#mental health is fucked lmfao

[ariennebeak]

need his power: mac asking dennis if he can take dee's coat off, only moving to do so when he approves

negate his power: dennis tells mac not to spin the ball, he agrees not to but defies him and does it anyway

#the others arent in chronological SINNED order but he inflates his ego (“that was really good dennis!” #& engages physically (pats dennis on the arm) #and of course mac is always suppressing his natural instincts to suck and fuck dennis into oblivion every time theyre together #so all that's left is the tissue.....dennis takes a mental health day please come through #sorry if this is incomprehensible ive been awake a long time lmfao #iasip #its always sunny in philadelphia #the gang goes bowling #macdennis

[piplupod]

honestly i wish i didnt know as much as i do about occultism and spirituality because it is so fucking frustrating to see ppl talk about it and they very obviously do not have the knowledge that i have. like i am so open to being wrong, but i see things that ppl are saying and i'm fairly certain that they just ... do not have the depth of knowledge i do, so they say very ignorant things, or draw lines between things in an incredibly (potentially dangerously) overgeneralized way. and i am just sitting here like "oh you have no clue what you are saying right now, do you? you do not realize what you are saying is unfortunately pretty damn wrong." and i have to back away from the screen bc i do not discuss these things anymore due to the brain being constantly ready to dropkick me straight into a mental health crisis

but christ alive i think anyone who engages with spirituality needs to read up on like. essentially Everything they can get their hands on, even if they do not necessarily agree with the ideas being presented, because that way !! you learn !! and you grow to realize what things are borne out of racism and grossly mystifying other cultures and straight up white supremacy and nazi ideology and encouraging psychotic symptoms that lead to mental health crises !!!

#i hate new age spirituality so much. soooo much. 90% of it is just racism repackaged with a pretty bow on top #and nobody realizes bc they do not know what the fuck they are engaging with :))) what the roots of it all actually is !!! #and i do not necessarily blame them but i am so .... its tiring. and disconcerting. and scary. to see all of it being paraded around #esp when ppl accuse you of being ignorant or cruel for criticising smth that is so fucking dangerous or racist hsdgjkl ARGH ARGH ARGH #just bc they themselves do not realize !! it is dangerous and/or racist!! and they assume you must be wrong to criticise them!!! #sorry im just hgdsgjkl. this drives me crazy. i also hope i dont sound egotistical or high-n-mighty #but i do genuinely know i have more knowledge than the average bear (not difficult to though tbh! u just have to read a lot!!) #because i was so fucking fixated on it and went delving into so many books and pdfs and websites and did my own stuff on my own time #for several years #i was DEEP in this stuff (and boy howdy my mental health suffered for it lmfao me when i lose touch w reality almost entirely !!) #AND OBVIOUSLY. not everyone is going to have the same exps i did when they do spirituality stuff #but . it is very common esp these days. there is a whole label for it lol #ALRIGHT IM DONE RANTING NOW. im going to log off from everything for a good long while today to try to reset my nervous system lmfao #sorry for the public yelling and wailing fsdfjkl #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[thunderheadfred]

State legalization bill passed!!!!! We are good to grow!

After months of planning and waiting, I finally ordered my very first seeds aaahhh yaaaayy!!! MANGO KUSH!!! I kinda wanted to try Tropicana Cookies, which sounds amazing for ADHD, but I figured that might be too hard to grow (and consume, it's pretty strong) so I went with my gut. Never met a mango I didn't like, and this is a good hybrid strain with great medical uses.

These won't be auto-flower, since the seed bank I had a coupon for doesn't have an auto version, but for a photo-period, Mango Kush is supposed to be easy to grow even for first-timers.

