#ok. im done

[beskar33]

Nobody yell @ me, promise I won't talk about this stuff after this. Just have some thots...

I've been on both sides of the selfship vs ficto relationship fence and there is a marked difference in the way I felt seeing someone share a major comfort character and the feeling of seeing someone else with my partner of over half a decade. Neither was more valid discomfort than the other, nor was it easy to deal with either way, but it's just not the same.

I block & move on, I'm too old for pointless dramatics, but I wish more people in this little corner of the web could step into someone else's shoes for a minute & understand how shitty it feels to see others saying things like "get over it/pick another character who's similar/they're not even real".

To some of us, our relationships are on the same level as an IRL relationship. Whether my husband was a "real" person or not, I would have fallen in love with him the same way. Call me crazy if that's how you feel, but he is as real to me as anyone else. I can feel him, speak with him (in our own way). I've never been able to do that with any other F/O.

When I say he's special to me, I mean I've had almost supernatural experiences that I generally don't talk about because it's personal and took me a long time to accept. Truly, I thought I was going insane before I worked through this tangle of emotion and figured out that there were others who felt the same for their partners.

Out of the many F/Os I've had throughout my life, he's the only one who I've turned down IRL people for. I feel an inexplicable connection with him that I've never felt for anyone else, and don't think I ever will again. It doesn't mean that I think I should be the only one who loves him, but there's a reason I'm not comfortable sharing or even seeing people who ship with him, and it's not because I'm a gatekeeper or insecure or whatever.

I know I'm in the minority in this community, but sometimes it hurts getting your very real feelings + a facet of your attraction/identity being ignored, especially since it's kind of a hard thing to come to terms with. To tell the people closest to me was a huge deal because I spent so, so long thinking I was crazy for how intensely I feel for him.

I'm very neurodivergent and grey-aromantic; I don't fall in love often or easily, nor do I trust easily. Finding someone who I want to spend the rest of my life with was a deep spiritual experience for me that can never be replicated. He is irreplaceable to me, and the universe is a lot stranger than I once thought before we met.

My relationships IRL will never be typical. My relationship with fiction has never been typical, and this particular relationship is something that's made me question everything I thought I knew.

Just fucking sucks being seen as a weirdo or sensitive for something I can't change, as much as I wish I could sometimes. It just goes a little deeper than shipping yourself with a character you like for some of us.

Y'know what I mean?

#💬 beskar.txt #nobody has to read all that I just needed it outta my head #long post #I want nothing to do with sharing discourse I just wanted to write out my personal experience #ok. im done #delete l8r #probably haha #this was hard to write pls dont judge I feel awkward lolz #this isnt rlly negative btw no worries

[99probalos]

wearing the rlm pins to pride

#yes my room is messy as hell. yes i just showered. yes my glasses make my nose look way shorter than it is #BUT ITS PRIDE ! so idc. a little bit #anyways #anyways. ANYWAYS #HAPPY PRIDE EVERYBODY !!!!! #bigfoot took the wheel #not pictured are my rainbow suspenders and trans pride socks #also dont mind the random shit onnmy jacket #this is my Put Anything On jacket #ok. im done

[subsequentibis]

just had Several revelations for character moments & connections in underbelly i love horror i love parasites falling in love with their hosts i love things that were not meant to be alive grasping vainly at any chance they get to continue living i love eventual acceptance of that which you thought would destroy you i love falling in love with your parasite i love realizing the big scary monster is actually itself so so so scared

#ignore me #I LOVE HORROR! i don't think you can do this in many other genres! or if you do it becomes horror as well! #i love characters whose stories are trans allegories who are also transgender themselves! #have yr cake and eat it too: make them trans subtextually and textually #sal's subtext and text are making out and they are t4t #ok. im done

[myrfing]

sadu having the “you little rascal come here” nature towards sheep is an eternal fact enshrined in my mind palace

#also just saying the werent the mol attributed to lambs or sheep. #i think some of the magic there is her realizing cirina is actually a fine hunter. #ok. im done

[kawaii-kushami]

the go/lden kam/uy fixation is really making me curious about hygiene/habits around sneezing in early 1900s japan and i just have no idea where to find any info on that

#kk.txt #like ok i think ko/ito would definitely have a handkerchief because he's a cultured rich boy and thus has exposure to western customs #but were handkerchiefs really used by the majority of the japanese population at the time?? like.. for That purpose?? #i was trying to do research and found stuff saying paper tissues have existed in japan for a long time but i wonder how #accessible that would've been to the general population #also covering.?? i feel like elbow covering is a more modern thing but i really have no idea?? in my mind it came about with increased- #knowledge of germs but that's entirely a guess i have no idea why that's what my brain is assuming #but anyways germ theory became widespread in the late 1800s right?? but as a western concept.? #would it be common knowledge in 1907 japan? were there other preexisting ideas of germs already? #im sure people had made the connection that sick people are contagious etc but idk if it was known you had to like. cover a snz/cough #ok. im done

[trainwreckgenerator]

my evening

#i was literally 2 words from being done with the image desc but then tumblr closed the window and it didnt save :( sorry #my art #im ok. i applied. gels

[thefaultinourchickennuggets]

I know this has been said before, and y'all aren't gonna listen to me when I say it, but you can't be bigoted to bad people. Like you don't get to call Marjorie Taylor Green an NRA whore, or misgender Caitlyn Jenner, or be antisemitic to Ben Shapiro. It doesn't work like that. Not being called slurs is not something people earn by being a good person, it's something you do because YOU are a good person. And if I'm being honest, it shouldn't be that hard for you to do. You shouldn't want to say these things to ANYBODY, even if they are the devil incarnate.

