#oh shit i don't have a writing tag

[greenieflor]

Demisexual!Steve is everything to me so have some of whatever this is

Steve didn’t really get the appeal of sex. He never had. It was fine in middle school, he would laugh at the stupid jokes Tommy H made and parrot back some version of his own, not quite understanding what he was saying. That didn’t matter, though; it made people laugh and clap him on the back. Then they got to high school. Tommy and Carol had been together “long enough to ask her, dontcha think?” Steve didn’t quite know what Tommy was going to ask her, but figured it didn’t hurt to agree. Now, Steve wasn’t stupid, he knew what sex was. At least, in the abstract. When he had asked his parents at age nine where babies come from, all he got was an “ask your mother” and a “oh you’ll find out when you’re older.” His health class sputtered through a quick, and frankly kinda gross, biological explanation and that was it. So yes, Steve knew what sex was, he just didn’t get the appeal. He figured one day, when he was married he would have sex- he did want six kids after all. But outside of some future marriage, Steve really couldn’t be bothered to care about sex. 

As high school progressed, Steve went on more and more dates. He enjoyed flirting and was pretty damn good at it. He learned to be good at other things, too. How to unhook a bra in one move, where to kiss a girl’s neck to make her go wild, even learned how to like having sex. But despite the growing number of notches in his bedpost (and his growing reputation as a bit of a slut) Steve Harrington still didn’t get it. Until he met Nancy Wheeler. With Nancy, it was different. It took them a little longer to fall into bed together, Steve was surprised at how much he wanted it with her. He had never actively wanted to sleep with someone like this, and it had never taken so long for it to happen. When they did sleep together, Steve finally understood. He got what people meant when they talked about sex. Up until this point he had enjoyed it, sure, it felt good and was kinda fun, but he hadn’t felt the desire, the emotional release that came with sex. After the dust had settled from Nancy breaking up with him, Steve figured he had cracked the code. He started taking more time with the girls he went out with, waiting until the third or fourth date to take them to bed. It just wasn’t the same though. He felt like he was back at square one, just going through the motions, except now he knew how good it could be. He knew how great it could feel and he just didn’t understand why he couldn’t get that back. He graduated, got the job at Scoops Ahoy, and soon after meeting Robin thought that maybe, just maybe, he had found it again. That feeling of wanting. But it wasn’t quite the same. There wasn’t that same heat when he looked at Robin. After their conversation on the bathroom floor he knew why. He loved her, maybe more than he’d ever loved anyone, but it wasn’t the same as when he loved Nancy. As we have already established, Steve wasn’t stupid. He just didn’t care too much about school. But after Robin came out, he ended up reflecting heavily on who he was in high school. The things he laughed at, the slurs he had thrown just to fit in. So, on a day off, he drove down to Indy to go to their library, already knowing that the Hawkins library would have jackshit on queerness. He was nervous about asking for help, he never really paid attention when Nancy would tell him how the cataloguing system worked at the library, but he recognized the pink triangle pin one of the librarians had from something Robin had shown him a few weeks before. He finds what he’s looking for deep in the stacks and takes a few books to a small table tucked away in the corner and starts reading. And reading. Steve devours the books he pulled, barely noticing the growing headache or setting sun until that same librarian comes over to tell him they are closing in twenty minutes and “did you find what you were searching for?” “Yeah. Yeah I think I did.” Steve waits. He thinks. Looks back on his past relationships and wonders. He talks to Robin, but neither of them have the right words. Summer was over, his kids were in school and suddenly all they could talk about was this Eddie guy they played D&D with. Steve, despite his growing jealousy, has to admit he respects the guy a bit. Anyone who looks out for his kids is good in his book. And then spring break happens. A month later, Eddie is finally released from the hospital and Steve insists on taking him back to his house- his parents left a long time ago and made it very clear they had no plans to return. Steve checks Eddie’s stitches every day and the two start to grow closer. Love never sneaks up on Steve, it hits him all at once. Eddie had been living with him for a week when he was finally up to DMing a short game and seeing all the kids again. The house was filled with noise and laughter for the first time in years and Steve thought he couldn’t be happier. The night came to a close and the kids started heading home and suddenly it was just Eddie and Steve, sitting side by side on the couch with the debris of the night spread around them. Eddie collapsed into Steve’s side, letting out a sigh and a “god I love those kids but they are so damn loud.” And that’s when it hits him. He loves Eddie. Has for a while now, probably. And that is what was missing from all those attempted dates in high school. That’s what he had with Nancy that made it so different. What made it hurt that much more to lose. But he still didn’t have the right words. So he smiled, brushed a lock of Eddie’s hair behind his ear, and pulled him into his side. They could find the words together.

