#no seriously don't fucking do this to yourself

[biggest-geo-oogami-enjoyer]

Can you write how Geo would deal with a mc that is always sick? (Totally not cause I'm sick too)

My Remedy for your Malady. (All x Sick! MC/Reader)

Anon. First and foremost, I made you wait 5 1/2 days. I am truly, wholly sorry for this *humbly bows*. (▰︶︹︺▰)

Secondly, I decided that I'm gonna do this for all 7 of our characters, because Jess, Brit and Deryl deserve more attention. I hope you may forgive me for my lateness, and enjoy this fic nonetheless (btw get well soon if you're not already <33).

Also I know that Jess especially is shorter (literally teehee) than the others, but I'm gonna get the hang of her eventually. Same with Deryl. >:]

ALSO, you're in an established relationship with them, so that's why they have (very legal) access to your residence!

- Signed by biggest-geo-oogami-enjoyer

Remedy: a medicine or treatment for a disease or injury.

Malady: a disease or ailment.

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Geo was concerned when he found out you were ill.

When you didn't show up to school for the last few days, he texted you to find out why; to which you bluntly told him you felt like utter shit.

He doesn't pick up on the fact you're sick until you straight-up tell him.

Depending on what type of sick you are, he'll get the appropriate medicines/remedies and speed his way towards your home, hell, he might even skip archery, and he *never* skips archery.

Would rock up with food he knows shouldn't cause any problems or nausea for you and will probably make soup.

And you better fucking eat it.

He will feed it to you (reluctantly, but if you seriously can't do it yourself, then he'll manage).

Will ask you how the hell you fell ill anyway, and depending on your answer, he'll be either: Pissed (if you caught it from someone else), Or exasperated (if you stopped taking care of yourself or didn't equip yourself well enough to deal with the weather).

Will take care of you either way.

Will read to you in Japanese to help you sleep.

Will try to not lie near you if possible, unless absolutely needed. He does not plan on catching shit.

Will remain at your residence until you recover; unless he has classes that are either critically important and/or ones you're also in.

Will lend you his notes.

Will also take them back after a few days.

Will also just probably talk to you while you're bedridden, unless you cannot, in which case he'll simply watch you sleep, occasionally stroking your head and hair to try and comfort you.

He's trying his best, okay?

Sol will freak when he finds out you're sick.

Doesn't care what he's got on next, he's gonna go take care of you.

Will probably feel bad for not telling Hyugo anything about suddenly vanishing

, but he'll understand right?

Will spawn outside your home with: - Medicine, - Your favourite comfort food (if you can eat it without the fear of vomiting), - Probably will bring poetry and art with him, so you both have something to do (that's not him) when you're bedridden.

Will try and hold you if possible, doesn't mind if he gets your blessed germs on him.

You'll have to tell him that you'd worry for him if he fell ill, so he'll respect that.

But he will feed you. You don't have a say in that.

You're being babied now.

He's gonna make sure everything you want (and can have when sick), you'll have.

Is honestly okay with not going to any class, he'll just ask Hyugo for notes if he hasn't been MIAing.

Covers you in blankets if you've got a cold.

If you have a fever? Ice cream. >:]

Essentially tries to uplift your mood as much as humanely possible.

This guy will do anything for you. <33

Crowe will ensure that when he arrives at your home, you'll have everything you'll need.

Will cook your favourite food.

Will make you eat soup and light foods that are easy on the stomach.

Won't touch you, he doesn't want to fall ill, but will read to you.

He's got a soothing voice I just know it.

And he's 110% going to put you in a coma from how tired you feel when his voice hits just right.

Or maybe you're just fatigued because of your body waging a war against god-knows what kind of virus.

Will make you all forms of beverages to suit your illness, will also go out of his way to purchase any, after all, he's got the funding.

Will still go to classes, and takes extensive notes for you.

Will also tutor you the content if you're up for it.

Will stroke your hair if it's not sweaty, as a form of comfort.

Will make you feel as loved as possible.

Because that's what you deserve.

Brittney will be appalled.

