#lotta i hate you

[sergle]

has the huggable twee irritation always been a Thing or did it evolve in response to like, "you're not ugly. i'd fuck you" type comments? like in your personal experience

god, I'm not well spoken enough to describe it exactly the way it Registers In My Brain... but like. It's not the "you're not ugly, I'd fuck you" genre, and that type of comment is so easy to immediately dismiss because it always comes from a certain type of man, and it's like yeah yeah, I could throw a sandwich and you'd fuck it before it hit the floor. But also, that one's so specific, it's a bottom-of-the-barrel "compliment" that dudes will give when a woman has actively said something about feeling like she's unattractive.

The HUGGABLE THING. The oooh squishy marshmallow somft huggable mom shaped 🥺🥰 She looks like she gives GREAT HUGS. Those comments are UNPROMPTED. I'm immediately like. Every keyword you say, I kill another hostage. I will blow up this whole building and everyone in it. Because it is SO FUCKING WEIRD. And I have heard it one million times. And I see it on every drawing of a character who's even remotely plus sized. These comments would not fly for a thinner person, they'd be rightfully received as weird. People aren't gonna comment on a picture of Ariana Grande going omg she's sooo huggable mom friend shaped. WHAT. Simultaneously are desexualized and sanitized to a weird degree in that uwu language way, WHILE also being creepy. Like, why are you describing what you think I'd feel like if you hugged me? Like the only positive thing you can think of to say is that I look like I have some give. As strangers. I'm not going to hug you, I think you're a creep and I think you're giving yourself a big pat on the back for complimenting a fat person. What are we doing I'm arguing at the air. Where am I And you're just supposed to go oh thank you that's so nice, because as a fat person, you gotta take whatever compliment you get, even if it is actually not a compliment. And that's the thing, there are SO MANY ACTUAL COMPLIMENTS TO PICK FROM. But people settle on huggable and somft. Was this person pretty? Were they hot? You could say gorgeous? Handsome, beautiful? Elegant? Stunning? Sharp? Sexy? Stylish? Are you trying to say that you're attracted to this person's body? Are we being horny? Do you think they just look nice in general? Can't we think of anything else to say? Or are we just gonna sit here and say they fuckin look like Santa Claus. Huggable like a pillow. Girl what the fuck

#every time I see or hear it my eyes roll so far back in my head that I can look at my thoughts #I accepted about a thousand of these compliments as haha thank you before I gave up on pretending I think it's a compliment at all #people say this shit ALL THE TIME and I KNOWWWWWWWWWW I'm not the only bitch who hates it. #I hear this from others too. I'm not completely insane right here #or maybe I am. FUCK AUGH #can someone explain it BETTER AND LESS LENGTHY #sergle answers #People don't say any of the outdated plus sized compliments anymore either. you only hear them from old men #Like I would rather be called full figured or curvaceous or a whole lotta woman before I get called MOM FRIEND SHAPED??????????????? #what's that post.I'm going to kill myself in front of you and forever change the trajectory of your life #It would be different to be described as soft by like a partner. combined with compliment-compliments. like yeah you OBVIOUSLY know #what I feel like

[snackugaki]

big boy pizza, leo edition

#I'M FUCKING ALIVE #*torn clothes* #*disheveled hair* #*cuts and abrasions* #shout out to the bayside #haven't drawn the bay turtles in forever #and it's them who led me to a lotta you #<3 #is nailing bay style in a simplified and restylized way abolutely wrecking my ass? #(yes) #i'm never gonna be free of turtles #this is still my 'art blog' i tell myself #(tmnt fanart stretche well into last year) #i still can't find way to simplify this fucking turtle's shoulder tatt #let me figure out how to autofill my linework #and it's over #for who? #idk #previous snackugaki ig #i gotta post this before I start hating it

[smilesrobotlover]

No one asked about Hyrule’s parents so I decided to just draw them anyways cuz they make me happy fhdjdbdkdbdk

