#maybe im just an idiot

[its-just-me-chey]

Take two only one video at a time apparently

Following protocol yes of course as always. Honorable man, upstanding fellow really 🤴🏽🧑🏽‍💼👔👞

however, this man is also low key throwing a temper tantrum cause he is upset with her and in his feelings.

THANK YOU FOR COMING TO MY TED TALK 🤣🗽🏛💯

#rafael barba #law and order svu #raúl esparza #raul esparza #mariska hargitay #law and order: svu #olivia benson #damnnn #i love him #barson #law and order: special victims unit #maybe i’m imagining things #maybe im just an idiot #love maybe #sorry for this #sort of

[allforthemedlife]

Discouragement:

loss of confidence or enthusiasm.

I’ ve been feeling down for a long time now, I’m just not happy with the life I’m living right now, but the worst of it all is that i’m questioning that maybe this is the life I deserve.

I found myself thinking: “maybe I didn’t have enough money to keep studying medicine because I would end up being a shitty doctor” “maybe I just don’t deserve it because I have anxiety” “surely i couldn’t be smart enough to keep going anyway” “i don’t think nobody ever believed that I could really make it”.

And then I think maybe I should just give up.

I should accept this life, I should try to be happy as a psychologist even if i didn’t wanted to become one, I should try to be happy knowing that I won’t get to help people in the way that I wanted but some way anyways, I should be happy knowing that all my friends there are physicians now, that I would never truly belong the same way, that I won’t get their jokes or struggles, or live the same lifestyle at all but I’ll be with them, maybe I can even work at the same hospital and see them daily.

But it hurts. Hurts su much to be the one that’s always giving up.

It hurts so much to forget about my dreams.

And I wonder: would I ever truly be happy?

#medblr #medicine #psychology studyblr #psychology #psychology student #med student #med studyblr #med stuff #med school #motivation #study aesthetic #study motivation #studygram #studying #studybrl #college #i'm sad #maybe im just an idiot #maybe im delusional #im crying #i dont wanna #forget my dreams #give up

[yoshikagekirasbf]

ppl bring up how confusing king crimson is (which i can kinda understand) but the part i really didn't understand was diavolo and trish's backstories in general (i probably was not paying any attention)

#jjba #vento aureo #maybe im just an idiot #but that made no sense #golden wind

[crimsonrain-spirits]

xianle trio,,,,,,i love them dearly,,,,

#first actual tgcf fanart i've made in a while oh boy #maybe i'll make more :) #ANYWAY SCREAMING AND CRYING AND THROWING UP I LOOOOOVEEEE THESE IDIOTS #THEY'RE SO. MWAH #also im ngl i didn't really know which designs to use so i kinda just. did a fusion + my own thing LMAO apologies if it looks off #<3 #art #my art #tian guan ci fu #tgcf #tgcf fanart #heaven officials blessing #heaven officials blessing fanart #fanart #xianle trio #mu qing #feng xin #xie lian #mxtx

[thelibrarythatburned]

like here's the thing.

i knew this. i knew that i don't feel desire to have sex with a *real* person. i knew this.

but what if? im not reliable. my feelings arent reliable. what i am now and what i feel now-

maybe itll change.

(it didnt)

its always this wish. maybe i can be normal. pass under the radar, be a regular person who has nothing different, who can relate to others, who can be confident and be normal.

its like this: im different in the slightest ways, just a little to the left. not on one square or the other, walking the line. not queer enough to be clocked and not straight enough to not think about it, not pretty enough to be noticed and not ugly enough to think about it. not smart enough to be proud not dumb enough to not know.

i keep walking the line. i can't fall. i am incapable of falling because this is what i am and it does not change.

(and i keep thinking about a world in which i am more and better and walk on the streets below instead of power lines. fly in the sky instead of this balancing act.)

but. here i am again. not on one side or the other.

i dont want sex physically and i dont hate it either. i want to please, but i dont want to be pleased. and i please, maybe, but it would be so easy, to slip away into another train of thought. its an activity, a thing to do with my body and a way to connect with someone else.

i dont really care about it, though.

do i?

yeah. unreliable. maybe itll pass. maybe im wrong now. maybe one day, ill fall off the line and be normal.

#library whispers #and the frustration never leaves. #why cant i just /be/ #its always something #its always #im so fucking complicated #why cant i just be straightforward? #its just a little more. nothing simple nothing /easy/ #and it's like.... do i want or do i want the idea of it? #my heart might flutter. but do i truly want? #maybe im just an idiot #maybe theres no solution. #yeah #there probably isnt #im just stuck #in this limbo

[smolpetes]

where was I when we got the memo that as you age things are supposed to start making sense and your life will come together?

all I'm seeing is more and more decay, and things are making less sense but in a way that makes sense and everything is falling apart.

I'm so confused, I'm 26, I'm not getting it. when will it get better?

