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Sixth transgender vlog: This turned into more of a travel/concert vlog with footage from and around the four Joker Out concerts I attended this month. In transition related news I've started to notice the changes happening to my voice and face.

#on-t recording #concert vlog #joker out #jo sys tour 2024 #joker out spring tour 2024 #sys tour 2024 #travel vlog #hrt #testosterone #medical transition #transgender #transmasc #nonbinary #jere pöyhönen #käärijä #käärijä home #käbnb #mosraev #mosræv #2024 #youtube #Youtube

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If anybody is curious how the performance went here is a short recap from IG before going to bed 😁

Stay creative, my fellow foxes 🦊💚

#performance #information #mosraev #mosræv #pre-t

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3 weeks on testosterone update 🦊💛

#hrt #testosterone #nonmusic #transgender #transmasc #mosræv #mosraev

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Second transgender vlog: Here I will talking about my first week on hrt, my experiences and first expression using testosterone plus sharing my two first t-updates (at one day and one week on t)

#on-t recording #medical transition #transmasc #nonbinary #transgender #vlog #mosraev #mosræv #2023 #youtube #Youtube

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See the little green man dancing cha cha in the stance? I want to join his shirtless riot - Off My Chest (Mosræv, 2023)

I wrote this song as a silly response to käärijä's Paidaton Riehuja (translated to Shirtless Rampage) from the perspective of a transmasculine person pre-op longing for the freedom Jere have taking his shirt off.

Recorded 23/09/07 - Pret-T - Lyrics under the line

Stay creative, my fellow foxes 🦊💚

Lyrics: I want to be authentic.

I want to be real. I want not having to hide.

I want to feel masculine and at home in my body.

"Yet you look like a girl so it is best",

Society says:

"Be modest! Cover up your chest!"

Hey! Listen when I say:

"One day I will go shirtless somewhere out in public."

Hey! Listen when I say:

"I want to go shirtless without a second glance."

It's not like I want to look like the Marvel boys or the supermodels.

[I] just want the option of going torso commando.

Surgery will set me free.

So I can go around topless ilke Jere.

Hey! Listen when I say:

"One day I will go shirtless somewhere out in public."

Hey! Listen when I say:

"I want to shirtless without a second glance."

Like the little green man dancing cha cha in the stance.

I want to be comfortable.

I want to be confident.

See the little green man dancing cha cha in the stance?

I want to join his shirtless riot.

Riot.

Hey!

Hey!

Hey!

Hey! Listen when I say:

"One day I will go shirtless somewhere out in public."

Listen when I say:

Hey! Hear me say I want to go shirtless without a second glance."

I want to join his shirtless, shirtless riot.

I want to join his shirtless, shirtless riot.

#original song #english song #2023 #käärijä #paidaton riehuja #pre-t #pre-t recording #mosraev #mosræv #off my chest #Youtube

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Fourth transgender vlog: A shorter one where I talk through the changes I've experienced my second month on testosterone. A tiny bit more is happening this month although outside of a period not showing up the changes has most to do with body modifications (haircolour and a new tattoo)

#on t-recording #hrt #medical transition #testosterone #transgender #transmasc #nonbinary #vlog #mosræv #mosraev #2024 #Youtube

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I haven't been doing a lot of lowfi demos in a while and would like to get back to it (especially now there's a break from choir and my voice may soon start to change)

I would like to hear what you might prefer I do first:

Option 1) I rerecord one/some of my old songs

Option 2) I finish and record a song I've made about the anticipation of HRT

Option 3) I take on a sort of song writing challenge - maybe make it a thing that I give myself a songwriting challenge every month

Option 4) I record some of the songs I haven't already

#nonmusic #update #question #mosraev #mosræv #2023

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I failed to be a daughter and I'll fail to be a son, I Am Here (2022, Mosræv)

Happy Transgender Awareness Week! I filmed this at the beginning of the week yet took a while to edit it so I am pleasantly surprised I still managed to get it out before the end of the week. This song was one of the first I managed to write fully about my experience as a transmasc nonbinary individual. I hope you like it

Recorded 23/11/13 - Pret-T - Lyrics under the line

Stay creative, my fellow foxes 🦊💚

Lyrics:

I find the monsters under my bed

much more friendly than the voices in my head.

They're telling me that I am wrong:

Everything from my body to my voice.

But I keep holding on.

I try to stay afloat.

I am here.

I am here.

I am here.

I am, I am.

