#oops angst

[steddiealltheway]

After a steady amount of failed dates, Steve finally breaks down. He can’t stop the thoughts that maybe he’s broken and unlovable.

He takes a six pack from his fridge and downs the first beer on his way to the backyard. He sets the five remaining drinks by the pool and immediately gets in - not bothering to strip off his clothes. He floats in the center, closing his eyes, trying to not think about Barb or Lover’s Lake or the fact that apparently he’s a bullshit boyfriend and always will be.

A short while later, Steve has downed four of the six pack and lays at the bottom of the pool, staring up at the surface. The water muffles the sound of a car pulling up in his driveway, but he hears it nonetheless. He prays that it isn’t his family.

He sees something move by the surface of the pool, and then the still surface breaks. He sees Eddie of all people diving in beside him, panic clear in his eyes until he sees Steve’s moving. He still grabs onto Steve and pulls him to the surface.

Eddie gasps for air and possibly in fear, pulling Steve into his arms. “I thought you were a fucking goner, man. What the fuck are you doing?”

Steve clutches onto Eddie hard and replies, “I was clearing my head.”

Steve can feel Eddie shake his head as he paddles them towards the edge of the pool. “In your jeans?” Eddie questions but Steve doesn’t reply. He pulls himself out of the pool and lays on the concrete reaching out for another beer he knows lays nearby.

His hand is smacked out of the way, then Eddie sits next to him. “What’s going on, Steve?”

Steve looks Eddie in the eyes and instead asks, “Why are you here?”

“Well, we had Hellfire tonight and-”

“Dustin!” Steve sits up and gasps.

Eddie instantly grabs Steve by the shoulders. “Hey, hey, hey, it’s okay. I gave him a ride home. Told him I would check on you.”

Steve nods. He isn’t even a good babysitter anymore. It’s stupid, but the thought pushes him over the edge. Eddie’s pulling him into his side in no time, letting Steve bury his head into his neck and wet hair. Maybe he won’t notice the tears added into the mix of pool water.

Eddie runs a hand through his hair, and pulls him in closer. “Let’s get you inside before you get hyperthermia and Dustin never forgives me.”

Steve didn’t even realize he was shaking. He guides Eddie into his house, not making eye contact with him. He hears the chatter of teeth behind him though and slowly turns, taking in the sight of Eddie with his nose red and lips blue. He’s almost forgotten that he had jumped in after him.

Steve rushes upstairs into his bathroom and turns on the water for the tub. He yanks a towel out of the closet and goes to hand it to Eddie. Instead, Eddie reaches into the closet and grabs three towels saying, “Don’t worry about me right now. Let me take care of you.”

Steve melts at the words, but he immediately wants to protest. This isn’t him. That isn’t his role. He wants to say something, but Eddie beats him to it and demands, “Take off the wet clothes.”

Steve’s eyes widen and his heart races. Eddie must notice this because he rushes to say, “Except your underwear! I’m… I’m going to as well. If that’s okay with you. Can’t exactly take a bath and avoid hypothermia with wet clothes on.”

Steve just nods because it makes sense and he’s too tired to think. He sluggishly tugs off his shirt but struggles to undo the button on his pants with shaking hands. He finds Eddie’s hands hovering above his. “May I?” Eddie asks.

Steve whispers, “Yes.”

Eddie easily pops the button off and pulls down the zipper sliding the jeans down. Steve swallows thickly. Eddie helps to remove his wet socks as well and throws the clothes into a pile. “Get in the tub please.”

Steve doesn’t protest. He climbs in noticing that Eddie must’ve turned off the water at some point. How long did it take for him to take off his sweater? He almost asks but then Eddie is shucking off his clothes ungracefully, and Steve loses all track of his thoughts.

He makes his way to the tub, awkwardly crossing his arms slightly shivering. Steve can’t decide if he’s trying to cover up, warm himself up, or both. Probably both.

