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wrenwinchester · 1 month
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As much as I love the Jody is the boys real mom idea, I would just like to say, Jody was only 3 years older than Dean, and 7 years older than Sam. She’s more like their big sister who took care of them, took them in, and made sure they were taken care of. And especially in later seasons that’s how they seem. However, it’s also weird because of her thing with Bobby. So like. I don’t know I just. Anyway. It’s fine. I’m not sobbing as I watch season 12 episode 6 “celebrating the life of Asa Fox” as Jody acts more like a sister in the first half but later becomes more motherly, but also I think that’s just because of when the boys came into her life (right after she lost her son.) and I don’t know. I just… it’s fine.
And excuse me while I scream as Sam comforts his MOTHER and reassures her like Dean used to do when he was little. Like she’s a full grown adult, so why is she constantly acting like a baby. And also the fact that she just I don’t know man. Just Fuck Mary Winchester. And her antics. This, and the whole British Men of Letters thing.
Also. Straight up, the fact that Mary left her barely over 1 year old son to go “tie up loose ends” like how could you do that to any 1 year old, let alone your own kid. Like I know she left him with his dad, but still. Most moms I know have trouble leaving their own kid for more than a couple hours, let alone the potential weeks it would take to complete a hunt. Like, what did John think she was doing? Did she leave Dean with John, or someone else. Like. God. What the fuck is she doing.
Also, I’ve said before that Millie Wren doesn’t particularly like Mary, especially after the whole initial men of letters thing, she kind of despised her, still loves her, but doesn’t like her one bit. After the whole brainwashing thing, it just gets worse. Mary had to actually shoot her to get her to back down, she didn’t take her out, it was a leg shot or shoulder shot. But despite all that, she didn’t forget. She knew it wasn’t really her Mom, but seeing her mom shoot her with no remorse, even if it wasn’t a kill shot. Again, she forgave her. But still, it was hole after hole after hole put in her heart, killing her slowly. The grief she felt was immense, the pain and guilt of it all was a lot.
And yeah, of course Millie loves Mary, adores her even, but god does she hate her. The choices she made, the deal to save John, the deal that sealed her brothers’ fates as vessels for the divine, vessels for the apocalypse. And the fact that once she was back, she barely called or texted. She lied to them over and over again. Her decisions always served to better herself, her own life, but never seemed to help her kids. The people she claimed to love. The people she once died for.
This was supposed to be a short commentary on Jody and the boys, but here we are.
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seokmatthewz · 3 years
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hello!!! it is ur resident woojong-loving fool, irida!! 💕💕 2020 was a shitty year but thank you for following me throughout it!! i am very annoying and bad at talking to people but i hope tht someday i can befriend as many of the wonderful people below as i can (if i haven’t already!!) below the cut are my wonderful mutuals (+some people who i don’t know if we are mutuals but ily!) thank you so much for all your wonderful content, and i hope 2021 is great to you!! mwah!!!
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nini - missus nini my sweet fairy pal!!! it was nice chatting with u a bit more this year!! we continue to b bad at msging each other KLFDKL but it is always nice when we do nd it was nice to complain to u nd bicker a bit!!! hopefully 2020 gets us the cute fairy/nymph/witch gfs we deserve!! lysm madam !!
han - han!!! my favourite clown ever ik i say this lots but i rlly cannot believe it’s only been a few months since we became friends bc i talk to u constantly KJFLDSJK it’s been so much fun talking to u and getting to kno u this past year!! our convos are always so entertaining and funny whether it is clowning u abt ur taste or us mutually bonding over ppl we don’t really like or me trying to get u to stan a group i always love to chat with you!! excited to watch more iconic dramas like mr. heart with u in the new year i love you!!!
alice - alice madam!! one of my most talented moots ever u r so cool nd all ur sets nd gfx are so gorgeous!! its so fun to interact with u from time to time (be it to clown u or get clowned), love u lots ma’am and i hope 2021 is fantastic for u!!
