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undying-love · 2 months

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Quotes to think about

"One of my feelings even when he used to lay into me was that he really didn’t mean it. I could always see why he was doing it. There was this attempt [on John’s part] to get rid of the spectre of me, which I understand, because he had to clear the decks just like I did."

"Then also we were like married, so you got the bitterness. It’s not a woman scorned this time, it’s two men scorned — probably even worse. And I had to make way for Yoko. My relationship with John could not have remained as it was and Yoko feel secure."

"Really all that happened was that John fell in love. With Yoko. And so, with such a powerful alliance like that, it was difficult for him to still be seeing me. It was as if I was another girlfriend, almost. Our relationship was a strong relationship. And if he was to start a new relationship, he had to put this other one away."

"I understood what happened when he met Yoko. He had to clear the decks of his old emotions. He went through all his old affairs, confessed them all. Me and Linda did that when we first met. You prove how much you love someone by confessing all that old stuff. John's method was to slag me off."

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I don't think we pay enough attention to these crazy statements made by Paul and how telling they are. What guy needs to put his relationship with his "friend' aside so he can be with his girlfriend? "If he was to start a NEW RELATIONSHIP, he had to put THIS OTHER ONE away". I'm sorry, but WHAT? And why did John needed to "get rid of Paul's spectre" in order to be with Yoko? What did Paul mean by "John confessed all his old affairs to her...his method was to slag me off". Is he implying that he was one of John's "old affairs"? It seems like he is not very aware of how revealing his words are.

Based on these quotes I think it is quite reasonable to assume that theirs wasn't a platonic relationship. And I don't get why so many people think that it was one-sided on John's part and that Paul rejected him romantically. Paul was (and still is) obsessed with John the same way John was obsessed with him. And you seriously think that two guys who are obsessed about each other would wait more than 10 years (from 1957 to 1968 in India) to make a move? (Btw, I dont think India was as much of a turning point as people think, as they were reportedly still very close while they were in New York a bit later). People who knew them have all made many suggestive comments about them, as well as many biographers. Clearly something was going on that was not platonic or one-sided. And let's not forget John screaming at Yoko "I wish I was back with Paul" during an argument. What does that imply? It does not make sense to yell at your wife that you wish to be back with a "friend" while you are having a fight, right? Saying you want to "be back" with someone sounds like wanting to return to an ex.

#mclennon #sorry for the long rant #off my chest

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danieldrivesfast · 1 month

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I'm sincerely worried for the future considering how media literacy and the concept of source verification is absolutely dead with a loud percentage of Gen Z/Gen Alpha kids. There's also absolutely zero critical thinking or willingness to understand the context of anything, which is doubly worrying. I hope it's just a vocal minority and not a trend across most.

It's unserious when it's about racecar things, but unfortunately I keep seeing it with serious topics, so when I come across it more and more with the unserious stuff I use to escape the serious topics... it stops feeling unserious and becomes really concerning. Super duper not fun, too.

A bit of today's nonsense? Once again preferring to listen to a "source" with zero credibility over literally everyone who is an authority and has a say in everything. Not only that, but to believe the "source" over the well-understood fact that the team's sponsors came on because of who was in the car more than to sponsor the team itself. Etc, etc, etc. Of course I'm talking about girlypops who get their giggles clinging to any "proof" that DR is getting fired.

The absolute unwillingness to see through their biases to at least form sensible or factual backups for their hate of things (not just DR) is embarrassing, frankly. There are so many uneducated fans who use wrong/not credible/misconstrued information to prop up their "arguments," and even when it's an argument I or someone agrees with, they cling to being wrong and attack the people who showed them facts instead of stepping back and reevaluating. They openly refuse to understand how things work, they'd rather spew hate at others (like Alex Albon, for example) than take a breather, learn, and be upset but still remain decent people. They claim to have the highest morals and use that to eviscerate people, but in the same week will unflinchingly prop up someone who is less than a degree separated from a literal fascist because he's a cutie pie.

