#or like anywhere else in the world

[moodlesmain]

while im (takes a deep breath to hold back my rage) sympathetic to the fans of Those Wizard Books who're taking a death of the author approach so long as they're not supporting the series financially or actively promoting it and are sticking to fan communities, I really, *really* wish people would put away their merch. Because when I see someone in public with merch from it, I always have to wonder if I'm safe around them as a trans person, if my trans friends are safe. And that's a sucky feeling to have, especially when talking to people who otherwise seems perfectly fine and nice!!! A lot of HP fans are just, people!!! Who maybe don't know what the big deal is, or have chosen to deal with the problem by doubling down to spite the author!! But even when I know for a fact they're totally safe or even trans themselves, I don't want to be constantly reminded of the series whose author is an incredibly rich and powerful person whose whole agenda for the past several years has been to push back against the rights of people like me, and who people like my own god damn mother is more willing to listen to about trans people than her own nonbinary child.

I know it's irrational to feel surges of rage at the mere mention of a popular multimedia franchises, but while I know not every trans person is bothered by it, I also know that a lot of trans people and even allies *are* bothered by it. Just... begging for some understanding, and for people to just PLEASE dial back their fandom-ing in public spaces, especially mostly queer spaces. You don't know how much difference it might make in the comfort and feeling of safety for the trans people around you

#maybe this matters less in the US #or like anywhere else in the world #but in the UK............. please holy shit terfs are a bigger force here than anywhere else #PLEASE stop openly showing support for the multimedia franchise that made the one with the most mainstream influence insanely rich #that she still uses to prop up her arguments about trans people #do you know that she's claimed the fact that people still like her wizard books means that shows people support her beliefs? #do you know that she's compared queer people to the villains of her books? #do you know how much she hates us? how much she hates our transfemme sisters especially? #im just a short afab nonbinary weirdo #i'm not seen as a threat by anyone #i can't imagine how trans women must be dealing with this #vent post #technically #ugh #sorry this has been on my mind for a while and i'm in a weird mood rn #don't come at me for this just block me if you're going to be bothered enough by this #because if you do bother me i'll just block you first lmao #edit: not that not being seen as a threat is necessarily a good thing because in the case of us afab enbies we're mostly just dismissed #there's a lot of us but it also feels like we're so invisible outside our own communities #we're just assumed as queer women most of the time especially those of my generation who haven't had any opportunity to medically transitio #except the lucky few who were able to get a diagnosis relatively early in life #or had the money to turn to private healthcare #trans men who don't pass too #moodle rambles

[snekdood]

There are genuinely people online that instead of actually bringing people to the left, at this point, would prefer that anyone who was previously not on the left but who tries to be *stays* outside of the left, because i guess its just easier to comprehend when the world is put into little shitty boxes you labeled for them instead of actually thinking for once and having the nuance to understand them. Like thats wild to me that theres people who would prefer you not be on the left or not try to be. Yall GENUINELY do not care about advocating for your side politically in any capacity. Its LITERALLY just a clique you've found yourself in. And theres nothing progressive about that or being exclusive, wtf do you think this shit is, a night club? Grow the fuck up, honestly.

#A whole lot easier to consistently point and laugh at the same person than to ever encourage them to change i guess #yall are weak #Yall wont get us anywhere and actively hurt progressive causes #And the worst part is most of the ppl like this are on tumblr and a lot of the people on tumblr absolutely suck as human beings #and never want to do anything about it either partially because they think theyre above any form of therapy 🙄 #Idk. maybe its a comfort thing. Like things have to be exactly how they remembered them the day before or else they'll idk lose their mind #Like some of yall would prefer the world stays black and white and thats sad #Lets be honest. What it really is is you dont want to have to feel any potential guilt for treating someone as if theyre just #discardable trash when they werent. #Bc ur just oooohhh soooo perfeccctttt and it just fucks with your self perception when someone even inadvertently suggests #you did something wrong lmao. #yall wont survive in this world