Steve stands up and gestures for Eddie to climb in. He does with his eyebrows raised in confusion. “You sit first,” Steve mumbles, hoping Eddie doesn’t refuse or question him.

He doesn’t. Steve looks down at Eddie and settles between his legs, pressing his back against his cool bare chest. Eddie doesn’t tense up like he expects him to. Instead, he reaches out and grabs the shampoo off the ledge. Steve hears the telltale squirt of the shampoo bottle and feels Eddie massage his scalp.

He relaxes into the touch and closes his eyes. “What were you thinking about earlier?” Eddie prompts.

Steve’s too tired to fight the question. “I’m unloveable.” It’s simple. It’s fact.

Eddie’s hands pause for a few moments and then resume their motion. “And why do you think that?”

Steve sighs. “The only real girlfriend I had was Nancy, and according to her I’m just bullshit and that was all bullshit. And I can’t, for the life of me, find another girl on all these dates that I can actually connect with. And the one time I do it turns out… she’s not even interested in me. And never will be.” His head starts swimming simultaneously drowning with all his thoughts. “Plus, all these fucking kids don’t need me now that the world is saved for good. Maybe every once in a while for a ride, but I don’t know. But I can’t even remember to pick up Dustin. Robin has Nancy and doesn’t ever talk unless we’re working. So. Maybe… Maybe Vecna should’ve chosen me or something.”

Eddie’s heart thuds against Steve’s back and he can hear his breathing speed up after the admission. His soapy hands drop from Steve’s hair to his waist, thumbs making little circles near the scars from the bat bites. Eddie hesitates before dropping a quick, hard kiss on Steve’s temple. “You, Steve Harrington, are anything but unlovable.”

A tear falls slowly down Steve’s face and at first he thinks it’s Eddie’s, but as one falls on the other side, he realizes it’s his own.

“You are the most metal person I’ve ever met. With apparently the softest fucking hair.” Steve laughs at that and relishes in the feeling. Eddie continues, “And all the kids adore you. Need I remind you that Dustin worships you? Still does. In fact, tonight he spent half an hour going on about you because Will and Lucas were there to supply more things about the great Steve Harrington. And… I may have also joined in for a while.”

Steve tilts his chin up to look at Eddie, convinced that he’s joking with him, but the usual telltale smile is gone, replaced with sincere, watery eyes. Eddie stares down at him and adds on, “And Nancy adores you. Even though you and her didn’t work out, she would still die for you and nearly did. Robin is just caught up in a new relationship and will eventually come down from that high. She loves you every bit as much as she loves Nancy just not… romantically. And those failed dates well…” Eddie trails off dramatically before finishing, “Maybe you’re looking in the wrong area.”

Steve shoots him a confused look and asks, “Somewhere not in Hawkins?”

Eddie’s expression is incomprehensible. He takes a deep breath and says, “All I’m saying is, I find you pretty damn lovable.”

Steve stares at Eddie for a few minutes, letting the words sink in. Something has shifted between them, and Steve can’t understand what it is. Then, Eddie’s eyes flicker down to his lips.

Oh.

Oh.

Steve stares at Eddie and asks, “Are you saying that maybe the solution to those failed dates is right in front of me?”

Eddie freezes for a moment and replies, “Well, I would say right behind you, but depends on how figuratively or literally you’re asking.”

It’s such an Eddie thing to say, and it’s exactly what Steve needs right now. Laughter begins bubbling out of him, and he hopes Eddie doesn’t take it unkindly. But it’s so funny to Steve. Eddie was literally right in front of him the whole time.

Eddie the one who saved the world and nearly died doing it. Eddie the one who stayed by his side and went through the same process of recovery from the demobats. Eddie who is the fucking leader of the hellfire club, and still sometimes targeted in the community as a serial killer. Eddie who jumps into freezing pools and cradles Steve in the bath while listening to his darkest thoughts.

Steve laughter dies down immediately as he thinks - Eddie who is right in front of him now looking scared out of his mind, and Eddie who he needs to kiss right now.