A few months ago I saw someone say that Gen Z/Gen Alpha are just young Boomers with how they approach media literacy, critical thinking, confirmation bias, and their own hypocrisy and the way they have no regard for the cruelty they show others. I thought it was a horrible thing to say - until I started to realize they might be right. Existing in fandom space has rapidly been supporting that theory.

I'm going to Austin this year. Friendship bracelets are already being made. I can't wait to meet so many people and trade and share stories and experience an incredible sporting event with thousands of fans and a blossoming young, not-cishet-male demographic. And sometimes I think about the fact I'll likely be trading bracelets with people who've wished drivers dead/injured, spread horrible lies about them or their loved ones, actively contributed to ripping down drivers' mental health, and countless other awful things and think it's perfectly okay because it in no way affected them personally.

Anyway.

#formula 1 #daniel ricciardo #alex albon #lando norris #yuki tsunoda #charles leclerc #carlos sainz #george russell #logan sargeant #lewis hamilton #oscar piastri #f1 #toxic fandom #old lady rant #I'm yelling into the void #off my chest

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gawrkin · 16 days

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Morgause' Innocence

I once said in the tags of one of my reblogs that Morgause needs to be blameless in the conception of Mordred because of Lancelot and I felt I need to clarify:

Morgause must be fundamentally innocent any wrongdoing regarding the incest with her brother, so that Arthur alone is responsible for Mordred's existence - The Fall of Camelot must be Arthur's responsibility in some capacity.

This is because one of Arthur's fundamental pillars of his narrative: King Arthur is a divinely chosen ruler. The whole of point of "the Sword of the Stone" is to physically prove to both the in-story characters, and to the Medieval readers, that Arthur has the backing of God himself. Therefore, for narrative purposes, Arthur's sovereignty and properity as a ruler is because of God's Favor and anything bad that happens to Arthur and his Kingdom, has to have some measure of "Arthur must have broken his relationship with God somehow" (This is why during the Galehaut War arc, where Arthur is losing, he consults with a wise man to confess his sins, in order to reestablish his rapport and standing with God)

The problem that arises with Lancelot's inclusion into "the Fall Narrative" - that is, the collapse of Arthur's reign - is that the "Exposure of Lancelot and Guinevere's Affair" negates and replaces the Conquest arc, where Arthur engages in the moral grey zone of conquering all of Europe, thus at least providing at least a passable rationale for why Arthur lost favor with God.

With "the Affair Narrative", Arthur is innocent overall and totally in the right to defeat Lancelot and win. With all the bias and favoritism Lancelot gets from the French writers, having Lancelot lose would not only be humiliating but also defeats the whole purpose this version of The Fall was written in the first place - the real reason Lancelot is even part of this story: to enshrine him as an unquestionable element of Arthurian history.

So, what did the French Writers do? Simple: they retcon Mordred from nephew to a bastard born of incest (perhaps inspired by certain Charlemagne stories, where Roland is secretly his bastard son).

This is their out, their clever little plot device: having Arthur commit such an abominable act - even if unwittingly - removes whatever favorable ties he has to God, and thus, Arthur has his kingdom collapse from right under him while he's fighting Lancelot.

Which ultimately brings us back to Morgause. Making Morgause evil defeats the whole point why incest!Mordred was introduced in the first place. Evil!Morgause absolves Arthur of wrongdoing.

And if Arthur's squeaky clean, then he can't Fall and God would prevent any negative narrative consequences from occuring to Arthur.

Lancelot would lose (hah!), Camelot/Logres would be perfectly fine and Arthur would move on with his life.

This is why Tennyson's and T.H. White's narratives never made sense to me: Why is Arthur being punished for the actions of others? It makes God look incompetent in punishing those actually responsible and the Sword in the Stone/Excalibur of the Lake end up looking like pointless gestures.