How did you get sick? More importantly...who got you sick?

She's gonna yell at them.

Or fight them.

Maybe both.

Will buy a bunch of goodies for the both of you.

She can't cook for shit, so she'll just get takeout as food and order a fuckton of cough drops and Panadol.

You're both gonna be painting each others' nails.

And spilling gossip. Oh my god, she always had gossip.

Will give you notes to subjects that are majors, or ones you share.

Other than that can't offer much.

Will sit away from you to not get sick, but she'll 110% be supporting you emotionally.

Will probably give you a massage when you get better.

Idk she gives the vibe that she would.

Is the most aggressively supportive girlfriend ever.

She only wants you to recover ASAP, and to feel as content as someone who's sick can be. <333

Jess will be focused solely on you recovering as swiftly as humanely possible.

Is upset when she finds out you're fallen ill.

She'll drive to her home, grab the best shit she has and drives to your home.

Stays with you for days on end.

You've become her priority now, after all.

Jess is a very devoted (and lonely) girl, what can I say.

Will try and comfort you via reading to you, or listening to you talk about literally anything.

She just loves your company and you. Poor girl's been neglected her whole life.

She'll try her hardest to take care of you, and she does a very good job. (Ask Brittney teehee)

You're more than glad to have her.

And she to have you.

Hyugo will be astounded.

You? Got sick?

Why?

Did someone make you sick???? (if so teehee someone's getting food poisoning~)

He's at your home, with everything.

Literally everything.

Blankets, movies, games, medicine, puns, your favourite food and whatever else he deems necessary.

Will hug you if you're not aggressively sneezing/coughing.

Will watch movies with you on the couch with you lying on his plush fucking thighs.

Says the most stupid shit in Japanese (such as teaching you how to hide a body) and making it sound like flirting.

Tells you jokes and puns to make you feel better, until you laugh too hard that is and almost die.

Will make food for you.

Will ramble on about random shit to you, or listen to you talk (if you can).

Literally just seeing you content is more than enough for him.

Deryl will be SHOOKETH.

He will sprint to your fucking house. He doesn't care.

You're his only priority now.

Will magically appear at your home, and immediately hugs you.

You can be fucking dying, he doesn't care.

You're getting squashed.

Will be asking if you're okay 24/7

Until he realises he forgot to bring food.

Then he runs to get it, along with tablets, Panadol, all that jazz.

Like RUNS.

HE WILL RUN.

HE IS A FAST MOTHERFUCKER.

FAST!!!!!

Then he gets tired, so by the time he gets to the store, gets the food (and the 'goods'), he's gonna just call a fucking cab and crash at your place. (he forgot takeout existed lol)

He doesn't mind, and frankly, neither do you. The food and snacks was awesome (well, what you could eat anyway).

Will try his absolute best to take care of you, but often gets carried away with his energy. Often talks and rambles to you while you happily lay in bed next to him and listen.

Will call Geo or Jess for how to make a warm soup to feed you.

Then it becomes 'we've got Masterchefs at home'.

Shit goes crazy when Deryl's around tbh.

And you're more than happy to enjoy the ride (in more ways than one ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)).

#reminder that geo is superior #the kid at the back #tkatb #tkatb vn #geo subaru oogami #geo oogami #crowe ichabod #jericho crowe ichabod #hyugo sugimoto #tkatb x reader #solivan brugmansia #sol brugmansia #jess sitrus #brittney claire #deryl helianthus #tkatb hyugo #tkatb geo #tkatb crowe #tkatb sol #tkatb jess #tkatb deryl #tkatb brittney #IM SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG ANON #FORGIVE ME #RAAAAAA #also if some of these are short im sorrryyyyyyyy #( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) #heeeheee

[tehri]

Hey. So. Are you a university student or suchlike? Are you working on your bachelor's/master's/PhD? Are you prone to procrastinating on working on those?

Here, come closer. No, I'm serious, come closer.

Look. I'm taking you back in time to before the summer break/before whatever lengthy break you are on, and I'm going to explain something to you.

