#lose concentration

[stormkobra-5]

I'm not dead or gone again guys, just really struggling with work and disassociation.

I've been kinda scanning through some of my old stuff and found a couple that I'm thinking of trying to start up again. I can't make any promises because of my mental state and I can't promise I'll respond to anything right away, but I really am trying my hardest.

#i have severe crippling anxiety #i havent been able to sleep in a week #that causes more anxiety #which causes depression #and then depression causes more depression and sleeplessness #and then that causes me to lose my appetite #lose concentration #then i feel like i have to constantly disassociate with yt shorts or tiktok #and all of that causes terrible eating habits #like ive literally had a tiny bowl of cereal with oats and like 9 oatmeal cookies today what does that tell you? #i disstinctly remember being like 7 and wishing to be an adult #can i take that back??? #stormkobra 5 ramblings

[arom-antix]

As part of a two-part reverse bang-bang, here's some more Valentines art to which @probablytoooldforthis wrote an amazing fic, Sweets for the Sweet! Please go check it out, I promise you won't regret it, and keep your eyes peeled for the second chapter - and artwork, of course - coming out on White Day aka the 14th of March!

Also, I this is an unrendered version, the finished version will be posted within about a week's time (hopefully) since I don't have access to digital drawing at the moment YuY

#this piece makes me so happy #and the fic even more so #i really wish i hadnt ended up on crunch time to even get this half finished version done but whoever said i was a responsible adult #whoever said i had time management skills #whoever said that was wrong #anyway THEYRE MAKING CHOCOLATES BECAUSE I COULDNT NOT #viktor is very concentrated UuU #also if any actual confectioners (is that the english word? idk) see this feel free to yell at me in the tags for everything thats wrong #my experience with making filled chocolates is extremely limited and very messy #so uh #this is probably not accurate #BUT THEYRE HAVING FUN AND THATS WHAT MATTERS #i like to think viktor has clips to keep his hair out of the way but he always somehow manages to lose them oh how sad how “unfortunate” #guess yuuri will just have to keep his hair up yet again how tragic YnY #also yuuri 100% knows viktors clips dont magically disappear but he cant get himself to say anything because does he really mind? #no #no he doesnt #not at all #he gets to lovingly brush viktors hair out of his eyes what in the world would he be complaining about? #yuri on ice #yuri on ice fanart #fanart #art #arom antix #arom antix art #katsuki yuuri #viktor nikiforov #viktuuri

[frnkiebby]

now have a black parade blast~🎃

#gggooooddddddddd #pls #i’m just gonna lose my shit #i’m just boppin around to millions and frank is making it hard to concentrate #frank pls #fuck #frnkiebby #frank iero #mcr #frnkiero #mcrmy #mcr5 #frnkie #my chemical romance #my chem #ilhsm

[ratwithhands]

Fun fact I used to consume a lot of Land of the Lustrous stuff.

Anyways this is one of my many Land of the Lustrous OCs, Vivianite. Mohs hardness of 1.5, dark green/blue in colour, and very old. Due to the nature of his weak composition, Vivianite can't actually do much of anything, and has had to live under very specific conditions.

Vivianite wears a tight full body uniform to hold any chipped pieces in place, and is kept in a box stuffed with loose cloth to ensure minimal damage. If he comes into contact with light, he begins to oxidize and darken, so he's kept in a windowless room with curtains over the entrance.

That's all to say he's isolated and bored. He spends much of his time inactive, but he'll jump at the opportunity for conversation if there's someone around. Certain gems visit him to chat, get guidance, or give him the recent news. A task given to some gems is to clear his room of dust, and maybe bring him some books if he's up for it.

Vivian sees himself as an older sibling/friend to many of the other gems, and as such he's very keen on providing a listening ear and giving advice where possible to those who need it. He's essentially emotional support in a can.

Other notes/details:

not all gems know Vivian exists! He's hidden away so most gems wouldn't see him unless they were actively looking for him. A lot of the older ones know about him, but the younger ones don't

Rutile is endlessly tired of having to glue him back together so often due to his softness, which is part of why he has a tighter uniform to keep all his broken pieces in place

Vivian struggles with walking, he tends to be slow and stumbly

the tanks in Vivian's room are for jellyfish. Gems who are sent to clean his room have to switch out the jellyfish too. They're there to provide a faint light source so he doesn't go completely inactive

Vivian, despite living in a box in the dark, has a lot of technical knowledge about things as a result of millennia of going through the library collection. He' a living encyclopedia and can usually offer some answers if a gem has questions on a particular subject

his internal structure is basically a lot of shards stuck together like fibers, so he does minor repairs on himself by affixing strands of his hair into empty spots. He's had his fingers repaired and replaced this way often

In the few instances where Vivian has gone outside, he has an abnormally high amount of energy as a result of his inclusions being able to work at full capacity in the light

If I remember anything else I'll add it, anyways have a good day!