Update: wrote some ace!eddie!

#lav rambles #oh shit i don't have a writing tag #steddie #steddie ficlet #listen i didn't know where this was gonna end up #but here we are #demisexual steve #demi steve #asexuality used to just be considered the same as bisexuality #basically #so i figure demisexuality would be kinda similar #but not quite #uhhhh #eddie munson #steve harrington #platonic stobin #just a touch

[coquelicoq]

what i like especially about the pronouns in the goblin emperor is that this language doesn't just have the T-V distinction (aka informal vs. formal second-person pronouns, in this case 'thou' vs. 'you'), it also has informal and formal first-person pronouns. having BOTH of these distinctions in the same language lets you fine-tune your tone by mixing and matching. with only one axis of formality, when you use informal pronouns, are you being familiar in an intimate way, or in an insolent or dismissive way? when you use formal pronouns, are you being polite or standoffish? you can't tell just from the pronouns; there's ambiguity. but a language where you can use a formal first-person pronoun in the same sentence as an informal second-person pronoun allows you to distance yourself (via the formal first) while also being familiar (via the informal second), thereby achieving the conversational tenor known to linguists as Fuck Thee Specifically.

#just kidding i don't know what linguists call that tenor. or any tenors. i'm not totally positive what a tenor even is #but i can't let that stop me from writing a jokey post on tumblr dot com #register is a very interesting area of linguistics that i know very little about #so i'm probably revealing the depths of my vast ignorance here to all the sociolinguists who surely hang on my every word #but i've always thought of the formal/informal pronoun thing as being about two things: intimacy-distance & rudeness-politeness #and of course you can usually tell from context whether a formal pronoun is meant to indicate distance or politeness #(plus distance and politeness are related to each other (to various degrees depending on culture)) #but it seems like it would be cool to have a built-in alignment chart of sorts just for pronoun combos #instead of prep jock nerd goth...why not try intimate self-effacing polite superior? #the goblin emperor #pronouns #register #sociolinguistics #my posts #f #anyway i know i said i wasn't going to reread the goblin emperor...but guess what. lol #and i edited my tags on that earlier post but fyi the language DOES distinguish between plural and formal singular pronouns #i had said i thought it used the same pronouns for plural and formal but i just wasn't paying close enough attention #so anyway i just reread the part where maia is talking to setheris in formal first and informal second #and you can see setheris going ohhh shit. oh shit oh shit oh shit #i'm in biiiiiig trouble #you sure are dude. that's the Time to Grovel signal #it's interesting because at the very beginning of the book when i first saw the formal first used i just thought it was the royal we #because i knew the main character was supposed to be royalty #but then EVERYONE was doing it. so it's not the royal we it's just the formal we #however. this does make me realize that the way the royal we would function in a language that retains the t-v distinction #is the same way i'm describing here. it's just reserving that particular tone (i'm better than you and am displeased with you) #for royalty only. which makes sense given royalty's whole deal

