#one of those two will stay even after

[goldshykitsune]

Gosh it's so werid right now...

My school gave out awards for the graduating class, with of course only those who got awards and their family can go (or friends if they got it approved by their family.)

I got two of them and it just hit me...

I didn't do the most that I could have.

I know why. I know how I could have improved and what outside factors stopped me. But overall I look and I see what I did get and I just think to myself... like... wow.

I actually made it to getting two awards...

Like... two awards!

I mean I believe some only got one. Though quite a few got more then two. I knew most of the people. A few I couldn't quite recognize or remember if I knew but the majority I did.

And that also made me think. Like I knew so many amazing and successful people and I managed to be up there in rank with them!

It was really cool.

However with this said it also reminded me about the fact that soon I will not be a minor.

Soon I will be an adult.

Very soon, in fact it's only a matter of days.

... 5 or 4 days...

It kind of scares me. Like I will not be a minor. I'll be going to college. Likely will get a job too. I have to clean my room. Make sure I pass one single class or I perish because this one class will determine if I graduate. (I'llget it but like I'm gonna explode with stress.)

I got a bunch of tests this week into next. I got a few projects that aren't done and I got very little time.

However I know I can get through it. I just... mentally might not be very good right now.

#I started hallucinating #I do that sometimes #probably not good but I can't afford to go talk to anyone and I don't trust asking my family for help signing up for this one online thing #it says you must be older than 19 to sign up on your own and like... I definitely ain't there yet. #I also gotta say I've been feeling lonely lately. #I got a voice/fictional person I have who comforts me and forces out bad things and tries helping me tackle the mental issues I got going on #I honestly dunno what to call this one as it only shows when things get pretty bad. #I got multiple fictional people/voices that go around in my mind helping me. #or not helping #like how I have a few of them which I associate to intrusive thoughts (and yes I mean intrusive not compulsive but I got some for that too.) #I even got some for emotions for when I dunno how to feel. sometimes I dunno how to feel sorry for someone or empathic/sympathetic and so #I got a person made up to help in situations. I just pretend I'm them. #or when I'm distraught or panicked or really upset or other strong negative feelings I have two that help. #one of those two will stay even after #However that 1 is the one I mentioned earlier that generally comes at extreme times when I need them most #though I have “seen”/“heard” them without being that way before too. #but by a year of school I can get distraught at the end because of everything being due and it's pass or fail moments so I panic a lot #I also get distraught and upset #and lonely and really a lot of negative things which takes toll on my mental health meaning that's were the one person comes from. #anyways I got off topic. if people want though I might elaborate what these tags mean and are talking about. #so I guess I should go #but I mean I would congratulate my friends here but I dunno their tumblrs/they don't have one. #so instead I will congratulate everyone who got a reward at school ever in their life for whatever reason #even if it's something silly like having the messiest desk. #or something about community service cause that is a great thing and even if you ain't got a reward for it I congratulate you.

[kazoologist]

congratulations to Mme. Pascale Leclerc, who has surely just experienced both the funniest and most unhinged weekend a mother could ever have. Dear fucking christ, I hope your middlest son brought you a bottle of champagne for yourself, ma'am.

#kazoo noises #charles leclerc #cl16 #monaco gp 2024 #zoomies posting #sports posting #like man. where to begin. one of your racecar children is back in town for the weekend. he has yet to have a truly good work #weekend it seems in town. now this year. we're feeling ourselves a bit. we're feeling optimistic even. and then ur son becomes talk of town #because he keeps doing fucking bits on twitter about adopting his coworker who is friends with your youngest son. this goes on long enough #for actual reporters to comment on it. no one is willing to blink first so by friday night we've yes-anded ourselves to a grandson #(congratulations mme leclerc) #things go well. and then at qualifying they go DAMN WELL #BETTER THAN EVER REALLY! but man. im superstitious. i dont trust shit until its over and the dust has cleared #(the adoption jokes have continued by the way) and MEANWHILE everyone is eyeing that starting grid. were humming. we're making vague hand #gestures when commenting. we're all thinking. Maybe? (the streets can hear u tho. keep it down) #race starts. lap one CHAOS. so many fucking crashes. i'd faint if i had a child even in karting honestly. #(every parent in this sport deserves a prescription for laudanum) #but he's not in it. hes at the front. and he. well. he just Stays There. Through It All. and the laps tick down. until the race is run. and #there he is. your middlest son. cross the line and into the books. first place. home town. what curse indeed. thats your boy!!!!!!!! THERE! #they play the radio of him winning and the audio is peaked because he screams out so loudly. you can hear the water in the laughter. #later theres gonna be videos and photos taken of him pushing his boss into the harbor and diving right in after the man. those photos are #gonna be fucking studied in photography classes one day. and STILL! everyone involved with that goofy joke about him adopting his coworker #(who. despite all the silliness of the race stayed second place and got a podium) is still carrying the bit like a baton relay. Do you have #him over for family dinner? might as well add a plate i guess! people are joking about your youngest son having two nephews? a dog born #maybe a month ago and a man born about... what twenty three years and about a month ago? fuck it! family dinner #sorry this bit got away from me but as someone who loves my homecity and my mom so much it might actually be like. #a visible growth inside my body if they do an autopsy on me at time of death or like. my love will eat me alive. sometimes the charratives #gets to me #anyway cheers mme leclerc i hope you party so fucking hard this week