Hyrule’s dad is obviously a Hylian and his mom is a great fairy. Normally Great fairies keep their distance from Hylians cuz there’s a risk of making half fairies, which are highly valuable in the black market. Fairy blood can heal anything and can even bring back the dead as long as you have the body or something. Fairies are small and don’t have enough blood to make it valuable, great fairies have a lot of blood but are too powerful to capture. However, half fairies are far more valuable because they’re big enough for blood, but weaker than great fairies so they’re easy to capture. The only defense they have is that they look like Hylians and their magic. In order to keep a child out of harms way, the great fairies do not get close to Hylians. Buuuut sometimes mistakes happen and Hyrule’s mom got too close to his dad, and Hyrule was born. Hyrule’s dad understood the severity of the situation so he tried to keep his child safe, but when Hyrule was ten he wandered off and got roped up into the hero business while his dad assumed he was dead. Hyrule barely remembers his dad tho.

#legendofzelda #legend of zelda #legend of zelda au #zelda au #link between links #they’ve been in my head for a while #but I was always nervous to do anything with them cuz that felt cringe #but I gotta remember that I got a lotta cringe followers so I can be cringe and free to you guys /lh #and when I say cringe I mean it in a good way #there’s good cringe and there’s bad cringe and I consider this good cringe #ok I’m gonna stop talking #i hate my lighting #it looks so good on my laptop and then on my phone it’s super dull and boring #ugh #whatever I don’t care #just take some parents #congrats to Hyrule’s dad to also be a living biological father #actually Hyrule is the only one with living parents fr 😩 #and Hyrule’s dad is shorter than Hyrule #that’s why he’s so tiny #tiny dad fr #anyways dhsjbddkndk #idk what backgrounds are bro #i guess she’s just chilling in the middle of a field for fun idk don’t think too hard about it

[wheredidalltheusersgo]

Art of Justin from @rene-01 and his boyfriend's Justcan Yandere Simulator AU!

#can you tell i hate lighting #i literally only listened to “dead girl walking” while drawing this #nobody ever told me drawing blood was this fun #an attempt at a decent background #first time drawing a chainsaw let's goooooo #also perspective practice #a whole lotta practice in this drawing #I'm obsessed with this au #total drama #td justin #Yandere Simulator AU #not my au btw #tw blood #blood #total drama au #he's in a garden shed #my art #tw gore #? #slight gore #??

[moeblob]

thinking about their civilian clothes.... and also thinking about how in the vanguard armor his chest looks much larger (valid, it's armor) and I think he deserves to keep that chest.

#bravely default 2 #dag rampage #selene noetic #im in chapter 4 now and im just.... having a lotta thoughts...... about these two and about the savalon experience #im suffering emotionally #i have entered ch4 but i havent accomplished anything yet bc im doing side quests as one does #dag your hair how do i draw it will i ever learn #also dang guys amazing how much shading can add to my art lmao #i hate coloring a lot so i tend to just do flats and call it quits bc ugh #but i feel the energy for effort with bd2 which is wild and im gonna take advantage of that #thinking a lot about these two and how they show up in the side quest after you clear savalon #thinking A LOT about these two still traveling together... a lot..... #im rooting for them..... i hope i see them again...... dont tell me if i do or dont please i wanna be surprised

[linkbetweenlinksau]

Howdy y’all. I’m a bit nervous to share this but I might as well. I’m gonna scrap this prologue. I know I said I was gonna do it before and then I got going on it but I think it’s official now. I’m getting really bored with this chapter and it’s not going anywhere. The story for lbl has changed a lot and I think it’s something that I am set in stone with, and this prologue simply does not fit the story anymore. And instead of trying to write around plot holes, I just decided to get rid of it entirely. I will keep the comic up, I’m actually proud of some of the comic pages and I want people to see it, and if you wanna read the story you can read the fic I wrote (tho it sucks so much just a fair warning). But the only thing that fits the story is the very end, which is where Sky gets pulled into a portal, which I drew above! Everything else is too complicated. Like the whole nightmare involving Hylia? She was gonna serve a bigger role in the story, probably a side villain or something, but truthfully people made me feel bad about that and I found a better villain and reasoning on why the boys are all together, so Hylia barely even has a role in the story. Sooo yeah, this comic is ending.

