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#not every good thing gets taken away
kuruk · 2 months
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oh my god I know like it sounds weird to say this when it's just avatar but the original show has aang go back to the southern air temple to show katara and sokka his home only to find evidence of the genocide of his people and the loss of his loved ones and it's quiet until you see his grief and his rage but you just see the aftermath a hundred years later and the netflix adaptation makes it feel like they wanted it to be a cool action movie with an epic scene showing the fighting and running of the airbenders like that side by side with aang running away and it's like ??? okay it's "darker" congratulations I can see that's what the goal is based on the differences in firebending and early on screen deaths go and focus on every bit of violence for the audience's lazy sadistic pleasure instead of any of the characters personal narratives especially the women that can all be taken right out + the discovery of different places all over the world in the earth kingdom and outside of it. put everything in omashu so they don't get to meet people and see the diversity of the world and each town and SEE what life is like for them under war and have these experiences with all these people build up to something bigger at the end
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moregraceful · 6 days
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my queues ran out and i was at church all morning and will be there again this evening and will be at church tomorrow for like 12-13 hours and i just want to write fanfic and be stupid on the internet 😭 my life is so unendingly difficult i tell you what
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darcyolsson · 1 year
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the cloud 9 appearances in good girls hit different now i've seen superstore
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i just want things to be good for a little bit
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francesderwent · 6 months
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WAIT OK SORRY IT'S SUPER LATE BUT you're losing me?
I will accept this late message because I love you, and because “You’re Losing Me” is exactly the song that my original text post complaining about Swifties missing the point was about haha 
the Swiftie lyric: “I wouldn’t marry me either a pathological people pleaser” and also to a lesser extent “I’m getting tired even for a phoenix always rising from the ashes”
the lyric we should be paying attention to: “who only wanted you to see her” and “lose something babe, risk something. choose something babe I’ve got nothing to believe unless you’re choosing me”
ugh the reaction to this song drives me up a wall. to pull out “I wouldn’t marry me either a pathological people-pleaser” WITHOUT finishing the line?? are you nuts??? because the end of the line gives us so much context!!! he’s not losing her because she wanted to make the whole place shimmer and he wanted to hide and found her people-pleasing ways annoying, no! he’s losing her because all she wanted, the only person at the end of the day that she wanted to please, was him. but actually the song keeps going, it tells us even more as Taylor does what she always does: gives very clear instructions of exactly what he needs to do to dig them out of this hole. and it’s not pay more attention to her, it’s choose her. she said in “Cruel Summer”, we say that we’ll just screw it up in these trying times, we’re not trying—and he’s STILL not. he won’t risk. but he can’t keep going on in this same way, floating in limbo forever. and so she has nothing to place her faith in, her faith that was always so strong. 
basically what it comes down to is this. the popular reception of this song I’ve seen is so focused on the one pathological people-pleaser line that it’s somehow spun an interpretation of the song as about falling out of love when you’re convinced you’re unlovable. it’s just a shade off from the “what a shame she’s fucked in the head” of “champagne problems”; the blame is turned inward, except for very brief moments where it looks out at him to spit specific accusations “I know my pain is such an imposition”, ���don’t you ignore me I’m the best thing at this party” etc.  and I think that’s absolutely bullshit. “You’re Losing Me” is definitely not about pulling away and sabotaging the relationship, and it’s not even about someone doing a bunch of little hurtful things in the relationship. it’s about the relationship dying because one person won’t make a choice about what the relationship is and what it means. it’s Taylor giving the final word on the feminine experience of being taken for granted and strung along. it’s about waiting for someone to commit to you, and they never do. it’s about when you wanted to give everything, but your partner will only ever give a little, so you have to stop giving. to me, this is just clear. and I think the only reason that it hasn’t been taken note of is because the culture wants to go on believing that taking the “step” of living together while always keeping the back door open is somehow “good for the relationship”. but it isn’t. it’s not the familiar violence of being left, “this thing was a masterpiece til you tore it all up”, but it is just as destructive. it just kills you slowly. 
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lishadra · 5 months
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So the grief never stops huh it just builds
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cinnamon-phrog · 5 months
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Can I please have some comfort right now, if that's okay? People are watching me.
