#like. ITS ALL JUMBLED UP

[geroya]

things that make you go hmmmm 🤔 (constant snake sightings) (but considering their recent recurrences what do you think of snakes in general? do you like snakes? what are the vibes you get from snakes?) *KEESES*

i am very hmmmmm 🤔🤔 rn esp for what it could mean for me exactly !

as for what i think of snakes! i think they're very interesting creatures & i like them a lot. i used to watch the garden snakes i would find in my backyard &, when i was really young, catch them just to hold them in my hand & have them wrap their tiny bodies around my fingers before letting them go. it was such a strange feeling, how cold they feel? & their scales ! & knowing that they could like idk bite me at any moment (even tho garden snakes, ive always been told, aren't venomous). i was also really fascinated by the cotton mouths we used to see at the lake where we fished. always just. watching me in return in the summertime. idk.

i just find snakes really cool even if it's kind of scary to think about how dangerous they can be if you cross paths with them, even those that ARENT venomous. like being bitten in the wrong place or multiple times? being constricted by a python's full body? (even if they arent here & are usually only loose bc someone's pet was dumped) that can be just as dangerous as a snake that's venomous ! & idk idk how to like explain the sort of feeling i have for snakes. respect is probably the closest word to the feeling. fascination, absolutely. like. if i just leave them alone, let them do their thing, they will leave me alone & we can both just go on with our lives. but it's also exciting (in a nerve-wracking heart pounding sort of way) to be around one.

i'd wanted one as a pet once ! i cant remember where my desire went though.

#☼.txt #inbox #meshla #jo #they're so smart & they're just living their lives & like bees if i leave them be they'll leave ME be #even if i DO want to like. STARE at them all day WITH HUGE fucking eyes bc they're SOOOO cool #AND PRETTY LIKE !!!! #i feel like this was a bit long #HOWEVER i am struggling to explain my feelings on snakes #like. ITS ALL JUMBLED UP #but like idk how else to say that i get a little excited when faced with a creature that is so pretty & dangerous #& would absolutely stare me down back before lashing out at me to bite me <3 #bc i was being a bit dumb not minding my business / stepped into its path #does that make sense do u get what i mean? #i dont antagonize the wildlife THOUGH i am explaining this as a FEELING #ANYWAY #KEESES LOVE U JO <3

[maliciousalice]

@thresholdbb omg tumblr ate your ask but thankyou for asking!!!!

👕Character whose fashion you like.

Phoar! Startrek really isn't a show I associate with being fashionable. It's very camp isn't it? In theory a lot of the wardrobe is really cool and they wanted to gain that retro-future aesthetic. Did it work? I'm not sure. However it does make a statement. The Startrek aesthetic is really recognizable and that's important! I think that's where modern trek kind of looses the plot. It's not as careful about the unique visual design as a whole anymore and as a result it doesn't settle in our minds. Is it bad artistry? No but it's not as stringent. What I mean by that is older trek cared about nuance. For example every haircut was done the same way on men, or suits were tailored in a way to look sleek but practical (they weren't). Gaudy patterns were important to denote things like status. It looks ugly on the outside but when you're watching the show it envelops you and makes you feel welcomed into the universe.

I digress.

To answer this, the most fashionable character, hands down, is Quark! That mfer always looks good, and has the finest drip in the galaxy. Love that.

🥲 ST moment that makes you cry.

There are two moments that make me particularly sad. Kate's acting in the climax of Resistance is incredible. I read somewhere she had a special-wink-wink- relationship with the Director in the early seasons and she was being tested by this episode in some regard. I think it paid off. I treasure any time her captain-hood is removed, and the extreme vulnerability of Janeway is on display-MWAH MWAH poignant. This episode is beautifully intimate, particularly this scene. It's overall gorgeous and unique in how she whispers to him, as if there is nothing more important than to secure his peace of mind as he dies, and it's heart rending when it ends with her just crouching there, emotionally alone. I love how Janeway is forced into the father-daughter dynamic between her and Caylem, one that she would ordinarily resist (heh themes) because I think it inherently weakens her status. The back and forth throughout the episode of them taking care of each other's welfare is so it's terribly sad when it's torn down and we discover the truth behind Caylem's family. If you've dug around her character you know that her Admiral-Father has had impact on her life. She's haunted by him in both a figurative way by being a Captain, and literal sense later on in Coda. Much like Caylem, she looses her father in a violent manner that she has to carry around while she forges ahead. It also reflects well on Kate's relationship with her actual father, she recently revealed that she was never able to get him on her page, but in spite that she adore him with all her might. So a scene like this is really revealing-I believe she was able to draw upon those feelings and that's kinda neat to be so raw as an actor. SIGH.

