#oh im fucking sobbing again fuck fuck fuck

[cressthebest]

Crimson Rivers thoughts pt. 21

chapter 36:

1. “It's been so long. Oh, there you are, here you are, hi,” *deep breath* AHHHHHHHHH

2. 😭😭😭 “Remus keeps a firm grip on him and turns around to promptly leave, which is probably a little rude, considering that the others are here and may wish to greet him, but he honestly can't bring himself to care about that right now” i would expect nothing less

3. WOLFSTAR REUNION!!!! I AM IN SHAMBLES!

4. “On the way, James glances back with a grin, internally wishing Sirius all the good things, because no one deserves them more.”

oh. wow. that’s such a soft line. it’s literally making me melt

5. “Remus could not be more in love if he tried.” shit shit shit shit sobbing. wolfstar deserves the world

6. “He does love Sirius, though. Loves him dearly, with every defiant bone in his body. This man, who doesn't even realize the importance of what he's just done by giving Remus an unopened envelope. Remus, who owns nothing. Remus, who has nothing. Remus, who is not granted privacy or freedom for anything like this, for anything at all.”

i am on PUBLIC TRANSPORTATION and i am BAWLING my eyes out as silently as i possibly can. y’all don’t understand the restraint i have right now to not loudly sob

7. the LETTER has me CRYING

8. THE SECRET MESSAGE

9. oh, okay. remus killed an auror/greyback. it’s honestly not as bad as i thought it would be. also, i love the lily and remus duo. they’re so iconic

10. i LOVE LOVE LOVE that zar made a point for sirius to have the discussion that his demisexuality is NOT because of trauma and he’s always been that way. it’s beautiful <3

11. “”You can ask Regulus and James; I walked around for a solid month making everyone call me Mr. Sirius Macdonald."” STOP PLSS THATS SO FUNNY

12. SIRIUS JUST TOLD REMUS HE LOVED HIM!!! this is literally so sweet

13. andjskjdksksjsms the authors note:

“sirius, internally: a guillotine could not sever the head im about to give this man. good for them 😌”

chapter 37:

1. i’m starting a gofundme to get regulus a balcony

2. "”Sirius doesn't let me drink," James replies flatly.

"Well, don't say it like that, James. You make it sound like I'm a strict parent, or a controlling spouse," Sirius grumbles. "And I do let you drink, in moderation, when you're in a safe environment and in a good mental state. Don't forget to mention that you only let me drink within those same rules."”

i bet james is upset with the rules he made for sirius so long ago. came back to bite him in the ass

3. describing sirius as “ruffled like an offended bird” has done wonders for my mental health

4. james, remus, and sirius are all hanging out and i am beyond angry that peter doesn’t get to share this moment

5. pandora is such an angel and doesn’t deserve this pain

6. pandora and reg friendship >>>>>>>>>

7. their outfits for the night!! every last one of them is slaying so hard

8. “There's a tense moment where a group of murderers all stare around at each other, not opposed to adding a few more names to their lists. Oh, and Pandora is there, too, startlingly calm despite this.”

yaxley needs to shut his fucking mouth and stop implying that sirius will fuck his way through issues

9. “"You know what they'll assume we're doing."

"Running away," Regulus mutters.

James sighs in exasperation and fond amusement. "No, Reg. Fucking. They'll assume we've snuck off to find a corner to go fuck in."”

😭😭😭😭😭 i love reg. he’s so ready to leave

10. jegulus is getting their shit together and improving. i’m so glad

11. “James swallows. "They're—they destroy things now, when they never did before. They're rough sometimes. Bloody."

"Warm," Regulus counters, pressing another kiss to James' shaking fingers. "Steady. Strong. These hands hold the people you love. These hands care for them. They're gentle. Tender."”

this is love. what they have is love. it’s messy and broken and so difficult, but they’re trying and it’s love

12. and once again we have wolfstar my true loves ☺️☺️

i feel like nows a good time to add to respect bizzarestars’ wishes to not have the fic reposted or reuploaded a different site. i can’t remember his wishes about bookbinding, but respect those as well.

thank you, lovely people

#marauders #regulus black #james potter #fanfic #jegulus #sirius black #remus lupin #wolfstar #sunseeker #starchaser #pandora rosier #pandora lovegood #crimson rivers

[claymorexpunisher]

I'll Shut You Up (18+ Fic) (Ch. 3/?)

