#live life to the edge

[blackswaneuroparedux]

If you're going to try, go all the way. Otherwise, don't even start. This could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives and maybe even your mind. It could mean not eating for three or four days. It could mean freezing on a park bench. It could mean jail. It could mean derision. It could mean mockery - isolation. Isolation is the gift. All the others are a test of your endurance, of how much you really want to do it. And, you'll do it, despite rejection and the worst odds. And it will be better than anything else you can imagine. If you're going to try, go all the way. There is no other feeling like that. You will be alone with the gods, and the nights will flame with fire. You will ride life straight to perfect laughter. It's the only good fight there is.

Charles Bukowski, Factotum

#bukowski #charles bukowski #quote #fire #literature #cost of risk #risk taking #character #live life to the edge #femme #flames #woods #outdoors #night fire

[mecachrome]

landoscar ao3 stats — 2023 overview

notes

retrieved ~sometime in march 2024

methodology: scraped metadata for every fic in the landoscar tag and...... that's it. however one important constraint is that all temporal data is date updated (not posted), so the above timeline isn't exactly a true representation of fic growth but rather how many fics were last-updated at that time. of course this is still its own reflection of fandom health in a way since dead fandoms don't update old fic but well... it's just not quite the same!

this is just info about general trends, fic content, tags etc... so nothing about kudos/comments or any authors specifically

i decided to focus solely on fics last-updated in 2023 (unless otherwise mentioned) because i wanted a tidy set that i can maybe compare & contrast in a year's time, because i expect a lot of details to look different then (tho as stated above this set isn't exactly static... 🤷‍♀️)

ngl i had to re-scrape a bunch of times because i forgot about it for like 3 weeks and then there were 100 new fics 😭 so if there are some minor discrepancies across the post it's because of that halfskh.

also i wanted to include more global comparisons (aka how 814 stack up against the f1 rpf tag in general), but this is also considerably difficult in some contexts since i can't exactly scrape 31,000+ fics can i... or i didn't even want to entertain the thought of trying to do so!!!

why did i do this? who knows.

anyway here's some viz T__T

ship growth

as evidenced in the opening graph, landoscar have been a very fast-growing ship over the past year — although interestingly enough they didn't really start growing substantially until july / the ~better half~ of the 2023 season. here are two views showing their "growth" (by date updated) alongside two other ships on the fringes of the f1 rpf top 10 (sebchal & galex):

landoscar are very much on-track to surpass them and officially enter the top 10 soon, likely before mid-april ❗️ :o

ship characteristics

onto the ship content — another thing i was mildly curious about was how landoscar differs in certain areas from other f1 ships, or the f1 rpf "global" average you could say. for example, here's a breakdown of rating popularity in their ao3 tag:

seeing as explicit is their most common rating, and that i don't necessarily expect this to be true for all ships/fandoms, i compared these percentages with the general f1 rpf tag to see whether some ratings are more commonly represented in 814 fic than average, which produced interesting results:

do lando ships simply skew more HornyTM in general? is it oscar? a secret third thing??? who knows... actually i think it would be fun to do more analysis in this direction but that can wait for another time!!!

similarly i also wanted to see which ships are the most "public" on ao3, as in have the highest share of fic that isn't user-locked... i will refrain from peppering in my feelings about the 4th wall too heavy-handedly but i was curious to see whether some sort of perhaps... er, generational gap (?) of sorts between ships that are more public vs. not could be identified. however i don't pretend to have any takeaways from this LOL i conclude absolutely nothing. (for ref landoscar is currently 72% public, vs. a global avg of 63%)

note that this graph is current stats, not filtered for 2023

looking at relationship tags, i also wanted to know whether landoscar suffer noticeably from Second-Ship Syndrome, so i tallied the first-tagged ship of every fic to find out. i know this doesn't necessarily mean that it's always the "main" ship but it's a good enough approximation. the results were quite positive!

filtered to top ships with count of >1 only

i then also calculated the number of ships tagged for each fic to discern the profile of multi-shipping in 814 ficdom; i did have to do a little bit of string standardization (all instances of implied / background / hinted collapsed to hinted for simplicity's sake + removal of other redundancies), but otherwise i left everything mostly untouched.