#i'm being impersonated and harassed#every day people in my past still try to find me. and i'm scared#not of what they might find. i have nothing to hide. but it's the constant fear of being watched and never being free#i'll never be free from the people who hurt me because they'll always find me somehow#i shouldn't be feeling so awful but at the same time.#i pour myself out to help others yet in return i get 'oh it doesn't bother me' and 'i've had it worse'. as if i doubt that for a second.#but please. not everyone has the same amount of emotional endurance. my patience has worn completely thin.#people i've known on here to be the most disgusting scum of the earth who no matter how many times i block them still show up in my inbox.#people from my old school still think they can get to me. a person who lied to me still wastes their time watching me#someone who i cared about the most probably still watches on and it's breaking me.#it always has been but i'm the sensible one. i'm not allowed to do this. i shouldn't be writing this but i'm getting desperate#i've taken deep breaths. i've drank water. i've done everything plus things i should not have to ease it off.#maybe the reason why i love puppets and artificial characters because i'm always used like one. like i'm a toy to break or put away#stupid analogy everyone has made for themselves but i'm done trying to be a good writer. the composer.#i want to feel without being judged but of course that's impossible. it's fine when it's strangers but relentless stalkers? it's wrecking m#it has been for ages but i was scared to say because i'm used to apathy and false promises.#i keep forgetting things and hurting myself. i'm getting scared.
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taeyungie · 1 year
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hi ♡ i guess i'm back? 🥹
here's a little life update! i think you guys deserve it after my absence that lasted longer than even i expected it to last ;( i am very sorry about that. i miss everyone here and bangtan so much, you have no idea. the reason for all that is that for the past months i have been going through a lot of things and changes in my life. there were good and bad things happening, time flies extra fast, days melt into one and i didn't even notice the past half a year pass. although i think my absence was unavoidable in these circumstances i just thought that you guys deserve to know what's been up with me for the past months haha i have received a lot messages and reminders that people remember about me and that they miss me and i just want to send all of you my biggest apologies for leaving you for so long with no response, as well as all my love and gratitude! 🥺 i think i've been always fairly transparent on here so if anyone wanted to know more I'll leave some more details in the tags but basically I just hope that soon i will be able to become more active again and respond to messages ❤️❤️❤️ i hope everyone is doing great 🥰
#honestly... it was yoongi's comeback that made it happen. that made me have motivation to come back. i didnt expect it but here we are LOL#because for the past months i have been struggling a lot and i almost lost all the connections with my friends family and bangtan#i lost all my feelings and thoughts#i didnt miss anyone i didnt want to do anything i didnt want to be anywhere. i was completely submerged into my own head#i still am. it didnt exactly get better but.. its just yoongis impact jasbhdjdjd he made me remeber a lot#in october last year i developed a very agressive eating disorder and its gotten a lot worse at the begging of this year#and it has taken everything from me. it sucked me dry and still continues to do so. it made my mental health so much worse on every level#but im still here and thats what matters in the end right ❤️#from the good things - after long unfortunate and very stressful job hunting i finally got a stable job 🥰 and i continue my uni so far#that's why i was absent here most of the time. i decided to focus on my life and on trying to change something and to fight a little more#after jin's enlistment announcement... it was a wake up call for me#and maybe soon i will be back on track but im taking things slow. especially that its not easy for me at all#but i just wanted you to know that theres been a lot happening here so ❤️ im not just getting bored of tumblr and bts haha#i never stopped following the fandom i never turned off my notifications from media i never stopped looking up what they're up to each day#i just didnt have time and motivation to be active. because of my health i wanted to be quiet and away from eveyone and everything :/#even from my comfort people and activities#that sounds sad but. it's alright so please don't worry about me ❤️ I'm holding on just fine. got used to some things ❤️ trying to heal#so yeah i think thats that haha i think its enough and all basically#it may seem like very little but my life has always been very slow when it comes to big actions haha#anyway. love you all so much ❤️ thank you for not forgetting about me ❤️#soon i will try to answer some mesdages from my inbox. please wait for me just a little bit more ❤️ im very overworked right now#but im so sorry that you have to wait so long ❤️
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pnk-spiderr · 7 months
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I think the thing that annoys me the most about Juvia as a character is the fact she had the potential to be a really compelling character but was turned into a creepy, one dimensional joke
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samiferboy · 3 months
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i am not immune to the idea of s1-2 samifer