#fr fr #maybe im just an idiot #maybe life will never make sense

[stars-aroundscars]

tumblr is honestly so confusing ive been on this website for over a year now but i still struggle with it

#maybe im just an idiot #anyway tumblr is confusing #its really fun but i cannot for the life of me understand this site properly

[kiruvry]

again . can't for the life of me draw anything serious of this game

#IM SO MAD I GOT SO ATTACHED TO TJE THREE OF THESE IDIOTS #THEYRE AWFUL kiruvry when hes presented with a group of villains who are tryjng to rip eachother apart #i got this idea from another post but i cant find it :( i love u op #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #baldurs gate iii #lord enver gortash #enver gortash #orin the red #ketheric thorm #bg3 spoilers #maybe??? just in case #dead three

[puppyeared]

I just skimmed through the art part of your blog and holy bajeebus your LMK art is so beautiful and the headcanon ideas you come up with are so good I wanna steal em-

Kinda wanna see like a part 2 of the little angst you did between MK and Macaque a while ago. It's so interesting and I wanna see Macaque's reaction in your art style. (You don't have to of course, it's just a suggestion [idk if i spelled that right])

Thanks for reading and hope you have a good day/night!

Hope this is to your liking ^^

Part one here

#I’m sure there are some character nuances im forgetting but well 🤷🏽 #I want their misunderstanding or whatever they have going on between then come to a head. literally just going ‘wait what’ #for me I think it’s entirely possible that there was an actual fight and maybe tension leading up to that point #cause I feel like macaque is not just bitter about thinking he died to wukong but maybe some stuff that built up to that #maybe the fight was just the breaking point. maybe they’re idiots who don’t talk about it because they think they’re on the same page idk #chipper-smol wrote a cool theory abt them using macaques ‘you’re nothing’ line in s4ep1. from what I understand it could be a direct parall #parallel to when he said that to MK right before MK regained his nerve and hit macaque in the eye.. since flying bark foreshadowed monkey mk #waaaay back in season 1 (where his shadow is his monkey form in the opening) i think that could be deliberate #and they could have gotten billy to voice an entirely different line for that scene. but they reused his line from s3 #in a very specific scene with wukongs narrative foil. hm #that aside I would have liked to hear billy voice the ‘you abandoned me’ line that would have killed me. but that’s just me lol #also looking at this I should have shaded the last frame to make it look more dramatic and serious but I ran out of time :( #if anything I want to see MK try and help them get back together. poor kid tries so hard to understand people so I think it would be cool to #see that happen. that’s what I like about him.. he asked macaque why he was working for LBD instead of accusing him of dooming everyone bc #he wants to and he tried to comfort spider queen by admitting he was scared of LBD too 😭😭 #my art #myart #Lego Monkie kid #lmk #Monkie kid #lmk spoilers #Lego Monkie kid spoilers #lmk macaque #six eared macaque #lmk sun wukong #lmk swk #lmk MK #lmk xiaotian #lmk season 4 #Lego Monkie kid s4

[1495-gauge]

there's that fucked up three-eyed thing that lives in the woods. whose turn is it to chase it off again??

#submas #submas art #so long story short i cant fucking draw people. i can draw all sorts of beasties but alas the human Face has always eluded me unless im #drawing direct from reference #which simply means. i guess come up with ideas where i get to draw a lot of pokemon and maybe some dude From A Distance #anyway i really like all the like. one of them has to go a little fucking nuts in the woods. aus #submas microwave au #you see a subway boss from far away and his eyes shine like medallions just like his hat pin #in the naked twilight of a snowy night where everything glows and nothing is truly dark #and maybe he's got a mega concussion and amnesia #get adopted by creatures. idiot #submas ingo #i just feel like in an age and era where 'unusual/strange human' = dog thats going to maul my face #that this would. not go well yk #ft his little clown shoes. theyre so funny to me. little as in honkin big #loud booming calls in a language known only to it. even the zoroark seem to shun it #taking a mockery of its shape and trying to chase it down #though some in turn embrace it #seen especially commonly with ghost pokemon #perhaps its a ghost itself? #whatever it is. its not allowed in camp

[kyurochurro]

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!! here's a cozy lil drawing of Rosalina and he Lumas for the Christmas season :D 🎄💫

#churro art #my art #illustration #digital art #fanart #rosalina #super mario #mario bros #mario galaxy #nintendo #AHHHH SO VERY PROUD OF THIS ONE!!! #quite possibly my fav illustration ive ever done GBHSGAJ #I struggled a lil making the bg for this one but in the end it came out so well! #i dont think its perfect but im so glad I was able to get past the first few hurdles cus oooooh boy #this background nearly beat my ass JAKSJKLASJSKALSAJK #BUt i got the effect i wanted so im soo happy!!! #I really wanted a warm bg with a cool blue almost purple subject #anyways thats just to say im also proud of how my composition skills have been developing :DD #maybe if i ACTUALLY STUDIED THE MATERIAL IM SUPPOSED TO ID BE EVEN BETTER!!!!!!!! but im a big dumb dumb idiot :P #ANYWAYS!!!!!!!!! A MERRY CHIRTSMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL!!

