#makes me feel shitty too

[conshirtoe]

List of things I try every chance I get and still don’t like them:

1. Hummus

2. Alcohol

#I really really want to like hummus #it looks so tasty #but for some god damn reason my taste buds loath it:( #I’m hoping one day something will happen and I’ll like it #still waiting for that to happen #alcohol is a different story #I basically just try it to appease whoever I’m around #no matter what’s done to the alcohol I can still basically only taste that #I’ll get the flavoring on the first sip and be okay #but then every other swig I take it’s just straight alcohol with a teeny tiny hint of flavor in the aftertaste #awful experience #I’ve barely been tipsy before just because I can’t stand to drink barely any #makes me feel shitty too #like sure I’ll ‘try’ it and I’ll pretend it’s fine #but I really hate it #lord am I trying with these but I know it’ll just never work out:( #does the alcohol thing happen with anyone else? have never met another soul with this problem #talkin talkin

[dotted-clouds]

more shitpost doodles from twitter side account

#my art #kingdom hearts #kh #kingdom hearts 3 #kingdom hearts 4 #Sora #Riku #Strelitiza #yozora mentioned #I love bullying my son riku /jk #but seriously doing shitty doodles for fun is so.. GOOD #makes me feel good and happy :') #happier when people love it too like !!!! wahh #I forgot to tag this as -> #soriku #OOPS #WELL SORIKU PEEPS YOU STILL FOUND IT SO IM HAPPY FOR THAT

[cowardlykrow]

"Hah, dude doesn't even know he's in my tamagotchi."

#For some reason he gave me early 2000s vibes as i was drawing him? So of course I turned his box into a tamagotchi✨ #Tinky #I don't care about cannon lore or timelines... all i know is this version of Tinky would torment the SHIT out of College ted. #t’noy karaxis #Nightmare time #time bastard #thinks i proof read it: writes always twice #hatchetfield #Heheh - Silly slushie idea came from @yourlocalabomination #and Edgelord Tinky convo idea came from @raftersomefood #God this particular Human tinky would talk so annoying... SOOO Dude-Bro 💛 #Anyway i guess i should have tried making him look like curt instead of winging it cuz everyone thought i was drawing Goat ted??? #I do think he came out too thin - I dunno know what happened #(PS. feel free to find me on insta for some close ups [same user] and follow me for my annoying stories where i post shitty progress pics)

[stuckinapril]

A big part of turning 21 and going through that whole thing really was realizing that the idealistic friendship dynamics I’ve always daydreamed over in my head don’t exist & that in reality most friendships you’ll cultivate in your life will be a series of compromises. And maybe like 1 to 3 ride or die friends at BEST that shit is so rare and it gets rarer the older I am

#And I’ve always been a friendship girl like I’m a hopeless romantic but I’m just as much if not more of a hopeless platonic #I’ve really had to temper my expectations lately and honestly I’ve also been sequestering myself more as a result of it #Idk if I’m adjusting to this revelation well tbh I feel like I’m disillusioned w most of my friends lately #And it causes me to burn out and be a shitty friend to them in turn too #It’s just a never ending cycle of me not admitting to myself that maybe that glove doesn’t fit #And I’m quite literally forcing it onto my hand and it’s cutting off my circulation #But I’m too sentimental of my glove to just stop wearing it . Idk if this makes any sense but it does in my head

[codacheetah]

Teenage Bonnie headcanons..... world's tallest and coolest chef cooker ever

#codacheetah #my art #isat #in stars and time #isat bonnie #isat postcanon #bonnie w the shitty teenage stache is important to me idk why #i kept reading their lil face lines as a bad stache even though i know they are too youthful for that #so it's true and real to me. theyre so proud of it btw it makes them look sooo grown up #siffrin is so sad that they're the shortest now. they're coping. #even with the boots bonnie is unequivocably.... A Tall #nyanyways. i cant believe ive never really drawn bonnie this feels like a crime

[deoidesign]

Happy EDS awareness month!

I'm a webcomic artist with EDS. be aware.

EDS affects many parts of my life. I have chronic fatigue, chronic pain, and I need to use a cane! I often find myself ruminating on themes of chronic illness in my work, whether or not I am intending to include them.

I already can't paint anymore, it hurts my hands too much... Anything that requires small details or precise motions will hurt me for days. I have a lot of grief around it. But working digitally allows me to still create!

I animate, I illustrate, I get to tell my stories. I have to go slow, take huge breaks (often against my will) and recover slowly. But, working in this space allows me the grace to do this.

So, I just wanted to share a bit of my experience with my audience, and say thank you for reading my work and supporting me! It means the world to me, and I hope maybe someone in my audience feels a little more seen through me sharing this. It causes me pain, but I love myself; and that includes my disability.

