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wallflowerimagines · 3 years

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Hi! I looove your posts! Thank you so much for sharing your writing!

I was wondering… could you maybe write about the Four Lords with a shy S/O that gets bold and defensive when someone insults the lords? or calls them names? And the Lord’s reaction to the S/O acting different? Dk if im explaining myself >.<

Again! Love your work! Have a great day!

We stan protective partners on this blog!!

Warnings: uh...insults? They're pretty over the top😅 Also swearing.

Alcina Dimitrescu

Honestly, Alcina is more than able to defend herself.

She's got a tongue like a viper, and the thickest skin imaginable. If you really want to hurt her feelings, you have to be someone whom she already respects to a certain degree, or she won't even be phased.

Still, when she leaves a room, there's always some idiot that thinks it's a smart idea to talk shit.

Maybe it's a maid, maybe it's a guest in the Castle, but either way you're not having it.

"God, you're annoying." There was a pause before they opened their mouth again, and you rolled your eyes. "No please, by all means, continue to share your lack of taste with the rest of us."

You disassemble this dumbass, starting small with comments about their personality (trying to keep it classy), but escalating the more they choose to double down on the comments.

Alcina comes back into the room to find you practically screaming at this asshole.

"Look, all you have accomplished here today is revealing that you are a fundamental disappointment on every possible level. My life is worse now that I've heard you open your mouth, you disrespectful, shit licking worm fucker."

Alcina is stunned. You do not give off "aggressive guard dog" vibes at all, yet here you are defending her tooth and nail. While she had seen brief moments of your inner strength and protective streak (mostly towards her daughters) she just...never thought you would do the same for her.

It's not because she doesn't trust you or love you! But nobody has ever done something like this for her before? Ever? She's never had anyone try to protect her--not physically, and not even verbally. She's been so independent for so long that it's... Strange to see you support her so openly.

She doesn't need you to do this for her, she doesn't even expect it, but you do it anyway for no other reason than the fact that you love her. You want people to give her the respect she deserves.

I'm going to be real here: Alcina has never been closer to swooning before in her life. You're overcoming your shyness because you believe in her so much-- it's not a gesture meant to be romantic, but Alcina can't help but see this as a massive statement of your commitment to her.

Seriously. This is such a massive thing for her that if proposals weren't already on her mind, she is mentally picking out a ring for you the minute this happens.

Then, of course, she glides into the room, kisses you until you're breathless and babbling, and smirks at the unfortunate peon who thought they could get away with insulting House Dimitrescu.

She's in such a good mood that she's considering going easy on the idiot. Maybe removing their tongue would be enough of a warning?

Donna Dimitrescu

You don't really know how it's possible but apparently some people don't like Donna Beneviento? Some people think she's scary and unpleasant????

Wild. Can't imagine what that's like.

The two of you are honestly the sweetest, most toothrottingly adorable couple-- blushing when you hold each other's hands, sneaking glances at each other across rooms, giving each other kisses and forgetting whatever was on your mind...

Honestly, anybody who's critical of your relationship with your girlfriend is just a hater. Fuckers can pound sand😤

Still, you are pretty shy, so it takes a lot for you to defend yourself if someone comments about you. It can take a lot of courage to stand up against rude remarks, and sometimes it's easier to walk away.

Defending Donna, on the other hand?

The minute someone even thinks about dismissing her, you are ready to throw hands.

"My lovely girlfriend already said no, meaning you're either deaf or too stupid to pick up on simple social cues," you purse your lips and give the rude and pushy Villager a patronizing once over. "You and your opinion are equally useless. Get the fuck away from us."

Donna blinks.

She... Was not expecting this??? At all?? You're so nice! You always tell her about your attempts to avoid confrontation! What's going on??? How did you get the guts to say what she's always wanted to say?

Meanwhile, Angie is LIVING.

The little doll chimes in to assist you with the verbal homicide, working as a tag team to absolutely murder this moron. She's half partner, half hype man, and is so excited to do this with you. Normally, she has to protect Donna all by herself, but she's relieved and reassured that you stepped in first.

'USELESS IS TOO NICE, THOUGH! THAT IMPLIES THEY AREN'T A POINTLESS, RANCID, LONELY FREAK. THEY LOOK LIKE THEY CRY WHEN THEY MASTURBATE.'

You high five Angie, still glaring daggers at the unfortunate villager.

The two of you continue to ream into the villager, while Donna hovers nearby.