[svtskneecaps]

lukewarm take of the evening: y'all care too much about being ""outdated"". fellas this smp moves inhumanly fast. it is ok to CHILL holy shit CHILL. y'all are like "(posts BANGER ART) super late guys sorry" friend i am hitting you with a blanket i am snapping you with my metaphorical towel WHAT DO YOU MEAN SORRY. "(posts BANGER FIC) rip this is outdated now" WHO CARES???? I LOVE YOU, OK. ohhhh woe is us as the fandom at large for having MORE HAPPY PILLS ARC CONTENT oh no how outdated!! how could you be writing speculative fiction about how forever felt during happy pills :( slash SARCASM!! WHAT DO YOU MEAN!!!! THERE ARE SO MANY BANGER ARCS, WHAT, YOU THINK WE'RE COMPLAINING????? FOR GETTING MORE OF THE CONTENT WE LOVED????? oh no we're past the period where everyone thought green gay ninjas were like Dead Dead, my work is now outdated and noncanon :( WDYM. GIMME. A BANGER IS A BANGER IDC IF IT TAKES THREE MONTHS. you think rome was built in a day?? fuck you, baltimore, GIMME. my ass has been cooking a goddamn backflipo family fic since july when it was ALREADY outdated do you think i fear god??? "oh no, you're making an edit of slime's (attempted) egg murdering spree?? how could you, that was months ago it's irrelevant" SAID NO ONE EVER.

save your wrists kidlings ok carpal tunnel is no joke. CHILL!!!!! CHILL!!!!!!!! TAKE YOUR TIME SHEEEEEESH OK LOVE YOU <3

#qsmp #shut up vic #block game brainrot #IT IS OK TO NOT ALWAYS POST SHIT THIRTY SECONDS AFTER IT HAPPENS!!!!!!! #for god's sake we have MONTHS of lore and bangers ok??? #i still have a mental image of an art i wish i could make from BOBBY'S NIGHTMARE #HE HAS BEEN GONE FOR M O N T H S and you bet your ass if i can make it I WILL BE POSTING IT #SO. MUCH. SHIT. HAS. HAPPENED. who cares if it was months ago!!!!!! #it's ok to be a few days late!!! it's ok to be a few months late!!!!! don't tell me sorry for feeding me!!!!!! #part of me still lives in I'M NOT HOLDING A FUCKING FUNERAL CHAT #part of me still lives in maxo's final song for his son!!!! #part of me still lives in the day we thought ramón was gone for good #part of me still lives in cellbit sprinting to his son only to be ripped away back to the feds just as richas turns to write a sign #part of me still lives in the flooding of the copacabana ocean #THESE ARE BANGERS. REMEMBER WHEN FIT FOUND PAC E MIKE IN PRISON. BANGER. #oh dear new work expanding on a canon moment i super liked that happened months ago how late smh SAID NO ONE EVER #TWO CAKES!!!!! TWO CAKES MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!!!! WE LOVE PASTRIES DON'T EVEN WORRY ABOUT IT #COME ON Y'ALL. METAPHORICAL KISSES. LOVE YOU. HAVE A GOOD WEEK. #long tags

[artemisiatridentata]

I just finished reading Fourth Wing after picking it up because of all the hype, and because I love dragons, and... I have to say it's the worst book I've read in quite a while lmao. the dragons were its only redeeming quality

#seriously not worth it y'all sorry #not tagging the title bc i don't want to rain on other peoples' parade #it just was notttt my cup of tea at all #if you like a court of thorns and roses you might like fourth wing. personally I hated ACOTAR for a lot of the same reasons #mainly: language and writing style that clashed painfully with the supposed genre #(fantasy characters saying shit like 'Holy. Fucking. Hot' and 'looking respectfully' and 'vibes' is just NOT believable lmao) #plus the characters and plot were very shallow! nothing was fleshed out! nothing made me *care* abt the characters! #the worldbuilding had sooo much potential but nothing was really explored and it felt so slapdash! #idk it just felt like a YA smut/romance remix of ACOTAR/Shadow & Bone/Divergent wearing a fantasy trenchcoat #it did have a lot of potential but i'm sorry to say the author did not manage to pull it off. :/ #oh well. at least the dragons were cool as hell #books #anti fourth wing #if you want to read my more coherent review just message me and i'll give you my goodreads info

[front-facing-pokemon]

