#like i imagine hs1 a little all over the place

[rainbowbeanstyles]

randome rant

#ik hs1 is a fan favorite #but i find i amazing when i hear ppl saying its his best work #like 🤯 #its not bad its very cute its harry i love it too #but fine line sounded more well made(? idk how to describe it lmaoo #like i imagine hs1 a little all over the place #and fine line has a better pace? #idk #HARRY'S HOUSE IS GOOD TOO I CANT PICK A FAVORITE RN #idk im just ranting ignore me hs1 is our beloved album #but i dont think its his best work kssisksos #i find it *******amazing- i just noticed my mistake #imagine if he added the leaked songs goddd #anna my beloved #funny thing i never really cared about anna that much but then i heard the leak and it became one of my fav songs everrrr #ok bye i dont make sense sorry im not good with words🏃🏽‍♀️🏃🏽‍♀️🏃🏽‍♀️ #like i said random rant #fertalks

[septembersghost]

Nothing beats falling cardigan tbh. I am usually not a fan of mashups but holy cricket........that was literal perfection. It was the song that made me wish they never dated. Their voices work so well together and if you didn't know the songs,you would probably think it is a collab. It's a shame that it's not popular enough

this one? 💚

i'm still not over the imagery in the cardigan video echoing moments from the falling video to the point where it looks intentional, but was probably entirely coincidence? what, i ask the universe, was the reason?!

here's why i think there's a particularly captivating, almost old hollywood romance aspect to their story (and i always feel like i should be clear i don't say this in a current "shipping" type of way, but it is really an intriguing artistic question) - had they not dated, maybe they could've musically collaborated platonically instead, and it would be brilliant because their voices are so beautifully complementary (it's wild how good mashups are, imagine if they created something with intent that was real!). but. if they hadn't dated, and kept coming in and out of each other's lives, and each other's music, they also wouldn't be who they are. not even personally, but professionally as well. that great unspoken dialogue wouldn't be there. what is the album taylor creates following red if not for him? she likely would've pivoted into pop anyway, but that album would not have been 1989, at least not as we know it. (a couple of red tracks vanish too.) suddenly we've lost style and ootw (goodbye to question...? now as well) and ayhtdws and iwyw and hygtg and this love and i know places and wonderland. what replaces them? we'll never know. does any of the trajectory of her life stay the same? is 1989 even as massive? does she meet the same people, go to the same places? her entire career and catalog and life could suddenly shift on their axis. this is true across taylor's life, eliminate one experience, good or bad, and her path changes, but because 1989 was what it was, and serves now as a kind of crossroads, it stands out.

the same goes for harry in many respects - for example, made in the am no longer has certain songs, but far more than that, HS1 is now a *fundamentally* different record. when he goes solo, what does he create? how does it change him and his approach, his emotions, even the core of his songwriting? it's the epitome of - if one thing had been different, would everything be different today? (and i'm not saying the 1 is about this situation at all, but the wondering what-if still makes that a good way to describe it.) i wish we could hear what they might've made together, and yet i love what they actually have made separately. i wish they could work together at some point, but understand why it's impossible.

it's a little bit of a great love story that was never told, and it's a little bit of a potential musical meeting of talent that never happened, and it's a lot...choices and youth and the mystical way the chips fall.

timing is a funny thing.

#haylor #not me sneaking an asib (1976) reference in here #there really are so many questions...? #their vocals would be so wonderful together and we'll never hear it! #except from the mashup makers <3 #anonymous #letterbox #taylor's voice having to be slightly pitched on this for them to match weirdly makes it more haunting #she sounds like she's coming from a whole other time

[daydreamrry]

So now it feels like this theme actually started way before FL era //

Yes 🦖 let’s single handedly steer this blog down theory lane bc I love that way more than freaking out over nothing happening.

I won’t knock your theory because I actually agree that H has been telling the same story this whole time. But I do think it’s still about a lover he hasn’t met. Come with me, Gossiprry fam.

Okay so I think H has been aware of his person for a long time, like pre 1D, like always knew he had a person. I know for some that sounds crazy but I mean I’ve been connecting with a soul counterpart my whole life and maybe he has or others have too. Like smelling someone in my sleep or feeling someone holding me. Feeling this sense of connection it’s hard to explain if you haven’t felt that before.

Antyways, so I think H has been aware of this person this whole time and that his songs are inspired by feelings he has for SM but are more realistically grounded in pieces of real relationships— hence the continual themes of loss, longing, looking for someone he can’t find. That’s why some of his songs take weird turns at times.

Like Something Great, that part you picked up is strange and veers for me. But I always felt like he was saying what he says in IICF “I’d give up everything just ask me to” he would gladly have chosen a different path in life if it meant he could be with his person. I think he knows that his fame complicates things and in a lot of ways he longs for a simple life with someone. see besties there’s a theme too of Harry seemingly being willing to give up everything for the opportunity to be with the love of his life “he takes a boat out, imagines just sailing away”

Like not all songs follow the narrative but most do. Happily doesn’t and to me that’s a TS song. Then we have Stockholm Syndrome which to me is SM “who’s this shadow holding me hostage… who’s this whisper telling me that I’m never gonna get away… I use the light (another major theme he uses) to guide me home now together we’re alone.” The WDBHG which to me is a TS song tinted by SM emotions of loss, running from pain and shadows, yearning and searching. “Tell me where you’re hiding out” harks back “to come on jump out at me” “come on baby because I need you now” goes to “you’re all I want, so much it’s hurting”

Then we have IICF which to me is ultimate SM song but maybe is also a little based in reality. He definitely uses home as a theme a lot too. But fly is interesting to me because in golden he says “you wait for me in the sky” to me it’s like if I could fly up to the spiritual realms I would be with you. I think he sees her as like angelic or above him literally. Also because this line “I’ve been going out of my mind” relates back “I’m out of my head” “for when you’re lonely and forget who you are” relates to “do you know who you are?” See SM isn’t just lost to Harry but also lost to themselves and I think a lot of his songs are him trying to get through to them and remind them he’s aware of them.

Then Olivia I think is based somewhat in reality like he obviously uses a specific event or relationship idea to tell a story but there’s still this dreamy ethereal quality “when you go” goes to “when it ends” (golden) there’s no if. There’s an end but I’ll get to that.

Walking in the wind is very much about loss and death I think but still SM shows up here “you will find me, in places that we’ve never been, for reasons we don’t understand” and in “I know we’ll be all right child just close your eyes and see I’ll be by your side anytime you’re needing me” so they’re connecting in dreams or spiritually but also where have we heard “we’ll be alright?” Hmmm fine line. See this man is annoying for this. But okay “if you’re lost just look for me in the region of the summer stars” look for me where? In the sky! This person again being lost to themselves “for when you’re lonely and forget who you are” Jesus.

Okay so I think most of HS1 is rooted in reality but I do feel SM vibes in sweet creature because “you’ll bring me home” goes with “I’d be coming right back home to you” and also “don’t know where we’re going but we know where we belong” two lost people who know they are meant to be together. Also SOTT has SM hints with “remember everything will be all right, we can meet again somewhere, somewhere far away from here” I think this is generally a state of the world song but this is also saying hey even if we don’t get to be together we’ll meet again which goes back to “but it’s not the end, I’ll see your face again”

Now we get to fine line. Golden again has SM vibes. When it ends? Okay so it’s not if. He knows it’s ending? Why because he’s awake. When he wakes up he’s alone without SM who he connects with when asleep. It’s so final. Why wouldn’t he say if it ends? You’d think there’s be some hope about it not ending but there isn’t. “Open” to me means fame. His life is on display. But when he changes it to “hoping one day I’m open” or all those changes I think he’s talking about emotional availability and being open to accepting love. Then we have “I can feel you take a hold of who I am and all I’ve ever known, loving yours the antidote” okay harks back “I can feel your heart inside of mine” what’s it the antidote to? Being out of his mind. Instead of fighting this he’s accepting it. He’s accepting to love this person which I think is hard bc he feels literally crazy.