As surprised as she is, she's also grateful. She's only really ever had Angie to help shield her from insults and disrespect (and occasionally inducing horrifying hallucinations that make people claw off their own skin), but having you in her corner makes her feel safe.

Not to get totally sappy, but you're like her knight in shining armor in a lot of ways. And the fact you two are so similar is really motivating-- She wants to one day be confident enough to return the favor. Until then, she's happy to watch her two favorite people have fun insulting some stranger ❤️

Salvatore Moreau

With you being so shy, Salvatore is surprised how often he takes the lead in your relationship.

He's not normally all that outgoing, but you seem to bring out a side of him that's very protective. Whenever you have a bad day he wants to bundle you up and keep you safe from the world.

If he so much as holds your hand you start stuttering and avert your gaze. It creates a feedback loop where you both get flustered, but Moreau has never felt steadier. Despite your shyness, you make sure he knows how much you love him.

You're sweet as pie and twice as kind--Salvatore is the luckiest man in the world, nobody can convince him otherwise 💕💕

So it comes as a total shock that when a passing fisherman spits in your path and calls him a freak, your entire demeanor does a 180.

Your posture straightens and you look the villager dead in the eye, "I don't believe anyone asked your opinion."

Salvatore: 😳

This is not the time, and he totally knows it, but, uh, something about your tone??? Really does it for him???

While he's attempting to process why exactly he's starting to short circuit, you proceed to verbally shred this person to bits with clinical efficiency-- nothing is off limits.

They might try to defend themselves, but it's useless. You do not let up.

"Ugly? Monster? Bitch your teeth are throwing gang signs, don't throw stones from your shining glass house."

You insult their appearance, what they're holding, their smell-- you get so fucking mean that you might even make them cry.

Moreau is just lost right now, trying hard to figure out how exactly you were able to gain all of this confidence so quickly.

He's not upset! In fact he's very flattered! But, he also doesn't want you to get into a fight with some unimportant stranger. (After all, if they so much as throw a punch, they're straight up dead. Moreau is a patient man, but he's not that patient. You do not hurt his partner and live to tell the tale.)

He may a healer but...

Eventually he steps between you and the fisherman in an attempt to deescalate the situation, but you just kiss him on the cheek and step around him, determined to make your point.

Blushing hard, Moreau lets you do what you want. What can he say? Fish man likes himself a protective partner 💞

Karl Heisenberg

Magnet Man is not the most social guy to begin with, so any opportunities you have to stick up for him are already pretty slim.

He mostly knows you as the shy, sweet, easily flustered partner that lets out a cute squeak every time he sneaks up to hug you from behind.

Karl's honestly happy just to spend time with you all alone in the Factory. It's not the best or healthiest mindset, but he'd be perfectly content to only ever see you for the rest of his life. Spending time with anybody else feels like a boring waste in comparison.

But occasionally, you do head out into town with him. Heisenberg wants you to be safe so he doesn't do it often, but running errands with you is a weakness of his. It's domestic in a way that he's never experienced before.

He likes it ❤️

What he does not like is the shopkeeper starting to give their opinions on the quality of your relationship with him.

Most insults Karl will let slide because he doesn't particularly care. However if anyone makes a comment on how scared (shy) you look around him, how you must be being threatened into being with him, how poorly Lord Heisenberg is treating you...he won't stand for it.

But before his fingers can even twitch towards his hammer, you snap.

"You're clearly the blindest cocksucker I've ever met--so wipe the cum out of eyes and mind your own fucking business."

Karl does a double take.

He's heard you curse before, but quietly. The words coming out of your mouth are WILD right now, he has NEVER seen you so angry. You're defending him with the aggression of a wild animal, and it's simultaneously HILARIOUS, but for some reason he's also getting a warm fuzzy feeling in his chest?

He doesn't need you to protect him like this, but seeing you blatantly argue how much you love and cherish him in public reassures him in a way he didn't know he needed.

Still, hearing you call the shopkeeper "shit for brains" is the funniest thing that's happened in years.

Heisenberg starts laughing, and the more you shout at the idiot, the harder he laughs. Is it weird how hard he wants to kiss you right now?

