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wen-kexing-apologist · 1 year

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Heart's Vocalization Thoughts and Feelings

Hello and welcome to another round of Moonlight Chicken Posts That Literally No One @respectthepetty Specifically Asked For:

Heart Edition Round ?? i've lost count.

Mx. RTP may have gotten me hooked on red/blue through clothing but my first and truest love will always be lighting so I need everyone, but especially Professional Life Ruin-er Formerly Known as "Petty" (you're my best friend now, sorry I don't make the rules), to understand that this specific lighting ruined my life. Like on a cellular level, my body is a wasteland, my mind will never recover. Stepping in from the outside world, from Heart's world, Heart's life, Heart's home in to the rich, red, warmth of Li Ming's world, Li Ming's home. I've said it before, but I'll say it again, if my memory serves me correctly we never see Heart in warm lighting until the end of Episode 4, and we definitely don't see Heart in red lighting until Episode 5. Up until this point when Li Ming and Heart are together, there is always blue lighting on them, and especially when they are in Heart's home there is always a blue wash on the whole scene. So finally, finally we get red lighting babyyyyyy, fuck yeah!

Ok, sorry, I'm normal again.

Initial thoughts going in to the actual scene are as follows: 1. Stripes, my beloved! 2. Heart is so head over heels for Li Ming it's ridiculous.

Anyway, I love the small little smile that Heart has on his face here when Li Ming is essentially giving him an 'I told you so' to Heart about asking his Mom. I know that Li Ming sees Heart earlier on in the episode, but he isn't present for the conversation between Li Ming and his mother so regardless of whether he knows that Li Ming talked to her, I don't think he knows the specifics. But he follows this comment up with "You're smart. You can persuade her." Obviously he knows that something happened because Heart's mother has never listened to her son before, why would she start now?

So! Much! Red! Lighting! They are in love your honor. I am so grateful for every moment we get to see of Li Ming and Heart alone together having fun. They may be on the edge of adulthood, but there is still so much repressed youth in them that has been dying to get out and can't because it's been contained by parental shame, by the need to work to survive, by the nature of generational gaps and unsuccessful attempts to protect your loved ones.

When Heart and Li Ming are by themselves (with the exception of the post confrontation mental breakdown session in Ep. 5) there is so much joy between them. And look at Li Ming, he is so proud of himself here, for successfully persuading Heart's mother to let Heart leave the house. They don't have to sneak out anymore, Heart's parents are finally starting to understand that they can't make their son problem go away if they just keep Heart cooped up.

Once again like father-figure uncle like nephew, Li Ming has found himself a love interest that is also obsessed with the family cat. Honestly, this cat is living the dream, all he has to do all day is be held for approximately 30 seconds and get fed a fuck ton of treats. So far this scene is just very cute, Heart taking in his surroundings, attaching himself immediately to the cat, absolutely bathed in red light. And there is something so simple I love about the set up this moment brings to the important turning point that immediately follows...

Heart's holding the cat with both his hands. He can't text or sign.

Side Note: I am curious if Thai sign language has finger spelling.

And here we go! Heart speaks, not just vocalizes, it's not an exclamation of surprise, it's not a shuddering breath, or a sob. It's not a squeak or random sound Heart makes because he can't hear how loud he is being. Up until this point, every time we have heard a sound from Heart it has been unintentional. This is the first time we hear Heart speak. And importantly, he doesn't have to. He doesn't have to say anything. There isn't anything urgent, nothing that would require a sound to get Li Ming's immediately attention. He doesn't need to say Jimbo's name, literally right before this he looked at Li Ming and pointed to the cat. He could have ended the acknowledgement there. But he doesn't. He speaks. And he absolutely does not look at Li Ming while he does it. He keeps his eyes trained firmly on the cat in front of him.

I stole this gif from @earthpirapat because I don't know how to make them, and because I need anyone who reads this to see Li Ming's reaction in this moment. He is also looking at Jimbo, because he, like the audience, believes that Heart is going to end his acknowledgement of the cat's name by pointing to the cat. Li Ming is content to watch his friend play with his cat, and that's all he is expecting. Until "yyim-" tickles his ear, and Li Ming's head snaps straight up to Heart's face. You can tell how surprised he is at the way he pulls his head back a bit more to really look at Heart. To make sure that what just happened is actually real when he says "bo".

And I think it's important to know that Heart does not really seem hesitant to speak. He just...does it. What he is hesitant to do is look at Li Ming. He waits a full two seconds after he's said "Jimbo" to look up from the cat he is holding in his arms.

But he has nothing to worry about because when his eyes go to Li Ming, what does he see?

A puppy dog of a man, radiating excitement. Li Ming is beaming. It's funny to me a little bit that the thought has never seemed to cross Li Ming's mind that Heart, who only went deaf three years ago, is actually able to speak. But nevertheless he is thrilled.

"You can speak?" he asks, and he's chuckling a little and pausing and you can see all the gears in his head turning as he signs because it's like his whole worldview just got rocked. And GOD I love this moment so much because from the second that Heart speaks Li Ming's eyes never leave Heart. Or if they do it is literally an unconscious thing that is happening when he's trying to remember his signs. Heart puts Jimbo down and Li Ming literally folds his body in half, to follow Heart's movement, bends over to tap him on the shoulder. "Hey, you can speak?" he says again.

"Yeah? Can you speak again? I want to hear." he asks, and he's baffled. He's losing his signs. Like he is signing successfully to Heart, sure, but it's taking him much longer to create his sentence than it normally does because he's still in such shock over what just happened. That Heart can speak, that he heard his voice. His brain cannot keep up with his emotions.

The face of a man verrryyyy skeptical that his voice would be that exciting for anyone to hear.

"I"

"Want"

"To Hear"

"Your Voice"

I have no thoughts. I have no notes for this. It is just an incredibly powerful moment to me in furthering Li Ming as a safe zone for Heart, as someone trusted and precious. Each sign is deliberate. This is a deliberate request. This isn't a question built on surprise, "wait wait do it again" this is specific. "I want to hear your voice"

Look how pleasantly surprised Heart is. Look how happy, how bewitched he is in this moment. A few weeks back, I wrote a post analyzing Heart's communication. At the time I wrote it, I was doing a lot of speculating about Heart and his ability to talk and what it meant for the character if he could versus if he couldn't. The tl;dr version was me essentially wondering how much agency Heart has over his own isolation. Is he capable of talking and chooses not to to test the people around him, maintaining control of his own isolation, with speaking as a lifeline, or because Thai is a tonal language did he lose the ability to speak because not being able to hear might impede his ability to make distinct tones. Either way he has the ability to talk, it's a matter of whether or not he could be understood if he did vocalize his words.

I got a pretty quick reply from @littlederxxnged with a link to this Tweet quoting P'Aof and Heart's voice:

And if this quote is real, if the reason Heart doesn't speak is because he lacks the confidence to, this makes the scene all the more important and all the more wonderful for me. Because it's showing us, the audience, that Li Ming makes Heart feel confident. Li Ming makes Heart brave.

And I love that I don't get a sense of fear from Heart in any of this. Surprise? Yes. Confusion? Yes. Skepticism? A bit. Hesitation? Absolutely. But it doesn't seem to come from a place of fear. Heart is not afraid of using his voice around Li Ming, and he is never afraid of what Li Ming's reaction will be. He certainly has no idea what Li Ming's reaction will be, but it shows how much trust these two have built in one another, that Heart feels safe enough with Li Ming to test his voice.

I don't know if Heart will speak again the show. I don't care if he does. Speaking is not his primary language anymore and he doesn't owe his voice to anyone. I just want to establish that before I say I find it so much more special that Heart says his own name, rather than Li Ming's here. Why? Because the way I interpret Heart's character at this point is a man who is far more certain about what he wants out of life, now that he is able to live his life again. We get to hear Heart's name, we get to hear Heart speak for himself.

Something really cute about this moment as well is Li Ming's reaction. "I heard you just say your name!" I love that he signs to Heart what he heard. I love it so much. We know that Heart is hesitant to speak, and it takes him a second to get the word out, and I'm sure he can feel the vibrations of his vocal chords when he says his name, but he can't hear it. Li Ming is SO obviously happy, so obviously thrilled.

But this is about Heart, Li Ming's feelings have nothing to do with it. Okay, Li Ming's feelings have everything to do with it for Heart. But Li Ming's initial, gut-reaction response to hearing Heart, hesitantly say his name, is to hype the ever-loving FUCK out of that boy.

"You're great! You're awesome! How can you speak? You're so great. I'm happy." and GOD Heart can't even hear him say it. Li Ming isn't signing here, I mean he is very obviously happy, and very obviously showering Heart in praise. But Heart cannot hear him. For most of the hug he can't even read Li Ming's lips. But the pride, the joy, the excitement is so palpable. He's jumping up and down, you don't really need to hear his words to feel how happy he is about what just happened.

He pulls back "How could you do it? I'm happy. Can you see? I'm so happy," He is talking so fast. He is talking so so fast. He cannot contain himself. But he has integrated himself so much into Heart's life, that despite the fact that he is fully forgetting to sign here, he is touching Heart, he is jumping up and. down with Heart, he is showing Heart how much being trusted with his voice means to him.

Sweet baby angel, you are talking so fast. He sees a bunch of words coming out of your mouth but does not hear what you are saying. And he looks confused because he definitely did not anticipate this strong of a positive reaction to just saying his name. Especially when you consider he isn't confident in his voice. He looks confused because he almost certainly did not anticipate this outcome.

(Ignore the subtitles on that second picture, focus on Heart's smile)

Does Heart owe us his voice? No. Did we ever need to know if he could speak? No. Does this moment hit particular hard after the confrontation scene last episode concerning the use of the term "mute" in reference to Heart. Absolutely. We saw how much it hurt Heart to learn his mother refers to him as mute.

We know Heart has to beg Li Ming to even tell him what she said, Heart can see how much Li Ming hesitated to deliver that blow. He saw how strongly Li Ming was standing against his parents, he's a smart kid. He might not be able to follow the full conversation cause it's happening quickly, and they are shouting which fucks with lip shape to read lips, and Li Ming and his mother are both facing away from him. But he knows his mother said something bad, he knows Li Ming defended him.

It is so so so so so SO important to me that Heart decides to speak in this moment. That he uses his voice casually, to say a cat's name, in private, with just the two of them.

Heart's voice is not a commodity, it's not a novelty. It's a gift. And Li Ming treats it as such. Heart is being vulnerable with Li Ming. Heart hasn't spoken to anyone in three years, and when he does speak in front of Li Ming for the first time Li Ming literally cannot contain his joy. I love how many times the camera cuts to Heart's face in this, to show us to tell us that Heart loves this. That he is surprised by it, but that he is more than happy to speak again, that he is smiling the whole time because he knows how important it is to Li Ming. Because it's important to him too.

If you finished this whole post, congratulations you have won an invisible medal.

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otomelavenderhaze · 10 months

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I can't stop thinking about the cave dialogue in which Rayan talks about Chloé, his ex wife, therefore I went back to read whole scene back from University Life episode 8, because what Rayan describes in episode 17 of LL is too diferent from that UL episode and from everything I could remember about it.

It's not to say that I caught some sort of insane discrepancy and AHÁ!

It's more because I find it interesting and I thought maybe others would find it interesting as well. So first I wanna show you what Rayan says in episode 8 of UL (which I never translated before until this post):

In my playthrough of it, back in the day, I asked him directly if he have a wife, which he answers yes first and then the proceeds to talk about it...

"And she will forever be my wife. But the last time we saw each other was seven years ago. Already… seven years… My wife, Chloé, died seven years ago. In a terrorist attack. Some savages came in shooting. No fixed target. In shop windows, in people and even in children."

"There were many wounded, and fortunately few dead. But Chloé is one of those who didn't survive… All that happened seven long years ago. It took me time. At first I didn't want to move. I wanted to keep everything, the smallest memory."

Now why I am showing this 4 panells?

This is important to understand how she died, how sad Rayan showed us to be about her death and his attachment towards Chloé.

