#long girl in the soup

[telestoapologist]

long girl in the soup? 😳 well damn, congrats on ur transition ahsa! 👏🏳️‍⚧️🐋

#deep in the sea–son #long girl in the soup

[surreal-duck]

tin soldier and a disastrous doll

#anyhow its been too long since i last drew them i have been in the soup . #its MY birthday and I get to choose the coping mechanisms #doodles #duck scribbles #enstars #midoyuzu #yuzumido #midori takamine #yuzuru fushimi #i should go sleep my back is begging for the sweet release of death rn #ignore how i forgot yuzurus hat. didnt notice until it was too late orz #ensemble stars #ALSO WHICH ONES OF YOU NOMINATED ME FOR THAT RAREPAIR ENSTBLR YEARBOOK CATEGORY 😭 help that was a jumpscare im honored #girl how did i get here. thanks a bunch regardless of if you nominated or voted for me :']]] #edit: GOOD BELOVED MUTUAL BRIGID PAPERCONSUMPTION WROTE A FIC BASED OFF OF THIS GO READ IT ‼‼‼‼ #link in the rbs i will never recover i think

[balls-on-my-face]

when u and ur long distance low maintenance long term casual girlfriend accidentally break ur no pda rule

#these girls cant stop kissing! #butterfly soup 2 #akarsha #butterfly soup #min butterfly soup #noelle butterfly soup #ppkm #oops hi min #YURI #ummmm #akarsha goes 2 duke. #noelle visits. #MWAH! #tbh… i am so tired rn guy..s #trust me they’re gay and in love #lol #christmas is the season of yuri tbh #did u knkw rupaul has a christmas song #it was long #anyways #goodnight everypony

[fountainpenguin]

Shout out to the 'fic writers who go for realism vibes with the Hermitcraft Season 9 rebellion plot and do not change the name Soup Group to something "more serious"; I fall for the vibes and get sucker-punched EVERY TIME and can't stop laughing

#Ren is so dramatic and Bdubs is such a 'yes and' personality and they lend themselves so well to high fantasy vibes. #Then Soup Group with the steel chair?!?!?!? Comedy gold #Shout out to the person who wrote Impulse saying ''I'm with the soup'' in his smirky chirpy way. I love you. #That line has been living rent-free in my head for weeks. Like yeah that checks out. Girl he is with the soup. #hermitblr #Soup Group #Hermitcraft #impulseSV #GeminiTay #PearlescentMoon #mcyt #I have been SO sick for so long... there is some kind of irony in reading soup stories methinks

[derpinette]

i have a weird relationship with weight because i hated eating more than anything the moment i was ready for solids ( i hate chewing with my entire life always have & will ) which made me underweight for most of my life ( to this day ) & during late primary-middle school this made me actively suicidal because i felt like something was wrong with my sex because i just was not developing whatsoever prompting me to have a years long phase of trying to gain weight in any way i could ( #EPICFAIL by the way ) & i was already insecure but i felt seriously so unforgivably ugly after bullying not just at school but by adults of my entourage. but then i did in my late 15s which prompted the pendulum to swing in the other direction & suddenly i FREAKED OUT & thought well being skinny is pretty much all i have & know myself to be & clearly it is not going to last forever so i Better preserve it i was delusional about how skinny i thought i was actually i look stumpy & weird i have to prove myself. But now i am normal again kind of