Eventually, he just has to drag you away, cackling as you continue to shout insults at the unfortunate shopkeep. There's got to be an alley around here for some good old fashioned privacy 💕

#lady dimitrescu x reader #alcina dimitrescu x reader #donna beneviento x reader #salvatore moreau x reader #karl heisenburg x reader #resident evil village #re8 #resident evil 8 #resident evil #alcina dimitrescu #donna beneviento #salvatore moreau #angie beneviento #karl heisenberg #angie the doll #swearing #insults

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gaarfielf · 6 years

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k im gonna throw in my hot take on part 5 now i think the time has come where i’ve watched enough of the damn series i can make a coherent essay on whats what on what (putting it under a read more bc this shit is gonna be long and i dont want my followers to suffer too much)

I’ll do this character by character starting with the new ones

Ami: I’m having a hard time deciphering whether she’s being underutilized or over utilized because number 1) her character isn’t interesting enough to have her keep coming around, especially when her only connection to the group is Lupin. She hasn’t had any interaction with Goemon or Jigen that i know of and she hates Fujiko for ??? reasons. That being said, I would’ve preferred if she was fleshed out more because 2) literally having her be the distant girl that is quiet and doesn’t understand social norms is..... really boring. It’s almost as boring as having a female character whose only there as a set of boobs... (coughs). She isn’t interesting because they didn’t make her interesting, yeah? It’s hard to hate a character based on the fact alone they were clearly written by a man but I mean it very literally when I say she could’ve been something great. Having her confess her love to Lupin was straight up disgusting and I really expected more from tms in that vein. Putting romance where romance doesn’t need to be is bad enough let alone when you jack knife it in between a child and an adult. And for those of you saying ‘Oh hhhh she’s like nineteen’....look into your heart. Even if she is 1) she sure as hell doesn’t look it and 2) Lupin is like 40-50. In the wise words of me, children loving adults was a myth made up by pedophiles in support of the devil. Npot to mention pitting her against Fujiko because they both like Lupin?? I ain’t even gotta explain why that’s a pathetic excuse at writing. But I will. Fujiko is a grown ass woman so why the fuck would she care and Ami is a child who shouldn’t be in love with him anyway. She has truly been nothing in the series except a tool and even at that not a likable one.

Yata: Do I even have to say that I can’t write anything about a man who hasn’t had more than 4 minutes of screen time in the last 24 episodes? He was hyped up before the series started and he’s done nothing but be Zenigata’s personality in the place of Zenigata y’know. Actually speaking and having one for himself BUT WE’LL GET TO THAT LATER. He’s done nothing but yell and cry over literally nothing? Like he fights Zeni’s fights because for some reason Zenigata got super lazy this season (again, we’ll get into that later) and he’s just a pointless character.

Albert: Gay rep for life haha just kidding he was bad at that too. I think they literally introduced him as faux-gay rep because they know the fans wanted more sensitive interactions from their already existing male cast members and they were like ‘well that’s gay so we’ll give them this guy’. And speaking on behalf of myself - ‘I don’t want these’. So Albert shows up, supposedly having a HUGE connection to Lupin’s past and then............we never see him again. And they literally tell us nothing about him except he’s gay and works in the government. Apparently when we say ‘we want gay rep’ they hear ‘very minor gay character??’ and didn’t hear us say ‘no’ back. And every time I hear anyone say 1) ‘well, his connection to Lupin is supposed to be a mystery!’ I can feel hives growing on my skin because i’m allergic to bullshit like if they weren’t gonna tell us the connection, and whatever the connection is didn’t reveal anything new about the character outside of ‘Lupin knew somebody that wasn’t Jigen when he was younger’ then why?? mention it?? why make an entire arc dedicated to not telling us something if the end result was ‘it doesn’t matter who he is’? 2) ‘well they’re obviously cousins’ except they obviously aren’t. if they obviously were, they’d say that they were cousins. like if y’all are digging up bits of the manga from 40 years ago to say ‘there was a character who had the same last name’ but are also out here saying ‘Jigen doesnt have a sister bc they said that over 40 yers ago and haven’t mentioned it since’ then I ain’t got nothing to say to y’all, you’re just dodgy and ain’t worth the stress of talking to. 3) ‘they’re maybe gay’ well the cool thing about gay rep is that we don’t give honourary mentions out for series that were too cowardly to actually come right out and say it. So in conclusion, Albert was written by cowards who couldn’t decide what to do with him.

Enzo: Boring. That’s literally all I have to say. Trying to give him depth by making Ami his daughter was predictable and not at all interesting. To be honest I completely forgot she was looking for her dad anyway because she didn’t seem to care that much about finding him either (or seem to care about anythign really). He’s a shitty villain and every time he speaks I got my finger on the right-key because I don’t care what he has to say and so far I haven’t missed anything good so yeah. Just disappointing.

