#mentol illness. that's what it is

[goldenpinof]

6:47 (2018 -> 2023)

#dan and phil #daniel howell #amazingphil #phil lester #danandphilgames #dan and phil games #my edits #mentol illness. that's what it is #Dan and Phil are Dating Boys #What If Your Best Friend Secretly Hated You? #6:47 #yes. in both cases #hi i'm phil #parallels

[n0ct0urn1quet]

everyone jokes about memory and how i cant remember things i said minutes ago and yeah i joke about it too but it Is a bit disturbing from time to time just how easily i forget stuff

i went to go make soup so i poured the soup into the bowl and then walked away to go Do Something and forgot the soup on the counter . then i came back and put the soup in the microwave before forgetting how long to cook it for (even though i looked at the can) and so i looked at it and then realized oh my cat needs water so i gave him water and then went and sat back down in my room thinking the task was Complete before going to my room sitting down for like 10 minutes and being like huh im hungry i should make something to eat. and then going out and seeing the bowl of soup in the OPEN MICROWAVE and being like oh did i not cook it. i thought i closed the door but i guess i just Left it open. and had i not started feeling hungry again it woulda sat there all night . . . god

#i wish there were two of me #i wish there was me (normal me) and me (non-memory issues me) who just follows me around being like #'dont forget (x)! hey dont forget to do (y) while ur doing (x)! dont forget you have to do (z)!' #because while i do have that inner monologue for like a minute i end up getting distracted with other things so easily and then #whoops there goes the thought and now i dont remember what i was gonna do so ill just sit here #ill be like i need to do something. and then forget about it . and then 3 horus later just start doing it because im like oh #i need to do something. #you get it #god . its frustrating #this is why i think i wouldnt be able to function living alone i . cant do this by myself #im the kjind of person who forgets that im in the shower and ends up just sitting in there for an hour #and the person who goes to the bathroom and is in there for 30 minutes because i get distracted picking at my skin #gah i hate being easily distracted i hate being forgetful i hate mentol illnece . agrrghh agrhgghhgg

[shadowkat2000]

absolutely reeling because two of my college friends went to grade school together???? and were in choir together??? and one is responsible for the other’s middle school nickname???? and while I knew they were friends in college I didn’t know about any of this until now after we’ve all graduated and it was referenced offhand!!!!!!! like I knew!!!!

#anyways this is about qrovidcore and deep-hearts-core since i thought that grace was from a different state than they are and I've #been told the right state before but I forgot lol #DEFINITELY DIDN'T KNOW ABOUT THE THEY WERE FRIENDS IN SCHOOL ETC THING!!!!!!!!!!! #this Friend Lore probably happened second year when I wasn't there!!!! #people who know my Deep Lore know what happened then and why I wasn't there (mentol illness) #and grace and i didn't really become close till mirkwood in my third year #but still!!!!! #its the principle of the matter and the principle is that I missed the friend loe #*lore lol #riannonposts

[vampfucker666]

full of milk kitten but the text is edited to say full of gender dysphoria and the look on the cats face is gut wrenching hopelessness

#im trying so hard rn not to spend two hours browsing phalloplasty shit bc like really. what is that going to do for me #nothing. i am going to be like oh my god maybe i wont feel like shit some day. #oh nevermind i know ill never be able to deal with the scarring. like mentally. like my whatever mentoll illness would go CRAZY #id just be trading one kind of extreme discomfort for another. #its just the specific kind of scarring skin transplants give you would fuck me up in the head bc of pre exjsting whatever the fuck #i cant say bc ill start thinking abt it more and im already thinming abt it too much #this post is a fucking mess

[ilgattopatata]

oof not a good evening. not a good evening at all.

