#one year on Testosterone

[cyber-therian]

the 16th of May ill be 1 year on testosterone :]]]

#🪻⋮ off topic #testosterone #trans hrt #ftm hrt #hrt testosterone #hrt journey #hrt #one year on testosterone

[bernard-is-tired]

I think this is the best way to break my tumblr hiatus

#one year on Testosterone #transgender #transman #trans man #trans masc #testosterone changes #voice update

[nobody-i-know]

Thanks for sticking with me through my first year on T and never getting tired of me asking if you can see the peach fuzz on my face or hear the difference in my voice every week. You guys are the real homies.

ALSO I'M ONE YEAR ON T TOMORROW AND SCREAMING ABOUT IT EVERYWHERE BITCHES

#ftm #one year on testosterone #transgender #trans man #one year on hrt

[official-roe-barton]

// I'm officially one year on testosterone 💛💛

#ftm #one year on testosterone

[angeltherubiks]

A year on Testosterone

My journey as FTM began fully late oct 2018. That’s when I realized that I was indeed transgender. I was a little bit scared yet relived about this new development of my identity, but it didn’t take away the anxiety of it all. I worried what friends and especially family would think about me, and I assume the worst, excommunication, being disowned, going through the world moving forward alone, it is so scary especially cause I’ve heard so many others going through this fallout.

I’m happy to say it wasn’t the case, well at least with my friends. Some members of the family are having a hard time with it still, my dad especially but he was never queer friendly to begin with so I knew if all else, I would get backlash from him.

I officially started Testosterone mid July 2021. The changes I have gotten from T have been good, really good for me yet perplexing to some of my friends lol. The biggest change has been my confidence and anxiety. My confidence overall has gone up this past year and my anxiety has gone down. The best example was when I went to finally get my drivers license. In the eve of my drivers test my friend asked me how I was feeling about the test. I basically said I was feeling indifferent, not exactly that I don’t care but like, if I pass, I pass, if I don’t pass, I’ll just retake the test. It short circuited their brain cause they couldn’t understand how I wasn’t getting anxious about it. To be honest I did get anxious but only once the driving instructor got in the car.

Physically the changes I have gotten where what I was hoping for although some changes I was not expecting. Before starting T, me and my doc concluded that I have pcos so some changes most ppl would typically get in the beginning I won’t experience because I have already gotten it to an extent, which ended up being the case.

My skin became oily, I was dealing with acne to the degree that I had as a teenager. I started getting facial hair on my chin and it slowly made its way towards my neck. Right now, its working on my sideburns so im excited to see how soon my face can theoretically form a beard. Body hair wise the ones I do have have become longer and darker.  No real change about my hair line other than discovering u can get pimples at the back of ur head from the extra oil the body is now naturally producing.

My voice has gotten deeper. I was already in an androgynous voice range before starting T so I could emulate a guy voice after warming up my throat a bit. A few months in T I noticed that it was becoming easier to fall into the voice range and a month or so later I got proper a voice drop. Its hard to say if it will continue to drop. Data I have gathered from the voice analysis app says im pretty much there and strangers in general don’t question my voice, even over the phone.

There are now things I understand as to why guys dress in a certain way. The main one being wearing shorts even though it is cold outside. Simply put, the body is hot on T, temperature wise lol. I was already wearing mens clothing before starting T so nothing different otherwise.

Before starting T I was passing 50% of the time. Although I was constantly being clocked by moms at my retail job and while my job kinda knew me as a guy, a few ppl put to and to together that I was female (curse u job schedule posting legal names in the back room). I never did get flack for it, other then one of the managers coming up to clarify what gender I was cause admittedly, I never said. He was totally chill with it and even tried to help figure out the system so that the schedule wouldn’t deadname me.

The changes downstairs have been interesting. I didn’t know that I had in a way, already gotten a T-dick from pcos till I started testosterone. I was already half an inch and right now im about an inch, inch and half although its hard to judge since the base isn’t quite clear compared to normal cis dicks. The horniness has also been real, some days it felt like I needed my hand down my pants just to have some peace and quiet in my brain. Especially during the 3rd month.