This one just straight up made me cry fr because Prodigy s1 is a really mature, well done piece of (Startrek) media. Holo Janeway has an irony about it where in the end she is program designed to be a teacher, and she didn't expect to develop a strong bond with the crew. Her final moments are of displaying a huge amount of selflessness and courage to help the kids get out of trouble, similarly to how Janeway would approach dire circumstances. The music swelling and the ship activating is just OOOOF!!! I love how it parallels Dal's initiation of the first Protojump in a Moral Star. By that means It suggests how proud she is to get to do this for them. As a character she is really interesting to think about, in a way I can't entirely articulate. A lot of her moments are quite sad in general, she has to keep an active role so she isn't ignored, and help where help is needed, but at the same time she has constraints, one being that she manipulated by the antagonists. And In contrast to that, the kids do their best to help her feel like she is important and more than a command program to be used insincerely. She grew to love the Protostar crew, that's evident in her body language in this scene. She has a lot of depth overall. Equal to the real Janeway she deeply feels love, guilt and pain, but importantly she is transformed by the her time on the Protostar and while active, learns and grows with Dal, Rok-tak, Zero, Jankom and Gwyn. It's REALLY sweet that they care all care about each other.

I love her and I love JANEWAY!!!!

🥹 Favourite behind the scenes picture.

Ooooh I love all behind the scenes stuff. My brother in Christ It's super difficult to just name one thing and I'm very greedy!! I wish we had more BTS content for Voyager but sadly, it's a matter of grab what you can, however you can. Anyway, I have an inherent interest in seeing the cogs behind the wheel. I chose these samples because I think they're charming.

The continuity polaroid's are so fun and a lost technique, I like to think about assistants having to pull the actors aside and asking them to take those. How daunting! Kate's grin in the one where she is offset is SO cute. So she must have been in a good mood, super Cheeky!

Following that is a screenshot from a video of her having her makeup done. A rare catch. I like this because she often sooks about how much time hair and makeup was spent on her to become Captain Janeway. I get it's a huge time-sink, but love or hate it, the full irony is that her early season appearance is really iconic and in it's own right adds to Captain Janeway's sensibility. Silly goose Kate! Besides that, she looks hot checking herself out, haha.

Moreover, I love on-set editorial photos of actors in costume. While we did have heaps of them in the Starfleet uniform, I wish we had a larger collection with clearer releases, it would have given an opportunity to see in things of interest better detail. Particularly the lower half of unique costumes. For whatever reason special outfits weren't often established or framed for us to see the legs in the show, so a nice big photograph would have solved that. Also I love that these style of pictures capture an impression of an episode without giving it away.

Similarly, fly on the wall on-set photos are cool. They're way more intimate and candid than anything else and it makes me feel as though I am spying on the actors, but they're also a good way to document how things might have been on set.

The Timeless one is interesting too because it's of a deleted scene, we never see Chakotay look at a dead Janeway (how deliciously macabre!), but at some point in time it was in the script and they filmed it.

Hmm this bts picture of Janeway in the Cardigan is adorable! I believe it was worn by Kate for a Charity but look how cute she looks? Makes me wish we saw her mess around with things like that more because 7 Years is a long ass time to be in uniform everyday ( coming from someone who went to school in a Uniform and enjoyed it for the most part). Casual Fridays anyone?

I love this gif. It's from the first shoots of Caretaker and Kate looks so radiant! Her smile is is breathtaking! Whenever I see this gif I get a sense of delight. Poor thing had no idea what she was getting herself into, haha. Really though, check out the original Caretaker photos, they're super-cool. The history behind it is fascinating; I'd love to see more footage from that version of the pilot episode. Unfortunately, it's probably not preserved well, much like lots of Paramount's historical material.

On a similar trend, it's fun to see this set of pictures too. It's for the First Contact film / maybe the Universal studios ride, when she reprised her role as Vice AdmiralJaneway. Kate was genuinely delighted to do this cameo and it shows. As per her operandum she put her whole self into this small segment and that's so darling. It makes me wish we had more of this Janeway at that point in time. I love post Endgame chubby-Janeway. In a fictional sense it denotes that she is comfortable or stressed to be an Admiral (sadly it's the latter in real life) or whatever and I love that for her.

These kind of pictures are fun because it's been said that at times it was the most playful set to be on. There are tales that the cast were not that serious all the time. You get that impression here, and it's probably why the majority of them are still good friends to this day. They're like a family bros!!! Having worked in media I know that wrapping up after working on something for a long time is really rewarding and I bet they had a good time at parties.