Adore you we have rainbow paradise which is very dreamlike. I think it’s a more general song with hints of SM. Lights up I think is about H but also for SM like hey! Step into the light so I can find you because they are “the light to guide me home” then we have She which I mean there’s so much there. But let’s start with the fact that She lives with him in memory and in present which implies a longstanding connection, she sleeps in his bed with him, she is the first thing he sees (his priority, before anything else)

Okay she, sunflower and fine line all have back masking and are linked. Also Sunflower is volume 6 of what? This same story babies which I take as

1) something great

2) Stockholm syndrome

3) IICF

4) Golden

5) she

6) sunflower

Sunflower to me is H imagining being with she or maybe this is even one of the dreams he shares with her. The reason it’s weird is bc he oscillates between knowing them and wanting to get to know them. Here’s how I reconcile that. “My eyes want you more than a melody” he wants her more than music, than songwriting? That sounds like “I’d give up everything just ask me to” but he says “my eyes” which to me implies physical. He wants to see them in person more than anything. He knows them spiritually or energetically but not in reality. “Wish I could get to know you” wish is an interesting word because it makes it sound like getting to know this person is far fetched. Also we have “I’ve got your face, hung up high in the gallery, out of the shade” soooo high as in idk above him like in the sky? Out of the shade of what? His life, the dark shit he goes through? His fame? Because maybe they’re “scared because he’s so open” Hung up high as in high priority? It’s his gallery. Not Camille’s boyfriends parents gallery, Harry’s gallery. Now this line is weird “I don’t wanna make you feel bad but I’ve been trying hard not to talk to you?” Why would an ex or someone he had a falling out with feel bad he isn’t talking to them?? See this to me is him saying SM I’ve been trying to disconnect from you, not talk to you in my head all the time. Why? Well because she’s coming in between him in reality. “Trying hard not to act a fool” like acting crazy or “out of his head” or how he’s been “going out of my mind” hmmm. “I’m still tongue tied” ties to “he wouldn’t know what to say” but also I think all of SV6 he is trying to explain something but can’t get the words out right like he’s literally saying in that line “I was just tongue tied” like the lyrics before are not a complete thought. He’s literally tongue tied over how to write about or talk about this. “Mouthful of toothpaste before I got to know you” again we were close before I knew you or familiarity before actually knowing the person who he still wants to get to know a few lines later? Confusing. Then all the end sounds sounds like he’s given up and decided to act a fool “the antidote”

Then we have Fine Line with its back masking. I think “we’ll get the drinks in so I’ll get to thinking of her” goes along with the idea in she that she’s sleeping in his bed while he plays pretend. He’s out drinking with friends, being famous, successful but it’s empty and shallow and broken to him. His connection to SM feels real but it’s not tangible. It’s a fine line. Between what? reality/ delusion. Real/ fake. What matters/what doesn’t. I think this connection he feels gets in between him and a lot of things including being with other people. “She sleeps in his bed while he plays pretend” with another partner? I always felt it this way. He’s fucking other people but SM is there. SM is with him energetically no matter who he’s dating and it messes it up bc he knows they aren’t the one and he feels unfulfilled. “Put a price on emotion, I’m looking for something to buy” “you’ve got my devotion but man I can hate you sometimes” yeah because he’s warring with himself! He’s devoted to finding this person but he hates them because it would be easier to not be connected to them at all but he can’t disconnect from them either like he mentions in SV6.

Besties I could write a dissertation and there’s so much I skipped. But my theory is that H and SM been connected a long time and most of his songs tie into this. It’s not just songs he writes tho. Go look up the lyrics of the songs on his pre show playlist, almost all are about longing for a lover, some even deal with dreams. All the weird rainbow dream things from first tour/two ghosts video? Yeah vibes tie back to all this spiritual world stuff. You know the clown costume H wore? Well the story line of the clown is that he is always pining for a woman he can’t have, so he becomes friends with the moon. “I’ll be looking at the moon, but I’ll be seeing you.” Wizard of oz… all roads lead to oz/ just follow the yellow brick road/ going home?

Guys I just really think he hasn’t met this person yet. Because otherwise he’s been pining over someone for ten years! I think it makes more sense he’d be pining for someone like that he hasn’t met because not knowing them in reality leaves no room for resolution. It’s not like he met them and it didn’t work and it hurt but he could move on. He doesn’t even know who they are but they are all up in his grill and he can’t escape it. That’s something that could feed creativity for years as more and more things unfold. I think he has used real relationships and experiences as well as imagination for most of his writing but SM lives with him and colors everything. Some songs could be him imagining being with SM and what he thinks it will be like. I have a lot of theories about what’s going on like why random anons are weirdly picking up on similar SM energy, why he’s with Olivia, what’s happening but we have to wait and see. If I’m right then this is the most epic shit which seems accurate for someone like H considering how hopelessly romantic he is. It probably does go down to his soul. I’m cheesy af but I think their connection has been going on for a very long time in many lives and is very well established which is why he feels it so strongly.

Also babies I’m not sitting here saying it’s all SM all the time for H. I think she creeps into everything (she because of the song I’m not implying gender and if I did through out it’s only because of she). I don’t know if he even means it to at times. He was high a lot on mushrooms writing this which is supposed to connect you to higher realms and more with your inner self. I think a lot of songs can mean multiple things but this was a specific response to another anons theory about romance. I think SS and FL songs could also very easily be interpreted as struggles with fame. 💣💣💣

you guys absolutely blow my mind with your crazy, creative theories 🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯 lemme kiss your brain 😘

#💣 #idk if you claim the bomb emoji but i’ll still give it to you

[littlemisslipbalm]

“I am not going to join your band”

Summary: You’re longtime best friends with Mitch Rowland and you’re in love with him. When he starts working with Harry you tag along and watch as Mitch falls in love with Sarah. But Harry watches them too and you realize you have each other. 

A/N: Why is this lowkey a Mitch fanfic at the beginning OMG - i didn’t mean for it to be like that but it kind of reads that way. I will definitely be doing a part 2 I just wanted to kind of set the stage for what is to come (likely another three part kind of thing). NOT (really) PROOFREAD AND FEEDBACK MUCH APPRECIATED (I love hearing from you)

Word Count: 2.6k 

Warnings: mentions of anxiety, otherwise this is just HS1 Studio FLUFF

Part 2

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All your life had been exceptionally boring. And you had no complaints. You were from a family with two parents, two siblings, and a pet. You went to public school and performed well, but never excelled in anything because you didn’t care to. You chose to go to college just an hour away from your hometown, a small liberal arts school. Your life was, by all accounts, average. You weren’t super popular and you weren’t bullied excessively around town. You just existed there.

The only thing, or person, rather, in your life that you really thought made it exceptional was Mitch. Mitch grew up next door to you when you were kids, he was a few years older but he didn’t mind hanging with you. You eventually became best friends and did everything together. Sneaking in through his window to play with his pet lizard when you were seven. Sneaking out with him to drive around in his car and drink stolen alcohol when you were sixteen. You did everything with Mitch. You thought he was your soulmate. While he was quiet with others and that sometimes freaked them out, you either enjoyed the silence or got to see his truly imaginative and beautiful personality.

Mitch was a musician all his life and you sat with him when he learned to play on his thrifted first ever guitar and attended every one of his high school rock band’s shows, even if that meant sneaking into a bar at fourteen.  

Staying close to home wasn’t hard because that’s where Mitch was. Even if nothing ever had even remotely happened between you and Mitch, you held out hope. He had thought about it just once, if neither of you found anyone else it might be nice to have a family together, but he had dismissed it quickly. Mitch saw you as a little sister and loved having you as his best friend who he could tell anything to, but it was never going to be anything more for him.

So there you and Mitch were, living your little lives in Middle America, nothing to your names, but some average education, affordable apartments, and going-nowhere jobs. That is, until one day Mitch’s roommate called him up to ask if he could come play guitar for some musician’s album he was working on. The musician’s guitarist had called in sick and Mitch’s roommate had volunteered Mitch for the job. That’s when Mitch’s life changed, but what about yours?

It was heading into the second week of Mitch working on the musician’s album, who you had found out to be the famous Harry Styles. Mitch had come home after the first day and called you to come over. When you arrived, he told you how Harry and him had gotten along so well and Harry had invited him to keep coming back and playing on the album. You had never seen Mitch so excited and you were happy for him. You couldn’t help the twinge in your heart though when he kept bringing up someone named ‘Sarah’. She was apparently the drummer and had been very nice to Mitch, as well.

Now Mitch had this whole other life and you were sat there like what the hell am I supposed to do now? Then on that Saturday evening, after a long day in the studio for Mitch, he had come over to watch a movie and unwind with you, he asked if you wanted to tag along to the studio with him on Monday and see how it’s going. He was always telling you how cool everything was and you were quick to jump at the chance to both hang out with Mitch and see him doing what he loved.

On Monday, Mitch picked you up and drove you to the studio. When you got inside the building you were already amazed. The place was small, but so incredibly cool to you. You had never been to a real recording studio before and one of the things you and Mitch loved to do together was music - listening to it, playing it, buying it, so this was an unforgettable experience. Mitch walked through one of the bigger studios doors and the two of you entered the part of the studio that was where all the soundboards and tech was.