Pairing(s): Rhea Ripley/Fem. Reader

Disclaimer: This is NSFW. If that's not your thing, keep scrolling. I try to tag my work appropriately and if you still choose to click and read, do so at your own discretion. Thank you for the love, always, and I hope you enjoy!

Summary: It’s pretty well known that Rhea and Fem. Reader can’t stand one another. Reader thinks Rhea’s way cockier than she should be and Rhea thinks as highly about Reader as much as she thinks about the dirt at the bottom of her boot. Well… so they say, at least. A packed hotel mishap forces them to bunk together, and Rhea presses her luck by running her mouth.

Fic Tag(s): 18+, enemies to lovers, forced proximity, overbooked hotel, WM weekend, Bottom Sub!Rhea, Dom Top!Reader, bratty!Rhea, praise kink, honorifics, a little bit of oral (Rhea receiving) anal play/penetration, size difference, strap-on, toys, orgasm denial, nipple play, hair-pulling, spit for lube (I KNOWWW IM SORRY), begging, spanking, biting, slapping, choking, recording.)

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“If you’re not gonna address me the way you should, then maybe I don’t need to hear you at all.” I replied calmly. “Don’t move.” I said as I got off the bed momentarily to rifle through my bag until I found some black bondage tape.

Surprisingly, Rhea stayed put until I got what I needed from my bag and I climbed back onto the bed behind her with the bondage tape, a wand, and the strap-on.

I adjusted the straps of the strap-on as I spoke.

“I don’t know if I wanna use lube for what I wanna do to you,” I said. Then I gasped as I got an idea.

“No, I know… since you wanna use your mouth so much, maybe you can actually make yourself useful and help things along. Hm? How’s that sound?” I asked, not really expecting a real answer out of Rhea.

Clothes off and strap-on secured, I reached for the tape, securing her wrists behind her.

Of course she didn’t go out without a bit of a fight, until my palm lifted over ass threateningly, making her go pliant again.

“Are you really gonna keep fighting me? I mean look at you…” I shook my head and tsked as I ran my fingers over her glistening pussy for a moment, unaware that her face had gone bright red and not just due to exertion as she released a pathetic whimper, until I brought my focus back to her.

“Ooh, whats the matter, sweetheart? Embarrassed that you’re enjoying this?… You asked me to do this.” I said before I brought my mouth onto her pussy, giving her clit a hard suck and swirling my tongue over the hardening bud and over her lips, savoring the taste of her for a moment as one of my fingers traveled up toward her asshole.

“Shit!” Rhea cursed, her thighs trembling as much as her voice as my mouth worked her pussy and I slid my middle finger into her ass and I moved it back and forth in tiny thrusts.

“Mmm. That pussy tastes good, actually.” I commented almost nonchalantly, and then I giggled softly over the pathetic sounds coming out of Rhea’s mouth.

“But… that’s not the hole I want.” I said… not yet, at least.

But I didn’t dare voice that.

I told myself that this wasn’t happening again…

My finger slid out of her ass for a moment before my tongue replaced it.

I gathered some spit, swirling and flicking my tongue over the puckered muscle before I dipped it inside, pushing past the tight ring and I moaned as Rhea’s body and mind fully gave in to my ministrations.

“Mmm.” I hummed again around a chuckle as I continue to thrust my tongue into Rhea’s asshole and I heard her sounds pick up in pitch.

I hadn’t fully decided to gag her yet and holy shit, was I glad I hadn’t.

“Oh, f-f-..uck! Yeah, that’s it, ma’am… don’t stop, don’t stop, ma’am. Don’t stop.” Rhea moaned before her hips began rocking, urging my tongue deeper until my palm striked her right and already reddened asscheek.

“Fuck!” She sobbed, her body clenching with the sting of my palm and I grabbed a handful of her hair as I spoke into her ear, the silicone dildo pressed against her ass momentarily and I could feel her resisting the urge to move her hips again and grind up into it.