as you can see, landoscar also have a fairly promising amount of OTP: TRUE fic:

by the time you get to the fics with 10+ ships tagged, landoscar are less likely to be the primary ship, which makes sense just on a basic statistical level... this is also a very small sample size though

i also lazily tallied the 10 most common ships that weren't NOR/PIA or NOR & PIA to diff their shares of the 814 tag vs. of the general f1 rpf tag, to see which other pairings are more represented in the 814 tag than on average (because lestappen are the most popular by pure count but this is also true of fandom in general, so it would be a misrepresentation to say that their popularity is out of the ordinary):

maxiel's gap isn't really that surprising since i think that, generationally, in terms of when both pairings were teammates there is quite a gap; with carlando—actually let me tally this again but including all instances of "implied" and "past" as being part of the same ship, since that's how ao3 tag-wrangles as well:

Aha ! obviously as a direct ship there is competition between 814 and other lando or oscar ships, but this difference is somewhat less pronounced once we include all formats. tbh none of this really means anything but i thought i'd add it anyway... (it's also very possible that there are several errors in this, in which case my b 😔)

before we move on to additional tags, there are a few more basic characteristics of 814 fic we can calculate. i realize i never offered an overview of Super Basic Stats, so here are a few:

plus, looking at word counts, here is a distribution of those in 2023-updated fic, which shows that a majority of 814 fics were under the 5k mark:

85% of landoscar fics were under 10k & nearly 97% under 25k

i don't really have any reason to believe that landoscar's wc stats differ significantly from average ? so this is kind of just Data To Have Data, and it most likely reflects normal ao3 trends in general... but i thought i'd include it anyway because i already made it lol. similarly, here are word count distributions but stratified by rating:

& same info but heat map view:

i feel like this is also probably something you'd find across fandom in general — that gen fic is likely to have a higher share of under 1k works, since Building Up to sexual content often takes... Literal & Metaphorical Foreplay ! and the longer a fic is the more opportunities an author has to include a sex scene or other explicit content (ofc, not necessarily just porn but also graphic violence & so on). but i thought this was fun to visualize haha

additional tags & aus?

back in my old f1 rpf stats post, i made a table comparing fluff/angst "ratios" (not exactly a direct ratio because of how tag wrangling works, but an approximation) of the most popular f1 ships, and now that landoscar are somewhat popular i thought i'd first do an update:

also current data, not 2023 to make things easier

just like before, simi are one of the most fluffy ships and brocedes are by far the most angsty, but it's interesting to see 814 also extremely high up on the charts, with far and away the lowest % of angst. will be exciting 2 see how that holds or changes as the seasons progress !

finally, i also wanted to do a bit of au/additional tag analysis because you can kind of see this when you use additional filters on ao3 but the previews are limited and get bogged down by the prevalence of *checks notes* Fluff, Angst, PWP, Anal Sex and what have you. which are nice stats to have and all but what of the rest !

disclaimer that the set for these tables is a biiiit outdated because by the time i'd wrangled everything i was like I Am Not Changing It Again. unfortunately i clean my data with shoddy queries and regex functions in googsheetz...

there were 48 tags with at least 10 instances from 2023 fics, shown below, with ones that are (some ~vaguely) nsfw in red just to kind of get a rough sense of which tags get commonly used in M/E fic:

getting a bit too much into small sample size / specific fic territory so if you're an author i sincerely apologize for that... do not mean 2 put u on blast... TT__TT but i also tried to tally the most popular aus people write for 814, which is a bit dubious because people tag in really different ways and i had to accommodate for a lot of string formats but ... it's close enough ! (?)

i feel like this is very little interesting info but idk what else to add so i will stop here for now... well!!! if you made it to the end i hope u learned something or even vaguely enjoyed reading T__T and most of all thank you :')

#*m #landoscar #in a sense 😔 #tfw don't have a tableau license so i live life on the edge across multiple unsaved desktop public files...... #if ur interested in anything specific pls lmk before my computer inevitably Dies and deletes everything...! #this is so useless nsdflshdfh. Anyway

[taikanyohou]

"My brother was messing with escorts, masseurs, sexual content creators and drug dealers. Now, he's gone MIA. Among all these people, someone has to be the culprit."

PLAYBOYY (2023). Official Teaser.