Harry, the man who had practically fallen in love with Mitch as well, was inside the room already. He turned to Mitch and beamed his large smile, his teeth a shiny white. You could tell why everyone in the world was in love with Harry just from that smile, it was truly an ‘award-winning smile’. “Mitch!” he exclaimed and gave him a tight hug. Mitch only smiled softly. When Harry pulled back his eyes flitted over to your figure standing just slightly behind Mitch. “You’ve brought a friend ‘round, that is so lovely!” he first said to Mitch and then turned back to you, “What is your name, love?” You extended your hand and said your name, Harry only glanced at your hand and then pulled you into a hug as well, a slightly less exuberant hug, but a hug nonetheless. You loved Mitch, but you didn’t understand how this bright and bubbly man had warmed up so quickly to Mitch’s quiet and solemn exterior.

Harry looked at Mitch with something in his eye you couldn’t quite place after the three of you chatted for awhile. “Well, you’re very lucky to have this man in your life, Y/N, he’s one of the best guitarists I’ve ever met, like, holy fuck, he is good.” You smiled at his praise for Mitch, and glanced adoringly at Mitch. Mitch only ducked his head at Harry’s enthusiastic praise. Whatever reasons Harry had for adoring Mitch, you were pretty sure it meant Mitch’s chance to get out of his old life, including you.  

Then, it was time for them to get to work. Harry and Mitch had already written one song together, or at least Mitch had helped Harry to finish it. Today, Harry wanted the band to play it for the first time all together. Harry had told you to make yourself comfortable on the couch in the soundboard room. You watched as the band set up all of their equipment and you felt your ears burn when you saw Mitch talk to the woman you identified as Sarah. You didn’t want to be jealous, you hated feeling possessive over a man that you weren’t even with, but you just felt like you were watching Mitch slip from your life more and more as every moment passed.

The band started playing the opening chords of what Harry had called Woman when he said into his microphone, “Take 1...of many for Woman.” You smiled as you watched Mitch get into his guitar playing for the song, he sounded amazing. But as much as you liked to watch Mitch play, you couldn’t help but stare at Harry when he began to sing. He was talented, beyond talented, his voice sounded angelic to you. He grooved a bit to the instruments as he sang the lyrics. It was a beautiful song, you thought, wishing you could have someone write a song like that about you.  

As the song reached over half way through, Mitch breaks into a rad guitar solo and for the first time since Harry began singing you looked back over to Mitch. That was kind of where the song ended, there was just a final time when Harry proclaims “Woman!” and it ends. You weren’t sure if it was normal to stand and applaud after a studio recording session, but you did anyway. You jumped up and down a little and clapped. The entire band smiled back at you and Harry leaned into the microphone, “Y/N, why don’t you come in here and join us?” You happily agreed and went into the adjoined room.

Harry told everyone to take a breather for about five, so the band was drinking water and chatting. When you got there you immediately belinned to Mitch and began to gush over how much you loved his solo and his playing throughout. Mitch talked in hushed tones back to you, saying where he thought he might speed up or slow down at parts. You didn’t notice Harry had walked up behind you and you jumped a bit at his voice. “Didn’t mean to give you a fright, love. How’d you think it sounded?” Harry inquired. You tilted your head to look up at him, while Mitch was perched on an amp, Harry stood tall beside you. “It was lovely, the lyrics were epic and I loved the beat of it. I was just telling Mitch how amazing his guitar solo was…” your cheeks brightening when you mentioned Mitch. Harry had some knowing smile again.

“You’ll have to thank Sarah for delivering that beat, however, Mitch and I wrote those lyrics,” Harry continued the conversation with you. You couldn’t believe how normal he was for being a world famous singer and boy band member - just a year ago. One Direction was a huge deal, yet here Harry was asking you how you’d liked the song  and talking to you like you knew a thing or two about music. You and Harry talked about the song for a bit more, Mitch staying silent for almost the entirety of the conversation, you noticed his eyes wandered over to Sarah who was talking to Adam, the bassist. Then, it was time for Harry to listen to the song when the tech crew came back. When he did, he made notes for both the band and the tech crew and everyone got back to work. On the third go around of the song, you decided you were done giving them a round of applause.

They worked on Woman for half the day. When lunch time rolled around, Harry decided he was happy with how the song sounded, ‘good for now’ was all he said, obviously still not satisfied with how it sounded. During lunch you sat beside Mitch and across from Harry. The more you got to know Harry, the more you liked him. He was very playful and free spirited, but also took his passion very seriously and was endlessly grateful for the opportunities he had been given. As you warmed up to Harry, you noticed Mitch being a bit more animated. Had he been keeping his guard up because he wasn’t sure if you and Harry would get along?

There was still sometime before the break ended, but everyone had finished eating. You excused yourself to the bathroom, but when you came back, you saw Mitch occupied with Sarah. You looked helplessly on as he smiled and laughed with her. You felt left out as you really didn’t know anyone else but Mitch there. Sure you had gotten to know Harry a bit, but he was a rockstar and a guy you barely knew, you couldn’t just go up to him and ask to become your new best friend. Harry noticed you standing alone and walked up behind you, this time knowing to tap your shoulder to make you aware of his presence. You turned around at the touch you felt on your right shoulder, you were greeted with Harry’s bright eyes and soft smile. “Do you play any instruments?” Harry asked you. That’s random. “Eh, I can play some piano and guitar. I love piano, but I don’t keep up with it as much as I should.” “Well, you should keep coming here with Mitch. You could get some practice in, we’ve got a piano here somewhere,” Harry said as he raised his head and started to look dramatically around the room. “‘S right behind you,” you smiled at the man who had given Mitch a chance and now seemed to be giving you a chance, too. Harry whipped his head around, “Ahh…Well I’ll make sure it’s tuned for you for tomorrow.” You thanked him and the two of you began chatting about Harry’s visions for the album.

Three Weeks Later

“I am not joining your band, Harry, I’m not even that good of a piano player!” You threw your hands up. “Will you hush? You’re amazing, quit denying it,” Harry grinned as he pinned your arms down to your sides and flipped you around, “Now play exactly what you showed me earlier.” He marched you to the piano and plopped you into the accompanying stool. You huffed a sigh and placed your fingers on the keys. “You don’t even have piano on all-” “Ap, bahp, bahp! Plaayyy…” Harry cut you off and then added, “Please?” You couldn’t help but roll your eyes. Such a baby.

You had been coming with Mitch to the studio for almost a month now. After your first day, Harry had retuned the idle piano for you and you had messed around with it when they weren’t recording. You and Harry had become closer over the time, he realized you were almost the female version of Mitch, but slightly less shy and slightly more opinionated. And you had realized that Harry was the kindest man you knew, only after Mitch. Mitch and Sarah had also become closer in the past three weeks. As much as it pained you to watch, you could never look away. The band and you started to go out every night and every night Mitch and Sarah always ended up sitting apart from everyone else wrapped in their own world. It hurt your heart so much, but you pushed through, happy to be around all the amazing people you had gotten to know. As well, whenever you were left alone, Harry always seemed to pop up, chatting about what was next for the album and what you had been doing on the piano earlier in the day.

Today, you had sought out Harry, wanting to show him something you’d been playing with since yesterday. When he heard what you played he brought up something he had mentioned a couple weeks ago, that you had thought was a joke, he wanted you to join the band - to play keys. You laughed it off, but Harry persisted. Now he was having you play the little random piece you had made up for everyone: the band and the crew. Your stomach was doing flips and your heart was in your throat. This was one of the main reasons you didn’t think you could be in Harry’s band, anxiety. It was minor, but you definitely had some - if your nerves in your physical body and your thoughts in your brain were any indication.

Finally, you began to play. It was the tune of what would become Sweet Creature. When you finished the early sound of it, there was silence. Sarah was the first to clap and then everyone followed quickly after. You ducked your head down and then looked up again with a smile on your face. It widened when you looked over at Harry and Mitch right by your side. You had never had people saying something of yours was great. Harry and Mitch stayed in the studio room with you, excited at the new prospect of a song. The album had reached a roadblock a couple days ago. Harry wasn’t liking any of the songs they were making and he was struggling to write any new ones. This, your art, was a breakthrough. After you had played, Mitch picked up one of the acoustic guitars laying around and began to play the same tune on the strings. Harry began to hum along. They twiddled with your tune a bit, but eventually they had to let it go for the time being. Lunch had ended and they still had to keep working on the other unfinished songs.

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#harry #harry styles #my writing #also now she's gonna be in the band #I'm not going to be in your band #harry styles fanfiction #harry styles fluff #harry styles x reader #harry styles x you #harry styles x y/n #harry styles fan fic #harry styles fanfic #harry styles imagine #can I say #Mitch Rowland x reader #is that allowed?? #bahaha #it feels wrong #love you Mitch tho #love Sarah too #enjoy!

[thewebcomicsreview]

Homestuck 2 has updated! Christmas is ruined!