(It's worse in Tennyson's because he's trying to portray Arthur as a semidivine figure unrelated to Uther) (Ughh)

Their stories feel like they ignore God as an active force in Arthur's royal life and in the lives of others. *Points to the Post-Vulgates' version of the Mayday Massacre, where God protects all the infants - They SURVIVED, unlike Malory's*

#my thoughts #off my chest #reblogs #arthuriana #king arthur #sir mordred #morgause #sir lancelot #t.h. white #alfred tennyson #once and future king #idylls of the king

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vaguelyomens · 6 months

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Well, I made the mistake of scrolling through the Good Omens tag and what I have learned so far is

We must never criticize S2 (People would rather believe it was written badly on purpose rather than just admit it was bad?)

People care more about seeing their faves in funny little outfits than the fact that all of S1, the whole point of it, was completely undermined (The costumes can be fun and the show can be bad at the same time, you know...)

RPF is Capital B Bad unless you're imagining MS and DT as themselves while playing their roles (??)

There are lots of people trying to prove they're queer by pretending to be attracted to GT and AP (and wanting to see them make out in s3 which is also somehow not RPF). OR people acting like they can only hold erotic fantasies about MS or DT if they're "fair" and give some kind of obligatory praise to their partners? (Aside: you don't have to be attracted to anyone to prove anything. It's ok that you're horny for MS and/or DT and not their partners. You can still be queer without naming names, so to speak.

Both the fandom and Gaiman seem to think he is god (and for a fandom that likes to throw around "it's religious trauma!" so much, you think they'd be wary of blind worship)

#good omens #good omens 2 #this is what happens when a fandom goes mainstream #off my chest #good omens critical #or rather #fandom critical

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frozentales · 1 year

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The next time someone argues that Viserys wasn't abusive to Alicent because in those times... or whatever bs excuse that's thrown around. Y'all better keep the same energy for everything else including misogyny as well. By y'alls screwed logic, it was normal in those times for men to look down upon women and treat them like trash. It being institutionalised in a society doesn't magically erase the trauma these women experience ffs. How hard is it to undertsand?

This double standards from the fandom whenever someone dares to talk about Alicent's abusive life is quite honestly sickening. Y'all really saw this child bride being pimped by her father, peeling off her cuticles with anxiety and even freaking dissociating in ep 4 and decided that she somehow asked for this life or worse deserved it.

No one is asking you to like/love Alicent as a character, but to deny that she was ever a victim is certainly a choice...

#alicent hightower #hotd discourse #hotd thoughts #off my chest #anti viserys i targaryen #is it even anti when its true?

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union-hivemind · 2 months

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As a system who's identity and number of aspects is way bigger than I can comprehend (hence why I think in hivemind terms) I love using fleets of starships as my profile pic in all sorts of places. And here's a few reasons why

1: I love space *insert markiplier joke here*

2: It sums up the idea of something alien and expansive and varied without having to say all of that

3: it doesn't show a species like a crowd of people would so it doesn't exclude aspects that aren't human

4: it's a conversation starter

5: it signals to other people that you are nerdy so even outside of plurality it helps fellow nerdy people see you as friend-shaped

6: it's just really cool and shows quickly that you've got a lot to you

7: you don't have to worry about people seeing or thinking about your limiting flesh vessel and instead they think. Hey SPACE

8: I just find space comfy 🙂

#endogenic #plural system #endo friendly #anti endo dni #pro endo #endo safe #hivemind #off my chest #shower thoughts #plurality

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theogcinnamonroll · 10 months

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I used to love Harry Potter

I used to love Harry Potter.

There was a time in my life, where it was one of the most important things. I read the books at least once a year. I’d sit on the couch with my mom and watch the movies with her. I’d spend countless hours on the internet, reading fanfiction, participating in the fandom, and reading every single headcanon and thought I could get my hands on. Although I was too scared to participate, too scared to post my own thoughts and my own fanfiction, it made me feel so welcome. Like I was part of something big. And to someone as lonely as I was back then, that was so important.

I was smart. Bad with people, but I devoured books like my life depended on them. I felt like I was Hermione. I saw myself in her, and I wanted to be her. She made me feel proud of my wild brown hair. She made me feel proud that I wasn’t like how I saw the other girls. She made me feel proud to be me. She made me feel like I was worth it, like even with all my flaws, even with my lack of looks and social graces, I was important and valuable.