[mwagneto]

this site is so unlike anything else in all the best ways and they've tried for years to make it profitable but couldn't because a user-friendly and user-driven experience and profit simply cannot coexist but stagnating/dropping profits aren't an option in today's climate. that being said i highly doubt tumblr is going down it feels too unkillable but if it is im not going to instagram or twitter or mastofort or whatever i will simply walk into a forest and become moss. god bless

#pro tip you can massively lower server costs by getting rid of tumblr live‚ a feature noone wants and noone uses #literally just stop trying to become other sites and instead capitalise on being unlike any other site #in a world where every app is the same app owned by the same people tumblr is invaluable #but it's not profitable which is the only thing they care about #but like. I'm literally not moving anywhere else #not only coz tumblr in general is the best site but also bc my blog is really important to me #it's a record and archive of everything I've liked in the past 7 years meticulously catalogued #even if i went on another site. all that would just be gone. i cant have that #I'll be downloading my blog but that's just part of it yk #barking #tumblr

[yellowocaballero]

Been a fan of your fics for YEARS. I was just telling my friend how despite how much I read fics I never actually love them, with some of your fics (especially TMA) as the exception. Felt the need to reread some of them and saw you reblogged some ISAT fanart. So. Any thoughts on ISAT you'd like to share?

Hope you have a wonderful day!! So happy I found your fics again!!

I avoided answering this for a while because I was trying to think of a way to cohesively and coherently vocalize my thoughts on In Stars and Time. I have given up because I don't want to hold everybody here all day and I have accepted that my thoughts are just pterodactyl screeching.

I love it so much. I have so much to say on it. It drove me bonkers for like a week straight. I have AUs. It's absolute Megbait. They're just a little Snufkin and they're having the worst experience of anybody's life. Ludonarratives my fucking beloved.

I am going to talk about the prologue.

The prologue is such a fascinating experience. You crack open the game and immediately begin checking off all of the little genre boxes: mage, warrior, researcher, you're the rogue...some little kid who's there for some reason...alright, you know the score. You're in yet another indie Earthbound RPG, these are your generic characters, let's get the ball rolling.

Except then you realize that these characters are people. You feel instantly how you've entered the game at its last dungeon, at the end of the adventure. They have their own in-jokes, histories, backgrounds, adventures. They get along well and they're obviously close, but not in a twee or unrealistic way. They have so much chemistry and spirit and life. I fell in love with them so quickly.

But Sif doesn't. Sif kind of hates them, because they will not stop saying the same damn thing. They walk the same paths, do the same things, make the same jokes, expect Sif to say the same lines. They keep referencing a Sif we do not see, with jokes we never see him make and heroic personality he never shows - they reference a Sif who is dead - and Sif can't handle that, so he kills them too.

They become only an exercise in tedious frustration. Sif button mashes through their dialogue, Sif mindlessly clicks the same dialogue options, Sif skips through the tutorial, Sif blows through the puzzles. Sif turns their world into a video game. Sif is playing a generic RPG. Sif forgets their names. They are no longer people with in-jokes, histories, backgrounds, adventures. They're the mage, the warrior, the researcher, and...some random kid.

I did not understand the Kid's presence at first. I had no idea what they contributed to the game. They didn't do anything. As a party member in a video game, they're a bit useless. Why is the Kid there?

Because Sif's life isn't a video game. Because the kid isn't 'the kid'. They're Bonnie. Bonnie, who the party loves. Why is Bonnie there? Because they love them. There is no room for Bonnie in the boring RPG that Sif is playing. And then you realize that Sif is wrong, and that they've lost something extremely important, and that they'll never escape without it.

Watching the prologue before watching ISAT gave ISAT the most unique air of dread and horror, because you crack open ISAT and you see the person Sif used to be. You realize that Sif used to be a person. Sif used to be the person who made jokes, who gave real smiles, who interacted with the world as if they are a part of it. And you know you are sitting down to watch Sif lose everything that made them a person, to lose everything that made them a member of this world, and turn them into a character in a video game who doesn't understand the point of Bonnie at all.