He even goes as far to say:

"We met in high school and we got married at 23, in a hurry. We didn't tell anyone. But I'm not going to lie to you and say that everything was all roses."

Candy asks him, how so?

"We often quarreled. We stayed together for a long time, we didn't get to know anyone but each other and, sometimes, we even doubted. But when she left… I was torn apart."

Now we will never know why they used to fight, what made them marry so young and so quickly to the point where he implies they didn't even had a wedding ceremony.

Which makes this difficult to understand what compelled both of them to take such actions - maybe they they were just impulsive, but without a reason behind such impulsivity it's hard to tell if it was warrant or not.

But then, the actual panel that made me do this post in the first place eventually comes up in that same conversation with Candy:

"I loved her with all my soul. Before anything else, she was my best friend. But, sorry… I opened up too much…"

And I believe he did, regardless of anything else, because it makes sense for Rayan's character to marry someone for love.

That's the kind of "person" he is, that's why when he falls for Candy, he's ready to assume so many risks and even later talks about leaving his job for her just so they could have a less tense relationship.

This sets up him to be someone that would intensily love another person and do everything for them - they being Chloé or Candy.

I could say this is actually the point of that whole conversation: to show that he isn't someone that takes love lightly or shallowly, which helps us readers to trust his intentions and to believe that, yes, for love he would indeed be honorable, truth and passionate, instead of a player or a man that just wants to have fun with one of his students.

Not mentioning that he presents himself as a tortured soul that lost a wife tragically and never fell in love ever since, but falls in love for you, the reader, because you're special and irreplaceable, is something very flattering and, even, I dare say, romantic.

Meow meow is sad and you're the only one who can fix that for him.

Personally, I don't like how mcl writes grief, I don't think they know how to dose it without losing their hand, so it comes off as shallow for me, but I guess it serves as another thing: Chloe was loved by Rayan, but Candy needs to be special. The player needs to feel special.

Which brings us to this part of the conversation:

"Every women had something of her own. I saw her everywhere. And yet, it's been seven years. Since then, I have been unable to get involved with another woman, in a new relationship. Even in a simple friendship."

"Until… I met you. I don't know… For the first time, I met someone who has none of her. For the first time, I felt entitled not to think about her."

I understand why in an otome game is important to get the romance right and make the player feel compelled to play the character's route, after all, who wouldn't want to feel special, even if it's only on a game - that's why we have so many MCs or main characters in videogames that are heroes, that cares of others or the place they belong to.

However, I will say, maybe they should've worded it differently, maybe it's not so much about feeling entitled to not think about her, but when I realized, I wasn't searching for her traits on you, I wasn't thinking about her anymore, I was ready to move on. But this is just how I would've done it, just so it would come from Rayan the agency of the "healing" - in another words, he had healed himself before he met Candy and falling in love with her was just another evidence of that.

Which brings us back to episode 17 of Love Life, our Honeymoon episode (and pay attention to the parts that I will mark in blue):

"Y'know, I honestly didn't think I would get over losing her. And then after you got in my classroom and into my life. So, yes, I should have a star up there shining for me. Because, with you, I understood the meaning of true love. And it wasn't the same of what I had with Chloé."

"Sometimes, I think, if the story/timeline was another, if I had met you first before I met her... She and I would've been simply friends, without anything else between us. If fate hadn't been so cruel with her, it would've ended like that anyway, actually. I think she would have been happy to see me so happy these days."

"Just like I would have been in seeing her meeting someone else just as important as you're for me. And when I think of her today, is in this way: as a friend that left too soon. And that, of course, I still get a little with my heart tight. She was someone wonderful/beautiful. There's still some of her in me. But, when I met you, I was like a ghost."

Only Rayan to friendzone the dead.

"Thanks to you and our love, she just became a beautiful star, just like my father..."

At first I thought he was saying that he never really loved Chloé and that Candy made him realize that (How? Don't ask me, he doesn't say how), but thinking about this post and re-reading everything made me rethink my first impression of it.

It's not so much that he didn't loved Chloé, but admittedly, and for reasons that Rayan didn't say, he thought love was something else and he thought he loved her because of that notion, and then his notion of love changed because he met Candy and now he thinks that love is truly what he feels for Candy.

I, as someone that played all of his route, can't really say or even figure out how he would've come up with that reasoning.

Was it because for the first time ever, he had put someone else on his top priority, or at least in a more important position than his reputation and career (which he deeply cares for)? But wasn't he a passionate person to begin with? So isn't it natural for him, once he was sure he fell in love for Candy, to put her as his top priority?

Was it Candy presence alone in his life, simply being there, what made him create that notion? How she taught him that?

I don't know, because the way they fell in love was pretty quick and pretty normal I would dare say - normal not in the sense of, he was her teacher, normal in the sense there was nothing remarkable about their dates, the way they sneak around or in their conversations.

I think if he had realize that falling in love with someone new meant that he had "healed" from his past trauma, that he only had feelings for her because he was ready to have feelings for someone again and the sense of normalcy and easiness he felt in being with her was all he ever wanted after going through so much sadness and heartbreak, then, it would make more sense and sound more realistic, maybe?

But again, they wanted to spin that Candy was special, she needed to be the one that changed him, that was like gravity to him and he could not resist the pull of her.

“... It's just that, with you, I never got under the impression of playing any kind of game. Because I had a lot to lose. Before I met you, I had accepted to never love again. I didn’t want to ever risk lose someone ever again... And, above all, you came to enroll in my course. I looked up and knew that my certainties were worthless...” (episode 14 LL)

That's why I talked about his career before.

They set up Rayan to be someone that loves his work, that cares about his reputation and his career, if not, as he only thing he had since he moved away from his family and was living alone.

Risk it all for Candy was to show that he wasn't playing, he wasn't just trying to get a kick out of it.

And knowing how he got after when Marina actually got him fired, how much of a mess it made him, this put things even more in context, it shows that truly, risk it all for her was no joke, even thou, they used to be pretty reckless about it (never gonna forget their first kiss, crazy, both of them).

Which brings me to one of my favorite parts of dialogue in Rayan's route, episode 15 LL, the marriage proposal dialogue:

"It’s funny... for a long time I thought that love was like a burning fire. And I even thought that, in my case, all that was left was ashes of it. Until I met you and I understood that I didn’t know anything. That I have got it wrong in my whole life. With you, I understood that love is like a stream/flow. A wave that breaks again and again without stopping. And that drags everything wherever it goes. You imposed yourself on me like an evidence. In the calm. I knew it right away. But I only understood it this well later on."

Think that love was like a burning fire: it lights up, it shines bright, it consumes itself, then it becomes ashes and there's nothing left of it.

Ouch, Rayan. 😢

Not to mention the destructive nature of fire, but I don't think Rayan or the person who wrote this scene thought it like that necessarily, I think it had more to do with how fragile and how it consume itself, which feels more how like I would expect from how Rayan described his relationship with Chloé before: intense, too quick to think everything through, the fighting, the feeling that it wouldn't last anyway.

Meanwhile Candy is like a strong wave or a strong stream, his love for her dragged everything with it: all his reasoning, his principles and scruples, the risk of losing his reputation, his career, AND breaking again and again, because it didn't matter if he had build any walls to keep her out in the begining, she somehow brought it all down.

Two kinds of love, one feeling less truth and lasting than the other.

While it would've better, in his head, to have remain just a friendship with Chloé, with Candy, there was no way for it to have ended just in friendship, it would always be more.

You can see the contrast between his feelings for Chloé and his feelings for Candy, how it was different and the key word should always be different.

It surprised me to see him talking about their wedding too, Rayan and Chloé married young and in a hurry (we will never know why), meanwhile, Rayan found Candy in a stage of his life when love wasn't even in the table and when it finally came back to the table, Rayan wanted everything, he wanted celebrate it having a proper wedding ceremony and all.

But those are little subtle things that they left out in the air, instead of saying it so clearly like they did so many times before.

Personally, I don't think would've make any sense for Rayan's character to haven't love Chloé, considering they built a life together before he even met Candy, the same way, I don't think we could've ever thought that Rayan loved Chloé more or even the same way he loved Candy.

Cuz, Chloé and Candy not only met him in different moments of his life BUT ALSO, they totally two different women, it would go without saying it.

But I guess, they wanted to make it even more screaming that it was the case, which I can understand why.

I mean, people thought that Rayan had really tried something with Marina, outside of his route: which for those people I always told it would be impossible.

It would go against what they presented to us about him during that first dialogue in episode 8 of UL and it would represent a contradiction in the writing itself. It would bend the rules that they set themselves to follow too grotesquely. Not to mention, MCL never gave other love interests to the Lis that stayed on the side lines.

Unless, of course, they had set things up that we would understand that Marina was such a special existence is moving like Candy - which, okay, I could've accepted it, but they didn't so. That's why I was so sure of it.

Y'know, have to read so much back in his route to make this post made saying goodbye to his route so hurtful but also so fulfilling, I always loved how they wrote him, despite having my criticisms, I am happy that I got to experience Rayan's route from the start to end.

If you haven't played his route like ever, I totally I encourage you to do it now that we got it all. xD

#my candy love #amour sucre #amor doce #corazon de melon #my candy love university life #my candy love love life #mclul #mcl #mclll #Rayan #May #personal #big post #screenshots #screenshot

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altidiya · 4 months

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About Distortions and Mothers (and trans daughters)

One thing I have been thinking for the Project Moon Westmarches I'm GM, is about Distortions... and mothers. Mostly me trying to write down how I understand a character, so my Virgil can say if I understand her well or not.

This is because one of the PCs is in fact a girl that distorted and her mother wanted to weaponize it instead of, like, care.

The story of Syzygy [@cataphractastrophe beautiful character] and Hyde...

My interpretation has been always that, at least until Limbus destroy me saying that it happens like a week after LoR, the Distortion phenomena is something that no one is complete aware what it is, people can confuse Distortions with Monster or weird augmentation, and that EGO is so rare that probably people still react like Roland asking what Workshop create such an amazing design.

This is important because lack of knowledge means curiosity and investigation. And something I really loved on Canto IV was the idea of Corporations having interest on it. Trying to decipher through the scientific method something inherently emotional and unstable.

Dr. Hyde is one scientist that is trying to do that from below. A woman so obssess with understanding the world, to eliminate any ounce of ignorance. And egocentric enough to see each person that isn't in her intellectual and zealot level as a ignorant Rat.

This woman create life in lab with the porpuse of experimentation. This woman became a mother not by accident, not by wanting, not by love. But by a clear cut objective. A son result of scientific objectives.

Jervas -her son- was, in that sense, a man without a soul. Not only in a metaphysical sense if someone created artificially without the normal process of birth has a soul or not -he still human by the definitions of the Head-, but because the experience of finding porpuse was taken from him. Different to everyone else that has a journey to understand why they exist, he was created with a porpuse, and that porpuse was to serve.

And Hyde only cared about that objective. Even if there is love to creation, that love is tainted with ego, with the idea of "I made that".

But what is already a somewhat interesting backstory for a TTRPG, meets with one thing about Project Moon: On the face of trauma, a cute girl talk to your head. Jervas distorts, dies, and birth anew as Syzygy, the girl of fire. Hyde naturally doesn't see it that way, for she, Jervas simply survive a very weird process, an unknown process, and Syzygy doesn't exist. Because Syzygy wasn't created with an objective, she born, and for that, she has the human experience of ignorance. And for that, she can't be Hyde's son.

I will admit, I'm in love with the idea of representing the struggles of families that don't accept the transition of their sons and daugthers with the PM detail that, Hyde isn't transphobic herself, she couldn't care less, what she reject is the idea that the body she created has another identity and name.

Because, at the end of the day, Jervas future was clear. Syzygy future is a mystery. And Hyde hates mysteries.