[gilgil-machine]

I wish some people never had access to internet at all...

TW assault, TW r*pe

#this is one of the main reasons why I don't get into the fandom that much and just stay in my own personal bubble #I already have a bad relationship with gilturia and I just can't see those two together without having a bad taste in my mouth #despite the fact there's a lot good art with those two #and I know that not all gilturia shippers are like that #and I understand that most of them ship those two because they just look aesthetically pleasing and look good together but still... #I can't just look calmly at those two especially knowing their background and how Gilgamesh actually treats her #and honestly because of such moments sometimes I feel disgust towards Gil (obviously) but I also feel disgust towards myself #for liking such terrible character #and honestly I fear that someday because of such moments I would stop liking him or even start to hate him #but I don't want that because despite his negative traits he still is well written and very deep character that has a lot of layers to him #plus he helped me to get thought a lot of hardships especially after these past two years throughout which I got attached to him even more #and his quote that he said to Hakuno ''No matter what adversity you face there's no other way for you but forward'' #cheered me up a lot of times #sorry for the rant #I just had this things building up in my chest and these tweets just made me kinda snap #my ramblings #personal

[nicolabarth]

They had to kill off Maul in Rebels, because with the way he always gravitates towards power if left unsupervised for long enough, he might’ve started a new Sith Empire otherwise.

#star wars #darth maul #he had two crime syndicates and half of mandalore following him in no time #In the comics Death Watch stayed loyal to him after Sidious captured him #he could've gotten himself one of those old sith worlds and start a power base there #then once the Empire was defeated #the new Republic would've just have to deal with the fact that there was a new Sith Empire in their neighbourhood already #who even needs the stupid knights of ren #this could've been the sequels

[i-mode]

when i.v drops i will make a vellory google doc and ill have my own pepe silvia moment. Everyone will see the truth eventually

#they actually start making me sick the moment i think abt them too long okay #and the thing is theres not even that many interactions to pick out from. considering the game only focuses on what alex tells you #and im sure as hell this guy would Not gaf about those two honest to god #but out of their interactions that are shown/implied ... ouh [ falls to the floor ] #like they seem to be on Good terms w each other in general #but ill never shut up abt the fact its implied vella stayed back in wind town to check up on rory after the sewer dungeon #or the cutscene at mark's house where the only piece of dialogue rory has during it is bringing up vella #and how vella comforts rory when confronted w his soul survivor and how rory comforts vella when (i.v specific thing) #(<- was in one of the twitter preview images thoug You can find them on ackk's twt trust) #basically #someone please shoot me in the head i Cant do this anymore #text tag

[grumpy-nyks]

The Fernweh Saga by @lacunafiction - Davor edition

I-I think Ms. Verner doesn't like him...😳

Davor "Dove" Kovač 🐝 RO: Becca Warrick

Personality: cautious // aloof // pessimistic // flirtatious (only towards Becca ...and Reese??) Traits: head // independent // resistance // believer Past affinity: math Primary ability: extrasensory awareness Past susceptibility: forward. 'it’s better to push forward. don’t look back on the past when you have new places to be and things to achieve.' <<< his motto

🕊️ Fernweh: Davor lived a happy life there and didn't think about leaving in the future. Maybe for some trips, but he knew it would always be his place, his safe place... 'It was a mistake to come back here.' - that was his first thought when he tried to fall asleep on the first night in Fernweh. The nightmares came back as he thought they would. He wants to leave as soon as possible because he feels that it is not safe for Becca to be here.