I think that’s it??? For new characters?? So I’ll move onto the main cast

Jigen: I 👏 WANT 👏 JIGEN 👏 TO 👏 DO 👏 SOMETHING like good fucking God the man hasn’t done anything this whole series up until 24 where he got 5 minute scene dedicated to him killin’ cops (direct action) but like?? As a character he hasn’t progressed he has BARELY spoken and we’ve learned one new thing about him the whole series in the episode where he meets the daughter of a woman he used to work with. And that one thing that we learned was: he used to work with the mother of this girl. That’s it. Episode 24 he got a little bit of dialog with Lupin that I guess was supposed to be like character development but it was so weird because it was kind of directed at the audience?? So it’s like is he talking to me or to Jigen because if I was Jigen I would not have one goddamn clue what he was talking about. Also, he’s so depressing this season?? Right up until now we’ve seen very little personality from him aside from Angry and Complains a Lot. He smiles sometimes sure but like he doesn’t exactly have a lot to smile about this season considering he’s not really in the limelight anymore and is only brought back to foreshadow how much he hates technology and wants to retire. Personally, Jigen is one of my favourite characters and the fact he hasn’t achieved much this series is a big let-down

Goemon: I can’t even imagine how let down Goemon fans feel because again, up until Episode 23 he did nothing. He had an episode where he fell in love?? With a girl?? Disguised as a woman?? For some reason?? It was in one of the throwbacks and I’ll admit that maybe the episode made sense and I probably missed something but to me I had no clue what was going on. ANYWAY like his big scene in the spotlight is 3 episodes before the end of the series (its not like he’s a main character or anything) and he cuts Lupin. Because he thinks that he isn’t really his friend. That’s it that’s the only reason he almost murders his friend. Just kidding the other reason was that it was a half ass attempt at shock value to make sure the audience was still paying attention. They can’t seem to decide this season whether they want Goemon to be edgy or stupid but I think we’ve gotten a greta big helping of both so thanks tms /sarcasm/. They’ve really just dragged his character through the mud this season because he used to be stoic, mysterious, traditionalist but lowkey clumsy guy and then now he’s. I don’t even know how to describe it he’s just become so cutesy and edgy at the same time so we get him cutting Lupin in half right in front of UwU i eat my fish skin first ! I’m quirky ! like what am I supposed to feel about this grown man? He’s really too back-and-forth for me this season

Fujiko: I’M GONNA GET HEATED ABOUT THIS ONE SO BUCKLE UP I’ve never seen Fujiko written this poorly since TWCFM (yes i’m outting that as a bad series too so don’t @ me about that lil tidbit). She’s there as a piece of eyecandy bUT SHE IS SO POORLY DRAWN IT MAKES ME WONDER IF ANYBODY AT TMS HAS EVER SEEN A WOMAN IN THEIR LIFE TIME. Seriously her proportions are so off and outwardly repulsive looking it makes it hard not to skip anything she says in the series on account of how half-ass her character looks. Not limiting herself to being visually repulsive, she also has a half-ass personality. Suddenly Fujiko isn’t the come-and-go as she pleases, mysterious woman that gives Lupin intel on very high security operations she’s just. There. At some point in the series she said ‘a woman’s body is just a tool to get something she needs’ and I wanted to puke this is NOT Fujiko’s character at all and I’m disgusted that they’re brushing her off as a pair of walking talking boobs. Also her absolute lack of empathy is just mind numbing because they’re somehow trying to convince the audience that Lupin broke her heart due to wedding related reasons that still haunt her but? Seeing him cut almost in half does nothing for her? And then she deadpan ‘This is just how it is’ like this is just putting her in such an evil light that I hate because I love Fujiko! In every other season she’s fighty and sarcastic and witty AND NOT JUST THERE FOR EYE CANDY. And going back to the wedding thing, why is this being made into such a big deal? There’s literal episodes in other seasons called ‘Fujiko Doesn’t Look Right in a Wedding Dress’ ‘Fujiko Doesn’t Want to Be Married’ ‘A Ring Is Like a Trap’ like she 👏 don’t 👏 want 👏 to 👏 be 👏 married 👏. And the preview for the next ep shows her in a wedding dress so I’m ultimately preparing myself for the big season finale being them getting married.

hurray.