Previously, on Homestuck 2: Literally nothing happened, and a non-trivial portion of the patreon supporters gave up and quit. Can this update pull a Christmas miracle and right the sinking ship of Homestuck 2? Probably not, but let’s find out! 

We’re back in Candyland, having completely skipped over Karkat and John talking about Dave’s apparent death, because this comic is only interested in long conversations when they’re boring and not about anything at all. That’s alright, I got the gist of it.

When Karkat is finally gone, John still doesn’t move. It isn’t as though he has nowhere else to go, since there are quite a few places he might attempt to make himself useful, for better or for worse.

So, it appears to be morning now, meaning that John’s son has been missing in a war zone for almost 24 hours and I guess John literally forgot Harry existed?

Prediction: This conversation is going to end in some variant of “Where is our son?” “Oh shit!”

ROXY: hey john can u do me a quick solid

ROXY: actly idk how quick itll be but its definitely solid

ROXY: harry anderson says i just missed u being here but could u skip back on over?

What.

So, I went back and checked, and apparently nowhere is it explicitly said that Harry Anderson was also looking for the Vriskas, so I guess he....stayed home? Which makes sense, I suppose, but maybe a “Stay here I’ll go look for them” would’ve helped. I wasn’t the only one who thought Harry was out looking for Vriska too. 

ROXY: sup

ROXY: follow me

ROXY: well were just going to my room so i guess technically u know the way

JOHN: haha ok.

John follows, trying to shake the ominous feeling he got from what she’d just said. He’d been in and out of this house a lot in the past few days. Why should this be any different?

Is Roxy....horny? Is the solid she’s looking for John’s dick? I mean, that’d make her saying Harry wasn’t available kind of weird, but I think this framing is a fake-out.

...

What the fuck is that lamp, Jesus Christ it’s awful. Just a cat’s asshole, facing the door.

ROXY: r u kiddin me rn egbert

JOHN: i’m not? unless you were, in which case yeah lets say i was also kidding.

JOHN: oh my god, i’m sorry, i don’t know why this making me freak out.

ROXY: i remember our past boot knockin with fondness but that is a situation im not interested in revisiting

Oh hey, it was a fakeout. Good job, Homestuck 2. You successfully implied something just through the art. Art which, by the way, looks a lot better than the last chapter. There are backgrounds and everything. I wonder if Chapter 15 was rushed out due to Hiveswap and that’s why it was so weak?

He’s almost embarrassed by how relieved he feels. So what if his ex wife wanted to hook up? Shouldn’t that be a situation he could navigate? Don’t people like to find solace in human physical connection during dire times? Why did the idea of it make his mind white out in panic more than, say, any number of the traumas he just experienced?

I’m not the biggest fan of the way the narration is going JOHN IS AFRAID OF SEX WITH ROXY LIKE HE’S A TEENAGE VIRGIN AGAIN (LIKE IN HS1!) AND IT DOESN’T REALLY MAKE SENSE PLEASE REMEMBER THIS IT’LL BE IMPORTANT LATER, but okay, noted.

ROXY: u said ur house is gone??

JOHN: yep.

JOHN: completely.

ROXY: jeez

Heh. I like Roxy, still. 

JOHN: so i just sat there, watching, trying to figure out why watching my house burn down felt like i was being released from prison.

If this comic actually uses the phrase “home” and “stuck” in the same sentence I’m turning this blog around and we’ll go right back to Winnipeg.

ROXY: aight then no wind bending just use your mangrit

Roxy flexes, the corner of her mouth pulled up into a familiar grin. John feels his guts, so recently calmed, twist up into knots again. Her eyebrows shoot up and the smile loosens. He must have shown something on his face.

ROXY: ok or just like push when i push

ROXY: we both got sick muscles

ROXY: no other adjectives necessary

I feel unqualified to talk about how hard Roxy is pushing the June Egbert thing.

....Is that the fucking portal from Hiveswap under a tarp? Also hi Candy Callie, appearing in HS2 for the first time. One of the Calliope’s is nonbinary, I think, but I honestly can’t remember and I think it’s Meat Calliope? 

JOHN: do i get to know what that big thing under the sheet is?

ROXY: hmmmmmm no

JOHN: oh ok.

JOHN: are you sure? i mean, it seems like a pretty prominent feature of the room.

JOHN: space.

JOHN: wherever we are.

ROXY: and a totally mysterious n COMPLETELY inconspicuous feature it will have to remain for now

ROXY: we r kinda in a hurry here fyi

ROXY: and by that i mean

ROXY: we are in precisely the amount of hurry that means im excused from having to a that specific q rn

JOHN: right, sorry.

JOHN: i will pay no attention to the object behind the curtain.

ROXY: u catch on fast egbert

Oh thing HS2 has not been great at is that it has a lot of plot mysteries that are supposed to keep us enticed but they don’t really get implanted into the audience’s head (Remember Vrissy mysteriously collapsing that one time? Probably not, she did it off screen and the boys kind of laughed it off). This one’s hard to miss.

JOHN: so... this is all downstairs?

JOHN: it seems like you had a lot of work done.

ROXY: well no not x actly

ROXY: were in the old meteor

It’s kind of weird how this meteor keeps popping up like this. 

CALLIOPE: besides, hUman divorces are even more fascinating than i had ever imagined, and being able to witness yoUrs in motion was an honoUr.

This is an unexpected but not unwelcome direction for Callie to have gone.

CALLIOPE: ah right, right. yoU're probably a little cUrioUs as to where the dickens we are.

CALLIOPE: how much do yoU know aboUt black holes?

Oh, wow, we’re going right there, then. This does seem like a bit of a reaction to complaints HS2 wasn’t shmoovin’ enough, but maybe I’m reading too much into it.

CALLIOPE: no, i mean, what if oUr whole WORLD was inside a black hole.

JOHN: ok.

A’ight, that got a laugh out of me

JOHN: ugh, i fucking KNEW it!

JOHN: i'm so sorry.

JOHN: i'm so sorry that i put the earth inside a black hole everyone. ):

I like this conversation a lot. 

ROXY: iirc at least part of y u got so weepy was the fact that u couldnt believe a version of earth existed where ppl got 2 watch more mcconaughey films than you

JOHN: listen.

JOHN: i simply don't think you all appreciated the gift you were given.

Quite a bit, in fact.

ROXY: ur not gonna enter a weird time vortex and change the trajectory of a little girls life with the power of love

JOHN: aw.

Roxy and John have a good dynamic. 

CALLIOPE: bUt Upon her departUre, the rift closed for good. as far as i can see, there's simply no way for Us to commUnicate with the world oUtside the black hole.

CALLIOPE: i woUld certainly be very sUrprised to find oUt that anyone had managed sUch a thing!

JOHN: ...right.

John’s phone has very good coverage, since he was able to talk to Terezi in the epilogues, as we’re being subtly reminded of here with that ... before the “right”. I wonder if it still works after alt-Calliope left.

CALLIOPE: oUr exclUsion from the overarching coUrse of events which governs all reality means that oUr existence here is liable to dramatic and violent Upheaval.

CALLIOPE: to pUt it another way, becaUse nothing in here "matters", we are likely to be sUbjected to things which are a bit bats in the belfry, for no reason other than it's totally insignificant to the wider canon of reality.

CALLIOPE: and mUch thoUgh i am personally titillated by some of the conseqUences of this predicament, it is a degrading way for Us to live. u_u

Okay, so we are now being explicitly told that living in the black hole is fucking with the characters and is part of the reason they make such baffling decisions, like Rose not telling Kanaya about Yiffy, or naming her daughter “Yiffy” in the first place.

CALLIOPE: we need yoU to free vriska from the clUtches of oUr misgUided friend jane, and bring her here, to the singUlarity.

ROXY: weve been calling it the plot point

CALLIOPE: yes, the plot point is a key part of oUr plan

CALLIOPE: as far as we have been able to sUrmise, the only remaining method for escaping oUr grim confinement depends on leveraging the UniqUe properties of this location to create an event of sUch catalcysmic proportions that it simply cannot be contained within the black hole any more.

CALLIOPE: something SO dramatic, so hyper-relevant, that it becomes ontologically impossible for anyone to ignore it.

CALLIOPE: for that, we need an individUal of sUfficient narrative cloUt, so to speak.

CALLIOPE: and to liberate her, who better than the embodiment of the aspect of freedom itself?

So, the plan is literally for Vriska to be such a Huge 8itch that the black hole itself gets sick of her and yeets Earth C out of its own event horizon to freedom.

This is actually a great plan. 

And that’s Hamsteak. This definitely feels like a bit of a reaction to complaints about HS2, but hey, I dig it, I guess? Definite improvement over the last chapter.