#bonus under the cut getting that snout facing right at the camera #camerupt #early 2000s animation cow‚ apparently. that's what someone just said about the bonus image. i honestly never understood this thing's name #i always thought it was pretty obviously a cow. but then its name implies camel. camel erupt. camerupt. is there a specific kind of #camel that just looks like a cow?? or. what. or am i just misremembering what camels look like #either way‚ i still think this pokémon is pretty cool‚ but i don't really use it ever in my own playthroughs. i don't think i *ever* have #not even in pokémon colosseum where i'm pretty sure you can get a shadow numel at some point. bc i already had a fire-type #not sure which one it was but it was definitely one of them. maybe cyndaquil? because of the dudes with the johto starters #that you fight near the beginning in pppp uuuhhh the PHENAC city i couldn't remember the name. for a second there. #i wasn't aware as a kid that their outfits corresponded to the type of the starter they had and also that you could only fight one of them #i think as a kid i was under the impression that there was only the one. for some reason i remember fighting the green one #oh wait they have the second-evos yeah. cuz he had bayleef. and the red one would've had quilava. not cyndaquil #ugh my memory is not very good evidently. i'm writing these tags after work. normally i do them right when i wake up but this time i just #do not have an excuse for not being able to remember shit. this is just on me. maybe it's amplified by the fact that i have yet to eat today #which i have a very bad habit of doing. forgetting to eat all day and not eating until like 5 and then that being my only meal for the day #i'm trynna get better about it but it is Not easy for some reason. for something that should be decidedly very simple #but my brain doesn't often let me eat until i've completed all of my silly little Tasks. so. idk. this will however post the day after i've #arrived back home from my trip which is nice. the first time future me will be sleeping in her own bed again. good luck again future me #you might need it

[protectcosette]

there's something very special about hanging out with new friends

#certified protectcosette original #been hanging out more with this lesbian couple i'm lowkey obsessed with #met one of them a couple years ago and have been friendly acquaintances since. then they and their partner started coming to food not bombs #so we've been doing that together the past few months. and then we did trivia last week with another girl from fnb! which was very nice! #and then we carpooled to a ceasefire rally thing today and they invited me to have tea at their place after (and offered to feed me) #(i declined but its very nice) and its just like? oh they like my company they think i'm cool? they want to hang out with me? it's magical #like. all the excitement of the first few dates with a new romantic partner but steadier. more reliable #and i think it's really sad that we don't really celebrate platonic connections in art the way we do romantic connections #a couple weeks ago i was like. why is there not a wedding-like ceremony for celebrating friendships? #and now i'm like. i need songs to listen to that reflect being platonically smitten with people. but it doesn't exist in the mainstream #i'll write this shit myself if i have to but still this needs to be everywhere #aromantic #aspec #adding aro tags bc i think yall will understand

[razzek]

Just realized a big benefit to not being in Metalocalypse fandom proper anymore: I don't have to try and force myself to like Seth anymore! 8D No shade to his fans, I like Magnus so I get the appeal of unpopular or shitty characters. But god damn I hate Seth with every fiber of my being. Any time I have a fic bookmarked with him in it, you can bet it's because he's getting his ass handed to him or something else horrible is happening or he's an incidental figure in the story of a character I like. I hope the little fucker died in Army of the Doomstar but it was, like, two weeks after his wife left him and took their kid and he was miserable to the last second.

Although I do have to give props to the fandom treatment of Seth for one thing: in just about every trans Pickles fic I've ever read, Seth unquestioningly thinks of Pickles as his brother right away. It is his sole redeeming quality and it kind of shows a world I'd like to live in. A world where your shitty brother who ruined your life doesn't bat an eye when you're trans, suggesting that it's so normal as to be a non-issue. That's how things should be.

