#me: ah. thanks tumblr!

[secretdazedragon]

Here have their little communication dance c:

[the idea for the dance belongs to @flux-fux]

#bumblebears #bear #bee #gif #animation #illustatration #swarm of bears #ah yes thank you tumblr for letting me upload this in good quality #enjoy all the two pixels #they dont have the wings bc they're very fast not at all bc i didnt want to draw it #i mean technically it's quite far from it now but the inspiration was #the quarry

[a2zillustration]

What species is Croissant, anyway? They have elfin (or gith) ears, but their eyes don't look like anyone else's

Trying to be very normal about answering this since I've been spinning Croissant's lore around in my head like a microwave for months.

Croissant is a half-elf!

Their mother is a wood elf, and their father is a fey of the fox persuasion (drawn glamoured and unglamoured). Croissant gets their eyes from him, though they didn't always look like that.

#Yes I know that kind of fey doesn't really exist in Faerun lore but consider this: I do not care #Croissant loves them both very much and they both love Croissant very much and they are separated LOL #Thank you so much for this ask!! I've been wanting to draw Croissant's parents for a long time so this was the perfect excuse #asks #bg3 croissant #AH also - the way I draw Croissant is not how they look in-game. I'm taking a lot of creative liberties with their character #....and tumblr seems to be eating the saturation on this - which I am not loving #FOR THE ANON WHO ASKED ME TODAY ABOUT CROISSANT'S RACE: HERE U GO!! As for subclass they're...abjuration? Is that what you're looking for? #croissant lore

[xejune]

little request for @bookcalanthedaily of her calanthe & ciri (+ an additional tiny comic), thank you for your patience! ✨

sketches + process shot underneath the cut!

#the flowercrown is supposed to be made out of feainnewedd flowers but i took a lot of artistic liberties with the colours dshfjh #although they seem to potentially be based off of African Violets; which do come in pink! #the witcher #the witcher books #(kind of?) #the witcher 3 #ciri #cirilla fiona elen riannon #calanthe #queen calanthe #my art #i redrew this piece (& parts of it) so many times djkfsf also thank you to my bf for his patience with me while i was working on this LMAO #me: ah yes. a quick little sketch request; my brain: okay now what if we colour it through a method you're not used to #and also activate perfectionistic tendencies you weren't even aware of #me: sure! i don't see how this could go wrong :) #[cue a montage of multiple weeks passing by] #i had fun with it though! #will tumblr let this post appear in the tags? who knows! we'll see!

[front-facing-pokemon]

#barboach #their mouth is so tiny… like… i know they're a fish and all but. it's so small. how do they get anything in there #barboach is that one “4x weakness to grass my beloved” bitch who always threw me off as a kid when i was trying to beat it #because i would be like. ah yes. this is a Fish. i will use an electric-type move. wah-wah #unfortunately that tendency persisted quite a while for me. i think i did it even in legends arceus to be quite honest. but i know now #i have it memorized. this bitch and whiscash are ground-types. for. no reason. i guess it's because they live in swamps or whatever #and so. ground? but also whiscash's pond doesn't really look like a swamp. wouldn't lend itself to being a ground-type zone #i dunnoooo. i think there's a lot of passion for barboach out there tbqh. i don't think i've seen it with my eyes but it just Feels like a #'mon people would be passionate about. any barboach out there please let me know how the hell you are using tumblr with no arms #and from underwater. do you have special water computers. and also why are you a ground-type. thanks

[princekirijo]

Imma be honest with you chief this week has not been fun. At all

#oh boy i had a terrible three days time to go tell my tumblr followers about it! #ah no but jokes aside y'all. #i started my job on monday and i actually like it so far! #i haven't done any actual work or anything quite yet cause its all onboarding at the moment #but so far so good! all my colleges are lovely #so you might ask why is this one of the worst weeks of my life? two words #FOOD. POISONING. #this shit is straight up EVIL #im doing better today thank god but yesterday??? omfg #“look im being uber dramatic here but when am i not to be fair” #But seriously #ill try not to go into too much detail but. 10 hrs. yeah. #my throat feels like someone has shoved a metal ball down it #i havent eaten anything today #and I'm missing two days of training over this 😭 #this is so embarrassing first week on the job and boom food poisoning knocks me out for two of them #im gonna be the food poisoning guy 😭 #i hope y'all are having a better time than i am