#also i used to get beaten to finish my food nearly daily & it would take me forever to do that like literally hours with no exaggeration #just made me hate eating even more. now my technique is eating as fast as possible before i even realize how overwhelming #the sensory experience is & i can just be done with it VS the pain&dread of eating slowly -> disgust of Everything+hyperawareness #eating tightens my muscles like i hate it so fucking much catching the food putting it in my mouth CHEWING swallowing #what a damn chore #so i always liked cheese it was my “safe food” pretty much the only thing i liked #i even hated the foods autists usually like like fries & fried chicken meatballs ETC. HATED. #i was/am more of a soup & turning all my food into varieties of Slop kind of girl nothing hard for me please... #i experienced middle school during the like ♯Thick era of the world which was honestly a good thing like for The Populace #but i felt like killing myself because i felt like an unforgivable fugly genetic failure & people did not hesitate to let me know #anyway either way i would be unhappy caus if i did gain weight during puberty i would have a meltdown about all the Changes #so i feel content for the time being about only losing the fat in my face & getting age appropriate wrinkles really #trying to enjoy the privilege of thinness while i have it because it will not last forever 0_0 but that should not matter anyway... #the privilege of thinness: being way uglier than others & constantly looking like a gibbon dying of disease + no energy or strength ever #JK people are much MUCH nicer to thin people & they do things for me on account of looking physically incapable so um yay i guess #light at the end of the tunnel that is very significant in the grand scheme of things socially. ♯CountingMyBlessings #also i was raised on ♯HAES tumblr from 2014-2018 i truly believed in that & was so damn envious i was not curvy & beautiful LOL #so i never hated overweight people really i think for the most part the SJW tumblr values stuck with me #but now i know it depends on your base frame & genetics & there is no guarantee to what you choose to do (naturally) acceptance is peace #sorry for the gigantic Arse post i just needed to get that off my chest for a long time. not on here specifically just in general #oh & i am a ♯Grignoteuse but grignoter (grazing) is different from eating in my mind&body #& my insecurity was not a result of wanting to fit in really but kind of in the sense that i wanted people to stop berating me for my looks #like body wise only & also not understanding why every other girl looked like a girl blossoming into a woman #& i looked like i was transitioning to Malnourished (unsexed) Ape made worse by bein GNC.& like the need for control later on & erthang ETC

[realrogerhours]

#original character #roger's art #oc #monster girl #slug girl #chubby character #digital art #long haired men #self insert #OH NO HA CAN'T HEAR US HE'S ENTRANCED BY SOUP

[nibeul]

the desperation to survive is such an interesting part of kingdom and I especially like how it’s reflected in Yeong Shin, Lee Chang, and the Queen. The parallel between Yeong Shin and Lee Chang is lower hanging fruit, but the added factor of the Queen gives it more depth. These are the three characters where it is explicitly stated and shown that they will do anything to survive and I think they can be broken into three categories: selflessness, selfishness, and the intermediate.

Yeong Shin’s desperation to survive is selfless. Though it is one of the factors that ultimately causes the plague, the origin of it comes from a want for not only his survival, but the survival of the people in the village. Despite making the soup, he does not turn because he wanted to feed the people in Jiyulheon first. There’s the juxtaposition of the immorality of eating a human body and the moral good of feeding the villagers. His approach to most things seems to be whether or not the pros outweigh the cons with the information he has and he’s no stranger to going to great lengths in order to survive (such as cannibalism). That being said, to him, his survival also inherently means the survival of those around him. If he was bothered about just surviving himself, he would have destroyed the bodies in Jiyulheon, would not have gone back to the wagon when it was stuck, would not have defended the villagers when the Palace Guards attacked, etc. So yes, Mu Yeong was right to say that the chakho will do anything to survive, but that survival, in the case of Yeong Shin, is selfless.

On the flip side, the Queen’s desperation to survive is selfish. It is the kind of survival where there are no moral codes that bound her and the one where she will do anything in order to keep herself afloat. It is also what makes the switch from Lord Cho to her as the main antagonist so impactful, one because of the parting words she gives him after poisoning his tea, and two because Lord Cho, while cunning, never had the same level of ruthlessness as his daughter did; his existence was not constantly being tested and he did not know survival like she did. Like Yeong Shin, her desire to survive also played a part in the outbreak, but the circumstances are different. Her survival inherently requires the deaths of those around her. The lengths that she goes to in order to ensure her survival are extreme and they are a death sentence for anyone who threatens her. She survives through cruelty because cruelty is all she knows and this survival will always be selfish because it will only be her own.