At the climax of the game, when the others realize that something is deeply wrong and that Sif physically cannot tell them, they realize that there is nothing they can do. So Bonnie declares snacktime. And for the first time they have snacktime.

What is snacktime? Classic JRPGs don't have snacktime. There's literally no point to a snacktime - not in a video game, and not in Sif's terrible life. It's not fixing this, because nothing can fix this. But Bonnie gives Sif a cookie and Sif eats it.

It's meaningless. It's a cutscene. It didn't save Sif and it didn't change a thing. It will make no difference in the end.

But it did make the difference. It made all of the difference in the world. Bonnie is a character who you really don't understand the point of before you realize that Bonnie was the entire point.

ISAT is about comfort media. Why do we play the same video games over and over again? Why do we avoid watching the finale of our favorite shows? What is truly comforting: a story with no conflict, or a story where you always know what is about to happen? Do you want to live in a scary, uncontrollable world, or do you want to play Stardew Valley? Do you want a person or a character?

When I beat Earthbound for the first time (and if you don't know, the prologue/ISAT battle system is just Mother) and watched the ending cutscene where the characters part ways and say goodbye...I felt a little bit sad. I wanted them to be together forever. But that's something only characters could ever be.

#these aren't deep or unique thoughts they're just the specific aspect of ISAT that made it one of the most interesting gaming experiences #i actually like the prologue much more than ISAT for just this reason #its honestly a video game art piece that's created to give the player a very specific experience #that makes them an aspect of the narrative that is told #it's. incredible. #in stars and time #start again start again start again #start again: a prologue #isat #god and there is so so so so much more to say here #what a rich and complex and fascinating game that made me cry like a baby #i dont even kin sif. we arent similar at all. #i cant imagine how devastating this game would have been if i did #but I do have a deep relationship with escapsim #and i write about it a lot #and video games about being video games are wonderful #as are stories about being stories #and why we consume stories. how we use them. how they save us and hurt us. #never played a video game that used its medium so well #i bet undertales also pretty good at that but this is more so i think #stories about stories have to be about why we love stories #and im not an artsy person and i roll my eyes a bit when people talk about the spiritual neccesity of art #i think people need stories because the world is sad and hard and boring and we want to think about something else for a while. #some people need to be anywhere but here #and sometimes if you're Lil Depressed-Ass Snufkin that looks like being here forever #baby cringe-ass snufkin big hat idiot

[lobotomyladylives]

I think bpd is a bullshit stigmatizing label thrown at women to pathologize what is very obviously a response to prolonged childhood trauma and would be better labeled as C-PTSD. that being said my god I am bpd as fuck

#my sister just snapped at me bc i said i dont want to do a ton of physical labor for the job she signed me up for which apparently does i #in fact involve a lot of it. and her being mad for even that moment sent me spiraling so badly & i had the reaction i often do where #i start hating both her & myself terribly & want to isolate forever #i think she hates her new job & is taking it out on me but it doesnt matter bc i cant handle being yelled at #and the fact thst it took me till adulthood to realize thats bc i associate it with my father is crazy. yeah its just the cptsd like #everything else. and whats nutso is how i continue to think my trauma Wasnt Bad Enough for ptsd . #just bc he didnt beat the shit out of or molest me i feel like i dont even have a right to be this fucked up #not that it was only him. being bullied at school really did not help. i guess now that i think about it the problem is that until #i was a teenager i literally did not feel emotionally secure anywhere. home or school. always the ticking of a bomb in the bg #the inevitable moment my dad blew up over nothing or i overheard my peers talking about what a freak i was #i dont know why it still hurts to think about. im so far removed from it my life now couldnt be more different #well thats the stupid fucking thing about childhood isnt it. those are your very first experiences with the world & other ppl #i do know my view of romantic relationships was irrevocably poisoned by my parents & that is never going to be undone. so cool

[wutheringmights]

For CTB’s 3rd anniversary (holy crap!!!), I’d like to ask if there’s any fun/interesting lore u wish u could naturally add in, but haven’t had the opportunity to do so yet?