🕊️ Gramps Dan: That was his gramps who taught Davor how to play the guitar. As a young child, Davor always admired him and believed he was the most intelligent person in the world. After the death of his parents and how his grandfather treated him, he was devastated and angry. He wanted answers soo badly but didn't get any. He lived loathing his grandfather ever since. The news of his passing stirred up a lot of negative emotions that Davor had previously managed to suppress. At the beginning of the story he couldn't care less about his grandfather, but because of his journal he started to believe him. Things that his granfather lived through made Davor even more angry at this messy town …but he's willing to forgive his gramps…

🐝 Becca Warrick: It was a ...funny story that brought both of them together and they look after each other ever since. He considers Becca as his precious (not in a negative-possessive way) treasure, he literally can't let anything bad happen to her. That was also she who came up with the nickname 'Dove'... (and she's literally the only person who calls him that, others wouldn't dare...). He had feelings for her for quite some time but didn't act on it... until now. Although he didn't express it, he felt very nervous about Becca being in the town where he grew up. He was curious (but also scared) about what she could think of this town. He felt like he was revealing more of himself to her…. and he forgot about any worries pretty fast, because the town started being weird as fu--.

🕊️ Reese Verner: Back then Davor was quite cheerful and enjoyed competing with Reese regularly. They teased each other a lot. Davor always thought that Reese had a crush on him, was it true tho? donut know, but he certainly had. ...why does he appear in his nightmares? Maybe the crush stage never disappeared...? Seeing him again was a nice experience, sure... but ignoring the circumstances, he is still unsure if it was worth it and is struggling with his thoughts… Would it be worth it to return to Fernweh just to see him... again? welp, good thing he doesn't have to think about it much, am I right?

🕊️ Sofia Dorran: The two of them maybe did not have a strong relationship, but he knew Sofia is the ideal person for engaging in intelligent conversations. He enjoyed spending time with her, solving the puzzles that gramps created for them both. Davor wasn't a fan of fantasy books, but she managed to change his mind about them. Davor knows that Sofia did take good care of his grandfather, but he still doesn't quite know if he's grateful for that or wished she spent her time more... valuably... He was tempted to ask Sofia to borrow that book she found in his grandfather's bedroom, but he thought better of it. It's better to leave Fernweh… Even so, his curiosity wasn't properly fed.

🕊️ James Corvin: Maybe not brothers by blood, but definitely brothers by choice. Davor treated him as if he was the brother he always wanted to have. Back then Davor always placed a high value on his family… until now. At the time, Davor tended to be more impulsive and James was usually the one who kept him from getting into trouble (which often involved Reese). It was really hard, for both of them, to see each other after so long. Their first interaction was pretty awkward... I would even say that most of their interactions were . James noticed how Davor changed the question is: for the better or worse? I don't even know. Everyone can sense, that things around them are different now, and they aren't as close as before. Will it change?

🕊️ Alek Corvin: …To say that Alek wasn't a fan of Davor would be an understatement. Was it because James spent most of his time focusing only on Davor trying to get him out of trouble? Did Alek observe any possessiveness from Davor towards James? Or maybe simply because of the bond between those two, which was truly something that others would envy and desire? Davor never considered it, especially when he left Fernweh permanently. :)) As you can imagine, Alek doesn't seem very happy about Davor's return… But he took an interest in his new friend, Becca, which did not go unnoticed by Davor and he isn't really happy about it.

🕊️ The Waitress: Oh boy, it seems that Davor has taken up a new hobby, which is glaring harshly at the waitress. He finds her mistrustful and he smells trouble. Had they met when he was younger, there may have been a slim chance of them getting along.

🕊️ Waffles!: So um… Davor has a little issue with dogs and because of that his relationship with Waffles isn't as wonderful as I wish it would be... However, I believe that with time and help from Becca, they will eventually become friends.