[marimayscarlett]

i hope our dear richard knows just how loved he is. how much he matters to us. i’d give anything for one of his hugs, they look so cosy 🥰

Oh dear anon, you express exactly what I think and feel 💜

I just would want to tell Richard how much love this fandom here holds for him. How cherished he is, how much we appreciate the little things he does which makes him so admirable and lovable.

Like his enthusiasm about things he enjoys, his geekiness and dedication about music and how to create the best sound. His little lisp, his smile which reaches his eyes, his head tilt when he explains something. His love and adoration for his family and friends, his hugs, the fact that he's seemingly also very lovable with fans. Of course his talent in guitar playing and also singing, his openness and thoughtfulness about depression, addiction and therapy, the downward gaze he does when he listens intently in interviews... oh look, my hand slipped a bit 👀🫢

I sometimes do wish there was a way to let Richard know how much he means to me and us 🤍 And yes, I certainly wouldn't mind a hug from him 😌

#I'm sorry idk what happened here #he's just ... #mwaaahh forever #meaning so much to me for almost 8 years now #rammstein #richard kruspe #rzk #that gathering of his lovable things on discord really made me emotional #ah well I'm on an emotional rollercoaster ride anyway due to adieu so #ask #thank you for this message!! #pinning this because he needs all the love he can get even if it's just vibes from tumblr

[pixlokita]

Freddy's proud that Gregory is continuing his gay lineage by having mutual feelings for Tony.

As he should. Bonnie would be proud, too ✨

Honestly I was trying not to ship more characters because at this point everyone is either gay or ace or aroace and I feel like I need more straight ships to balance it out 💀 but it just don’t click =w=

#pix answers #fnaf #i don’t have that many ships to begin with #heck #and the straight ish ships consist of at least a non-binary character so that doesn’t even count #=w= #like Idk…. they feel forced #i just won’t focus too much on romance =w= aside from Jeremike and Beckory #and even then- Mike is ace 🧍‍♂️ #ah frick #frack #tictac #Big Mac #💥💥💥💥 #Lmao thank god my family doesn’t have access to my tumblr they’d disown me so fast

[presiding]

What is your favourite thing about Billie Lurk?

(Answers are obvious possibly but i love when people talk about her👍)

thanks for the ask!! YEAH ME TOO I love when people talk about Billie! I can't say I have a favourite thing specifically, but I can explain why she's my fav. apologies for not taking this qn literally, but -

short answer: she’s really cool

& you can stop reading there, or, for the maybe 2 mutuals who might have time to read this my thoughts on her as a character, her meta, and her character as raw potential...

long answer:

i considered making this entire thing a gush so you could read a gush about Billie. but, part of what draws me to her is that she’s not always well written, and in fandom she’s underrated for a literal protagonist.

since you ask...

billie is a cool character

when I played Dh2 (hadn't played Dh1), I was excited to see a black woman with disabilities who was captaining a massive ship by herself. wow.

then I discovered Billie’s backstory with Deirdre, the way she responded to that, then having to survive while living on the run, and her bisexuality. as well as her history with daud & delilah. fascinating!

she’s an outsider who has so much to lose, and knows what it's like to lose everything - having lost everything not once but three times - but nevertheless speaks truth to power. she's so brave! she went and helped Emily & Corvo and she must have known they might kill her! plus, she’s smart, she’s funny, she gets shit done, she’s gorgeous.

but... the meta

mild critique of fandom & arkane incoming.

skip this bit if you want - you've been warned twice now - jump to tired Hayao Miyazaki and read from there if you'd like my thoughts on writing her.