millie - MISSUS MILLIE!! my beloved pal nd wonderful hypewoman u are so cute and wonderful and iconic and it always makes me happy to read your tags and send you asks!! you are so funny and sweet and great and i’m so happy we r pals!! hope we can chat even more in the new year i love you the most!!! mwah!
kashi - kashi we have been moots for only a little while but i had 2 include u bc it was such a good time sending u asks for the stay secret santa!! u are so talented and sweet and i hope i can get to kno u more in the new year, esp since we seem to have so many fandoms in common!! u have impeccable taste mwah!! luv u!!
tori - tori u haven’t been on tumblr as much recently nd i miss u!!! hope tht u come back occasionally when ur a bit less busy bc ur always a nice nd funny presence on my dash!! love u the most i hope ur rats nd ur chickens are doing well as well as ur other pets!! mwah!!
karen - my beloved funky canadian pal!!! i am GOING TO MESSAGE YOU SOON I SWEAR I AM JUST SO BAD AT IT FJDKLKL missus karen we have been thru lots together and i trust you a lot and i’m really happy to have a friend like you who i can just say shit to without judgement!! you really are such a kind and wonderful presence even when we don’t interact for a while!! you sweet funky gal i love you!! i hope we can meet up again sometime when things are safer!! mwah!! happy new year!!
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vivi - vivi!!!!! it was so fun to chat with u a bit throughout this year and send u anons!!! u are such a pleasant and lively presence on my dash and ur gifs are so wonderful and pretty i hope we can chat more in the new year mwah!!
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siya - madam!!!! ilu!! ik we haven’t chatted much but i wanna talk to u more!!!! u seem so neat nd funky and ur always so funny when i see u chatting nd interacting w ur other moots!! hope we can become good friends and clown together some more ilu!!!
damian - my beloved fellow playm boys (or like. whatever they are now KJFDLK) stan!! we do not interact all that much but i am always hoping tht ur doing well and i hope we can interact more in the new year!!! all of our boys debut 2020 pls!!!
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wrenwinchester · 1 month
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Millie gives people knives as a form of affection. Sometimes she’ll spend days choosing the best knife (style, design, etc.) that best fits the person.
She’s also the type of person who you need something done, she’s got a knife for that. Need a letter opened, “oh I’ve got a knife for that.” And it’s like specifically a small knife that’s probably better labeled a letter opener. Need a machete to kill a vampire. “I’ve got 10, pick your favorite…. But there’s a high likelihood I want it back” *death stare of seriousness* Need a blade forged in dragons breath to kill a dragon? “Oh I got this one when I was like 15, from some old lady, cause I thought it was cool.” Need a knife made out of a specific bone to kill some creature or another? “Oh I picked one of those up last week at such in such. Didn’t know it would come in handy so soon.” “We need an obsidian knife for *insert spell to do something*” “oh well, here you go. I’ve had this one since I was like 17.” *cue confused looks from everyone* “how does a seventeen year old get a— you know what. Never mind.”
Just. More shit like that.
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Also she has like three of these displays around the bunker by season 9, and very quickly adds to her already large collection of knives.
Wren also keeps a collection of small switch blades and other small knives to give to the kids she meets on hunts. She teaches these kids how to take care of the knives, being specific to the knife she gives the kids (often giving her own knife sharpener to said kid) and gives the kids clear instructions on knife storage and safety.
She spends hours making sure her knives are clean and sharp, always ready to use. It’s nice having something so routine. After she and Dean meet up, and get Sam from college, the three of them quickly fall into the routine of Dean cleaning the guns, Sam doing the research, and Millie cleaning and sharpening the knives. It’s just the way it’s always been, it felt safe, normal. As normal as it gets for a Winchester anyway.
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wrenwinchester · 2 months
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Millie learned how to sew young. It was “easier” because she had smaller hands than her brothers.
She just liked the normalcy of it.
She would fix holes in their clothes, and even in the sheets on their beds if they were in a run down motel for too long.