#actually about his scar i have this whole headcanon... featuring some...umm.. doggos and Becca... 👀 especially how they met #(Davor was always team cats but after that incident even more xD) #also ouch that naming scene it hurt me so much! but i get it ;; aaaa! Davor why are you being so problematic Waffles is wonderful!!! #it was really interesting for me to messing with Davor in nightmares and showing him Reese!! the feelings the emotions aaaa #also yeeaah Davor thought several times if it would be a good idea to come back to Re-- *cough* Fernweh... and then Becca happened... #generally speaking Davor has a keen interest in Slavic mythologies and culture particularly those from western and southern regions of- #-Europe. I imagine that his father has roots in these regions and he took great pride in his heritage. Often taking about it to Davor #...and since Sofia's a smart girl she lent Davor a fantasy book written by Slavic author who took a great inspiration from Slavic myths👼😊 #yes it was enough to change Davor's mind about fantasy books XD he never really read one before he just assumed it's BORING! #and now I'm sure he will throw questions at Sofia about this book she found even more since he's staying at Fernweh... I can imagine how- #-they both are staying up late studying it and comparing their notes... it would remind Davor about the time they were kids- #-it seems that his Gramps gave them both the last puzzle to solve... will they succeed? #and ooohh that will be a hard time for James and Davor... that rejection at the end of book one wont help them im sure XD #about Davor's 'possesivenes' over James... Davor was needy that's true but he would never think about 'stealing' James from Alek or- #-'claiming' James belongs to him. I hope im not crossing a line here but in my headcanon Alek was TOTALLY jealous over their friendship #and Alek THOUGHT that Davor was receiving more attention from James 👀 #//which obv isn't true because James would never allow it. Alek is always a number one in James' heart// #in mine too I love A!!!! 💖 they're a BABY #but i must say that Davor didn't really think about Alek's feelings back then. he wasn't aware how Alek could feel- that's not an excuse #super curious about book two and how his relationships with every single one of them will develop!!! #fernweh saga #oc: davor kovac #no i totally did NOT change his surname..

[needylittlegirl]

theres a 99% chance we’re gonna move so i have to start packing little things now cause it makes the transition easier but i hate it i dont want to

#i know i sound like am immature little kid just pouting and stomping my foot #but i’ve had to move every two years since i was like 14 for so many different reasons #each place ive moved to just got increasingly worse so i think i have the right to pout like a 14 yr old girl #but its just dumb #if i start taking stuff down now itll make it easier to leave cause it wont feel like my space by then #its what ive always done #if i pack weeks ahead of time it just feels like im leaving a hotel or something #but right nows the hard part #im not even over my childhood home/s #i cant talk about those without crying and its been 20 years #i’d just like to stay in one place for awhile #we wont be going far cause me and my sister both have jobs right here but #its still different #im tired of seeing my stuff in boxes im tired of not feeling safe in my own space #it all just makes me so unstable cause i cant plant my roots anywhere #idk maybe its stupid #if everything goes according to plan #we’ll probably be moving a little after memorial day #and all i want to do is lock my door and refuse to let anyone do anything #im still just that little girl that was leaving her childhood bedroom and moving hours away #tbd #i didnt even get to skate today cause its raining #whatever im gonna get in bed and watch movies til i can go to sleep #if ive been bad at responding to msgs or not posting as much . this is why 👍 #any sort of change like this makes me isolate myself like crazyy

[freebooter4ever]

holy shit for the first time in ten years i forgot nicks birthday

#and ironically it was my friends video talking about march that clued me in #like fuck march passed and i didn't even notice it.... feels weird. very. weird. #jrnlsht #yikes he turned 40 this year #oh that makes me feel old lmao that makes me feel so old #i thought i had everything figured out when i was 25...of the two of us i was the one with the stable job that i loved #making art all day... and then staying up till 4am making art with nick #and like sadly literally not euphemistically #although those after hours set painting sessions did include some making out #he was such a mess back then #now we've swapped im the mess and he's the one with the stable job he loves #funny how life works out #i remember his 30th vividly his sister bought him this ridiculous bunch of balloons #which of course he hated #and he was forcing a smile cause he was trying to play nice and act like his life wasnt a total mess #and i just sat there giggling at him in his sisters kitchen with the balloons cause i could tell he was faking it #anyway it was fine i made it up to him with a much better present later that evening when we were alone :P #i dont think either of us ever imagined being this old #i certainly didnt #i remember the last time i touched his face a few years ago #it was the first time i realized that - oh- i could love wrinkles #bald with lines around his smile... it was still his face :) #but forgetting is a good thing #sometimes i need to let memories go and move on