I lived and breathed Harry Potter. My earliest vivid memories are of sitting at my mom’s feet with my brother, listening as she read the Sorcerer’s Stone to us. And then the Chamber of Secrets, then the Prisoner of Azkaban. I remember how I wasn’t allowed to read past the Prisoner of Azkaban until I was in the second grade. Then I was finally allowed to read the Goblet of Fire, but I couldn’t stop. I kept sneaking the next books, until my mom caught me reading the Deathly Hallows. It was like a drug for me, and I couldn’t stop. I just had to keep going, even though I got in trouble for it.

And as I got older, that fixation stayed. It brought me to the internet. The first fanfiction I can remember reading is one that was written on gotoquiz.com, a series about Oliver Wood. I stayed up all night reading it on my school iPad after I found it. Until my dad yelled at me because the school sent him an email about how I was on the iPad all night. But I couldn’t stop. An entire new world had been opened for me, and I had to have more.

It was everything to me. It was my whole world. I dreamed of going to Universal to see Harry Potter world. I dreamed of having my own wand. And even past the age of eleven, I held out hope that someday, my Hogwarts letter would still come, and I could be the witch I always wanted to be. Even as I got older and began going to different fandoms, being drawn into different universes, my love of Harry Potter didn’t go away. It stayed there, always in the back of my mind, affecting who I was, and helping me figure out the person that I wanted to be.

It wasn’t just something that stayed in the background, it bled out into the life I had. The essay I wrote to try and get into AP English my freshman year? It was about Neville Longbottom, about how his evolution as a character was inspirational. How I wanted to be like him, emulate how even though he was terrified of everything, he still showed bravery when it mattered most. And although I didn’t take AP English, that essay got me into the class. It opened up a gateway that I could have taken.

But then I found out. It was the summer of 2020, after I graduated from high school. JK Rowling had posted tweets outing herself as a TERF, a trans-exclusionary radical feminist. And it was like my world had just crashed down around me. I was still figuring out who I was, whether or not I was a woman, or a man, or somewhere in between. But I knew that I was queer, and I knew that what she had said was wrong. That what she said isolated a massive part of the community that was so important to me. But I didn’t know what to do.

At first I tried to pretend that I didn’t know about it. That as far as I knew, none of it had happened. But I couldn’t ignore that sting of guilt every time I looked at the copies of the books on my bookshelf. The twisting in my gut every time I got a piece of Harry Potter memorabilia that I once would have been ecstatic to receive. And eventually, I couldn’t swallow it up anymore, and I admitted it. JK Rowling wasn’t the person I thought she had been, and I couldn’t just continue supporting her anymore. But I decided that I wouldn’t support her financially, and I would inform people of her actions.

But the guilt didn’t go away. If anything it only got worse. If I was so determined to support the people in my community, why wasn’t I willing to give up Harry Potter completely. And finally… I did. Around the time I officially realized and came out as nonbinary, I gave it up. No more Harry Potter in my life, although I couldn’t bring myself to get rid of the books, no matter the guilt.

As a neurodivergent person, my hyperfixations are important to me. Especially the ones that last my entire life. But I began to really think about it. Is my hyperfixation more important to me than supporting the trans men and women in my community? And for me… I realized it wasn’t. And that’s what gave me the strength to completely give it up. It’s a wound that still hurts. A gaping hole that I don’t think will ever heal over. And pain that mars some of the happiest moments of my childhood. How could someone who had written these books, created this world that made me feel so safe and accepted, turn out to be so hateful?

Then I began to listen. I heard marginalized voices speak out about the issues that had been in the books all along, issues that I had never noticed. And I began to feel sick. This hadn’t come out of nowhere, this hadn’t just been something no one saw coming. Hatred and bigotry had been a part of these books since the very beginning, I had just been blind to it. The anti-semitism, the racism, the fatphobia, so many more issues that I could never name even if I tried. They’d been in every single book, they’d been staring at me every time I read those books that had been so important to me, but I had never seen it. Because even for all the ways that I’m marginalized, my privilege allowed me to overlook it. To never even notice. To blindly take the theme of the books, the themes of acceptance and fighting against oppression and hate, and never question them for a moment.