#playboyy #asianlgbtqdramas #asiandramasource #asiandramanet #boyslovesource #thaidramaedit #dramasource #* #faiza gifs #i am literally living life on the edge here LIKE. #this is fucking INSANE its got EVERYTHING #filth and sex and crime and mystery and just YEAH. WILD SHIT. lets fucking GO! #and yes ive already put a community label on it i know i know #yes these are a LOT of gifs but theres a LOT going on in the teaser sooooooooooooooooo #tw flashing #tw nudity

[an-established-butt-dent]

'Dreamers' A quiet evening

Solas x Lavellan, available as print here.

Mixed media on paper

#the fear I felt while drawing Solas' eyelashes with a permanent fineliner #sweating #Like I still want to start drawing digital once upon a future #but perhaps I am addicted to the adrenalin of trying to NOT fuck up a drawing without a ctrl Z? #Like #I am living on the edge here #living the dangerous life #there are no mistakes just happy accidents #This Solavellan piece is just some cosy fluff for all those suffering in Solavellan hell #hope it keeps you warm #:) #solavellan #drawing #my art #solas #dragon age inquisition #my fanart #dai #solasmance #da: inquisition #solas x female lavellan #solas x oc #solas x inquisitor #solavellan fluff #available as print #daze chroma #dazechroma #Solavellan fanart #dragon age #dragon age fanart

[princeparadiso]

no childhood should be like this

#qsmp baghera #qsmp #baghera jones #qsmp fanart #baghera fanart #guess what? more qbaghera content #im starved #anyways do you ever think about how this little child harmed and abused by the very entity that created her had to live in constant edge #for all of her little life and childhood only dreaming of escapes and nicer guardians #because i do #how little was she when she was already thinking about how and when to leave this hellhole that was the only thing she ever knew #how young was she when she stole that doctor's lighter and started planning boat rides and collecting oranges #how many other experiments did she meet that disappear or died the next day? #food for thoughts

[aroaceleovaldez]

once again thinking about the worldbuilding in the riordanverse of "names are power" / "belief is power."

The Tri were only able to become immortal through convincing enough people to worship them that it became true. Monsters and immortals only exist through continued belief, and if enough people believe that they're dead or gone then it becomes true, like Pan. Their varied forms exist and manifest as they're believed in and called upon. Names call attention and epithets summon aspects. They're acknowledgement. Belief. Putting a name to a concept creates it as an individual.

And that's so fascinating when you start applying it to demigods. How much of their abilities are based on belief in themselves, in expectations of each other, in their parents' expectations of them? We've seen mortal figures who became immortal in some form or another because they were remembered. Even the lares - ancestral house gods, who persist because they're remembered. They have a legacy.

At what point does a demigod achieve that status? Rumors and whispers about them so persistent that they slowly become true. "I heard that Jason Grace is the son of two gods, does that make him a god?" "I heard Percy Jackson defeated a titan single-handedly. That he can create hurricanes without breaking a sweat. That he can control blood." After awhile, after enough rumors, does it become impossible to tell where they end and the legends begin? Isn't that what being a demigod is; half-legend?

#pjo #riordanverse #analysis #i went a little prose-y there at the end but i am THINKING THOUGHTS #imagine being a demigod and knowing your EXISTENCE is slowing becoming warped because of others' perceptions of you! #Jason living on a pedestal his entire life and worrying so much that one day he's going to bleed ichor and his fate will be sealed #Percy recognizing that his powers are growing beyond his previous limits in ways that don't seem natural. don't seem right. #and he realizes what's happening and just has to hope the whispering quiets down and the rumors are forgotten so he can live a normal life #also the potential for demigod existential horror #becoming aware that You as a concept is slowly shifting. twisting. to match the perception others have of you #how TERRIFYING is that? like obviously it'd probably only go to an extent for most demigods cause half-mortal #but their powers? etc? SCARY #Percy being aware that his powers are becoming warped and trying to dissuade gossip about himself so it returns to normal #Nico who the more he's welcomed into the camps the more he finds himself being essentially declawed #his rough edges slowly worn away. his powers weakening and becoming less frightening. is it worth it? #and how difficult must that inherently make it for him to allow himself to be known? #and again. shaking Jason petrified that CJ is going to accidentally believe him into immortality. his worst nightmare.