And finally, we have Lee Chang whose desire to survive is the intermediate: it is the moral grey between two opposing sides, and it’s also interesting to note that it is also the only survival that does not play a factor in the outbreak. Throughout the show, he has moments of selfishness and selflessness, and he goes to similar lengths as the other two with the same sort of desperation that they all know. I don’t think he’s perfectly in the middle because it would be wrong to say he’s halfway similar to the Queen, but it’s also important to note that the survival they both know is one of the same because they are both disadvantaged in Joseon’s politics. When comparing him to Yeong Shin, he too includes others in his survival, but it takes him longer to get there. The best example of this is when they return to Jiyulheon and the palace guards attack; his hesitation ensures his own survival at the village but it comes at the cost of others. What’s interesting is that just before that, he risked his life to free the wagon as they escaped from the undead. His quest to survive is contradictory as much as it desperate. Part of his development is figuring out which way he will ultimately fall.

(There might be something to be said about how the consequences of Queen and Yeong Shin’s desperation to survive are immediate whereas Lee Chang’s are stretched throughout the show, but I think that would have to be another post).

#he does move more toward Yeong Shin’s sort of survival by the end of the series #but the journey there is interesting to watch #(he being Lee Chang) #also I was talking to fatime about this but there is something sooo appealing about a woman willing to do anything to survive #like not in a girl boss way or w/e just. you know #yes the Queen is a terrible person but also you can understand her motives and why she does what she does it’s so good #anyway this got long #it’s specifically catered toward me n soup. And then habibi when it finishes kingdom #kingdom 2019

[moinsbienquekaworu]

Also. The weird girl in school feeling of both intense jealousy and violent repulsion towards "normal" girls.

#this post brought to you by: the normaler girls i follow on insta and the stories they post #like these three girls. two of them from the same university as me. the other one also french. all in the same city as me #all exchange students at the same uni in england! #but they're going on day trips to london and living their best year abroad #and i'm - what. staying at home and making soup? sleeping and failing to buy postcards? #the warring impulses of jealousy and repulsion. #because. i want to be normal too. i want my life to be simple and nice and easy. #i want to be a pretty girl who's doing it right. i want to have my life together (somewhat) (for my age and status) #i want girlfriends in the straight way who i can have daytrips with. #i long for the simplicity of asking out cute boys and aesthetic study sessions that actually pay off #i am so blindingly jealous of them. they're so much more normal than me. they're doing Girlhood and Womanhood correctly. #but at the same time i would rather die than change so much i'd be that girl #because i am simply not that person. this is not who i am at my core #i do not want to buy startbucks. i don't want relationship drama. i don't want to put all my personal data on instagram #i do not actually want to force myself to fit into the restrictive mold of what normal and socially acceptable girlhood and womanhood are #so i feel both 1) left behind and inadequate like i'm back in middle school #2) but also at peace with the fact that you can't get along with everyone and i'm old enough to find my people now #i mean my housemates are really cool and i have other friends that are also the kind of nerdy weirdo people i hang out with #AND 3) inadequate for general 'i'm a fucking child' reasons #they're independent. they're spontaneous. they're just doing things. they're on the way to adulthood. they're in their early 20s. #what am i then but a child. i don't go out much i don't drink i have this huge aura of no romance #i need structure and plans and i have a lot of inertia #and i thought the adult thing was going well! i'm feeding myself all on my own! i'm planning my days! #i'm doing laundry and cleaning up messes! look at the adult! #she's not done baking but i was expecting much much worse honestly. i was braced for a total crumble #but no we're good. i felt proud of myself #and here i see people having the normal typical year abroad experience. and i'm not #i'm being childish and i'm wasting money doing the exact same thing i'd be doing at home but in england #anyway. 2:30. sleep time. good night #wow i have a ramble tag now

[soft-girl-musings]

methinks I should have taken the pharmacy up on that free flu shot last week, I am shaking and quaking over here

#might have to shell out some $ for a grocery delivery #its just me and my covid-positive mother at home today and we have NO soups or sickly treats #get me another blanket and a popsicle girls its gonna be a long day #shouting into the void here

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

Ok life update. I’m fully in college again! I like some of my classes (all stem classes) I kinda hate some other classes (theatre classes ironically). I am so deeply not moved in at all. Unpacking who? Could not be me. I do not have enough storage. I like my third roommate a lot and living with my ex is not as scary as I thought it would be. I finally get an adhd and depression test in two weeks and i start therapy in a week.