Im gonna take some time to outline the whole story and I’m gonna continue working on the first chapter, which I have been working on for a while now, but I just wanna be nicer to myself for this, and the sky arc was killing my self esteem. So wish me luck and I’ll see y’all in the first chapter!

#link between links #legend of zelda au #zelda au #legend of zelda #lbl sky #everytime I posted an update I hated myself so that was also a bad sign #i compare myself too much #not a lotta links meeting too #it’s still gonna be a while until links meet but at least the story will get going you know? #we’re gonna leave skyloft and go to Warrior’s world so hope y’all are ready to see that beloved #and Im nervous and excited to introduce the villains! #i just need a different approach #thanks for your patience and support #it’s greatly needed

[radaverse]

I just really want samurai jack to have a friend he's always so lonely why can't he have a friend I want him to have a friend he needs a friend fr please AUURRRGGHGVJDNSNDKLD 😭😭💀

So I'll just give him a btw creature :)

(Wip)

#samurai jack #totally not me writing a lotta lore for a samurai and a chinchilla #art #animatic #wip #samurai jack art #sj #jack #I mean if I have this creature why not give it to someone who needs it #mai is just the total opposite of all the hate pain and sorrow that's in aku's #bro at this point they're just some comfort characters #mai the chinchilla #oc #samurai jack needs this btw creature as a bestie you can't change my mind 💀 #And there's scotsman. the man who brings jack comfort #BUT HE LITERALLY HAD LIKE 4 APPEARANCES IN THE WHOLE SHOW 😭 #jack needs comfort please comfort for the samurai GIVE HIM COMFORT HE NEEDCOMFORTJSNBFKSMSLMS #extra points if you instantly recognized the song 😉 #jackposting #radaverse

[majimasleftasscheek]

🚿ㅤ

#tbh I hc majima as using a lotta diff product on himself cuz he's worth it but when it's lazy time he whips out the combo shampoo #aka this is me I use like 5 in 1 cuz I hate showers and wanna be in and out as fast as possible lmao #AND IT'S STILL SOAP AND YOU GET CLEAN SO IDK WHAT PEOPLE'S BEEF WITH IT IS #I SMELL LIKE A PINE TREE NOW WHAT MORE DO YOU ASK OF ME #yakuza #ryu ga gotoku #kiryu kazuma #majima goro #kazumaji #my art

[no-m4gic]

Damn it Sitaya you do yandere Izzy now? That's it, I'm requesting. Yandere Izuru w/ prompt 26... preferably angst to fluff, but if you're tired you can just do fluff <33

p.s I think you know who I am devil emoji

i hate you so much for making me look for prompt 26 and 25.

also crane beloved, yes, i do yandere izuru. p.s c found this account before you how you like them apples /j

sorry if izuru is ooc, first time writing yandere izuru. THANKS A LOT, CRANE. /s

thank god i made an izuru header before you found me.

don't worry though, i had a lotta fun writing this, i put my writing ass into this.

warning ;; mm lime, mentions of like 'it' as a threat, sorta suggestive lines from izuru, french kissing and a shock collar and izuru feels lust for the first time ever. non-despair AU and izuru is hajime's twin.

prompt 26 ;; Control - “i’ll do whatever the fuck I want to you, got it?” prompt 25 ;; Collar - “don’t you dare take it off, I want everyone to know you’re mine.” prompt list ;; here!