#i will never complain out loud because I'm not the one dealing with thee Mentol Illness or other serious problems right now #but I'm a bit tired #mother is dealing with a fucking Lot between work and her mother who lives 200km away in the hospital #dad always has to look after his father #sis is... well #tonight was rough and i thought i fixed a few things but then mother had to step in because she is very well meankng but a bit clueless #and i feel what i managed to do was undone #but i see her being so tired physically and emotionally these days that i don't have the heart to tell her if she did something wrong #sigh i feel like recently I've upgraded from middle child (which is already a rough position to be in especially when your siblings -> #are both much Louder than you are) #and i became the older sister #now i go to sleep slightly nauseous because the anxiety has spiked today on its own at first and now with the events of this evening #don't mind me really i just needed to yell into the void of the tags #I'll be better tomorrow when I'm rested

[proudfreakmetarusonniku]

thinking everyone somehow knows my thoughts and all of them and are judging me and hate me and spreading shit behind my back /neg

#i uh #dont know what mentol illness that is #But it Is One

[dentixvoxel]

i got like 13% on my math exam lmao

#ivan.docx #sorry dear lord i am fucking [redacted] #le consequences of mentol illness #but man. what a fuckin bummer of a result #:/

[dekarios]

the dragon's and their dogma have officially stolen fray from tumblr dot com (jk i hope you're having fun!)

playing this game makes me feel like a teenager again i wont lie. its like.. this is how dd1 looked and felt like to me back in the day on the ps3. it feels so weirdly nostalgic and a lil disorientating yknow what i mean. sometimes i dissociate while i'm playing and i get confused about where i am and who i am it's crazy. mentol illness mixed with this is craaaaaaaazy. anyway game of the year

#fray.txt #ask #Anonymous #i dont think any game can beat this for me. holy fucking shit

[maddsmallow]

hi im gonna complain about people seeing hank and connor as father and son under the break so if you see them like that maybe dont read. like you do you but if this is gonna upset you then. dont fuckin read it lmao

if tumblr puts this in the fucking tags even tho i didnt tag it 1) im sorry, and 2) im gonna be fucking pissed im just trying to vent on my own got dang blog

cropped out the person who made these tags because i dont even know them and also im not a fucking asshole thats gonna put someone on blast like that but. this is the EXACT problem i have with hank and connor as father/son. i dont even mind connor seeing hank as a mentor or something like that (even tho i personally disagree with using the term "father figure"), but it's the "connor is like a new chance for hank to be a dad" that fucking gets me. do you not see all the different CANON reasons why that works completely against hank's character, and takes away connor's say in the whole situation?? hank IS a dad. he's a dad to a dead boy. basically his whole fuckin personality is him mourning over the loss of cole because he loves him SO much. you think he's gonna cling to the first mentee he's had since cole's death and immediately have him replace his dead fucking child? that's like, making hank give into some kind of fucked up delusion. that's mentol illness luv. imagine misunderstanding a character THAT badly.

and that isnt even getting into the whole "you're taking away all of connor's agency as a fully grown adult man" thing. he's not a child. he's an android that was activated only a few months ago, sure, but he was literally created to be like 27-33 or something. he deals with guns. he looks at pole dancers at the eden club. he works with murder scenes. you literally ARE taking away all of his agency as an adult man by seeing him as some little puppyboy that needs a dad to take care of him.

i mean of course you can take these characters and do whatever you want with them outside of canon, they're basically just barbie dolls lmao. but to claim that it's CANON that hank would think of connor as his own literal son, that he thinks that before the game's even over?? absolutely fucking not. those jokes of hank being like "who's my son?" and connor answering "me:)" and hank's relationship bar goes up, it's cute i guess but if that happened in the game? if that was a real choice in the game? hank would've shot connor without a second fucking thought. hell no hank would've thought connor was anything CLOSE to what cole was to him. hank straight up would've murdered the real connor and not even been upset about it when sixty told him so. david cage can eat my entire ass for agreeing that they're father and son, he just said that because he's a homophobic piece of shit, and that's literally the ONLY thing ever to point at them having that sort of relationship.