#homestuck #homestuck 2 liveblog

[gracereadstoomanybooks]

answering questions I’ve been asked on TikTok✨

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QUESTION: how did you get into reading?

So, when I was in middle school (many moons ago) we had this thing called AR Testing. Basically, you read a book and take a test on it—the questions were things that happened in the book, it was really simple. If you got a good grade, you got points. The more points you earned, the more eligible you were for the reading party at the end of each semester. Me, being the nerd I am, got top of my class because I went through 8th grade level books like it was nothing. The librarian at my school brought me books from the high school to read since everything was easy for me, and alas, my addiction began. And now that I have adult money, it’s a true addiction. Also, telling my father “I’m bored” and his response being, “go read a book or something” so thanks dad.

QUESTION: what’s one book you ALWAYS recommend to people?

This one is tough because I’ve read THOUSANDS of books, but if I had to choose one, it would probably be Confess by Colleen Hoover. I fell in love with her work in high school when I first read Ugly Love, but Confess is the type of book that pulls at your heart strings, y’all. It has everything people love: humor, sexual tension, drama, love. GO BUY THE DAMN BOOK. Or honestly any book by Colleen Hoover—she’s a fucking amazing author.

QUESTION: outside of making TikToks, what do you do for a living?

I currently work at a restaurant and hate every second of it. If anyone tells you to become a server, DONT. It’s not worth the hassle, I promise you. Sure, you can make decent money but the amount of rude customers and shitty tips you receive each shift is very disheartening. If you really need a job, do anything BUT work in the food industry.

QUESTION: what’s your wattpad story about?

First question: which one? I have about 30 drafts sitting there waiting to be posted. But, I’m going to assume you’re talking about the Harry Styles fan fiction I’ve been working on for the past 4 years and haven’t had the courage to post. I’ll tell you a little about it: Elaine Aldridge is forced into a betrothal to a man she’s never met & loathes. She goes to his court and realizes things aren’t what they truly seem. And the guard her future husband sticks on her??? None other than Mr. Harry Styles. Add in some magic & deaths and you’ve got my story— The First Prince. (Honestly, that’s an extremely shitty description so if you wanna check it out go to my wattpad account)

QUESTION: how old are you?

Ahem. . . twenty-one.

QUESTION: what is your dream career?

Being a published author and having people rave about my books. That’s all. Or, an editor for a publishing company. Imagine reading all day and being paid for it🤩

QUESTION: what was your least favorite read of 2020?

I already KNOW I’m gonna get shit for this but....... the wicked king. YALL I LITERALLY COULDNT GET THROUGH IT IM SO SORRY, I STILL HAVENT FINISHED IT

QUESTION: current favorite author?

Sarah. J. Maas. I don’t know what it is about her writing style, but it’s addicting. Throne of Glass is hands down the best series I’ve ever read. A Court of Thorns and Roses is the first book I’ve EVER reread. Her stories truly suck you in and hold onto you—you get lost so easily in her writing and it’s like once you’re done with a series, nothing will compare. Or, at least that’s how I felt after finishing Kingdom of Ash. Honorable mentions: Jennifer L. Armentrout, Penelope Douglas, L.J Shen, Elle Kennedy and Kennedy Fox.

QUESTION: any recommendations/tips to give to a new reader?

I’ve always given this advice to people who want to get into reading: find what you like and start with that. If you like romance, I’ve got a list for you to choose from. Mystery? Another list. Sci-fi? I GOT YOU. Fantasy? Yes! Sports fiction? It might take me a second but I’ll find you a book. Nonfiction? I’m zero help in that category, honestly. The point of the matter is that you’re never going to enjoy a book if you aren’t interested in the underlying topics.

QUESTION: do you ever find yourself comparing your life to fictional life?

Yes. All the time. I daydream about being apart of the Inner Circle and living in Terrasen with Aelin and Rowan. I think about what it would be like to have real powers and a mate. It drives my boyfriend crazy—but he loves me anyway.

QUESTION: what are your most anticipated books of 2021?

Here’s a list:

A Court of Silver Flames by Sarah J. Maas

The Crown of Gilded Bones by Jennifer L. Armentrout

Gods and Monsters by Shelby Mahurin

Crescent City 2 (Untitled) by Sarah J. Maas

A Vow So Bold and Deadly by Brigid Kemmerer (I just ordered this one & it arrives tomorrow)

Blessed Monsters by Emily A. Duncan

QUESTION: why did you start a Tumblr?

Honestly, I used to love tumblr when I was in grade school (way too young to be on here then but what else is new). I like having an extra space to get my questions and comments out without having to compress it into a 60 second video for TikTok to see. Tumblr is a good place to blog & post things like this.

QUESTION: what’s your favorite song right now?

I’ve listened to Carry You by Novo Amor every day for the past two months and I cry each time.

QUESTION: why write Harry Styles fan fiction?

Simple: I love Harry Styles. I’ve been a fan of him and One Direction since they were on X FACTOR. Read that again. X. Factor. I used to watch their performances on YouTube before WMYB even came out. Of course, I love all of the 1D boys but I was always a Harry gal. And I look up to him in a way—I’ve read things about people wishing they knew him personally and honestly? I would never want to meet him. I like the version of him I’ve cooked up in my brain over the past 10 years. I like the symbiotic relationship I have with his music. Fine Line is a ✨masterpiece✨. HS1 is a ✨work of art✨.

now, some topics I’ve been asked way too many times and want to finally get to:

QUESTION: political views?

the saying “anyone but trump” has been in my brain for the past four years. No, I’m not a republican. No, I’m not a democrat. I like to think of myself as a progressive (ahem, liberal) Did I vote for a democratic candidate? Yes, and I’d do it again and again until the US isn’t one of the worst countries—I’m sorry, businesses— to be apart of. I wanted Bernie but got Biden, and I’m alright with that. And my girl Kamala🥳

QUESTION: how did you feel about the BLM protests?

I went to multiple BLM protests and donated a lot of funds to BLM & other organizations. It’s 2021, people... stop being fucking RACIST. And don’t be afraid to call racist people out! Black Lives Matter, even if no one is posting about it anymore.

QUESTION: thoughts on abortion?

your body your choice, queen! not my uterus, not my problem.

QUESTION: there was a comment on an old video of yours talking about r*pe, why did you delete the comment?

I made a video when I first started my account on TikTok about reading in public and feeling “turned on” by it. Go watch it if you don’t know what I’m talking about. BUT, some ignorant male decided to comment and say “this is how girls get r*ped”. Whew. So. I deleted the comment because ....

I am a victim of sexual assault. Along with a lot of other women. 1 in 5 women have been victims of sexual assault. Talking about being r*ped isn’t funny.

No one else needed to see his comment. I reported it immediately and his account was shut down.

I never got justice for what happened to me, and the fact that some random male—who had never even met me or seen me before my video showed up on his FYP—had the nerve to comment that? Unacceptable.

this question isn’t as controversial but

QUESTION: what’s the best way to get out of a toxic relationship?

okay, let me just start off by saying that the people around you who love and support you are going to be your backbone. Leaving a toxic situation is hard, and every situation is different, but my best piece of advice to offer you is don’t be afraid to ask for help. Your loved ones are going to be there for you when you need them, even if you don’t believe they will. If you explain what’s happening, someone you know and love will drop whatever it is their doing to make sure you get out safely. good luck my babes.

now, back to our regularly scheduled program:

QUESTION: any tips on making tiktoks?

Literally none. I post what I think is funny and relatable and if anyone agrees, I’m satisfied. Even if it’s one view, it’s good enough for me. So I guess my one tip is to not base your life off of an app and followers.

QUESTION: favorite Harry Styles fanfic?

DONT MAKE ME CHOOSE. Duplicity is up there, along with Stall 1&2, and Kiwi. After? Absolutely not.

QUESTION: favorite WEBTOON?

y’all already KNOW. LORE OLYMPUS BY USEDBANDAID. Rachel is a genius and I have reread the series a million times. Hades is my soulmate and Apollo can rot in the fiery pits of the Underworld. also, if we’re talking about other webcomics, reading Walk on Water on mangadex...🤫

QUESTION: favorite movie?

Howls Moving Castle. I will be getting my “a heart is a heavy burden” tattoo very very soon.

QUESTION: I read your Elain theory on tumblr, can you explain a little more?