Then we got to the symbolism of Jervas/Syzygy Distortion and the relationship (at least on my head) with Hyde:

The Phoenix dies and rebirth on a cycle of unknowing. Ignorance is a essential part of the process, not knowing what will happen once one rebirth. This is, basically, a total opposition to Hyde, who wants to understand and know everything. Uncertainty is a sin, and dying without knowing what comes next is for Hyde, the worst nightmare. The maximum defiance is abandon self preservation for a non-sure answer. In that, Jervas dies, and Syzygy is born without a clear path.

But, why it is a Distortion then? Because the focus of Jervas was dying, the end, escape. Hyde leash still present on the Distortion as Jervas path to self destruction isn't about embracing uncertainty, but the lack of care for it. And maybe even worst, obtaining an answer to that uncertainty.

The path to liberation of Hyde's true leash is, then, embracing uncertainty and lack of knowledge. Maybe not the path to E.G.O., but clearly the path to finally break free from her presence on the mind of Syzygy, who is hunting her after the incident.

Hyde, on the other hand, has discover something more unkown and interesting than her previous investigation: The Distortion Phenomena. A weapon, for sure, not different to trained dogs on her mind. But something that is hard to replicate. That only her creation can do. And Hyde, as always, want answers above all else.

And that is what has me excited writing notes about what can happen. Hyde isn't the only one that doesn't like ignorance, and some powerful factions can be very interested on uncovering the truth about this weird phenomena.

TL;DR: Mothers can make you Distort, Syzygy says Yes to Trans Rights, and "no thoughts, head empty" is the true way to confront your scientific minded abusive mother.

#headcanon #library of ruina #project moon #limbus company #ttrpg

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mochilorddrakeinferno · 4 months

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Greetings, I hope that you are well: I'm very interested in your Dimentio/Merloo theory. It is a great theory, and I think it works quite well as I believe it ties in quite a few loose ends and serves a wonderful further contrast between Dimentio and Bleck's characters, though there are a few points I would like to enquire about towards the theory:

Does the theory pose that Merloo IS the son of the Master Magician if Dimentio is Merloo, if that's the case, wasn't the son not heard from again after the accident? The usage of "some say" presents the survival of the son is ambigiuous so...Wouldn't the people know that Merloo is the magician's son if he is presented as important enough to get a stain-glass window?

Is the prognositicus directly stated to be difficult to decipher? I understand that the Light prognosticus would be difficult to transcribe as it was activley written. But who actually wrote the dark prognosticus? And when was it actually made? "But no person after obtaining this amazing book ever found happiness". The fact that obtain is used here possibly suggests to me that anyone who had the book in their possession never found happiness and to me that implies that there isn't an "old language" barrier needed to be crossed for the Dark Prognosticus to be read. The Light prognosticus was written by the ancients to counter the prexistimng Dark Prognosticus, so to me it makes sense that the Light Prognosticus would need to be deciphered to understand, but not the Dark. I may be missing something though.

This would imply to me that Dimentio still could have stolen the Prognosticus when the count wasn't looking, even if he wasn't Merloo, and still would have been able to read it.

(I wouldn't be surprised though if the writer (Co writer Merloo) who wrote the light prognosticus by using the Dark Prognosticus this measure likely DID go insane having to read the Dark Prognosticus and transcribe it in his language thoughm, the hypnotic - And that does make me ask why Merlumina didn't go insane if she ALSO contributed to the writing of the dark prognosticus but this is a bit off topic-)

If none of the ancients in the bridge between Flipside/Flopside are alive anymore, only their descendants, is there direct evidence of the lifespans that could dictate that could Merloo still be alive? You make the point of "the public had have had no way to know of the Pixl Queen until the uprising of 1,000 years later". Please can you explain the evidence of this towards the ancients being able to live at least 1,000 years? I probably missed something when going over Carson's dialogue- You also mentioned that the apprentice had lived for at least 1,000 years. Is there direct proof of this within the game?

Is there much direct symbolism between Merloo and Dimentio? As you touched on in the Lore wiki, the visual ties and pallete are very weak, and symbolism across the type characters in that respect doesn't seem to viable. Even though the painting has Dimentio's colours, the painting also has other colours in the background that aren't affiliated with him. Had Merloo any symbol of a diamond, or any design connection of the sort, I think the connection maybe be a little bit stronger?-

"Oh, and some say the son of the magician miraculously recovered from the accident. If so, the bloodline of the magician could endure... Did they find happiness? Or otherwise..." Was this line different in the Japanese verssion to refer specifically to the son finding happiness? Doesn't this alter the meaning of the line quite a bit?

I think that the theory is a unique and interesting approach to Dimentio's characater and makes him seem far more interesting, and honestly I'd love to see it being official lore for the character, though, when comparing how the rest of the game presents its lore, the theory seems a bit...farfetched, even with the abundance of evidence provided.

When looking at how lore is generally presented in the game, the lore seems a bit...Scattered..outside of Count Bleck and Timpani's as well as some of the direct lore you can find in locations like King Crocaus's castle detailing the stories of his family tree and the glass window section of Flipside's main Co-founders/contributors. The rest of the lore practically comes exclusivley from Carson and is relativey... Easy to put together, so to speak.

I have no doubt that the writers wanted to tie in Dimentio with the Magician son part of the theory, as the term "magician" has been used to describe his character and I certainly agree that Merloo is connected to his character a least in some way as he also uses dimensional magic and has the key word "magician" to determine him and as there are no descendants of Merloo present, but that lack of really any noteworthy visual connection and the way the other lore is generally presented is one of the few reasons why I think him actually being Merloo might not have been the intention despite how good the theory is?

Apologies for the ask and I hope that you have a nice day!

Glad you asked, and happy to answer! This will be a very long one. So long in fact that it broke the character limit again, so it's Google Doc link time again. https://docs.google.com/document/d/1eLguKB4Guepv55BkRF0i3U98_2ObJ3SVWAHETEDjptQ/edit Enjoy!

#super paper mario #mario lore #dimentio #merloo #dark prognosticus #dimentio is merloo theory #merlumina #drake rants

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nikialexx · 1 year

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very very tired of trying to engage with TLOU fandom only to encounter more Hot Takes about how certain episodes (and we all know which episodes) are 'boring' or 'unnecessary' or, perhaps most frustrating all, 'woke propaganda' so here is my take on it all.

first off, i really do think that all of these people need to take a crash course in the difference between a piece of media being 'woke' and something which simply showcases the existence of people who are not white, male, and/or straight.

but with specific reference to TLOU i think it's particularly exhausting because all of the criticism I've seen of episode 3 and episode 7 are that it doesn't advance the plot which- fair point, it doesn't, but this completely ignores the fact that storytelling is not solely devised from good plot execution and that it also heavily relies on things such as theme, characterization (this includes backstory), allegory, symbolism- all of which are pivotal aspects of these episodes.

and i think that if you lack the intellectual capacity and the media literacy to recognize these things and understand their importance- well first of all you shouldn't be watching the show at all, because it clearly wasn't made for you. but you especially shouldn't be criticizing it.

ep.3 for example, seems to me that is serves the same functional purpose as the direction that the game took Bill's storyline. Bill in the game was a cautionary tale, and in the show he was an aspirational one. But the impact he had on Joel was the exact same: he served as a reminder of the difference between surviving and living, a reminder that the most important thing you can do is to keep your loved ones close, a reminder that the world isn't all bad, even if it seems like it is, and that shutting yourself off from it in an attempt to avoid pain will only prevent you from embracing the good things. Bill's relationship to Frank is, functionally, the same as Joel's relationship to Tess and Ellie. Joel shut himself off from Tess and in the process likely missed out on what could have been a very good thing, and Bill and Frank and the example that they set is what gave Joel the push he needed not to make that same mistake with Ellie.

The changes that the show made to Bill's storyline is exactly what a good adaptation should do.

which brings me to my second issue with all the criticism: it also ignores the fact that this is not the video game, it as an adaptation. the purpose of an adaptation is to explore aspects of the story (note that this is not the same thing as plot!!) that the original source couldn't/didn't. It is meant to delve deeper into the story (note!! that this is not!! the same thing as plot!!) than the original source did. it's meant to be an alternative, updated take. it isn't meant to a shot-for-shot reenactment. if you want the exact same story that the game gave you with nothing added in and nothing taken out- that's great! good for you! go play the game and leave the rest of us alone. because why are you really here if you can't understand that film is a different media format entirely and that yes, it should play to its specific strengths.

furthermore:

ep.7 was not a 'filler' episode. It was an episode that explored Ellie's backstory (a particularly important backstory btw, given Joel's remarks in ep.6 that Ellie doesn't know what loss is. this episode showed us that yes, she very much does). And by doing that, it cemented her reasons for being so determined to find the fireflies and let herself be experimented on in hope of getting a cure (this, children, is what we refer to as a character motivation. It's a pretty important thing). It gave us insight into what Ellie's life was like before Joel- because, you know, she is her own goddamm character that can and should be able to exist without him.

and it's particular insidious to me that so many people are blacklisting this episode because 'it sidelined Joel' when, and I cannot stress this enough, Ellie is also a main character. She is arguably the main character. This isn't The Joel Show. If you can't stand to watch a 50 minute episode that focuses on Ellie, then why are you even here? Ellie's story is important to her, her loss of Riley is important to her, just as Joel's loss of Sarah is important to him, and both of those things deserved the screentime that they got. Ellie is not 'filler', you misogynistic dumbasses.

And from what I've seen, one of the most notable aspect of TLOU game has always been its focus on story (do I need to say it again? yes i do. this is NOT the same thing as plot), characterization, and the intimate relationships between the characters. So why did anyone start watching the show if all they wanted to see were guns and zombies. Go somewhere else. This clearly isn't for you.

#the last of us #tlou #i'm tired. can you tell i'm tired #the hatred of Ellie from the dudebros is so sickening #why are you SO incensed about a 14 year old girl's sexuality that you'd make a 20 minute video ranting about it #you are pushing 40. go away #“it's boring” to YOU #some of us aren't brain dead #and DON'T think i've forgotten how the same people were saying Bella wasn't attractive enough to play Ellie #she is a whole child!! you are a grown man!!#go AWAY!!!!#ok i'm done

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genshin-impacted · 3 years

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empress of the first water // Zhongli x Reader (4)

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Palace/Harem Imperial Drama AU: You are a princess, soon-to-be-Empress, and Zhongli is the teacher invited by the royal court to show you the ropes before you ascend to the throne after a royal tragedy.

Notes: female!reader (she/her), Zhongli/Reader, Zhongli POV, mutual pining ofc, fake politics, can I call this slow burn yet

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Chapter 4 Synopsis: Of the secrets that people keep, how much can they say without saying anything about it at all?

You are falling for your tutor. That much, at least, is clear to you. Your quickened heart rate, the way your heart flutters when he smiles, and how your mood lifts when he praises you-- if wisdom is to know thyself, then you consider yourself wise enough to know that you see Zhongli xiansheng as more than just a teacher.

But what of him? You wonder, how does he think of you? Does he know what he means to you? Does he feel the same?

“My lady?" Amber asks you, when you dip your head underneath the rose-infused waters of your bath. "What is wrong?”

“Nothing,” you reply back quickly, hugging your knees to your chest. You take a glance at the mauve coat that Zhongli had left on your shoulders and think about how it will still smell like him.

Amber can only look at you in mild concern when you bury your heated face into your hands and try not to think of kind eyes, a warm embrace, and a gentle voice.

(But you do anyway.)

Zhongli finds himself talking more freely than ever in your presence, especially now that the two of you have made it a habit of walking around the compound or drinking tea to pass the time together. He talks about fantastical things or expands on random trivia he thinks you would enjoy, even though he finds himself more often than not overindulging.

Your eyes are bright and alert when he tells you about the folktales he had learned when he was younger, so he tells you as many as you can in the cold, wintry months. Under the cozy kotatsu imported over from Inazuma, Zhongli shares slices of mandarin with you as he retells the history of the Qilin to you-- a mythical creature whose stone statues stand at guard in front of the main compounds of the palace.

