#old thingie i found

[daiwild]

Wonder Girl V3:

But as mad as I was at Hercules for pulling that crap... I wasn't... I mean, I should've been... I could've been wrecked that it wasn't Conner, that he was still... gone. But... look at me, I'm not a big mess...

Meanwhile:

Tim beating up Dick in the back of a Waffle House just to get some Lazarus Pit Juice so he can revive his dead best friend

#old thingie i found #wonder girl takes place after the cloning fiasco iirc #and at this point tim was lowkey moving on #but i just found the dichotomy funny #cassie: guys im finally moving on yippee #tim: what if i d!ed in paris #timkon #tim drake #conner kent #cassie sandsmark #young justice #dccomics #archiving eeblydeebly #longpost #YES cassie joined a cult. i know. that was messed up #i dont want to compare grief here *proceeds to compare* #i could go on and on about tims lil freak brain but ill just say #cassies descent into grief made me feel sad. tims spiral into grief scared me a lil #daiwild

[valoale]

Lucius Malfoy line art kinda day 🎀

#found an old version of this and decided to redo it #I have commitment issues so I already decided to ignore my diary thingy and did other things #but I enjoyed doing this so #mission failed successfully? #my baby girl Lucius #I ended up liking this so I might try to colour it #BUT LOOK I PRODUCED ART #i feel accomplished #patting myself on the back #vee art #hp #harry potter #harry potter fan art #lucius malfoy #the malfoys

[thegroovyskull]

art for the contest @3amclothesmonster

#Art contest thingy #Bleh I suck at full bodies #Perisona #gem oc #i feel like a evil little villain rubbing my hands like i’m gonna control the world #I found this old tag so #🐾

[polaroidcats]

oh my fun saturday night plans? organising my embroidery threads!

#that box is like maybe 1/3 of all my embroidery thread i have 2 more boxes that look similarly chaotiv #chaotic #but ahhhh once i have all of them on the little thingies i cut out it will be so nice and neat i cant wait!!!! #i cut them out of old pasta boxes and other cardboard stuff i found in my recycling trash 😅😅 #but yeah in every one of my three embroidery thread boxes there are somewhat neat pieces of thread with the label still on etc #and then there is a giant ball of chaos #not looking forward to untangling those but ahhh it will be so good once it's done!!!! #anywayssss i am genuinely excited abt tackling this pls wish me luck that i dont get bored before i'm done lol #maybe my goal for today is just the first box so i dont get overwhelmed lol #ramblings #embroidery

[florbexter]

The Sign ลางสังหรณ์ || Tharn x Phaya

#TheSignลางสังหรณ์ #the sign #i was today years old when I learned about a new drama with billy #even tho they are already on day 40 or so of filming #some special forces police detective thingie with supernatural elements because tharn is a bit of a psychic and maybe even reincarnated lov #sign me up #also these pics are funny if you saw the teaser for the series #its an action sequence of a special force shooting gangster or some #no romance to be found in that teaser XD #also also the guy who plays tharn his nickname is babe and that's iconic and he's a short king... whe stan that #however billy is the best so i will be seated in november #also the third: the one in the ambulance is the header for twitter and has nice bisexual lighting #also the fourth: they have a big ass ugly logo (sorry not sorry) and you have to cut the pics to death to get it away XD

[groupwest]

i found a little egg on the ground today !!

think its a noisy miner egg ^_^

#think that nest thingie mightve been the old lining from the nest it fell out of- it wasnt too far away from where i found it #maybe the cuckoo chucked it out.. been hearing it a lot lately #i candled it and it looks alright still… but i doubt getting thrown onto the ground by a cuckoo gives it very good chances

[kai23-doodles]

starflowers

#my art #starflower tag #if you look closely the funny-looking starflower is shaped like a compass lmao #I was today years old when I found out the compass symbol thingy is called a “wind rose” and I'm yelling

[threshie]

Maybe it's the neurospicy side talking, but Tumblr's app notifications calling anybody my "crush" irk me.

#ignore my grumbling #I think I found the right notification thingy to turn off #so this should stop lol #but it's annoying #I have never had a crush in my life #It's not cute it's inaccurate #when it says five different people are my crushes #it gets old quick #Maybe it's the ace side talking =/

[b4sorex1a]

https://www.tumblr.com/b4sorex1a/745538488506712064/i-saw-youre-post-about-gadri-and-if-you-really?source=share in fact i would love to read top pedri in gadri, there is almost nothing about them 😭😭

Here honest to god I think I’m the only blog doing mlm men’s football rpf smut lmfaooo haven’t found ANY Gadri smut here 😭

But if you’re interested, you’re going to find a lot of Top Pedri in ao3 <3!

