#my heart hurts a lil

[lemonadehtwooh]

Forcing you all to look at my doodle of Tighnari from Genshin because I want to pull him SO badly, I've been playing for almost a year or so and he's just so Cool and Smart and Interesting

(sorry it's not an FGO post again TwT)

He's on my list of characters who are So Autism to me (yes Genshin's Alheitham is on the list too). Ignore that I had ran out of room for his ears XD

I tried making him more masculine because I notice a lot of fanart makes him look Super Feminine, which doesn't make a lot of sense to me because he's a Forest ranger and is outside A Lot and stuff like that, like I think he would be very sturdy. He just gives masculine vibes to me, but like a Pretty type masculine. He's like a tree, I think. Strong and sturdy but pretty

Tighnari is a tree, I think that's a good comparison

#genshin impact #tighnari #genshin tighnari #ibispaintx #digital art #genshin fanart #I really wanna draw Cyno and Collei too #The three of them are so so SO Found Family to me #My heart hurts a lil #I feel so much about fictional characters and idk why other than hyperempathy (autism) #I need to actually make a non-mental list of characters that are very Autism to me lmao #Then everyone can peer review it XD

[mikelogan]

John Ritter as Sam Dorian in Scrubs 1x19 My Old Man

#scrubs #scrubsedit #john ritter #zach braff #donald faison #myedit #1x19 #my old man #my heart hurts a lil

[satans-knitwear]

What if i told u..... Tiddies. 🤔

Treat me ~ Tip Me ~ More of me

#That's my wisdom of the day. Ur welcome #Damn I'm wise af #satans knitwear #alt pinup #pinup girl #pretty lingerie #Red lace lingerie #girls with piercings #cheeky #It's been a really rough few days for me. Watching my baby suffering is absolute hell. But shes on a few meds now so hopefully will improve #🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞 #A lil end of the tags update for u if you get this far. My sweet babydog is not well and my heart is hurting so much

[c-t-r-l14]

This Audio Is SICKENING.

Ya’ll—I don’t even know where to begin.

When I tell you that I physically FLINCHED upon seeing Alex’s face in the thumbnail, the way my heart started beating, the way I started SHAKING while putting my AirPods in—you guys would’ve thought that I’ve gotten some terrible news or something. And—I don’t even know what’s CRUELER—the fact that Saku posted this audio on April Fools day, making us go back and forth between “is this cannon?” or “nah, this is definitely a joke!” Or him making it all lovey dovey at first, giving us a false sense of security—waiting for us to finally let our guard down so he could get ready to strike. But I do know that it broke me, and made me feel for listener even more.

I think one of the biggest reasons why it broke me so much was because we can see how much listener blames themselves. How much they think the breakup is all their fault.

And you can see how much its impacted them.

You see the thing with Alex is that he is really, really bad with communication. He’s rather quiet about how he feels, and doesn’t voice it out loud. A person like this—who doesn’t talk about their own feelings, who’d rather stay silent—usually are alone with their own thoughts. And that’s when things get rocky, especially in a relationship. One of the things that I noted in the break up audio (besides all the gaslighting, manipulation, and reality distortion), was the fact that Alex has had that argument on his mind ever since it happened, and not ONCE has he said something about it until the day they broke up. He was alone with his thoughts the entire time up to that point—mulling over the argument, his feelings, his future—and I feel like him doing this, instead of actually talking to listener to see how things can work out deadass lead him to believing that they couldn’t be together, which lead him to not tell them about the job offer until the very last minute. I wholeheartedly believe that if he sat down with them, and told them—“hey, I know you said sorry, but I still feel like shit because you made me feel this way,” if the thoughts got to be too much, then maybe things would’ve been better. But he didn’t—and just like listener, he assumed the worst, and on top of that— gave up without even trying to fight for the person he claimed to love so much. Instead, all he did was make excuses, act hypocritically, gaslight them, and blame them for everything—all the while not realizing that there was a whole bunch of things HE could’ve done better too.

And we can see how much it took a toll on listener—considering the fact that they were ridden with so much guilt that can’t even sleep well at night.