#I thought about putting my comic patreon and kofi links on here but it felt wrong #I really want this post to just be for my audience! #just so you can feel a little seen and just learn a little more about me #I am NOT inviting invasive questions #this is NOT opening the door to discussion on ways it affects my life #this is me sharing a limited glimpse into a part of my personal life #the real pain that this has caused me is shit like my bfs mom telling him to break up with me over it #and people calling me slurs and whatever #I mean obviously the pain itself too but #yeah. #I dont want to talk about that trauma to my thousands of followers in a way they can reblog it and share it around #so #this is all just for you guys #I love you! #thank you for being here #it's the only reason I'm able to create #is because of the support people give me. #well. I mean actually cause of the support webtoon is giving me tbh #I do NOT make enough to quit yet #but the support from my audience keeps me going and makes all the shittiness of my job worth it #it reminds me that creating stories is worth it all #the physical and emotional pain! #so thank you for keeping me motivated and going

[puppyeared]

some sort of creature

#i finally figured out how to adjust brush pressure sensitivity so im trying to get a feel for it to see if i like it #theyre very shy.. burrows into the ground to escape social interactions which honestly i wish i could do too #now that i think about it i have a soft spot for shy characters but like not in a uwaaahhh >m< way. like they become the most sopping wet #creature alive if u ask them to make a phone call. they will look at u so betrayed if u asked them to talk to the mcdonalds cashier etc etc #i havent read chainsaw man but i feel like im describing kobeni based on what ive seen of her and i have to agree #moles are also like this because ummm. because they live in the dirt and dont talk to anyone and have shitty eye sight like me #my art #myart #doodles #sona #fursona #mulch #fur #furry art

[quietwingsinthesky]

i really do think the desire to paint ten as unambiguously The Worst™️ when it comes to his relationship with martha is out of this desire to uncomplicate their relationship. to decouple them as friends and people who profoundly impacted each other’s lives. it’s just an easier narrative to swallow: that ten was Awful to her and then martha kicked him to the curb when she realized she was too good for him. easier, maybe, then dealing with the troubles of unrequited affection don’t have to be anyone’s fault, or that ten shut martha out in a lot of ways but let her in in others that he wouldn’t let any other companion near, or that they were still friends, they still wanted to see each other and be around each other, even though it was messy and sometimes hurt. you know?

#sometimes the doctor is shitty. this is not news we know this. this is part of the package. its what makes their relationships with their #companions so interesting so important. #like. how do i put this. i see posts sometimes about how ten was ‘leading martha on’ implying that he was taking advantage of her feelings #to keep her around. and. okay. so. putting aside how that’s a weird thing to say about anyone period. #its also just. from my viewing experience. not true? #the doctor is just sort of Like That. he’s too intense he’s too quick to grasp for emotional intimacy he’s too messy. #but he’s not leading her on. he really is just Like That. #like i feel by getting caught up in the fact that martha is hurt by being compared to rose and is hurt by the fact that the doctor can’t or #won’t return her feelings. and like. yeah. of course that hurts. #but in being caught up in that. i think what im saying is that it feels like people sometimes forget that he’s. not required to do that. #like just because she has feelings for him doesn’t mean he needs to get over himself and return them or else he’s using her. that’s. that’s #not how relationships work. people can have romantic feelings and still be friends and not have anything come of it and that’s not a #terrible outcome. thats just how friendships are sometimes. #thats the core of it to me. they’re friends. the way people post about ten & martha sometimes i wonder if everyone’s forgotten that they #are friends. that they last parted as friends. that martha doesn’t hate him or secretely resent him for how he treated her. #like. she’s got complicated feelings about the whole thing. but they didn’t stop being friends. #i tell you what: if the doctor was in trouble and called for help. you could be damn certain that martha jones would be one of the first #people to answer. that’s what i know. #doctor who #the doctor #tenth doctor #martha jones

[skitskatdacat63]

The backwards cap does things to me 😵‍💫

#sorry Suzuki ik you gifed this already 😭😭 ignore me 🫣 #hes so hot i feel like this clip deserves like 10 different posts #WHY DOES HE LOOK SO HOT IN EVERY SINGLE PAIR OF SUNGLASSES HE WEARS #UGHHHHHHH #also bring back the black fireproofs 😡😡😡😡😡😡😡 #i feel shitty today making these made me happy 😭😭 #i might do his interview too idk yet ive not watched it yet #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #we do a little bit of f1 #2024 miami gp

[every-eye-evermore]

I think about this moment often

#murderbot is so silly <3 #the amount of thought it puts into making sure it has the Perfect Body Language for every stressful social interaction (so all of them) #delights me #there’s a version of this I almost posted but had to change because the table looked too much like a footrest #so now it is hastily made circles <3 perfect for the ‘shitty fake-expensive hotel room’ feel #the murderbot diaries #after testing my murderbot design with an actual comic I can safely say it is perfect #mine #murderbot #murderbot fanart #not music #my art

[uncanny-tranny]

I know other adults like to joke about how much pain they're in, but genuinely, please try to get your pain checked out if you're an adult experiencing it, or at least adapt your life in whatever way lessens your pain.