#houseki no kuni #hnk #land of the lustrous #hnk fanart #hnk oc #hnk bort #not mentioned in the main post but shit man Vivianite wants to perish 😭 #he's always felt like a burden as a result of his weak body‚ if it weren't for the fact he can't walk outside #he would've thrown himself into the sea to never rise again #he'd always asked Sensei if there was a way he could get stronger‚ and that's partly why he read so much in hopes to find a cure #when he heard about Phos' body getting replaced‚ he was both distraught and excited‚ because he felt so bad for Phos #but this was a way for him to become greater‚ if only he could just figure out how to guarantee it'd work (because otherwise he'd be #a burden again as they are forced to repair him and look after him through recovery) #that's also why he likes to talk with people; he can serve and assist others that way‚ he's trying to compensate for his lacking strength #tl;dr Vivianite is horrifically weak and makes up for it with his heart and mind in order to feel less bad about not being able to do more #also (unrelated) he tends to be touchy and holds people's hands/faces/hair a lot. He does this knowing the risk and he couldn't care less #also also‚ he has weird inclusions. What makes them odd is the fact that he can move them around and concentrate them in different areas #he's stiff cause he keep most of his inclusions packed in his torso‚ not his limbs. This also ensures he doesn't lose anything #by touching something and having his fingers (inevitably) flake apart #There's more but I'll save that for later. Good day ^^

[temeyes]

Hello! Ik you probably hear that a lot but I wanted to tell you that I absolutely love your art. It's so smooth and aesthetically pleasing, also I love your version of Johny and Simon. Also good luck on getting your tattoo done!

~🐸 @froggy-anon

aHIII thank u so much sweet sweet froggy anon!!! <33 and my tatt session went pretty nicely yesterday actually and i'm LOVING it! (tho i'm planning to have it retouched cuz i really want it to look more like ghost's skull plate LMAO)

here's a quick dood of johnny and simon w/ my ghostsoap tatt for u froggy anon so you, and everyone else, can see AHSAHSH mwAH

#u guys r too sweet ur making me lose my concentration #I NEED TO WORK Y'ALL PLS >:^( #answered asks #anon #my art #2023 #ghost #soap #ghostsoap #ghoap

[chaoticstabby]

Okay, if this is Essek the funniest way for it to be revealed would be for him to lose his shit at Ashton's dunamancy fuckery

#critical role #critical role spoilers #cr3 #just imagine him seeing ashton in combat and being so surprised he loses concentration on his disguise

[conanssummerchild]

WHY IS THE GAY OR BI MIKE DISCOURSE COMING BACK I THOUGHT WE LEFT THIS IN 2023

#i have my opinion and im clear on it but idgaf what anyone else thinks #let them think what they want !! #ive seen so many posts about it pls stop with the biphobia !! #and also can we concentrate on the OTHER parts of mikes arc #hes more than a love interest #hes also my son and the specialest boy i the world #a big part of his arc is accepting his queerness #lets leave it at that #i know by making this post im technically contributing but #idk #i just wanted to say smth #i wanna be active in the byler fandom 😔 #cant lose myself completely to community before s5 #alex says shit #mike wheeler #byler

[raptorrobot]

I was just thinking- does Icarus (angel form) have an enraged mode like Gabriel?

he sure does !! have some little reference charts i made a while back

#icarus prime #ultrakill oc #his wings/halo are dull and don't emit any light because he's oooold #and because he never really uses them lmao #i imagine archangels dont lose the light of their wings/halo bc of their sheer concentrated holiness #but angels w/ human souls like him can lose that light overtime just from age + non-use #fun 2 think about

[morporkian-cryptid]

I'm getting overwhelmed again with wanting to rewrite the entirety of Lupin III - Goodbye Partner as a fic my own way, because I am still salty about how Jigen's betrayal was handled and I am pretty sure I could do a better job than TMS did (hell, they handled that same premise better in Seven Days Rhapsody, and it was a B plot!!)