I can feel how much they hate themselves through Alex’s words as he tore into them, and this is honestly partly Alex’s fault, because he reduced them to a mistake they made. Dream Alex (who will now be referred to as DA from now on) was taunting listener—and throwing the words Alex said to them during the break up back to them. He kept on reminding them of their mistakes, and that THEY are the reason why he left. He kept on reminding them of the worst parts of themselves—and that’s high key what Alex did during the break up too. I feel like we all need to acknowledge that what DA said to listener in this audio is most definitely not a reflection of the way the real Alex would talk and act—simply because DA is a figment of listener’s imagination. And since listener is filled with so much hurt and heartbreak right now, of course their own guilt and self hatred is going to distort how things operate in their mind. So, let’s not take the things he has said at face value.

Listener has a lot to work on. Their trust issues left a wound that ran deeper than they initially thought. In a way, they are too much in their own head as well—and do end up going to the worst case scenario, and this behavior stems from the trauma they sustained from their former partner. This leads them to do irrational things, like invading Alex’s privacy and accusing him of stuff that only happened in their head.

Both of them have a lot of shit they need to work on. Alex needs to learn how to actually talk about how he feels, learn how to take accountability for the things he’s done wrong, and maybe grow a damn backbone, and listener needs to go get some damn therapy, get their trust issues sorted out, and learn all the facts before they come at people with any assumption they might have about them. I feel like this dream was kind of the point where listener realizes that they simply just can’t let their relationship end like this, because through this dream sequence, they realize that there was still a lot of stuff that was left unsaid, and are now seeking for some closure. I think now it’s the best time to go for it, considering that Alex apparently didn’t go to NYC and stayed in London instead (this is still very much unclear). And I am hoping and praying that his ass has the same nightmare listener had as well. Listener can’t be the only one who has a wake-up call (pun intended).

Their downfall was caused because these two idiots don’t know how to convey their emotions to each other properly. They could’ve had it all if one just actually opened their damn mouth to speak, and the other would just simply think before they open theirs.

This confrontation can go two ways: they cut each other loose and go about their own lives, or they find a way to make it work, (granted that they are BOTH willing to work on themselves).

Do I think their relationship is a lost cause? I don’t know. Something tells me that this probably isn’t the end, and a part of me (as much as I talk shit about how much I want listener to be an absolute bad bitch and leave him to drown in his regret), doesn’t want it to be the end.

With this being said, I still don’t like Alex. It’s gonna take much more than a damn walk down memory lane with a bizarre, brutal, dream version of him to get me to like him again.

Oh and by the way, Saku if you’re reading this—sleep with one eye open tonight.

Masterlist

#zsakuva alex #zsakuva #alex zsakuva #why did the beginning make me miss him a lil!?? #this audio was so damn sad bro #poor listener dude #I still don’t like Alex though #sakuverse #They are both hurting #as much shit as I talk tho #I want them to end up happy together #this shit actually broke my heart

[dvnieldraws]

tubbegg fredzone

#my art #artists on tumblr #qsmp #qsmp fanart #qsmp art #qsmp tubbo #tubbo fanart #qsmp tubbo fanart #hes just a lil guy (he has committed war crimes) (he will continue to commit crimes) #love the morning crew #the idea of tubbo having burn scars bc of the lava makes my heart hurt but its pretty based #I SJOULD GO SLEEP. #I HAVE TO GO TO SORK AT 4 AM #ITS 12. #also also #i LOVE doing character designs i should design more of the qsmp chars i jus get intimated by all the cool designs already floatin around #n by all the very talented artists sobs #LMAO intimidated i rwalized. jm dumb as hell

[thedukeofhastingssexyrobe]

GEORGE + CHARLOTTE'S FACE

#bridgerton #queen charlotte: a bridgerton story #qcabs #king george iii #queen charlotte #qcabsedit #george x charlotte #charlotte x george #bridgertonedit #tvedit #weloveperioddrama #onlyperioddramas #tvsource #mediagifs #romancegifs #romanceedit #netflixedit #heartbreaking parallel #my lil heart was hurting for him during that 1X06 scene #q

[gryffindorcls]

EXCUSE ME WHILE ALL OF MY FAVORITE TROPE DREAMS COME TRUE

HE WAS WORRIED ABOUT HER ITS SIX AM AND IM IN TEARS THIS IS ALL I EVER WANTED

#miraculous ladybug #ml spoilers #ml season 5 spoilers #adrienette #THIS IS WHAT I NEEDED TO GET THROUGH TODAY #THIS MAKES MY LIL HURT/COMFORT HEART SOAR

[luck-of-the-drawings]

been followin slimes POV of the qsmp since it started but mMY GOOOODDDDD i never expected to fall so in love with it... I LOVE THE TRADGEDY OF A COMEDIC CHARACTER! so funny so silly, who could ever take him seriously? when the reaction to grief can be so overblown and strange, its hard not to laugh! because wheres the line, really? we're just here to have fun! i look forward to the day this guy snaps! its gonna be REALLY FUNNY i tell ya hwat!!!