Her love of fixing things only deepened when her father started having her stitch up his cuts, even as she watched him down the entire bottle of alcohol. She yearned to heal the pain the loss of her mother had inflicted. In another life, maybe she would have been a nurse.
When she was 10, she saw a magazine about embroidery, and learned everything she could about it. Dean got her some supplies. She started patching holes in her brother’s clothes with embroidery, sometimes they were flowers, and trees.
Other times, especially as she got older, they were protection sigils.
At 16, she stopped mending clothes, she was hunting with J*hn every other month, and it became more of a chore. She’d be sewing up her own wounds, or her brothers’ wounds. She didn’t need to be doing anymore. (Besides, between her and Dean’s odd jobs and the credit card scams, they could handle buying new stuff when they needed to.) She hasn’t touched a needle except to sew up a wound in years, but she yearns for a creative outlet, something, anything to ease her pain, but she’s burnt out and has no energy for it.
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wrenwinchester · 2 months
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For those of you asking (specifically @th78) here’s a link, enjoy!
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wrenwinchester · 2 months
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In honor of Valentine’s Day in a couple days, I would just like to say that Millie Wren is on the aro/ace spectrum.
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wrenwinchester · 1 month
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I’m sobbing. Like I actually want to cry. I just found a snippet from my Millie Wren fic, (y’all know the one, the one I can’t shut up about) and I guess I got inspiration back in like November for future chapters (I.e. season 15 episode 20) and wrote like 2000 words about how i want it to go with Millie’s involvement (I’m not going into details because that happens 16-17 years from where I’m writing right now and that’s a whole other ordeal) promptly forgot about it, went to do some editing on other parts and saw that doc, and now I’m screaming I don’t remember writing it.
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wrenwinchester · 6 months
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Millie takes meticulous care of her weapons. They’re an extension of herself after all.
It started when she was six or seven, she’d been sleeping with a knife under her pillow for somewhere around two or three years, known about her dad’s job for 1-2 years. She’d beg to help out, but since someone had to watch Sammy, and Dean was being “trained” J*hn gave her the job to keep the weapons clean. He taught her how to safely clean a gun, how to sharpen knives, and at 8 years old she was making salt rounds for the shotguns. (It wasn’t long after that she was finally allowed to tag along to “train”). At first it was nice and relaxing, a comfort and a constant in her ever changing life. But, at 8 1/2, when she packed a few salt rounds wrong and caused problems on a hunt, delaying her father and Dean a good couple days due to injuries, she became a little bit (very) obsessive.
J*hn had gone off on her when they finally did get back, going on about how she should know better, she held back tears, and promised it would never happen again. (It didn’t.)
Any free time was spent sharpening or polishing knives, making salt rounds, occasionally working with other metals to make different kinds of bullets (don’t ask how she melted them down, you probably don’t want to know.) she’d also carve protection sigils into the handles of almost every weapon, (specifically the ones she knew J*hn gave to Dean on hunts) sometimes they were just general, other times they were more specific.
She started to do it more, eventually finding hiding spots for the sigils on the various weapons. J*hn’s weapons remained mostly untouched, she figured her dad could handle himself, not that Dean couldn’t, but she needed Dean more than she needed her dad. And further more, Sammy needed Dean more than he needed her.
This habit became more frequent as time went on, she’d carve protection sigils into all of her brothers’ weapons and a few on her own. Then she’d use something to seal the etching so her brothers didn’t notice the difference in texture. It was just a little thing she could do to keep them safe.
Cleaning the weapons meticulously was her zen. No one bothered her and she could hear everyone else in the motel room, conversations, movements she knew what everyone was doing.
(She was definitely the freak at new schools, it was just how she was.)
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wrenwinchester · 6 months
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Millie’s first real knife was cheap, small, and dainty. Nothing special, barely practical. It was a gift from j*hn after she had convinced him to tell her why he was leaving them alone, or with uncle Bobby or Pastor Jim all the time. It was probably more laughable than the knives she’d steal from the motel rooms. It didn’t matter though. This one was hers.