I still need to question and look at the parts of me that were helped to grow by those books, really look and see what of that bigotry rubbed off on me. To question how much of the books I really let affect me. It’s an ongoing process that I need to work on and I am working on. Because those books did so much for me, but they’ve hurt so many people too. While I felt seen and encouraged by those books, other children felt pain and isolation when they read them.

My neurodivergency is not a shield. I can’t hide behind it and say that just because of it, I can’t give up something I loved because it hurts people. Something I loved was created by a person who actively uses the platform it gave her to hurt people. And I am one of the millions of people who gave her that platform. Some say that we can speak out against JK Rowling while still loving Harry Potter. But JK Rowling herself has said that she sees the continuing support of Harry Potter to be support of her and her views, and that’s something I cannot live with. Harry Potter meant so much to me. And it still means so much to me, but I have turned my back on it forever. It still hurts. And I still feel the urge to give in, to go back to reading Harry Potter, close my eyes, and continue to participate in the fandom. But if I’m going to be the person who I want to be, I can’t.

Harry Potter was everything to me for most of my life. While I had other hyperfixations that lasted as long, like Star Wars, there was just something about Harry Potter that was different. It gave me a connection to my family, something we could spend time together with. Something we could bond over. But I just can’t close my eyes and pretend like nothing is wrong.

I used to love Harry Potter. And a big part of me still does. But that love is nothing compared to the love I feel for my community. Trans and nonbinary people are in the middle of a genocide. The world is actively trying to wipe us out, and JK Rowling is part of that. If I close my eyes, I will willingly be taking part in the active drive to kill and erase trans people, especially trans women. The active drive to kill and erase people like me. Because while JK Rowling may say she doesn’t want us dead, that’s exactly what she’s doing. She’s knowingly contributing to a cause that is actively wiping us out. And she considers support of Harry Potter to be support of that cause.

I love my mother. And I owe her so much more than I could ever possibly say or pay back. But she loves Harry Potter. She still loves Harry Potter, even with everything JK Rowling has said and done. I know she supports me, I know she supports trans rights, but it still hurts that she still loves Harry Potter. I know it means a lot to her, and I’m not going to ask her to suddenly stop loving something so important to her. I know I can’t change the behavior of the people around me, and I shouldn’t ask her to give it up. And I’m not going to ask her to. But it still hurts.

#harry potter #anti jkr #fuck jk rowling #anti harry potter #off my chest #writing #personal post

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vampyfem · 5 months

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Modern day wokeness upholds male centered white supremacy: a vent by me.

Malcom X was right, white liberals are a problem. This isn’t to say that conservatism is the right way either. I think both political sides are two cheeks on the same ass that produce the shitloads of bullshit we deal with today.

Take the whole Jeffrey vs Shumiran fiasco, in which “progressives” valued a white male over a woman of colour who was voicing valid concerns she had, as a mother, regarding a man who wants to “speak to the kids” about gender ideology.

Every-time someone uses one of her filters that go to charities, these woke TRAs act like it makes us a bad person because Shumirun made them, but here’s the thing, she’s using her creator fund and filters she’s made to give to charity to assist those in Palestine, Syria, the Congo, etc. facing a g3n0c!d3 (censored to avoid getting banned for keywords).