#i think I didn’t found any because I don’t know how the tumblr search thingie works #still figuring this out guys #also my acc is now 10 days old! #football rpf

[chaoslaura]

#questionnaires: are you forgetful?#no not when I write it down in my calendar and check that three times a day and write it on my to do list and tell 3 people so it sticks#'no without help'

THANK YOU! I hate those (self) tests/questionnaires because it's always like "do you do x/how often does x happen etc." and the answer is always it depends! What counts as that! Does it still count if I've developed workarounds over the years that no one helped me with it!

"How often do you fail to give close attention to details, or make careless mistakes in things such as schoolwork, at work, or during other activities?" - Idk the first time/when I start, I go over board and find a million sources and think every detail is important, and later, when I've finally wrestled my brain into actually writing an essay and it's time to proofread, I'm so bored by it already I just skim it and miss stuff I "made a mental note" to check again.

"How often do you forget to do something you do all the time, such as missing an appointment or paying a bill?" - I have all the due dates for different bills and making my budget in both my calendars and a reminder on my phone so I can forget it several times and still be reminded again, which box do I check?

"How often do you have difficulty waiting your turn, such as while waiting in line?" - what does that MEAN. I don't love standing in line and get annoyed by it easily, even more so if I'm in a hurry or tired, but I just quietly stay polite and stand in line like everyone else? I'm not gonna throw a fit over it. Is that a difficulty waiting or just normal waiting in line behavior?

"how often do you fidget, tap, squirm in your seat or otherwise move in ways that are not expected of you?" what counts as that?? because I wanted to check the "almost never" box and the woman I talked to gave me a Look and said "really? you haven't stopped lightly twirling in the spinny chair and playing with the pen in your hand since we started talking" - I didn't know that counted?? DOES it count?? how much to I have to twirl or play for it to count instead of being "yeah everyone in an office does that x times an hour"?

How often do you blurt out an answer before a question has been completed, how often do find yourself talking excessively, how often do you interrupt others - IT D E P E N D S. Often with friends, never with not-friends? WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME

"how do you deal with x" - I DON'T KNOW, I've found workarounds over the years even if they fail more and more, I guess I'm dealing with it?? because literally WHAT is the alternative?? not dealing with it? "oh so you don't struggle with it too much then?" - I am stopping myself from crying on the floor in your office, please help me.

yeah yeah women tend to underreport on their symptoms and hell yes can we PLEASE start taking that into account (I'm not bitter I "failed" my standardised ADHD test while the woman I talked to said from our conversation she definitely thinks I have it but the tests say it's not clear/I'm just below the cut-off) but can the people making those tests maybe also be more specific? Or maybe we abolish the standarised tests and switch them out for going over those questions with a therapist and they can assess from the answers if it's ADHD or something else?

I know that's not possible - costs and bla bla yada yada we know - and the medical staff ARE (mostly) really trying to help and doing their best with the tools they're given/allowed, but it's just so FRUSTRATING. Like hey, look! I want to tell you I developed ways to deal with my bad memory and procrastination over the school years and that it somehow worked at the start of uni but by now those coping mechanisms are more and more badly failing me; I want to tell you I did well in middle school and well-ish in high school not because I'm smart or organised but because it was objectively still a managable-ish workload (and little other responsibilities) that you could cram for the night before an exam when you never had more than one exam per week; I want to tell you I lied, and still do, about so many things to hide my shortcomings from others ("what did you do today?"-"oh not much, studied a bit and cooked and met a friend :)" - me who spent the day in bed or staring at the wall/scrolling through tumblr for four hours) but it's getting harder and harder to hide and it's actually making my life fall apart, and all these other things that make me want to scream and beg for help and switch out my brain for a healthy one.

but there's no box for that.

it's like screaming "I need help" and the other gives you a high five and a sticker with the writing "you can do it" - you should really use that in a fic someday, it's a great line; you have no idea how often I think about it when I get frustrated about my brain and the mental health system around here.

..... anyway I'm done rambling in your inbox now. sorry for the wall of text; I started typing with just a short little "mental health system do better" rant and then it turned into this. unsurprisingly.

I'm gonna text you back tonight or tomorrow oh my god I'm so sorry, I have currently 13 unanswered chats I hate it here

Jess‘ rant in my askbox unlocked:✅

I can never say how often x happens because most of the time you do it unconsciously, especially when you’ve been doing it for such a long time?