Apropos previous, the opposite can be said. While they had fun, the hours were long and the scripts intensive. Kate was around for all of the episodes of Voyager in one way or another, and still managed to bring her A-game each time. She is truly admirable! Seeing her so exhausted is charming. She had a lot of weight to carry for the franchise and did an exemplary job performing her way through 7 years of weird and wonderful material. I wonder how often they fell asleep on set? I know I would. Get some rest queen!

Finally, I've been following Prodigy bts as best I can, and because of my career in animation I get pretty interested in Production art. I love seeing the fast metamorphosis of a visual style. It's really impressive how much attention they applied to the designs, maintaining the older stuff, while adapting a new frontier. One of the lead artists made some pretty neat observations to get Kate's appearance right. It's so cool that they documented that journey, because from my dabbling I know she has a very beautiful, distinct face that isn't easy to capture.

ANYWAY Thankyou for reading my fat thesis fellas. tl;dr i love this stinky Startrek Voyager and by extension the franchise.

#I AM SO SORRY FOR THIS WALL OF TEXT I HAVE A LOT TO SAY AND I THINK ABOUT THIS DARN SHOW A LOT #also my bad it's mostly voyager but it's my true love #hope you can make sense of this I'm fairly illiterate and writing is so hard for me lol that's why i write more than is probably necessary #i like the other trek shows but this one is something special if you know what i mean #appreciate you if you read all this MWAH MWAH #thankyou for the ask thresholdbb ily!!! #Thresholdbb #Kathryn Janeway #janeway #star trek voyager #star trek prodigy #st:voy #kate mulgrew #no sources for this you just gotta trust im a big fat expert :^) #i really need an editor my dyslexic-a jumbles up and forgets words when i write its so embarassing #i have a pretty large collection of pictures now but i could always use more #i also should probably save videos where i can because they get buried / removed from the internet

[diathadevil]

Do you ever think about how Fakir, after him and Ahiru finally broke everything that kept the town of Goldkröne in the ghostly hands of its writer, after they finally have some air of peace over the town finally being able to live in its intended early 2000s environment, that Fakir still feels at times like it's not real and that for a while he fears that if he closes his eyes it'll be back in Drosselmeyer's control. Like it just doesn't feel real to him during that first year of calm, until he feels the dull pain on his recovering hand injury and Ahiru who follows him without a pendant anywhere to be found.

He doesn't feel it's real, the calm finality of this town, but he makes sure to feel the scar on his hand. And he makes sure to hold the little duck and realize that she is who she has always been. Him and the town are finally living peacefully.

#dia talks #princess tutu #He probably starts planning on writing Ahiru into the world mayyybe like 3-4 months into his recovery #he doesn't know what a cell phone is yet but he sure as hell can look at a bookstore and ask for a notebook and pens #i bet that first year in Goldenkröne must be hell because trading deals bring all sorts of new things into the town #Just Fakir going “what the fuck is a scooter?? Wait what's a CAR---” #he ends up having to read a bunch of newspaper articles about “Goldenkröne booming in German tourism!” #Actually does he even know his country's name... Did they all even know they lived in Germany and not JUST a city???? #Drosselmeyer would've really pulled one on them for only talking about the city and its outskirts and NOT the country it resided in #But let's assume they did know. Fakir would have to figure out so much has changed in 2002 Germany compared to whatever time they were in #My god just thinking about the thought of Fakir learning what a television is... or a radio for that matter has me howling internally #local amateur writer is put into a coma after hearing for the very first time german rapper Sido #alternatively: local amateur writer's brain explodes after hearing german Happycore artist Blümchen and dance pop group No Angels #ptutu spoiler #i know its a +20 old show but just in case people wanna watch it i love it enough to tag the post show headcanon #ptutu analysis #ptutu headcanon #ptutu post canon #Also sorry i keep jumbling between Goldkröne and Goldenkröne in the writing its 4 AM and the german part of my brain is a mess lmao #(its supposed to be Goldkröne but for some reason I keep making it into the attribute word Golden so dont mind the mistake) #(if you do i will sob please be gentle towards my polyglot self)

[c-kiddo]

finished ep86 and 87 in my cr2 rewatch and tbh some of the best episodes in the show. so cinematic. yasha's back . so many good cathartic story moments. also them entering the hall with king dwendal is so tense and cinematic too , besides the cathedral . like its so crazy . so legendary