“In many stories, the Qilin is sacred pets of the gods and rank highly only below the dragon and the phoenix,” Zhongli says, accepting the last slice of fruit you slide into his hands. "It’s said to appear with the imminent arrival or passing of a sage or illustrious ruler."

“I see…” You listen to him attentively, hands absently clearing the table of the orange peels without saying a word. You let out a breath of laughter as you joke, “Hopefully, if I pray hard enough, the Qilin might gift their presence when I ascend to the throne.”

“Nonsense,” Zhongli replies immediately. “If the qilin does exist, you do not need prayer for the qilin to appear before you, as benevolent as you are, my Princess.” He takes the slice and brings it to his lips to taste the sweetness of the mandarin, catching a glimpse at the way you hide your smile behind your hand.

“You have a way with words as usual,” you tell him. “You spoil me with praises, xiansheng; how ever will I survive without them now?” You bemoan, laughing afterwards. Though he knows you’re joking--surely-- he still feels his heart tremble at your words. It is in these moments that he feels keenly how it is to be Amber, abashed by the praise that flows freely from your lips and by the fondness that rings true through the way you speak. To be at the center of your attention is something that Zhongli understands very well to be addicting.

It is only when Zhongli hears the light rapping of knuckles on wood does he realize how long he has spoken and how late it is.

"My apologies," Zhongli says, surprised from his thoughts to bow his head (you fussed at him about apologizing before, but even with your kind reprimands, it is hard for him to kick the habits ingrained in him). "I didn't mean to dominate the conversation this entire time. It's even time for supper--"

"Bamboo Shoot Soup," you pipe up instead, and he can only look up at you stunned as you thank the maid. She sets down the pair of utensils in front of the two of you and clears the table to make space for the large metal hotpot. "It's your favorite dish, isn't it?” You say cheekily, “I thought it was a perfect dish to eat during the cold weather."

What are the protocols to eating dinner with the royal family? Zhongli thinks to himself warily, feeling wildly as though he is constantly stepping out of line despite his learned nature. Still, you would scold him for his distancing, so Zhongli decides to do as the both of you please, as improper as it may be, and waits to be served.

The bamboo soup is beautifully slow-cooked, the broth milky white; just taking a waft of the aroma is enough for him to know that the meat is tender and the bamboo shoots are soaked to the center with flavor. The warmth that pervades is partly due to the fresh heat of the soup but also from the fact that you had remembered a detail he shared in passing. (He says ‘in passing’ but he had gone into detail about where to procure the best ingredients for each component of the meal while you listened to him with eager nods. The bamboo shoots, he recognizes, are from Qingce Village. Did you remember even the smallest details from your conversation when he speaks?) Like many other times before, he is speechless. It seems as though you are constantly surprising him-- for the better.

"What happens next?"

Zhongli blinks, the steam from his bowl rising up to his face. "Pardon?"

"Oh, never mind! We should eat first!" You say, smiling widely in a way that makes his heart leap. You pick up your chopsticks and click them together playfully. "But tell me what happens next in the story later on, Zhongli-xiansheng."

"One day you'll find yourself someone who listens to you and you'll talk their ear off."

Zhongli remembers Guizhong telling him this time and time again, though he never believed in it. He is old-fashioned, he always replies back. He is overly burdened by the expectations of his family and passionate in things that most others cannot care to relate to. How would he know that someday, as proof of the wisdom (or perhaps abundance of hope and love) that Guizhong held, he would find someone who cared enough to listen and look at him as though he knew the meaning of life itself?

The bright-eyed gaze you shoot at him lasts only a moment, and perhaps you don't even know the magnitude of your gesture, but Zhongli feels his chest burn nonetheless with gratitude and soften at the kindness you have shown him. He reaches out to place his hand gently on yours. "Thank you," he says, squeezing your hand. "I'll be sure to not lose my place in the story then so you can hear the rest of it."

He blinks when you look at him, frozen and wide-eyed, and that is when he retracts his hand, feeling as embarrassed as you look. "Ah, my apologies again--"

"No, it's-- it's alright," you stammer, looking down at your bowl. Zhongli feels his face redden and he drops his gaze as well. "But yes, you better remember! I'm counting on you!"

"Yes-- yes, of course," he says, clearing his throat. "It would be my pleasure to." Before Zhongli can wallow in mortification, he hears the beginnings of your laugh and looks up to see your smile as wide as ever. And just like that, he can feel himself be at ease again, just as you have always made him feel with your presence.

"Perhaps next time," he says, a small smile dancing on his lips, "my lady can tell me a story instead."

"Only if you fill in the details I missed," you quip back easily, and he laughs.

Even with an impeccable memory, Zhongli still cannot remember the last time he has ever laughed so easily and so readily as though he could never run out of laughter. He thinks of quiet hours in his study, pouring over pages of text without speaking till his voice grows hoarse from disuse. He remembers days of entertaining guests who never truly listened to what he was saying, and he finds that he is the happiest he has ever been for a long time.

He has you to thank for that.

This is why he responds back, with a soft reverence that is reserved only for you. "Of course." He returns your smile with his own. "I would be honored to, my Princess."

Reverence should be a tone well-practiced and used in the royal court, but when Zhongli stands aside during the proceedings, he hears very little of it directed toward you. You have half of the court talking over you despite your grace, and he can clearly see your patience wear thin when your presence goes unacknowledged by one of the court officials.

"My studies have been going steadily," you speak unto the crowd, clearly and powerfully, as though you have always known how to command attention. Projecting your voice, you maintain your gaze on all of them as you speak. Zhongli can see from the way your hands clench at your side that despite your display, fear has not left you, and for that, his pride for you seems to overflow.

"With the xiansheng, I can foresee being able to replace my great uncle for the time before the end of this year," you say. "I will have prepared myself dutifully until the time has come--"

"The end of this year?" One of the nobles exclaims in protest, making you pause. "How would you be ready at the end of the calendar when you have started lessons, not even yesteryear?"

"I can't imagine the magnitude of power placed upon the shoulders of the inexperienced,” another one drawls. “Perhaps, ah, the Princess will consider taking a husband to make up for it?"

Zhongli doesn't realize he's gripping imprints into the palm of his hands until he goes to raise his hand and realizes they have gone numb from his tension. The nerve of some of the nobles-- some of which he can recognize have never sought to be on your side. He wishes nothing more than to be able to provide them a verbal lashing, but he knows that neither you nor he can do anything at this point in time.

With knowledge comes power, and you do not know enough to utilize the title you have nor the inherent authority that comes with it. Though one day, you will, if he can help it, regardless of what has been expected of him.

It makes his skin crawl to know that many nobles look to him and believe he is on their side. How many times have they requested him to keep you away from the main chambers to check on your great uncle? How many times have they hoped he would provide falsities and ignorance in the guise of guidance so that you would never truly ascend to the throne? Even with the promise of power beyond his wildest dreams, Zhongli cannot bring it to himself to manipulate you in such a manner. Even though his hands are clean, he still cannot help but taste sin on his lips for knowing the harm that exists against you without your knowledge.

When is the right time to inform you, if at all? Is it kind or cruel of him to keep this ploy from you? (Is his judgment even sound, as muddled as it is with his rapidly growing feelings for you?)

You narrow your eyes, your lips pressed in a straight line, but you refrain, once again. And Zhongli feels a burst of pride at your show of restraint and composure fitting of a lady of your status. "Yes, this may be one of the things I will take into consideration, and I appreciate--" Zhongli feels himself tense at the way you spoke, "--the counsel of the court, though I still foresee my way coming to fruition regardless."

There is a stilted silence that follows your words, and you look toward the messenger who has come with the land's grievances in letters. "I believe this matter can be discussed at a later time," you say with finality. "Let us look at the first report from the harbor."

Using what you know from your lessons thus far, you guide the conversation towards solutions for the problems brought to the court by the people. You are too inexperienced to make decisions on your own, gathering opinions from your council; corrupt or not, they know more about managing land than you. But Zhongli sees how you watch carefully as the discussion continues, letting the information sink in so that you can utilize it in the future, and he is reminded again of how far you have come from a princess holding that urn to the prospective empress quietly learning how to lead a country.

(Is it any surprise at all that he is enamored with you?)

Court adjourns after hours, and Zhongli follows you as you leave first, your robes billowing behind you seamlessly as you hold your head up high. The guards bow their heads as you pass by them, your ladies-in-waiting slowly retreating from the room when you arrive, closing the door behind them. The moment everyone is gone, you sigh in relief, your shoulders dropping to a more comfortable height as you stretch your arms and legs.

“I applaud you on your conduct during court,” Zhongli says finally, amused by how nonchalant you act in comparison to how high-strung you are in front of others. “That was an impressive display of authority.” He sees your face flush from the compliment as you stammer out your thanks. He chuckles. "Perhaps I should start getting used to calling you 'Empress’ then, Princess.”

"Yes?" Zhongli replies, confused. "Is that not a title you would like to be referred to?"

"'Princess?'" He hears you echo, turning yourself to him, and Zhongli loses his train of thoughts when he sees your expression with brows pulled together, disconcerted. "Just... 'princess?'"

"No--well, yes..." you say, trailing off. Your hand, out of habit, nervously reaches up to fiddle with your brooch. "I was just thinking you would have normally referred to me a little differently is all."

Zhongli tilts his head slightly in thought as he watches you press your lips together in what he assumes to be in embarrassment. Has he been calling you differently without his knowledge? He doesn’t think so; you have always been the Princess for him, and he, your xiansheng.

But, ah, he thinks, he has not always called you ‘my Princess’ has he? (Astonishing what one word can change.)

For a brief moment, Zhongli’s mind wonders whether he has overstepped his boundary, but he quickly reminds himself with your words, that if you truly did not want him to call you by that, you would tell him. The fact you protested at his recent use of your title… It was the slip of the tongue; Amber has referred to you by the same title, and Zhongli has always, in some form, coveted the same level of intimacy that the two of you possessed. His fondness for you must have seeped into his words, and he would never have anticipated having you reciprocate.

That being said, could you blame him for feeling pleased that you wanted to be referred to as his Princess?

“But 'Princess' is fine,” he hears you say, gathering the composure to sweep your hands down your gown and appear nonplussed. You take out your fan and hold it to your face as you begin to walk toward the study. “I don’t mind it. You should call me as you so wish, I--”

Your laughter is enough as a sign of validation, but then he hears you say, shier than you have ever been, “My xiansheng,” and he thinks his heart balloons until it takes up the entire expanse of his chest with how much affection he feels for you.

"It is soon time for our next lessons," he says, following behind you without pause, "my Princess." And he watches, enamored, as you look back at him with a smile blooming on your face. "Is that... alright with you?"

“Yes,” he says to you, feeling as though that is the only thing he can say. You shoot him another captivating smile and turn, and all Zhongli can do is walk only a step behind you.

And he follows you for as long as you will allow him, hoping his choice to keep the darkness at bay is the right one.

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lilallama · 3 years

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Teachers...

Bulsajo Highschool's Students aren't the only ones taken by L/n Y/n.

Subjects

Lee Jieun - Philosophy/Poetry

Kim Hyuna - Drama

Kim Hyojong - Music

Kwong Jiyong - PE

Lee Jieun

"Just know that I'm always open to talk, Y/n. We can sit down and have a cup of tea or cocoa, if you want. You can confide in me, don't worry, dearest."

Jieun is one of the youngest teachers at Bulsajo High. Her gentle voice and aura led her to becoming one of the most popular teachers on campus. She really cares for the students wellbeing, and is always open to discuss different issues with her students. Students don't exclusively visit her to tell her of their woes, but also just to chat over a cup of hot tea or cocoa. She always says, it's important to stay calm. The one thing she won't ever tolerate in class are disruptive or aggressive students. She will give them detention, but all it really is, is another discussion of what they did wrong over a cup of tea or cocoa. Unbeknownst to the students and staff, she took it upon herself to provide the students with the needed calmness. To help them achieve such a relaxed state, she mixes different types of benzodiazepines, anxiety medications, into the beverages she gives them. It works like a charm every time. Especially Jeongguk seeks out her help when frustrated. The hot cocoa she gives him reallt works like a charm.