That’s the difficulty in detecting ADHD in adults cause you’ve developed so many coping mechanisms to find workarounds in your life to get things done and not let anybody see how much you’re struggling, that some of these questions don’t apply to you anymore or just not in their basic understanding.

I always have ten additional questions as well to every question. One I regularly have to fill out is: “Are you so restless that you can’t sit still/fidget around?” And I know it’s related to nervousness and anxiety, but girl that’s my basic state, and my honest answer is not giving you the right information you want from me.

But what I’ve gathered is they want to know how you’re dealing with what is asked without your coping mechanisms. So “How often do you forget to do something you do all the time, such as missing an appointment or paying a bill?” would be a lot/almost always for you because you need additional help with it (and even that doesn’t seem to work). Same for me if I’m just being told something, it’s out the window, never reached my short-term memory, I will forget everything if it’s not written down and I can look at it every day, and people make fun of me for being forgetful and being worse than my grandma but it’s actually a real problem for me and makes me feel bad, thanks.

And the test shouldn’t be everything, the talk with someone who knows the signs should always be done in addition. And for me, I still find that most tests are for ADHD and not ADD, which of course I will fail because I’m nothing like hyperactive and impulsive. But my daydreaming has been a problem ever since I was a child. And also give me a twenty lines long explanation for every question otherwise I will be bothering someone with it.

“I want to tell you I lied, and still do, about so many things to hide my shortcomings from others” I feel you so much, I still want to rather hide some things from my therapist even though she needs to know when I’m doing badly, but isn’t it embarrassing when you have to admit that you can’t do life? “Oh yeah sorry wanted to lay in bed all day, no I’m not lazy I swear haha, it’s just my brain, yeah I don’t really believe it either.”

But I also learned that 70% of kids with ADHD develop another mood disorder such as depression, isn’t that nice🙃 You get two fun illnesses for the price of one.

But even if the test didn’t result in a diagnosis for you, it’s evident that something’s not working for you in life and a therapist would see that and would still be able to work with that.

People can always ramble in my inbox, it’s healthy to use an outlet, and it’s totally relatable.

#answered #now that I found a psychatrist I can also get a referal to a adhd thingy I found #also my therapist asking me about the fidgeting when I'm nervous for example when being in social situations #and me going no I've been actually doing that every second ever since I was idk how old #I so hope the adhdh assesment thing I can go to isn't a completely failure #but even if I don't have it maybe they have some tips for me #but it would also be useless to treat the depression without going on to the root of the problem (if there is) #itsfandomsgalore

[disastersteps]

now that im awake and all, here's me and my rambling over the art i did last night, and the old art i did in 2020, which is essentially the same. the proudest moment for me, for this particular art, is that this is the exact idea that i tried to achieve on the left, now is executed properly on the right!

let's start with the poses and expressions.

ortega was meant to look at her hand, like she is "seeing" the strings but i... couldn't draw that hand the way i did on right, so i had her looking out. where in the new art, she is looking at it directly this time around! for her smile, it could be a soft smile, a sad smile, or a somber smile... or all of it! its meant to be like

'i think we could be together, if you will.'

which... anita believed they can't.

anita, both arts, are crossing their arms to obviously shield up and all. the difference is that the strings on them. the idea on the left was meant to like they're 'wrapped' with all of the strings. but idk why i didn't draw it nicely smdgmsdmgsmd so on the right, instead of wrap around their arm, the strings is held by their hand. in way of...

'i want to torn it out, i want to pull it apart but i can't. i don't want it, but i still want it.'

both times, they're looking away but idk why i had anita on the left have their eyes look away- so i'm glad on the right, they're looking away fully. like they don't want to really face it, why should they be? they don't even to be here but there they are!

now for the string of fate... the old art was meant to be anita having it wrap around their arm and only ortega doesn't have to, but now i want both be wrapped around by their wrists. you can't let it go, it stuck with you- so was anita's, anita had more than ortega's to show that they desperately want it so bad the strings are wrapped more than once. ortega's only wrapped by the wrist because she is confident in herself to love anita, old and new. so it's gay beautiful <:'3c while anita's both wrist and hand because like i said above, they are desperate for wanting it, but are against it at the same time!

and that's uhhh lori 'i just woke up' lastname's rambling of the day!!