[anxiously-sidequesting]

good morning i was thinking about how the game stops referring to your wizard by name eventually(?) and thinking about how that could be connected to everyone putting this Child on a pedestal of saving the entire universe when they're probably nowhere near 18 yet and. god there's so much i could yell about but i dont have enough ask space

Aaaah yes that's a good attention to detail that you've noticed and that's an EXCEPTIONAL perspective on why that is!!! As much as I PERSONALLY will go with the idea that the YW has aged and grown physically throughout the game's timeline for various reasons there's something so METAL and heartbreaking about the fact that everyone around the YW just doesn't see them as a child anymore due to their status and their job, despite them still being so very young. That agency about them was removed from them outside of their control so now you have a 12 year old with the mind of Batman because they never had a childhood.

When even the WORLD AROUND YOU is contributing to the idea that you are no longer a child, that's gonna stick. Even though you're a teenager nobody treats you like one, you don't get to act like one, any and all notions that you are a CHILD savior is erased so now you are just a SAVIOR. At that point people aren't even treating you as an ADULT either, they're treating you as an IDEA, a CONCEPT. You are someTHING to believe in, rather than someONE. This is a very sad thing to think about! 😄

#i love this ask personally #holly slowly grows throughout the series so they're no longer a child by late arc 2-ish but- #its sad to think that theres a kid. a literal kid. solving adult problems and saving the world #and if you think about it that implies that there is NO time between arcs for the young wizard TO GROW UP between #its old cob right after morganthe right after malistaire and not even three years have passed. wow #there was this post pointing out yhe different between pirate protagonist and wizard protagonist - one of them gets therapy /hj #as much as i would love for the yw and malorn and morganthe and everyone else to have support and a happy ending- #i hope it just kinda stays like this also. i like doomed narratives as much as i like healing arcs #except for duncan and morganthe. THOSE TWO are REQUIRED to have redemption/healing arcs idgaf if morganthe is gone already #wizard101 #w101 #wiz101 #asks #pierrotfakinami

[redbootsindoriath]

Whichever anon sent me this today, thank you. There's no way you could have known, but a couple of days ago I suddenly and without warning lost a cat that I raised from the day he was born. When I saw this in my inbox I was confused at first, because what...checkmark...huh...but then I realized that it meant somebody had sent me something--out of the blue, just because--at a time that I really could use something good in my life, even something silly and fun. So, really, thank you. And green is my favorite "real" color, so having one of the checkmarks be green is pretty neat.

I've not really been able to draw anything worth anything lately, believe it or not, so here's the last picture I have of my Night Furry. He loved drives and walks, so earlier this summer on a road trip I took him to the top of the continental divide for a little hike.

(Yes, he's wearing a harness. He had an adventurous and independent temperament, so there was always a risk of him running off to explore someplace where he shouldn't go alone. I didn't just make him wear it because I'm a cruel and stifling cat butler.)

#yo somebody talked to me #/end classification tags #his name is toothless by the way #after the dragon in how to train your dragon of course #ALSO by the way #i would NORMALLY give myself time to actually process this sort of thing and recover because i'm pretty sure i'm in psychological shock #but i'm moving halfway across the continent in like two days (less than a week after he got sick) so there was no way to just #cancel that or delay it or something #so i'm having to just get over it or whatever #👍 #the car ride is going to be lonely but at least i have one more cat to keep me as good of company as she can #even if we've never been as close as toothless and i were #a VERY IMPORTANT note to all of the pet owners who follow me: PLEASE check your yards for poisonous plants #regularly and repeatedly even if there wasn't anything dangerous there before #even if you're only staying in the area for a little while #even if you only let your pets out under close supervision #even if you trust your landlord/landlady (if you rent) #because i was all of those and this still happened #check every single plant out there and be 100% sure you KNOW what each one is #did you know that silverleaf nightshade looks nothing like other kinds of nightshade? #neither did i because i never lived in this area before #anyway sorry for the dump y'all #i don't generally like to share a lot of details about my personal life but i think i'm not quite myself right now #poor little guy hadn't even lived half his expected lifespan so i wasn't ready for this to happen for years #i've been kicking myself over it for days even though i know the blame doesn't TECHNICALLY lie with me and it's messing with my psyche #he was a very special cat #in korean the term is 개양이 and google says the english is puppycat #a cat that is friendly and acts like a dog #i will likely never get a cat anything like him again and that's an awful thing to realize #i would go broke and risk my future to have him back which is stupid i know but he was really something else

[suddencolds]

.