As you could probably guess with STP, I have so many ideas for New Hyrule that I will probably never be able to convey in CTB proper. STP only scratched the surface of all the little cultural differences that make New Hyrule different from Warriors's Hyrule.

Actually, there's a lot of tiny cultural things I would love to delve into more with all the various Hyrules across the eras that I wish I could explore.

Here's a few:

Skyloft has a lot of Greek trappings, such as valuing Gladiator-esque fights and masked theater productions as entertainment. Skyloft is also freaking huge, with multiple sky island clusters making various communities across the sky. Sky's parents are actually still alive, but they live far away from him and he hasn't had the chance to visit in years.

Four's Hyrule has very little concept of the Triforce, but the myth of the Master Sword is fairly prevalent across his time and is conflated with the myth of the Picori sword; his Hyrule is also the smallest with it being more a fief than an actual kingdom.

Even after stopping Ganondorf, tensions between tribes is still really intense in Time's era. The memory of the civil war / the Unification War is still recent and every side is still bitter about the outcome.

Twilight's era is the most similar to Warriors, with stark class differences and plenty of newly acquired land. Being from Ordon, Twilight identifies more with regular humans than Hylians and gets indignant when he's lumped with one but not the other. The humans of Ordon also worship spirits more than the goddesses, so Twilight is very culturally disconnected from other Hylians.

Legend's Hyrule is on the upswing after years of economic troubles, and is surrounded by much richer kingdoms. Magic is also the most prevalent and common in his era. It's not unusual for young men to leave Hyrule in search of riches to bring back to their families.

Hyrule's era is extremely poor, but so is the other kingdoms surrounding Hyrule. The aristocracy takes no responsibility for the lower classes, which leads to a lot of regular people not giving a shit who their princess is or what the laws are. Towns are very close communities, as being a wanderer like Hyrule is more risk than its worth.

The Great Sea is also far bigger and more populated than what is in the game. All of the myths about the sea portray it as an violent, uncaring father. There is so little fish in the world that deities are often portrayed as fish/human hybrids. There's a lot of tiny superstitions involving sailing too, such as never killing a gull out in sea or else risking the wraith of the sea god.

There's a underlining sense of fear in Wild's Hyrule that there are no other kingdoms beyond the borders of Hyrule or on the other side of the ocean. While the older generation can recall stories of foreign lands, the younger generation are more prone to believing that they are the last of humanity. Round-eared humans are unheard of in Wild's time.

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And now, various New Hyrule facts:

While most other Hyrules have a traditional European fantasy biome, New Hyrule's biome resembles California. Trading Post's real world analogue is Canary Row in Monterey.

Hats and bonnets are essential outdoor wear; to leave your hair out is impolite at best.

Trainspotting is a common past time; people who are fans of the rail industry without being royal engineers are called rail rats. So mechanics like Jean would be a good example.

You probably noticed in STP that New Hyrule has a lot more modern trappings, such as gramophones, heated plumbing, and gas lamps; telegrams are on the way too.

New Hyrule has a significant celebrity subculture, which Spirit and other famous engineers get folded into; there are plenty of tabloids that cover Spirit sightings across New Hyrule

As New Hyrule becomes more industrialized, tensions are building between the people and industrialists, the crown and the common folk, and Hylians and Lokomo.

#insert blurry photo of spirit walking around with zelda like scandal!!! princess fraternizing with engineer #dumb shit like that #me rambling #lu ctb #ask #linked universe #shoot-i-messed-up #ctb lore #also new hyrule having california's biome is very important to me. like I want new hyrule to truly feel like a different land from all othe #hyrules and california has such a unique enviroment that is different from anywhere else in the world #on top of that because new hyrule is colonized land i think it should be based on colonized land

[determunition]