Can't wait to nurture my lovely magical girls to full flower 😍

#ironically while I'm on a tolerance break from all this shitty Delta-8 lab-created stuff I've had to use in the meantime #actually it passed a while ago but I was busy and didn't have time to set up the grow tent lmfao #BUT NOW #Fred gonna grow the GOOD KUSH #not to be a stoner on main #but weed has actually changed my life #a medicine that treats all of my mental health issues and has ZERO SIDE EFFECTS #I'm not throwing out my SSRI or nothing but holy SHIT there is no comparison #cannabis has done for me what meds never could #plus my dad is likely having knee surgery soon so if I can grow fast enough this will be excellent for his pain management and recovery #a magic fucking plant you can just like... grow yourself #amazing #cannabis

[kaeyaphile]

y’all i am so fucking sick and tired of being sick and tired chronically ill

#kayleigh.txt #went to the rheumatologist today and the prognosis isn’t ideal at all lmao #i’ve been going to the rheumatologist for a hot minute now but like. none of the medication is working #i can either a) get weekly/biweekly infusions via iv #b) get an injectable that i will administer to myself via abdomen or thigh once per week #or c) add yet another medication onto what i’m already taking #LMFAO WHAT IF I JUST KEELED OVER DEAD. WHAT THEN. CAN’T BE CHRONICALLY ILL IF I AM FUCKING DEAD RIGHT?!? #i am already taking two (2) immunosuppressants as well as muscle relaxers #and folic acid to counteract the bad side effects of one of said immunosuppressants #not even including all the other fucking medications i take for my mental health/heart/etc #i am just. so goddamn tired of being in constant fucking pain and discomfort 24/7 365 #don’t even get me STARTED on the fucking depression/adhd/autism bullshit that makes it all a million times worse

[crmsndragonwngss]

Did I just have a minor breakdown and post a bunch of ADTR and SOTY tracks as I was listening to them at 4am? Yes. But at least it wasn’t Amity 😂😂😂😂

#she speaks #when I start listening to the amity affliction you know it’s been a bad fucking day #im good I just needed some pop punk core therapy lol #not that amity are in any way similar to ADTR or SOTY lol they are not #but that’s a pretty good gauge on my mental health if y’all were wondering #ADTR and SOTY means I’m a lil sad and a lil angry #amity means I’m having a crisis lmfao

[dykefaggotry]

i am so fucking nervous abt this surgery this time around what if i exploded into a tiny million pieces and reformed without tits instead i think that would be ideal

#hhhhh i am so fucking anxious bc of how poorly it went last time #i keep worrying something is going to postpone it again like i am not strong enough for that lmfao #my mental health is too fragile to get it postponed again :/ #i'm sure it's gonna be fine but i thought it was gonna be fine last time and Well

[ruffgem]

I hate school so fucking much lol and I always just thought I was taking too many credits but this semester I finally took a normal amount of credits and it doesn’t matter. It’s not the amount of classes, it’s just having any classes at all. I feel like there was definitely a time where I could handle it but not anymore lmfao… this place was crazy. Sent me into my first real and scary panic attack, broke me out in stress hives, ruined my sleep, turned me into a mega hater…. smh. I know it could be a million times worse so I feel bad for complaining but it was not cool. All I can hope for is that my degree and good grades that I damn near died trying to get for literally no reason do me some good in real society tho I doubt it lmao

#like why did I try so hard lmfao…… I don’t need a 4.0 I’m not going to grad school I’d rather kms #I don’t know. I didn’t realize I was trying that hard I just thought that’s how hard I was supposed to try #IDK!!!! #I have never been good at knowing how much effort to put into things my entire life #I give everything 110 percent when it feels like I’m giving it like. Idk. 80 percent #everyone calls me a perfectionist and IM NOT TRYING TO BE LOL I don’t know how to gauge what I can or can’t be dismissive of!!! #it’s hard for me to discuss this problem I have without it sounding like I’m being like ‘omg I’m so smart that I do everything perfect by #accident’ #THATS NOT WHAT I MEEEEAAAN #whatever #some people’s mental health issues make their grades tank but I have never had below an A- in my life and if u ask me that is also #indicative of an issue like LOL. if your child is like that then get them help for fucking real #ugh I love my mom and it’s not her fault but when I was a kid I was literally bawling and having stress headaches and canker sores DAILY #after school and being unable to sleep because I was so afraid of going the next day #and she was just like. ‘I was like that too :) it’s normal. you’re just a perfectionist’ #ACTUALLY IM SCARED OUT OF MY MIND FOR NO REASON but okay #ok sorry let me just shout out some gratitude tho to the handful of teachers I had who were epic and had swag #I loved them #they didn’t make up for the rest of this bullshit though LOL