No, don't try to wriggle away right now, this is important. I am holding your wrist in an iron grip, and I am not releasing you until I've said what needs to be said. Stop crying, stop begging me to bring you back to your own time, and please ask past you to stop screaming in terror about seeing your future self, because this is for the sake of both of you (and me).

Do not say that you're going to work on that project over the break.

Don't look away from me! I'm not-so-gently grabbing your chin and forcing you to make eyecontact, so stop that shifty behaviour. Do not- No, I'm serious, stop it. Do not say you're going to work on that project over the break.

I know, it seems real logical, it seems perfect. You have a lot of time on your hands, you know you can get it done. There's just so much time, you know? So much time to put into this, to really get some work done, to really make progress.

Don't you see? You have already failed.

You claim you have gotten a lot of work done? How fortunate that I have your computer right here, I can just check the file and compare to your past self's file. Oh, wow, do you see that?

You have written 500 words. Over the course of 3 months. When you were convinced that you were going to finish the entire theoretical background for this project over the break.

I'm not-so-gently grabbing your collar with both hands to shake you now. Do you see what you have done?

You had so much time, so your brain told you that there's no need to panic. You have one week until courses start up again, you're going to have to see your tutor again soon. And you aren't done with even half of what you said you would do over the break. You aren't done with even 30% of it. No, not even 25%, don't you try to argue with me.

You procrastinated. You fool, you believed you had the self-discipline and control to do this. But you regularly leave essays and other works until you have very literally one week or less to get them done. You already failed.

I am dragging you back to your own time now and plunking you down in your chair in front of your computer, and I am telling you in a voice shaking with barely held back fury at my own fucking stupidity and naivety that no greater fool exists in this world. I am telling you - myself - that not doing anything for 3 months and then panicking and writing 500 words before getting a headache from having to word things in an academic manner is the Way Of Fools.

You are shyly mumbling about how you finished a really big project in a week by panic-writing, and I must laugh. Oh, I must give air to this hysterical laugh bubbling up inside me, this laugh of despair and of understanding. It is not the same. You know that it is not the same.

Do not say that you are going to work on your bachelor's/master's/PhD over the break and that you are going to get so much work done. Do not make any promises whatsoever about how much work will get done, for we both know that you are a pathological liar when it comes to your self-discipline and your ability to convince your brain that you absolutely do have to get this work done until it is already time to panic.

Do not do this to yourself.

#University #Student #College #Procrastination #no seriously don't fucking do this to yourself #i am sitting here swearing at myself because this is exactly what I did #In my defense - things really did happen over the break that were out of my control #BUT #I was the idiot who said 'I'm going to do this much over the break' #just don't do this #you know it's a bad idea #this is not aimed at anyone else than myself #I am berating myself and not anyone else

[uncanny-tranny]

Good news! You aren't required to make your hobbies and passions "marketable." In fact, your crafts, hobbies, and passions don't even need to be public if you so choose. You don't have to spend all of your energy becoming perfect if you aren't enjoying the process. You are not a product, you are a person, a creative, and your work also does not need to be a product.

#positivity #yet another post that's like... thinnly-veiled as being for myself #i find myself freezing with anxiety when i think about the things i used to do (writing especially) because... #...i had felt this force to make it ~content~ and ~marketable to an audience~ and it was so fucking daunting... #...it felt like being a gladiator in a coliseum #even now i fight the urge to equate being marketable to being acceptable and worthy of admiration and praise #i wish i hadn't burnt myself out of writing by doing this because i'm simultaneously grieving my writing and hating it #and it sucks the life out of what makes you feel like a person and it takes the art out of art #so be free! pist your art or don't! you are beholden to nobody!!! #(obviously this is not the case for professional artists who rely on their art to keep them alive) #(and i criticize heavily the idea that audiences are entitled to an artists labour) #(i understand that this isn't universal and if it doesn't apply to you then you don't have to take me seriously) #(if you are a professional artist or what have you i hope you are able to feed and house yourself off of that career!) #(i hope you are able to live a happy life and be able to keep loving what you're doing)