Steve’s eyes flicker to his lips and he leans in the small distance that is separating them. He goes slowly, giving Eddie the time to lean in and meet him in the middle.

It takes a moment, but then Eddie is leaning in, too. They kiss gently, and it’s the most comforting kiss Steve has ever had in his life. He deepens it momentarily, hoping it gives Eddie the promise of more to come. As soon as he breaks away, he settles back against Eddie’s chest.

Eddie’s hands come up and continue running the shampoo through his hair while kissing him on the cheek every few moments, listing more and more reasons why Steve is loved.

And Steve feels pretty damn lovable.

#steddie #oops angst #steddie ficlet #steddie fic #steddie bath fic #steddie bath #eddie munson #steve harrington

[oh-surprise-its-me]

tw domestic abuse

13 year old Jamie flinching when his dad puts his hand on his shoulder because the force of it makes him bend.

17 year old Jamie having a black eye for two weeks after his dads been around again and insisting he got it during a match and the ref just didn’t see.

19 year old Jamie in a serious relationship for the first time and she drags her nails down his arm hard enough to break skin in a small argument. She smacks his face three days later.

20 year old Jamie who’s just had a wine glass tossed at his head from a girl who thought he was cheating, he wasn’t but that doesn’t seem to matter.

21 year old Jamie who had a secret boyfriend for three months until he gets shoved into a wall for not wanting to be the first out player because ‘Jamie think of both our careers, we would be icons’.

23 year old Jamie who’s had maybe the healthiest relationship of his life with Keeley being at a bar for the first time after they break up, he gets his face slapped by a girl who thinks he was flirting with her boyfriend.

27 year old Jamie in a relationship with Roy and the first time they really argue he throws his hands in front of himself and closes his eyes when Roy gestures.

Roy fully freezes and steps four feet back and asks Jamie to open his eyes. Jamie who honestly didn’t realize his eyes were closed looks shocked. He asks Roy why he’s so far away now.

Roy looks like he’s about to cry, Jamie lunges to him holding his face asking what happened. Roy has to stutter out a ‘you flinched’ and now it’s Jamie’s turn to freeze. No one has ever brought up the flinching before, taken advantage of it? Yeah. Ignored it? Definitely. Asked in a voice that’s about to cry? No, no that’s new.

He insists he’s fine, he knows Roy would never hit him. Roy looks at him like he’s lost his mind and refuses to brush this off. They talk for hours, Jamie tells Roy everything. All the ex’s, everything his father has ever done, ex teammates who slapped backs too hard to be friendly.

Everything.

By the end they are both crying and Jamie has agreed to talk to a therapist. When they go to bed that night Roy is terrified to grab onto Jamie and pull him on top like he normally does. Jamie has no such issues and rolls right on top of Roy, head tucked into Roy’s neck like every night.

#jamie tartt #ted lasso #roy kent #roy x jaime #I had a lot of thoughts tonight #roy kent x jamie tartt #jamie x roy #they really love each other it all works out #oops angst #if you are struggling with something like this know that no partner should EVER treat you the way Jamie has been treated #absolutely no domestic ab between Roy x Jamie #I used Jamie as a bit of a punching bag oops sorry !! #mac writes ted lasso

[naffeclipse]

I've seen a lot of references to how Hunter Y/N will one day die and leave Eclipse aside, but what about the vampire variant? They will live for a long time, at least until someone manages to kill them, lots of heartbreak potential there, on the other hand, what about Vanessa? Will she die knowing that she could never kill the cryptid that stole her friend's body? Maybe Y/N will give them one last visit to calm her down? Could Vanessa get used to that new Y/N after a long time?

Vampire!Y/N stays alive. They and Eclipse get spared that pain in this AU, but, that means for Y/N that they lose everyone they've ever known and loved, including Vanessa. The extra kicker is that Vanessa loathes that her friend has died and risen once more in an undead fashion. Vanessa hunts and hunts and hunts but she doesn't ever get her quarry, to release her friend from this horrid purgatory, and one day, she grows too tired and too old and gives up.