Hi so I’ve curious, (Been nervous about starting my own AU) When you first started posting OFH (on twitter/ao3) how did you get the courage to post it? Were you ever afraid of getting called ‘cringe’ or ‘weird’ or anything else negative? If so how were you able to get over it? (Btw I do love this AU with all my heart!) Sorry if any of these questions are too sensitive!

hi!! thanks for the questions, i'm flattered to be considered a source of wisdom about this x3

OFH/retyrement, like most fandom things i do, started as kind of a silly shitpost thing; i love human AUs, and when my buddy squid_hug made that original text post about the retirement home it tickled me too much to ignore. objectively the scrybes being human old people bickering in a retirement home is a goofy, silly idea, and that's how it started as an AU, down to the written fic. i think that in itself made it a bit easier to post about

however! even with that, when i started posting the first pieces of art it was definitely a "do it scared" situation lmao; i don't remember where i heard this, but in some cases it takes even more courage to do something new when you're already known for something than it does to start something new with no presence at all, and that was definitely true with the retyrement AU. it was my first contribution to the fandom too! i was definitely worried it wouldn't go over well with anyone bc it was so damn niche lolol

my main piece of advice for getting over this fear (besides just doing it scared until you're not scared anymore) is to get yourself a hype squad lmao; though maybe the more accurate term would be a mutual AU ecosystem. i had squid to develop a lot of the AU with me at the start and we bounced a lot of silly ideas off of each other, and now i have a lot more folks around to crack jokes and hype each other up about our art and fics! also at the beginning i had a point where i was feeling a little self-conscious about continuing to post (the AU had a painfully small amount of engagement at the beginning lol), but as soon as i got one (1) ask saying "i wanna see more of this" i took that as my green light to get as silly with it as possible lmao

so ig my TL;DR advice is: don't take shit too seriously, remember it's all in good fun, and surround yourself with folks who enjoy funny lil AUs as much as you do! the second thing can be hard, as it involves uh, putting yourself out there in the first place, but embracing that discomfort is a necessary evil for having a good-ass time! if you can successfully kill the part of yourself that cringes then you'll never be cringe again

godspeed on your own AU endeavors, the digital world is always better for having another crazy creative alternate universe in it <3

#doot answers #retyrement au #didn't want to make an already long post even longer but #i'm also not on twitter lmao #idk what it's like over there but #i feel like the climate here on tumblr is a lot more cozy for silly AUs in general #i can't recall getting a single negative comment about the AU as long as i've been posting about it here #and the fact that it's tumblr is probably why lol #cringe is way more dead here than anywhere else on the internet methinks #also let this be a lesson to potential AU audiences as well #if you like someone's AU #drop some sick tags or a funny lil ask about how much you like it #people being interested in my stuff truly does make my world go round #and i have zero doubt that my silly AU brethren would say the same

[worstloki]

you are a disgusting piece of shit like kill yourself or die along with those terrorists

Hope this helps 👍

#like do u really see nothing sus here #most of the world considers notable Palestinian groups to be resistance fighters #‘Israel’ was established by what like British mandate wow good thing they’ve never done any wrongs #and wow America supports them whew glad that makes it clear they’re on the ‘right’ side as the West always is #surely the European Union is interested in peace in the region #there is no way they would benefit by the region remaining in conflict due to literally the entire region wanting that state dissolved #literally no one anywhere else is surprised its America and allies(TM) making ridiculous claims in the media and in international meetings #wanting settlers off occupied land is good and Palestinians deserve their homes back actually #the ability to research information yourself is clearly available if you are sending random anons #your ignorance is willful #and your hate-mail is subpar #i couldn't even tell who you were referring to as 'terrorists' #''like die'' #i read your message in a shaggy voice #Language! #L!

[sky-daddy-hates-me]

Does no one else check to see when posts were vaguely posted? Especially when they relate to dates or "trending"? Am I going to have to start putting little datestamps on my posts?