#not snz and not a vent... just passive musing #had a dream two nights ago where someone who i used to know (and love a little) wished me goodbye with a #kiss to the hand before i flew away from them forever on a magic chair #which is very stud//io g//hi//bli-esque and frankly very unserious but #the feeling of grief i felt saying goodbye to a friendship which i had once held so close to me - and which i know can probably never #be as close as it was at that point in my life - stuck with me for a long time even after i woke up #it's been something i've been thinking about for awhile... but the dream felt like such a concrete and painful severance #i think that like a childish part of me wants to hold the people i'm close to at #the same distance and trust that they will stay there forever #but logically i know it's natural that the people i met under certain circumstances might drift apart once those circumstances change #for one or both of us... i guess friendship really is just a lucky convergence at one point in time where everything aligns #like i know this and i have known this for awhile but god does it hurt #especially those kinds of goodbyes that feel so gradual... not like a clear severing of ties but just a gradual disappearance #i think i probably have to not feel so hung up over what i used to have. and for the most part i am not; life goes on #but for those people? #i sometimes just miss them #there's a special kind of hurt knowing that i could reach out to them and say hello and that they would probably respond but that it might #never be quite the same again

[bunnihearted]

📓🕯️🐇🖤pt.2

#only 30 tags lol i ran out... so furthermore #we only get one life. im gonna try as much as i can to enjoy the little moments. nd to not give up on myself nd my life #i will die one day anyway. why rush it. i'll enjoy as many books and as many walks and songs and tv shows as possible #if i get a loan nd have more money i wanna bleach my hair nd dye my hair green #and later this year i think i might change my name #it was the name i wanted to change to from the beginning. but i was in such a bad headspace i just picked eden at random #i do kinda like it now nd im attached to it but i more feel like this other name actually is me. my birth name nd my current name dont feel #really right. so maybe. i havent decided yet. like i rlly dont know. im also attached to this name for some other reason. like it's who i am #to a person i rlly like and if i change... will i be anything to them? i cant put it into words but that makes me hesitate #but it's unhealthy to stay attached to someone i cant truly have even if i want to. so i mean. idk im just weird abt it #but i do kinda wanna change my name (to embla. my mom wanted to give me that name but my dad was like nooo >.<) i am not 100% sure tho so #when i've been getting used to going to school nd working out at the gym. nd after my surgery nd i have more energy #i will try to face my avpd and try apps for making friends. there r two apps where u can find new girl friends!! maybe i can try that #also like i've never tried apps but i think maaaaaybe i can use bumble to try to find friends and women to date. potentially. idk..... #rn it's hard for me to think in those terms bc. i mean i am hung up on someone!!!! i cant evwn imagine dating or being intimate w anyone els #sometimes i feel like.. they're the only person i've ever felt like it'd even be possible. who i'd event want to do that w #not only physically but emotionally. so ig it's even harder to let go bc im so scared i will never feel like that w anyone else #but i rlly need to try to make the most of whatever life i have. the world will collapse soon anyway #that makes me even more sad that i cant be w who i wanna be w nd do what i wanna do but #all pain will all be completely descimated eventually. it's not forever bc life isnt forever #i've just never felt this before. like i want smth to be real so bad but if it happened once surely it can happen again? right? #i wont spend my life alone without intimacy and love and comfort nd support nd understanding right???? :o hope not #im still so sad nd exhausted rn. nothing in my life is working nd theres no repreive nd no help #it gets sooo hard to endure everything sometimes when everything just keeps piling up and gets so heavy it feels like im drowning #nd atm i dont feel like i have any anchor. nothing that keeps me grounded nd im just floating away nd im constantly being overwhelmed by my #feelings nd emotions. im like a stupid little kid who dont understand how to handle what im feeling. or make rational decisions #i feel so ... stupid and useless. i dont know what im doing. i have no idea. i have no compass. its so scary

[sheepcreature]

AGH.