[fungi-maestro]

Questionable Images 1/2 - The Question #8 (1987)

#book club #the question #vic sage #dc comics #comics #questionable images #another one of my favorite issues #here you can see vic talk about second chances and get fucked up on drugs #also it contains at least two jokes about vic having no face. higher than there have been so far! #but seriously this issue is really fantastix #it shows you what someone who fights fire like fire is doing in the town of hub city #as well as discussing how 'innocence' can be subjective... #dr spaulding is one of my favorite one off antagonists. hes not cartoonishly evil or anything like a lot of the others. #you can see his motivations and you can see how his morals somehow justify this (while being hypocritical) #and yet you are able to look at it and decide how you feel about his actions & decide what it means when someone is 'innocent' #it forces you to ask yourself how much a person can do before they're irreparably guilty. and whether theres a balance to it. #100 good deeds might outweigh 100 bad deeds. or they don't. and every moment decides whether you're 'innocent' or not on its own. #and at the end you have to ask yourself whether spaulding deserved that. DID the punishment fit the crime? why him and not vic? #it brings up moral issues you maybe didn't think about before. #very very good issue... one i often think about. #WHY WONT TUMBLR LET ME MOVE THESE PICTURES AROUND IM GOING TO EXPLODE #no one is guilty except whoever at tumblr made this impossible

[tintenfischie]

This Veteran's Day, honour the troops and let me, a genuine Veteran™, give some advice to anyone considering joining the US armed services,

Enlistment: Not Even Once

#US military #Veteran's Day #seriously don't fucking do it #it's not worth compromising your ethics #like look at what this nation is doing and ask yourself if you want to be a cog in this war machine

[essektheylyss]

the only thing I keep notes on when writing is stuff that's already been signaled and needs to come back somehow, and I try to keep those notes as condensed as possible because if they're too lengthy or I have too many items I'll start missing things, but that gets very funny when I jot down something like

#in all seriousness I do highly recommend keeping a doc of just this. tho it does require you having to recognize what's being implied #but it also means I can decide if I've got too much to deliver on and need to cut some of the Foreshadowing #and if you do this while you're drafting you tend to need a lot less restructuring later in my experience #cuz you're always building on what already exists so you don't get to a point of being like 'well fuck I completely missed a major element' #doesn't help if you need to go back in and add something that wasn't even signaled but! it can help a lot in keeping track of stuff #and not overburdening yourself with too many Implications lmao #(not that that helps me with fic where I can go for whatever fuckin word count I need without even thinking about it) #anyway for the record wraith is a technical term in universe but it's so funny without context #and this is additionally something of a literal ghost story so it's got a double meaning #megs is writing

[sea-dukes-assistant]

All that effort to be reported, blocked, and publicly shamed.

Also, you're a piece of shit for advocating sexual assault.

#anyway what about anything I said meant “pls conspire in my inbox?” #like why was this the decision you chose to make? #do you read these things aloud to yourself? #you should so you can hear how absolutely fucking delusional you sound #it's beyond ridiculous y'all still obsessively argue over these 2 women #nobody takes you seriously #you look like a fucking clown sending this to me #ma'am this is a Prince Philip blog #try Jesus but don't try me #royal fandom

[tardis--dreams]

Some of those doctors make hating oat milk their entire personality. I hate them. Cannot pretend to find them funny or like i give a shit. Fucking pretentious assholes