#yashas baaaack 🥳🥳🥳🥳 #kiddo say #ive made a post abt it before so i wont make a whole other one but the way cad messes up talking to dwendal makes me so 😢💔 #ik its because theyre all mega nervous and their lives are at risk . .but also . the way his words get all jumbled and he keeps interruptin #himself in the middle of sentences . and then says 'thank you' for an insult reads so nd to me. like oh this guy is disabled #(aware that this is hyperempathy + projection also) but its like. ah . that was very vulnerable #just like when u cant get your thoughts to align and forget them as you say them and cant put words together . its hard </3

[swatato]

I refuse to believe a damn thing I’m seeing thanks <3

#noragami #noragami spoilers #like this just spits in the face of all the themes and messages of the entire story #idk how hiyori being yatos shinki could possibly benefit the narrative #like do they just go home after this and begin the entire cycle of protecting a shinki from ggs again? #or does she conveniently get to remember everything too cuz of some asspull and then they live happily ever after?.? #the whole point was that hiyori should live a full long life #whats the point of yato rising up to father if he just gets ‘taught a lesson’ yet again #and nora too for that matter im just waiting for some payoff after that entire bond she formed with hiyori #like this is just the dumbest way to go out especially for how rushed it is #its so absurd which is why i dont entirely believe this is actually hiyori kicking the can #surely adachitoka gonna pull something here dhsifnksjf #im betting amaterasu will pull some magic cuz a) yato keeping his promise to kill father #and b) something something about a loophole with hiyoris unique half dead status #and the fact that theyre in father weird abstract water dimension #jumbled thoughts ghhhgghh #like im yatori garbage to my core but this aint it

[storytellering]

Love your art and I'm generally curious as to what the appeal of Dante/Vergil is to you? Do you have any hc that you're drawing from or is it just personal preference? I struggle to imagine the right conditions for them to be involved in that way and would like to know what inspires you.

I will premise this by saying, that I’m actually not a MASSIVE fan of just DV for its own sake, if Nero isn’t also included (or like, with the assumption he will, 100%, be included once he’s in the picture). To me it’s kind of a baseline pairing?

As in, I don’t even have to think about it. Of course they’re in love, of course they’re together, of course they’re fucking. It’s almost an afterthought to me, the way the married parent couple of the protagonist in a story inherently are. It doesn’t necessarily interest me by itself, that fact, it’s just a certainty, it just is. I guess, for me, the interest in DV specifically comes more out of what other people make of it, because for me I’m almost always approaching first from the perspective of Nero being there also, haha.

There’s also the fact that I have a lot of hc about just like, the way demons function as a species, I guess. I took a lot of things dmc canon gave me and went like, “alright, time to project this into the most self indulgent, non-human society but humanoid looking species I can think up in my brainhead”. To me a lot of the appeal comes from it being not necessarily a predestined thing as much as like, a biological inevitability - (going to speak in definitives about my own hc from here on, so not making any statement about canon dmc lol) demons mate with their kin, and with whoever deems worthy - and twins from the same litter would inevitably end up being the other’s first partner, their first choice, their other half. In a sense, to me, they’re soulmates - though honestly I prefer to think of it more as two halves of the same soul, following the implications in 3 and the 3 manga that them being twins comes from the spawn of Sparda being too powerful to just be born in one body. That might sound like I’m just saying they’re soulmates in a different way, but not really - to me, if I had to go the soulmate route, Nero would be both of their soulmate - because the two of them make one single soul, and the match to that would be Nero’s.

I kind of just go off of the assumption that they are in love and have been since they were in the womb, you know?

That colors the way I see their every interaction. To me, in their fighting, their squabbles and their feuds, there’s always love at the source. Familial, yes, but romantic and sexual as well - and to me, when I think about them, it’s all one and the same. To love each other like family is to be intwined, is to be mated, is to be a pack and is to be one.

That’s the more deep thoughts I have about it, I have more shallow/surface thoughts (and specifically ship dynamic thoughts about like, what appeals to me about them sexually lol) but if I had to quickly sum it up that’s what I would say, I think. 

