#maybe i dont have anger issues maybe you have issues abt crossing peoples boundaries

[babydarkstar]

fucking hate when parents do something they know will upset me and then laugh about me getting upset and then get angry when i dont have the quiet little ‘look the other way’ that they want

#like it drives me fucking insane #also my nana told my mom she thinks i have ‘anger issues’ #i was like wow well i can definitely not show up to live with u and help u whenever u need #also that’s rich coming from someone who snapped at me when i said something mundane #and needs to have things done a certain way #like literally it’s making me so angry that i want to cry #maybe i dont have anger issues maybe you have issues abt crossing peoples boundaries #and purposely trying to trigger me/my sister/anyone who u feel like making fun of #i literally cannot wait to be independent from these people holy shit #like FOUR MORE FUCKING YEARS OF IT BUT IT’S FINE. IT’S FINE #im so sick of being nitpicked and criticized all the fucking time #anyways #wnd dont tell me to move out i will hunt u down and rip you apart w bare hands #bc that means u dont understand and u never will #also im terrified that i’ll never be able to move out bc mental illness #like i have zero self control zero self discipline i wont deny myself things #anyways like i know im capable but i also feel like i never will be #also bc of my depression all of my friendships are distant now #and im too ashamed to go back and be like ‘hey sorry i ignored your snaps and only sent streaks for an entire two years’ #and like. some of my old friends are sooooo draining to be around i dont even want to try #and they remind me of being in a shit school with a shit mentality and sksnksjsjs #im just complaining