[vampirepunks]

Higgs is a bad guy and you should not woobify him, he's a mass murderer

✨If not babygirl why does he have pretty blue eyes and a special interest...✨

Anyway here's my favorite cover of Bad Guy :)

#this has been sitting in my inbox since yesterday and I've been laughing too hard to answer it #fandom police on the scene even though i said fuck the cops! #idk how to explain to you that fiction isn't real #i can call a fictional terrorist a poor little meow meow... as a treat #also hi i'm coping with my c-ptsd through him thank you :) that's my emotional support skrunkly. for my mental health. he just like me fr #i hate to break it to you but if that's all you walked away with regarding him then well... death stranding just isn't for you #like did you miss kojima retweeting samhiggs fanart orrrrrrrrrr #idk where y'all haters keep coming from... dang my blog has termites huh. y'all are in the walls i stg #that or one (1) person has a crush and can't cope lmfao... this is def schoolyard behavior #logan answers #anon #higgs monaghan

[bright-and-burning]

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#love that. when i prioritize MY mental health. it’s ’you can’t prioritize your mental health at the expense of someone else’s’ #but when it’s me feeling emotionally fucking destroyed day after day by existing in the same space as someone who treats me like shit #anything i do to remove myself is hurting their feelings :( #like OH i SEE my mental health just doesn’t mean anything #and you REALLY mean. mine means less than theirs #that’s cool!! that’s sooooo cool #honestly whatever like lmfao. i don’t have anything going for me anyways

[butchdykekondraki]

can we see some samples of what’s in your inbox I am so so curious

this one sums it up pretty well lol

#[ren] #i dont feel the need to post a bunch theyre all basically just this #i havent seen it and dont plan on watching it for mental health reasons but i dont believe this for a fucking second lmfao. #+ going off posts ive seen about it uhhhh No The Fuck He Didn't

[ouroboobos]

A lot of of (primarily white) grown adults hide their complacency and complicitness behind the schtick of "I'm sorrrryyyyy its just because I'm so anxious and smol wahhh I'm so pathetic I'm such a pushover I'm so dumb" to try and keep you from holding them accountable but it's time to stop coddling them and just be like yeah you are pathetic and stupid.

#♥︎ #like? #i keep seeing posts about various issues that are worded like #'its ok if you dont have the energy to give a shit abt marginalized ppl!! take care of urself first you cant pour from an empty pot 💛' #and 99.9% of the time its a post written by a white person about other white people #like giving permission to not give a fuck or do anything abt whatever is being discussed #its so nasty and also just fucking weird? why do we think we're in a position to do that #also its always like ''you cant take care of other people if u dont take care of yourself first 🥺'' #as if the type of people internalizing those messages would ever use even one ounce of their resources or energy for the cause lmfao #you know what i mean? does this make sense? #its always the type of person who could have all the money in the world and limitless time and energy and still wouldnt do anything #because its ''bad for their mental health'' or the situation makes them ''sad''. am i making sense #practically everyone who behaves this way has every opportunity to educate themselves but they will refuse #because theyre simultaneously spineless and cruel #this is primarily abt palestine but its also about everything

[wjsns]

im sorry its okay to be sad about wjsn possibly disbanding but if you’re not also like super excited the girls are making their own decisions about their careers and futures rn and deciding on what they want to spend their time doing and you wont be happy with whatever decision THEY made about THEIR lives then ur not a real ujung and wjsn arent real people to you and i can smell ur chronically online brain rot kpop stanism from here