#me? going to therapy bc my last relationship hurt me that badly? it’s more likely than you think! #it wasn’t just that. but that in conjunction with my depression did not do good things #went from clingy to very anxious attachment style #also. i keep saying I’m completely over her. I’m not. I’m just hoping if I say it enough it’ll be true #so it just really really hurts that she’s so over me and already talking to people and looking for dates #and I’m over here like. please can it all just stop hurting for 5 seconds🫠🫠🫠🫠 #i really do not know what to do. hoping therapy fixes my very much still broken heart #i can’t even tell her like hey dude this is killing me bc then she’d think I’m trying to make it her problem #when in reality I just don’t want her to talk about the girls she’s talking to as much #also I’m pretty sure she’d end up being like fine I just won’t talk to you anymore. which completely missed the point as well #so. that’s cool #gaming club is starting to meet up again which is nice. unfortunately it’s on a day I have color guard every week #i think antidepressants would be very good for me bc I am struggling to find a single positive point in my life rn #the waitlist for therapy is miles long and u gotta submit why you want it. they called me in within a week. it’s not looking hot for me lol #I’d like to start streaming now that I’m single again. and by that I mean I have more free time #but my ex and I share a wall and she hates when she can hear me talking thru the wall. we have really really thin walls #y’all I am not winning. at all #idea: we’re doing a poll on things that should improve my life and y’all can decide #soup talks

[yuukimiyas]

૮₍ ´ ꒳ `₎ა good mornin & happy tuesday!! i hope everybun woke up so refreshed & ready to start today w so much love in your hearts & in the universe!! ໒꒰ྀི ´ ˘ ` ꒱ྀིა mwah!!

#i woke up kinda upset & then had a p bad panic attack which sucked ໒꒰ྀི◞ ︿ ◟ ꒱ྀི১ so i feel like i already took the L for today lmaozksk #but it can still improve!! i have hope that it’ll be able to turn around :3 #its back to work for your girl after a v long wknd & i’m a lil nervy for some reason!! ૮꒰ྀི ´∩∩` ꒱ྀིა hopefully this feelin subsides soon!! #i hate bein kinda upset on dash bc thats not who i usually am but w these retrogrades & everyth my brain feels like soup ໒꒰ྀི •̩̩̩̩＿•̩̩̩̩ ꒱ྀ #ANYWAYS!! i love you all so sm & i hope you have the v best day ever!! ໒꒰ྀི ◜ ‧̮ ◝ ꒱ྀིა #ᕱ⑅ᕱ.* journals!

[dnicriteria]

recovering from a dental surgery in result of which i currently have no upper teeth by awarding myself by doing no work i agreed to do for Money and the deadline is breathing down my neck. slay

#i literally just need to Open the Program and start translating but girl i CANT. #and i HATE being without teeth . all ive had eaten today was soup and a pint of ice cream i will have to live like this for so long. real

[merriclo]

this fic has like 1K words and they haven’t even reached hateno yet lmao

#the temptation to make this a multi chapter fic where they visit all the places in wild’s hyrule #barely any overarching plot just side quests and helping people out #ok knowing me i’ll make a plot #but the side quests and landscape will be very prevalent #my fave thing in fantasy books is taking a ton of time explaining the non-fantastical elements #yeah yeah ok cool magic that’s epic and awesome but consider: the domestic stuff #don’t get me wrong i love the dragons in loz #but i love the idea of flora being the village doctor even more #yeah magic food is epic and all but the idea that flora goes to ppl’s houses and is like ‘yup that’s a cold!!’ and helps them get better is #even more epic #and what’s even More epic? wild making a little bowl of soup for flora to bring them to help them get better quicker #girl help i’m rambling in the tags again #this is the dumbest version too btw so like. bare bones no fun descriptions just getting thoughts down. #hansnfksk this is gonna take a while and be Long