#Sorry if this is a bit jumbled/all over the place lol #I actually never really stopped to think about it besides just liking it i guess #Like to me things like dante’s lines to vergil read as flirting the fights read as full of tension #every time I see them fighting I could very easily picture them just stopping mid stab to make out yknow #I guess it also comes down to how much you personally like conflict in a ship #or how much rivalry/fighting reads as charged or tension to you #Plus again the whole demon thing #And in a way also ig I just really like thinking of demon twins as a mating pair #I like them hybrid the best but in that context I do like to hc vergil as super fertile and Dante as near infertile #and them navigating this nature in a sense of like. It’s not what they want out of life. #It’s not what they naturally gravitate towards nor what they would choose if it were up to them. #But its nature and its playing cruel tricks on them #and ig in a way to me that’s a feeling I like to project as a trans allegory #I don’t often veer to making characters trans in a realistic human way bc it hits a bit too close to home #And rather I prefer adding a lot of things that are exactly like being trans but not in a human way #And I think that’s that to me yknow? #Nature + instinct imposing something on you that you have to actively struggle against for the rest of your life #And compensating and making yourself be perceived as who you feel yourself to be despite of it #Yes this is still all about weird demon pseudo omegaverse bullshit no I cannot physically hold myself back from getting into it #asks #vague mpreg allegory/mention #thank you for the question! lots of food for thought lol #spardacest

[skypiea]

really really wanted to build my wiki on miraheze instead of fandom since fandom sucks shit but i feel like no one talks about how hard it is to get a foot in the door w/ miraheze when ur not great at coding OTL ive read thru all their beginners stuff and consulted a lot of external resources and i just dont think im built for it.......got my wiki and tried to set up some stuff but i just feel terribly overwhelmed. waaaugh

#kite.txt #not going to give up on it totally but ive pissed away hours tonight with nothing to show for it so #its not that i refuse to learn this stuff its just something im unfortunately really bad with #all the strings of text get so jumbled in my brain and eyes #it sucks because it feels like i have to pick between. beginner friendly simple easy UI but atrocious ads #or just being tossed out on a desert island but with no ads #urgh. wautgh. maybe you guys just get spreadsheets. whatever

[fivepebsi]

the music in ddlc rlly is soooo crazy good. like the way the Creepy music in act 2 is mostly just fucked up versions of the regular tracks. like slightly sped up or the drums missing. or the main melody blown out. and even in the regular tracks theres some dissonance in the melodies to give u that slighttt uneasy feeling. so crazy cool

#ddlc #in general ddlc is soooo good at that slight uncanny feeling that gets me SO BAD #the way the characters are drawn is justttt on that line of anime/realism that makes it super freaky when like. their eyes move. etc #and stuff like posters changing and text jumbling and stuff just …. ohhh so good #its such a specific type of scary catered specifically to me to make me tear up wvery time i think abt it #SCARYYYY!!!!!!! #its hard to explain if u dont find it creepy 😭 #its not like Ooohhh theyre evillll now ! theyre evil now and they swear and bloooodd!!! #its the knowledge that theyre being changed beyond their control. the way theyre sentient but Not Quite. the constant rewriting of events #the use of poetry in it is soooo good too. how it shows all their personalities and how they warp over time #love this gameeee. so cool

[20w14a]

Do Unto Others by MSI gives me Elquackity vibes while Pt. 2 gives me Quackity vibes.

#qsmp #qsmp quackity #qsmp elquackity #elq act very holier than thou like the song #not necessarily in a moral scene but he just overall thinks he's superior/right and will try to do so in any means necessary #even manipulating people and do questionable mysterious things like kidnapping an egg etc etc. #the first verse feel so heavily elq to me because of the whole “jealousy” connotations the singer clearly has with “it should've been me” #elq goes a lot into how he IS quackity and will straight up deny anyone/become angry if someone says so otherwise #the phrase "do unto others' has heavy religious connotations but feels very displeased/livid when spoken throughout the song #steadily ramping up until it feels like a rage filled repetitive shout #the phrase means treat others how u want to be treated #but in both elq and q mind it would be the opposite bc in elq eyes the islanders/eggs wronged him while for q the federation did #“You did it unto me / And now I'm doin' it unto you” is very quackity-esque #he took his frustration of the federation out on fred and tubbo #calling tubbo a rat and kidnapping fred #the fact part 2 feels all jumbled and the words are breaking here and there is very quackity-esque after the fed brought him back #idk know why but q/elq with religious imagery is something neat to me i think its bc of the cross necklace/federation giving a certain vibe #sorry for tag rambling id rather not put in the actual post #/seed

[hergan416]

Image quality is going down because ebooks are no longer options at the library...but I have the physical volume 6!

Masquerade time!!

And uhhh...is Louis driving the carriage??

I understand that he might want to do this as someone Albert trusts for the mission, and it might not even matter to him.

I think about the way (dead, mean) William treated (our alive) William and Louis by refusing to drink tea served by someone of their station, lower than servants, and how much it means to Louis to have William drink his tea now.

But I also think about how most of the service and domestic tasks fall to Louis, probably because of the inherent assumption by noble society that he's at best an adopted noble and it makes me so so sad.