Sometimes I feel like I'm a ghost,

avoiding mirrors to protect my fragile host.

'Cause all reflections will reveal

is just how empty I feel inside.

I'm a liar, imposter, the list goes on.

I failed to be a daughter and I'll fail to be a son.

I am here.

I am here.

I am here.

I am,

I am scared of the part that I got to play.

I'm a terrible actor and far from okay.

I need help but I'm afraid to ask for it.

Instead I throw everything into this song,

hoping one day I can sing along to:

"I am here, queer and proud".

I am here.

See me, I'm here.

I am here.

I am, I am,

I am here.

Right here.

I am here.

I am.

I'm still here.

#original song #english song #transgender awareness week #i am here #2022 #pre-t #pre-t recording #mosraev #mosræv #youtube #Youtube

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First post on (this) tumblr! so exciting!!

Hi everybody - my name's Micah aka Mosræv (danish for Moss fox)

I write songs about my experiences as a queer person (nonbinary transmasculine aro ace individual) together with miscelaneous themes such as life, loss, fandoms and mythology/folklore.

This video you are watching is the trailer for my youtube channel you can find here.

So far I've resorted old low-fi demos (me+ guitar in bedroom) and old live videos yet, I plan on submitting newer material soon so stay tuned! 🎶

Inbetween video uploads I think about sharing some more text and artbased ideas as well which will be more or less exclusive for this tumblr so if you want a reason to stick around, maybe this is it!

In the future I hope to add testosterone updates to the mix (in three days I get the verdict whether my local gender clinic will approve of me starting t so that's exciting!!)

I've been babbling for long enough - stay creative my fellow foxes and I'll see you next time 🦊💚

#introduction #video #mosraev #mosræv #Youtube

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Was I just some trash that you could throw away?

Was I just some game you and your guys could play? - Happy Ever After (Mosræv, 2016)

One of the few love songs I've written and it is not about me but my friend who'd called the day before telling me her bf broke up with her.

Recorded 06/07/16 - Pre-T - Lyrics under the line

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It happened over night

[like] Lightning from sweet morning sky.

I wasn't worth your time.

What the hell was that supposed to mean?

And what made you think you were worth mine?

It happened all too fast.

One day and you where gone.

Made me wonder if I ever meant anything?

Was I just some trash that you could throw away?

Was I just some game you and your guys could play?

'We are far too different'

'We are worlds apart'

Did you say, when you took back my happy ever after x4

Happy ever

Wasn't meant for us

Wasn't meant for us, no.

It was always me who should arrange the dates.

It was always me to erase my plans.

I was your servant and you were my king,

Left me listening to sad radio songs.

'We are far too different'

'We are worlds apart'

Did you say, when you left me in the dirt.

Maybe my growing conscious started to worry you.

Easier it was to say: 'so long here's back your happy ever after'

Happy ever after x3

Happy ever - wasn't meant for us

Wasn't meant for us, no

Wasn't meant for us

Happy ever after x4

Happy ever - wasn't meant for us

Wasn't meant for us, no.

#original song #english song #happy ever after #lowfi demo #pre-t recording #pre-t #mosraev #mosræv #Youtube #2016

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City signs may change but never memories - Shout Out (Mosræv, 2015)

Probably one of the most 'just out of highschool' songs you can find since it was written by a just graduated Micah eight years ago wanting to thank their friends for staying by their side.

Recorded on 05/26/15 - Pre-T - Lyrics under the line

Stay creative, my fellow foxes 🦊💚

"Shout Out" lyrics:

Turn the page

"The story of my life"

written on a cheap paperback, yardsale price.

Where everyday is a chapter; At dawn begins a new.

The dark, the bright, the scary - every part I share with you.

Turn the page, but leave a bookmark in.

We were watching horror movies at night without an end.

Laughing at our own stupid jokes, no need to explain.

Jamming in the basement,

Do it all over again.

Wanna scream

Wanna shout

Shout out to all my friends!

Gotta live life loud.

So raise your voice up high.

Every boy and every girl,

who feel out of place in this world:

Fuck them who criticize!

Never let them rule your life!

Scream, wanna shout

Shout out: "We're alive"

With you I sang my lungs out

at the concerts with our favorite bands.

You could always make me laugh and cry

and wanted to dance my stupid dance.

City signs may change but never memories.

I can always count on you through pain, hard times and tragedies.

And you know I'll do the same.

Wanna scream

Wanna shout

Shout out to all my friends!

Gotta live life loud.