If there is one person she adores, it's Y/n. They're just so pleasant and adorable to her. They're no trouble and so intelligent. She's not ashamed to say that she truly has gained a little crush on the student. Ever since they met in their 3rd year at Bulsajo High, she was utterly enraptured by their everything. She spends her free time fantasizing about them.

HyunA

Kim Hyuna

"Good morning, Y/n! How was your weekend? I'm so jealous of your parents. I'd love to have a child like you. If I could I'd adopt you right away."

Hyuna is a well respected teacher. She's known to be strict during classes, but very cool outside of her lessons. She is unapologetically honest with everyone and actively dismisses rules, such as the dress code. Since she is so honest, she's also openly biased with her students. She has her favourite and isn't afraid to show it. Neither is her husband; Hyojong. These two are partners in crime, they favour the same students and discuss almost everything with each other first. They are a very lowkey couple, which most students appreciate. Hyuna is a wonderful teacher who actually listens to the students advice and opinions. Her biasing certain students doesn't mean she's treating the others bad, though she does have a few on her blacklist.

Sadly, Hyuna was never able to get a child. Her job is not the only way to the perfect family of three, she had always wanted. A while ago, they went to the doctor when they realised; all efforts to get pregnant failed. Turns out; Hyuna was infertile. She would not be able to get a child, unless they adopted. This deeply affected both Hyuna and Hyojong. When she met Y/n it was like they were sent from heaven. The perfect child, which was stolen from her.

Dawn

Kim Hyojong

"Of course, what do you need? Homework? No no. You don't have to do any homework, Y/n. I thought you knew that. You're busy enough with all the work the others give you. All idiots, really."

Hyojong is a very chill teacher. The students like his class, since he's always very laidback and tries to make the subject understandable to all the students. Sadly though, his homework can be really time consuming. And the quizzes are difficult. He's not that strict and allows the students to eat, drink and even sleep during his class. It's not his problem if they write a bad grade on the upcoming test, it's their mistake. But he will not hold it against them. If they study outside of school and end up writing a good grade, then that's good enough for him. Just like his wife, he is openly biased but not as obvious about it. He doesn't try to hide it, but it's not as noticeable unless you pay attention to it. Hyojong and the principle have a rather... difficult relationship. They hate each other absolutely. Yet the principle cannot find a reason to fire him, since he still does his job and teaches the students well enough. The entire reason for their hatred towards each other is really just a difference in ideals. Nayeon doesn't like him, at all. But he really doesn't care for her.

He was just as distraught as Hyuna when they found out, they would not be able to have a child. But he tried getting over it, not thinking too much about it. That was, untill Hyuna started talking about a Y/n. A new student, with whom she really seemed to have gotten attached to. He immediately agreed ypon closer inspection. They seemed like the perfect child, the child they had always wanted. Hyuna claimed their parents had, stolen you away from them. He could not agree more.

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Kwong Jiyong

"Hop, hop, hop! No slacking off in my class. Oh, Y/n dear, don't exert yourself! Take a break, I'll get you some water. Hey, continue everyone! If I see just one of you stopping before you finished ten laps, you're up for detention."

A very strict and passionate teacher. He thinks pushing yourself to the limit is how you learn your boundaries. He views life as pure survival. Either you learn how to protect yourself or you get yourself someone who can protect you. Jiyong always assumes that most people end up alone either way, so it's best to learn how to protect and discipline yourself, before you end up vulnerable and alone. After serving 10 years in the military, he went and finished his education and became a teacher at Bulsajo High. The students respect him, but aren't necessarily fond of his teaching methods. There's only few students who he can tolerate. Some of them being Jeongguk, Namjoon, Ryujin, Jeongyeon and Moonbyul. He respects those who are tough and don't complain. Those with a love for extreme sports are well received by him, but not necessarily favoured. He was always very fair.

His fairness streak disappeared when Y/n came into the picture. They weren't necessarily fragile or seemed as though they needed protecting, but he still couldn't help feeling the urge to protect them. They were his personal favourite student, and it shows. If Y/n's feet hurt, he's that close to calling an ambulance. If they say they don't like acertain sport, they will never be confronted with that sport again. They don't like sport in general? Baby, don't worry. He'll find an excuse for you so you don't have to participate. He absolutely adores them. Why would they need to know how to protect themselves. He wants them to rely on him for that. Jiyong would do anything to protect them.

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andersfels · 4 years

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Personally I've seen some frustration around people repeating "the worst takes and making this about something it isn't". My understanding of the core issue "lesbian in living memory was less exclusive than it is now, and as a term was used for and by bi women until fairly recently". My opinion is words changed and lesbian has an established meaning now and sapphic covers the space. But if the "galaxy brains" would shut up, I think this could be a more reasonable intracommunity discussion.

yeah the funny thing about that particular pov is that it's phrased in a highly non-specific way to influence your perception of the argument in their favor, when if stated more clearly and factual and in context, wouldn't be the argument they think it is.

"used by bi women until fairly recently" is the BIGGEST kicker for me because...."bisexual" was emerging in popularity in the mid 20th century, and the solidification of it as an identity and the foundations of it as a community all but eliminated the usage of "lesbian" by bi women. "living memory" perhaps, but as far as american queer history, that's not "recent." it's only "recent" in terms of the 20th century as a whole seeming recent. queer american history as far as we recognize it is only about as old as the 20th century in the first place.

the other kicker here is the context - the reason lesbian was used by bi women wasn't because of an all accepting community or whatever bullshit, but because lgbt people had been oppressed and silenced for decades and were for the first time in american history were forming communities and learning to create language for ourselves. the point of shared terminology wasn't due to a mindset of all acceptance, it was due to a lack of identities and language.

bi people took longer than gay folks to find labels for their experiences and form communities around them bc of this, bc our "identities" were revolving around our oppressed and visible similarities. as a result many queer people existed in gay spaces and used gay labels because they were what was understood and accessible. keep in mind this was PRE INTERNET - new ideas, labels, communities, etc. - they were not able to be spread through social media, change was slower, education and self discovery was slower.

(and note: the slowness of change and it being pre internet makes "in living memory" virtually meaningless. all memory was of local communities and experiences because they weren't observing the international, national, or even broader communities. they were witness to local communities and what spread within them, meaning a single person's living memory could be one near exclusive to their area and not in line with what most people of the time experienced. so again, "in living memory" is a trick of phrasing and the argument.)

but even then, queer and specifically lesbian communities weren't "lesbians and bi women sharing a label." for a long ass time, lesbian wasn't even a label. it was an action, something you did, not something you were. self identification and community was founded most prominently on being queer, being marginalized, being oppressed. not the the pride in self identification we are familiar with today. it was survival tactics. the "shared community" was women who were in danger for being gnc, trans, or visibly loving women.

the evolution of lesbian as an "exclusive" term is a product of PROGRESSION. as it became less dangerous to be visibly queer, it no longer became neccessary to define ourselves by the danger we faced, or by only our similarities that made us targets for that danger. we were more able to explore ourselves, our identities, and find pride in those identities in ways that hadn't been done before, in what made us US. we weren't just queer, we had words for our experiences and could take pride in them, rather than just being an oppressed "other."

specifically for bi people - bi women now had more of a place in the community because by solidifying a more prominent bi community and pushing bi activism, they started identifying themselves by their attraction instead of by whether they were seeking women. this is an important to bisexuality, because we know seperating bi people by being "half gay" rather than their own identity is damaging. the commonality AND the neccessity for sapphic women to be called "lesbian" became non-existent, while it became incredibly important for exclusive wlw to have a way to do the same for themselves.

it was progress and increased safety that saw a split in our communities. instead of finding community in only the experiences we shared, namely being women seeking women, a bi woman who wasn't actively seeking a woman could find the opportunity to join a community and self explore as bisexual, when she in no way would have been considered lesbian or part of the community before.

the important context for this is that lesbian, while arguably more "inclusive" (and i have further reason to pick that apart*,) has always been defined around sapphicism. it wasn't a shared space for bi women and lesbians, it was a space for women seeking women and it had no space for men. bi women deserved to be defined by more than one part of their attraction, and with raised bi awareness, it became increasingly apparent that a space defined by and about only one type of attraction is not good or progressive for bi women.

people like to cite terf-incited lesbian seperatism as the reason why lesbian spaces became exclusive, but that's incredibly misinformed. bi women were already leaving for their own spaces, but it was a slow progression. it WAS progression though, in the way i just detailed, but that part got lost to the history of biphobic terfs shouting out bi women, which in reality only served to destabilize the sapphic community and create tensions between us that previously wasn't as strong.

i could make this ten times longer and detail how "bi lesbian" nonsense from this is actually regressive and hiding behind the claim of "but history" and has ties to radfem's "political lesbianism" and encourages its rhetoric, but I'm actually really tired atm.

*the community historically has not been fucking "inclusive." this claim is made by white cis bi women who look at white cis bi women in history who used "lesbian," and think that marks inclusitivity. the whole lgbt through the 20th century was very racially segregated, and heavily exclusive of trans women. that's not "inclusitivity," and trying to explain bi women's use of the word lesbian in history by claiming it was "inclusitivity" is a white and cis perspective. inclusitivity had nothing to do with it.

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Guardians of the Stones Chapter 5 Keeping Her Safe

John meet Father Mackenzie in a pub in Inverness. It was close to the Fort but not to close. He takes a seat across from him way in the back so they are less likely to avoid being overheard.

“Black Jack discovered that Claire's body wasn't in the mass grave. He called me in to question me about it.”

“What did you tell him?” They cover their mouths with the large ale glasses to appear to be more drinking then talking.

“That I was there when she was buried. That I have no idea where she could have got to.”

“Good. Do you know anyone who could cause a bit of a distraction to get the soldiers away from the fort long enough to rebury Claire?” He looks at the priest with wide eyes. “There is a las who didn't survive her journey through. She looks like Claire. If we bury her in her place and Black Jack is satisfied it is her, it will help keep her safe. She is very new here. We must keep her protected.”

“Agree. The Campbell’s are still part of the Black Watch. I am mate's with their leader. They would be happy to make life difficult for the English. I will set it up.”

“Very good. I can’t stay but will be back. Have business to finish in ’46.” John understands that the Guardians must go back and forth. Father Mackenzie had told him of having to go forward a few years to rescue a Gillian Duncan from Edinburgh from being burned as a witch.

“God speed.”

“Thank you. You too.”

1946

Father Mackenzie enters the kirk and greets Sister Mary Luke. “Where is he?”

“In Mrs. Baird's B and B. Two months. I was surprised.”

“It was predicted. But, I will like to deny him the wedding as long as possible. As we know that is will not be a happy marriage.” She nods. The future is assured.

He heads to Mrs. Baird's B and B. She was one of them. Not a Guardian just knowledgeable about the Stones and their power. She nods at the good Father when he comes in.

“Mr. Randall, eh?”

“Aye.”

“He is in the drawing room.” He walks that way and finds him with a glass of wine. He invites him to join him.

“Father, I have found love again. I wasn’t expecting it so soon. I wish to marry her. To have my first marriage annulled. We, Claire and I, were only together a few times in the five years we were married. The war and all. Now she is gone.”

“And you don't believe she will return?”

“No, I have settled in my mind that she is with the Highlander I saw watching her. I don't blame her. Our marriage wasn't a very happy one. I just wish to see us both free.”

“Due to the circumstances, I believe we can do an annulment. You are still at the address in Edinburgh?”

“I am.”

“Very good. It will take around four months. Plan your wedding for six. I will send you the papers. There is no need for you to travel back here.”

“Thank you Father.” He shakes his hand and Father Mackenzie heads back to the kirk. In truth, he could do the annulment in an hour. But, he knows the future. This marriage to Sandy will also be unhappy. Frank will die in Edinburgh, in the arms of another woman, within months of his second marriage. The delay assures that there will be no issue from that marriage. That the evil Randall line will die with Frank.