#avery.txt#young sam being so desperate and confused and distraught bc he thought he could escape this life but no. he couldn't#and here's this easy calm confident man who tells him it'll be alright bc he's strong and capable#sam keeps having nightmares but sometimes this man shows up and pushes them away and makes him feel at peace#not to be all freudian abt it but he never had this support from his father & now there's this handsome man encouraging and accepting him#so he feels Something. and it's fine because it's just this recurring dream right?#but then he finally is able to ask this dream man what/who he is and. he says he's an angel. who's been watching over sam since he was born#(this is a scenario where lucifer gets out of the cage 4 seasons early ig)#and sam finally feels SEEN. he finally feels like his faith has been worth it.#he throws caution to the wind. grabs his angel and kisses him. tells him he wants him even tho he knows its wrong.#and his angel is kinda taken aback. this was NOT where he saw this going/where he was trying to steer it. he didn't think sam would do THAT.#but he gives sam what he wants and oh. it's GOOD. sam dreams that he shows his angel all the love his angel has given him.#idk where this goes/what the endgame would be here but. i love young sam still grieving jess and searching for his dad or grieving for him#*being swept up by someone who gives him what he needs and cares about him unconditionally#and doesnt care that he ran away. that he doesnt obey. that he doesnt fit the mold. someone who loves these things about him.#i love them so much in every possible way <3 con or noncon <3 varying lvls of fucked up <3 love all of it
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everyday I miss miitomo .. aaa
#these screenshots are not even good or the most interesting/funny/cool ones from back then#they just so happen to be ones I found in a folder so am thinking about them solely for the memory of it all#WORST thing is I never even had friends (still don't have friends really that have many similar interests to me lol..epic hermit moment) who#played or were willing to do I didn't really use the social aspects much. if there were any?? maybe I'm just making up a better game in my#head lol.. I thought maybe you could visit your friends apartments at some point or something? I know you could have multiple mii characters#and put them in their own apartments too.#I could also be mixing it in my mind with tomodachi life. which is a superior game. but also I think mostly I just loved the dress up and#photo creation aspects of this. That you could spend like 30 minutes putting your little avatar person in different lttle poses with differe#nt backgrounds and import your own custom background and etc. etc. And the community questions & answers section was always ridiculous#WHY is it that all actually good and cool things end up shutting down and nobody cares about them but then some tv shows/games/etc. can keep#going for like 808989598590 years when they are actually very bad and stinky and pointless#I know probably something somehting profit motive. if something sucks but is hyped blindly and sells then that's all that matters.#things that are cool and innocative but have a small audience get poo poo pee pee Not Good Enough For Shareholders whatever#>:(#This is why I don't play apps or online games /anything live service or that is dependent on external things to function#Like every once in a while I do but for the most part if something is not it's own self contained experience then I dont care to even get#invested in the first place because it could just randomly be taken away from you at any time without warning or etc.#Also just charmed by anything that incorporates personality tests into part of the structure of an app even in a minor.comepletely trivial w#ay due to my preexisting obsession with anything in the realm of that topic (enneagram. mbti. etc. even astrology. just any way humans categ#orzie and analyze themselves. NOT because I think they're all scientifically valid methods and swear by them in practuce but like. the theor#y of it. I love personaliy testing from like.. a cultural perspective? like the fact that humans make this stuff up at all. and how they use#it and conceptualize it and apply it to their lives. the different frameworks within which the same traits can be categorized in different w#ays. one person looks at X trait and says its bc theyre a virgo. another explains the same exact trait by saying it's bc theyre an infj. etc#I mean some of them I do find actually personally fun to get into themselves (enneagram mostly) but mostly I just like the.. analysis#tfw you're such an analytical person you like to spend time analyzing analysis. Thinking abt the ways people think about thinking abt things#Actually Ive talked before about how I don't relate to/care about/get emotionally attached to media/dont exhibit Fan Behviors or join fandom#s or etc. BUT that is actually the one vaguely media related thing I WILL do. after watching something I like going to places like that#'personality database' site which is the public voting on character's personality types. and I do enjoy going to read the comments. not bec#ause I care about the character themselves. but I love seeing the paragraph long debates about like.. why Whoever is actually an intp NOT an#intj . or like 'OBVIOUSLY theyre 3w4 so/sp ILI are you FUCKING BLIND??!'. essays breaking down every cognitive function they ehibit and why
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if i reread "farewell, my lovely" and marked all the places where marlowe got hurt (physically or something gave him ptsd or both) i think i would be upset at the number
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bereft-of-frogs · 10 months
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ahhh welcome back ‘I should be monetizing every second of the day and it’s a bad thing that my primary hobbies cannot be monetized and I should be ashamed’ feelings
🙃 this is because of student loans 🙃
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I think Cloudbusting by Kate Bush is on Lovelace's spacewalk mix.