and i'm not gonna sit here and be like "but anyways here's all the reasons hank and connor are TOTALLY in love" because i dont actually think that's canon either. i'm just playing with them like barbie dolls lmao. my problem is people taking subtext that doesnt fucking exist of them being "like father and son" and claiming it's the be all end all of their whole relationship. their view of them as father and son is the ONLY way to see them. which is just not fucking true. there's NOTHING in canon to support them as being anything but close friends or enemies. that's it. and then they come onto these posts about hankcon, which obviously have NOTHING to do with them since they dont ship it, and tell the OP who ships them "fuck you." like?? you could have just scrolled. you could have just kept fucking scrolling. you fool. you moron. what happened to ship and let ship. just fucking move on, jesus christ. stop taking the time and effort out of your day to go out of your way to 1) make yourself upset by seeing this content and not just blacklisting it and blocking the posters, and 2) making someone else upset that you took the time to be a shithead on something that obviously wasn't even meant for you but made THEM happy. just stop !!! log off!! touch grass!! and this goes for hankcon shippers who do the same!! what the fuck is wrong with you!! we're all just here to vibe and love on these dork ass characters!!!!! fuck !!!!!!!!!!!

also it's super cringe when bryan dechart is playing the game and you're all screaming "wow best father son duo everrrrr" in the chat as if that also doesnt make bryan uncomfortable because he's gotta be super fucking careful about how he fuckin speaks about his character to everyone and not piss off all the rabid father-sonners by insinuating they're only friends. just. shut the fuck up. hankcon shippers who try to shove it in other people's faces also need to shut the fuck up. jesus fucking christ

IN OTHER WORDS. old man yells at cloud is basically me rn

^actual pic of me

anyways here's a cookie 🍪

#the blogger says words

[sydmarch]

mentol illness is just being like oh my god it's all so hopeless what's the point.. wait is that the insane car I've been failing to get a picture of for almost a year

#texticles

[timetravellerspendulum]

youre either unmedicated or your meds arent working due to your situation. your fashion taste is fucking impeccable and you call yourself sexy constantly despite not really believing it. sometimes you just gotta tell yourself "itll be ok u dramatic bitch"

#uquiz

[imgonnagetkilledbynutstink]

the biggest thing about it for me (schizophrenic) is sasha's tendencies to get stuck on little details, making plans down to the very last thing in order to keep herself from getting off track or thinking too much. I know itll never be canon cause ya know, the way they already handle hallucinations in the show is...

but i just love sasha even though i hate her. she deserves a little mentol illness. as a treat

Yeah i have definitely heard some not so great things about how they handle Vespa's hallucinations and tbh ive never personally understood whats wrong with them but it just feels like theres something in there to be upset about, and yeah i used to really like Sasha but then she had to go and get all evil government woman on us, idk if she can girlboss her way outta this one

#tpp #the penumbra podcast #juno steel #sasha wire

[cemetery-walks]

i feel like the mental illness shrimp colours could apply to. a lot of fictional robots also. like what the fuck is wrong with these guys. i don't know. i don't think they really know either! they got the-- thehth thehehe shrimp colours!!!

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FORREAL LIKE BUDDY I DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHY U ARE ACTING OUT AND TRYING TO EXTERMINATE HUMANITY ISS MENTOL ILLNESS INNIT GO RIGHT AHEAD

[proudfreakmetarusonniku]

just wrote like a billion paragraphs on how I write c!tommy’s mentol illnesses whoops

Autism: While chaotic, Tommy does best in structured environments to a degree, needing some sort of routine to function. He's easily attached to comfort items and requires them for his day-to-day life. He struggles with social skills, primarily indicated by his inability to tell when he should stop joking around- he’s learnt surprising emotional intelligence to get around that. In general, he struggles to function on his own despite being fairly intelligent and very vocal, and as such latches into others for support. He’s also got extreme sensory issues, to the point he can only wear clothes he sews himself.

ADHD: Tommy has extremely severe ADHD, to the point it’s debilitating in everyday life. He struggles to stick to one train of thought, and often completely forgets what he’s doing, leading to him often neglecting his own needs (though he also has… other reasons for that). He requires constant stimulation, and boredom is physically painful to him. He’s always moving around and doing something, and he struggles to wait even for a few minutes. His struggles to stay organised are another reason he tends to rely on being a follower to others.

OCD: Tommy struggles with moral scrupulousity of a very religious type, and deeply fears he is a sinner. He spends a lot of his free time in prayer to the Primes he loves, and obsessively honours them in every way he can. He gets intrusive thoughts about sin- especially those he was forced to commit- and he believes these thoughts are the reason his afterlife was so hellish, and has many compulsions he feels he needs to honour to punish himself for being so sinful.