~ mod sitaya

愛毒 // Yandere Izuru x GN S/O

it's only been a few days since you were captured... but it felt like years— decades— centuries— heck, eternities. there wasn't even a damn clock for you to stare at, keep yourself entertained with it. would he be mad for you paying too much attention to an inanimate object? yeah probably, honestly.

was escaping even an option? the thought of it wasn't even a possibility or plan, just a tease and a reminder that you can't even look out a window without your captor getting mad or upset... though he never ever expressed it, you only knew by the atmosphere dropping and his ruby eyes on you.

currently he was away... outside... doing god knows what. this would be the perfect chance to escape for any other yandere, but the windows, doors and yourself are uuh, chained up. however even if you weren't chained up on a bed, izuru would probably find you eventually, no matter where you run to. if you're in the same universe, you're his.

all you could really do was sit and wait for izuru to return. the least he could do was give you some sort of entertainment, jeez. selfish bastard. despite the windows being closed and locked tight, you felt as if the room's temperature started to drop. you curled yourself into a ball and tried not to think about anything, hoping you'd drift away from this reality for awhile... and even better, permanently.

it was only a few minutes before you concluded you couldn't fall asleep in this environment at this temperature in this situation. the only way you'd fall asleep was by taking some sleep pills or melatonin. maybe once izuru came back you could send him away again by asking him to buy some melatonin? that didn't sound bad at all.

you were awoken by a cold gust of wind as well as your hunger. you must've fallen asleep while plotting on how to get izuru to leave you alone for awhile more. you were still so deep in thought, you hadn't even noticed kamukura standing next to the bed with that same cold stare that he'd always given you when you weren't his hostage.

"what! stop staring at me- go look at the wall or something," you tried to sound intimidating, but ended up sounding like yourself, but more weak and pathetic. "s/o i can look at what's mine," he casually stated, setting down a box of takeout on the bed, "i got your favorite takeout, and since you have this sort of "performance anxiety", i'll leave you be to eat alone, i'll come back soon," and with that, he shut the door and locked it.

you mentally screamed at both yourself and at him out of rage. how dare you let him call you his? once you calmed down from your rage, you realized he actually unchained you. wow. you knew he didn't really want to tell you you were free, but you still felt extremely mad at him for not telling you.

due to your stubbornness, you refused to eat, but you also refused to push the food onto the ground... the food didn't deserve that death just because izuru bought and brought it to you. you were just looking at the food, imagining yourself watching akane eat a gourmet meal prepared by teruteru.

by now the food was probably freezing cold. it was also the time for izuru to return, back to torment you. "oh s/o, if you were claiming my predications were wrong and you weren't actually hungry, you could've told me instead of wasting a good meal," he sarcastically said, placing the box onto the bedside.

"what the fuck do you even want from me—? i don't even know you!" you spat, your anger and rage completely distracted you from your hunger and the freezing temperature biting your skin. "i only want you. i don't need or want anything you own." you cringed at that, but you didn't let that show, "

"s/o, i can do anything for you, sing you to sleep, feed you, bathe you, breed you till you can't walk or stand, give you all the affection you'll ever want and need, get you anything you want in the world, all just for you to submit to me," had his eyes gotten more passionate and brighter or was it just you slowly losing your sanity to them? you didn't know anymore. "i just want you to know as well, i’ll do whatever the fuck I want to you, got it?"

you were shocked at that last part, but chose to ignore it. big mistake. "but i don't want any of that—! i just want my freedom— move around and be with whoever i wish— not whate—" you were cut off by kamukura pulling you into a passionate kiss, shoving his tongue into your mouth even before you could react, it exploring and dominating your mouth with his saliva.

you tried to push away, meanwhile trying to imagine you were kissing your crush or someone else instead of this psychopath. he broke the kiss rather quickly, a string of saliva still connecting you two. you shook your head violently and wiped it away.

"what the fuck was that?!" you gasped out, tears starting to form your eyes from how dirty and gross you felt. while distracted with that, you abruptly stopped to the feeling of something being slipped onto your neck. a shock collar. to make things worse, that collar has his name on it.

"now don’t you dare take it off, I want everyone to know you’re mine. and i think it suits you, s/o." he turned his back to you, taking one last glance before leaving you stranded in the darkness of your brand new room, only a tad bit of moonlight managing to stream in through the metal shutters of the window.

you curled into a ball and started to cry. everything had happened so quickly, you didn't even know izuru well, you only met him through hajime. how special were you to him? you were just a regular mortal doing what they were made to do.

i know how horny you are crane so i added some uuh french kissing, thanks for making me do this 🙄/s also you chose all of the prompts that are so aggressive and izuru-like i'm impressed. i'm considering on making a part 2 of this...