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pepprs · 2 years
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covid is such an evil evil disease and an evil evil thing to live through lol
#purrs#this isn’t prompted by anything im just thinking about it. i hate that thisis what life looks and feels like now and it might always be thi#way. i hate that getting covid feels like an inevitability even though i wear n95s and don’t go anywhere but work and have basically 0#social life and have put my life plans on hold to wait for this thing to pass when it probably never will. i hate that lockdown was better#and easier than this in some ways because at least back then people were still scared and there still felt like hope and there was clear(is#) guidance and free testing and vax sites and whatever. i hate that free testing and public health dashboards showing covid rates and vax s#sites and all that shit have fucking disappeared even though the variants going around now are more contagious than ever. i hate the#mortifying ordeal of being the only person (or one of the only people) wearing an n95 and sometimes the only person wearing a mask at all.#hate that so many things have been lost and we are not taking time to grieve them or make sure that we are okay and will be okay. i hate#being scared every time i swallow. i hate how there is literally no way to tell if you will get long covid and no way to reduce your chance#of getting long covid or covid at all (aside from masks) just ways to make the symptoms less severe. i hate trying to bring people together#and stay away from people at the same time. i hate all the life that covid has taken out of me and the people i love even though thank god#know more people who haven’t gotten it than who have but actually that may not be true idk. and i HATE that because of covid and how#egregiously badly it has been handled everyone is just like.. perpetually tired and sad and we’ve accepted mass illness and death and#accepted that disabled people (esp those who are marginalized in other ways) are disposable when actually no fucking human being is#disposable and everyone should be able to live happy connected healthy lives and we could’ve ended this shit in EARLY 2020 without having t#deal with any of this absolute fucking NIGHTMARE. like god. i remember sobbing hysterically thinking we would be dealing with covid for 18#months and now we’re coming on 3 fucking years and lockdown is over but the danger is even worse than it was and like.. no one cares anymor#and it fucking sucks lmfao. i am so tired. i need to move out. and i miss my friends and i miss my life and i miss having fewer things to#constantly worry about and i can’t believe how good and simple life was before this stupid shit.#delete later#i wasn’t planning on going on a huge rant lol sorry it’s just what’s on my mind this morning
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fideidefenswhore · 2 years
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I've read some historians defend the Seymour faction recently, and was wondering if Gross included the defense. It is that while they did plot to neutralize Anne, they were probably only aiming for annulment and banishment like had been done to Katherine.
No, Gross didn't include that. That's been a more recent defense, I've read it too, from both Weir & Mackay.
Yeah, the defense is interesting because...it seems more like a strawman argument/ moving the goalposts than anything else. I have never read anyone claim that, it doesn't make sense that back in February of 1536 or whatever, they would be plotting Anne's judicial murder. It was unprecedented, how would they have even conceived of it?
The squeamishness people feel in regards to the Seymour faction is that when it did reach that fever pitch, they did not flinch. They readily accepted it. They didn't speak in their defense, in all likelihood, because Anne and George Boleyn being permanently removed along with their supporters (and poor Mark as collateral) meant their rise was more firmly secured.