“God forgive me.” Father Mackenzie prays as he places the completed paper in an envelope with a note it is to be mailed to Frank in four months. He then returns to the Stones and the past.

1740

“Miss Claire, may I trouble you to look at my hand. It is paining me.” Jamie walks into Claire's surgery a few days later.

“How long has it been paining you and what were you doing?” She asks as she takes the sling off and starts to unwrap it.

“Just today. I was working with a stubborn filly and needed the use of both hands.” She sighs and he ken's he has disappointed her.

“Jamie, you can not be using it until the stitches come out. Now, let's see what you have done.” She removes the last of bandages and exposes the still tightly closed wound. Thank God. “You have just irritated it. I will add some more honey and re-bandage it. You must promise me that you will not use it again until I remove the stitches.”

“I do swear Madame.” He bows low before her. She giggles and suddenly all he wants is to hear that sound again.

“I would love to dine with you and Hamish, if that is alright so I can get to know my wee cousin better.”

“Jamie, I don’t own the table nor have any control over who sits there. But, we do sit with some of the lower members of the clan. As the Laird's nephew, would you be comfortable there?” She asks with a bit of a blush and lowered eyes. She is flirting with me! Jamie thinks in shock. Why, is she flirting with me? Should I flirt back?

“Well, as I will be dining with Himself's son, I should be alright. Shall I come and escort you or would you like to meet me there?”

“I thank you Jamie, but Hamish has tasked himself with escorting me to the hall. We would hate to disappoint him.”

“Aye, we would. My wee cousin has a crush on you.”

“He does.” She agrees as she finishes securing the last bandage. “I have discussed it with his father. He is okay with it. Says the lad needs a woman he can give his child's heart to.”

“He does. His mam died three years ago of a deep wame pain.” The both cross themselves. Claire thinks appendicitis or ectopic pregnancy but doesn’t say anything. “Ever since he has needed a woman to be like a mam, someone he can love and protect.”

“I am happy to be that.” There conversation is cut off be the arrival of one of his kinsman, Angus, sporting a black eye.

“Angus, what have ye done, kissed a lass that was unwilling again.” Jamie teases as Claire probes around it to make sure his eye isn't damaged.

“Nae Jamie. Nae kiss. Just placed my hand on her knee.” Claire and Jamie both shake their heads as Claire treats it.

“You are lucky all she gave you was a black eye.” Claire pronounces.

Meanwhile

The Black Watch is happy to make mischief. They make a deal with a tavern owner, promising him a new tavern, freshly built, if he allows them to set it afire to keep the English bastards busy. The spirits are removed and the auld structure is quickly bright with fire. Black Jack orders his soldiers to serve as firemen under his supervision. Perfect.

John and the good Father hurry to bury the Claire look-a-like near where she would have been orginally interned. After the fire is out, John informs Black Jack that Claire has been found. He insists on seeing the body.

“Dam! It is her.” He declares when he sees the brown curly hair on the lass buried in her shift. “What a bloody week. The missing body found, a bloody fire, and I've had no time for entertainment.” John knows of his homosexuality. He himself is bi-sexual but would have nothing to do with the Captain. He had heard enough stories of his sadist side. Now Claire, that is a lass he wouldn’t mind knowing. If it was possible.

“Well, all is under control now. Why not head into town and find some distraction.”

“You won't offer me some?”

“Sorry no.” Black Jack gives him an appraising look before standing and heading out.

Back at the castle

Hamish arrives to escort Claire to dinner. “Hamish sweetie, give me a moment.” She was finishing taming her curls in the small room off the surgery. It contains a fireplace, double bed, dressing table, a separate table with a few chairs for eating, and a bathtub. She had insisted on it within days of arriving. She knows the importance of keeping clean.

Hamish takes her arm and they head out. “Hamish, I have invited your cousin Jamie to join us. I hope you don't mind.”

“No. I like cousin Jamie. He treats me lime a young man and not a little boy.”

“Do I treat you like a little boy?”

“No, you treat me like a son. I really like that.” She stops them within a few steps of the Great Hall. She gives him a hug.

“I am glad. I really like you Hamish. You are so sweet to me.” He blushes and hurries them into the Hall.

Jamie joins them within minutes, to the surprise of the others at the table. Jamie is soon entertaining them with stories of his childhood at Lallybroch. The whole table is soon laughing. At the end of dinner, he turns to his cousin.

“Hamish, may I escort Miss Claire back to her room?”

“Cousin Jamie, you may. Just remember She is a lady.” He is very proud of his cousin and nods, bowing low before him.

“Aye, I will.” He bows before Claire, offering her his arm. After kissing Hamish's cheek, she takes it. She meets Jamie's eyes with a smile that he returns.

#my writing #outlander fanfic #jamie and claire #cannon divergence #outlander fandom #guardians of the stones #keeping her safe

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let-sanji-say-fuck · 5 years

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Monster Trio with a girlfriend who is a dragon with ability to take on human form, she isn't a DF user.

This ask is pretty interesting, but I’m sorry if it’s not exactly what you were looking for! I’m still pretty happy with how it turned out, so I hope you enjoy it as well!

Before starting with the boys, have some headcanons on the girl’s background, if you don’t mind my take on it!

Since she is originally a dragon who can take the shape of a human, let’s say that it serves as some kind of defense mechanism for the times when she wants to avoid confrontation with humans who dock on the island where she lives, or an easy way to lull human preys into her den.

Pirates who find her half naked in the middle of nothing often intend to take her with them, so she ends up returning to her original body and devouring them.

Has little to no knowledge on human language and basic society rules, given the brief time spent among humans. She only started covering her human body (although scarcely) after she noticed that the people who came onto the island wore clothes, and has only learned some interjections, words and simple body language, just enough to make her act feel more realistic and less like a trap.

In any case, Chopper is going to be of great help when it comes to communicating with her, because dragons are basically reptiles. He plays a very important role in her development as a civilized human being.

Monkey D. Luffy

We already know how their fist meeting goes. Before Luffy finds out that the dragon can turn into a human person he’s going to want to beat it, then eat it. He’s got both, a powerful enemy and the possibility of tasty meat before his eyes, and added to the fact that, well, he’s Luffy, of course he’s in for delivering a beating!

Is honestly a tiny bit disappointed when the dragon turns into a girl, but the feeling subsides quickly when realization hits him like a brick: a dragon just turned into a girl. How cool is that? A lot for awestruck Luffy, he wants her in his crew. It’s a little complicated to get a positive reaction from her when she can barely understand what he’s saying, though.

The only reason why she lets him drag her onto the ship is because Luffy already defeated her once, and she’s kind of badly hurt. He’s going to feel pretty bad because he actually beat an “innocent” person, and Sanji is going to kick him into apologizing to her.

Given the lack of knowledge on almost anything aside from a lifetime of experiences on how to survive in the wilderness, she’s going to be like a little baby. Luffy taking care of babies tends to not end up going well, so he will need the help of his crew to make sure she ends up becoming a decent human being.

They grew pretty close after this particular time she turned into a dragon and took off… with her Captain perched on her head while she started to fly off to who-knows-where. They came back hours later with a nice Sea King specimen meant to be cooked for dinner, and seemingly closer than before, if Luffy was laughing and patting her head was anything to go by.

Luffy believes in food being the universal language than anyone can speak, so when words don’t work good between both of them, he’s going to invite her to stuff her face in meat with him. He still won’t let her have some of his share, but he’s more than happy when he notices how eager she always is to grab a bite or two or more.

This boy literally can’t go one day without a thrilling flight on her back or head. No matter how often he does it, there’s no way he’s growing sick of it. It’s his favorite kind of “date” with her, and if they end up hunting some tasty big fish to eat that night the experience becomes impossibly better.

He might be a little confused to find out that her ability doesn’t come from having eaten a Devil Fruit, but honestly it just thrills him all the more! Knowing that such a thing as real dragons exists his adventurous curiosity just grows stronger. And of course he’s going to think she’s really powerful and cool! (But he’s still a little upset because he didn’t get the chance to try dragon meat yet).

Roronoa Zoro

Zoro hasn’t had that much experience with dragons, but that ain’t going to stop him from trying to take one on. How sturdy is the body of a dragon again? Oh, he’s very much about to find out. Pretty merciless on his approach, and is honestly expecting a good fight from a creature known to be so fearsome.

So imagine how puzzled he’s going to be when, after defeating it (pretty easily), there’s a kind of “poof”, mist all around and a naked woman falling on top of him, weakly and monotonously repeating “no more” or “please stop”. Hold Sanji, because he’s going to be so jealous and angry.

When he pushes her off and she tries to run away, he’s probably going to stay on the floor for a couple of seconds processing the information. If it hadn’t been for Chopper demanding he went to carry her to the infirmary (of course he’s going to take responsibility, he cut her) he’d have probably let her escape into the forest where she came from.

He thinks it’s pretty annoying that they have to take care of her. Why appear as a menacing, bloodthirsty dragon in the first place if she will need treatment afterwards? He’s even more annoyed by the fact that everyone is giving him dirty looks for doing that to the poor girl. He’s going to have it rough, the boy…

This is the return of Papa Zoro, because that’s what he’s going to be when this girl can’t talk nor understand what he scolds her about, is naïve and literally just follows him around only to flinch shyly when he turns to tell her to cut it off. Oh god, if he had known that defeating a dragon would give him such an infuriating admirer he would have thought twice before drawing his swords.

He will probably start liking her when she starts acting more like a human being and less like a feral beast. Probably starts to see the potential in her ability around this time as well, and might even look forward to docking in deserted islands where he can happily spar against her strong body if she feels up for the challenge.

Not the hardest fan of flying, so he won’t really go with her when she sets off for her daily flight. Zoro would rather die than admit it, but he grows pretty worried if she doesn’t appear in the horizon after a couple of hours. Everyone knows, though, because he’s the one who greets her first, with a good scolding, whenever she takes too long to return.

Is pretty curious about her species, so he’s going to ask her about them when she has some notions on basic language. He wants to know about all kind of dragons she is aware of, how powerful they are, if they can also turn into little pests that he ends up growing fond of… (he hopes not). Quite enjoys these talks with her, even if her struggling with the language kind of ticks him off.

Sanji

He’s the one that’s going to be lulled into her den. Seeing a beautiful young girl scarcely covered running through the forest? Hell, he would have expected her to be a Nymph instead of a dragon, and he’s totally going to try to chase after and find her (once he wakes up from passing out from blood loss).

When he’s on his way he’s going to react a little harshly towards the dragon that just tried to bite his head off though. It’ll totally catch him off guard and he’s going to yelp a little in surprise because he was a little absent, looking for the darling, but he’s definitely going to deliver a good kicking to the dragon for scaring the heck out of him. He doesn’t care that it’s an extremely rare mythical creature, and even wonders if it he can pull a good dish out of its meat. Sanji’s eager to find out.

What he ends up finding out about is that the dragon and the girl are one and the same and he can’t feel more broken inside. His soul is probably going to need to reincarnate through several lives to even come close to consider itself cleansed and worthy of forgiveness after realizing that he kicked a lady. Several times. Unknowingly, but that’s not a valid excuse.

Probably sulks a lot before offering himself to take care of her. He will leave the physical damage treatment part to Chopper (every time he sees the bruises that he caused he wants to curl up in a corner and die), but he’s the one who’s going to spend time with her while she recovers and bring her simple dishes that are easy on the stomach.

The second he finds out that she never had a taste of decent food (raw meat and a couple of berries here and there aren’t decent food) he’s going to be ecstactic and look forward to making her one filling, mouthwatering dish. He wishes he had a camera to capture her delighted expression and excited yelp upon the very first spoonful (that he offered to give her because she doesn’t seem acquainted with these utensils).

He thinks it’s endearing that she depends on him so much when she faces the new world ahead of her, fully as a human. Sanji feels like the prince who helps the sweet little mermaid (dragon) to get used to human society, and the fact that she can’t talk makes him wonder if confessing his love would magically bring a voice of her own. So far he hasn’t had a chance to advance because every time he tries to smooch her, she almost bites his lips off his face (and he’s delighted).