i thought Death of the Outsider was going to be amazing and then... well. *sad trombone* i've written about that before so i won't keep banging on. i figured others must be disappointed too, so I joined a few fandom spaces in hopes of finding camaraderie.

most people with complaints about DotO didn’t like how the Outsider and Daud were handled. which is valid & I agree. but it seemed like most paid no attention to Billie; when people talk about her it’s with respect to Daud, as opposed to in her own right. you could argue for fandom misogyny because people don’t talk about adult Emily Kaldwin that much either, but in Billie's case, it’s misogynoir (compare & contrast with the popularity of thomas, particularly the popularity of thomas portrayed as a white man for no particular reason that i've been able to discern - i keep asking around, is it in the books???).

i think this is a LOT better now than it used to be, which is fantastic. or perhaps i have found the correct echo-chamber? ha.

ultimately, The Fandom is a fraction of the entire picture, and not even the important bit since The Fandom is not who these games are made for. you can't make money relying on only your hardcore fans even if all of them spent a fortune on merch, this is true for any AAA game.

while it's true that Billie is underrated from a fandom perspective - but Billie as an underwritten protagonist is squarely Arkane’s fault.

it was reasonable when she was a side character - the lack of info in Dh2 makes perfect sense (if anything there was more lore in Dh2 which is kind of wild)-

- but as a protagonist in Death of the Outsider?

.... there’s lousy writing, and there’s whatever is going on with Billie Lurk, a black woman who mostly exists as a foil or saviour for light-skinned characters. In her own game there’s barely any of her own lore except where it's relevant to saving two dudes.

lore hints at, but barely touches on what race means in the Dh universe (xenophobia is stronger in Dh1; separate essay i guess), but Arkane has patted themselves on the back for portraying non-white characters, which feels like the same thing as the aesthetic of diversity we're seeing in advertising currently because it’s in marketing trend guides. it's self-congratulatory and it's a missed opportunity for deeper storytelling.

you can see an example of diversity at its most shallow in the way that Billie’s written: there’s little engagement with her as an entire person with history & wants & preferences, and the world she walks through in that game feels like it has nothing to do with her. you could make a case for alienation as a theme, but then, how do you handle the titular premise of 'Dishonored' without ever letting Billie make changes in an environment without a chaos system? it's disappointing from that angle too.

in my opinion, whatever it's worth, it was an accident Arkane created such an awesome character - they needed someone to betray daud. congrats billie.

all this said, it makes her an underdog as far as characters to enjoy & create art & stories for. it's nice to find so many like-minded, switched on people! <3

billie's character potential

she’s got a wealth of unexplored lore, being deeply intertwined with both Karnaca & Dunwall’s fates & criminal underbellies, as well as her connections to the witches & whalers, and three Empresses.

she’s lived a few distinct lifetimes and in the games we get to meet her at two peaks (KoD & DotO) & a low (Dh2 as Meagan).

her voice is very distinct, her dry & often dark humour is entertaining & fun to write. her perspective is really interesting - she’s had the widest variety of void-powers of anyone canonically, and she’s also lived through the highest highs and lowest lows.

she's got everything going for her :) i couldn't really pick a fav thing!

#i assume my followers are cool enough to let me give a brief measured critique on fandom trends and DotO #thanks for the anon question!! what fun! #i love billie lurk <333 #jumped on the opportunity to rant n rave #what part of billie isn't my fav! (im a guy who likes the bad stuff too. mmm interesting meta) #trying to be not unfair or mean- i'm not targeting anyone but rather trends. and it's ok to be disappointed with something you love #fuck it. make it part of the appeal! her writing sucks! plenty of room for me & other creators! #its easier for me to indulge my billie brainworms when it sorta feels like she's not getting as much love as she deserves #you know? i want stories where her history is explored and her agency is important so i guess i'll roll up my sleeves #tumblr is a terrible place for this sort of critique IMO- lots of nuanceless empathy-free guilt-trip-ish rhetoric #so i hope i avoided that. but not so much that i seem forgiving. #that said i'm not tagging this one with fandom tags! no thank you. #i am blaming arkane yes. but that is also not without games industry context #i could complain about amateurish writing but that also never happens in a vacuum. industry problem(s) for sure. #people love to blame writers for things #and yeah a couple really fucking good writers can push a boulder uphill #but its usually a company problem #hire lots of diverse people in your company. give them authority and respect and reasonable workloads. and no crunch. #ah fuck this is a separate essay in tags. again #THIS WAS A SIMPLE QUESTION #*clutches head in hands* #uh if you're still reading at this point im SO sorry and thank you and i love you

