#otherwise ill die

[sugucidal]

i hate online shopping like wdym i dont have enough money on my card to purchase 10 more items i dont need but really want

#୨♡୧ — 𝐃𝑬𝐀𝐑 𝐃𝒊𝐀𝐑𝐘. . . #this should be illegal. #stepping foot into an online store needing to buy just a few items isnt possible #i need to check out that cart with at least 1 extra plushie a sanrio makeup bag and 5 frilly bra and panty sets #otherwise ill die #can you tell im an awful spender

[dragoncarrion]

I NEED to get a yummy drink today

#shortext #otherwise ill die

[ccorinthian]

fuck you ageism fuck you life ending at 30 fuck you makeup industry forcing us to feel bad about a natural process fuck you hustle culture fuck you instagram fuck you youtube fuck you glorification and deification of youth fuck you who make people feel bad for not having "achieved anything" in their 20s fuck you people who peaked in high school and try to drag everybody down by insisting it's all downhill after 19

#im not dedicating hours and days and weeks of my 20s of hard work on my mental health to cope w shit i went through #for some bitches on websites to tell me ill shrivel up and die when i hit 30 unless my life is perfect by then #youre not dragging me down to that mindset and i wont let your doom and gloom about turning older make me feel like shit !! #some of us have to rebuild ourselves from ground up and that shit takes time and thats FINE and if you think otherwise fuck off honestly #ageism is such a disgustingly overlooked aspect thats so ingrained in our culture and you need to recognise it #or you'll just feel worse and worse about yourself with every passing day bc guess what baby you cant go back!! #SICK of the negativity surrounding age on this website get yourself the fuck together honestly

[crimeronan]

been thinking about the rabies condition in writing lately, which is a GREAT post about stakes and characterization. basically exploring how if there's a 100% chance a character is doomed, then they can and will do extremely dangerous/damaging/contraindicated things for the slimmest hope of survival. which is one of my Favorite narrative devices

but while we're using health metaphors, i've been thinking about another somewhat complicated means of introducing character stakes, which i'm tentatively calling 'the autoimmune condition' for reasons that are. obvious

the premise itself is simple: the character has Something that they need to survive. they either can't live without this thing or they will lose something vital about themselves if they lose this thing. there is no replacement or alternative for the thing. what's most important are that the consequences for losing it are Extreme, rabies-condition-style

in the real life allegory, this is the immune system. which is great for being alive!

then the problem is introduced when this thing starts killing the character.

the character still needs it to live.

so: there is a 100% chance that you will die if you destroy the thing killing you. if you impair it through other means, there is a 100% chance of consequences, though the severity of those consequences is up to the author. (these are medication side effects in the real life allegory.)

if you do everything you're supposed to then you'll PROBABLY survive, but you're gonna have to play lifelong tug-of-war to balance everything, and you are often going to have to choose between two shitty options. bc there is no alternative.

this is a counterpart to the rabies condition in terms of stakes; with this condition, your character has to make complicated and difficult decisions about what they're sacrificing for their future. it's not the immediate life-and-death stakes of rabies, it's a slow decay instead.

what side effect consequences are they willing to take on?? and what are they NOT willing to take on?? where do their priorities lie in terms of symptom management?? what other solutions are they looking for?? what are they willing to sacrifice??

and perhaps most importantly: what exactly do they need to lose before they'll Accept the side effects / sacrifices that used to terrify them?? how high do the stakes need to be??

at what point is this character going to look back at the choices they've made up to this point, and realize that they no longer recognize themselves??

#have had this on the brain bc every medication i take or have taken related to my illness has a LAUNDRY LIST of terrible side effects #like most of them are only prescribed for very short periods of time #and the only reason they're ever prescribed for long term maintenance is if like. you will actually literally die otherwise. #you would not BELIEVE the side effects i'll weather to get my brain back. give it to a character #torment them. theres so much room for complication and messiness here. it's great #autoimmune tag #writing #writing advice #i guess????? #hopefully this is coherent. i tried to keep it concise #long post

[gremlinoverlord]

Conversations I imagine the poets having

(mainly charlie being a menace)

└── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ──┘

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

Charlie: We need a diversion. I say Knox gets naked.

Neil: No.

Charlie: I could get naked.

The poets: NO!!!

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

Cameron: Why is everyone so obsessed with top or bottom? Honestly, I’d just be excited to have a bunk bed.

Charlie:

Charlie: I'm gonna tell him.

Neil: Don't you dare.

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

Charlie: sapnu puaS.

Pitts: What??

Meeks: What language is that.

Charlie: Turn your phone 180 degrees.

*Charlie was removed from the groupchat*

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

*at 3am*

Charlie: *runs into todd’s room and turns on the light* Wake up sleepyhead!

Todd: *wakes up* Dude!