I thought I was pretty straightforward but I’ll say it again: she is always the “good” one and it’s too suspicious. SJM has already given one Archeron sister a happy ending, Nesta’s is obviously inevitable, but Elain? She has too many options for a happy ending. Lucien, who is her “mate”. Azriel, who is intrigued by her slightly. Her human guy—I don’t remember his name—who is disgusted that she’s not human anymore. Or, alone, planting flowers all day. BUT! My point is that she’s not truly happy. She was forced into the Cauldron just like Nesta. She was ripped away from the life she loved so dearly and didn’t want to give up. The man she was going to marry now hates her guts because she’s a High Fae. She has the perfect set up for a villain plot line and I’m all here for it.

well, that’s all I feel like doing tonight. hope you enjoyed my little q&a! be kind, and talk to you later! byeeee!

#a court of silver flames #acotar #harry styles #one direction #sarah j maas #throne of glass #wattpad #tiktok #elain archeron #howls moving castle #lore olympus #q&a time #walk on water #persephone #lore olympus hades

[hearttstopper]

“i have a lot of thoughts about this too especially with the whole watermelon sugar/nameless thing” pls miss britt share ur thoughts id love to hear them

This got so long. I’m really sorry. My thoughts about HS2/In Watermelon Sugar/a bunch of other random stuff under the cut.

These are all thoughts that are only vaguely connected, and stuff that I’m sure has been said a hundred times before mixed with a ton of my own personal conjecture, so please bear that in mind… This is just like total rambling from me. 

But I have been fascinated with Harry’s connections to In Watermelon Sugar since we first heard the stupid rumors about the song. Especially the quote from the book about the narrator’s name. That quote got me thinking about how when it comes to Harry, tons of people only see what they want to see based on whatever ‘version’ of Harry is most appealing to them.

Read these quotes from the book with that in mind:

My Name

“I guess you are kind of curious as to who I am, but I am one of those who do not have a regular name. My name depends on you. Just call me whatever is in your mind.

If you are thinking about something that happened a long time ago: Somebody asked you a question and you did not know the answer.

That is my name.

Perhaps it was raining very hard.

That is my name.

Or somebody wanted you to do something. You did it. Then they told you what you did was wrong—“Sorry for the mistake,”—and you had to do something else.

That is my name.

Perhaps it was a game you played when you were a child or something that came idly into your mind when you were old and sitting in a chair near the window.

That is my name.

Or you walked someplace. There were flowers all around.

That is my name.

Perhaps you stared into a river. There was something near you who loved you. They were about to touch you. You could feel this before it happened. Then it happened.

That is my name.”

and:

“My Name. I do not have a regular name. I am a mystery to you. I wished Margaret would leave me alone…”

— Richard Brautigan, In Watermelon Sugar

The narrator of In Watermelon Sugar isn’t just a nameless figure, he actually invites the reader to give him whatever name they find most fitting for him. A positive connotation, a negative one, a nonsensical one… whatever you, the reader, decides. And that feels like a very apt description of Harry and the various ways fans have perceived him from the very beginning… by now, so many people have projected so many different images onto Harry that over time it has completely blurred all lines as to who Harry actually is. 

Here’s a review I found of the book that summarizes the world within In Watermelon Sugar better than I can (as well as somehow still aligning perfectly with the concept of struggling with fame and identity, etc): “Much of the sense of disparity in [in Watermelon Sugar] results from the incongruity inherent in the person of the narrator, who insists that everything in iDEATH is exactly as it should be—the people gentle, pleasant, and tolerant. Despite the narrator’s insistence that iDEATH is a stable Utopia, however, many of the things that happen are fraught with pain and violence. Balancing the easygoing and vegetarian people with their light chores and flower-filled parades are the man-eating tigers, the burning of the mutilated corpses of inBOIL and his gang, Margaret’s suicide, and the emptiness felt by the narrator but never named.” 

So essentially within In Watermelon Sugar, we’re shown that in the surrealist, post-apocalyptic setting of iDeath, things are only perfect on a surface level. Everyone in this world appears to be happy (or at least, they should be), but a closer look reveals the true nature of iDeath: it’s beyond grim. And so despite the happy, shiny surface, being a part of that happy, peaceful commune is unable to cure the narrator of the inexplicable emptiness he feels inside of him. (‘All the lights couldn’t put out the dark running through my heart.’ ‘Having sex and being sad.’)

The sadness that Harry has already admitted is very prevalent in HS2 has already been implied to be about a ‘breakup,’ but it’s clear to me that Lights Up is anything but a breakup song… (“[Lights Up is about] freedom, self-reflection, self-discovery, things that I had thought about and wrestled with…” + “For me, it’s a very uplifting song. In some places, it’s kind of dark, but to me, it’s like, very liberating. I think, you know, over the past couple of years… It’s about self-reflection, and freedom. It feels very free to me, which is I guess things that I’ve been trying to process… I guess, kinda wrestled with a little over the last couple of years. It’s kinda like, about accepting all of those things.”)

His sadness/whatever emotions and problems he’s been wrestling with have seemingly spanned the course of a few years, and are very personal to him… which is why I feel that releasing Lights Up as the first single sets the tone for the rest of his album centering around his own identity. The line “Lights up and they know who you are, know who you are… Do you know who you are?” poses the question - who is Harry? - and then, “Shine! Step into the light… Shine! So bright sometimes. Shine! I’m not ever going back.” shows us Harry having the strength and bravery to overcome his fears (stepping into the light, although it’s ‘so bright sometimes’ - overwhelming) and reclaim/express his own misunderstood identity.

A lot of people have been trying to tie the In Watermelon Sugar thing back to someone else, but at this point I completely disagree. Not only have we seen him make literary references in the past (the Charles Bukowski reference in Woman), but… given everything that he’s said about Lights Up so far – which was surprisingly a lot – I think that Harry genuinely just took a lot of inspiration from the book because it seemed to hit close to home with his own feelings about self-acceptance and living an authentic life within the public eye. 

I think a lot about the scene we’ve yet to see from the directors cut - a room full of many different iterations of Harry.

“My name depends on you… Just call me whatever is in your mind.” 

Which leads me back to more total conjecture on my end, but I think that when Harry initially set out on tour / kicked off his solo career, he seemed determined to continue performing within the safety of the walls that had been built around him, so to speak. In one of the interviews he did earlier, he talked about tackling his first album from the perspective of ‘bowling with the bumpers up’ - he wanted to play it safe. He didn’t want to veer too far out of his own comfort zone and fuck it all up… and in doing so, he seemed to hold himself back quite a lot. “I wanted to see if people would enjoy an album without knowing everything about me.” 

I think that heading into writing with that mindset explains songs like ‘Complicated Freak’ and ‘Medicine’ being scrapped and excluded from being released on HS1. In retrospect, all of his tour - and especially Medicine - seem a lot like Harry dipping his toes in the water. Being totally presumptuous again, but I find it likely that Harry has had it ingrained in his mind for a long time that he needs to fit certain molds and keep certain narratives alive in order to continue to be successful. And I imagine that this idea is not his own, but instead something that has been hammered into his head over and over from a young age. And I would guess that a lot of anxiety and doubt has stemmed from that - go back and watch that shaky first performance of Medicine and tell me what you think he was likely feeling in that moment. But again, it circles right back to the strength and bravery of doing what he knows needs to be done to expel all of the darkness inside of him - stepping into the light. (“Never going back now / Be so sweet if things just stayed the same.” It’d be so sweet if he could live in that fantasyland forever.)

Anyway. I really don’t think Harry was at all prepared for just how many people would show up to support him in that sense… but his own community just rolled up in droves, bringing a total outpouring of love for him every single night. He had entire arenas lit up in rainbows, people bringing hilarious and heartfelt signs, flags after flags after flags after flags… all in celebration of him and the feelings of safety, strength, and bravery that he has continuously imparted back onto his fans. It was such a queer lovefest that even other artists likened his tour to “pride parades every night.” That’s so unbelievably powerful? I can’t think of any other artist who’s crowds do that for them… not even gay icons like Elton John? I still maintain that one of the most incredible things to have come out of HSLOT was the safe spaces he + his fans created for one another. It meant a lot to us, and it clearly meant a lot to him:

“The tour, that affected me deeply. It really changed me emotionally. Having people come to sing the songs… For me, the tour was the biggest thing in terms of being more accepting of myself, I think. I kept thinking, “Oh, wow. They really want me to be myself. And be out and do it.” That’s the thing I’m most thankful for, of touring. I feel like the fans in the room — it’s this environment where people come to feel like they can be themselves. There’s nothing that makes me feel more myself than to be in this whole room of people. It made me realize people want to see me experiment and have fun. Nobody wants to see you fake it.” 

I think that going on tour, and seeing the reaction and the acceptance of his audience, definitely made him want to take the bumpers down… to ‘be out and do it’ because ‘nobody wants to see him fake it.’ It seemed to help him massively in terms of his own ‘self acceptance and the things he’s been wrestling with’ and to make an incredibly, incredibly long winded answer short, it’s why I STILL do not think that releasing Lights Up on National Coming Out Day was in any way incidental. I think that was a big part of what Harry meant when he said that no one wanted to see him ‘faking’ things.