One day, Vanessa receives a quiet visitor late into the night—she never did sleep well, not after everything. The demonic cryptid responsible for it all lurks outside. It's only her and her friend who still has the same young face they had before vampirism took their body and robbed it of its peace. Blood-red eyes look so sad. Vanessa looks back coldly, full of venom even in her old age.

"I couldn't kill you. So you've come to kill me."

"Nessie. No."

"Then leave.'

"I just wanted to—"

"I said get out."

"..."

"..."

"Please... I just wanted to thank you for being my friend before. I miss you. I don't want to miss you more when—"

"When I die and you keep drinking blood?"

"Yes."

"You don't miss me. You're not them. Stop tormenting me, vampire, and go."

They leave. Vanessa, old and wrinkled with all her hair silver upon her head, cries into her hands long after the vampire departs.

She misses her friend, too.

#the lost episode #oops angst #loreleilarai

[artsyfartsypaige]

“Ricorderai”

Who doesn’t love a angsty Gatsby animatic??? I sure do

#the great gatsby #jay gatsby #animatic #nick carraway #natsby #oops angst #animation #mina #1920s #the roaring twenties

[scienceoftheidiot]

Royai~~

The look Hughes gave him couldn't have been any more distraught than his own. "When did you realise? That you loved her?"

"I... I don't..."

"Come on. I've seen how you look at her. I know that look." Hughes drank from his pint, loudly putting it down. Roy looked at his, a knot in his throat. He wasn't sure about drinking this anymore. He touched the cold glass, his fingers leaving traces in the condensation. There, the darkness of the brew was more visible.

"In fact... Roy, I don't really like this. She's not - "

"Not what?"

Roy had not wanted his reply to be this immediate, his tone to be so curt.

Hughes sighed.

"You're really in it, right?"

Roy shrugged. Hughes' insistance made him feel like a teenage boy. Made him feel a little sick. There was nothing of a teenage crush in this. He didn't know what it was. He didn't even know if he was really -

"She's just... Look, I don't think it's a good idea. You need to get your head out of Ishval. Out of the army."

Roy kept his eyes lowered. He felt he would have reduced Hughes to ashes if he'd looked him in the eye.

He felt shame for thinking this.

"I'm not like you, Maes. I'm not strong enough." He finally took a sip of his beer. "And I don't know. But it doesn't matter. She's my subordinate. Frat laws, you know?"

"I love how you always find ways to make yourself even more miserable than you already are. Truly exceptional. Drink your beer, I'm taking you out tonight. Just let me find a phone and tell Gracia."

"I'll just take the beer. Thanks."

#oops angst #can't help it #though I blame qs63 for this one #royai #dairogo #ask game #fma fanfiction #roy mustang #maes hughes #riza hawkeye

[rexismycopilot]

angst ahead! read at ur own risk! so when it comes time for the boys to get married and get their marriage license, is anakin going to change or hyphenate his last name? i feel like if obi-wan asks him about it he might shut down or become very emotional about it since he obviously doesn't have much in the way of personal possessions that still connect him to his mom. what if they r just having a pleasant evening talking about all the things they will do as husbands and obi-wan brings up the possibility of either of them taking on the others name or hyphenating and anakin just immediately has a meltdown about losing his mom for good if he does that. they talk about it and anakin admits that he's afraid of losing the literal last connection he has to his mom and obi-wan comforts him by pointing out that he actually looks exactly like her (maybe by this time obi-wan has been allowed to see the one photo that anakin has of himself and his mom together) anakin can take comfort in the fact that she is still with him even if she isn't alive anymore, and that she'd be so happy and so proud of him for the man he's become.

I've been really back and forth and what they're going to do about their last names after they're married. I know it's a big (and really fucking stupid) plot point in Fifty Shades Freed. (And just to be clear, Anon, your idea is not stupid. As you can imagine, it's just executed so stupidly in the source material (which i suppose isn't surprising when it's Christian and Ana 🤢))

I do think they need to talk about it and I can totally see Anakin hanging onto his last name because not only is that the last thing that connects him to his mom, but also that's the only thing that's really been his throughout his life. No one could take that away from him.

