#outside the mind/to reality

[ask-kimerako-therapycarpool]

yeah. i'll go check. *checks the outside world*

[The first thing the anon can see are a couple of things. The skies are dark and gloomy. Most of the buildings, structures, and everything else so far are demolished in a state below repair. A handful of people are in distress. Another handful have lost all hope. And there's also a handful that are in constant danger. There's even a few notable people that also happen to be grieving hard from the whole situation. Like Carol, as a huge example. A good chunk of the world is in a constant state of disarray. Shadowy Venomous cackles maniacally while TKO floats with him, emotionless. His hands is carefully resting on the dial of the gauntlet, at the ready to choose a damage dealing form. So TDLR; everything is Cob-awful bad and glaringly bleak. Everything the anon sees isn't very pretty at all.]

#ask-kimerako #ask #anon #sv mind controlled t.kimera #kimera ko's shadowy venomous #season 3 reference #t.kimera #outside the mind/to reality #kimera ko au #tales from the multiverse #therapy carpool #therapy carpool canon #aftermath of carl episode event #angst

[ramenwithbroccoli]

not to be controversial on main, but i really do feel like way more people would enjoy maths if someone properly explained it to them & they didn't have a hanging threat of failing an exam above their heads

#it's genuinely so nice to try mathematics outside of academic setting! #look at me solving numbers' wee riddles three! they are speaking to me!!!!! #it's like being a detective in the world of formulas. liek evolution. like constant battke of survival #everytime you learnt a new tactic to solve a problem. another obstacle appears #me and math are locked in eternal dance where we fight like enemies yet are unable to live without each other like lovers #there's no math without mind being able to percieve. and there's no seeing reality without perceiving maths #AND NUMBERS ARE. EVERYWHERE #don't get me wrong i'm not an analytical kinda person. i was always the english & biology type of kid and physics was my enemy in school #BUT IF YOU LOOK AT IT RIGHT. YOU TOO CAN LEARN TO APPRECIATE MATH #math #ramblings

[onethousxndvoices]

so i started playing prsk and noticed some similarities from another game i love

#jesus. how do i even tag this #project sekai #prsk fa #destiny 2 #hatsune miku #eris morn #xivu arath #tsukasa tenma #emu otori #rui kamishiro #nene kusanagi #INSANE lineup of characters here #smth smth venn diagram between these two games and ''world that exists outside/adjacent to reality born from the mind/feelings #of the owner(s)'' sitting in the middle #this is the dumbest thing ive ever drawn #skip's art

[merakiui]

I saw u mentioning villain Jade and Floyd, did u come up with smth new for them? 👀

👀 in the context of the story, they help Azul behind the scenes. To magical girl!reader, they just seem like Deep-Sea Merchant fanboys because of their willingness to join the fight just for the fun of it. You can't stand them. Azul wishes they (mostly Floyd, though) would stop messing up his chances for cool dialogue just for the chance to fight you. >_<

As for villains, I think they'd be the type of surprise villain, in which you think there's only one but then it turns out there's two. They use the fact that they're twins and can do solid impressions of the other to their advantage so that, after they've had their fun playing around with you, they can finally catch you off guard and capture you for themselves hehe.

#twisted chit chat #everyone at nrc thinks you're a hero from rsa when in reality you're the janitor they hardly pay any mind to during the school week ;;; #'surely our resident magical girl has a glamorous life outside of fighting evil!!!!' #cut to reader fighting grim for the last slice of bread because crowley forgot to provide payment again T_T

[ride-a-dromedary]

Halsin's character in Act 3 post breaking of the Shadowcurse is actually, either intentionally or not, another more quiet and subtle angle of trauma exploration; specifically, the alteration of identity development and its previously existing commitments post traumatic events.

#in this essay i will #BG3 Musing #Halsin #Halsin Posting #it's how you can tell shadowheart and halsin were written by the same person - both of them suffer #either in a literal or figurative case #from an inability to access one's past self due to trauma #a floating vessel of identification if you will #it's not that they do not want to be their past selves - it's that they don't really know who their past selves *are* anymore #(literally in shadowheart's case) #and they are reaching out frantically in familiar directions trying to get it back #when they are dunked into the cold water of reality that has been stolen from them in one way or another #halsin's description of himself outside of his one track mind is bracketed by hesitation #he says that he becomes consumed with the completion of the task at hand #shadowheart cannot remember frivolous pieces that crafted her identity - she is *literally* being consumed by an outside influence #they cling to aspects of their personality that they have retained which amps them up to 11 #it's weird though how aspects and aftereffects of trauma are only recognized if they are immediately recognizable outburst #anyway happy birthday to me i am going to think about the elf man some more