This post made with gratitude to the folks who gave Magnus a chance around me even when they didn't like him. I did my best to do that with Seth and still will around friends who do like him. But also this is my blog and I can shit talk the little bastard all I want. :D

#metalocalypse #seth metalocalypse #seth hate #I don't know how to tag this to keep the negativity out of the seth tag ;_; #if anyone wants me to remove the seth tag from it so y'all don't have to see it just send an ask and I will #this rant brought to you by me sorting my insane collection of mtl fanart #and seeing a bunch of seth stuff I had saved #mostly because it was funny or had magnus or pickles or amber in it #amber is cool and too good for him #just remembered the fic idea I'll never write where Seth tries to beat the shit out of Magnus #cuz mags called him pickles #and oh boy it does not go well for seth :D #razz rambles

[babacontainsmultitudes]

Not much has been shared yet for the Nicky day of the week which has me thinking that *I* wanna draw a Nicky to share but... That would require... Drawing and... Liking what I draw...

#I should draw though it's been a minute #I wanna draw Sparrow too... maybe even a demon Sparrow... #:/ But unfortunately to get better at art you gotta make more of the art #And it's hard for me to not get discouraged very quickly #And I'm always so embarrassed when I do share my drawings lmao #That's why I don't use an art tag- don't want people finding that shit lmao #Props to gigi though for scavenging my blog like a raccoon for an oldish glenn sketch that one time tho LMAO #She earned that #:0 I still mostly like that Nicky I have as my banner but I feel like I've never been as pleased with a drawing I've done of him since #Oh Cal if you're reading this- you were talking the other day about wishing you were more of a writer to express what visual art can't #And I *totally* felt that from the opposite end LOL #(I do get insecure about my writing but like not as much) like ''THIS WOULDN'T WORK AS A FIC THIS WAS MEANT TO BE A 4 PANEL COMIC" #Or just like ''I want to *show* you this character design'' not idk. Write about it. #Also I can keep my attention drawing for much longer than writing lol- writing fiction anyways #Man. ANYWAYS.

[rotisseries]

the age old "two cakes" mantra of fandom creation is so true in that genuinely you should not worry about doing what someone else has already done because your take on the same ideas is valuable anyway but I do so hate when all of a fandom's popular content is sort of the same thing. its like going to a bake sale and everyone brought a red velvet cake with cream cheese frosting. it's so good, but I can only eat so much cake. the frosting is getting to be too much in my mouth. I just want someone's homemade specialty cookies

#this is an invitation for all of you to drop your favorite really uncommon au fics in the tags for me to read if it's a pairing I like #especially bylers. I would like to see something other than our 3 cycled ones #SHOW ME YOUR WEIRDO NICHE SHIT #for bylers specifically it doesn't even have to be that niche like it could be an au that's decidedly not niche in any other fandom #I just feel like we have exclusively 1. modern au/college au (paired together cause they're barely different) #2. mildly canon divergent 3. fantasy #but that like. only applies to fics like I see people drop insanely cool moodboards like “oh paranormal investigators au” #WHO IS GONNA WRITE THE FUCKING FIC. ANY OTHER FANDOM THAT WOULD BE EASY TO FIND. WTF #and like I know the obvious answer to this to you may be “well don't only read popular shit try to branch out” #which. obviously. but I do not have the TIME or DESIRE to sift through thousands of fics #especially when I want to stumble across someone's weird niche shit like what tags do you use for that

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: January 11

"It's Still Rock and Roll to Me" by Billy Joel

#song of the day #so late today. the sun'll be up pretty soon #I was very busy watching Duncan play Spyro and letting my brain thump around on spin cycle #I haven't written anything worth looking twice at since i was so sick in December and it's been worrying me a bit #but if my full day's preoccupation is anything to judge by I will be writing again quite soon #just in time too I did see Del tagged me in a WIP Wednesday. maybe by next Wednesday I will have progressed a work to share #anyway this is today's song because I'm trying to make sure I remember to get a copy of it #it played on the radio and Duncan and Lily and I all got to sing along (always so good to sing with my siblings) #and there were plenty of songs we sang all together (lots of Adele. good shit) but this one I don't have and I really enjoy singing #and every now and then (especially around the family) it plays and I think 'oh shit! I still need to get a copy of that onto my computer!' #and so far I've forgotten every time #but this time I'm making a particular note! I will remember it! if not this weekend then at the very very latest at the end of this year #when I make a big playlist of all the Songs of the Day and I hit Jan 11th and my search pulls up empty and I curse myself for a fool again #dear future-Alexis: you are welcome for the reminder!