Final thought on Fujiko being, the episode where she picks up Lupin to save him from succumbing to his crossbow wound (easily the funniest thing thats happened all season) I mean. Yeah it’s kinda cool. I don’t really have any strong feelings about that like I’m not about to praise them for something like that when it was immediately followed by her and Ami slap fighting over him again.

Lupin: In my days of watching Lupin movies/specials my slogan was ‘if the ratio of screen time in the movie between characters is 10:0 in Lupin’s favour then it ain’t a good movie’ and it’s ringing true to this season where it’s all about Lupin. I understand obviously it’s a series called Lupin III like I’m not stupid but the amount of ass kissing to his character is something else like they’re putting him on this huge pedestal like he’s a do-no-wrong kind of guy to the point where he’s boring because he’s done nothing wrong. Ever. He doesn’t argue with anybody he doesn’t have any strong emotions really (outside of that episode where Zenigata loses his memory we see him outwardly angry for a minute). It just makes him such a dry character when they try to mold him into being absolutely flawless and admirable. Also the amount of faking his own death and ‘oh no is he gonna die’ moments are just not entertaining. Like I said earlier when he got shot with the crossbow that was the hardest I’ve laughed in a long long time. It played like an SNL skit (you know what one). And again we aren’t learning anything new. Whose Albert to him!? We never got to know, What’s his relationship to Fujiko!? We’re probably gonna find out they’re getting married last episode after all the touching moments they had together this season like.... like uh.... when they uh... oh right they’ve barely spoken to each other all season. And when they did they were arguing. Love is in the air huh?

Zenigata: AI’ll try to keep this brief but Yata’s taken over his character this season. He’s barely spoken, he has like, NO energy or determination. After the episode where Lupin faked his death (the first time, not the proceeding 90 times) Zenigata just stopped appearing and stopped doing anything productive. If anything his character became an excuse for an info dump. Like oh we see a war torn area whats going on? Zenigata is conveniently nearby to say ‘these people are at war!’ and then outside character will tell a 18 paragraph history on him of whose at war and their history and then Zenigata says ‘okay’ and doesn’t appear again for the next 2 episodes.

Now for the closing thoughts I guess

i don’t know why they’re looking at Lupin having plot as separate from Lupin being episodic. Like they’ve separated him from adventure so he’s just doing the same things over and over again. Not to mention like I said earlier, the fans wanted to see more sensitive interactions between the already existing characters, and if anything, they’re farther apart and just really confusing and contradictory. It’s hard to get through an episode when every week its another ‘great time for another plot arc they’re never gonna finish’. When I watched episodes of Part 1 and 2 and 4 (not so much 3 because i can’t find anywhere to watch it lol) I’m pretty attentive all the way through because the series drops tidbits of information about the characters and they make the episode enjoyable to watch. This season is so dreary and dry I can’t find anything to enjoy about it because it’s just one disappointment after another. I’m trying to to sound bitchy as I type all this out but I mean I’m speaking as a fan who is just really disappointed. I know I’ve said ‘disappointed’ a lot in this whole thing but there isn’t another word to describe it because that’s really the way that I feel about part 5. Seeing my favourite characters on screen is supposed to make me feel happy and excited to see where they’re gonna go and what they’re gonna do not make me think “I hope they don’t ruin this character for me’ in every. single. episode. This season has been underwhelming, unenjoyable, inconsistent and just really exhausting to me overall.

i gotta go eat now so peace out and if you read to the end of all this then hopefully i’m not the only one in this boat but if you don’t agree with me then i guess thats just how it is yeah?

EDIT: I forgot to mention that the callbacks were cool at first but now I just find they’re baiting me into thinking i’ll enjoy the episode because i’ll find something I liked from one of the better seasons in it. They’re just really overused at this point because these callbacks aren’t being used for anything. like ‘lupin is making his plan at the cagliostro castle!’ like. why. ‘detective melon is also angry at lupin!’ but if she isn’t like teaming up with zenigata or actually doing anything to find him why should i care.

#lupin iii #this aint fun so if you are feelin fighty dont read this

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booksbookandmorebooks · 5 years

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My First Stephen King Novel.

Hello my lovelies, im here today to write about my very first experience with the legendary Stephen king. I have been wanting to dive into the world of his work for so many years now but every time I got close to picking one of his books up I backed out at the last minute and there are a number of reasons why;

One I personally am not a horror reader. The idea of horror books terrifys me because reallistacally I am one of the biggest babies you will ever meet, and it always happens the same, I will watch a horror movie and be fine up until I'm in bed with the lights out alone with my thoughts and then all hell breaks loose.