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It didn’t matter that it wouldn’t stay sharp, not entirely, but it did bother her. She always kept it with her though, on her person, as more of a comfort item than a tool. (It’s the knife she flips open and closed when anxious).
The next knife she was given was from Bobby, it was one from his own stash, it even came with a sheath to keep the blade away from Sam’s small hands. It was beautiful. It looked something like this.
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She thanked Bobby and ran to show Dean her new knife. Bobby smiled as he watched them, knowing nothing could ever come between the two. Millie just about cried when she lost that knife, J*hn was an ass about it though. Told her to man up if she was going to be hunting with them.
Shortly after Bobby had given her that knife, she’d gotten a set of throwing knives from him as well. Dean promised to teach her how to throw them effectively.
J*hn and her brothers get her practical knives, ones that are useful, they’re silver, they’re not knives it’s a machete, it’s made of *insert material that kills specific monster* etc. etc.
Bobby gets her more specialized knives, still useful, maybe less practical, but knives blessed by a priest or made out of specific woods for the blade instead of having to go find the specific tree branch to turn into a stake to kill specific pagan god/other being she’d have a knife, probably enough for the rest of her family too (they were less knives, and more stakes with a neat handle, but it didn’t really matter.) Bobby would also get her fancier knives, usually made out of silver so they were useful, but they were nicer than her typical stash.
Sam and Dean also got her fancy knives for her birthday, along with throwing knives and holsters and such where she could keep more knives on her person at a time. It wasn’t common, but it was enough.
Then. We have the witches. These knives weren’t practical, some were barely functional. And frankly at 30 years old (season 6 era), it frightened her a bit how many of her knives came from witches. They were all super fancy, jewels and gems embedded in the hilt, fancy designs engraved in the blade, one or two even had designs carved out of the blade in cool shapes like butterflies or hearts. (She really should have realized how many of them were marriage proposals, and invites to covens, but she’s not a witch, she doesn’t know witch customs.)
She also somehow gets ahold of Excalibur sometime post the auction in season 8. And somehow gets ahold of an archangel blade, before it appears in canon. She never uses it, but she has it.
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wrenwinchester · 6 months
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Millie Wren has a habit of befriending witches by accident. (She honestly has no idea how it happens.) It pisses off her dad and occasionally brothers, but she just shrugs it off. Plus they always give her knives, so she’s not going to complain. She doesn’t use them usually, just in case they’re cursed, but she does keep them with her at all times in a second bag Bobby helped her make specifically for witch knives.
Bobby just decided it was better not to ask questions about the mildly mystical knives (sometimes more than mildly) the kid started showing up with and make sure she was safe instead.
They were tools, invites.
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wrenwinchester · 4 months
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So Wren is the only one who Sam allows to cut his hair, until Jess, but even then, he doesn’t allow Jess to cut his hair until after Millie visits for his 21st birthday and shows Jess.
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wrenwinchester · 6 months
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Dean was put in charge of a two year old and a six month old at four years old. He raised them while raising himself. He only ever wants what’s best for them, but he needs to protect them, and that takes precedent over what’s best for them. Millie and Sam are his kids, he admires how strong and resilient they are, he admires the way they can stand up to their father (Sam more so than Millie). He’s their protector, always and forever.
Sam adores Dean. He spent his whole life watching his big brother, seeing how he interacted with people at their new school, watching him give death glares to bullies, and quickly copying him. Dean is Sam’s home. Always. Sam loves Millie Wren. She’s honest about how she’s feeling, she doesn’t let anything get in her way, not even their father. Sam never doubts for a second that Wren loves him, even when she’s disappointed by a choice he makes. Sam takes losing Dean harder than he ever takes losing Millie, not because he doesn’t love her as much, but because he feels like he let Dean down, and he failed his brother. Sam doesn’t understand the pedestal Dean has him on, that Dean’s anger comes from fear, and his frustration is more at himself than at his little brother.