[cutneteel]

meh

#if I tell everything in the tags would that make everything okay #fuck it this is Tumblr I can't have shit anymore #it's 3:25 am by the time i'm writing ts #I want to rip my skin out #everything sucks I can't think I hate it #what should I do tomorrow #everybody is probably tired of me now I can't do it #what should I do what should I do I don't know #I can't even look at somebody in the eye i'm a goddamn coward #when will I be able to get used to it. it's been 6 fucking years #I can't do it I don't want to wait I hate waiting everything sucks I can't #also I think I broke my neck (I already did) #I be moaning over something that's already over fuck this #monday's gonna suck #it happened before I can go through it again? #I don't want to face my classmates and other people what if I got cuffed again #I need to stop thinking it's gonna be over before I knew it please Lord help me please #I don't have to see these people again (hopefully) #they'll just mocked me because i'm an absolute fucking retard who can't even make eye contact with someone before looking away #I have to get used to it. I need to please #it's hot #I made too many fucking mistakes I can't do it #at least it's not as bad (it is) #oh yeah ofc my fucking brother turns on the goddamn heat lmao shoot yourself

[thottybrucewayne]

I think yall are misunderstanding why myself and others are so aggravated with this trigun reboot and at least for me it boils down to a perfect example of how female characters are treated in modern action anime. Getting rid of Milly and hitting Meryl with the uwufication ray wasn't gonna sit right with trigun fans who liked those characters as they were! If you like it whatever but let's not act like people are complaining for no reason.

#Yall literally don't look at the larger picture of how female characters are drawn and written in modern anime and how reboots show those #glaring issues even more like 'oh thats just how modern anime is' isnt a good enough excuse im sorry #If you don't see anything wrong with these designs or the forced incompetence of Meryl more power to you #but dont get pissy with me cause i said 'tag this shit properly' #trigun #anyway I'm reallt gonna have to write that essay about the way modern anime has somehow gotten worse at handling female characters cause #this shit is getting ridiculous

[imwritesometimes]

wouldn't it be funny if I could write again lollollol........

#got a very sweet comment on a fic today and I was like oh my god. oh my goddddddd. ppl *still* like my stuff. #ppl still like my silly little stupid little stuff that I had stupid silly fin working on & it's dumb and silly but I shared it! #and ppl like it! #and I'm like not pushing myself anymore. like before I was kinda trying to force shit to happen #like sitting in bed with an open notebook/laptop like CREATE BITCH! #and I'm not doing that anymore lol and being on my meds has really made me feel SO much better #but also like I just don't.... have any ideas anymore. can't rotate blorbo like a rotisserie chicken anymore #I lay down to go to sleep now and because my body is not operating under severe extreme toxic anxiety levels anymore #I just fckn fall asleep. like I'm OUT. good night. sleepin. snoozin. zonked. 7+ hours. #no more blorbo thoughts at the end of the day I'm TIRED and my brain FINALLY shuts off #I hope one day I'll write again. I had so much fun with it. I have had a couple Thoughts #since I have been on my meds #but they're nothing more than a few quick sentences scrawled in a notebook. #it's like I'm doing so much other stuff and having fun in other ways and SLEEPING FINLALLY SWEET GOD ALMIGHTY #there's just like zero processing left for original blorbo ideas #this doesn't make sense and I bet you were all relieved cause I haven't ranted in tags in like months but hahaha #🤡 I STAY HONKIN'!!!! 🤡 #(I'm actually really in a really good place mentally rn I promise like the best I've felt in years I'm just ahhh!! tonight lol) #erin explains it all

[reanimatestar]

girl who cried when watching the hallelujah scene in Shrek (2001)

[image description: three pencil drawings featuring the artist's original character. she is a woman with mid-length hair, curved horns, scales on her cheeks, and clawed hands. she is also wearing a dress. in the first drawing, she rakes her hand through her hair, looking upset. a cut is on her lower lip and blood drips from her chin, staining the front of her dress. the second drawing shows her with her back to the viewer with an unreadable expression. her sleeve is torn and wings grow from her back. the third drawing is in a simpler style, showing her tearing up and hugging a shark plush toy, thinking, "Wow... he's just like me fr!!!!!!". a note indicates that she is watching Shrek (2001). /end description]