#ask #anon #fifty shades au #obikin #oops angst

[fateprotected-a]

@bcldlygo​ said: 😘 Whoever you want | moar kisses

It isn’t the first time. It won’t be the last. It can’t be. Still, Pris lingers, hand cupping Una’s cheek as she draws the other woman into a too-desperate kiss. A promise, an apology. A bid for more time.

It would never be enough. All too soon, they have to part, and Pris stays close, gaze searching.

“We’ll fix this. I promise.”

#I'm still not caught up so this can be About That or a random away mission gone wrong or smth who knows #bcldlygo #v: tbn (snw) #oops angst

[ask-the-archs]

(Mod is bored… so… TW angst (general), mental health issues, and suicidal thoughts/ideation)

*Gabriel grits his teeth as the pain in his arm grows worse by the second, an insistent itch on his left hand… or where it would be, and yet he was painfully aware of that same hand not being there. He tries to distract himself by reading through a comfort book, but the fact that he can’t hold it Right makes him frustrated quickly, and he ends up leaving it.*

*He flies off into space to cry in peace, to avoid the loudness of Heaven and Prayers to him or invocations of his name. He flies off to cry and to grieve the fact that he can’t just function like he knows he’s expected to, and the fact that he’s going to need to anyways because he isn’t still bleeding, so he’s healed, right? It was going to happen anyways and it didn’t even get infected, and it was relatively painless in comparison to how it was.*

*Sound doesn’t travel in the void of space, so he doesn’t even have to deal with the roar of stars, and his thoughts are too fast and yet too slow, and he couldn’t even hold a book right, and he can’t even cut an apple safely, and he should’ve just died instead of becoming dead weight that everyone pities now*

*Gabriel just ‘sits’ in the void, letting his thoughts spiral as he’s probably too close to a star, tears rolling down his face and floating off into the lack of air, he can Feel Noah’s soul pressing on his life force, and his phone feels heavy in his pocket with how easy it would be to send off texts to everyone to not feel bad if he doesn’t return back home. Maybe if he went into another reality, he could properly die, would it be worth it to hurt everyone just for his own pain to stop? Would it stop? Or would he just keep feeling the pain he deserves for failing all of his siblings and humanity as he has? How selfish would it be for him to just stop existing? Would anyone want him to stop existing… would he even want to know if they did?*

#archangel gabriel northstar #oops angst #tw sui ideation #rp starter #ANYONE IS WELCOME TO RESPOND BUT MODS LOOK AFTER YOURSELVES FIRST!!!

[critterbitter]

Sometimes, it's lonelier when you're in a crowd you can't understand. Elesa, who struggles with the language divide and being hard of hearing, solves this by simply refusing to engage.

BONUS! The twins did not get their starters yet. They think Elesa’s so cool and stoic. This is a hilarious misunderstanding.

Want something funnier? Here's my submas masterpost!

#art #pokemon #sketchbook #submas #myart #fanart #pokemon elesa #gym leader elesa #comic #hearing aids #the over seas experience— not know what the HECK people are saying to you #now with the additional nightmare of auditory issues! #oh elesa. i cant wait for you to meet your emotional support muppets. #web comic #blitzle #oops! #angst #nimbasa trio #emmet #ingo #elesa

[proxycrit]

Salvaging the Ship of Theseus au! Posting on the sketch acc because i haven’t decided on anything permanent yet.

Emmet’s having a grand time guys.

He’s doing great!

On a side note, here’s Ingo!

Ingo’s fighting very hard to retire from Wardenship after seeing a whole train fall from the sky and land on the other side of Hisui. Unfortunately, this is a track he can not disembark until either him or Sneasler become permanently indisposed.

He’s also doing great! Don’t worry about it!