Two I have previously discussed how easily intimidated I am by bigger and longer books, not only are they such an investment of time they also take a great deal of memory to remember all pivotal characters and plot points you will inevitably come across in a larger book. I know this sounds very childish, but when I see my "completed" list grow I get such a feeling of achievement and I always saw his books as such a massive undertaking and that in the time id of taken to read his work I could of read 3 smaller books. It's awful I know.

Three With my limited experience with big books I feel I could be generalising a lot so for that I apologise, but from the bulkier books I have read or should I say, attempted to read, I seem to find one very common problem, over explaining or over descriptive text you know what I mean. When you end up reading six pages about something simple like sand! Realistically I feel that a good author will take you about 60% of the way when it comes to painting a picture, give you the basics but still allows you to make it your own and personalise the story to a degree. The intense and unneeded descriptions that boarder on waffling is one of biggest pet peeves and the most consistent catalyst of my choice to DNF a book.

Four lastly, the hype surrounding these books has always been a major issue for me. I hate coming to the party late and as Stephen king is one of the most well known names in literature I was worried that not only would I be disappointed with the work but also I would end up being the only person to dislike such a revered author.

Yet with all that being said, once I bit the bullet I realised I could not of been more wrong on every. Single. Point. I ended up finding the exact opposite to all my previous worries. I could not believe how fast and hard I would fall for his work.

I finally settled on pet semetary for my first try mainly due to the up coming movie that had just been announced, as yes like a lot of pretentious readers I like to read the book first. So I bit the bullet as you would say, and wow. Just wow, i have never been left so completely speechless.

I was so shocked to find that this was one of the most gripping and immersive books I have ever read. This book is a slow burner yes, but when its combined with such strong character development and suspenseful situations the slow burner is a perfect fit. This type of method is the most effective in my eyes, Stephen king manages to create such an entrancing world without ever having to over analyse or over explain any of the characters decisions or in turn, mistakes. There was no over exaggeration of any type if anything it was ambiguous at times. I have described it as a beautiful creation and freedom shared between reader and author. It's also worth noting that I ended up completely unaware and unphased by its size due to how captivated I found myself when reading, I got so caught up so quickly. It felt like I blinked and it was over, a very bitter sweet moment in retrospect.

I was so taken a back by how connected I felt to the creed family, and how certain scenes hit me emotionally so much harder than I ever expected. At times I physically felt my stomach knotting and felt nauseous throughout the climax of the book! The first time I've ever had a physical reaction to a book like this. I truly had the misconception that I would be reading the most cliched type of horror you could think of, a true waste of time and I am sat here 3 weeks later still talking about how much I adored it. The fact that when reading the book I could even see the seconardy characters, even picture in my head. Their secret moments, from the suscpicious looks shared by the towns people to the whispers and trivial conversations. I saw everything clear as day

Although I have talked about the most obvious characteristics of this book and it's specific genre, the one thing I have to talk about is that this is not a typical horror. Not at all, this book while on initial read is a exhilarating and emotional rollercoaster it also demonstrates the scariest idea of all. Something that struck me more than any physical gore we read about in the book... the idea that anybody, given the right circumstances and the right emotional strain and turmoil, can become what they fear most, they become monsters and allow themselves to become so overcome with guilt and pain that they end up making the most irrational decisions possible. We see how the most seemingly put together people can crumble. sadly we become a spectator and watching that happen as you read the book is truly the most terrifying thing about this and something that will haunt you long after the gore and blood has long been forgotten.

So, if you have been living under a rock like me for the last few years and like me, share this view on his books, have prejudged and already written them off then I implore you, I beg you stop whatever trash you're reading right now and pick this up and I promise you, you will be left shocked, mouth wide open.

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plnjrhsyt · 7 years

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Last good night message

You made me love in the most inexplicable and sporadic way. I love you and I hate you both at the same time. There's no thin line between those. l did not expect you to this to me. I thought your love can go beyond the waters and winds of my storm. I thought I will never experience waking up and feeling my body, mind, and soul all paralyzed. It was a whole year of ups and downs. It was just a year, but, i swear, it wrecked all my senses and all my consciousness down. Do not get me wrong; I do not disregard all the times you made it to the eye of my storm. I do not forget the times you endured my rage because of my self-issues. Should I blame the timing then? That we met at the time when the skies and the stars and the moon do not align for us? Should I blame you then? For the times you told me you love me constantly when I was feeling it all differently? When I was seeing every love and interest from you deteriorate before my eyes? When I am seeing you getting all interested with another girl while staying committed to me? Love, your inconsistency killed the insides of me. And, love, my love for you stayed the same.