#also my colleague (the girl i had my shift with) is the exact opposite of me in all aspects. asked me if I'd ever worked in customer service #because i couldn't care less about being fake friendly to assholes and don't care if they like the service or not #like bitch those people don't have any other choice but drink our fucking coffee it's not like I'm competing with anyone #or like they pay us in any way. i get paid for doing the dumb work i have to do not for stroking some dumb ass doctors' egos #they come out of their rooms once an hour to get coffee and we have the cups on the table and i wouldn't even Think of #HANDING them the cups and smiling sweetly at them and asking 'coffee? tea?? :))' #I'll just assume these grown adults will get their stupid coffee or tea when they want some. it's not like they don't know where it is #(and i AM friendly and smile when someone is coming in our direction but why the fuck do you need to get so disgustingly friendly with them #if someone held up a cup asking if i.want some coffee I'd leave immediately even if i came just for coffee. it's creepy) #anyway. she's nice. I'm not. #there's normal people who will get their coffee and maybe ask if the milk in the little jug is cow milk to which I'll happily reply 'yes #:)'. then there's the other people who see the oat milk and make it clear they are the most insufferable people on the planet #(and i pity their patients so much. not much to choose from i guess but if i had that as a doctor I'd happily just die) #like everyone who took oatmilk could do it without making a fuss about the cow milk on the table. the cow milk lovers could never #'the oat milk is in front of the actual milk. this is unacceptable. i hate such healthy bullshit' lol okay #'OAT milk?? I'll leave this to the horses! THANK GOD you have actual milk!' #my favorite was the one who really took personal offense with its sheer presence. as if it had killed half of his patients lmao #'we had 50 patients with xyz problem. ALL of them drink oat milk. they cannot see the connection. it's really unhealthy' #at this point i just said i didn't care and stopped paying attention and he started complaining to his doctor colleague about how #oat milk is advertised to be healthy and how it's actually the opposite and i just find that very funny compared to the first comment #from that one guy who doesn't like such healthy bullshit. you guys need to find a consensus on the oatmilk issue i think. no one takes you #seriously if you contradict yourself like this. also i couldn't care less about the healthiness of the milk alternative of my choice. bitch. #next week I'll end up killing someone. i hope they all die from their cow milk. (but not the ones who took cow milk and didn't say anything #about the oat milk. they can continue living as they didn't annoy me) #void screams #some of these doctors were actually quite nice (most of them even). one even brought an applicant to us telling her to get some coffee #(which we are not allowed to give to applicants. but i don't care. I'd rather they get something than some of the asshole jury members #who hate oat milk (which is not the issue. the issue is them making it everybody else's issue that they don't like oat milk))

[lab-gr0wn-lambs]

Oh man I think I finally just understood something fundamental about myself? So. When I was a kid/teenager I was kinda super depressed all the time, but there were intervals where I was suddenly fine. And I just realized, it follows the pattern of my hyperfixations. When I was super into something I was super depressed. And I think it's because the thing I was into gave me so much dopamine that everything other than the thing felt unbelievably hollow in comparison. But when I was less into stuff I was out and about and doing so much better. Bitch I had addiction problems with cartoons and viddy games lmfao holy shit?

#im still prone to it! i got my shit together with it don't get me wrong #but sometimes. when im really into a show or something. i get a lil antsy when im not engaging with it in some way #and i have to steady myself because i fucking remember what i was like #im not being hyperbolic i mean i was *seriously* doing bad #''yeah i dont think i have an addictive personality i mean ive never had issues with alcohol or food or drugs or-'' bitch #you had to get 'clean' from Cartoon Show #bitch you stayed up all night watching Zombie show. watch yourself bitch.

[chl3borzoi]

You should never feel dread about intimacy. It should be a pain-free and enjoyable thing. You should feel held by your partner. Your partner should defend you to others and make you feel wanted, in many more ways than just sexually. If this clicks with you, i encourage you to leave. Heartbreak and being alone is sad, but it's better than bad.

#i feel like too many people taking dating way too seriously. #if things are bad and youre not comfortable or happy #and if you do indeed try to voice yourself and address things. to not be heard or understood. or respected. LEAVE leave leave #leeeavvvveeeeee regain confidence recognize your charming character qualities take care of yourself. #you should never ever ever put up with feeling scared in the bedroom #because apologies cannot fix that level of trust breaking #p #yeah i slept through therapy yeahh im binge drinking again lmfaooo. love yourself because i don't love myself. #OH a liar is something we don't entertain. #if youre partner is a liar ESPECIALLY a pathological one RUNNNN AWAY #wrong your oh look i picked up a bad habit lmfao. god. have enough self love and worth to date someone whos fucking literate. #feeling [REDACTED] Today may record vocals for my friends album later

[moe-broey]

Going to the mall as I am now (kinda punky/extremely autistic) is kinda funny like. That's a nice shirt. However, it's not one of my thousand beloved black graphic t shirts and it is such a texture and kind of a weird shape to it and honestly I don't really wanna buy any sort of fast fashion type shit or brand shit. Don't care. Oh they have patches. Kinda cute but straight up I can just make those. In fact, I would prefer to. Don't care. Also I'm not buying that.