#submas #salvaging the ship of theseus #oh i miss drawing these two! #submas au #finally nailing down an emmet ingo design i like for hisui arc #looking at them… #emmet goes to hisui au #emmet #eelektross #sneasel #ingo #warden ingo #pokemon #art #submas angst #oops! #critterbitter screams into the void #critdraws #hisuian zoroark #lady sneasler

[ourple-octoling]

❝  you deserve to reach the goals you want in life.  you deserve to obtain anything you wish.  ❞ — from Cerrin!

AFFECTIONATE  AND  AFFIRMING  PROMPTS

A mess. That's what he was.

Cerrin finds his boyfriend on the floor of his living room-- A mess of various plants mashed together, samples of fuzzy ooze, what seemed to be various textbooks on medicinal plans, and an ashtray piled high with cigarette butts..

The air around the apartment reeked of cigarette smoke..

Viorel looked like he didn't sleep in days. His hair is, even more, messier than usual... The NEO agent had holed himself up in his apartment-- He needed some days off after hearing about his mother's critical condition. However, being gone and having no contact with anyone for more than two weeks... It was concerning.

Viorel finds himself in a tight embrace by Cerrin...

"... How can I reach those goals when I can't even get results-- I feel like I'm getting nowhere."

#OOPS ANGST #no more questions thank you ; ask #orbitaldeathwoomy #also small lore drop vio was studying plant medicine before he dropped out outta college:'^)

[cherpiet]

comfort

#aaaahamshajwbejene oops! just dropped a bit of angst on the floor woopsie me #tadc #the amazing digital circus #tadc pomni #pomni #tadc caine #caine #the amazing digital circus pomni #the amazing digital circus caine #caine x pomni #pomni x caine #showtime

[aubadeduflamek]

my child, you are loved.

#happy brithday silver oops its angst(?) #twisted wonderland #twst #twst silver

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

We could have had it all...

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #jin guangyao #nie mingjue #oh man....the NieYao dynamic....All these complex emotions and ties to each other and they *aren't* canon? #Sorry fellas but the way you proposed writing your bro a letter of recommendation & agreeing to it was very fruity. #And *then* Lan Xichen shows up. And both JGY and NMJ are head over heels for him and have been for ages apparently. #Its like they found out that LXC had been two timing them this whole time and their response was: “UM. HOT?” #I'm tempted to redraw these three as that one bisexual-core image with Anne Hathaway. You know the one. It fits. #It's strange seeing all of this fondness in retrospect compared to the betrayal you feel in The Untamed after a longer build up. #Initially it felt like 'oops we made him a little too 2 dimensional as a villain - quick make him more sympathetic'. #JGY even had a scene with him kissing babies. As any politician would do to improve their image. #but it does come around to really showing a more authentic JGY and the tension between him and NMJ. #As an angst lover I am personally all for 'what could have been' relationships and they DO have it all.

[malacandrax]

"You need to leave"

Request- Feral Astarion protecting an injured Halsin.

#halstarion #bloodbear #astarion #halsin #bg3 #blood cw #yes im still interested in requests #Oops more angst u-u

[strawberri-draws]

"Innocence died screaming, Honey ask me, I should know. I slithered here from Eden; Just to sit outside your door"

-From Eden, Hozier

aka: au where they grow old in the dungeon together in their monster forms.

#my art #fanart #strawberridraws #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #farcille #marcille donato #farlyn thorden #fallin tourden #fallin touden #guys what is her name the anime / manga got me confused lmao #anyways #had fun with this piece! #I always stress-make fan art during my finals/important times oop #got a super important bfa portfolio due in like three days yipeee #wish me luck #OH YEAH about the “au” lol #basically what if marcille realized that keeping fallin in her monster form would make her have the same life span as a dragon/her #so she like. steals her and they hide away #and for some reason laois gives up #(he would never but this is my special lesbian angst au so shh) #so then they just rot in the dungeon together with dungeon master marcille and monster fallin hehe #I love gay people !!!!!