But you told me you love me and I feel otherwise. You told me you are as interested to me as before even if I feel otherwise. That’s the worst thing you did to me, love. You made me believe all the words from your mouth, and you do otherwise. You made my hopes all hyped then drag it down in front of my face. What’s worse than that is after all those dragging down and all those faking and lying, at the end of the day, I still find my self loving you in every way.

For some reasons, you stopped sending me long good night messages. Your eyes stopped dazzling as you look at me. You stopped writing me letters through your typewriter. You stopped mentioning and telling to all the worlds through you social networking accounts how I made you feel surreal when we see each other or even on the simplest things I do. You stopped looking at my pictures and wondering how you get me to love someone like you. There was also a time when you stopped talking to me. There were no stories to share. You stopped kissing me with trembling hands and a fast-beating heart.You stopped getting all too excited to see me. You stopped picking me up at PNU. You stopped telling me how much you love me so much while I sleep on your lap at Luneta. I stopped hearing the sincerity and the bliss from your i love yous. You started getting interested with another girl. And no matter how much I say that it hurts me to death to see you converse with her to the point where I had episodes of depression,you still continue it anyway. That is why I cannot remind you of the things you are doing to me before so that you can do it again to me because those are the things you did unknowingly and naturally when you still love me wholly and genuinely. There were a lot of things you stopped doing, and you didn’t stop all at once. You stoped doing those things one by one, which killed every piece and hope in me one by one, too.

I’m tired of getting all mad at you. I’m tired of the doubts and uncertainties you give me which kept me up all night. Im tired of cursing you and telling you how you are the worst person I met when it doesn’t change a thing-you’re still that guy who stopped loving me hard enough.. who stopped loving me deep enough. Nothing will change. There is not a thing I could do to change you and your ways. There is no dress I could wear to lure you and get you so madly in love with me again. There is no makeup I could wear that can make you look at me the same way you did during our first months of dating. I realized, this is not something I can control. It’s your job. And your actions are telling me all the truth: you have fallen out of love.

Should I blame you? Should I blame myself? What does blaming even do to make this better? Nothing. That’s why i want to apologize to you. For all the money you spent on me to pick me up at school, to eat with me, to drop me off the condo or the school. For all the sleepless nights you have when you still loved me the most. For all the hurtful words which kept you up all night and lowered your self-esteem. For all the times you have to accompany me to coffee shops just so I could finish my requirements. For all the times you spent your whole night trying to explain and clarify things just so you can win me back. For all the times you helped me revise the papers I needed to pass. For all the times you got jealous and uncomfortable with the guys I talked to. I swear, I never liked and loved anybody else during our relationship. It was always you. I’m sincerely sorry.

And, love, I will be lying if I tell you that I don't want this relationship anymore because the truth is that I will always long for this relationship. Yes, we do have a lot of disagreements and quarrels, but, surely, I will never forget the surreal moments we had. I will always want you like I always do. I wil always love you like I always do. But, you are destroying everything in me-my hopes, strength, courage, will, myself, dreams. And, yes, we have to stop now. There’s no turning back and we’re also never going to get back to each other again. You see, you have inflicted so much pain in me that I cannot help but carry it unwantedly and constantly on my sleeves everyday because it’s just so much for me to carry inside my heart.

Let me leave you. Let me leave you. And for the last time, let me love you until my heart ran out of love to give to you the way your heart did.

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i love crying so anything emotional is an instant read/watch for me ;;; AHH I KNOW I NEED TO WATCH AVATAR I HEARD IT'S AMAZING highkey hyped about it bc of zuko, heard his redemption arc is the best. and im a bitch for characters looking for redemption!! hit me with that character development shit!! and lmao nah gsnk is the funniest shoujo anime ive come across. oh yeah that winter sadness came in real strong for me this year too i was just so unmotivated? AND HAHA AJ RAFAEL'S WE COULD (1/?