(CREDIT TO A COMIC I REFERENCED UNDER THE CUT)

something about this comic makes me so so emotional, and its so well framed. to discover something by the end of a comic, to follow the same line of thought as a character within a drawing, to either come to the same conclusion, or the dramatic irony of figuring it out first. it was made by the talented Lynda Barry, and she has a wonderful shop here https://drawnandquarterly.com/books/greatest-marlys/

#q!slimecicle #qsmp #qsmp fanart #qsmp slimecicle #NOT MY FIRST TIME DRAWIN SLIMECICLE BUT ITS DEF BEEN A WHHHIILE. THIS IS HOWEVER MY FIRST TIME DRAWIN THE OTHERS #LIKE ive never drawn philza or cellbit or pol or bbh before. i looked up MINIMAL refs and went off their minecraft skins. hope yall like em #FUN FACTS! i gave q!slime the green flannel (but the green plaid is silent) bc of katastrophics design for him #he also has the 3 hearts n the Bra'ad sash bc OFFCCC u just cant see that gay lil bag here #maybe one day ill draw a qslime with more detail #IN OTHER NEWS ! this series fascinates me SOOO MUCH! THE FEDS AND THE CODES N THE EGGS AND WHAT DOES IT ALL MEAANN??? #I HAVVEEE theories abt juanaflippa. SPOILER WARNING IG BUT IM ABT TO RAAAAMBLE!! #SO this totally isnt flippa right. like this is someone else. this is one of the code beasts piloting either a costume or a corpse #BOTH INTRIGUE ME. but nonetheless. this thing is NEW and it is LEARNING and it LOVES ITS DAD #ITS NOT FLIPPA BUT OHH HOW NICE IT IS TO BE FLIPPA! TO BE FED AND HUGGED AND LOVED SO SO SO MUCH #AND YET SOMETHING IS SO TERRIBLY WRONG. SOMETHING IS BLEEDING OUT AND INFECTING THE AIR AND SOIL AND SPACE #AND ITS HURTING CODEFLIPPAS DAD! ITS TURNING HIM INTO SOMETHING ELS.E. HE DOESNT CARE BUT CERTAINLY SOMEONE ELSE DOES #MAYBE THE PEOPLE AROUND HIM. BUT MOST CERTAINLY IT MUST BE EATING AT THIS POOR LITTLE CODE #THIS POISONOUS LITTLE THING. THIS DISEASE. THIS VIRUS. IT JUST WANTS TO BE HELD A LITTLE LONGER. BUT AT WHAT COST?

[keskeaa]

Still needs finishing touches

#my art #cult of the lamb #cotl #cotl lamb #cotl fanart #fanart #needle felting #polymer clay #sewing #fiber art #I tried to embroider the lil v mouth on there but #the thread disapeared into the depths of the wool #so I’ll probably felt that on with black wool #and I need to get the whole thing felted more bc I hate the fuzzies!! #and also add the white trim but ughhhsgdjsbakdhka idk how I’d do that #I could enbroyder but I tried that and I hated how it looked #I could get a bit of white ribbon but I don’t think I can get any thin enough. cutting it would risk it not being entirely straight #I was thinking I can use my frilly lace but cut the frill off but. that hurts my heart WKBDJSBDKA #I could also use my white fabric but again risk not being straight and I hate it #it’s some faux silk or something and it’s the WORSSTTTTT it shows u every sewing mistake #I’ll prob come back to it later with some brilliant plan in a few weeks or months #as most of my projects tend to do. #if you actually read my rambles you’re a trooper all I do is nitpick my work EJBDSKBSKAJ love ya #clay #3d art

[arthursfuckinghat]

Jack, Arthur and Weetabix 𑁦𐂂𑁦 Horseshoe Overlook

#looka jacks scrunched up lil face #the way arthur holds him so protectively makes my heart hurt #in a good way #I just know he thinks of isaac #and what could have been #oh arthur #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #mick squeaks #arthur morgan #jack marston #weetabix my horse

[coldshrugs]

"My siblings? Please don't ask about them. That was a long time ago, but some wounds are not so easily healed."