[yume-fanfare]

a mimir

#torikasa #enstars #tori himemiya #ensemble stars #tsukasa suou #decided to draw their actual beds because im an idiot who has to wake up early tomorrow and drew this in 15 mins in a rush of inspiration #and im once again pleased to see how trans flag tori's bed is #theyre also kind of matching but maybe im just insane #this is what they were dreaming about in the white brim bed too #art tag

[hidaarts]

Gordo sketchie......

#gordon freeman #hl1 #half life #hlvrai #(maybe) #half life fanart #listen. this is a picture of my computer screen because im an idiot #i updated my tablet software and didnt save the fucking drawing #i was so close to blowing up out of pure unfiltered rage #gordon is my life support i didnt blow up just because of him

[mblue-art]

man's skull feels like the fkn sun <3

my artjuice is going into shitposting

#cross!sans #self insert #mblue art #shitpost #(i think its bc im just drawing for fun and not thinking abt how clean itll look) #(jus wanna draw a silly impulsive thing bc brain thinks the visual is funny) #may or may not connect to previous doodle<3 #this is going to be my art for awhile maybe i hope its ok #also I FLUSTERED THIS MAN TO DEATH. I AM WINNING. he is losing. look at him. lightbulb-lookin-ass #what if its dark out and i need to look for something so i kiss him and his magic blush glows bright enough to light up the area a little #10/10 would fluster cross again tbh #absolute cutie #(affectionately) bullying cross is my fav pastime as his datemate /j #thats what he gets for saying something he thought would trigger the tsundere-fluster 😎 #get got idiot /aff #CM

[sacchiri]

Hellsing 2002 calendar illustration.

Ein wunderliche und erschröckliche Hystori von einem großen Wüttrich genant Dracole wayda Der do so ganz unkristenliche marrter hat angelegt die mensche, als mit spissen als auch die leut zu Tod geslyffen

A wondrous and frightening story about a great berserk called Dracula the voivode who inflicted such unchristian tortures such as with stakes and also dragged people to death

#hellsing #alucard #kouta hirano #translation was found in a comment by u/lazyfoxheart on r/Kurrent #fun fact this is the highest quality version of this image that exists online #i know because i've been looking forever for a version that's clear enough to actually read what hirano wrote under '1443' #but there weren't any so i had to take matters into my own hands #the real image on the back of the guidebook is only 2 inches tall so i had to take this with my smartphone and will my hands not to shake #anyway i'm pretty sure it's supposed to say Eğrigöz (the location vlad was imprisoned) so yeah. thank you hirano very cool #if i might rant for a sec it took me an embarrassingly long time to figure that out because i didn't have the guidebook at first #and in the images i could find online that part was just a blur that looked suspiciously like a person's signature and i was like. who tf #i was thinking matthias corvinus since he issued some political propaganda against vlad iirc but it didn't match his signature on wikipedia #then i thought it might be vlad II dracul's since he probably had to sign an agreement to send his sons over as hostages at some point #but that didnt seem right either so i kept skimming vlad's wiki page #and then i was like goddammit...hirano.....you just misspelled Eğrigöz didn't you.. .... #i maybe should've made a separate post dedicated to this instead of writing a novel in the tags but eh #the hellsing brainrot runs deep #also- i put it in the source link at the bottom of the post but the german inscription is copied off a real woodcut of vlad from 1491 #except instead of depicting him as an adult hirano drew him as a child which gives the inscription a very different feel imo #the one final thing that interests me about this is the fact that hirano published this calendar in 2002 #which is REALLY early in the series. like this was before volume 5 came out?? #i have no idea why he decided to do a massive spoiler drop in a random piece of japan-only merch #sandwiched between a drawing of alucard as john travolta from saturday night fever and integra as a fish no less #it makes me really curious to know what the fan response to this was back then. like did people even know who this was #maybe im just an idiot and everyone back then was like 'ah yes its alucard as a 12 year old. how very informative'

[felicitywilds]

"that's what I like about you, the domestic approach" immediately followed in the next episode by "i'd have to settle down. get a house or something" / "i'd have to get one, too. we could share"..... you just. you really get a sense that ten is changing his mind. that rose is different than anyone else. the way he adamantly denies when rose says she's going to die in battle. as if it isn't a Rose Tyler Classic to continuously charge in head first into danger to do the right thing, even and especially against her own well being. as if Believing In Her really will be enough to save her every time.........

#doctor who #dw #nuwho #tenth doctor #the idiots lantern #the impossible planet #tenrose #by me #maybe its just the way im watching them too #in bursts of 2-3 eps at a time #bc the same thing happened with the thruline in school reunion/girl in the fireplace #of 'the doctor has to leave behind everyone hes ever loved for their own good' #hes letting himself be young and hopeful again #hes changing his tune but it doesnt last long unforch #also REAL FUCKING INTRUIGING when they choose to tease the doomsday song in the earlier eps #REALLY FUCKING GETS YA. #dont skip nine