#Thinking about Sara Lynn :(( #and also Abigail #i love you teen girls who deserves better u are loved #THEY MAKE ME FEEL SICK #makes me want to cry a little #I love them so much I wanted them to live. to be able to heal be the best version of themselves #but inevitably the adults in their life just fucking failed them #I fucking hate you Bojack Horseman (but i also see how the adults in his own life failed him) he continued the cycle and it lead to- #-Sara Lynn's death #just at the moment in her life when she was trying to stay clean and finish her studies #SHE WON HER FUCKING EMMY ANS SHE WASNT THERE TO RECEIVE IT AND SEE THE FRUITS OF HER WORK #She died. She died without knowing about it. She died next to the person who she still trusted after everything that happened to her #and Bojack failed her. #and god I know Abigail wasnt a saint #but i look at her and for a moment i wonder of this could have been avoided #i wonder if she could've been saved from the disaster that is Hannibal's and Will's relationship #i wonder if she could've been saved from Hannibal. #he was the one she trusted the most. she never saw Will in the same light. she feared him even if Hannibal tried to make thay fear go away #AND SHE ALSO DIED FOR THEIR SINS #she wasnt a saint but she was a lamb who got sacrificed for the horrifying love that grows in those two #and god #Hannibal killed her. sliced her neck the same way her own fathered had threatened to kill her in #sheepy rambles #txt

[villainsidestep]

(glaring @ myself in the mirror) not everything is v3, that’s not even their canon route

#gideon shut the hell up challenge #anyway. we were thinking abt fawn/north which after a long series of winding roads led to #hey isn’t it fucked up that on top of having jealousy issues one of fawn’s standout traits is their doglike loyalty #and how that compares to the other two beckers if u think of them as killing/replacing and how both of those #in fact imply the Opposite of being loyal and dedicated to each other #I know the siblings love each other but also ever since we wrote the line abt not knowing when cyrus stopped loving them ?? #our brain is evil now sorry I don’t know what else to say #also all of this is literally just from thinking abt ‘hey remember how fawn is canonically stayed to be easily manipulated not in the sense #of being foolish but bc they assign Utmost Devotion to following the orders of certain people even if they shouldn’t #…………. the fact that hg will literally Never get assigned that value lmaoooo #keeping up with the beckers

[m4ruk4ts]

yfm oc shenanigans (ft @kazpng's yfm oc lmao) (aka max and kk :3)

they are very silly, your honor

#i guess this counts as yfm oc lore??? lmao what even #but anyways #as you can see. they met at a yfm concert and instantly became besties #i dont remember how but kk managed to start working with yfm. Sorry benson i forgot help #so he got to actually meet the band first #and then he dragged max with him despite max being. Extremely reluctant to go bc. Coward. Wydm fans actually want to meet their idols. Lol #and they all became besties. Kind of. after that kk and the band start working and max just. Hangs out with them. Go girl give us nothing! #i bet he'd try to help them but he doesn't. Contribute as much. He tries tho #and that's all i think? the “lore” might change in the future but as of now it's gonna stay like this #no one actually cares but those two mean a lot to me :c i love the besties i miss them....... #yfm oc #my art

[wavernot4love]

oh buddy i am currently having a Moment because what do you Mean i see fall out boy again in ten days .... ten days ,,,, we are almost into single digits oh this has crept up on me SO soon

#also some folks talked to pete & patrick last night after the show it seems so ??? i may hang around after in hopes of that? #oh i am Plotting dude #i also still have so much stuff 2 make i haven't even started bracelets #also may do stickers again since they were a hit during tourdust and that was fun #i am so excited to meet up with new folks 2 trade etc i had so much fun with the community last year at my shows!! #also saw someone post about dancing in the back of the floor at their show like behind the seats and this had me Thinking... #perhaps my 2023 days of pitting to calm before the storm can continue after all #albany folks please come two step with me (unironically) #but dude i am so so stoked on this show #everything about it #i love albany and i'm staying overnight w my cousin i'm so excited 2 make a trip out of this #also stoked 2 see jimmy again since i was so far back for their set @ adjacent last year #also still not entirely giving up on msg and or pittsburgh #if i miraculously come across a close floor ticket for one of those for an incredibly reasonable price oh i am there babey #fobposting #fob posting #i cannot remember which of these is my fob tag #wavernot4love gets 2 the gig