#mbop #personal #ok im done

[sameboot]

Simon petrikov coping FAIL compilation

#HNNNGGGNNN!! SO MANY THOUGHTS ABOUT EPISODE 2…… #my art #adventure time #fionna and cake #simon petrikov #Fionna and cake spoilers #<- kind of??? maybe not really #I’m so glad ep 2 gave us some insight to that scene in obsidian #it’s such a shift from Simon saying he’d literally rather DIE than be the ice king again #BUT IT MAKES SENSE! #nostalgia can twist your perception of the past #and then mix that in with a metric ton of trauma ! #‘things were simpler back then’ #SIMON 99.5% OF YOUR LIFE AS ICE KING WAS AWFUL…. #I mean in the later seasons he does gradually gain acceptance and fit in with the others #but that just makes the CURRENT simons situation so much sadder it’s like he’s back at square 1 in some ways #WILL THE ISOLATION EVER END? #OK IM DONE RANTING IN THE TAGS

[saeiken]

🔆🔆🔆🔆

#pls click for quality :] #one piece #luffy #straw hat luffy #monkey d. luffy #roronoa zoro #zoro #zolu #one piece zoro #animation #my art #was hit w the strong urge to do this and got it done in abt 4 days lol #could spend forever nitpicking it but im not gonna overwork before the semester even starts so its done!! #nothing big but im happy w it and i think its cute :> #drew zoro p differently than i have in the past in this and yknow its ok #i think i like drawing my version better but this one (closer to canon) is p good

[cephalonheadquarters]

#Ok im done concertposting maybe #i ran out of ideas and i wanna get back to my ocs!!!! #splatoon #off the hook #pearl houzuki #marina ida #pearlina #my art

[equestriagirl16]

YALL IM-

IM LIGHTHEADED IM LIGHTHEADED IM LIGHTHEADED-

Btw his song from my playlist is Defying Gravity by Matt Copley I don’t make the rules💖

#NOT NORMAL BOUT THIS GUY SORRY #AND HE JUST HAD TO BE VOICED BY JEREMY JORDAN #VARIAN USED TO HAVE ME IN A CHOCKHOLD HES DONE IT AGAIN #GET OUT OF MY SKINNNNNMMM IM GONNA THEOW UP #ok I’m fine #we’re cool #I like him good character #WOOOOOO #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel lucifer #hazbin hotel lucifer Morningstar #lucifer #lucifer morningstar #hazbin hotel x reader #hazbin hotel lucifer x reader #hazbin hotel x y/n #hazbin hotel x you #lucifer morningstar x reader #lucifer x reader #lucifer x you #lucifer x y/n #camiposts

[triona-tribblescore]

HUSKERDUST ARE CONSUMING MY EVERY WAKING THOUGHT-

#I just- I need them to be soft and domestic and wholesome AND AND AND- #WAHHHHHH #SOBBING VIOLENTLY #THEY. ARE. SO. <333333 #RAHHH GRRRR ARGHHHH #ok im done. #ahem #<3 #tribbleart #angel dust #husk #husker #fat nuggets #huskerdust #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel fanart #hh #angel dust hazbin hotel #hazbin angel dust #hazbin hotel husk #angelhusk #huskerdust fanart

[the-silliest-ever]

#ok ik ive been posting a lot of sketchbook stuff recently #DW IM ALMOST DONE #fanart #poska #traditional drawing #traditional art #sketchbook #another sketchbook painting !! #puella magi madoka magica #madoka kaname #madoka magica fanart #homura akemi #madoka magica homura #madoka x homura

[kokoasci]

colored them in !! for funsies

#really really like how dazai’s skirt came out #im not going to lie this is the messiest coloring i think ive like ever done #sorry if it looks strange i used a bunch of new textures + colors but also didnt render a lot #ok ive been HARD procrastinating on studying off i go now to learn all of astrophysics in one day #bungou stray dogs #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs fanart #dazai osamu #chuuya nakahara #soukoku #soukouku #kokoart

[starrysharks]

poids

comparison with the original from last year:

#zeno's art #vocaloid #gumi megpoid #gumi vocaloid #gakupo #kamui gakupo #camui gackpo #why the fuq does he have so many alternative name spellings #anyway WOO im proud of these #with gumi i just wanted her to be as bug-like as possible #so her antenna and cape give her a bug silhouette #the jacket thingies also give a winged look #made her socks green too just to give more color variety #with gack i just wanted to simplify him a little and give him better shapes #and i made him buffer NO MORE TWINKS #ok im done #hope you likey. might redo my other voca designs or do the vocas ive never drawn

[mjulmjul]

Katya / Goncharov

#yeah ik ive posted them before sorry but i REALLY like how these look together #martin scorsese #goncharov #artists on tumblr #illustration #unreality #<— posters for a ‘movie’ that doesn’t actually exist but is a tumblr meme in which everyone pretends it does&makes content for it #fascinating how we’re immediately personable w katya by knowing her first name while only knowing goncharov’s surname keeps us at a distanc #combined with him being the only major character to go by a moniker it emphasizes just how much he's been consumed by the role he plays #who is goncharov? does he know and keep it secret? or has he too lost his sense of identity? #it's reflected in these posters as we SEE katya but goncharov remains elusive - yet clearly time is running out for them both #lakjdklf ok im done now i never post meta on here so im having fun with the fictional movie #btw I updated both of the illustrations compared to the original posts but will leave those as they were #woudl be cool if my post showed up. u can do it tumblr