#seeing posts like ‘its actually going to affect peoples mental health and its NOT funny OR OK to joke abt’ bla bla holy god stfu #i dont wanna talk about it either but what are u gonna FUCKING do if these 10 ppl u ‘care about’ decide they dont want to #dress up in costumes and sing and dance and cater to you anymore? what are u gonna fucking do? be MAD at them?!? lmfao #being an idol is so hard you give SO much of urself to your fanbase and the fanbase forgets ur even a real person with autonomy

[orcelito]

IRL dnd friend is gonna see if he can get me in his dnd since I am currently dnd-less

Crossing Fingers

#speculation nation #may or may not work out. we'll see. #id Love to have it tho. i miss dnd. #also fhskfhj the fucking ridiculousness of having an irl friend i dont fucking hang out with #I DO HAVE A FRIEND!!!! i say as i never hang out with anyone ever #listen online friendships r just so much easier to maintain hfkdhfj #but he comes into my work & we chat while i make his drink #aka how i made a friend in the first place #im. kind of a genuine loser irl lmfao. thats ok tho #i Really should try to hang out with him more. for my mental health. #also having at least one in person friend would be good for me #(🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄) #lmao anyways heres hoping. id love 2 have dnd with ppl actually near me. We'll See!

[s0urte3th]

GRITTING MY TEETH

#I DID AND IT DIDNT WORK!!!! #/nm #i try EVERYTHING to preserve my mental health but no matter what i cant just stop fucking caring apparently #i tried distancing myself ive tried making them hate me ive tried to hate THEM but GOD #NO MATTER WHAT I CANT STOP CARING AND ITS DOING DAMAGE TO MY PSYCHE AAAUGHHHHH!!!!!! #im okay but like.. idk #i dont wanna stop caring but its hurting me but even if i try i cant stop caring! #i tried to distance myself and it just made it worse #and now im sour and petty and im taking it out on them and thats just #a fat fucking asshole move LMFAO #sorry for the tags rant

[imeminemp3]

oh i got 3 compliments on my nails at social anxiety group tonight🥺🥺

#also i finally got to talk to the other girl* who's actually in the group #one of the compliments was from her and the others from one of the. um idk what you call them. ladies training to be psychiatrists #part of the appeal of these nails is the are 3d so they are very tactile #also im realising that the autism is also making the Getting Over Social Anxiety hard #bc the social anxiety def came from the autism so. there's things i just don't do and im very adamant about not changing them but #like #eye contact and such. im never going to do that and i think tahts OK! #sorry these tags are like. getting in depth. BUT #ive been like. performing societal norms super hard lately which is not good for my mental health like im out here making a gazillion #facial expressions a day bc idk im stressed outta my mind! idk! #i really need to get my therapist to understand that i am fucked up in a way bc last time I saw her (last week) i said i vaccuumed my room #and she was like wow ur doing gr8! nvm the fact that i still had piles of washing and so much shit to still Pu away #i did clean my room fully tho tonight bc my sister is coming over tmr #but that's bc i wanna set a good example #incentives don't seem to work on her 13yo brain but they do for me! but as i said she's coming over tmr and since im going str8 from work #to pick her up ive left it up til the LAST MINUTE lmfao #but. i did it #OK guys sayonara I'm going to read these tags to my therapist next time i see her tho #diary

[pleckthaniel]

you know. maybe i should just say forget it and become an english professor

#scout talks #idk ive really enjoyed this senior-level literary criticism work which i am likely to do less of from this point on #also i fucked up and missed my gre test today so im kind of feeling some career malaise #not that i wouldnt have to also go to grad school to be an english prof lol #idk ive been starting to think i need a few years off from school so i can just kinda fuck around and do what i actually want #because working full time for the brief period that i did was probably actually better for my mental health than doing school full time #you don't get homework at minimum wage jobs lmfao