HAPPEN HAUNTS ME TO THIS DAY BC EVERYONE PERFORMED IT AT THE TALENT SHOW. it was a bop back then tho. and ofc i’d notice bby!! honestly that song gives me such good vibes like :-( let me be in the mcu universe pls :-( omg wow thank u i’d love to have a friend like u tbh!! rbf duo lmao but HAHA THE OTHER DAY I WAS SO WEAK IN THE LIBRARY bc i went on my old aff account (come on i kno some of yall read/wrote fanfics on there) and i was cringing soo hard. my stories were so embarrassing (2/?

and i just cringed bc who would reaD THIS??? APPARENTLY A LOt oF PEOPLE?? Mind u this was in like middle school-freshmen year. lmao but at the same time i was like…. mildly impressed bc….. wow i had a lot of shit saved up that could’ve been so much more. It was all like bts, exo, bap, and block b hahah and being the fantasy nerd that i was, i made my own world and terms and?? there were also a bunch of angsty sad stories?? like damn who hurt past me?? thinking about going back to rewrite (3/?

them tbh. and i saw a convo between me and this writer and we were complaining about the lack of bts fics during the time LMAO this was probably like 2014? anyways, im so into the supernatural, dystopian, fantasy genres man!! like imagine bts (or anybody) bein some head ass demigods/high beings that are being punished for various reasons and the punishment involves them working mundane ass jobs lmao like mcd cashier, retail worker, cafeteria lady, janitor, delivery boy, etc on earth -sjsu

honestly, forgive me for being so crap about not responding to this yesterday! i was so tired i actually slept at 11 like my energy was so depleted, i didn’t want to sit up on my laptop or really open my eyes. it’s a first. usually i’m up until like 3 AM on weekends bc i get so energetic? but anyway, i hope you had a good friday!!!!!!!!! and i hope saturday’s treating you kindly :D

okay, me. i hate crying about emotional / personal issues, which is why i don’t really cry over that stuff?? like it’s too painful for me. but crying over shows???? idols??? done and done kjsdfhksjfha i cried like a bitch BOTH times i watched haikyuu!! and kuroko no basketball and…. ok i cried when i watched the second season of free! and voltron (did you know season 5 is up cuz i haven’t binged through it yet but aHHHHH!!!!) so you can see my priorities tbh. and yeeeeeeeees! i love redemption arcs too. i love anti-heroes bc they’re so multi-faceted like i know that’s expected but seeing them reveal different parts of themselves is just so nice and you come to love them bc some of their motivations are just so mislead i.e. zuko and wanting to please his father like he tries so hard and still it isn’t enough and he’s precious ok :( love him.

broooooooooooooo, same! i could do 9 AMs no biggie fall quarter (and one 8 AM discussion) but this quarter just having three of ‘em throughout the week is so hard. winter depression really hit me too. i don’t mention it on here a lot but it’s there and Strong. my coping mechanism is to just distract myself and keep busy tho.

WE COULD HAPPEN JFGKSHDKFJSH i remember when the mv dropped and all the uke players like………………….. died and ascended into another plane bc aj was the uke god back then. still talented af tho so good on him!!!!!!!! & (’: even just commenting on that change of my makes me so happy so thank you!!!!!!! i’d die to be in the mcu universe ok, lemme see a filipina hero or antihero pls n thx - that way i can truly say i’ve lived tbh. grhsgoshduj lmao yes let’s be the rbf duo!!!!!!!! me and you!!!!!!!!!!!

i actually never had an aff but my best friend read some stories on there LOL. i posted on quotev and fanfiction.net tho. like ff.net was how i got my start into the world of fanfics back in like 3rd grade??????? so 2008???????? but omfg when i posted fic on tumblr it was 5sos n teen wolf n yes sports anime…………………….. i kinda cringe with the pieces just ‘cuz i read this one 5sos one and it was just Cringey kdsjfhsjkhf the sports animes were fine-ish just cuz they were a little more recent but god just thinking about my older writing both horrifies and gratifies me bc i came such a long way to where i am now. i totally support going back and re-vamping them tho!!!!!!!!! i have a story from high school that was kinda a fanfic / venting piece and i posted it on my old account but never re-posted it here so whenever i touch it again i might just re-vamp it.

GIRL YAS. i fuckin’ love that!!!!!!!!!!! i love slice of life pieces cuz that’s my shit but i really want to do more fantasy pieces. i feel like i don’t have the guts to bc i have a few fantasy / dystopian wips that i have yet to touch but i aim to whenever the inspo’s there

#sjsu anon #answered #also pls tell me who is who in that demigod au of yours bc now i'm curious abt who's the cafeteria lady LOL

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