I also discovered that you have a higher chance of getting a yeast infection on T, that was a fun two week experience. My doc explained that since the downstairs is changing, it is also freaking out a little and trying to rebalance itself hormone wise. While it wasn’t the cause, it increased it and I did something that while I normally wouldn’t have gotten any repercussions of, I ended up having to. For those wondering it was a combo of shaving the downstairs for the first time since starting T (I was four months in at that point) and using a bar of questionable bar of soap to shower with. Most likely it could have happened anyway with the bar of soap but it was still something that happened during my first year on T.

Medically I chose to do injections, althou originally, I thought I was gonna do inter muscular injections until I went to my doctors office for my injection training. That’s when I learned about subcuticular injections. I became less anxious about my shots after that due to the fact that I was already chubby so fat wise, I was golden lol. The biggest problem I had thou was getting syringes and needles. When I finally got the vial after being in insurance purgatory for 3 weeks, I realized that it was only the vial, when I asked the pharmacist about it, they said that they don’t sell needles over the counter, so I needed to get a script from my doctor. For one whole week I had that vial taunting me as I waiting for my doc to come back to me about the syringe and needle. Finally, I got the prescription but then I had a new problem. The initial four I got from the pharmacy was all that they had. Turns I was now part of a new shortage other people where facing, a shortage of 1ml syringes and 25g inch needles because those where the sizes everyone was using for the covid vaccines. This was in the height of everyone getting their covid vaccines so I was a bit fucked. I ended up getting a packet of 20 online from amazon. Right now things have calmed down I think supplies wise althou I haven’t tried getting them from the pharmacy again.

The injections themselves arnt too bad, at least for me. Althou the first injection was very intimidating. That needle was inside me a lot longer then it should have but I did it. I started off biweekly then switched to weekly after I got my first set of labs back. The excitement has gone down so it kinda feels like a mini chore that I must make sure I do every Friday. For the most part it’s not intimidating anymore. There was a brief period of a month mid-way in to the year where I was nervous about injecting after I had a couple of drops of blood come out of the injection site. It hasn’t happened since *knocks on wood* but I think if it does happen again, I won’t be as freaked out by it.

I also didn’t realize how much my background as a biology major would be starting T. I had some experience dealing with needles from a few lab experiments I had to do but by far the biggest tool was knowing my chemistry. Specifically on converting dosages to figure out how much per week someone was getting of their dosage. Less towards me and more towards other people on reddit or on the trans discord server who wanted number to compare each other with.

Finally, the mental changes. I mentioned before how I gained a boost in my confidence and a decrease in anxiety but there are a few other things as well that have change. Its hard to tell if some of these are due to T, age or dealing with the pandemic but I know one change for sure that is due to T. having no thoughts on the brain. Seriously just not thinking about anything. I kinda had this going already but very rarely. It was more like having a stoner thought where I just inspect either the setting or an object like thinking about the small details and just getting lost in thought. Kinda like observation mode. But now I get proper moments where there’s no thoughts in my head, legit not thinking of anything sort of like observation mode but I’m not taking notes like I would. It perplexes my friends though. One of them especially as she has never experience anything like that before and might have assumed I was lying when I replied with “nothing”.

I did had to relearn my anger as it became different being on T. not a bad different, more like the triggers of it changed and the response as well. So I had to briefly relearn the new triggers and how to prevent myself so I don’t accidentally go off on someone. Luckily, I caught it before I actually did but im still figuring it out a bit. Who would have thought being isolated due to a global pandemic would make it harder to get angry at socially.

I also noticed I don’t cry as much, granted even before T I only cried on average twice a year, typically once though. Funny enough its also going to be year since the last time I cried. I had a moment a week into T where I was super upset and ended up balling my eyes out. I wont get into details as to why I was upset, just that I was. It had nothing to do with me starting T and I’ll leave it at that. Not to say that was the last time tears left my eyes, my eyes get super watery from having wind blown on them or onions being cooked. But legit crying, haven’t really done it since that first week on T.