“You don’t get to take. anything. I do.” I growled, anunciating slowly.

“I’m sorry, ma’am. I’m really s-sorry! I’ll be good! I’ll be good- I’ll listen!…” Rhea apologized through her tears.

God, she was already a beautiful mess and we’d barely even started…

“Yeah? You’ll listen?” I cooed mockingly and released her hair as she nodded adamantly. “I hope so. Otherwise things’ll get much, much worse for you.” I said and then I shoved two of my fingers into her and coated them with her saliva before I thrust them both into her ass and scissored them.

I felt her tense a little as I stretched her out and I watched a lightning quick wince contort her features but she didn’t utter a complaint, just harsh panting breaths and a guttural moan here and there that morphed into soft whimpers as my tongue and fingers worked to stretch her out.

Though I didnt work too hard.

This was a lesson, after all.

Once I was satisfied, I moved up on the bed and faced her and I grabbed one of her hair ties from the bedside table and I put her black locks into a loose bun, wanting to see her features fully before I shoved the silicone dildo past her lips, finally fulfilling my fantasy of watching her smart-ass mouth being put to good use.

“That’s better. I like you better like this… obedient. No smart comments, not you being a fucking brat… Look up at me.” I moaned as if the appendage were mine and I could feel the warmth of her mouth wrapped around me as she swallowed in a desperate attempt to avoid any saliva from escaping.

It helped that inside the the strap was a risen nub that rubbed deliciously against my clit with every movement made.

“Mmgh!” Rhea gurgled out a response as her eyes met mine, making me chuckle.

“Relax that mouth, doll. This is the only prep you’re getting.” I said, my pussy throbbing as Rhea’s widened a little; whether it was in fear or excitement, I wasn’t entirely sure.

When I deemed it enough, I let her mouth rest and I moved back behind her, until a thought came to me.

“Not like this.” I said.

“What?” Rhea asked, not in a challenging way, but more curious than anything.

“On your back. I wanna watch every single second of this…” I demanded, not giving her room to argue as I maneuvered her onto her back and I lifted and spread her legs, pressing them and her wrists up against her torso.

No doubt she took pride in having her opponents in a similar position- and maybe some of her sexual partners as well.

But this position clearly made Rhea feel vulnerable, which is exactly what I wanted.

Again, she didn’t complain, but I noticed the internal struggle going on inside of her until I guided the tip of the strap-on into her ass.

I smirked as Rhea’s slack-jawed expression and feral eyes as the toy stretched around her ass and I watched the toy slide in until it was fully inside.

I then reached next to me for the wand and tape, tapeing the wand around her thigh in a way that allowed the head of the wand to buzz against her clit.

“Ohh, look at you… trembling and moaning like a needy and good little slut… I thought you were gonna put up more of a fight than that, doll. Good girl…” I laughed, anunciating my words with slow yet deep thrusts, drinking in Rhea’s groans and squeals, spurring her reactions on with my words.

“Oh my god. Holy shit! Please! Please… I’ll be so good if you lemme cum, please, ma’am.” Rhea gulped hard as she begged, her face reddened and wet with arousal and tears.

“‘Please’? Oh you’re so cute. Such a good girl.” I said, amused at the way the tables had turned and taking note of how that praise pleased Rhea yet it made her even needier.

I gave Rhea’s face a couple light slaps until she unsurprisingly asked for more.

“Harder, please.” Rhea shuddered out.

I gave harder slaps to her face, and I moaned along with her as I finally began to plow into her ass.

Her legs turned into raw noodles and splayed even more apart, giving me access to her breasts.

I gave her nipples a stinging twist, not letting off for a couple seconds and making her growl and squeal in a way I was beginning to get addicted to.

“I’m beginning to think that we should do this more often… maybe I should just make this asshole mine now. Use it whenever I please? Hm?… bet I wouldn’t even have to say a word. You’d just roll over onto your back and lemme take that pretty ass whenever I want, huh?” I moaned.

In a moment of clarity, I’d revisit my words and probably smack myself for what I was suggesting.

But not right now.

Right now, I just cared about owning the woman underneath me, making her shatter into a billion pieces just so I could put her back together.