BPD: Tommy has very wild changes in mood frequently, something he struggles to control and which leads to him making rash decisions. He quickly feels abandoned, and stews in the self loathing it causes. He’s desperate for any sort of affection and attention, even if it's warped and abusive. He tends to view people either as wonderful or as monsters, and struggles with grey areas.

Psychosis: Tommy struggles with hallucinations and delusions on a day to day basis. Generally, he mostly grapples with delusions- mostly assigning meaning to objects and people in a very literal sense- and delusions of persecution, and the hallucinations mostly affect him when he’s dealing with extreme stress. He struggles to verbalise and understand his thoughts, and often lashes out.

PTSD: Tommy is hyper vigilant due to trauma and struggles to feel relaxed. Even on a good day, he's always checking the walls and making sure he has a knife in reaching distance. The smallest thing can trigger a flashback, even things he once loved, and as such he's frequently withdrawn and sullen despite usually being outgoing and adventurous. He has severe insomnia, and often doesn’t sleep until his body physically cannot stand it anymore.

Depression: Tommy has severe suicidal ideation and frequently wishes he could die- only his knowledge of the nothingness after death and more importantly the fact he'll inevitably be revived keep him from ending his own life most days. He very frequently self harms, usually by simply letting the elements get to him. He also goes days at a time without eating, both to punish himself and as a method of self harm. He believes himself to be a burden on everyone he loves and that the world would be a better place if he never existed.

Anxiety: Tommy has frequent panic attacks, often so severe he's incoherent (these cause him deep embarrassment). He worries about every action he takes, and most of those he doesn’t. His most frequently worry is about his future- while this is influenced by being threatened with multiple horrific fates, this is something he’s always done. He’s also incredibly anxious his friends don’t love him anymore whenever they’re not as obsessively clingy as him- times like this tend to draw him back into self-destrucive behaviour.

#c!tommy #dream smp #this is mostly headcanon obviously #some of it is canon tho

[femme-malewife]

hot pink, red, and purple for me! LMAO HOW DOES SOMEONE WRITE SUCH GOOD SHIBARISA/AIYUU PARALLELS MM

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ESS WHAT DOES JELLO EYES MEAN I FEEL LIKE ITS OBVIOUS BUT I'M NOT GETTING IT HELP

BUT THANK YOU...it's the mentol illness... 🥺👉️👈️

#essasks

[falinefable]

Hi!!!! Temporary pin post!!

Hi hello hi, My name is Dimitri and this is my silly selfship tomblr :)) I’m quite new to the self ship community but I’ve been in the Oc x Canon game all my life so I know what I’m doing >:))))

My pronouns are He/She and I’m 20 whole years old :))) also Aro/Ace and a POC 🫰 I’m also a system!! But that’s not too important but I felt like I should mention it lol (other sys self shippers PLS interact)

This blog is 18+ btw! I most likely won’t talk about anything overtly NSFW but I’m an adult and I speak like an adult so keep that in mind! (if I follow you and ur a minor know that it wasn’t on purpose, and sometimes I just randomly follow without looking at ages. Feel free to block if I do I understand!)

My one and only romantic F/O (at the moment) is the wonderful Gilbert Beilschmidt, also known as Prussia!! He’s been a very important part of my life for a very long time and I very much owe my life to him 🙏 I am very much NOT okay with sharing (nothing personal I’ve just got brain worms) and will most likely block if u also selfship with him. I ship him with my S/I Faline :))

(If u ship him with other characters I don’t care lol I also ship him with other characters yeah my man cheats on me so what /j)

(Please note that I am very critical of his source, h*talia, and I will not be reblogging most content relating to H*talia. I just cannot help my mentol illness and the fact that my husband is from the worst show ever /lh.)

My DNI is short and sweet pls don’t interact if ur a Proshipper, a Zionist, or just a weird little freak. Also if ur a countryhumans fan I will fire up my brimstone laser and kill u. I’ll probably add to this more as I think of more but like just don’t be a deplorable freak and it’s okay 🫰

Current Tag list:

Blood Covered Roses. : main ship tag

(Pls be friends with me I’m so nice)

#selfship #self ship #selfship promo #f/o