That’s about all the changes I can think of for this past year as far as testosterone changes goes. I hope this helps someone else going along the journey either starting or already on it. I wanna add my voice to the void of other FTM’s to help others in their journey. Especially since I’m not a Caucasian skinny person.

To whomever does read this, I hope ur journey goes well and there are less headaches in ur journey to being you.

Best wishes from ur fav online chubby 28 year old mex-american

#FTM #HRT #one year on testosterone #transgender #transman #pride #transmasc

[x-littlemoth]

Ya'll! Time to celebrate!

August 20th (this Saturday) is my 1 year anniversary of being on testosterone!

🥳🥳🎉🎉

#little moth's page #testosterone #ftm #ftm health #hrt update #one year on testosterone #1 year anniversary #it feels so damn surreal

[transitional-diaries]

My First Year on Testosterone

I've been on Testosterone for a year, and I want to try to do a write up of all my experiences with it so far.

These are just things I've noticed so far - there's probably a lot of smaller changes I haven't noticed yet.

Month 0-6 First off, I was on half a sachet of Androgel (25mg) for the first six months, as I'm nonbinary and anxious and wanted to go into the process slowly. The first six months nothing big really happened, and I've also heard people say gel works slower than injections do.

My acne on my face got a bit worse, but I've always had terrible hormonal acne, so this was both expected and not that big of a change

My skin and hair got very oily, but it wasn't consistently oily all the time - just like once every one or two weeks for a few days I'd notice my skin being more oily than normal.

The first two months my PMDD got easier to manage, but then it went back to being as bad as it had been before.

I started masturbating usually twice a day instead of once a day, but I'm not sure if that was because of horniness or just because masturbating helps my anxiety and falling asleep.

My upper-lip hair started growing in faster and thicker, though not any longer. I always had upper-lip hair though so it didn't feel like a huge change.

Month 6-9 6 months in I moved to taking a full sachet of Androgel (50mg) every day for 3 months. When I did this I planned from the get-go to go onto injections, as the injections are waaay cheaper than the Androgel (like, a quarter of the price), but stayed on gel for a bit longer because I was going on holiday and didn't want to have to worry about injections while away.

This was when I noticed my first long chest hair and little chin hairs

My voice started changing around this point

Month 9-12 For the last 3 months I've been on injections (0.25ml). I prepare the syringe but get my dad to give me the actual shot because I haven't been able to get myself to do it yet.

Voice has been steadily getting deeper, though it still breaks pretty frequently (and I haven't gotten fully used to talking at a lower register all the time)

I've gotten a lot more chest hairs as well as more hair in various other places on my body too, though nothing as obvious as the chest hairs.

The acne around my jaw has gotten worse, and I've noticed some acne on my shoulders, though not a lot. The skin on my shoulders feel like a different texture than previously (more rough and dry)

My period for the first two months on injections were ROUGH - they were both late and I got worse PMDD and headaches before they started, but the most recent period started a week early with no signs of it coming other than a headache the day before.

MUCH hornier. All the stuff I write lately is so fucking horny.

Noticed I had some bottom growth - my clit is bigger than it was before I started on T, though I had to double check some photos to see because it's not a huge difference.

I've also been slightly more anxious this month, and have gotten more throat-related colds over the last 6 months than I used to (like, I've gotten sick with very similar symptoms 4 times since September) but I don't think that's related to T?

#transmasc #transgender journey #one year on testosterone #trans anniversary #testosterone

[uncanny-tranny]

Something I noticed about transition that I never really thought about or was told about: My facial hair is (so far) completely different in colour. My chin hair is black, and the hair in my mustache, especially when it catches light, is blond and almost the same red that my head hair looks like

#trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #nonbinary #i think this one is funny though #i'm 2.5 years on testosterone and my chin hairs are more prominent than my mustache so it could be something i 'age out of' #but it just looks odd and there's no way in hell i'm shaving off my mustache no matter how small it is #i used to be called a redhead and even a ginger on a frequent basis and idk if people are collectively truman show-ing me #because i don't see it most of the time. but it's weird to see it in my mustache #there IS some black in it but obviously not everywhere #i just wasn't under the impression that it was something that happens lol #i'm sure this is something that as my facial hair matures i'll likely outgrow but that could be a while