#dorkous ramblings 2023 #LONG POST #IM SORRY MSDGMSDMGMSDG #not putting in the main tags bc its just me very happy with the art and the way i drew it MDGMSDGMSMG #i found that old art from hellsites little image feature where if you view ur own post #you see old and new posts on the left side corner thingy????? yeah

[29121996]

money is so hard btw i hate it

#knowing ill have to decide between fixing my cello and paramore tickets as my Hyperfixiation Cost #its not rlly rhat but uts money i allocate to myself as like a Treat ? bc im stupud and to save money i gotta soend money on sgit i want #so . theyll cost abt the same. and ik itd a no brsiner paramors tickets #bc i can just get my cello fixed next pay cycle. #but i have been itching to play for SO LONG :( #and i thinl the longer i leave the damage to worse it gets #bc the bridge is tsped to the bridge w blu tac. #so um thars probably Not Good fornit lbr #anyway i miss my cello #found some sheet musicnim gonna print out anf practice #its mostly . old day6 n bts songs i lesnred in 2018 #but . i also am gonna buy a piano book of taylor swift n . im gonna soend hours transcribing it Manually on my computer #this is gonna suck ass bc im not That Musically Inclined and i HATE creating musicnon thisnfuclijg software ngl #but i have No Choice so. #i have Plans #and bc i fucking Love checklists and to do listd i rlly dhould write this typenof shitbout in my journal thingy so i can . keep track of it #vc i did ir w my cleaning process !! #i checked off a few boxes and then added some more as i Unlocked new areas #or new tasks ig #idk sometimes i think od this shitbas a video game and it makes itbeasier toctackle

[cocogoat]

actually i think i made the couch worse but that's fine i got what i wanted FNBDHD

#◯ ༚ 。🍓 valentine.times #also found the . microwavable heating pack thingy . it was In the couch . #been looking for that forever i needed it #our couch is old nd it used to belong to someone we know so it's . been around a long time . #i think we should have just gotten a new couch when we were able to but . what do i know 💕

[youremyfriend-youremymission]

I just need to vent.

#I’m in a weird mood again #feel like maybe I should delete tumblr and just disappear from the fandom and enjoy it passively again like I used to #there’s all this pressure of having to interact because otherwise you’re not supporting the fandom #but in return you get nothing? #I’m also not in the right headspace to read new stuff #especially WIPs because there’s so many WIPs already that I’m invested in and I don’t think I can handle more #guess I’ll just go and re-read old favs and reblog those #also I’m still upset that I lost the one Christmas fic that had a good start and then the app crashed and I haven’t found that fic since #and I’m really not in the mood to write a Christmas fic myself #but I want to read one where the reader isn’t obviously white coded with happy family traditions #I’m not Christian but enjoy Christmas for the vibes #not all that other stuff #and that fic had it! and I can’t find it #also my tumblr recap thingy was pathetic #all my own posts have fewer than 5 notes #which I knew #but it’s sad seeing it thrown into your face

[witchpieceoftoast]

ok. so. these meds. that are supposed to be helping my ocd but instead seem to be helping my adhd and social anxiety....  re: the social anxiety thing, things seem to be going well until i don’t quickly get the response i was expecting, at which point, i start catastrophising that i fucked everything up and everyone hates me even tho that’s probably not true, pls breathe cass

#sent a long message to one of my old discord groups last night cuz i found out that they did something really lovely for me last year #and no one has said anything back yet so obv i want to cry about it and delete everything #don't think i'm really looking for advice here. more just wanting to have stuff written down #gonna be talking to my psych in a little over a week and i need to remember things #also having major trouble staying asleep which is ://////// #toasty health thingies #medication cw

[nonaonann]

You see this woman?! (She's an oc I haven't seriously drawn.) Orchid Luce Avila! She's awful. (I say that lovingly. She's consumed my thoughts).

I want to put her through a meat grinder. (I want to give her warm tea and a kiss on the forehead. Would she be canonically taller than me?

Yeah.

But I don't care! She deserves forehead kisses and I would climb Mount Everest to do so.)

This woman is insane and should not be allowed to wander the streets. (She's considered the strongest magic user in universe and accidentally starts this one fashion trend i wont elaborate on yet). She needs to be contained. (The ruling people of her kingdom need to leave her alone. They're not trying to arrest her, just trying to convince her to work for them instead of her alliance because they are obsessed. All she's trying to do is take care of her plants and be a good older sister figure/mentor to the five "kids" following her around (doing an apprenticeship at her alliance aka guild).)

I despise her. (She's the greatest person ever and I love her so much.)

#i love her #oc #my ocs #i dont even have a title for the wip she's apart of #Old Oak Alliance #thats the name of her guild thingy (she's a founding member) #thats what ive been calling the wip... #OOA wip #thats lame #writing #now's a good time to say im aroace and I love Ms. Orchid like a parent loves their firstborn because she is my firstborn (my first ever oc) #(she's seen things. shes been through things.)