My heart pounded in my eyes and my own thighs trembled as I got closer and closer to precipice of bliss as she writhed and groaned, on the brink of her release herself as the vibrator worked her clit and I fucked her.

Maybe it was the combination of the vibrator incessantly thrumming against her clit and my hips thrusting at just the right angle, my hand snaking up to wrap around her throat and squeeze with just the right amount of pressure.

But Rhea didn’t seem to disagree with my suggestion.

In fact, she nodded eagerly, tears sliding down the sides of her face as my hips continued their relentless pace.

“Yes! Ye-ees! Yeah, whenever you want, ma’am- whenever…hhngh!” Rhea’s words broke off as her orgasm approached like a raging feral monster breathing on the back of her neck, coaxing it out of her.

“Don’t you dare cum yet.” I commanded in a harsh tone, not feeling sympathetic towards the whining that ensued.

“You are not going to cum without my permission. Do you understand me?” I demanded.

But she wasn’t going to cum at all and neither was I.

At least not tonight we weren’t.

Because just as I noticed Rhea’s body beginning to completely disobey my command, a knock sounded at the hotel room door.

“Hotel security. Open up!”

TBC LMAO!!

@theworldofotps @alyyaanna @southerngirl41 @harmshake @mzv11 @letsgivethisonemoreshot @theundertakeriscoming @slutfortheeclaymore @auraravenora77 @niknakattack @moonwolfdemonprincess21 @babiidee28 @thesamoanqueen @omegasshyghuleh6661ghosts @xndalynch @84reedsy @romanstheory @kianaleani @elefrog25-blog @motherknuckers @phantasmacabre @wandering-fox @lxndonorris @girlnred @yo-yo89 @smile1318 @sassginaswanmills @exhaustedclown @aritannahrocks1300 @superlove167 @ayeeitsali @queencherryberry @truefant4sy @codyswhitebelt @blackmeetsworld @salirophiliac @kayfabebabe @rhea-the-eradicator @souleatermia @bittersweetastoria @domripley @wrestlingprincess80 @myluvrrhea

[anachronistic-falsehood]

ok pause. i just thought about wolfwood's death scenes in both trimax and 98 and i'm crying. what the fuck do you mean he just found a will to keep on living after so long of being willing to die for any bullshit reason and he died anyway. what do you mean trimax ww died next to the man who taught him how to live and love again and vash buried him alone. what do you mean 98 ww died wanting to spend his days with vash ans the girls and vash carried ww's gun around after that and used it in the final fight. what the fuck do you mean. that's the saddest shit i ever heard get said in my life

#trigun #vashwood #sorry im pausing the mcrp posting for a minute to think about trigun. it WILL happen again <3 #like come on. COME ON. #GET THE FUCK BACK HERE NIGHTOW WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS I'M DEVASTATED #listening to my vashwood playlist and i'm going to fucking sob for real why did i put mcr on this thing it's so fucking sad oh my god #tristamp ww you are on the chopping block girlie you are a dead man walking you are carrying your own tombstone #that is so sad to think about. doomed by the narrative so hard he can't escape death in any universe #whiskeys word soup

[suntails]

got carried away with a sketch and now i dont feel like finishing it properly <3

#ull look at this and say 'tf u mean its done???' and i say Lies. those are sketch lines and color blocks that i unfortunately started shadin #by the time i was adding subsurface scattering i realized it was too late. i run out of energy very quickly so im not gonna essentially do t #his Again yknow? not worth the effort this is nice enough as-is #unrelated to the pic but i finished book 6 tn and sobbed for 30 mins straight and idias horrors are so uncomfortably similar to me Help #god......i need to call my lil sister tomorrow. twst is ruining my life. why r all the ones i say 'just like me fr' so fucking awful and lam #idia?? leona?? azul????? throwing myself into the sun so i will dissolve and ignore this. at least i get deuce as well. hes my parttime son #oh wait this aint abt them this is abt sil seb. they got married when they were 4/5 seb proposed with a flower tied as a ring #ty for coming to my ted talk #twst #twisted wonderland #twst silver #silver vanrouge #<3 #sebek zigvolt #silsebe #suntails

[animentality]

Thanks to @weavewithshadow I now have an audio file of Gortash calling the Dark Urge "dear Bhaalist" in that disgusting slick raspy bullshit politician voice, and I'm fucking crying and gnashing my teeth and considering murder suicide.

WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO NOW?????? JUST LIVE WITH THIS, KNOWING ITS IN THE GAME JUST NOT IN THE GAME????

KILL ME IN PERSON NEXT TIME, @weavewithshadow, I THOUGHT WE WERE FRIENDS.

#baldurs gate 3 #bg3 #enver gortash #dark urge #durgetash #IM SOBBING #im replaying it over and over again in my fucking eae #oh this slimy raccoon man #ughhhhhh #i hate him #oh my god whats wrong with meeeeeee #why am i so down bad for this FUCKER

[gnomeboops]

so we're adding havers to the list of sad gays named anthony

#yknow. like anthony j crowley #oh my god i just finished ghosts series five #i'm going to miss these stupid fucking ghosts so fucking much #a perfect ending but really really i am sobbing and crying and AUGH #literally will never be the same again screaming crying i thought series 4 got me in a state.... insane insane insane INSANE i am SO normal #so fine with this!!!!! just fine just fine i am not crying in ANY WAY #I AM FINE. I AM NORMAL. #BUT JUST. GOD. IM GOING TO MISS THEM SO MUCH YOU GUYS OH GOD #bbc ghosts #bbc ghosts spoilers #bbc ghosts s5 spoilers #good omens #gnomeantics original 🌟

[ef-1]

girlhood

#i have to fly out to capetown to see mother and im literally debating if i could land in the morning and leave at night on the same day #like. anything longer than that is going to ruin my year. #when she called and did her “katherine. you have to be here on the 10th” i literally sobbed in my bed for the rest of the day 😍😍😍 #not dyeing my hair black for a year and its getting lighter and lighter everyday and i look like her again #and my therapist telling me “you need to do things for yourself.” but like can i? sorry that woman traumatised me and i actually cant :) #like everything i do is informed by her #I'm going to go and just like everytime the only way to keep my sanity is to mirror her. talk and sit and speak and read and eat like her #and its such a terrifying experience bc i remember that im capable of emulating her viciousness and maybe i am my mother's daugher 🤢🤢🤢 #and im going to come back and its going to take fucking months for me to feel like myself again #“oh you look so beautiful just like your mother” i hope you DIE lol !!! the fact that my conception of beauty was shaped by her #growing up with this cruel beautiful detached woman and realising that at the intersection of beauty and wickness is a lifetime of pain #and still being so desperate for her approval- for any metaphysical proximity to her that i felt elated when #people would tell me i look like her. that it meant i was also beautiful like her and maybe she'll love me a little for it #but now i know for a fact that i do look like her and it makes saliva swell under my tongue - that moment right before you throw up- #when people mention it 😍 #last time i was in capetown my optic neuritis flared up (and i know for a fact it was that it was ms-stress related from having to see her) #and i thought i hid it so well even though i had near constant headaches & lethargy until she said “katherine give me the red notebook” #and i knew that she knew all along. it was so acutely humiliating standing there and knowing she knows i cant see which one is the red one #and she tilted her head and said “whats the matter? do you not know what red looks like?” #im never going to have kids. my mother and i read eachother so well it can only mean im never too far removed from becoming her #lol!!!!!!!!!

[unhealthy-leon-brainrot]

i would like to thank every single leon x reader fic writer who has written about reader being generally insecure about their self and their worth in the relationship 💐😭

(if you’ve written one, please reblog with a link to your fic!! i promise you ill read it and hype it up !!!!! i seriously love supporting the leon kennedy nation!!! 💞)