[storytellering]

Spartober day 1 - Daddy issues

prompt list by @whatsanapocalae1!

#dmc #devil may cry #nero #vergil #spardacest #vernero #dmc5 #vergil/nero #vergilxnero #vergil x nero #Spartober 2023 #inktober #my art #hi i'm not gonna be able to do every single one of the prompts because i'm so busy and i should've prepared stuff in advance but. #you know me living life on the edge also who am I if I don't tackle every single spardacest prompt event i come across

[jayujus]

BANANA - CHAPTER 12

— 12 : u just gotta live life on the edge

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[dailycupofcreativitea]

I suddenly had the urge to draw Cell :D

#call it a CRAVING if you will #call it an ADDICTION if you must #cell #perfect cell #dbz #dragon ball z #sketch #db #dragon ball #i said i wouldnt draw much this month but of course i gotta squeeze in a drawing on the weekend #also i live life on the edge...i tend not to save a drawing until I'm almost done LMAO #because I do them in one sitting

[hauntedpearl]

SO INTERESTING how dean has like. inherited the language of ultimatums from his father. he's not at a point where he can follow through on them emotionally yet, he's just parroting the things that he's heard over the years. If you leave, don't come back. If you get out of the car, I'll leave your ass here. I'm not coming after you, Sam! and it's. like. breaking his heart to see that the people he issues his ultimatums to, are, like (rightfully), not listening to him. but he doesn't know HOW ELSE to communicate. he only ever speaks the language of violence, and he does not catch enough of a break to like. unlearn this. which is kind of devastating to watch. because he's still FIXABLE here. there's the option of going back!! he could've learned to not do this! but he didn't, and it's so goddamn tragic!!!

#i mean personally i do believe that. he's somehow managed to live on the edge of progress his whole life #so the relief post canon brings can fix hun #him* #OR I WANT IT TO #which is why i keep writing him the way j write him #but like. JUST FROM. AN AUDIENCE PERSPECTIVE #this is all very sad these people and their lives are so sad ;-; #spn rewatch

[simplydnp]

dan being a 'if the water is too hot i cant do it' guy who also turns the shower on while he's standing under it without testing the temperature...

#what an enigma of a man #dan i know why you're so stressed all the time its because you choose to live life on the edge my guy #dnp #c.text #dan and phil

[voluntaryvictim]

IF YOUR CONDITIONS ARE A PASSING PHASE MAY YOUR ASHES FEED THE RIVER IN THE MORNING RAYS AS THE VERMIN CRAWLS WE LAY IN THE FOUNDATIONS OF DECAY

#unofficial lyrics babeyyyy living life on the edge #it's 12am and i had to make something i love misters chemical romance #if these are wrong i'm gonna be so embarrassed LMAO anyway #stream foundations of decay or i will come to your house and we will stream it together #my chemical romance #mcr #the foundations of decay #foundations of decay #camsedits #tw bugs #bugs tw

[baconcolacan]

I’m pretty sure I also like the TomTord dynamic because its a raving mad unhinged little weirdo dreamer and a straight laced mildly suppressed sad wet catman realist stuck together with silly string and glitter glue

#tomtord #tordtom #ig??? lol #AT LEAST WITH HOW I CHARACTERISE THEM #I like Tord being extremely passionate and headstrong about his ideals and goals #So much so that he’s always at risk of falling off the edge but with a smile #Tom being stuck in an impasse in his life getting infected with Tord’s zest for living #Tord has no concret plan and is happy to go at it as wild as he can #But Tom can see all the pitfalls and dangers and keeps him steady #At the same time he’s learning how to love being alive again #also they’re funni together HEJAJD

[myymi]

tails, messaging knuckles: im going to strangle sonic if he doesn't get himself killed first.

knuckles: whatd he do this time

tails: so we're fighting eggman right

tails: and after his badniks are destroyed his flies off. he has not brought out a mech yet.

knuckles: it was a trap wasn't it

tails: THE MOST OBVIOUS FUCKING TRAP.

tails: and SONIC just walks into it.

tails: he's stuck in some dumb mech that absorbs the energy he produces when he runs

tails: and now it's MY job to get him out.

knuckles: need me?

tails: only to keep me from murdering our brother.