[milllkaa]

oh lady Milllkaa, may I ask you for a heclie hug?.. these two are just incredibly in need of something like this, and hector has probably never been hugged… this thought just haunts me, uhhhh

Lady milllkaa... ah my heart (///≧ω≦///)

It's true, Hector was never hugged or praised as a child, so he's still uncomfortable with Charlie's attention, but he tries for him❤️

#thanks for the ask! #ah I love them so much #it feels so good to draw their relationship #dark pictures anthology #dark pictures the devil in me #the devil in me #tdim #charlie lonnit #hector munday #charlie x hector #heclie #fanart #artists on tumblr #my art #digital art #doodle

[lemony-snickers]

dear body: when I complained about being So Very Tired for no reason, what I meant was that I wanted to wake feeling rested after a long night’s sleep, not that I wanted you to wake me up at 2:30 am and keep me awake.

#lemony overshares #ah yes there it is the work anxiety - the surety that I am gonna fuck this all up #I wonder how many times I have smiled when I wanted to sink my teeth into a forearm #Hey news flash - not everything requires an hour-long zoom #Some stuff can just be an email! #I hate the bureaucracy of capitalism! I hate knowing I am gonna screw this up! #and also the anxiety about this space - about not being wanted #I was looking forward to sharing some darker stuff and then chickened out. For what? #No one here has an expectation of me. There is no brand to tarnish no fan base to let down (lol the absurdity) #Instead I bailed on the back third of a fic because I knew it wouldn’t be under my name so who cares - got sad but it was my choice??? #Even when I try something new I can’t quite hit the right notes #Blah I am too old & tired for the same middle school bs yet here I am at 3:26am lamenting my fanfic 💀 #Hopefully yeeting these thoughts into the tumblr void will stop them repeating like broken vinyl in my brain so I can sleep #Here’s hoping 🤞🏻 #thanks for coming to my tag talk

[thetriggeredhappy]

I won't lie, genuinely did not know you wrote Running Blind til I found your tumblr. I always associated you with your dadspy au because it's emotionally destroyed me

this is reminiscent of one of the funnier comments i’ve gotten, where on one of my one-shots someone left a very lovely comment clearly baffled about it then left a second comment like a few minutes later like “oh nevermind it’s just fuckin’ YOU again”. i enjoy the element of jumpscare

#shut up me #everybody talks #i also have the inverse a lot where i’ll like reblog or comment on something on tumblr and the person goes ‘ah thanks’ then ‘WAIT HUH’ #i appreciate you people. i do not understand you and do not understand why you think i’m cool but i appreciate you

[suffersinfandom]

I have finally reached tumblr nirvana (following so many people in the same fandom circle that I see most posts approximately ten times)

#also i'm at almost 100 followers? #idk what to do with that #i'm annoying i wouldn't follow me #but i love you thank you #i also love the names i see over and over #'ah yes that's my friend' #(person i have never spoken to) #tumblr

[colourofthekites]

Embrace the horny, show bulge

anon can have some bulge, as a treat

#asks #anon #thank you!! #me #gay #box menswear #its not a very clear bulge shot #ah well #also tumblr censored my last bulge attempt so there #thats on the alt btw

[voidcoretxt]

we dont rlly talk but like. i see ur posts on the dash alot. i hope you find people that are good for you you deserve great things and good friends