Why does Louis have to do these things his brothers do not?

And the answer is, he doesn't have to but they are able to be more secretive, accomplish more, etc. this way. But still my heart hurts about it.

It's complicated.

#louis james moriarty #moriarty the patriot #my thoughts are all over the place and jumbled up about this #i wonder what its like after the final problem...assuming things do get better #even if the labor ISNT disrespectful to louis then it should be something the others can do too #like i wonder if albert like...helps out after #just speculation ill get there eventually

[this-user-has-been-erased]

I feel like I'm the only person who doesn't like Ganondorf's design in TotK, especially his "Demon King" form. In my opinion he's not supposed to be 'sexy', he's supposed to be menacing. At least in TP his cool design kind of made up for his lack of character, as well as the fact that he's the same Ganondorf from OoT. In TotK he has no character and no actual motivation that isn't the most generic anime villain bs. Also, what was the deal with Calamity Ganon??? Where did the Sheikah tech actually go? Why did they get rid of the Sheikah Slate and the Shrine of Resurrection?

And, WHY are we relying so much on Zonai technology, after the Calamity destroyed the kingdom USING ANCIENT TECHNOLOGY??

#loz #totk critical #i have too many thoughts and theyre all jumbled sorry #also rauru and sonia and mineru to an extent are SO BLAND AND BORING OMFG #every character from totk is bland and boring actually including zelda who was actually interesting in botw #maybe im being irrational but i just WISH nintendo would put a little more care into loz and its lore #they dont need to stick to the timeline or whatever #nintendo fanboys can whine all they want but loz has lore and it has a universe that's been built up gradually and a lot of people like it #i get that loz games have never been very narrative-focused but that DOESNT mean they dont have meaningful stories and interesting worlds #and for the love of hylia PLEASE CONTINUE MAKING 2D LOZ GAMES PLEASE

[sereniv]

Now again, im saying this from a pretty detached place

as in its not me who is theoretically in danger in this specific sense

but the whole israel brainwashing narrative like whats taught in their schools is basically "palestinians are literally the equivalent to nazis and want to do everything the nazis want to do" etc etc.

So when getting in to the israeli zionist jewish mindset, one should be seeing it as Jews fighting nazis. Thats how supposedly they are brought up believing.

But idk. again it can be because i wasnt brought up with the same fears and stories of actual nazism and everything that would cause someone to hate with such...palpability?

But for me, as much as i hate fascism and nazis and bigots and the like, when i see a baby, a child, even one being brought up in a literal neonazi household, as in homeschooled on nazi values

I dont feel hate towards the child. i dont see them as not human. i wouldnt cheer for their death or even seek to kill them

at most, and generally, i would wish that baby being taken away from proven-to-be nazi indoctrination (as oppose to the supposed view israeli zionists have on palestinians)

But I see so many videos and writings of Israeli zionists (jewish specifically) that cheer for palestinian babies dying, that brag about killing toddlers or children.

And its not like they dont have access to other view points, to videos.

I just dont think its based in any type of fear like they like to claim. I think some yes, just like not all israelis are jewish nor zionist nor anti palestinian.

But from what ive seen i just dont buy that the zionist cilvilians are driven by fear that which they grew up being taught to feel- as is claimed

I think for a lot its an illusion of fear? Like theres the genuine fear of antisimetism which is true and real and as jewish people even zionists have every right to have that fear.

And then theres the fear they say they have of palestinians (and those fighting for palestine) that they say is nazi/antisemitism and THAT is where i think a lot of them are lying.

I think they accept that narrative but dont actually feel it. I dont think most feel the same fear they feel with real antisemitism.

And this is exluding actual antisemitism coming from pro palestine side which is definitely happening, and also excluding any true misinterpretation (which that sounds confusing but idk how to explain it. theres layers)

its like so much other evidence ive seen where its one sided attacks and hate in like, Jerusalem where settlers will attack anyone not jewish (like that video of the Christian being spat on which i dont believe was palestinian?)

bottom line, majority of zionists know what they are doing to a degree and dont care bc they have grown up as bigots.

Like white supremacists who "fear" for the white decline, who grow up as a bigot. They dont fear in the way one would actually fear oppression and eradication.