[weallpartyatybcpatricksfuneral]

anyone else think it's insane that folie a deux -- which literally means "the shared delusions of two"-- opens with "I'm coming apart at the seams/Pitching myself for leads in other people's dreams"

#sorry but thats an incredibly insane line to open with??? #especially because its one of the few lines outside the chorus that actually 'make sense' #and arent just kind of gibberish writing? like i dont think thats a bad thing btw and i think every line in disloyal order is amazing #but if you genuinely read over the lyrics to disloyal order most of it genuinely makes no sense in context of the song #other than the loose bolt/half doomed and semi sweet line (which acts as the thesis for the song) and the chorus #this +the few lines that come after it are really the only things that make sense in this song #kind of as if one person is coping fine while the other is losing grip on reality #shared madness of two and all. something something mania 'even at the best of times im out of my mind' #oops i did it again i forgot what i was losing my mind about kind of fits disloyal order a bit too much imo #fall out boy #fob #patrick stump #pete wentz #joe trohman #andy hurley

[alchemocha]

Do you think jimbotnik works so much without stopping to eat or sleep or anything is because on one hand, he needs to be useful, to feel useful, or he’ll be discarded and not worthy of being the genius he is. While on the other hand, if he stops for even a moment, if he’s not occupying his mind somehow, his thoughts wander too much and he dwells on things and ruminates and feels sad. Alone. Like if he stops moving the weight of everything is going to crush him.

And he hates it. Feeling useless, feeling sad, all these very human things. Things that make sense for someone as deeply hurt as him to feel. It’s hard to keep his mind off such thoughts when he’s not working, and Stone can see it so plainly, when he stops, his whole demeanour can shift and sometimes he’ll find him staring off at nothing, looking so somber and bereft. It makes his heart ache. He wants to help, to take all that sadness, loneliness, and self loathing away from the doctor…

#thoughts crossed my mind and I am plagued by angsty jimbotnik #he’s always busying himself. what happens when he’s not. surely he’d be faced with the reality #that he is lonely. and he is sad. #lays face down in my own tears #jimbotnik #ivo robotnik #dr robotnik #stobotnik #agent stone #and agent stone will love him and care for him and make sure he feels loved #knows that he is important and has worth outside of simply being useful #wehhh #late night stob thoughts #mocha rambles

[bisaster-energy]

Merlin but Merlin loses it when Arthur dies and instinctively starts a time loop and every time Arthur dies it automatically resets...for angst purposes it could stay tragic..no matter what he does to change the past kilgharra was right. no one can change their destiny nor can they escape it. or by starting this time loop at all he's doing is preventing the rise of the once and future king so by staving off Arthur's death he's actually preventing anyone from ever really living again. a never ending story with one character aware of the narrative but powerless to change it. a puppet with a brain but no autonomy to put it to use. A tragedy of his own making instead the one prophesized

#so that it doesn't work on the first try maybe morgana remembers and interferes or #maybe future Merlin is a sort of apparition that can only act if his old body lets him. he talks to past him like a ghost or demon even #so what he's saying directly contradicts kilgharra or gaius so present merlin probably distrusts him like crazy #merlin becomes another old annoying person in his own ear #who he doesn't even know if he can trust #OR he ends up sending arthur back by accident and arthur is in the past trying to fix shit #and this CHANGES something because now there's warnings of a great ending of all things coming for Camelot and by extension albion #and arthur knowing about Merlin's powers after keeping his knowledge to himself (cos he died RIGHT after learning about the magic) #finally understands the burden merlin had without having to try and understand based on Merlin's summary of an explanation alone #he understands morgana and mordred even nimueh like he GETS it gets it #anyway time goes on canon events are rewritten and the 'great evil' rips a giant hole in space and time and it turns out #future merlin was the cause. because he was smashing alternate realities to pieces looking for arthur is desperation #not knowing where the hell he even sent him breaking any known laws of time and space and reality consequences be damned #arthur cannot kill merlin. he cannot do it. not even for Camelot #so this can be angsty too like merlin loses himself completely in the search for arthur (paralleling the og timeline where Merlin ends up #singularly focused on Arthur's safety instead of his true mission) #and it literally swallows him and their entire known world up #or they get through to him. arthur AND past merlin. seeing that past him was able to diverge from the set path. live more for himself #than just arthur or for the sake of camelot be a PERSON outside of that. and have knowledge that he DID change arthur's mind. #not just as a useless deathbed confession but as something that actively changed and SAVED albion redeemed him of the mistakes he made and #proved that arthur is the man the KING he told every antagonist he was #future merlin sacrifices himself to destroy the black hole he made and it's like that future never even was. #just a bad nightmare you can't really remember. #just thinking about Merlin god bless #bbc merlin #fic ideas

[sysig]

"...we could just run away somewhere, the two of us.” (Patreon)

Too many for a single photoset, but since these are a bit on the scribbly side I didn’t want to split them up either ♪ Enjoy the added commentary!