Charlie: *cackles*

Neil: *sits up from where they were sleeping behind todd* What the fuck, charlie?

Charlie: *jaw drops* Wait WHAT-

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

Pitts, gardening: Hey, can you bring me the hoe?

Charlie: Yeah, sure.

*A few minutes later*

Charlie: Here you go.

Pitts:

Charlie:

Cameron: Why am I here?

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

Knox: Ah, yes. Here we have a beautiful couple...

Todd: I really care about your feelings!

Neil: I really care about YOUR feelings!

Knox, turning his head: ...and then there's the disaster couple...

Meeks: YOU NEED TO PAY MORE ATTENTION TO ME INSTEAD OF BEING AT THE HOSPITAL!

Pitts: I WOULDN'T HAVE TO SPEND SO MUCH TIME AT THE HOSPITAL IF YOU STOPPED INSISTING ON FIGHTING EVERYONE WHO COMES WITHIN A FIVE FOOT RADIUS OF YOU!

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

Cameron, about Pitts and meeks: My god, would you two just get a room already?

Meeks: Excuse me, Cameron?

Neil: What he's saying is you both just keep agreeing about horrifying things and relishing everybody else's misery. So seriously, when's the wedding?

Pitts: ...

Knox: I ship it!

Charlie: HOW CAN YOU NOT?

└── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ──┘

#idc what anybody says ill always be a pitts and meeks shiper <3 #but dw im still a diehard anderperry shipper till the day i die #dead poets society #todd anderson #neil perry #anderperry #dps #charlie dalton #steven meeks #incorrect dps quotes #chaotic poets #Richard Cameron #theyve had atleast one of these conversations you cannot convince me otherwise

[butch-with-a-deep-voice]

Do you rant to your girlfriend about how a giant pet peeve of yours with Gideon the Ninth fanart is when they portray Gideon with a longsword (or worse yet a fucking arming sword) instead of the greatsword she clearly is trained for? Or are you normal?

#ill accept rapier fanart cuz yknow. plot #tamsym literally acknowledges a friend trained in zweihander technique in the book y'all #gideon uses a fucking zwei and i will die on this hill #i saw art of her wield a shortsword in two hands and started going feral #it was really pretty art otherwise but my sword lesbian heart was dying inside #“stop blocking with the blade” hema technique for longsword is more parry focused while greatsword technique is more blocking focused #im normal and fine its fine #bite me #the locked tomb #gideon the ninth #gideon nav #tlt #harrow the ninth

[whoviandoodler]

one of the things that makes mdzs SUCH a great story is the fact that it's a tragedy with queer protagonists, but their queerness isn't the cause or the center of the tragedy. it's not even related, really. it's a story about love and loss and wrong and right, about what we owe each other and what we owe ourselves, about how you can find joy even amidst chaos and grief; its complexity and tragedy is what makes it so profound and touching. sure, there's 'casual' queerphobia in the story, but with everything else going on, it's not really relevant- wwx's mostly like, 'oh, i like guys? i like lwj? i love lwj? fuck, what if he doesn't love me back? am i being presumptuous to think he returns my feelings? what do I do now?' followed by 'wait, he loves me back??? we're getting married IMMEDIATELY', and that whole attitude is very refreshing because sometimes you just want to read a queer story that isn't about queer suffering but that's still incredibly miserable, and i think we as a queer community deserve it

#mdzs #lwj #wwx #lan wangji #wei wuxian #mdzs thoughts #dan talks #wangxian #obviously the story has its issues but. FFUCK i just want something to break my heart w/o having to read thru queer trauma #ik danmei in theory isnt aimed at queer audiences but compared to like. some of 'made for cisshet women' queer man content ive read in #the past mdzss iss a breath of fresh air. imo most issues lie w the sex scenes and the INSANE lack of lube but. #ill forgive it this once #their dynamic and love story is otherwise great. just dont take it ass sex ed lol ud fucking die #the sex scenes are funny tho. im always cackling and going YOURE GOING TO KILL EACH OTHER GOD SLOW DOWN #also in gen we need to uh. do better w tws bcs theres a LOT of noncon rp in there and i didnt see it mentioned anywhere in the fandom after #hours of being around it. books do tws plssss someones going to run headfirst into there and not have a good time

[mossfeathers]

shoutout to the crane wives for not dropping their new album yet. sooo happy they havent yet. wow it would be such a shame if they were to announce it in perhaps a few days or maybe even tomorrow.