#being someone so painfully insecure about their self.. i find comfort and solace in those fics :’) #imagine thinking youre literally one of the most unattractive ppl in your community who somehow ends up with someone like LEON???? 💀 #mf could pull ANYONE he wanted but he still chose YOU???? HUHHH?? (yes im projecting SHUSH) #when reader tries to hide their insecurity from leon but it eventually bleeds out UGHHHH LOVE THAT SHIT #and when there are third parties involve that make reader jealous/envious of them….. #AND THEN LEON FINDS OUT ABOUT IT ALL AND GRADUALLY ASSURES/REASSURES YOU ABOUT EVERYTHING #HE HOLDS YOU KISSES YOU AND MAKES LOVE TO YOU AND GENERALLY SHOWS YOU HOW MUCH YOU MEAN TO HIM 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔💔 #oh no not another word vomit 💀 #anyway i fucking love leon x insecure reader fics 🫶 #especially if it starts out angsty and ends up being the softest fucking thing ever bc u can just FEEL leon’s love…. SOBBING AGAIN 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #leon kennedy x reader #seriously thank you leon fic writers <33

[pulchrasilva]

Ummmm thought about bitb. Gonna throw up

#i should relisten to it honestly #but i said i would watch amphibia #and i was gonna watch the what ifs and rolleds and everything #oughough #when when rand was the one with the least to live for anf he was the ine to survive #this was his chance to do somethin good for once and go out eith s bang but now hes actually got to live #he has to live for the three of them #SOBBING #and ROLAN FUCK #uh oh im thinking about bug vs human internal vs external conscious vs instinctual again #the bugs are so interesting im never gonna be ok #jrwi spoilers #bitb spoilers #jrwi bitb

[callabosgeis]

NEVER LET ME COOK AGAIN 💯🔥🙏

im so funny guys omg 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

#Just kidding im never drawing again lmao😂😂😂 #This is probably the laziest april fools post you'll ever see but i didnt even had the motivation to make a single bait drawing oops #I MISS DRAWING LOTF SO MUCH IM GOING TO KMS #SOBBING... 🪦🪦🪦 #I actually do have an animation idea with this song but i cant even draw a fucking eye #Oh well #PUTO EL QUE LO LEA JAJAJAJAJA

[dragonartist56]

So

I just finished Frontiers of Pandora for the first time

I uh…

I hope you guys aren’t expecting me to be normal

Because…

I won’t be :’)

Uh

Spoilers in the tags

Also

Also a l o t of screaming

#ALSHKAHAOEBSOKAGAKSIDBSJ #IM FUCKING SOBBING #OMFG #TEYLAN #HES BACK #MY BOY IS BACK #THW FUCKING MUSIC WHEN HE WAS TELLING ME TO LEAVE AND HE WOULD STAL #I WAS DEADASS GOING FUCK NO I WILL DRAG YOUR STUPID SELFLESS ASS OUT HERE BY THE GODDAMN TAIL IF I HAVE TO #TEYLAN SCREAMING AT ANQA WHEN THEY COULDNT REACH ME #AND MY IKRAN #MY BELOVED TEMEK #OH MY GOD #O H M Y F U C K I N G G O D AND THE SYMBOLISM??? #THE FUCKING S Y M B O L I S M #BROTHER #B R O T H A #I CANT #I FUCKING CANT #ME TAKING TEYLAN’S HAND AT THE BEGINNING RIGHT WHEN AHA’RI WAS KILLED #AND THEN TAKING IT AGAIN AFTER WE LEFT MERCER #AAAAAAAAAAAA #A A A A A A A A A A A A A A A #THIS IS GOING TO BE MY PERSONALITY FOR THE NEXT SEVERAL DAYS OMFG #avatar: frontiers of pandora #na’vi avatar #dragon speaks #dragon is also FUCKING HYPERFIXATING BECAUSE GOD D A Y U M N

[deepest-chambers-of-the-heart]

it's always crazy that my first thought about the end of the world or escaping or having to flee is: god i hope i die

does that make me a coward? i don't see myself living through fleeing if an earthquake collapses our house or something just please end it

being told everything is weird and unprecedented and that they're preparing for something just please i don't want to live through another global catastrophic event just let me die man

with my health problems already it's a struggle enough to get up and live i can't imagine bejng in a real crisis if my body is already taking this as a sign im going tk die

do i like how reactive i feel when ppl talk about the possible catastrophe of earthquakes or eclipses or preparing for some unknown something to happen? no. i don't like the fear and the immediate "i need to kill myself or ill suffer unknown tragedies" maybe ive read too much apocalypse fiction where the world ends and factions split and people run rampid

because i know im not built to survive it. im not and i cant. i don't want to live in fear again by the powers over me I don't want to be subject to cruelty and horror