Couple’a cut panels, Max is reacting to Dexter putting his plans in motion here

Very inspired from the ever-so-slightly earlier scene in Helix of Max covering his ears to block out Dexter’s call ♥ Even when things are going his way it’s too overwhelming!

*Summer home. I forgot what he referred to it as lol

Can’t be a meeting if you just ditch entirely!

Surprised by this turn of events, just keeps getting better and better

Of course he had to say something and make Dex mad again haha ♪

Unfortunately his dialogue here was a little too silly for being high and sad and stressed so I had to move it, but he still turned out cute so here it is instead!

Guilty guilty guiltyyyy

Knocked out from the long car trip ♥ He definitely needs it

I love this shot, Dexter leaning in to check on him 💕

He’s so flippin’ cute I fjdsklafd

Very awake all of a sudden, spooked out of sleep. You’re the first ones here, it’s all fine

Head tilts forever ♥

He is still coming down after all

Pathetic, as always

Walked to be within sight of the house so he doesn’t go wandering off

Staff at the summer home?? Sure, why not lol, maybe they’re preparing for the Vyers to come by

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #Max Vyer #Dexter Favin #Apparently I'm not done with this idea hm #I keep making Max's hair too long - I wonder who's the blame for this lol #I mean besides me pfft ♪ #These are mostly planning doodles but I like so many of them! And as much as I'm still stuck I don't know how long it'll take #So impatient lol ♫ I want to do everything and have it all done! #I mostly just wanted to get the setup pinned down - where it diverges from Helix - and then little ideas started getting at me #Starting to make a proper shape in my mind! #The rest is pretty much down to the set I posted a while ago of Max imagining a life with Dexter hehe <3 #Actually having to deal in reality tho hehe ♪ It's not so nice as just imagining an easy out! There are consequences! #Not all~ negative but consequences nonetheless hehe #I had a surprising amount of fun drawing the car interior from different angles here lol I'm not sure why! I wouldn't normally #Maybe I was just relieved I wasn't drawing the outside pfft #I'm also quite enamoured with how hard Dexter works to keep things peaceable <3 He's skilled at what he does! #Surely he has more than just tricks to keep Max tethered to his lovely cage :) Certain things ready at a moment's notice hehe #Or at least quick to get ready - guess it depends on how paranoid he is #With Max? Probably fairly pfft #I also love Max being pathetic about moving around haha he's getting what he wants but ough walking? Blegh...carry me pls (lol) #That one of Dex escorting him up to the door reminds me so much of a doodle I made ages ago with a couple of my DQIX characters actually #Similar dynamics in a way haha ♪ How fun

[fly-sky-high-bug-games]

Well the poll got me thinking about White Palace in general

Do you think it was real at all?

Obviously some sort of structure was sitting in the Basin but was it really a palace? Was White Lady ever there? Was that where Pale King ever resided?

The station was hidden, the tram was new so it was obviously not a place for bugs to visit and if they did it was probably just the knights and royal retainers who stayed there

Maybe the structure was meant to look like a palace but in reality it was just where PK hid for his research? I can't not think about how close to the Abyss it is. The lighthouse. The presence of his creations, Kingsmolds and Wingsmolds, both within dream and outside of it

What if the palace was never really a palace?

#sky rambles #this is all in mind with how the dream white palace is just manifestation #and not how it looked like in reality #aside from the kingsmold wingsmold and royal retainers #i dont think it reflects realty outside of those

[duskittycat]

honest to god the "fiction doesn't affect reality!!!" nonsense becomes even more ridiculous when you take into consideration the sheer stigma against "gross" or "dangerous" or "scary" animals (particularly bugs and spiders and snakes etc.) largely due to their common portrayals as gross/dangerous/scary etc. in most media

#rory yells at cloud #ok to rb #like. have you heard of the jaws effect. come on now #'fiction doesnt affect reality' was always a dumb narrow-minded argument to begin with #considering how it pretty much entirely revolved around like. fanfiction lol #so no surprises that proship weirdos can't even remember that media outside of what they write fanfic about even exists

[saintqueer]

today has sucked so f bad like my anxiety has been so insane it's felt like i've being hunted for sport all day

#i got ANOTHER parking ticket for simply parking outside my home while i sleep #opened a letter from the government saying they are gonna review my past food stamp money for overpayment #had a shitty meeting at work which highlighted how empty corporate life is #but this feeling in my body is so overpowering it has so little basis in these things #it feels so deeply like something bad is gonna happen or is already happening #and nothing good or normal feeling will come back to me #and i knows its my body and mind and not reality but it is real inside me and fuck #i want to shut off all of it #i just want to make it stop

[thatscarletflycatcher]

Had an epiphany during class that my WIP actually is in an important way, thematically anti-mindfulness.