#danganronpa x reader #yandere danganronpa #yandere danganronpa x reader #danganronpa #yandere izuru x reader #yandere kamukura x reader #izuru kamukura x reader #izuru x reader #dr #dr x reader #yandere dr #crane i hate you #mm #yandere content #i had a lotta fun writing this though

[xamaxenta]

Tragic how ive forgotten how to draw him already

#whats wrong lol why are you afraid of drawing your fave #impostor syndrome? you cant maintain a style so you feel guilty that he looks different every time ? #also like zero appeal #scribblings #my art currently has zero appeal #i dont have a cool thing yknow #augh i just keep looking at all my sketches since my last finished art #like disgusting all of these are absolute garbage lol #but ill document them online even if i hate them #sigh sorry Ace i want to draw you as beautiful as i can #but today isnt that day #i mean my sketches lately have been atrocious #bad form bad anatomy bad lotta things #no idea what to do except just push thru it ???? #or just not draw for the month idk

[doritofalls]

still kinda thinking about the earphones post implying airbuds are somehow the next evolutionary step vs regular earphones, when that is... a completely market fabricated demand. you are being manipulated to think that by the exact people who want to sell airbuds to you. while airbuds have their obvious advantages over regular earphones in certain situations (ie jogging, walking around etc) they literally make no difference for stationary use (travelling, using the computer). like obviously if you want to use them in the gym, by all means airbuds are the reasonable choice for you, but regular earphones remain a fraction of the price while providing the exact same function if you use them on the bus. 

#lotta the time with technology i fall into the rabbithole of Are You Trying To Sell Me Something and i'm stuck in there for the week #see new phones being made literally without a headphone jack #you are being cornered into buying a much more expensive product you may not even need depending on your lifestyle #and i know that's just how technology in capitalism works really it's the norm but i can still hate it #mcfly.txt

[skrunksthatwunk]

zero hate but the "we need more x; you guys couldn't even handle y" post format's popular usage bothers me a little because like. the people saying we need x often can and do handle y and it's just a different group of people who can't handle y. obviously the two groups can and do often overlap and that's the original point of the format but like,, when the "you guys" saying stuff in question aren't the same as the "we need more x" guys that point is negated. like when the two groups barely overlap it feels kind of pointless. it's inaccurate and it bothers me in a stupid nitpicky way

#like i get that what some of them go for is more nuanced like you guys say you can handle y but you don't because abc but like #sometimes they don't and it's just inaccurate. it bothers me #i get the appeal of using a format thats not perfectly suited to your point bc sometimes it makes the most sense/feels most right #again zero hate to the method it's just. it feels like a lotta work for something unclear and faulty

[satansleftnutcheek]

Just had like the biggest brain realization about Astarion bear with me I think I'm onto something here. Spoilers ahead for those who don't know about his "condition" or haven't heard about his tragic backstory™

I think people generally overlook the bite scene in favor of focusing on how it reveals Astarion being a vampire, how it can benefit the player if you're trying to romance him, or find an easy way to get him out of your party. I would like to note that there’s nothing wrong with this response! I did the same in my play through because I already knew he was a vampire due to spoilers. I just saw the scene as Astarion looking for his equivalent of a sandwich when it happened.

But why does Astarion bite Tav of all people?

The obvious answer is because Tav's the protagonist. Any important character scenes will happen to or involve them because they're the player character. It's the nature of how RPG stories are told. However, Larian Studios has put a lot of thought into this game, so why not dig a bit deeper?

Assuming Tav has everyone in their camp when this scene is triggered, Lae'zel and Shadowheart are off the menu purely because if things go wrong they'd immediately kill Astarion. Not good! If things go wrong with Karlach he could possibly smooth talk his way out of it. After all, she's a very kind person who goes out of her way to help people. But she's also twice his size and could snap him like a twig, which is not a risk worth taking.