#i've kind of become a very hard person to please but it's deceptive. in both directions #what i really want is materials. and incredibly specific things. #also just. something about the patches that were designs/artwork like. i feel like i'm being sold an aesthetic #when like. yeah. yeah you are quite literally LMFAOOOOOO #i wanna start a for real battle jacket.... a sturdy but lightweight enough vest for daily wear... #i have a vest but it's flimsy as fuck and not the right shape for me. so i think i'll scrap it for patches #i still gotta figure out how to make nice patch designs though. that is something i struggle w for some reason #but like. i'm not buying mall patches LMFAOOO like. idk it almost feels insulting #idk idk maybe i'm taking it too seriously LMFAO but it does feel like brazen commodification #of something that's like. you're supposed to do it yourself. kinda goes against the whole point #ideologically too. but again maybe i'm just too serious about it. #but like above all i don't want Things i want stuff to make things. #OH MY GOD I GOT IT. those fucking patches were the live laugh love of people who want the aesthetic and edge of punk #but none of the roughness. none of the shittiness. and none of the actual philosophy behind it. #gooooddddddddd i probably sound insufferable though LMFAOOO #i also just feel like a poser myself at times like. i could go deeper i think. #anyways. most important thing and whole point of the trip was manga. got some manga 👍🫡

[epickiya722]

You know what, I don't even think hating on BKDK is just being homophobic, but I also feel like people hate on it as a trend, too.

There are other Bakugou ships, Midoriya ships, m/m ships, f/f ships and by far other worse ships (if I see one more Miruko being shipped with Midoriya story at the top of the page every time I go to the AO3 tag for Miruko before I can get to the exclude option...) that I haven't seen get as much hate BKDK does.

I'll use TogaOcha as an example. I've seen people hate that ship, yeah for various reasons. Homophobia, "Toga's crazy", "Uraraka is not into girls", yadda yadda. However, the ratio of the hate is little compared to BakuDeku. For every 1 anti-TogaOcha blog, there's always like 5 anti-BakuDeku blogs.

DabiHawks is another example. Like BakuDeku, that's a M/M ship. But I don't see Twitter blowing up on how "toxic" that ship is or "Hawks is straight" or "Dabi doesn't love" or whatever.

Shoot, I have seen fanart of Dekubowl and it's nothing but the girls being reduced to mindless sex toys for Midoriya. (That is just... no...) But no one hates on that as much as they want to say "ew, BakuDeku is so gross, ew".

Again, of all the ships, BkDk does get a lot of hate. Yeah, homophobia plays a part. Yeah, Bakugou hate plays a part. Yeah, favoring another Bakugou or Midoriya ship plays a part.

But let's be honest, some people hate on it because it's just there to hate on. Some of these people cannot think for themselves at all. They see someone jump abroad the hate train and be "Let me join, too!" Even people who long dropped BNHA or never touched it do it.

Just stop, just stop. People, I'm going to ask you to start thinking for yourselves. Stop being such a follower. It's not a cute look.

#just kiya's thoughts #first off if you hate a ship you hate it #i personally don't waste my energy of ships i don't like #seriously stop being a fucking follower #if you truly hate bkdk alright #but if you just seeing everyone else do it #and choose to do it #you have reduced yourself to minion status #bnha #mha #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #bnha fandom critical #bnha fandom criticism #bnha fandom #bkdk #bakudeku

[biromanticbookbabe]

Wow. Sometimes I'm very lucky and my bipolar doesn't always affect me much. But no such luck lately. I'm worried that I might have to retake my modern lit course because I was so late with many of my assignments. I've been mentally messed up more or less with a mixed mood episode since last September. I'm currently on the line of passing and not passing the class (granted there are a few ungraded assignments, including my final so it's still possible that I'm overreacting). I'm usually a good student too so it's a point of pride for me. I went from the honor roll to this all due to me fighting with an illness... :/ (It is my fault for not managing things better so I'm not looking for pity here- just talking).