Except I can't do that because 1) I have to finish writing Hanafuda and 2) I have like. zero plot for it right now (but I know if I put my mind to it I could)

In the meantime please have this song that makes me think about what that movie could have been, while I daydream about magic tricks and lighters and proceed to chew at my walls 👍

#i was already going insane about the use of the lighter in Goodbye Partner #but in retrospect with the added symbolism from ZERO i am losing my entire SHIT #and i'm sure there's something that could be done with the magic trick other than a cute throaway reference to cagliostro #because. cagliostro. the opening credits. the road trip. fire treasure. #cagliostro being canon as backstory for goodbye partner deepens the hurt of the betrayal SO MUCH because HOLY SHIT- #(yes I am still going insane about fire treasure/the opening credits of cagliostro. it's been three years. leave me alone.) #i did like the fact that the kid's relationship to jigen was never explicited though. i'd keep that i think. #mostly i just want to rewrite the way lupin and goemon took jigen's betrayal because it was just NOT handled realistically in that movie #give me some ANGST! give me some TURMOIL! #anyway. that's probably gonna be my next big project after hanafuda IF i can actually figure out a plot #but for now i'm gonna concentrate on my silly little au and its silly little romance 🥰 #lupin iii #daisuke jigen #lupin iii : goodbye partner #the hobbit writes

[iobartach]

#ooc #this is the vibe right now #i'm sorry #the week of hell is almost here #and i can't concentrate on anything #so i'm just gonna play some games and lurk until tuesday-ish #hopefully the madness will have passed. but i don't know. #i really don't want to lose my job

[tomorrowillbeyou]

x

#tom keeley #thursday #thursday band #ive been really anxious and panicky all day and unable to concentrate on much but 👍here i guess #Im aftually losing my head i feel so sick. i may have just not had enough sleep who knows #anyway i dont know why i shared all that information. look at tom👍 #flashing #my gifs

[noritaro]

the internet and news source really showing how US centric it is by only talking about the smoke thats coming from Canada

#reblog #dont get me wrong its valid to complain about all the smog #shit is not good for your lungs #but canadians are out here losing their homes to fire #like canada has both the smoke and fire #and shit is all over the country #but no lets concentrate on new york instead

[wetslug]

i just wanna tell u guys im having a Good Night for unknown reasons

#for no reason its just all working out #i heated up frozen lasagna and cooked some greem beams and both r good #my wrist is hurting less #my brain is letting me take notes without completely losing concentration #whadda hell...

[curseofbreadbear]

HM. INTERESTING.

#hw2 spoilers #{ just got the f.azforce ending. i have many feelings and questions } #{ losing it bc i literally made a joke abt f.naf canon spitting in my face (again) and guess what happened FKSDJKFS } #{ i dont even know what to do with my brain rn } #{ i also need to unlock the last level of f.azcade + find all of the collectibles but like......................damn } #{ im too wiped to concentrate on any of the guides ive found kfgdskgfds itll have to wait for later } #{ im kinda losing it tbh. i keep staring at the ''celebrate!'' thing on the stage. makes my brain do dial-up noises. } #🎬 || time for bear. (ooc.) || 🎬

[casual-eumetazoa]

hi does anyone have ideas for ways to occupy your brain so that it doesn't blast intrusive thoughts 24/7. activities need to also be not super brain heavy and able to be done in bed if needed. for now I'm playing a lot of mobile games and watching a lot of youtube but it's getting repetitive and starting to lose the effect. thank in advance

#chronic illness #spoonie #intrusive thoughts #disabled #my current list of issues is. uh. its a lot #started with severe autism burnout #which caused EDS and dysautonomia to flare like hell #then it turned out i also have hyperthyroidism and probably need surgery #then it turned out what i always thought was just anxiety is actually OCD #and its also flaring like so bad #i had to go back on the meds i was on when i was 18 which are first gen antipsychotics #just to be able to eat and drink without the intrusive thoughts telling me it will kill me #now I'm on two psychiatric medications at once and its still kinda hard to do anything #half the days im stuck in bed because of dysautonomia/postural hypotension #i can't concentrate on shit because of the thyroid and burnout #so even reading and writing are super hard #but i need to constantly be doing something or the thoughts get overwhelming #so like. any advice is appreciated #its also quite likely i will lose the spot in the PhD program because of this #because there is no system for medical leave for us #so me and partner will lose our only source of income #but for now they're still paying me even though i havent showed up for a whole month #so that's a problem for another day #oh i also need a wisdom tooth removed ...... #feels like my life has been repeatedly hit with a hammer

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

nooooooo my school doesn’t do entomology i’m going to suffer and die and why does my school not have any good majors :’(

#just has bio w a concentration that will be closer but not enough so so sad #and oughhhh if i switched to bio i would basically have to start over from the beginning whereas if i stay w psych i’m graduating #in the fall #oughhhhh i suffer so much #but i don’t know if i can go into the psych field anymore i don’t know if it’s a good fit #i have changed my major 2 times already i don’t know what to do with my life i feel so far behind but technically i started college #at like 16 or smth so this would just put graduating at a normal age but i’ve been here so long and i’m so tired #i wonder if i should just graduate w my psych degree and then go somewhere better for another degree but then i would lose some #scholarships that only work for my first bachelors why can i not decide what to do with my life #i need to just stick to smth but i have too many interests and i don’t know what to do with myself