#its fucking insane #the amount of zionists and pro israels in my notes trying to “own” me #by saying shit like #ha the israel tag isnt even trending #well it was #like a week ago #when i made that post #i know its not trending now #also does no one check the notes before commenting on relatively small posts? #like is it just a me thing to see if anyone else mentioned what i was going to say and see if op responded? #im probably just expecting too much from people who support genocide and refuse to do basic level fact checking #side note #biased isnt interchangeable with jew/zionist #saying someone is displaying a bias doesnt mean that theyre automatically a jew #or a zionist #saying theres a bias within tumblr staff isnt antisemitic or anywhere near a 'jews control the world' conspiracy #its a statement of fact #gods im being driven insane #between zionists pro Israels fucking swifties and vegans/animal rights activists #and also the jw friends of the family trying to lure me back with the promise of not havinf to wear a dress

[wof-reworked]

I've said this before but genuinely working with kids who love WOF for a solid 80% of my week for the past year/year and a half is what's actually killed my interest in WOF (tho I'm still here, obviously, and the ttrpg isn't going anywhere). Like,,,, idk man they have stickers on their water bottles of their fave guys and I think it's just made me detach a lot more from the rewriting I do bc as long as kids are having fun with it I kind of settle into a neutral tolerance instead of the like writing mania that this blog has operated on for the past,,,,,, jesus, it's been 8 years.

#I should start collecting retirement checks #shoutout to the 12 year olds who have developed enough opinions for us to talk abt shipping bc it's so cute and it warms my heart #like you go you funky little baby gay tell me about how much you like tamarin and anemone #I'm putting on my professional face but in my heart I'm packing you a rucksack and some soup so you can go out into the world happy #but ya I've never written from a place of anger at Tui like I've seen before- but I don't really want to write more when like- #-if the target audience is happy that's what matters more than anything else tbh?????? #anyway this isn't like. going anywhere I'm just rambling into the void #curious what other adults in this little fandom bubble think #it's also especially weird when ur not a visual artist so it's not like I can just enjoy drawing dragons

[osoreruna]

yeah, yeah — comedic relief...blah, blah... but also, y'all do realize, the fact that toshi regularly coughs up blood is a sign that he never fully / properly healed from his afo battle, right —

#𝗦𝗠𝗔𝗟𝗟 𝗠𝗜𝗚𝗛𝗧 + [ OOC ] #and it's because of how he continues to utilize ofa #y'all realize this right — #he continues his normal hero work for YEARS... #he VERY LITERALLY sacrifices his own body to continue saving people #to continue being of service #to continue being the world's symbol of peace... #he wouldn't be in anywhere NEAR as bad of shape if he'd listened to sir when he told him to retire. #or even just cut his shifts in half. #but no — he continued at full capacity for 6 years... #6 YEARS HE NEVER PROPERLY HEALED FROM LITERALLY LOSING HIS STOMACH AND A LUNG. #6 years he prioritized literally EVERYONE ELSE over himself. #i've said it nine times and i'll say it again: #you don't have to LIKE all might...but you gotta give him props. #i'm not sure there's many other heroes that would get up every day and sacrifice their entire selves to being a TRUE hero for *society* #after going through something like that.

[dnangelic]

on one hand my stubborn refusal to make a lot of crossover verses (i refuse to ever separate dark and dai AND it's hard as hell to get the depth of their shared existence juuuust right) may someday be the death of all interactions for me, BUT on the other hand i also think it's very cute and potentially really interesting that dark and daisuke can world-jump already. it CAN add another fun fairy tail/biblical layer to things whenever it happens. here's alice in wonderland who's come through the looking glass, here's a monstrous boy-messiah fluttering out from the frame of a beautiful painting. here's a red-headed cherub lost and bewildered after dropping like a shooting star into your yard or your camp, here's a fallen angel landing at your feet from someplace beyond, suddenly lifting his head up and talking about/knowing completely bizarre things that nobody else in the world they've only just arrived in knows about. daisuke's sense of 'mundane' can be completely, utterly incomprehensible to some crossover muses, the same way he can end up lost and alone in their worlds. just like a real angel, even if daisuke is just an ordinary, albeit cursed boy by most standards. do u get what i mean!!