I cannot imagine how horrible this disorder is for people who didn't have the option of medication (I am medicated, believe it or not). I think about that about that a lot since I study history and look into many writer's and artist's biographies in my spare time. I feel very bad for them since they basically had to live with this disorder without the fixes I have simply because I was born late enough for treatments to exist.

Virginia Woolf and Sylvia Plath both haunt me. Other people too. Yes, Lord Byron was extremely shocking but consider- we don't actually know what he would have been like if he could have been treated. He wouldn't have died at 36, I'm almost certain of that. I am highly aware of what this disorder has done to people before me. It doesn't make it better. But I keep looking back any way, to see that many of them did incredible things, in spite of it all.

I just keep thinking that if they could do so much without any treatment- that I should be able to function with treatment??? I know: don't compare yourself to other people but I'm desperate to know that I can be successful even with this illness. That it's not going to force me to leave school (the one thing I have been historically good at) and waste my life toiling away for nothing.

So if it seems as if I have been hitting my head against something lately, you aren't wrong. The fall is not generally my friend, pretty as the leaves are. I have not been having a good time of it but we must go on any way because what other option is there? None, I tell you.

#leaves pretty brain shitty has been my fall for the last few years since 2018 at least... #consistently fall has been bad for my cycle though I like that time of year normally #granted a lot of things kept happening every fall since 2018 too #bipolar disorder #actually bipolar #I probably am a closet perfectionist in some cases #I am exhausted thanks for asking! #and yes for a few semesters I was an honor roll student in my grad school- not any more though LOL #seriously I'm going into debt for this degree and uh that promise to waive our debt never came to light so I'm very fucked rn #I have to finish this degree so I can work off my debt and build a good reputation for myself #I'm honestly afraid my illness might take away my ability to have a career at all; I'm desperate for a living wage! #it's not good #but this could be anxiety talking tbh #for real I'm amazed that like Virginia Woolf and others were able to do as much as they did in their lives #because without my medication I'd probably be useless??? Mania is not fun 10/10 would NOT suggest #I actually pity Lord Byron after reading his biography; he just seems like if mania was a person and um it explains his behavior completely #do you ever look back at other peoples' lives and see pieces of yourself in them and then feel really bad for them? cuz I do all the time #mychatter #I'm stubborn in that I refuse to quit school since I am aware that my family needs to know I can do this #please don't take this personally this is my problem and a pointless rant probably

[thenarator]

i cannot tell you how disheartening it is to post a fanfic or fanfic chapter and the first five comments are a bunch of entitled bullshit requesting you change things, give spoilers or talk about characters that aren't part of the story and aren't in the tags.

#who has been going around telling people that it's cute to make demands of authors as long as you put an emoji or say please? #go fuck yourself you're not welcome in my fandom space #and there's always that one character in every fandom you can't escape #that you get questions about on fics that have nothing to do with them #and i fucking hate that shit cut it out #if you're not going to engage with the content of the chapter then why are you even commenting? #please i'm so so tired #and don't tell me to moderate comments #i still have to fucking read them #seriously who raised you people? #who taught you fandom etiquette? #turn on your location me and my baseball bat just wanna talk

[running-in-the-dark]

I know I've been particularly incoherent for the past few days (again), and it's so dramatic and ridiculous but it seriously feels like something is punishing me. I just want to like things a normal amount. I just want to like people and characters a normal amount.

I don't want to become so fully obsessed that literally nothing else exists and thinking about anything else feels like my brain is being stabbed with a thousand tiny knives. I don't want to need to find every piece of information I possibly can on whoever it is this time. I don't want to feel like I'm (literally) losing my mind when I see them. I don't want any of this!