[riverswater]

Guys did you know that the cure to the reader's block is uhhhhh reading a good book

#Reading mcewan after idk how long!!!!! Oh my god!!!! I'm so fucking anxious gkshfksjs but I LOOOOVE THIS FEELING #I've read 50 pages with my eyes glued to the book hello. Hello. This is such a good soup I swear #Local girl discovers that reading novels is better than reading essays yes #m

[magentagalaxies]

Jessamine Accidentally Writes An Essay About Two Conversations Ze's Totally Normal About

one of my beloved mutuals (@souplover13) is reblogging a lot of queerpunk posts tonight which just reminded me of two conversations i want to document. yes this story involves paul bellini why wouldn't it (fr tho i was considering not making this a post bc i was like oh god do people really want to hear me ramble about these 63-year-old gay dudes again maybe i should give it a rest but whatever it's my blog and if people don't like it why are they even following me this is all we do here)

anyway the story actually begins with a conversation i had with my parents earlier today. now, i'm lucky enough to have parents that are constantly trying their best to be good allys and are always learning to do better. they're not perfect, but they want to learn. while at lunch today my dad took a picture of me and my mom together since i won't be home again for a few months and he affectionately said "my girls." i've been out to my parents as nonbinary for around a year, but i let it slide since my gender wasn't the most important part of that sentiment, more the fact that it was a nice family moment.

a beat later my mom corrects "girl and person," and while i am grateful for her seeing that i'm not a girl, this type of correction always makes me feel more awkward than being misgendered. like, the point of my dad calling me "his girl" was this tone of familial affection, but the word "person" just feels cold and distant, which is something i struggle with in a lot of gender neutral language. but beyond that, it's just this weird separation. i jokingly correct my mom again, saying "hey, we're both people."

the conversation continues and eventually my mom asks if it bothers me when people call me "girl" like that. and the truth is: i don't know. it bothers me a little, but the forced neutrality bothers me more, and honestly i don't really care what gendered language someone uses for me as long as they mean it in a way that shows me they care. like, i'd rather be called girl affectionately than be called "genderqueer nonbinary person with a strained relationship to androgyny who uses ze/zir pronouns and feels represented by the word transfeminine" in a derogatory way. I respond "it's contextual," but that's not a satisfactory answer. the conversation moves on to a nonbinary person who stops by my mom's work often and how my mom's had to correct some of the older employees to stop calling them a girl, since times are changing.

the second conversation is from a few weeks ago when i first visited canada to help with the mouth congress concert and got to have lunch with paul bellini beforehand. at one point the conversation developed into paul asking me what being "nonbinary" means for me personally. it was clear he wasn't intimately familiar with the concept (though to his credit he did have more experience with it than i expected), and some of his assumptions were inaccurate to my experience, but he listened intently as i described my experience not knowing how to specifically label my gender but just knowing i don't want to be seen as a cis woman while also having no desire to be fully male. he related it to his own experience as a gay man with his own complex relationship to masculinity and femininity, acknowledging it's not the exact same, and by the end of our conversation i truly felt like he respected my unique relationship to gender even if there were certain parts he still needed to process.

but most importantly, it was funny. granted our conversation was a unique case since both individuals were queer comedians from different generations, but approaching the strange concept of gender identity with humor made it so much more comfortable. paul described being a little feminine gay kid and thinking "i'm not a boy or a girl, i'm a god" and i responded that's it exactly. i brought up the mouth congress song she-male: master of the universe, saying the vision of a vengeful genderqueer space goddess is the most represented i've felt by a piece of media, only half joking. but also there were times when i made jokes about failing at gender (e.g. referencing a group of "girls" at my high school who made me realize i'm nonbinary since i always felt weird for being the least feminine person when we hung out, and then the fact that several of them came out as transmasc after graduation meaning now they can be better than me at being trans as well) and while paul acknowledged the joke he also assured me i was exactly where i needed to be in terms of my gender presentation, and honestly i'm kind of tearing up just thinking about it.

paul never asked me for my pronouns, but to be fair i did somewhat volunteer them in the form of a joke: "i use any pronouns, but i will silently judge you based on what you do with that information." that line got a laugh.