#sonic lives life on the edge a little too much #your baby bro can only take so much my guy #tails and knuckles; ceos of keeping the other from murdering sonic #miles tails prower #sonic the hedgehog #tails the fox #sth #sonic #knuckles the echidna #tails and knuckles #brain and brawn #team sonic

[windydrawallday]

Long-PSA-short of sorts that's more a vent: I was always aware my behavior and way of expressing myself online can surprise many people, especially if they are not used to someone who uses the writing medium as a playful form to tell emotions in a very descriptive way as I do. I'm quite affectionate with words, yes. And I always beg people I hang with personally to let me know if some of that bothers them, curtly of course. So far there have been few instances of individuals confusing those signals with ulterior means, things I assure you there's nothing more than me being friendly and supportive.

Imagine idk an excited dog seeing its owner haha

Until the past week, I found myself being tackled by something that made me almost knock everything aside because it made me realize that probably I'm a walking trigger/squick inducer with even the way I wield words like "love" and "friendship".

Almost...

I'm pretty tolerant of whatever way people conduct themselves in this life, the only moment I flinch is when an individual assumes from my default behavior and presentation that I want to impose my way of life... And nopes.

This is simply how and who I am. Nothing more, nothing less. I don't search for conflict but for understanding. My language for expressing marvel and reflections is like this, never to make the other feel awkward or attacked.

So, it upset me knowing that by wielding this forever welcoming and lovable disposition, I can be something to fear and even despite... to some people.

But, you know? That means that my "love" and "friendship" lifestyle are not made for you, no reason to come back to me and point at it. Just keep walking if you have only rage and rejection to give as a reply to my point of view. Because by wielding rage and rejection, what you only do is burn bridges. To create conflict and assume imaginary antagonistic scenarios where there's nothing of that at all.

You can't create the world you wish to live in by burning bridges.

It took me a lot too to forge who I am right now. I even keep learning and chiseling through traumas and mistakes—kindness and patience taught me more than rage and rejection. And "love" and "friendship" are the bricks I chose to build those bridges. I know everyone else uses different concepts but in the end, we all build bridges. By creating bridges and inviting others to do the same, I expand not only my world, but the other's too!

Isn't that better than demanding to be this or that through a black/white flag of rage and rejection? I think so. And I understand perfectly we sometimes need to be blunt when marking our boundaries. Still, never justifies treating the other bad.

And if some of you find "fake" or distasteful the way I wear this flag of "love" and "friendship" I'm sorry: this place will never be safe for you then. The exit door is always open. Go ahead.

I hope you find your place and flags out there too, but don't forget that to do that you need to build bridges. If you don't want to call it "friendship" call it "glue" or whatever makes you comfortable, but don't kick people like me who fought with claws and teeth to reclaim those words and feelings.

Fight your fight by being a good example, not a bad experience that makes someone never want to deal with something like this again in their life.

"Any color you like, (in the end) they're all blue."

#windy squeals #im so sorry if i end upsetting someone with my point of view #with my expressive way to use words #or my overly dramatic behavior #its all real i swear these are all real #and you dont need to give me back the same level of energy #just be clear af and say what you need because i dont read minds #im tired of being seeing as a clown or be infantilized because of this #or feared like im a sort of vampire that sucks emotions because NO #or that im intolerant to people that dont follow those -normatives because believe me #im too very asocial to certain cues but intead of raging about them #i try to create new rules that fit better my way to navigate life #the only way to achieve what we want is by stating it gently #not setting on fire posibilities to create new connections and points of view #but i guess there will be always be people that prefer to live in a bubble and expect the whole diverse world to mold to them #and i say that as an aroace that used to be intolerant of the normatives that push my boundaries to the edge #but eh sometimes youll fight but most of the times youll need to dodge and learn to avoid bullets #listen if i sound ableist with this whatever i am then #im not perfect #gotta keep reading and relearning and updating my brain ugh

[cicada-candy]

in retrospect my future ghost rider obsession was. not surprising.

#going from 1 pair of Fire Associated Siblings to Another aagjjfaf #my art #this is Just Edge No Knife but let me live okay ahadjkghasl i doesnt need to Make Sense #fanart #digital art #oof how do i tag this ashdsjak;lf #taleblr #johnny toast #gavin toast #“Does this go in the [x] tag?”: the story of my life