I can not believe that I exist as a human being on this stupid planet just to get obsessed with people over and over and over again forever.

#like it's not. fun. it's not 'oh haha I just like this guy a lot :3' no it feels like. dying. #like I said I know it's fucking dramatic I know. but it feels SO BAD #and sometimes SO GOOD because nothing else gives my brain that feeling but god damn it most of the time it's just painful #maybe I should try drugs #probably. #maybe I should start drinking again #that made it bearable #but no that's. stupid #but my god how am I supposed to go through this again and again and again so many times in a row #I don't know how to explain how fucking devastating it is to attach yourself to. some stupid idiot (I'm sorry I don't mean that.). only to #not really care anymore after a couple months #what do you MEAN. I literally love this person with every stupid fibre of my stupid being and now he's just. some guy again?? #I don't know. how. not to do this. it's not a choice! it's not something I DO. it HAPPENS to me. #and it only doesn't happen when I'm so depressed that I want to actively die. #anyway yeah it's about John Larroquette and Dan Fielding and Jenkins and yeah I'm the fucking stupidest fucking dumbass on earth #someone hit me in the head to fix my brain please #and seriously this is not normal. it can not be normal. this is not how normal people feel about stuff. it can't be #I think this is why I don't get fandom culture. and shipping specifically. like. no I'm not. I'm not enjoying these characters. I'm not #watching this show and thinking aww these two should kiss :) #I'm. not there anymore. I don't fucking exist. all I do. is think about this person. I can't stop it. #I am not a person when I don't feel like this. I'm not even real. I'm just whoever I'm obsessed with. I say that so much but that's how it #feels! I'm not real. #so anyway when I say 'haha I'm fine' what I mean is no I'm not someone make my brain work right please #I just. see him and start crying. because it's so overwhelming. #maybe I should find a therapist and hope they speak English and show them this post :) #haha no that's ridiculous I could never mention this to a normal person #guess I'll just keep driving myself to insanity with this crap. #personal

[uncanny-tranny]

honestly i've always been wondering if i was a trans man or a nonbinary guy ever since i found out i was trans. i don't know whether i identified as a transmasc enby to fold myself into the community's criteria of what a good person is, and i feel like i've kinda lost myself at this point

I'm going to be real for a minute to say that the concept of "what is a good [x] identity" is fucking bullshit, and if it's something you worry about, it will frankly just bring you down more than anything else, including the wondering of "am I [x] identity?"

You will find your people. You will find people who accept where you are now. It's okay to not be totally sure where you are in your identity, but the people who want to control what you identify as don't have your best interest at heart.

I won't tell you what to ID as because I genuinely cannot be convinced to say "you are [x]" with a good heart. What I always encourage is for you to explore that, and if you're worried about finding community, just know that not every community will be the worst toward you. Your concerns are important to consider, but I truly hope it doesn't hinder you from being true to who you are.

I presume this was your concern about your understanding of yourself, but if not, I apologize for the misunderstanding. Regardless, your queerness is yours first and foremost. Nobody has any claim over it, nobody has authority over you about it.

#ask #anon #trans #transgender #lgbt #lgbtq #ftm #mtf #nonbinary #what is a good enby/transmasc/enby transmasc?: anybody who identifies as one #the whole 'this is how to be a GOOD [x]' almost always delves into the worst impulses of people #which is controlling others and humiliating people who try to in-group themself when they don't ~deserve~ the community... #...and so many other things. worrying about that is completely understandable but i do not want people to take it so seriously... #...that it impedes their ability to understand themselves... #...are there shitty people who would exclude you because they don't think you ~deserve it~? maybe... #...but those people genuinely don't fucking matter and they're likely already miserable in their own understanding of themself... #...people who are genuinely okay with themselves and their community and queerness *tend to* not give a fuck about your own understanding #let yourself be a bit selfish about YOUR queerness #like i can be really protective over my own queerness only because it's been denied to me for so fucking long and it's like... #...why would i *want* to go from being denied queerness from cishet people to have the same thing happen but from other queer people?