wrapup, day 2
Well.
Today was less productive, because yesterday I ran myself ragged. I'm having a lot of the typical ADHD cleaning... I pick something up, go to put it away, notice something is dirty, clean that, put that stuff away, get distracted by something else, etc etc. But I think Naruto is actually taking his meds, which is good.
I did almost entirely wrap up the laundry tho, and did a fair amount of dishes. I want to get all the laundry and dishes cleaned up so that I can run maintenance loads instead of being overwhelmed by piles of it, and I think it's helping. So here's what I did today since my first post, though I know the list is incomplete.
-Paid rent
-Paid Finn's rent
-Deposited a check of Finn's that I advanced him and has just been sitting in my room for two weeks
-Hung a couple of pictures
-Had Wayne dig me up a bunch of dirt to put on top of the dead bird potting soil, then transferred my marigold and sunflower sproutlings on top of that
-Made BLTs for dinner
-Walked Courage and Davenport with Kraken up to 711, where he bought me gummi bears :)
-Put the afghans back on the patio chairs
-Replaced the shower head and took a loooooong shower
-Brushed out and oiled my hair
Kraken has gotten super into cocktails as a hobby, and he made me a sour with his FFVII anniversary red wine. We drank the white together about a year into our relationship, and I remember being sad thinking that there was a chance that we wouldn't get to drink the red together. But then we got married! And now we're doing that! It's a nice feeling. But I did get DRUNK off just one cocktail, which isn't at all normal for me. I think a lot of it is that I get hungry, but then I'm full after a few bites so the only thing I really ate before that was half of Naruto's eggs.
Wondering what tomorrow will be like since Naruto doesn't have school and I have the opportunity to sleep in. Will I actually do it?! Idk!
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day 2
Hello, void.
Tumblr is so much different than it was in like, 2011. Like I still have my main tumblr around here somewhere, and I know a lot of my friends are still on this site, but I want to be able to chronicle everything without writing for an audience. Screaming into the void has always been the great thing about tumblr, but making this blog I see how much things have changed. Fuck you, Yahoo.
(Wait, Yahoo still owns tumblr, right?)
Anyway. It's 9:53 am and this is what my morning has looked like so far. I took my Adderall at 5:20 this morning again when Kraken got up, then slept a little more and got myself up at 7 (again, still, SO EASY?!). Sleeping last night was a little difficult - I'm from a desert city, so it's in my blood not to consume too much water. Like a cactus. Plus, I found out I may have esophageal dysphagia (you mean it isn't normal to need liquids for food, and most people don't choke on thick foods?!) and I've always hated swallowing (shhh). I hold liquids in my mouth for a stupid long time. But yesterday I was SO THIRSTY. I always wondered how and why Kraken drank so much water. NOW I KNOW. Plus, I stopped taking the oxybutinin because it was causing bloating and making my eyes dry, which is hell with aging eyes and contacts. So I had to get up to pee last night three. Separate. Times. I did not rest well. And my night twitches got way worse, like my body was powering down from the Adderall. So I let myself sleep until 7, got up, and then
-tried to wake up Naruto, asked if he wanted eggs
-made us tea and him eggs
-went down to switch laundry, realize I didn't run the dryer, run dryer
-tried to wake up Naruto about 6 times between 7:20 and 7:50 (did he eat his eggs? fuck no. After complaining to the psychiatrist that I don't feed him. Sir, you are 15, and you haven't eaten the breakfast I've made you before summer school AT LEAST four times. I do not work, thanks to you attacking Kraken and me needing to take off time to get your mental health sorted, therefore making me lose my job. I can't keep wasting food like this. Ass.)
-Inflated Naruto's tire for school, which didn't need inflating, but he insists it does. He just is huge and I have to check the weight limit on his bike to see if he needs a bigger one. (220 lbs and 5'9" at 15, holy shit. I'm 5'3 and his father is like 5'6". I have no idea where this came from.)
-ran more laundry
-took out Courage, dusted the leather couch in the garage
-watered plants, refilled makeshift birdbaths
-contacted lawyer re: OVI
-reached out to friends to reform our stitch-n-bitch group
-reached out to Viking to tell him I love him, even though we don't talk much anymore
-reached out to friends to plan a dinner for friend who is moving
-did wordle, framed, heardle, Animal Restaurant, and nyt mini
-did more dishes (a fucking Sisyphean effort, but I find I don't mind dishes as much now?)
-folded a bunch of laundry
I have a whole list of shit I need to do but this blog isn't for tracking that, just for seeing what the changes in my life are like. One thing I'm noticing is that I can pick up something and put it back down without my brain going "no no, need to do this this and this and then finish and THEN do that thing" and then hating itself for not knowing where to start/finish.
Also, food tastes bomb af but I don't wanna eat anything past a few bites. I eat for fun, so this is ... disappointing. I also had to quit weed because they're gonna drug test me to make sure I'm not on anything illicit and that I'm taking my meds and not selling them. PLUS I have to figure out drinking again since now I'm on Prozac AND Adderall and it's risky to drink. So I have an asshole 15yo who smokes and vapes and won't fucking quit, and I can't have SHIT for vices to deal.
Other than that? I feel pretty good. Now that my brain isn't bogged down with all the stress of shit executive dysfunction, I can think about things more clearly and enjoy more things.
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