Does this make sense? can someone say it better

Also to be clear This blog is Pro Jewish, Israel is Antisimetic and doesnt speak for all Jews etc

#like so many talk of growing up with fear of palestinians #but then instead its just hate #i just cant imagine the stuff ive seen people say and boast about being rooted in fear #which i guess hate is fear wtvr but i mean like #idek if i can articulate best i dont have vocabulary #and i get that like the oppressed are allowes to celebrate the deaths of their oppressors. thats normal #but with information able to get. and like not to be all 'innocent babies and children' #but fr any child of any dictator or genocider or nazi or bigot i just feel bad for the child #even a toddler even a 12 year old who is fully indoctrinated. past 12 idk. its base by base #and like this whole thing is even more complicated when you think of reuabilitation #but overall so many signs point to just lies. so many fucking lies #and its making it worse for every other jew around the world. i mean among other obvious things like GENOCIDE #like antisimetism is a real fucking thing and it just seems like they are using it as a cover #each pro palestinian genocider. like fuck you. #i recognize im cozy up and privileged so my interpretation could be off #anyway #i really hope its understandble what im saying #and i hope someone can saynit better bc this is all jumbled #palestine

[narwhalandchill]

ok not to randomly go off on a somewhat negative ramble But. (general genshin story direction worries basically)

while there are a bunch of stunts i fear the genshin story slash lore could end up pulling that would serve as not only disappointments but to varying degrees also just retroactively ruin a lot of games writing for me. i dont think theres anything that im as genuinely concerned about as the possibility of like. completely losing their narrative marbles to an overdone time travel/temporal manipulation in one way or another like just the thought of that shit haunts me

bc like. while i dont find them particularly compelling as an argument for that to be the case regarding Everything in the narrative in current lore/theory circles (like. makoto n ei teaming up w istaroth once doesnt automatically establish universal time travel). it is unfortunately true that in canon lore there are many of the kind of lore pieces present that you could use to set that kind of reveal and complete restructuring of the story up. istaroth and the sacred sakura and some shady things said by various characters and how you could argue Any time loop or travel adjacent is just hidden by the irminsul 5head (another piece of writing whose potential misuse seriously alarms me, mind you). and so on.

and i am just. Not about any of that shit. like. for me absolutely any plot device or element that has the risk of fundamentally fucking up a storys continuity and coherence sideways to the degree BOTH the

"genshins gonna turn out to be ALL time travel/time loop/simulation to make [sudden endgame twist X heavily at odds with what was established in the central lore prior] appear sensible"

and

"celestia just irminsuls away all evidence for [that twist X again] so achsually it was always genius and compatible with lore"

tier of nightmare scenarios will have. is just. Not fucking worth it. this shit has ruined countless stories with vastly better writing and way more competent authors because its just. not the kind of stuff you can just insert in a massive fucking story willy nilly to explain away the mystery box you didnt bother to set up together so it ultimately comes together in a cohesive way that Doesnt need to be broken on multiple levels to scrape together some conclusion. and its just hhhhhhhhhhhhhh

and like ive never expected some massive masterpiece out of genshin like at best its gonna be one of those stories that once finished gets some really fucking banger fanwork as its community expands upon and explores a solid but flawed canon groundwork. theres fundamental flaws and limitations to its storytelling and format and that cant be helped. so im expecting no miracles on that front.

but the one fucking thing i dont want them to fall for is that misguided at best and outright pretentious and disrespectful at worst allure of. SEE! we outsmarted the audience! the theories! we broke our own story continuity to force a twist because our established worldbuilding technically makes it an option! isnt this smart!

like just please. no. no clue how unpopular this is but im already quite conflicted on the established use of irminsul in sumeru and how it arguably voided a lot of important characterization (nahidas inferiority complex) and narrative potential (scara literally becoming a non factor in the grander story more or less) for good but like. for now. fine. it hasnt become overused yet. i dont think its inherently bad as a factor of worldbuilding. i like how it recontextualizes fact and fiction and the significance of stories that appear mere fables in the world of teyvat. but as it stands the irminsul is still a deus ex machina. and thats a dangerous tool for any writer to have in careless use. and when combined with the sprinkles of lore involving the possibility of time manipulation and such to be further explored. its like powder and keg. two tools that can absolutely gut a story of its narrative cohesion and the weight of its stakes in an instant. its really fucking worrisome.

genshins writing is flawed but the one thing this game has going for it that i REALLY hope the writers will understand to respect is its world. how much the marriage between this massive and beautifully crafted immersive open world and the intricacies of lore and history afforded to all corners of it truly do in tandem to establish the world of genshin as more Real. as weightier. as a place you grow and remain attached to even when the main storys writing stumbles. the world is so important and to let it remain feeling real is just. i hope they understand how fragile of a gem that is.