[mokutone]

#my art #naruto #yamato #tenzō #yamato tenzo #kakashi #kakayama #image desc in alt text #oh its funny that this pink one ends up getting posted on valentines day. i promise i didnt plan that its just good luck and timing #if nobodys guessed: bc i cant keep up the post a day schedule atm i scheduled my queue for once a week #and picked testosterone tuesday :) #and valentines happened to be on a tuesday this year

[mosraev]

Today as it turns out is 10 years since I made my first song

Facebook was so kind of reminding me that it was 10 years ago I wrote and shared 'Ray of Sunshine' aka my first full song ever

Look at this pre-everything cinnamon roll :'3

This is what I look like today a decade later (picture taken May 6)

#I am thinking about maybe trying to play the song again or the updated one I made a few months back #not sure how it will sound now I've been on testosterone for almost half a year but we can try xD #mosraev #mosræv #2014 #2024 #ray of sunshine

[pinkcrittertomb]

I hate Luffy with a beard so much. What kind of abomination is that i can't take it

#SERIOUSLY WHAT IS GOING ON WITH 40 AND 60 YEAR OLD LUFFY #gimme old luffy but without a beard i beg you😭 #his body doesn't produce much testosterone or he shaves idk get rid of that ugly thing #one piece #luffy #monkey d luffy

[red-eft]

severely tempted to use the money i saved for testosterone for a tattoo instead. going to sound strange but that would be more gender affirming than hrt right now.. many thoughts to think about this .

#txt #probably never gonna see the artist i got my 1st tattoo from ever again after i graduate. hence why i wanna prioritize the tattoo :> #plus i can't start testosterone until after i start my job and get paid anyways. that'll be two weeks after may 20 #btw the tattoo is a cicada clinging to my leg in black n white. wanted this 2nd tat ever since i got my first one in may last year. ee #it has a ton of personal meaning to me and also in my mind tattoos help me feel a lot more masculine/like my body is my own in my control

[crippled-peeper]

Random but I love your beard, and hope I can grow one that cool when I finally can get access to T. Sending love your way.

thank you!!!! my dad had the exact same deep red beard when he was my age lol it’s one of very few things we have in common. facial hair is so cool!!! I’ve always wanted a beard from a young age and now I wake up every day and have one. it’s fun and I hope you get to experience it very soon

#anonymous #testosterone #the first year or two I just had a couple chin hairs but it was like one day I woke up and I had gone full orangutan

[ghosts-of-love]

one year on testosterone beasts!!

#well one year and one day lol but i was sick yesterday so forgot #i saw a photo of myself the day i started testosterone...unrecognisable but just because i was apparently white as a fucking sheet that day #i've gone from like. a sickly twink to a healthy looking bloke #i'm not a twunk (yet) i'm just a guy

[transfaguette]

as a trans guy with pcos on testosterone. uh. It Got Worse. my body does this 'fun' thing where i only have one period a year but that period lasts six months non stop. i was on birth control to stop this. now that im on t and birth control i have constant spot bleeding and cramps that range from mild to extremely painful. neutral thing ive also noticed: doctors went on and on and ON about how t makes you hungry and i couldnt go on t bc i'm fat and it would make me fatter. but pcos already makes you hungry. i noticed literally no difference on t

thank you for sharing, i hope you can find some better relief in the future. also fuck those fatphobic doctors jesus.

#fatphobia #chronic illness on testosterone #asks #i feel lucky in that my periods have never been Bad #even when i got one for the first time in 2 years i didnt bleed that much or cramp badly

[x-littlemoth]

My late-made voice comparison. I say late-made because I had planned on tracking my voice progress on T when I started, but then I just....didn't lol.

One Year Pre-Testosterone vs One Year Post-Testosterone

#little moth's page #ftm #ftm health #voice comparison #voice change #transgender #trans man #trans femboy #one year on testosterone #testosterone #pre testosterone