A lot is made of Anne as Henry's 'mistress' then wife was sort of their blueprint. But I think, when they were moving strategically, Anne's queenship, was, maybe more so than her as mistress. The prospect of Anne alive, banished, insisting she was still queen as Catherine had, and attracting public sympathy (and anyone that doubts Anne ever had that, I mean...she had it more than she ever had in the Tower, a 'ballad of derision' aimed at Henry&Jane was not nothing), was a daunting one. It was very convenient for them that that was never going to happen. There was never the potential of a lightning rod to attract public sympathy and detract from their own reputations and status when it was permanently extinguished (think on Edward Seymour's animosity towards his nephew's half-sister, Elizabeth, when she was a teenager and all the pieces sort of start falling together...).
The defense that they could not have said anything in defense of, or to encourage mercy towards, those about to be judicially murdered as they waited in the wings for the spoils, because oh no, the potential wrath of Henry frightened them so much, is also a weak one. Maybe it was the potential risk/loss of their future rise that frightened them so much. But the idea that anyone that ever spoke on behalf of those accused of treason were going to doubtless be arrested by Henry is a fiction created for the purpose of defense to the morally indefensible, this genre of pretended fair-mindedness, pretended symmetry (the Boleyns benefited from the former Queen and Princess’ demotions and exiles, not their murders), both-sidesism. Cranmer was the only one that spoke in Anne's defense, and he was protected by Henry for the rest of his reign. It's like the fiction that no noblewoman could ever refuse Henry's bed because he would inevitably 'ruin' them and their family financially for their refusal. This is such a readily accepted narrative at this point that it doesn't even seem to matter that there's not a single example of Henry ever doing that, that in fact, in the few recorded instances of refusals to be his mistress (respectively, AB and JS), that he didn't do that to their families in retaliation, and arguably even elevated them (timelines are iffy for the AB courtship, but we do know that the ‘for a thousand deaths I would not wound’ was reported April 1, and that Edward Seymour was promoted to Gentleman of the Privy Chamber some weeks before that...it’s possible they coincided, or that the first did not negate the second).
But I digress. It didn't seem to 'terrify' Jane when she interceded on Mary's behalf when she was about to be arrested. So, no, I don't think the prospect of encouraging mercy towards these men and woman 'terrified' the Seymours, I think they just had no compulsion to do so because it wouldn't benefit them (and, fwiw, Mary’s reinstatement as heir would/could have benefited Jane by netting herself Imperial support, and it wasn’t like it would’ve reversed principles of primogeniture...if Jane had a son, which clearly recent events had shown she needed to, he would still inherit above Mary, we can consider it a gesture of the moment/circumstances...or you can decide it was because she was ‘selfless’...an adjective that probably doesn’t really fit either AB or JS, both of whom were benficiaries of, at the very least, their predecessor’s disgrace and repudiation). That's why they're popularly thought of as a group with no scruples. It really just does not seem like they had any, even if they never ipso facto encouraged the arrests, they accepted the windfall over six corpses. There's no way to spin that into something palatable, unless you truly believe the Boleyns, and their supporters, and a court musician, were all evil people with no redeeming qualities that 'got theirs'.
#anon#they directly benefited and there's just no getting around that#vacated viscountship --> granted to edward seymour#place in the privy chamber (mark smeaton's) --> granted to henry seymour#where are the qualms? you can hope they were there but ultimately there's no evidence extant of any whatsoever#they ceased to speak of them as if they had never existed#they joked about that status quo a decade later (thomas seymour did; at any rate)#which doesn't suggest there were any conflicted feelings about it from the direct beneficiaries#it's not exactly a topic of levity and yet.#the mary one is always a hoot bcus the actual 'selfless' thing to do in that situation-- ie what would not have benefited jane at all#bcus what support would she have had in the wake of the obliteration of the boleyn factions and all the alliances they'd brokered--#would have been to promote elizabeth's interests as heiress#or even to potentially advocate that both be reinstated legitimate in good faith#the wording is actually vague; what does 'the princess to be placed in her former position' mean?#every historian always assumes it means reinstated as princess but could it have just meant attendance in court?#with her own household without elizabeth ? (in which case...did not happen in jane's lifetime)#restoration simply means to be given something that was taken away. and for mary that could have been a lot of things#or just to be treated better? and that this was what was going to ensure the emperor 'being content'?#all the 'alicent is AB takes she should be more like jane seymour' seem to conveniently forget jane had another stepdaughter lmao...
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