Wyll isn't nearly as much of a threat as the other three, if it came down to it, Astarion could probably take him in a fight. The main problem here is that Wyll happens to have a habit of killing monsters, which would make talking things out really difficult. Astarion's relied on skills like persuasion for the past 2 centuries so he'd probably want to have his best skills be viable options if things go awry. Halsin, much like Karlach, is twice his size and could kill him with ease. Hard pass on that! This leaves Gale as the last, and really only, viable option. I mean look at him, he's frail as hell, always having the lowest HP in the party, and his weapon is a stick. Worst thing that could happen to Astarion is a bonk on the head.

So then why Tav? Why are they the one Astarion bites?

Now Tavs come in a lot of varieties. The player could be doing a Dark Urge run, they could be playing as the embodiment of pure evil, the kindest soul that is second only to Jesus, or somewhere in between. However, the one thing that unites them all is their power. They're the leader of the party and the others (to varying degrees) respect them. Tav is the one that chooses where the party goes, who they help, who they kill, and even how they'll have the tadpoles removed. In a way, Tav controls the party.

Remind you of something that Astarion openly talks about wanting?

For two centuries Astarion hasn't had autonomy, respect, freedom, resources, or control. What he's learned from those centuries is that power always gets you what you want. If you want freedom you need the power to control others. So while biting Gale would be the easy answer, it doesn't have the perk that biting Tav does.

If Tav wakes up during his biting attempt, Astarion could smooth talk his way out of it. If things go okay and Astarion gets to keep his head, he'll have gained more of Tav's trust. This in turn would give Astarion greater power over them as they'd be easier to manipulate, which in turn gives him more control over the others. If he ends up killing Tav then that technically would open up a power vacuum in the party. Whoever fills it would have all the power and control that Tav has. I don't think any of the other characters would let that happen though. Astarion's the person who you don't want to be the leader because he's clearly performing this role for his own self-centered reasons. Also seeing as this scene generally happens early in the game, nobody likes him enough to just let him become the leader.

Now if Tav lets Astarion bite them things get more interesting. It's a possibility that never occurred to him, but he isn't going to turn it down. First of all, it establishes Tav as an easy food source. Astarion has a consenting snack that in the future, might let him bite again. If that happens then Astarion's food source becomes far more reliable and surviving becomes significantly easier. Tav's consent also reveals how much they trust Astarion. From his perspective Tav's shown too much of their hand. Astarion's simple plan to manipulate Tav for the sake of his security has become child's play at this point.

All this being said having Astarion choose to bite Tav over Gale reveals so much about his character. While Gale is the safest choice to make, Tav's position of leadership is what entices Astarion to bite them over Gale. After experiencing two hundred years of mental and physical abuse, Astarion values power so much he'd be willing to risk his ability to not become a mind flare, and his life, in order to gain it. All because this is what he learned from being Cazador's slave for 200 years.

#slaps astarions head #THATS A LOTTA DAMAGE #you think you understand the story and know know how deep his trauma runs but then you write an essay and suddenly youre crying AGAIN #astarion please god get some help #somebody give this boy a hug #larian studios if you thought of this then i hate you for being so good at what you do how DARE #i havent even finished act 2 yet and astarions story is only getting sadder and richer and damn its written so well but OW #fuckin OW #astarion bg3 #astarion baldurs gate #baldurs gate 3 #baldurs gate iii #baldurs gate three #baldurs gate astarion #astarion #im officially gone there is no me only bg3 #is now when i admit that ive never written an essay analyzing something i love unless it was for class #the brainrot has never been so real

[rpmemes-galore]

the idea of anon hate is so funny to me, like   “ i’m a stranger on the internet, who’s too chicken to even attach my face to these words, and what i say isn’t going to affect any other facet of your life aside from this specific blog on this specific website.... but here’s all the reasons why you’re terrible and you need to listen to me bc i’m an entitled little dipshit who thinks the world revolves around me and everyone needs to cater to my whims all the time, always”   like lmfao.  touch grass, plz