#oh look - a star! #dragon princess knight comic #<= placeholder tag until i come up with a better title <3 #dragon princess #<= that's her <3 i'll come up with a better name i prommy <3 #edit: that better name is #ophelia #image description #no martch today i don't have. colours. anyways <3 #she can have a blåhaj. as a treat <3 she's going to fucking need it <3 #that is. if i can figure this “writing” shit out. these tags are either going to age very well or very poorly i think. #mostly figuring out the Pacing at this point <3

[kakusu-shipping]

btw not to be annoying but I'm in a huge drawing rut right now and almost everything I've made the past few weeks feels like garbo to me so if anyone has any X Reader requests from medias on my F/O list you want done, now would be a great time to send them in

#proship please interact #Proselfship #Proship selfship #I have a few I've been drafting and deleting and redrafting for a bit now #I'm back and forth on motivation but I think I'm done drawing for the season #We'll get back to it in the new year for the next two months let's just write #I get a lot more confidence from requests that gain reblogs than just writing for me myself and I #Don't get me wrong I love writing for me myself and I it's the cornerstone of this blog #Make what you want to see in fandom and do whatever you want forever kind of thinking #But oh my god when someone else thinks my writing for a specific character is good and wants to read more and reblogs it with tags and stuf #Literally nothing fixes me faster #Sorry to pull like two selfishes in a row in the main tags #I feel like I'm on a lot of shit lists for asking people to move the 'stolen from an anti' into the tags #I don't apologize for that but I saw some posts fdkgjkdf plus I kicked people from my server for low reason recently #I DO apologize for that a little bit #ANYWAY these tags are weird sorry #I'm gonna try to write some things that's been in my ask box for a year now and see where that goes #Sorry for the selfish in the main tags I'm really off my game rn

[frazzledazzlin]

hope u guys don't mind me being a little queer sometimes and talking to myself in the tags, it helps clear my head since people can filter out rant posts easily

#bc i had not used this place in a while until late 2022 ive absolutely forgotten if i used to talk to myself in tags here before or not #i say this bc i now have people who actively see my art here n just throwing random rants here would be very rude so i prefer tags help #feels safer here too LOL #also feels a little scary but im sure that's normal for many that there are ppl who read all tags mein gott #NOT A BAD THING THAT PPL READ TAGS i wouldn't be writing anything if i wanted to kill people for reading tags lol #just stating observations aheem aheem #its like writing on a public bathroom's walls and people passing by to be like “damn bitch ok” /funny #also do not worry at all about how i express myself i do apologize if my words sometimes sound like im on the brink but like #violence is the only way i love to be expressive HELP #watch me be on the government watchlist for the shit ive said gootbyeeeeeeee #but do not feel worried i will be ok eventually every time. sometimes i just gotta explode oh so violently to deflate and feel normal again #WISH I COULD USE EMOJIS ON THIS DAMN PC #anyway the person im trying my damned to avoid is Sure Making It Difficult #at least the people i wanted to know why i was autotune crying baby for a while heard me out n im alive in that regard finally smile emoji #how long can you keep gently hinting you want to distance yourself from somebody until you lose your goddam mind and feel sweet relief when #they actually leave said group themselves after getting my blunt hints help help #oh i sound so fucking rude with just my side but mein gott i don't care bc it was never a serious thing to begin with #just shot my anger thru the roof for good reason and finalliegh im getting mutual distance from that person lol #never get close with ur fave artists worst mistake of my life /hj for real #u start off loving seeing them every time and then boom youre sad how things turned out every time you see them my god #also make sure ur minor friends dont feel like they need to mend things for the adults i feel so fucking sad for someone bc of this rn but #i talked to them n hopefully they understand aouhg. #anyway back to queer posting thats enough soup for today good god #ranting