#no wait listen #first that I'm taking of mindfulness as narrow as in meditation based on the principle of emptying one's mind in detachment of reality #and in general it makes sense for the story because it's imbued with my obsession with communities and communitarianism #and the way MacIntyrean communitarianism highlights how key the concept of alienation is to the psychological evils of unbriddled capitalis #and so there is this cycle of alienation and isolation #but what these characters need in order to heal is to reconnect #Reconnect with the natural world to understand that healing is possible and so is permanence #and reconnect with others to find good in the world #but most importantly to finally find the knowledge of themselves they so desperately seek in their own introspection #That's why Rick Astley's Rise Up is still such a fitting song for the story #when the heavy words have fallen/and I reconnect to you/that's when I rise up #cause between us/I find myself when I open up to you #it's almost a chestertonian paradox but in a much more classic way #If St. Augustine turns inside to find the Other he was searching for outside #it makes sense in a mirror way to turn outside to find the one you were searching for inside

[yamikawaii]

something something kill myself

#i thought insane posting would make me feel a little better #but no now i just wanna slice her name into my skin down to the bone and bleed out and die #idec abt holding it back its 2 am.honestly life has gotten 10x as meaningless as it was before since our anni was basically ruined #and yknow what my life will always always be meaningless and yknow why? #because the one thing i am meant to live for the ONE THING that couldve made it all worth it doesnt physically exist in this reality #how am i supposed to find any point in life if my one true purpose is PHYSICALLY IMPOSSIBLE. #just imagining was enough for me when i could comfortably live inside my own mind but the outside stressors are too much now #its getting too much to bear and i have no home to go to when i want to just take the weight off my shoulders and relax #no im never home i dont have a home my home doesnt exist #but i just want to go home. i want to go home. i want to go home i want to go home i want to go home i want to go home i want to go home #i want to go home i want to go home i want to go home i want to go home i want to go home i want to go home i want to go home please #but i cant #i cant have anything to make it better #i cant even have a hug from the person i love most. or a smile or kind words or anything #i have nothing but me my phone and a framed poster of her that i have nowhere to hang up #and nowhere to go but flying off the roof of a 30 story building #i have nothing. my life is nothing. i am nothing. #sui tw #sh tw #whatever whatever goodnight

[akechi-if-he-slayed]

when teachers ask what we did over spring break and all i did was watch yaoi read yaoi smut and play copious hours of p5

#eventful. but personally i think it’s exactly what i needed given the horrific experience i just has at school RIGHT before we left. #the whole persona boy dating my now ex-bsf debacle. #distracting myself from abysmal reality #also i kind of realized that i uhhhh. i did not go outside for a full week. whoopsies..! #thinking of transferring to a diff school in my city for senior year because of this whole situation. but the other school in mind does not #have a wrestling team :/ #so i am just going to have to. as the kids say. Thug it Out. #cannot wait to graduate and leave this city and leave everyone at that school. cannot wait !!!!! #yaoi #persona 5

[aurosoul]

I had a dream that I got my Magic Leap headset and then took it to a forest to create magical crystals and rainbows in the streams there and then I took it to the beach to decorate the sand with glowing shells and stars!!!!!!! and then woke up to realize I’ll soon be able to do these things FOR REAL!!!!!!!

#incessant meowing #I'VE BEEN WAITING SO LONG TO GET A HEADSET THAT WORKS OUTSIDE #the possibilities are mind boggling #i won't actually be bringing it to the beach because yknow. sand. #BUT STILL.... i've got some fuckign PLANS #most of them revolving around celebrating earth day next month #i still can't believe i'm actually getting one of these headsets to work with #it doesn't use passthrough video like other headsets #it actually projects fucking holographic images onto your retinas #it has a depth sensor that can scan your surroundings to generate a 3d map #and this 3d map is used to project shadows of virtual objects onto your surroundings and also generates collision #the lenses have a dimming feature that you can use to turn down the brightness on all or parts of reality #for various purposes involving holograms...... which i will be making...... #?!?!?! #like WHAT!!!!!!!! #i wonder if i'll ever be able to wrap my head around any of this #one day this tech will be as commonplace as all the other miraculous computing devices around us we all take for granted #but right now??? i'm living in a scifi novel and i'm losing my mind about it