And… that’s basically it, I think, for now. I’ve just been sitting here nodding along at everything he’s been showing us the last few weeks… Impressed by the direction that he seems to be heading. And taking notes. I’ll go ahead and shut up now because I KNOW it’s still too early to draw definite conclusions on his intent for this new ‘era’ (and this new song could be about choking on literal fucking watermelon seeds for all I know, nothing Harry does ever makes any kind of sense does it), but I can’t help but come to my own conclusions based on what I feel he is sharing with us.

#like if anyone actually thinks that it makes more sense for harry to be crying over borrowed slippers from an ex #and writing entire songs based off of his ex's supposed favorite book... be my guest or whatever #but it totally undermines how smart harry actually is. he used the word 'regalia' in a fucking interview the other day #like c'mon lmao #anyway #this is just me rambling for like... a solid 2k #sorry #when he makes me look like booboo i'll at least be a more educated booboo or whatever #:') #*

[ferryboatpeak]

I need to know every single thought you have about this album please and thank you

ok ok ok ok ok i’ve finally somewhat organized my thoughts, thank you for your patience! remember when i rhapsodized about lights up and said that what i really wanted from this album was more of the expansiveness of that guitar intro? well, i feel like harry more than delivered. the whole album is so BIG. it just unfolds and unfolds in every direction. it has such a sense of possibility. i love it more than i can possibly say.

golden is my absolute fave. big and sun-drenched and joyous. jes and i did our first listen with our respective earbuds and as soon as the vocals kicked in my jaw dropped and i gaped at her in utter disbelief and delight. then at “i know that you’re scared because i’m so open” i started flailing all of my limbs to communicate that there was an emergency and the emergency was that i was dying of joy. jes missed all of this because she was serenely listening with her eyes closed at the other end of the couch. i admire her composure in the face of the transcendent perfection that is golden.

watermelon sugar and adore you have been such growers for me, i love them more and more every time i listen to them. i love that harry took some mushrooms in cali and wrote a bunch of sad/whimsical/trippy songs, and then he went to england to knock out a few crowd pleasers to finish the album. lights up still makes me so happy, and i’m only sorry that the live version makes the SHINE! bits kind of quiet and climbing instead of allowing me to ecstatically scream SHINE! at harry styles the way i want to. maybe we can fix this over the course of tour.

jes opened her eyes briefly after falling so we could exchange pleading looks that (on my end at least) communicated HELP how is this song SO GOOD and ANGUISHED and HEARTFELT and PAINFUL and OMG THAT FIRST HIGH NOTE and WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH ALL THIS LOVE IN MY HEART FOR HARRY STYLES????? it absolutely blew me away on first listen, and it continues to do so, but it’s also one of the most accessible songs on the album and so it’s not in the top tier for me. like, other people are going to sing falling. it’s a sad ballad that a broad spectrum of people are going to be interested in listening to. but i like harry better when he’s a little bit of a weirdo.

…so, that’s why to be so lonely is also one of my faves. i love the contrast between the acceptance of responsibility in falling (“no one to blame but the drink and my wandering hands”) and the petulance of to be so lonely (“you can’t blame me, darling”). this is the song i’m going to think of when I listen to the zane lowe interview for the one millionth time and harry says “you get petty.” it’s about indulging the worst of yourself during a breakup because you deserve it, goddammit. he’s not one bit sorry about being an arrogant son of a bitch and I LOVE IT. oh also why are we not talking about harry singing “i was just a little boy”?

oh did I skip cherry? i like cherry a lot (and i fucking loved it live) but i prefer the middle two installments of the side B wallowing. i do like the emotional specificity of “I can tell that you are at your best/I’m selfish so I’m hating it.” also real pleased with the taylor-esque burn in the reference to “his parent’s gallery”!

onward to side C! she is to hs2 what woman was to hs1, and i know i’m not the first to make that comparison, but the analogy works for me because both of them i was indifferent to on the album but boy i love them live. i’m so glad i got to see this album live right away so i didn’t waste four months being indifferent to the generically beatles sound of the first half of she when i could have been focusing on what’s really important: mitch earnestly and wholeheartedly confessing his love to harry via the medium of a sick guitar solo.

SUNFLOWER! god i love sunflower, my second favorite after golden. it’s quirky and sweet and just a little bit dark and of all the circus/celestial/alien sounds that pervade the album, this is my favorite permutation of them. (i love this recurring theme btw, that may be another post.) oh also there’s a whole other post about how hs1 had melodic echoes, e.g. the line that repeated from sott to only angel, but hs2 has lyrical echoes from song to song… brown skin, a gallery, picking up the kids from school, the import of calling someone “baby.” i don’t think it’s lazy or a failure of imagination; i think there’s a purpose behind each of the repeats. anyway the dueling gallery images from cherry and sunflower are one of my favorite occurrences of this trick.

i also really freaking love tpwk, first and foremost because it is EMPHATICALLY NOT A PREACHY SONG, instead it weirdly and wonderfully grounds itself in harry’s own body (“maybe we can find a place to feel good”) instead of purporting to give anyone advice about how to live. there’s whole other post in what this album has to say about harry’s body and its relationship to other bodies, starting with the lights up video and continuing with the imagery about “spreading you open” and so on through “feeling good in my skin.” i concede that all of the godspell comparisons about this song are 100 percent accurate but hey, i was a theater kid who will gladly belt out “preeeeeeeeeepare ye the way of the lord!” at the slightest provocation so i’m fucking into it.

oh I missed canyon moon! it is fine, i like it, it is a good song. like falling does, it suffers a bit in my ranking because it is a very accessible song.

ok ok ok ok now we’re at fine line and i’m not going to be able to put into words how the end makes me feel, starting when the horns come in. (oh did i mention how much i love the horns throughout the album? this and the lead-in to the watermelon sugar chorus especially.) it has all of the expansiveness i wanted, all of the hope, all of the triumph, all of the earned growth, all of the promise. this is the part where i cried (not during falling). sometimes i cut this song off partway because i can’t handle going through the emotions of the end.

in conclusion, there is not a clinker in the bunch and i am SO PROUD and SO HAPPY. also (1) golden (2) sunflower vol. 6 (3) watermelon sugar (4) adore you (5) lights up (6) to be so lonely (7) fine line (8) falling (9) tpwk (10) canyon moon (11) cherry (12) she.

[harrytheehottie]

I agree with you on that. I understand the feeling of trust, respect and vulnerability that comes with working with people who understand you but if he really wants to push himself (doesn't he always quote that david bowie interview lol) he needs to work with different songwriters and producers. also just as an unpopular opinion, i preferred the production on the first album, for some reason the production on fl feels a little all over the place to me (even though i love the songs)

yes like if you really want to push yourself you need to work with people that aren’t your ten friends in rotation hbdfshjbajs like... the reason why adore you is so fucking good is because they brought on a female songwriter!!!!! FL is all over the place production wise where as HS1 there is some sort of cohesion (for better or worse). It’s funny that you bring up that Bowie interview because I literally just want to scream at Harry and be like you have so much potential!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FL is definitely an album where he is more “open” but there is still a guard up there and obviously its only his second album and he didnt have the ~sophomore slump~ but I just think he can do SO much more like don’t be shy work with poc producers and women :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) imagine lights up but with majid jordan as the producers... cmon babe! 

[builtyouahousefromabrokenhome]

Finally my thoughts on Harry’s House

I’m so happy that I could experience the release (and leak ♥) of a Harry album inside the fandom. I wasn’t really a fan yet during HS1 and Fine Line, though I listened casually to some of the songs (tmi but SOTT and Adore You were two of my go-to post-coital songs for a while lmaooo X_x).

I’m so glad I partook in the leak and could listen to it without promo and reviews surrounding it (except As It Was obvs), and just the most supportive part of the fandom discussing it. After listening to it for a month now, here are my thoughts about the songs.

Quick fave list: Daylight, Little Freak, Matilda, Keep Driving, Satellite

Music For A Sushi Restaurant - compared to other songs it’s okay I guess, not really my vibe. Random but musically parts of it remind me of December 1963 (Oh, What a Night) which, as a Sherlock fandom veteran, hurts a bit lol

Late Night Talking - So cute and adorable and wholesome ♥_♥ ... I’m imagining Harry and Louis talking on the phone/facetime through the years ♥♥♥ Musically it’s a nice dancing song :)

Grapejuice - Really nice retro vibe, has some similar elements to Meet Me In The Hallway (one of my all time faves). Wine references mixed with love references, reminds me of ancient Arabic wine poetry :)

As It Was - Feels a bit overplayed at this point :x But the video is really interesting, and I can easily watch Harry’s dance partner over and over, she is so beautiful and intense! ♥ Also I love that they filmed in the gay penguin enclosure of all places :3 Lyrically it’s kind of devastating. With the many layers and ambiguities it’s impossible to say what exactly it’s about (similar to SOTT), but it feels really bittersweet and touching. 