#eughh. im not doing too hot. armageddon plus bad work day plus religious parent living in house until further notice equals metal screeching #brain is sobbing and writhing in trauma and fear im a little kid again waiting for the world to end but this time im not praying for safety #im staring up hoping its quick #i am spiralingggg oh gosh #took just a few minutes of talking to her and hearing “we need to be prepared and there's a x in the sky and they're spraying chem trails” #can't start crying like a bitch about it grow up hya don't melt into hysterics you dumb fuck you're never not gonna be suicidal but at least #get the fuck over it stuff it down or whatever #bunspeaks

[widevibratobitch]

.

#another day another therapy session for a girl who has everything i could only ever dream of 🤡 #like i admit her family fucking sucks ngl #but idk if it's her being tone-deaf about this or if im just hypersensitive af on this topic but #'there's also this pressure to always be pretty and all' 'why tho like did your dad/mom ever comment on your looks?' #'well no haha not to be all braggy but there was never anything to comment on (negatively) yknow' #spoken to my face like oh right yeah well fuck me ig haha. once again reminded how different lives we live lol #and on top of this its this constant showing me that im being a bad friend to her which ig is true what with all my non responding to texts #but like. its like there is no real understanding towards me in turn. its like only she has problems and crippling mental issues #i dont call YOU out on your bullshit. i keep quiet and let you do and say whatever it is you need to make yourself feel better #even if it is actively capital H Hurting me and i come back home and end up sobbing in the pillow #and hating myself even more lol so cant you do the same and just take a deep breath and try to understand that i NEED a break sometimes #ANYWAY. #really feeling like scratching my face off my skull again

[elegyofthemoon]

people on my twt feed kept comparing pandora hearts and dgrayman and bc my 11 year old self was so obsessed w dgm i decided to pick it up again and 😭 i see why i was obsessed lmao

#the anime makes me kinda nostalgic but i cant stomach it bc ep 50 or so was a bunch of fillers that werent in the manga #hhfjfj ik i was super mad about it when i was watching that i stopped watching #but anyways! #i finished vol 2 for dgm and im sobbing my eyes out what the fuck... #NO AND IK IT GETS WORSE IM NOT READY ..... #like i had this feeling id like allen anyways bc he was my fave when i was little the same way i was attached to oz as a kid JGHFJFJ #BUT NOW THAT I UNDERSTAND IM LIKE....OH.....OH NO #anyways like. allen and yuu having a conversation about self sacrifice and i was like 'ah....oz and elliot convo retrace 26 nodnod' #but the difference is that like. oz was afraid of losing everything so if it meant sacrificing himself he didnt mind so long as someone #stays... #meanwhile allen says that hes lost everything so he has nothing else to lose #allen had such a kind heart also bc of how much he has lost and him tending to guzol and lala made me uglycry like i was 11 again OK.... #also yuu saying 'exorcists are destroyers' but allen acknowledging it but wanting to use that power to protect I WILL DIE ACTUALLY LMAO #NO THE NEXT VOLUME IS GONNA SLAP ME SO HARD DUDE CANNOT WAIT.... #miranda and krory!!!!!!! big excited!!! #or i think krory is vol 4... OH MY GOD LAVIIIIIIIII 💞💞💞💞💞💞 #ok thats all i wanna say jenfjdjf #like allens so optimistic but its the kind thats formed by going through The Worst and that makes me sob #dudes only 14 and going through it #jshdjjd that would also check out for why 11 year old me was obsessed w him. ok #snow speaks #i dont have the next volume on me.... makes me sad.... #snow reads dgm

[mimiri22-6]

I was going down the old yt rabit hole, just watching 9 almost 10 year old videos nbd, and I came across the age old argument/explination/confusion/huh/what/¯\_(ツ)_/¯ of Mangle of Five Nights at Freddy's FUCK'N TWO's gender. Along the lines of; his pronouns are Loudly he/him in-game, but the fandom would not shut up about, but it's a girl, look at her, girl foxy. Period done shut up about it-BUT THEY'RE CALLED HE/HIM!!! Fuck it, they go by they/them now, fuck you, fuck me, fuck Mangle and it's gender. Anyway, what I'm trying to say is ALL those fandom fights ending in fire and tears and bloodshed came back full force and I went