Of course he loves her human body the most, he can just admire it for days on end and won’t ever grow tired of every curve and mole… but he comes to find her original shape absolutely majestic and powerful. He loves that this dragon is the same innocent girl who showed difficulties regarding the use of a knife and a fork and a spoon, but he’s totally going to be at her beck and call whenever she needs him, no matter how many heads she can actually tear off in one bite.

Wants to be by her side when she finally gets a solid hang of the talking thing, like an excited young father. Might even cry a little because when he feels that she’s got better at communication he’s going to start apologizing again for what he did to her, and if the first thing she says to him isn’t that she absolutely forgives him he might as well just throw himself overboard. He’s never letting himself live this one down.

#Monkey D Luffy #Roronoa Zoro #Sanji #Female Pronouns #Headcanons #One Piece #Anonymous

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Jon to Mance: Isn't their survival more important than your pride? Mance: Fuck my pride. Mance refused to play the game and was executed for it, leaving the Wildlings to fend for themselves. They were lucky Jon was willing to pick up the mantle. But when D*ny repeats the same thing to Jon, Jon knows that if he says "Fuck my pride" and refuses to do what is necessary to save his people, even just appearing to appease her, he will die and his people will suffer for it. Jon bends the knee

So that he doesn’t have to leave the Northerners in the same position Mance’s death left the Free Folk. Tormund then repeats this behind the Wall to drive home the fact that Jon has to be smarter than Mance. Jon NEEDS to play the game and get it done so that the North isn’t left behind. I don’t understand why anyone would think that those lines are meant to show Jon is just being PRIDEFUL and instead should just fall madly in love with D*ny. He isn’t in love, he’s doing what Mance wouldn’t.

That’s because Jon WOULD NEVER do something like that, nonny. He is just a precious snowflake who never did anything wrong and never would, and a naive northern fool who didn’t learn anything from Ned’s mistakes, Robb’s mistakes, Jeor Mormont’s mistakes, Mance Rayder’s mistakes. He didn’t learn anything from his own mistakes either, he totally forgot the time when he didn’t consider his NW people’s opinions and got himself stabbed to death for it.

He would totally sell the North to a foreign dictator kin on burning people alive just to bang said dictator rather than trying to save his family and his people at any costs even if it means playing dirty, like the time where he killed a man and slept with the ennemy to make the wildlings believe he was one of them. Him repeating again and again stuffs like “I serve the North” “I’m the shield who guards the realm of men” “It may seem that way from the outside, but I promise you, it’s not true”, or him never actually bending the knee nor making an actual oath nor presenting his sword are just randomn stuffs without any sort of importance, how dare you nonny. s7!Jon was OOC or weird or ambiguous just because of bAD wrITiNg and TruE LUv.

But well I assume you wanted a serious answer lmao. Idk, nonny. Tbh I’m sure if this whole situation was with Cersei (Jon would ask her to help him with her wild fire, that she then would refuse unless he bent the knee, make him prisoner when he refused, and that out of nowhere Jon would start taking her hand, giving her stupid nicknames and sleeping with her) people would find this suspicious and would be more willing to consider political!Jon.

But since it’s D@ni, for some reasons, she doesn’t deserve that, Jon would never do something like that… This is the answer I got from a irl friend when I tried to introduce her to this theory. I have another one who was more willing to consider it because she thought it would explain a lot of stuff (she’s not buying the saint D*ny propaganda so since she is not biased it might help to be a bit more open minded), another friend of mine was a bit reluctant but once I explained her all the clues she was like “oh… shit. u right”, and I have another one who just wants it to happen because it would fuck everything (”ça foutrait le bordel !” as we say in french sksks) and because it would make Jon a more interesting character (and because she hates J*nerys lmao).

#political!jon #asks #my posts #not adding more tags bc I'd rather not have some part of the fandom jumping in there #i want to have a peaceful day thank you very much #don't like don't read i suppose #or scroll past ?#idk

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aesthetic-survivor-of-twd · 6 years

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What's your take on the non-determinant deaths? I'm seeing a lot of, uh, vitriolic opinions. I disagree that the ones so far in TFS were "only for shock value"; Brody's = show how Marlon is desperate/afraid of the raiders; Marlon's = show how ruthless AJ can be; before the AMA explained Mitch's, I saw it = Lilly isn't 100% stone-hearted. To say they're shock value implies they served no other purpose, but IMO they did. Were they shocking? Yeah. But compare them to Nick/Sarah/Luke/Tripp/Ava lol

Okay, so my reply to this Ask might piss off some of my friends or followers lol

I just want to say beforehand that I also wish we had more time with the killed off characters and it’s a shame the lost potential we could have had with them.

This is just my personal opinion in the topic. Not trying to state it as a fact.

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But I do agree with you that there is a difference between “shock value” and something being shocking.

Or alternately: Something CAN be shock value and STILL have a purpose.

^ That I can agree with regarding the deaths. But their deaths only being for shock value? I couldn’t disagree more.

In regards to Mitch, I do kinda feel like that one leaned more towards “shock value” since we kinda knew how serious the raiders were that scene based on numerous other things that happened (Omar getting shot and the fact they have a sniper in a tree to shoot us) but at the same time, it did serve the purpose of showing Lilly’s character and much like you, I also picked up on it playing the episode. I dunno, his death was the one I felt had the least influence (so far anyway) in the story but apparently it does serve a purpose later on on the season?

He is probably the closest I can agree regarding the arguments.

In regards to Brody, what you said is essentially true to why she was killed off and it served a narrative purpose.

Now on to Marlon!

Okay so I previously made a post on this topic regarding him in episode 1 and got some colourful Asks in my inbox on how wrong I am (putting it politely here).

Keep in mind that this is just MY viewpoint and also based on the statements made by Kent in a previous AMA. This isn’t by any means hate on Marlon of whatever kind - I’m just being rational towards his death based on a writing standpoint. I feel like I have to say that since he is a weirdly controversial character in the fandom.

Marlon’s death is far from “shock value”. YES it was shocking and much in Telltale fashion was used to shock us at the end of the episode.

But it served a purpose in the story - and he was always intended from the beginning to be killed off. He was never written with the intention of having a redemption because that’s not what the purpose of his character was in the story (even if a redemption arc could have been interesting).

Marlon had to die in order for them to tell the story that they wanted from within the time that they had.

If Marlon survived then most of the events in the current story would have changed.

According to Kent and from what I personally took from episode 1 playing it. AJ killing Marlon was used to show just how bad AJ can be and just how serious we should take teaching AJ this season.

^Something of which is a very important element of the season that each episode reminds us of (and is apparently going to factor a lot into the final episode).

Marlon’s death was to teach the player that we can’t just casually shrug off everything AJ learns from us as a player.

It was also meant to factor into Clementine’s growth this season into a leader and her bonds with the other group members (despite being shunned by them) - which is the natural development for her character at this point given previous seasons.

A lot of things I often seen brought up is how Telltale said Marlon was a very important character this season back in the first ever Telltale panel for the game.

They weren’t lying you know. (maybe being vague was misleading, but still) Marlon WAS very important to the season. Based on what I said above - but he is also important for kicking off the entire season’s story as a whole.

Was Marlon’s death shocking? Yes.Was it purely shock value? Hell no.

People are allowed to have different opinions on the subject, and it’s fine if you disagree.

But I do sometimes feel like the writers of this season get unfairly bashed by fans sometimes when it comes to this topic.

For the record, I would have loved to have seen all 3 characters still alive for a little longer.

But I would also be lying if I said I don’t understand the reasons of why they were killed off in the first place (at least for Marlon and Brody).

Tbh I’m just glad that they aren’t killing off most of the group per episode like in previous seasons.

Someone in our group has to die each episode or else there is no weight to the survival element. Not everyone we like can live. So I’m just glad it’s only 1 or 2 each episode and not like half the entire cast.

#twdg #the walking dead game #twdg season 4 #twdg final season #twdg the final season #asks #twdgs4 #twdg s4 #twdg4 #twdg tfs

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tortuganorrie · 6 years

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A navyman and a Good Man

Hello everyone! This post is partly written for an old Tumblr and partly written for Amino. It's basically a long rant about why I think James is a good man and what I like about the character. I'm also rambling about why I believe he did some things he did. Keep in mind that this is only my opinion and you may have a completely other one.

Enjoy anyway.

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James Norrington, some like him, some hate him for various reasons. Personally I love him and I think his character, despite not having that much screentime, is very interesting!

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☠COTBP☠

We all have to agree that Norrington is really good at what he does. He played a MAJOR role in clearing Port Royal and the Caribbean from pirates and even is one of the youngest people to achieve his rank. He knows exactly what he does and he works very hard. But wait, aren't we rooting for the pirates in POTC? Of course in the POTC universe we want the pirates to survive but if you view them from the standpoint of normal people in the universe, it's quite understandable you wouldn't really want them around. They steal, they plunder, they attack, pirates aren't paricularily good people and Norrington just does what he thinks is right.

From years of serving in the military and not showing emotion, he isn't exactly good with that, at least in the first movie. A great example is the awkward proposal to Elizabeth. What we learn though is that he really cares for her, he wanted to jump off the fort to save her and was only held back by other soldiers.

When she gets kidnapped he's clearly freaked out by that and truth be told the major reason he sailed after them was probably her. The whole thing actually didn't go with his plan at all. He wanted to continue his life in the military, stay true to his duty and marry the woman he loves so he could have a nice family.

And what does she do? She lies to him, telling him she accepts his proposal if they go after Will, even though she knows she won't marry Norrington anyway. As a person who considers the deleted scenes canon, it gets worse. She tells him that she didn't agree just for William, she tells him she didn't lie and when she calls him a fine man he just seems so happy. Now I'm not trying to show Elizabeth in a bad light here, I love her character and I understand she did it because she loves Will so much. It's just a point I had to make for his character.

Now imagine how it must feel to realise that she loves Will. And still he didn't get angry, he accepted it, for her. Hell, he even let Jack and the Pearl escape before following them because he knew Elizabeth and Will had started to like the pirate. Also I can't fail to mention how he stopped and complimented the sword Will had made, finally after a movie full of people praising his master instead. I think it's a nice way of casually showing he accepts their love. Wills story evolved around accepting how a pirate can be a good man but sometimes the fans seem to forget that you can be a Navyman and a good man aswell.

"But Jimmy, what about the whole heart of Davy Jones thing?"

Well I'm about to talk about that right now!

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☠DMC☠

This movie makes many people dislike James a lot but if you pay attention he had enough reasons to be bitter and sarcastic and steal the heart in the end.

Imagine working very hard for the majority of your life. Imagine giving your whole life to your career and putting as much effort in it as he did. And then a pirate shows up, a pirate who changes everything, a pirate who you just can't catch. And you follow him around the world, you do everything you can and one day, one day you're so close but theres a hurricane coming up but you've become reckless, you finally want to catch the pirate. You sail on.

And then everything is gone. Your rank, your ship, your crew, everything you worked for all along.

Norrington lost so many things that were important to him in that hurricane, even things that were part of his identity. But a thing nobody considers, if the ship was really destroyed, some crewmembers must have died and it was his fault. His fault because he was too stubborn to give up. And he has to live with it. As a person who sails and owns a boat I can confirm that losing a ship you've sailed for a while, isn't great either as Norrington clearly enjoys the sailing part of the Navy life very much. He still wears his uniform, which in a place like Tortuga, full of pirates, where you're known as the famous pirate hunter, isn't a great idea. But it shows how he doesn't want to let go of his old life.

"My story. It's exactly the same as yours, just one chapter behind. I chased a man across the seven seas. The pursuit cost me my crew, my comission, and my life."

James Norrington worked very hard for what he achieved and then suddenly everything was gone. For the angry Tortuga barfight scene, one has to consider that he must have been very drunk. He lost himself and without the boundaries of the Navy, he lets it all out.

Norrington blames Jack for everything that happened and he just wants his life and honor back, things he spent his whole life on building up. Can you really blame him?