Daylight - Yet another incredible Larry anthem T^T I love the metaphors, and tbh I too would do that to Louis if I was a bluebird. Due to personal experiences I don’t like the coke reference :/ But I can ignore that, and appreciate everything else about the song.

Little Freak - It’s so funny that people were doubting the tracklist rumours specifically because of this song title seeming way too absurd xD And yeah, there is the blatant bluegreening. And the lyrics can be interpreted as addressing either Louis and/or Harry’s feminine side. I’d say both, obfuscated and mixed up into a song that can be interpreted in many ways. The melody, Harry’s voice and the instruments are so beautiful and cozy, I love it ♥♥♥

Matilda - I relate so much to this song (like so many people - I love you all ♥♥♥), it’s literally aboutme.jpg. It’s so lovely that Harry sings this to me and us all who have had these experiences and feel like this. I’m tearing up right now as I write this ... (Diana by 1D is a bit similar that way. It’s so sweet when bands and artists with a mostly female and/or LGBT fanbase take that seriously and write songs to comfort us.)

Cinema - Uhm Harry ... at this point I’m just going to make an obscure Susan Boyle reference and call this Su’s Harry’s Anal Bum Party song :x “You’re making yourself wet for me” is clearly not about a woman/vag (or else the woman’s partner would be really boring, if she’s not getting wet enough without lubricant ya know :/) ... reference to poppers (muscle relaxants for your bum yeah) OKAY HARRY. xD All the while the “I just think you’re cool / Do you think I’m cool too? / Or am I too into you” gives me adorable fetus Larry vibes ... It’s very catchy and every damn morning when I add cinnamon to my porridge I compulsively sing “You got, you got the cinnamon” GEE THANKS. xD

Daydreaming - Musically not my fave, but it’s okay. :) Lyrically I interpret it as about H&L’s sex life in their busy day to day, being apart a lot but making it count ♥♥♥ (and it’s hard to interpret it in a different way)

Keep Driving - Probably my fave, I love the way the lyrics seem to be a list of everyday things and inside jokes/references. That said I don’t like that he included “choke her”. While in context it could mean anything else too besides the literal choking a woman. And I mean in the context of literally no context within the lyrics as they are, except maybe a slightly elevated chance of car context - as in choke the engine/car/often called “she”. Honestly someone at some point should have pointed out that it’s not cool that this line could easily be interpreted literally, and they should have changed it to something else. Even if it’s maybe an important private reference to Harry or whatever. :/ So yeah, I’m a little ambiguous about it. (Also there’s another coke reference.) BUT it also has “Maple syrup / Coffee, pancakes for two / Hash brown, egg yolk / I will always love you" T^T ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ And I love the roadtrip theme (which can also be a great metaphor).

Satellite - Another coke reference ;( ... But musically this is my best favourite on the album, and I love the imagery of the lyrics, the satellite way up in space “wishing I could be there for you” but also “I’m right here”. Kind of (mutual) pining, which is my jam. It evokes city lights viewed from the exosphere/thermosphere (where satellites are, you know), and knowing your special person is down there ;__; (It makes me feel a similar way as the song Летели облака by ДДТ, which has the line (translated): “A sad country / but in it, there's your window”)

Boyfriends - I interpret it as layered, both about other boyfriends being disappointing (bfs of Harry’s relatives, friends and fans), as well as Harry being critical of himself in his relationship (since there are such very close lyrical parallels to Half The World Away!). The live version with the band harmonies is really nice.

Love Of My Life - England huh xD I love and respect it as a Larry anthem, while musically it’s a bit annoying to me with the dramatic synth thing heh.

Overall Harry’s singing style is very light and breezy. Possibly it’s a strategic choice to save his vocal cords from damage while touring etc. In 1D when he was belting and straining, he sounded amazing, but he was also on vocal rest a lot. His light, breezy voice has so much emotion, too, and it’s very pleasant to listen to. ♥ 

#dollhouse harry #harry's house #harry ♥

[swiftstyles1989]

I will be at a showing of Moana Sing Along for Imagine Night tonight so I’m submitting this now before I go to bed… 

So imagine that blind item from a while ago about Taylor calling Harry when she was drunk one night and propositioning him for sex was true.. Imagine he was just as confused as the blind item said…..

Then imagine they started talking after that. At first it was weird… jokes and the like… keeping conversation light and ignoring everything between them. And then they ran into each other at a mutual friend’s place… they started talking and really got through a lot of the stuff that happened between them. They got to a nice place of friendship…

And that was really good for a while… until it wasn’t.

Now imagine if you will… One night… it’s just the two of them chilling… There’s a bottle of wine open but no one’s drunk. Not even tipsy. Just sober and talking. They’re outside on the porch and they’re looking at the stars. It’s a nice pleasant moment… They’re in LA. Harry just got there, he’s been in London… She’s been in LA… it’s a warm night for him but a chilly one for her. he drapes his arm around her shoulder for warmth. They look at each other and their eyes meet… they glance down at each other’s lips then back at their eyes. 

And they slowly lean in for the kiss.

It’s magic.

After that everything falls into place pretty easily. They fall back into every good pattern their relationship had but this time with the healthy context of maturity and open communication. They learn to communicate their anxieties and fears and they learn to calm each other down and assure each other that everything’s okay.

It’s a really nice couple months they spend all wrapped up in this special thing no one else knows about… Then Harry goes on Dunkrik promo.

They sit down and talk about how they’re going to handle the press. They agree not to lie about their relationship because that gives the press and public something to latch onto and find “shady.” But at the same time, while they don’t want to lie… they don’t really want others involved in this. They also worry going public during a press promo circuit will be too easy for the press and public to call “PR” on… So they agree to say that they’re dating someone, but choose to be private about everything else.’

Harry does Dunkirk promo, then shortly thereafter, he does HS1 promo which piggybacks on Dunkirk’s promo cycle. Taylor’s next with TS6. 

For months both of them have been saying that they’re dating someone, but when asked for any more specifics, they politely decline with some version of “It was important to us to be honest about being a relationship because we don’t want to lie, but our privacy is also important to us so we’re choosing to keep everything else private.” Taylor straight up explained the whole thought process in an interview with Ellen (Ellen asked if she knew the guy and Taylor giggled and said “I think maybe you do” and Ellen joked that she set them up and if this is the guy Taylor marries, she’s to be matron of honor).

And then finally promo season is over. There’s a break between album promo and tour promo for both of them and they get to just live for a few months… They walk outside holding hands. The whole world shuts down.

Due to Tree and Daw Bell’s great PR, for the past months, people have been excited for whoever Taylor and Harry’s mystery people are. Some people have speculated about it being each other, but those rumors get dismissed fairly quickly by the masses who have decided that Harry and Taylor as a couple are too publicity oriented for this kind of honest quiet. People have applauded Taylor’s mystery man as finally calming her PR side.. that he’s got to be something really special for her to not try to milk every bit of publicity she could from it. They’ve applauded Harry’s secret girl as finally being someone who can handle him and treating him well. When they find out that the two of them are together, the media, the public, and the haters stop for a moment and have a come to jesus moment. 

It’s so clear they care about each other from the little things they’ve said in interviews (like Taylor saying her boyfriend is one of her favorite things about her life because he calms her down when she gets upset… or Harry saying his girlfriend is tied with his mother and his sister for the most remarkable woman he knows), it’s really hard for anyone to really deny…

People take Taylor’s words in that Ellen interview where she explained the whole thought process to heart… maybe haylor isn’t PR afterall. 

And so… Everyone backs off a bit. This time around they have the public and media’s respect and admiration. Of course, there will always be people who hope something beautiful fails and dies… but the overwhelming majority is rooting for them this time.

It turns out that’s all they really needed. The public’s support… Oh… and that maturity and open conversation they’ve got going on… they needed that too.. But it turns out that this time around, it’s not a crooked love… It’s a love that makes sense.

They announce their engagement a couple years later. They have a beautiful wedding… big enough to be a party, but small enough to be intimate. They end up with three beautiful children - two with curly hair… the other with wavy hair (the other two are jealous so hard but their parents tell them to be proud of their curls).

They fight, like any couple, but overall they have a very happy marriage… and they go down in history as one of Hollywood’s greatest love stories. And that never goes out of style.

#AMAZING #YOU KILLED IT ZOE #LIKE ALWAYS #RIGHT IN THE FEELS #haylor imagine night #submission