#*･ﾟ⊰ 𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐒. ⊱ ✦ › OUT. #azumano itself is v important too. to dark as his empire; his cult and central sphere of influence <- that's all metaphor #for his fame which he doesn't actually have if he goes someplace -else- #to a completely diff world #dark has no troubles wanting to spread it either. the motto of a phantom thief should remain #a la 'no matter what it is. no matter -WHERE- it is. anywhere and anything dark can steal it' #daisuke too - if he isn't drawn in by an artwork itself. then he'll come sprinting at first cry #wanders around afterwards just because he feels like it #i dont talk enough about him moving through the artworks though.... #even t hough a r/s can be so interesting once u throw this stuff in #lilo vc i need someone to be my friend maybe send me an angel. the nicest angel u have #dark: (LAUGHS EVILLY) <- actually is the nicest angel we have

[emiliosandozsequence]

being just Slightly 'more' autistic than the average tumblr user is fucking hard actually

#i constantly feel like i'm sitting Just outside the circle of understanding in any situation i'm in #and on tumblr it's easier bc most of us are autistic #but everyone seems to be pretty 'high functioning' too #to the point everyone has an expectation of understanding amongst their followers and mutuals even when they maybe shouldn't #so the fact i don't understand things everyone else does #or don't understand certain etiquettes that everyone else does makes being on this website (or anywhere in the world) super fucking hard #this is also why i don't talk to people very often; i'm either rejected and not responded to outright or i will be eventually #bc i'll say something stupid that i don't realize is not polite to say bc in other places it's fine to say or something similar #i don't try to be this way (not understanding the boundaries of others)...it just happens and idk how to improve upon it #i feel like i'm already doing my very best in that regard #but it's obviously still not good enough bc i keep fucking up #(also i hate the terms 'high functioning' and 'more autistic' which is why they're in quotations #bc i just didn't have a better term to use that equally got my point across) #emilio.txt

[evillillad]

i know i already posted ninas ref but here she is again with molly

LORE DUMPING BELOW SORRY

this is mollys "doll" form. i decided that MAYBE nina is a bit nicer to molly than i originally planned. like not straight up an asshole but more like a very strict, very emotionally distant mom. she doesnt beat molly but like.....she doesnt show affection... UNLESS molly goes baby mode and starts trying to like snuggle her or tries to do something nice for her (that doesnt end up with a huge mess) then MAYBE she'll crack a smile and call her a good lil doll. otherwise its very transactional their relationship. Nina can loan/control molly for hits but has to take care of her and molly can live on the surface and experience life but can never be free from nina(blood bond? pact? contract? idk but she is a demon devil thing, hence why they need nina as a carrier in order to use her, idk the laws of demon contracts but im sure home wouldnt be too pleased if wally decided to use another demon directly). nina refuses to acknowledge the fact that she did cry when molly got her a mothers day gift (it was a dead bear, yes a fucking bear. molly knew she needed something impressive. oh and also some wildflowers she picked. idk what happened to the bears body molly probs went freak mode and ate it idk).

Mollys very much a doll in this au. not so much a husk/numb but more like a blank slate. coming to this world, she knew nothing and was basically a feral scared animal, and nina was able to make her feel safe (stockholm syndrome much lol). so now shes bonded with nina and is kinda learning how to live. i imagine nina focuses more on teaching her respect and appearing proper (and of course controlling the beast tm) and not so much the emotional aspect of being alive. she'd def pick up on how to act and enjoy things and laugh and cry from the other members, and sorta bringing these emotions back to nina. how nina reacts to these newfound emotions changes drastically. molly was def locked up for several weeks after giving nina attitude. on the other hand she did start letting molly hold her hand after someone taught molly it was a way to bond with someone you care about. also shed a tear but wont admit it.

