]

Bahhh

#been feeling crummy #doesn't help my eliptical machine finally gave up #but I've been obsessing again #i hate it when I do this because I don't feel like I have any control over it #no matter how hard I distract myself I just keep thinking about the pains and stuff #this morning I couldn't stop thinking about how abandoned I feel/felt #yesterday and today i just feel ugly. unsightly. #and i wanna make friends but also i know I'm super intense with my feelings and reactions. #and i know. we just live inna day and age where people just. don't have the patience for it #it feels like if i ever complain to anyone they'll just abandon me and complain about how like #self absorbed and emotional I am #and I know this is all irrational but when it actually happens to you when the worst case scenario actually happens #you get so jumpy and frightened #my problems seem so intense and so much cause everytime I bring it up I judt get hit with #“oh.” or “wow.” or “im sorry.” #and its like you're clearly uncomfortable! and now I feel bad! and its like I can never tell anyone whats wrong. #and the few people who do listen I can never get them to talk to me in normal circumstances #so i feel like you're a therapist more than a friend and thats worse bc its like im using you #vent #i just feel like crying but I know it wont fix anything and i'll just get another nose bleed

[transmeds]

i dont care about my pronouns that much anymore it really isn't gonna kill me so most of the time when i have to put them somewhere i just say "he/her" cause i don't care other than not liking being called they + people are more likely to take my one off transmed comments as a joke if they think i am One Of Them. anyways the other day one of my well-meaning but 😭😭😭 friend went "i thought you were genderfluid? you know, cause of your pronouns" and i regretted my choice to start saying that for a solid day. i will continue to do it, regardless.

#i don't like being called they because when i was a baby trans i always felt like people would use it on me to avoid acknowledging that #i was indeed a boy but without getting in trouble for calling me a girl. u know? #'but i didn't say she i didn't misgender you!' #n for the she i think it's silly if people call me a she so i let them do it. doesn't change anything #who knows mahybe im weird but also i am a crossdresser and drag queens do it so whatev #taking inspiration or whatever u wanna call it #another reason i dont like they but more recently after i started crossdressing is that people will call me a they because it makes the #fact that i am a man in a dress easier to digest but i have no plans to make myself more digestible if you do not like it thts ur problem #it's easier to pretend that i am less of a man or less of a woman (not that i am a woman but in the crossdressing way) and call me a they #does that mean i will let you? no. i will not let you i will bellyache until your ears bleed

[fandomfluffandfuck]

#WAIT #tell me this isn't a steve rogers song! #it! is! #especially freshly awoken steve in the 21st century #'I was an ideal / Looked so alive turns out I'm not real / Just somethin' you paid for' #steve being a propaganda pawn #'When did it end? All the enjoyment / I'm sad again don't tell my boyfriend / It's not what he's made for' #steve wanting to be strong all the time and not wanting to bleed on people #feeling like his problems and traumas aren't anywhere near as deep or serious as bucky's when #in fact #they are #the whole #'what was i made for?' #steve trying to distinguish between steve rogers and captain america #who is he #what's his purpose #what should he be doing #... #great #i made myself sad #steve rogers #Spotify

[awesome-cookies-and-cream]

it do be like that sometimes

#chatter #personal #some people are just meant to be cherished by the people around them #and some are meant to be left around to do their own thing #of course they'll be fine #they're very low maintenance and self suficient #but it would be nice if people would do stuff for me once in awhile #or make time for me or whatever #unfortunately my whole childhood of being valued as the one low maintenance kid who you never have problems with #no matter what abuse or deprivation #started bleeding to my other relationships #that i have very fucked up ideas of intimacy #as much as i want friends to do something special for me or make time just for me #i'd run away because im afraid of being a burden #after being told years that my only worth is at least you're not adding trouble for your family #because you as a kid is inherently troublesome #sure fucks you up at receiving love #so i guess i can't blame them if i give off an aura of not wanting to be pampered #or not wanting attention #or not wanting to be loved #or not wanting to be in a relationship #im not ready for it #maybe one day #but i guess if just one person makes time for me and sees me as a special person #i guess i'll be happy

[neverendingford]

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#friendship arc over. time for your regularly scheduled unfriending of all new social contacts #the problem with making friends is that if you're not actually making good friends then they're not worth the energy they cost #I have a limited amount of mana and low value friends with high mana cost are simply not worth keeping in my deck. #I'm never going to get anywhere spending my energy on people who provide nothing in return #yes altruism is good. yes we give and love and grow #but I cannot give without recharge. I cannot love if I am not loved in return. #I can't hold a conversation if you never talk back #it's not a date if only one of us shows up #sorry. I'm in a mood cause I'm watching Arcane and honestly I might be vibing with Jinx a little too hard #I could keep talking but the problem is people read these now. you see me now. you see me hurt. you see me scream and cry and bleed #do you remember the night I rambled about Mononoke? I talked about ego death and how my whole world was spinning #I couldn't see straight and I could barely sit up #I poisoned myself. did you know that? I tell everyone I cut my veins because that's easier #easier than telling them that I put my chemistry skills to good use that night. natural oils and pills from the local pharmacy #all in neat little capsules homemade #I make everything myself. food. lanyard. comb. gloves. even shoes one time. #I've made my skin a hundred times over. I counted one time. you know that? I counted how many scars I have. #give me a second I'm gonna make art now #tag talk