I told the same line to my parents after our "girl" conversation today, earning only confusion, and it made me realize something: so much of modern trans allyship centers entirely around language, be it pronouns or recognizing the lack of neutrality in our everyday speech. and while these things are certainly important, that's not understanding. cishet allys so often want to be able to say the right thing, so they approach the subject as learning the rules for how to incorporate this new approach to gender into their lexicon. i think there's something to be said for how this parallels how we're often taught about cis gender roles: these are the rules you follow to be a man or woman. when you find out someone doesn't fit neatly into those boxes, it's natural to ask "okay, what are your rules?" this also leads to some cis people (even gay cis people) complaining about how "you can't say anything these days" since it's portrayed as just another set of rules you need to learn.

but honestly, i don't know what my gender rules should be. my approach to gender lately has been the equivalent of "idk dude i just work here," i don't know where i specifically fit in but i do know how i feel inside. the answer "it's contextual" doesn't give you the cheat codes to gendering me correctly, because even i don't know how to gender myself correctly half the time. however, more importantly imo it gives you a window into how it feels to be me, a nonbinary person with complicated relationships to every facet of gender who's decided to stop expecting language to fully represent me but still has to deal with language being applied to me all the time. my nonbinary gender is confusing as hell, and i'm tired of having to pretend it's not as if that's the only way it's worthy of respect. every gender (including cis genders) is confusing as hell, and it's only when we all accept this fact that we can actually make a meaningful connection.

as my parents and i were driving away from the restaurant my only thought was i wonder how my dad would've referred to that photo if it was my brother and my mom in the picture. would he have said "girl and boy?" or "girl and person?" or would he have simply said "family"

#soup i tagged you bc i feel like you'd be interested in this #tbh i didn't plan on this being as long as it is but whatever i clearly needed to process something #tbh i'm kind of rolling my eyes at myself like ''ah great another paul bellini post'' but like #having an older queer comedian mentor actually really means a lot to me and i think i'm allowed to celebrate that #also honestly didn't realize how much the genuinely compassionate response to my high school joke actually meant to me until this moment??? #like in the moment i was like ''no that was a joke isn't it funny the same group of people made me feel inadequate in multiple genders'' #but now i'm like wait. oh. i've been holding onto that idea that i'm not good enough. insert crying cat meme #also shoutout to another anecdote from that paul conversation: #apparently he has a younger cousin who's a trans girl and he brought scott with him to visit them for christmas this year #and he said ''that cousin and scott ended up having one of those conversations where everyone around them is on edge bc any second someone #could say the wrong thing. it was awesome'' and like unironically i agree??? #like yeah having someone say something accidentally transphobic is shitty but one thing i enjoy about scott it he's not a performative ally #if he doesn't get something he will say it. and tbh at this point i've been around enough people who know all the language #but don't really get it or worse think the opposite #that watching someone like that is honestly refreshing

[0rchidm4ntis]

BUTTERFLY SOUP 2 IS COMING OUT ON OCT 19TH GUYS THIS ISNT A DRILL IM PASSING OUT

#mica rambles #butterfly soup #YOU DONT GET IT THIS GAME WAS A PILLAR OF REPRESENTATION FOR ME LIKE LESBIANS!!!!!!! AND BI GIRLS!!!!!! #IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME IM GONNA BUY IT 0 DOUBTS ABOUT IT I FEEL LIKE CRYING #I'VE BEEN WAITING SO LONG FOR THIS #I'M NOT SORRY FOR THE PERSON I'LL BECOME ONCE IT COMES OUT GUYS <3