James is a smart man. While Elizabeth just blindly trusts Jack, he realises why William is on the Dutchman in the first place. I personally believe he still likes her very much and it angers him more how Jack just lies to get what he wants.

Now that doesn't make it right to give the heart to Beckett, but in that one moment he was so obsessed with regaining his honor and life.

And Norrington thought and acted like a pirate for once. He did what he thought was best for himself. This, of course, doesn't justify anything, it mainly gives a reason. Soon enough he learns that it may not have been the best choice anyway.

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☠AWE☠

After becoming Admiral, James quickly realises that giving the heart to Beckett wasn't the greatest idea. He originally was supposed to befriend Davy Jones over their common dislike for Beckett after all! The deleted scene where Beckett decides to kill off Governor Swann is also a good example for how Norrington is starting to question his decisions.

And when he sees Elizabeth, he's really happy that she's alive, but she is angry, she believes he was involved in the killing of her father. Imagine how shocking it must be to learn that a man who was your friend for years is dead, killed by the man who gave you your life back. Despite Elizabeth not believing him, he still stays loyal to her. He frees her and helps her and the crew escape. When she finally believes him, he sarcrifices his life for her.

His last moments are very important to describe his personality. He uses his last energy to stab Davy Jones and even if it didn't do anything, it shows how brave he is and how in reality he just always wanted to do the right thing.

#pirates of the caribbean #potc #james norrington #norrington #jack davenport #pirates #awe #cotbp #dmc

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No one can tell me that GladNis isn't canon coz Gladio was ready to slap Noct around for getting Iggy hurt. Like, Gladio's dad died, along with Regis. His home's been taken over by enemy forces! He didn't seem bothered much at the time. I mean, his outward appearance didn't look to be shaken, ya know? But when Iggy loses his sight, Gladio's ready to pound Noct into the ground! The very guy he's sworn loyalty to, to proctect! C'mon now! GladNis is def canon!

*sips from grape juice**clears throat**puts glasses on*

Okay, you all buckle in because I SO am about to type this

Post on Gladio’s psychology post-chapter 9

*cracks fingers*

[There’s a Keep Reading line ahead, for those using the mobile app that can’t see it. Sorry]

Dear anon, thanks for dropping by! I too strongly believe in the canon-icity of Gladnis because the chemistry is there! Nobody can deny that, like holy shit. Even with the stupid ‘girlfriend’ issue, I’m not buying that. Come on, the chemistry is THERE, it’s impossible to deny! It’s so clear in chapter 10 and on their own small journey when they separate from the guys on chapter 13. It’s EVERYWHERE.

Bbbbut, I don’t agree on the WHERE you see it, anon. I’m not rejecting what you offer, but I do would like to clarify or to give away my opinion on what Gladio was feeling, thinking, and why he acted like that. This is, of course, if you don’t mind. I just really like the psychological side of any story I read/play, and while your entry had me smiling and nodding, I can’t fully agree with the overall view you’re offering. And not that it’s wrong; I just see it from many other angles that make it a bit wider.

I don’t think Gladio snapped out at Noctis and raged at him for what happened to Ignis (which wasn’t Noctis’ fault, let’s comprehend). At least, not only because of that.

That Gladio shows to stay cool and not bothered at the events you list doesn’t necessarily mean he doesn’t care, or that it doesn’t bother him enough to make him snap out, or that they were less bad than what happened in Altissia.

That you don’t react to something in the same second it happens doesn’t mean you don’t care, sometimes it just means it’s hurt so deep inside you that your mind literally can’t finish to understand it happened at all.

Or, simply, that you’re not letting yourself feel it.

Imagine you have spent 23 years of life hearing everywhere and from everyone’s mouth that your only task is to serve the guy that’s your best friend and brother of other blood. That you live for him. Imagine you’re asked to escort him some place, and then find out he’s in danger.He’s your priority. He’s the only thing you live for.He’s priority from over your own feelings and choices and needs.

Gladio knows his job. Despite how playful he can show himself to be, he’s incredibly mature and he knows what his duty asks of him. He dared face a god of war only to become better in what he does in life, only for Noctis’ sake.

Gladio knows his homeland and the place he loves was taken over and destroyed and that he’s probably not ever going back. He’s slapped in the face with the understanding that his father died. There’s the doubt of whether his sister survived or if she’s currently a pile of ashes or a corpse. And he knows war is lost.All at the same time.

He learns ALL OF THAT at the same time, at the same second. Imagine you receive those news. The shock must be unbearable. The shock must be so great you may possibly not even react at all because it’s too much to be real. That’s why the guys need to go see it themselves, it’s just too much to handle.

Now, we see Noctis break down at the news and rage and get depressed and flail all over the place….Because he can.

Because, even though he knows his duty and role in life and what he has to do, he doesn’t serve anyone, like his friends do.

Ignis, Gladio and Prompto must have been as hurt and desperate as Noctis, but there’s a difference never told but still understood: they all are meant and literally tasked to aid him, and he’s only tasked to go marry someone. Whether we like the sound of it or not, Noctis is a prince that’s served and the guys serve the prince, that’s how the world goes. They do it proudly and happily but they still serve, int he extent of the word.

I dare say Gladio must have been the one to handle the news much, much, by far much more heavily than Ignis or Prompto.

Ignis seems to only have his uncle for family, and while Prompto does have his parents, his relationship is poor with them. So their affectation is mostly on Niflheim taking over Lucis. Gladio, on his side, has THAT affectation plus the complete, full awareness that his dad has died. The king never dies before his Shield. And Regis is dead. Which must have hit Gladio like a bolt: Clarus is dead. Dead. His father. His only father. His family. His dad.

And to that point he still doesn’t know whether Iris survived or not. Handling losing your homeland in a war is heavy, then add losing your beloved father, and add the possibility of your dead little princess, my god.

…but then he decides to bottle it all up.

Gladio knows his job, I repeat. He’s mature. He knows very well what he has to do. And that is to aid Noctis. To help him become stronger and much more aware of what he has to do. Guide him. Protect him. The situation desperately needs for the three of them to guide and push and hurry Noctis on his task, on his destiny.

Right now the only thing that matters is Noctis. Not his feelings.They are obstacles.

We know they’re not, but that’s how Gladio sees that, how anyone in his position and with his knowledge must see. Ignis does that, too. Even Prompto. They all never show themselves bothered not because they don’t care but because they know that mourning right now is useless and that the only thing that’s important is to continue the journey and do something, work, fight and win. Not mourn; that can wait.

So Gladio just bottles it. Except I think, for the things listed above, that he has quite some particular reasons to be upset. But he bottles it and bottles it.

And he insists on doing that to the point the glass is already full but even then he goes against logic and doesn’t let it spill because he can’t allow himself to feel and let it all out, not when his king needs him.

But then Altissia happens.

Imagine that you’ve spent 23 years of life training and working every single day of your life, every…single…one…just to be the strongest and the best on your duty that’s literally protecting somebody else. Imagine you’ve spent 23 years with the only purpose in life of protecting someone. Literally.Imagine you went through a trial of a GOD and defeated him only to become better at your duty, that is, again, only and literally protecting somebody else.

And then find out that your best friend was majorly injured and lost his sight. In the same battle you were in.

And then go through a day in which the person you sworn to protect was barely found alive and is in a coma state, that the important Oracle is dead, that half the country was destroyed, and that the man and friend that understands you best was found barely, vaguely alive, unconscious, bleeding, agonizing and with this huge burn/injury on the eye and wakes up goddamn fucking blind.

Imagine one of your dearest, if not the dearest friend (Noct is more like a lil bro) goes through that….

While you came out of the fight entirely unharmed.

Dude, I want you to imagine how it must feel. To know you did your best, yet this was the outcome. All your friends harmed, one dead, the other barely alive and waking up to become only half-a-life (we know it gets better in the future, but in the immediate present, Ignis IS losing a major/huge part of himself, seen as half/all the things he used to do/enjoyed were all related/needing of his sight).

There’s a bottle already past full of rage and sadness inside him, this was the very, very, very last drop to spill it. Problem is, it was not a drop, it was a FUCKING CASCADE.

Gladio’s strong, but he’s a human, too. And he, like any of us, has his limits. And I think that,by this point of the story, he’s gone further the limits of his limits, already. And he…as the human he is…merely exploded.

I’ve shared this in other similar posts and I repeat it here: in psychology, in school, I once learned that anger is only a mask for sadness, which, at its time, is a mask for fear.

That Gladio snaps out at Noctis is not necessarily Gladio blaming Noctis for what happens to Ignis and raging over only that.That Gladio snaps out at Noctis is only Gladio’s excuse.

You know these moments when you bottle something up, somebody does or says something, and you snap out at them maybe a bit unnecessarily?

Like, maybe the boss fired you, the bus was late, it rained on you, they robbed your clock and wallet, and when you finally get home, your mom accidentally moved your computer from this room to the other…And suddenly you’re raging over that last fact.

And you’re maybe snapping out at your mom, and you go nuts because “how could you do something so stupid, you know I like my things to be where I leave them, it was connected to the light because it was on and now it’s off and blah blah bla”.

It’s stupid. You’re raging over a stupidity, a small thing. But you can’t stop. You know why? You’re not raging at your stuff being moved.You’re raging at everything that happened earlier, all the major stuff. The last event is only your excuse. You’re taking the first thing that maddens you to scream at it and to yell at it and to cry at it not because THAT caused it, only because THAT is offering you an excuse to let all the previous things out.

This is the very same thing with Gladio.

He’s not raging only at the fact that Noctis can’t stop being sad or that he’s “not showing any care about Ignis”, he’s raging at EVERYTHING. Everything, from Insomnia’s fall and his dad’s death to Ignis’ injury and almost death, added the more self-centered fact that Gladio let that happen to Ignis when he had worked so hard to become the best Shield ever.

Imagine you’re meant to protect people, yet somebody you love almost dies in front of you while you’re completely unharmed.Gladio’s not only suffering Ignis’ injury, he’s suffering some sort of personal break of his idea of himself.He knew himself something, but the events at Altissia could or not may have had him take the blame to himself. Imagine you know yourself the best Shield ever, then look behind you and see all this death and your dearest people injured and bleeding and barely breathing, and you’re standing there…like, the enemy didn’t even pay attention to you, like you’re useless, like you’re not there and just went past you and killed them all.They went past him. Like he was not there.Like he’s an intangible shield.A shield that is not a shield.A shield that isn’t there.And realize that if a shield isn’t there when YOU are supposed to be one…Then what are you?

I don’t deny that chapter 10 and ahead and the treatment Gladio offers to Ignis all over it is partly to blame on why I adore Gladnis and see it as almost-canon.

But I don’t think that it’s what happened to Ignis what made Gladio rage like he did.

Of course, I’m not saying that Gladio doesn’t care about Ignis. It’s most obvious he does, even during the events of the past traveling with a healthy 22 y.o. Ignis, Gladio’s constantly showing how much he particularly cares about him. Sometimes it even feels like he talks more about Ignis than he does about Noctis. The events of Altissia must have made him completely rage, but I don’t think it was only THAT.

It’s not that Gladio prefers Ignis over Noctis. It’s that Noctis was Gladio’s psychological “drop of water that spilled the glass”, and Ignis’ injury only happened to be the nearest major event, the closet chronologically to Gladio’s outburst. Gladio knows Noctis comes before anything else, but he’s a human, and he simply could not help but finally explode after bottling up months of major event after major even after major event being crowned by not only having your dearest friend majorly injured and eternally handicapped, but to most possibly have also seen him almost die.

…-deep breath-

Phew.

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Still, I can’t deny that I love the way Gladio behaves with Ignis post-Altissia. It’s overprotective and so careful. I love it, hahaha. Nobody can tell me Gladnis isn’t canon, either, the chemistry is always there no matter which point of the game you’re playing!

#gladio's psychology #analysis #damn right you're the best moon raccoon #thanks moon raccoon that's so nice from you #*high fives self*#gladio #post chapter 9 #post leviathan #spoilers

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