also yes she is wearing a collar. usually only used when out on a hit. but there nonetheless

ok byeeee~~~~~

I FORGOT TO MENTION THE MATCHING HEART SCARS CUZ THEIR CONTRACT OK NOW BYE

#welcome home #welcome home oc #welcome home mob au #doodle #i felt bad having her be super mean and ab*sive to molly so now its like just a smidgen of it now #i think shed still be a lil mean to everyone else too #likes to manhandle people still #still has lil meow meows iykyk ;o) #molly is even more baby #innocent in the way where like she dosnt know her own strength or how fragile the puppets are #shes also deadly curious of things....hence the scars #she just wants to learn about the world :o( #and like have a mom :o( #she doesnt know what a mom is but everyone calls nina her mom so shes like oooooooh thats what u are #LMAO OK BYEE #oh also shes terrified of home like literally refuses to go anywhere near it at all #includes wally too #hes got the demon stench and it scares her.. #molly moss #nina noon

[mercymaker]

v's gorgeous shot made me look back at some of the thoughts going through my mind as i was piecing together above the vaulted sky

how much astarion loves the sun after spending centuries roaming in the darkness. how tragic a vampire's love for the sun is. how ephemeral, fleeting. how it's one of his bigger motivators to seize power. how it's such a simple, innocent thing compared to all of his other goals. how after refusing to complete the ritual, one of the first things he talks about is losing his time in the sun. being forced back into the shadows. and considering his character, the bloodthirst and his murderous tendencies, it really is oddly innocent, very human of him to simply want to enjoy sunlight dancing on his skin. the warmth of its gentle touch.

and how maleane always understood how important it is for him, yet she could never relate. her selfishness at times would try to downplay it, almost try to convince him that this wish, this want to be in the sun is childish and overrated.

she never enjoyed the sun the way he did. even if i hc that her sensitivity to sunlight is not as severe as the drow from underdark (because she comes from a line of surface-dwelling drow + grew up on the surface herself). whenever it's sunny, mal covers her head with a scarf because the sunlight hurts her eyes and she gets easily burnt if she stays out for too long.

it was moonlight that she was much more fond of. the gentle cold light that never hurt her the way the sun did. it also reminded her of her father, the happiest moments from her childhood. the moon always seemed comforting, soothing, the quiet of the night around it bringing a warm sense of peace.

astarion always reached for the sun, even when he was cursed to remain in the shadows. maleane turned the opposite way, favoring the moon.

and all this background, all of their feelings around this subject, all hang in the air in that one scene in atvs. where it's astarion sitting at night, alone with the moon hanging high above him. where his quest to reach the sun had led him. for just a brief moment, he's aware of the sun and the moon and what both of those meant for them. yet, just as mal, he can't relate. there's no peace in that moment, there's no gentle touch in the moonlight and for the first time it hurts almost as much as the sun.

something about the opposites. something about the moon. something about the sun.

#the bg3 adventures #astarion #astarion ancunin #astarion x tav #tavstarion #oc: maleane #maleane/astarion #i hope this makes to someone lmao #idk i just think about them and feel things for them #like.. i always think that if lathorien stayed he might've ended up taking mal away from ashe #i feel like she might've ended up being an eilistraean #but then her father left and she ended up the way she did #neither here nor there neither happy in her isolation nor really fitting in anywhere else #gah my poor little girl who grew up in the woods #the world truly wasn't kind to you #eh? #maybe that's why you weren't kind in return

[pebblezone]

Thank you to the enlightened soul that said ‘the hate fucking must be crazy though’ about gonzoverse sertegra

#hellsing #gonzoverse #integra hellsing #seras victoria #sertegra #a #heeeehehehehhehe #god I can’t remember who said it and I feel so bad I’m sending strong brain waves in hopes it gets to you #it was somewhere though it 100% was here vs like anywhere else #I’ve been watching the gonzo dub and it’s goofy I love the voice actors they have #new idea: alucard picking seras up by the collar of her shirt a la Momma Cat like yknow the scruff? #question: can and should world without logos go on the sex playlist? I am willing to hear both sides #context: the first song on the alleged sex playlist is Albert Einstein vs Stephen Hawking if that gives any insight