#negativity tw #drama cw #not downplaying how anon hate can wreck your mood / day. it has to mine before. but also like XD #buddy. i dont care. yeah im slow here. yeah i redrop things. yeah i dont always answer messages in a timely matter #bc im ya know. disabled and have a life and health issues outside of tumblr.com #and its so funny to me that some people really do have THE AUDACITY(tm) to try to dictate how i run my blog(s)???? #start your own rp meme blog if its such a problem lmao. idc. #not a meme #same applies to my rp blogs. ive had peeps tell me im too slow or they dont like my muses / writing style #?????????? okay. dont write with me. block me if you wanna. doesnt phase me. its not my job to write on your schedule. #and its not my responsibility to curate your dash. its yours. if you dont want me on it unfollow / block. its not that bog a deal #*big. grow up pls and thank #i think there's a lotta people on this website that would benefit from logging out for even just... 2 days and experience the real #world for a bit ya know?? #its tumblr.com rp. its not that srs

[neorouxls]

#There is a much deeper emotionally charged reasoning for this video but I'll spare you the dramatics #I hate him #Not really but I'm kinda hating posting about him #On twitter at least #(Where else but Twitter?!? [FAMILY GUY SONG]) #I have genuinely lost friendships because I like to draw this fucking flower as a cute guy #so yes I'm being serious when I say posting him is becoming increasingly more uncomfortable for me #Which fucking sucks because I really love this character and I know a lot of you like seeing me draw him #but I'm soooo sick of popular accounts and artists I admired acting like I'm a bad person for it. #What year are we in? #2024 and still condemning people over Flowey the fucking Flower #you're an undertale fan get your head out of your ass #Yikes! That's a lotta big words! #I should probably tag this as #vent #not art #flowey #lol

[ladyimaginarium]

i swear to g-d im& not even the jealous type but jfc i HAAAAAAATE this feeling when im& just lowkey like. who's :)))))) this :))))) bitch 👀👀👀👀🔪🔪🔪🔪 :))))))

#arcana.vents #& its like. kinda irrational bc we're just friends & just vibing & we're not even together but like. i cant help it so fuck me ig lmao #like obvi he can have friends & shit & w/e so im not gonna like. tell him anything bc i dont wanna like push him away or push anything yk?? #& he said he missed me & everything but like. damn. why arent you talking to me like that. i wish you would talk to me like that. #i miss you too & i wish you would tell me you loved me more :< #im just like bitch chill he aint even your man. but he's sweet & good to me & he's deadass one of the funniest ppl ever. #& we have literally so much in common & he said i was a miracle & resilient since birth & that sb should make a documentary about me ehehe. #& we're both autistic poc4poc & have a lotta solidarity between our communities & he makes me blush & giggle & i love his curls & his smile #& the color of his skin's so pretty & he said that it'd be neat if we just. played videogames in a pillowfort #& he makes spongebob refs & he likes anime & horror & buffy & ethel cain nicole dollanganger & lana del rey & he got a nasty ass vocabulary #& he said it'd be cool if we explored abandoned places together & go to concerts together & he has the cutest name ive deadass ever heard #when nicole said ''when i see you i cant find the words to speak my cheeks go as red as two big cherries'' & ''you're so cool''... YEAH. #im gonna start fuckin chewing on the fuckin walls dude. im GNAWING at the bars of my cage. i need him to firmly grasp it. #i wanna feed him the world's sweetest strawberry!!!! #we have lost the entire fucking plot besties lmfaoooo #& i rarely if ever feel like this for cis dudes & my mind is blaring sirens like he gonna leave me im just. getting war flashbacks to. yeah #the red sirens be blaring like HE'S GONNA ABANDON ME!!!!! its so irritating #ill be goddamned if i EVER feel replaced to that degree ever again. id actually rather get hit by a car & throw myself into the sea lmao #UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH BPD SPLITTING I HATE YOU #this was from a few hours ago but i forgot to post it so lmao