Wtf are these TRAs doing for humanity other than harassing women and showing off their p0rn addictions? 🤨

And honestly, even as a bi woman, I’m sick and tired of primarily privileged middle class wh !te people in the lgbt community justifying the horrible things being done in Islamic nations just because some of these people may not agree with the whole woke agenda. (Like Noah Schnapp who’s justifying Z!onism) These people are facing horrors incomprehensible to middle class westerners. Innocent men, women and children are being wholesale slaught3r3d. A literal GENOCIDE is happening as we speak and these spoiled brat Woketards can’t pull their head out of their own asses to care about people who don’t brownnose the lgbt community because they quite literally have more important things to do such as surviving the next missile launched towards them by Israel or the USA. ITS A HEIRARCHY OF NEEDS! No one gives a shit if you’re a polyamorous, non-binary, AMAB, therian Demi girl when their child has been turned to hamburger meat by a weapon of mass destruction.

Instead of whining about how oppressed they are, these wh!te TRAs should recognise how lucky and privileged they are to be living the lives they do. They should count their blessings because not everyone is so lucky to where the slightest thing they’ve got to worry about is being misgendered.

I genuinely do not care if some of these people in countries that are being g3n0c!d3d don’t agree with my views. They’re human beings and they deserve love, rights, safety and all of the things we get to enjoy here in the UK or America. 🤷🏻‍♀️it’s only fair.

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undying-love · 3 months

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A small rant

I still don't understand why so many people believe that it was one-sided on John's part. Paul is the one who has said the most insane things about John, even more than the other way around: "He was a delicous boy, a delicious broth of a boy", "I came to love his beery breath. And I loved John", "When I saw him I thought "He looks good, I wouldn't mind being in a group with him", "John had beautiful hands", "In the film [Get Back], there he is in a massive close-up. I can study everything about him", "I'm often thinking of him. I dream of him" , "If I'm going to see a face in a painting, it's highly likely to be John's", "I would hug him forever because that's the depth of my feeling for him", "Here Today is a love song to John", "He is always there in my being...in my soul", "It's cute for me to think of me and John squeezed together in a little single bed". Not to mention the fact that he has a calendar with photos of John, a 6 FOOT TALL picture of him and John, buys and collects drawings and writings made by John and puts them on his wall, and even GOT MARRIED on John's birthday. There must be a reason why he was called "John's princess".

INSANE

#mclennon #I had to talk about this #off my chest #Paul is insane #They were equally obsessed with each other

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sunshinetinsolider · 27 days

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Off My Chest: My Tommy Fears.

Just so we're clear going forward. I am not against Buck and Tommy. In fact from what I've seen so far they have a fun potential. I'm not against Buck having his big bi awakening and running with it. I'm totally happy for him continuing his pattern of terrible relationships. With men now too. Lol. This is not a "purity" issue for me. Let Buck Fuck. But I can't help but have fears surrounding the excitement in the fandom specifically surrounding Tommy.

I worry that the show will see everyone's excitement over Buck and Tommy and take that as a green light for not doing Buddie at all. No endgame, nothing. I fear they'll see us accepting Tommy as them FINALLY finding an alternative to Eddie that the audience will accept. We all know they've been throwing girls at our boys for years like spaghetti in the hopes one will stick, and I fear that Tommy is just that. They've finally accepted no woman will be good enough for the fandom and they figured let's try a guy, and bam, everyone goes wild and its all Tommy this, Tuck that.... And I don't think they understand that the fandom is nuanced, that we can love Tommy, that we can enjoy whatever this Tuck business has in store for us, but ultimately we're Buddie till we die and we won't accept any other endgame, because they're not on the ground amongst the fandom.

Is this an irrational fear, yeah probably. Am I not giving the show enough credit, probably. But it's happened before (NO NOT SUPERNATURAL. Not every fans disillusionment is rooted in destiel.)

Now, that all being said, if people do "jump ship" because of Tommy, they should not get hate for it. But they have to understand that it will frustrate and anger those of us who are holding out hope for a Buddie happy ever after. Some people are lifers.

Now in a few weeks this could all be revealed to be unfounded, and a storm in a tea cup. Tommy and Buck may not happen, they might only have one date. Hell, Buddie could surprise me and go canon in Vegas, and all of this will be a meaningless rant. (Which honestly most of my rants are.) But I just wanted to put my thoughts out there, if only just to get them off my chest.

#off my chest #buddie #buck x eddie #buck x tommy

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