featuring an artificial world order established by fraudulent divinity and that involving some degree of cosmic fuck-uppery of the natural order and all-encompassing illusion to maintain it is fine. this is a story heavily referencing gnosticism that theme is literally a given. but it needs to be an artificial world order imposed on a real world that remains feeling real the entire time through. and for that to be preserved it needs to remain grounded.

but the problem is that once a story truly commits to the "anything could be altered and fundamentally reversed with the right mcguffin at play with seeming impunity" there is no going back. it becomes very fucking difficult to keep the figurative feet of a narrative even touching the ground for even the most skilled of writers afforded absolute creative freedom to work with (which genshin does not have). and just that much more easier for the stakes to be lost completely. and i dont want to see that scenario become reality

#like. idk i wont speak as an authority in this bc i quit before the moon arc finished but #while it doesnt to my knowledge necessarily feature the exact kind of deus ex machina that i worry abt with genshins story #the impression i did get from the start of the arc that i attempted to play thru and just from overall hearsay #(and arguably these cracks started showing much earlier too anyway) #hi3rd kinda fell victim to this weightlessness of its world developing and what shouldve been a brilliant finale just #never landed as it could have. the story lost focus tje world became a jumble of new lore drop and wall of science jargon text after anothe #i genuinely couldnt keep up with the last few arcs. flamechasers were carried by their personalities and pink jesus but like. #writing and narrative wise? its highly questionable and a mess. anyway idk where exactly im going w this uhhhh ig that like #even the hoyo game (over. arguably)hyped the most for a good story ended up with this lackluster implosion of its weight n potential #and reveived mixed response (afaik again) or had ppl outright quitting like myself bc it just wasnt pulling my heart in anymore #anyway i do have plenty of other gripes w genshins writing n other fears but this ones just the biggest one. all the others are like #more subjective and less all encompassing in how badly they would affect the rest of the story #in the end this is just random rambling and me being paranoid abt what to me is the worst case scenario #lets hope im wromg and if uou read all this bullshit get a sticker HSJSJSKFKSK 😭😭 #genshin #rambles #long post

[savethepinecones]

sometimes you gotta go sit on the porch in the middle of the night and stare at the stars for half an hour or so

#its been a rough week ngl #starting to think my biggest roadblock to happiness is just how suffocatingly lonely i am idk #and its all tangled and confused #im starting to think im aromantic idk #like i dont necessarily want a partner in the romantic sense #but the idea of having someone who youre committed to and is committed to you in turn is very appealing #idk i think i want something more along the lines of a qpr #its just tough because ive never really been interested in dating or whatever and i thought that meant i was happy to just be by myself #but im starting to think thats not quite accurate #and its terrifying because i have no idea how to reach for something like that #dont mind me rambling its 1 am and i didnt take my meds yesterday so im a bit jumbled i think #this is unrelated to the rest of this but for a minute i thought about taking up smoking so id have a reason to go outside more often #idk like i said its been a weird week

[cascadiiing]

Obligatory clarification that I just like Kody's voice he makes me fall asleep 😭😭😭

#who ARE THESE PEOPLE WHY DONT I EVEN RECOGNIZE THESE NAMES A LITTLE BIT #also im just not super into the freelancer storyline i think if i was id like caelum and lasko and huxley more! #throwback to when i listened to sams playlist and was like ‘i should listen to the other vampire (frederick) next’ and then like a week- #-passed and i finally sat down to listen to them and they were gone 😭😭😭😭 #these are kind of a mess pls dont look too hard into it i rated some on voice and some on storyline and its all jumbled idk man AKDJD #like somehow ivan ended up higher than david and milo???? ive only listened to ivan once i just like his voice a lot aksnskd #this does not work as a comprehensive favorites list other than the three i marked as favs #who is josh nate and brian #and matt #redacted asmr #redactedverse #blue rambles

[guideaus]

trigun is so funny bc i love it, but also a lot of things in it's timeline kind of isnt clear. its not even intentionally like that, too, its not fucking pluto or whatever lol

#personal #i was gonna make a post abt conrad but then i stopped and thought abt it and i was like. wait why is he alive FJSJFD #i dont mean this as a crticism btw but also theres no like. wiki timeline page lol #its a sci-fi that doesnt give all the info away immediately (but not as slow as the anime) and has flashbacks and also inhuman characters #and characters whose age doesnt reflect their appearance #also the fact it has 2 diff adaptations off trimax where events are jumbled around #plants/zazie arent human. manga wolfwood speedran adulthood and tristamp ww got magic adult juice. pre fall humans came outta the icebox #but i think abt conrad and i dont know... is there an answer or would u have to come up w theories lol #i am 100% serious lol. am i confused or what. why is he alive in trimax's present time #help