Your pain deserves to be addressed. Please don't "let" it get worse because you've been told that to grow older is to suffer. No, you aren't being needy or selfish or annoying. Ultimately, you are the one who suffers the most from the state of your health, and it's entirely reasonable to want your health to be up to your standards.

#disability #chronic pain #it's actually not normal to feel scared to sneeze for fear of making your pain worse (calling myself out) #i dunno i guess maybe i'm just ~too young~ an adult but i'm already tired of the jokes about pain 😮‍💨 #i've been at this pain going on decades now so i guess that's what's gotten me kind of sensitive lol #like... it's just shitty to be told that 'its gonna get SO much worse so don't even TRY' as an adult with pain #basically when you're a kid you're too young but if you're an adult well... that's just what you get so suck it tf up #i'm going back to playing video games so that i may live in the comforting realm of fantasy (Much Less Pain Universe) #(trying to be grateful that my body is Very invested in telling me that it needs to be handled gently but it's hard) #talking so much about this just to continuously make sure that people don't do what i did in the past

[doodleodds]

Happy Valentines, Akira. Happy Valentines, Asshole.

If you can’t read what Akechi’s secondary inner-dialogue says cause I obscured it too much behind his regular dialogue, here’s a transcription in panel order: Hello, you fucking- Ah- Hello, Akira! Fuck off, why should I tell you- Just a soda- there’s a new flavor.

I don’t want your shitty gift. Oh- haha! You’re so sweet.

I hope I choke. They’re lovely, thank you.

Like hell. Likewise. There’s no way it’s just a coincidence. Still though, it’s a funny coincidence.

#p5 #akeshu #akechi goro #kurusu akira #wow- me?? posting a valentines comic... actually on?? valentines????? wack. absolutely wack #it's a short one! I purposefully tried to keep it short. it was a challenge and it still ended up being 3 pages. but i blame my canvas size #also in case u can't see what akira is holding out to akechi: theyre chocolate covered strawberries on sticks! #i saw them irl and was like oh god i want those. i am going to project that feeling on my favorite characters so help me god #and now! here we are! but my shitty-ass coloring & line quality make it hard to discern them so. sorry about that lmaooooo #ANYWAY i don't do enough post-maruki stuff so. i made this one a little bittersweet. :) #why did i put akechi's scarf in a bow? honestly i dont know! i think i saw some art a while ago that did that too and i thought it was cute #well. plus i guess there's the symbolism of 'akechi being alive and reciprocating your feelings (however involuntarily) IS a gift' part #hence that hes wrapped up in a bow. like a present. :) #also god. the first panel is supposed to be akechi's reflection in a vending machine window. I could NOT get it to look right #so for reference!!! just so you guys understand!!!!!! thats what that panel is supposed to be!!! he is NOT in fact a ghost. (sigh) #hope you enjoyed and had a lovely valentines!! for my part i have eaten nothing but sweets today and hoo boy will that have been a mistake #ALSO in terms of the audience-participation comic...hopefully coming soon. if i can ever gain the will to draw it. #but at least tumblr has polls now so i can do the audience-choose-y bit without needing to use a separate website! so thats good i guess #anyway anyway anway thanks for listening to me ramble if you made it this far! have a lovely rest of your day and hopefully see u again soon

[mueritos]

its crazy how coming into clinical social work, i really just thought I was up against systems and cycles of trauma....but it turns out i'm up against those two things AND other therapists. the amount of work spent correcting mistakes from other clinicians--whether with clients or during the classroom--is fucking crazy.

i totally get we're all on different journeys in terms of being clinicians. but it is insane finding out day after day of therapists and clinicians saying the worst things ever to clients. demeaning them, telling them "it's all in their head", the racism and the ableism and harm that is caused. like no fucking wonder people are afraid to seek therapy (on top of the accessibility issues). while i'm a little biased and think that at the very least clinical social work training focuses on viewing people within their environments (so not engaging in the medical/individualist models of practice that a lot of counseling programs focus on), that doesn't mean it gives every person the skills to be an effective therapist. i'm also not saying i'm the best clinician ever--I'm literally in training--but boy! it is jarring seeing how some of my peers interact in class and wondering...is that how you are with your clients??