Millie watched Dean go hungry to feed her and their brother. He would pretend he wasn’t hungry, or he’d say he would eat later, but he wouldn’t. She was only three and she was worrying about food for her brothers. She was only three when she stopped eating the first time (she didn’t eat for two days insisting she wasn’t hungry). She was only four when she started to sleep with a knife under her pillow for comfort. She watched as Dean raised her and her little brother, as well as himself. She was four when she was determined to help Dean take care of Sammy, no matter what. Millie Wren admired her older brother like no other. He is her saving grace, and she’s his. Millie envies the childhood she and Dean fought for him to have. The innocence they made sure to let him keep as long as possible, but she loves him more than words can describe. He gave her a purpose, Dean’s job was to take care of Sam, so it was her job to take care of Dean. She was only five the first time she was left “home” alone with Sam. Still not knowing what was out there (Dean and J*hn were going shooting practice so Dean could keep them safe.) and she knew it wasn’t good. She was only five the first time she accidentally pulled a knife on their father for being startled in the morning. She was only six the first time she got a gun for her birthday. She took care of everyone, her father, her brothers, herself. She patched up wounds, mended clothes. Her job was to take care of her brothers, no matter what.
None of them felt worthy of being saved, not by angels or each other. But time and time again they sacrificed themselves to protect the others. And time and time again, their siblings would bring them back.
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wrenwinchester · 4 months
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I move across the room, picking my phone up off the table where I left it when I arrived and I go back to pacing as I select Dean’s main number.
It rings.
Once.
Twice.
Three times.
“Dean Osbourne, what can I do for ya?” His casual tone allows my shoulders to relax as I sigh.
“Dee, it’s me. Don’t you have caller ID?” I ask, struggling to keep the worry that had been flooding my body a moment ago out of my voice.
“Millie?” I can see his face scrunch up in confusion, as he pauses. Probably checking said caller ID, and the time. “Everything okay?” I crack a smile at the concern in his voice.
“Yeah, yeah. I mean, I was a tad worried you had done something stupid, but all appears to be well.” My body finally allows me to sit, the anxiety fully subsiding as we talk. “Where are you?”
“What do you mean? Shouldn’t I be asking you that?” He chuckles as he finishes his sentence, and maybe he has a point, but… well… I shake the thought away, I don’t currently have a good reason as to why he would be wrong.
“I mean, you aren’t in your motel room.” My voice is more pointed than I meant for it to be, accusatory is probably a better word.
“How would you…” he starts, I’m sure he’s glancing at the time again trying to figure out how I would know that. “Are you in my motel room?”
“I…might be.”
I can practically hear him shaking his head as he tries to do the math. “Jesus, Mills, how fast were you driving?” He sounds incredulous, as if he wasn’t the one who taught me how to drive.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” I try to sound innocent, and I hear his scoff on the other end of the phone. “Besides, you are avoiding the question.”
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wrenwinchester · 6 months
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Dean Winchester: “Grenade launcher!!????”
Sam Winchester: “Dean” *long exhausted sigh* “No.”
Dean: *pouts*
Dean Winchester: “Grenade launcher!!????”
Millie Wren Winchester: “Yea-“ *Dean practically jumping up and down with joy* “Wait. We’re hunting ghosts. That’s not going to do anything.”
Dean: *pouts*
Millie Wren: “Grenade Launcher??!?!?!!”
Dean: *Ears perk up and actually pays attention to what’s going on*
Sam: *extremely heavy sigh* *exasperated nodding* “grenade launcher.”
Dean and Wren: *excited jumping up and down*
Or alternatively:
Millie Wren: “Grenade Launcher??!?!!?!?”
Dean: “Yes!!!!”
Sam: “NONONONONO. NO. no grenade launcher. It’s a ghoul not a freaking horde of zombies.”
Dean and Wren: *in sync pouting*
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