So raise your voice up high.

Every boy and every girl,

who feel out of place in this world:

Fuck them who criticize!

Never let them rule your life!

Scream, wanna shout

Shout out: "We're alive"

Every boy and every girl,

who feel out of place in this world.

The reckless, the hopeless and the one without an fall back plan:

Fuck it!

Wanna scream

Wanna shout

Shout out to all my friends!

Gotta live life loud.

So raise your voice up high.

Every boy and every girl,

who feel out of place in this world:

Fuck them who criticize!

Never let them rule your life!

Scream, wanna shout

Shout out: "We're alive"

"We're alive."

#original song #english song #shout out #lowfi demo #pre-t recording #mosraev #mosræv #Youtube #2015

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Så er det nu, vi spinder gold af alt det der kan ske i drømmeland//It is now we weave gold of all that can happen in dreamland - Altid Nat (Mosræv, 2021)

This is a song I wrote in 2021 about finding it more and more alright to be physically close with others again due to the losening covid-19 restrictions and how wonderful that felt.

Recorded 08/21/23 - Pre-T - Lyrics (original and translated) under the line

Stay creative, my fellow foxes 🦊💚

Lyrics (original): Giv mig et klem i armen.

Fortæl mig det her er virkelighed.

Fordi jeg har tumlet alt for længe i ensomhedens tåge.

Sæt dig ved siden af mig.

Lad øjeblikket vare evigt.

Efter så lang tid alene,

Dit nærvær er sand magi.

Mens jordens trolde,

ja de danser foxtrot over Danmarks bøgetage.

Så er det nu, vi spinder guld af alt det

som der kan ske i drømmeland.

For det er altid nat et sted på verdensplan.

Kom og hold om mig.

Jeg har savnet dig i mine arme.

Det føles som tusinde år siden,

At vi sad helt så tæt.

Og jordens trolde,

ja de danser foxtrot over Danmarks bøgetage.

Så er det nu, vi spinder guld af alt det

som der kan ske i drømmeland.

For det er altid nat et sted på verdensplan.

Tiden går i stå, mens vi venter, venter

Venter på at vi kan sætte sejl

Mod fjerne horisonter hvor der venter, venter

Nye eventyr for du og jeg.

Du og jeg er ikke alene mere

Nu hvor verden har åbnet op.

Det er nu, vi spinder guld af alt det

som der kan ske i drømmeland.

Lyrics (translated to English):

Give my arm a little squeese

Tell me this is reality

Because I have stumbled too long in the mist of loneliness.

Sit down beside me

Let the moment last forever.

After being alone this long

Your presence is true magic.

While the trolls of the earth dance foxtrot in Denmark's treetops.

It is now we weave gold of all

that can happen in dreamland

cause it's always night somewhere in the world.

Come and hold me

I've missed you in my arms.

It feels like thousand years has gone

since we sat this close

And the troll of the earth dance foxtrot in Denmark's treetops.

It is now we weave gold of all

that can happen in dreamland

'cause it's always night somewhere in the world.

Time stops while we wait, wait

Wait upon setting sail

towards distant horisonts where we wait, wait

We wait for new adventures you and I

You and I are not alone anymore

Now the world is opening up

It is now we weave gold of all

that can happen in dreamland.

#original song #danish song #altid nat #pre-t #pre-t recording #mosræv #mosraev #2021 #Youtube

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Congratulations Cha Cha Cha for hitting 100 million streams on spotify!!

Incidentally, I made a cover of the song last month as a part of my yearly summer camp. I had three working days (let's be honest tho, I mostly worked at night so I was pretty sleep deprieved at the end) to finish the cover and only one shot of getting the performance right so in that regard I'm just happy I got through it unscathed.

Sorry to all my finnish friends for the horrid pronounciation (and to the rest of you for my questionable stage presence)

There'll not be lyrics under the line this time but a translation of my little speech (since it is danish)

Stay creative, my fellow foxes 🦊💚 - and Cha Cha Cha all day 🤘💚

And of course it is a bit hot [up here] so we also have *shows "bolero"*

Well, we'll see how it goes.

If you accidentally have watched Eurovision or learn the song really quickly, then you are welcome to sing and dance along.

#first cover in a while #it is scary since you then have something to actually compare it to #but I felt like sharing it for the celebration #cha cha cha #cha cha cha cover #cha cha cha 100m #käärijä cover #pre-t #pre-t recording #mosræv #mosraev #cover song #live performance #Youtube

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Concert coming?