#ah i have been. bringing the mood down on the tumblr dash lately havent i !!! #but um. god this really made me cry #thank you. so much. i really needed to hear this i think. #and. ik we have interacted like once or twice before & it was only thru the beautiful medium of tumblr ask #so this may be a really strange thing to say ? so sorry abt that lmao but. um. #you are a really good person. #voidcore.txt but like responding i guess #absolute fave #<- stashing this ask away like im a squirrel and it is a delicious nut #(btw if u want me to like reply to this privately or something just tell me nd ill edit this post)

[chesthighwater]

I am really curious about lupus pilum mutat. Is it about Daud and his time in Tyvia? Is it even about Daud? Will there be a second part of the expression or perhaps another variant with a fox instead of a wolf?👀

thank you so much for asking!! it is in fact about daud (because of course). now, long term listeners will actually be familiar with this one- i've posted little snippets from it before (and am slowly running out of sfw content to share. and i dont wanna spoil all the good bits.) in terms of the title (also Excellent questions)- very tentative for now. obviously i love it because of the callback to daud's "motto", we'll see if i still feel like it "deserves" it by the end.

but as promised. snippet be upon ye!!

There it was. His greatest privilege- being subject to Daud's cruelty a moment less than everybody else. When he shatters the ground Martin stands on, he does so almost gently.

And then his gaze drops to the smear of blood on the ground, oxygenated dull and tacky, left in streaks by Daud's careless bootprints. In succession, Martin thinks: of Daud's hands around the hilt of his blade, paring open a throat; of slowly-cooling corpses stacked in a corner, masks askew; of a mounting pile of casualty reports on his desk; of a mounting pile of excuses. How tension floods a room when the only sound reaching its high ceilings is the tinny drip-drip-drip of foreboding red on its marble floors.

Jaw set, he stares him down. Stays quiet when he speaks to chastise, the tone that has Junior Overseers shivering at potential consequences. “I had good men stationed outside of that door.”

He hopes the barb stings, hopes to see a flash of guilt on his face- that rare little twitch of his lip and sidelong glance that hides rapidly suppressed tumult. And not for the dead Overseers- Martin himself is grieved more by the inconvenience than the loss of life, couldn't possibly expect more from Daud- but for Martin's displeasure. Daud scoffs, no more room left for guilt. “You didn't care for them,” he says, a touch annoyed at perceived sentimentality.

Martin wants to curse at him. Almost does. Instead he feels the truth unfurling, a slow release, and tries to push it down.

“No,” he concedes, “I didn't. But I can't suffer casualties this early. I'll look incompetent.”

Amusement pulls at the corner of Daud's lips. That boyish delight in having taken more from him, chipped more away. Oh, Martin thinks, he'll hollow me out one day.

#ask #don1t1red #THANK U SO MUCH #there are only 2 wips left i havent been asked about yet. fight fight fight #(im kidding.) #i realise you were asking more whats its about #and less “hey drop me a snippet with no context” #but i am very good at dropping contextless snippets and very bad at making my ideas sound good LMAO #oh. blood tw. and death. #another regular tuesday in the tumblr user chesthighwater household #AH RIGHT will there be a sequel?? maybe :3 mayhaps. a role reversal. #we shall see i need to actually finish this one first #wip

[pink-november]

a bit late, as my timezone makes me eepy when y’all are awake, but you’re yellow, ruby, and jade to me :3 (this is salty-an-disco’s main, Tumblr really should let you ask through side-blogs, urgh)

(I just don’t bite you cuz of sensory issues, but know I’m figuratively biting on your brain)

Hey Sal!!!! Glad you came knocking. I hope you're having a great morning so far.

I'm so glad my silliness brings you great joy. Expect to see more of me 😉

I am giving you hugs and blowing you kisses 😚 thanks for the compliment!!!

I'm so hyped that you enjoy what I post so far! The grip this game has on me is so unreal.

#novem asks #tumblr really should let sideblogs send asks but who knows maybe in the future it'll happen #also i would have recognize ur main from anywhere! also such a delight seeing u in my notes <3 #ah that reminds me *clicks the follow button* #been meaning to do that for soooo long aughhh #thanks for the figurative bite! ur makin me blush a little :>