#moss chitchat #guys do you think that tricked them #im literally tearing my walls apwart i need say it and arcturus beaming and scars and mad dog NOW otherwise ill die #the crane wives #tcw

[electrosquash]

People always talking about "eat the rich" but when i, the Atlantic Ocean,

#yeah sorry but i've just seen a take literally telling someone “you NEED to show empathy!” and i'm done. #do u really care for these people or are you using this situation to prove how morally superior you are by virtue of your limitless empathy #well mine is limited and i'm not gonna pretend otherwise just for humanity points ™ #drowning cw #shipwreck cw #death cw #vent #oceangate #ps being disgusted and shocked with what's arguably one of the most horrible ways to die is genuinely valid #and i'm not hoping for anyone's death. in fact i don't need to. they're dead. and i hope the search&rescue crew gets called back asap #but some of y'all sound a little bit like the people crying “it's distasteful to speak ill of the dead” when elizabeth II died

[musubiki]

lime can dish it but cant take it

yEUEUpuP......,,..flirting mochi is such a delicacy.... any man would break, he says

#i dont think he even realizes how weak he is until hes put in that situation #the speed at which he crumbles under her is remarkable #lime: i dont like her that much. shes just cute when i bully her thats all #lime the second mochi gets even a little bit flirty: im going to marry her #lime: welp. looks like i need that every second of my life from now on otherwise ill die

[hartenlust]

me: so on this place tumblr there's all these microtrends, like it used to be about being doomed by the narrative for a few months but now its not really discussed anymore-

john calvin [hears “doomed by the narrative” and gets so hard he gets nauseous]: i think i hauve tuberculosis

#op #religion #sorry. #he did die of illness but i dont think its known which one specifically otherwise i would have done that one

[songofsaraneth]

people clearly enjoying themselves at metal shows has to be much rarer than you'd think for not one but TWO band's members at two diff concerts this week to comment about the fact that i smiled a lot in the crowd

#two diff members of two diff bands directly told me this at two diff shows that is #one actually came out after the NEXT act ended to hand me their bands setlist from earlier and tell me 'i was a great fan' #to be clear they only released their album weeks prior so he KNEW i had no clue who the band was going in #he just appreciated that i enjoyed the music anyway #also at both those shows diff members of a 3rd and 4th band specifically handed me setlist/picks i assume for similar reasons #anyway metal fans i know we all did edgelord phase but come ON these poor musicians. it must look so bleak from up there #everyone please smile at them during the show to tell them you like being there. they might die of anxiety otherwise. #anyway good times #ramblings #bang your head #ra voltaire vocalist of glyph and gunnar thomsen the bassist of tyr ftr #i still need to do concert writeups ill do that later when its not 1am

[lily-ohfally]

> Together with you

> it's all the small things

Waking up, going to bed, saying good morning and good night. The small crease between your brows when something isn't right. The smile moles on your cheeks and the wrinkles under your eyes. Every part of you is beloved by me. Sun or storm, we have ups and downs. But nothing will be more beautiful than watching the sun set and rise together with you.

#this is cheesy shUT UP #they make me soo ill #theyre so in love #theu love each other so much #i need to gpose them more #otherwise im going to DIE #ffxiv #ffxiv viera #warrior of light #final fantasy viera #final fantasy 14 #ff14 #viera #male viera #ffxiv art #Lily Oh'fally #ffxiv wol #Warrior of Light #ffxiv oc #HaurcheWoL #Haurchefant #Haurchefant Greystone #HaurcheLily #❖ Gpose

[socksandbuttons]

As one of the ‘Lunar and Bloodmoon are the duo ever’ enjoyer, I understand your pain 😭😭

I'll give em some doubt here cause like they clearly knew peoples attachment to the old design to make sure they know its SORT OF still there in the mindscape! However gdi chaos gremlins CMOOON itd be so like eclipse to make these two SO SEPERATED (LITERALLY TRIES TO MAKE LUNAR THE MOST NOT BLOODMOON EVER EVEN MAKES HIM BLUE) and that itself bonds them and their both chaotic in their own light. Eclipse WISHES he had such a quick bond with both of them. ANyway give it up for possible new sun brother yay!!!! Sun's word will haunt him. Eventualy.

#sun panicking at the sight of them but also like... honestly imagien if that turns into protectiveness in a way #i dont know how to explain that but like guilt ridden enough that 'YEAH I GOTTA MAKE SURE U DONT DIE NOW OTHERWISE ILL FEEL WORSE' #confuse the bloodmoon with gestures of kindness but layered with guilt

[beforeyougo-turnthebiglightoff]

i want him. he has the most gorgeous side profile known to man.

#can i have a george #i need one #ill die otherwise #hes so pretty like #i just want him in my arms so i can kiss his face like omg #george daniel #self titled the 1975 #the 1975 #the 1975 self titled #iliwys #iliwysfyasbysuoi

[sylvctica]

blinks cutely. bday sylvie preview :]

#[ i dread doing the bg but i think ill just do a paintover of like ] #[ a screenshot in genshin ] #[ otherwise ill die ] #OOC // AID TALKS.