"FUCK IT, BIGENDER MANGLE!" As like a knee-jerk reaction because GOD it's been a fight in the trenches for literally almost a decade. AND THEN I went "oh fuck, bigender Mangle. It all makes sense now." And then holy choir rang out and god in her holy he/her glory bestowed upon me some mediocre cheesecake of which I ate all of it in one sitting...Where was I? Ah yea, amazing how fast that war could have ended if being bigender was more widely known back then, but hey, we can finally put down the pitchforks now right?

...Right?

"There are still only 2 genders, no one can be both at once!"

Motherfu-

#fnaf #mangle fnaf #mangle the fox #huh. never used that tag before. #five nights at freddys #fnaf 2 #shit this franchise is getting Old. maybe even OLD #just 1:30am thoughts no worry about me guys...im mentally stable...well more mentally stable than I was 42 hours ago. and the past...week? #2 weeks? o_o you know it's bad when you don't know when your last solid memory was. #OH MY GOSH. ON A VERY UNRELATED NOTE I FOUND OLD PHOTOS OF MY DAD'S PLACE ON THE INTERNET /WHEN HE WAS STILL LIVING THERE!!!/ #HE STILL HAS A DISH ON THE BACK OF THE SINK! HE STILL SITS ON THE RECLINER TO THE RIGHT! I COULD SEE HIS COFFEE MUG ON THE ENDTABLE! #MY OLD PILLOW! HIS /PAINTING!/ MY FUCKING ROCKS IN THE PLAY AREA IN THE HALLWAY TO THE KITCHEN! #THEY EVEN HAVE PICTURES OF THE UPSTAIRS! OF WHICH I HAVEN'T SEEN SINCE HE MOVED /DOWNSTAIRS!/ #THE PICTURES WERE TAKEN 11 FUC-FUCKING YEARS AGO! HE STILL LIVES THERE! ON THIS WEBSITE /HE STILL LIVES THERE!!/ #GAH-IM GONNA CRY AGAIN JUST THINKING ABOUT IT! #yes. yes I cried about it Big time when I got downstairs in the gallery. I was expecting it to all be gutted from looking at the upstairs. #but the first photo. the first fucking photo that was downstairs was.....his. fucking. room. the layout was a bit different to the last tim #he changed it. but...fuck man. fuck. yeah. I started sobbing...the picture that got me full crying though was the hallway going into the #livingroom. I could see the tv. the shelf above his bedroom door. the door to the outside halway. the carpet the speaker the doors to the #basement and bathroom. the bathroom door crakced upen Just Right so the cats have a harder time getting in there... #the hallway I used most to walk into the living room because we used the back door to drop me off...I could feel the couch I slept on for #too many years for my developing bones...all those painted walls and the matching coffee table that got moved and moved throughout #fuck #fuck. #none of it is there. and i still don't know what happened to the cats. or his painting or his movies or his games or the mug i got him #shit. ignore these tags. i just needed someone to know. I think most of my family is tired of me being sad about this...I can't help it tho #I don't think I'm ever getting closure...and I just need someone to know whenever... I'm gonna eat cheesecake now... #....god i miss that livingroom. I fucking miss him.... #this post was just supposed to be about mangle im sorry guys...though...i can see why mangle led me back to mac... #I'll never know about that too...never even got to drink with him...we missed so many years because of my mom's shitty ex...

[jellyaibo]

ohmy god loasercake i miss you so much

#i havent been as much on the grind bc of irl stuff + been watching my bestie play 8:11 (its a good game i hate it) #fuck . just oh my fuck im gna cry so much thinking abt them ohhh my god FUUUUUUUCK #IM TRYING NOT TO CRY AGAIN ALREADY IMSO . EMOTIONAL OVER THEEEEEEEEEEEEEMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM #AHUUUUUU........ahEEEMM......SOB........SOB......