It has been a while.

Just wanted to let you guys know there's a good chance I'll perform at my city's protest for Trans day of Remembrance. That will be the first "gig" in 8 years that is not part of an open mic or school performance so I am very excited.

Other news:

New demo will come tomorrow for Trans Week of visibility

New trans update will be recorded around November 22 when I (hopefully) start T

#nonmusic #information #update #concert #new demos #new trans updates #mosraev #mosræv

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Now all about you seem so grey.

When did the light in you fade away? - Butterfly (Mosræv, 2020)

This is probably the most nonbinary/transgender song I ever wrote before I came out it is litterally describing me (I was in my strongest 'repress all gender dysphoria by being as feminine as possible' era) not connecting to my real self.

Recorded on my yearly summer camp on 07/24/20 - Pre-T - Lyrics (original and translated) under the line

Stay creative, my fellow foxes 🦊💚

Butterfly - lyrics:

I remember a time where you were free,

Free to wander the highway of your dreams.

Now the world has weight you down.

Your smile turned into a frown.

I remember a time we were as one.

In each others arms we found where we belonged.

Now you won't meet my eye.

"I love you" turned into "goodbye, goodbye."

Butterfly, let us fly away

Chasing dreamshaped clouds [and] learn to live again

'Cause I'm sick of melancholy overload.

Butterfly, let us fly away

Change the rules that keeps us stuck in place.

'Cause I'm sick of melancholy overload.

I remember a time you were so wild

in your secondhand neon rainbow style.

Now all about you seem so grey.

When did the light in you fade away?

Butterfly, let us fly away

Chasing dreamshaped clouds [and] learn to live again

'Cause I'm sick of melancholy overload.

Butterfly, let us fly away

Change the rules that keeps us stuck in place.

'Cause I'm sick of melancholy overload

Overload (lots of times)

Butterfly, let us fly away

Chasing dreamshaped clouds [and] learn to live again

'Cause I'm sick of melancholy overload.

Butterfly, let us fly away

Chasing dreamshaped clouds [and] learn to live again

'Cause I'm sick of melancholy overload.

Butterfly, let us fly away

Change the rules that keeps us stuck in place.

'Cause I'm sick of melancholy overload

Overload (many more times)

#original song #english song #butterfly #live performance #pre-t recording #pre-t #mosraev #mosræv #Youtube #2020

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[You] can't grow if you don't live. Do live. - The Balloon (Mosræv, 2023)

On the time of recording this was my newest song. It is a sort of open letter to who I was before coming out as nonbinary transmasculine so the themes are very much centered introspection, retrospection and acceptance.

Remember to be kind to the person you once were- they'd gotten you where you are now. And even if you are not a place you are satisfied with I hope you stay in there, I believe in you <3

Recorded 23/08/26 - Pret-T - Lyrics + bonus material under the line

Stay creative, my fellow foxes 🦊💚

The same hat 9 years apart. Pre-coming out and now getting to live more like myself every day <3

Lyrics:

A letter to my past self:

Stop try to fit in a box that never seemed to fit you

'because it'll never make you feel enough.

A letter to my past self:

I know you hate floating on air.

Not finding your footing anywhere,

yet you're also afraid to fall.

It's all okay to not fit in.

I promise you, there'll be a better tomorrow

if you let the balloon go.

A letter to my past self:

Stop calculation your worth with how much you pass for a girl

when we both know you ain't one.

You can't open up before you know yourself.

People will like you, but they can tell

something about you seems so distant,

and who loves a shadow?

It's all okay to not fit in.

I promise you, there'll be a better tomorrow

if you let the balloon go.

I think that I know the answer to your question why,

but you have to take a leap of faith

and let the balloon go.

Let it go.

Let it go.

You have to take a leap of faith

and let the balloon go.

You can't open up before you know yourself.

Can't love if you don't know yourself.

Can't trust if you don't know yourself.

Can't love if you don't know yourself.

Can't show your heart if you don't know yourself.

Can't love if you don't know yourself.

Can't grow if you don't live.

Do live.

It's all okay to not fit in.

I promise you, there'll be a better tomorrow

if you let the balloon go.

I think that I know the answer to your question why,

but you have to take a leap of faith

and let the balloon go.

Let the balloon go (let it go).

Let the balloon go (let it go).

If you let the balloon go.

#original song #transgender #transmasc #nonbinary #english song #the balloon #pre-t #pre-t recording #mosraev #mosræv #Youtube