Io before she was Io, and her siblings Viveka and Arvid.

#io laithe #ffxiv #azia gposes #this did hurt my lil heart #all of the laithe siblings had Vs in their names T^T #vivi was still exploring gender but using they/she pronouns #anyway they were all super close but io and vivi were attached at the hip most of the time #this was probably about a year before garlemald wiped out their village so io would be around 19 > arvid: 17 > vivi: 12 #ngl scaling a normal sized viera into a child is SO much easier than trying to mod a miqo kid LMAO #in lieu of more textured hair for arvid he can have fluff. hard out here for black buns lmao

[stellorc]

three idiots walk into a cantina

please have a young guardian Alek, a distressed Revan regretting her choice to be a consular and a poor sentinel Phebe already eyeing her next victim.

a completely self indulgent thing I did that doubled as a lineart experiment as well. The coloring was a bit hard since i didn't want the lines to disappear, but fun nonetheless.

#i love these three so much it hurts #they have stolen my mind and heart #also please know that the heights aren't quite accurate #alek is way taller and phebe should be shorter #but for the sake of the composition i had to compromise very sad i know #one day i'll actually make a lil chart for them all with clothing and weapons and all that stuff #at this point alek is an oc and i'll fight for him with all my might #anyway please enjoy this lil messy thing #it's still not a process i'm comfortable with #TOO many layers #a complete headache #huge respects to all the folks out there who manage to make beautiful art this way #could never be me #darth malak #revan #jedi exile #kotor #jesra kast my beloved #phebe aastra lil gremlin #my art

[magically-maddie]

What everybody tells you: Cats love to sleep on the seat of your wheelchair!

What nobody tells you: It's going to take multiple fucking months before the kitties stop running the opposite direction every time you move and your chair makes any kind of noise.

#i love these lil babies but they're so skittish and it hurts my heart #they love me when i'm sitting on the floor or couch but they won't associate with me when i'm in my chair #which. ouch. #(that's my main form of mobility aka it isn't optional and yet it terrifies them) #sads. #maddie rambles

[missmisnomer]

why is he so cute tho??

#just got done lining and coloring the title card for the next video #my wrist hurts asfdahada #hey Julia why'd you make such a dorky lil sweetheart?? for what?? to steal my heart?? #love drawing him #eugene drawtectives #drawtectives fanart #drawtectives #drawtectives s2 #drawtectives season 2 #drawfee #drawfee fanart

[wilsons-journey]

Art Summary 2023

Filled with a lot of Valefor and Kying, the root of my inspiration this year. They brought me back into drawing and all the creativity. I drew a lot of other stuff, too - still it was nice to look back at so many drawings of these two lovely idiots. And I love that the year end with them kissing.

Thank you my boys. I love you ♥

#myArt #artsummary #still obsessed with these two #so I'm certain we will see more of them in the next year #I love them so much it sometimes hurt #Never stop being a cheesy mess - my lil heart needs it.

[octoooo]

I’m so down for Sabigiyuu Sunday, @nerosdayinanime starting us off with some Scrumptious Angst & Pain

I needed to heal my heart with Them <3

SABIGIYUU POKEMON

Them,,

#working on this was hard bc these fucks kept staring @ each other LIKE BROO #THE EYE CONTACT #and yea as the artist Maybe it’s my fault. or Maybe it’s their fault like AAUAGH #(it’s their fault definitely) #chowed down on some angst but man my heart hurted #staring @ this telling myself canon isn’t real #kinda fell off of PokeSlayers a lil but Primarina Giyuu #& Delphox/Lopunny Sabito (Fox pokemon Or Bunny pokemon..I can’t decide so I just switch it whenever I want) #<- for those who don’t know #kny #demon slayer #octo’s art #tomioka giyuu #Sabito #PokeSlayers #Sabigiyuu Sunday