my social work program at the very least also has a focus on anti-racism, but i know students from other programs and some of them don't even mention racism AT ALL and focus entirely on diagnosing people "correctly", or finding the perfect form of therapy to use on a client. but man, what none of these programs teach are basic life skills. wanting to be a clinician isn't enough, especially considering that an inhumane amount of people in my program are 1. so nervous about making mistakes that they lose scope of their practice 2. have so much internalized racism/white guilt to work thru 3. or they have absolutely no listening skills.

again, im not trying to make it seem like I am the number 1 clinician in the world ever. I don't even have a psych background or bachelor's in social work. my reasons for going into social work are quite selfish (I want a job that is very flexible, easily transferable, and can be done in different contexts), and the helping people part is just a plus. i'm just saying it's very jarring seeing other people in training and realizing they too are working with clients. i have conversation after conversation about these issues with other BIPOC/queer/marginalized clinicians, so I know i'm not the only person worried about some of the people that will be out of this program in a few years practicing on their own or with vulnerable populations.

#muerto talks #just rambling #maybe im just a hater virgo with a strong sense of justice #i am just forever perplexed #learning that some of my classmates believe that you can be racist to white people is crazy #learning that some of my classmates are rude and dismissive to BIPOC students but they work in BIPOC communities #learning that some of my classmates weaponize their mental illnesses as an excuse to act shitty to professors classmates or clients is craz #there are zionists??? trying to be social workers?????? #i literally have classes with zionists #some people r doing a whole ass career change because they had a spiritual calling to help people?? #again not saying im such a great clinician im in training just like the rest of my program #but you cannot like tell me to even try to be hopeful about some of the people who will be my collegues in a year #because i have no hope for them #and its going to take making serious mistakes for them to maybe snap out of it #and that fucking sucks #nothing in my body feels safe around those people #like idc maybe im an elitist with impossible standards #maybe im the one asking too much from these people..... #the cognitive dissonance is real in these people man

[luck-of-the-drawings]

ouhh ouhh the ol 'started as a scribble n then got RLY COOL' conundrum... i titled it 'flying microtonal FISH' bc i was listening to alot of THIS song (ANOXIA - KING GIZZARD AND THE LIZARD WIZARD. LISTEN TO IT) and i based the colors off of the album cover. this was also meant to be the scene right before the noctis arc, when gillion gets CRAAZy struck by lightning and acts all deranged through the storm. LOOOVE that fish i think he should kill more

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #lightning is soooo fun to make ehehehee #this is OOOllldd like maybe a few months but uhh wait hang on ill just get the date offa twitter #OKAYy it was jan 8. thats not too old #either way i remember strugglin alot to get this to look right. hence the 'started as a scribble' #like i think the actual sketch of gillions face was rotting in my wips for aaaages until i finally did somethin with it #it feels good to do smth like this with a wip!! its like giving a shitty lil dog a good home #AARUAUHGH I JUST LOOKED AT IT AGIAN N GOT MAD. DO U KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO MAKE HIS LIL BACK FIIINNS #i dont give him a tail but i give him the back fins n its SOOO vital to me its so cool in my brain but so hard to make it real #i think i did it pretty good here but you shall know i climbed a MOUNTAIN FOR IT RRRAAHGHHHH #ALRight thats all of me thoughts love u guys baaaiii

[honeypleasejustkillme]

ppl whose mental problems have never really hindered their progression in life need to never ever talk to me, i hate conversations with them bc they act like just because symptoms are manageable for them it should be the same for everyone and i just can't do it

#actually bpd #bpd problems #bpd vent #actually borderline #actually mentally ill #bpd fp #bpd #bpd shitposting #bpd favorite person #bpd mood #like honestly i’m sick of people being like “i have mental illnesses too but i still go on with life and progress″ okay good for you #i can’t tho so stop making me feel shitty about it #i’m conclusion: people piss me off

[13eyond13]

the only gay rep I truly care about is

1. countless lives are destroyed because two proud people can't fully admit their gay crushes on each other

and

2. someone hides being a murderer as a metaphor for also hiding being gay

#miss me with that perfect wholesome gay rep stuff #in theory like yeah its good to have that too but does it resonate with me no #like is it probably homophobic to always make the obsessive weird villains creepy and gay yeah #but is that also by far the most fun yeah usually it is #theres this lesbian couple with basically opposite taste to me in my book club #and we read something with a shitty queer coded villain and im like yay #and they're like thats homophobic #and im like youre not wrong but id rather die than give 5 stars to the h/ouse in the c/erulean sea #i feel the 'bad rep' feels different when its a gay person writing it too... like clearly it is complicated #p