#like i centred everything around it

[katelynnwrites]

I Don’t Wanna Be Your Friend (I Wanna Kiss Your Lips) | Ona Batlle

warnings: stomach ache inducing fluff

word count: 1706

summary: in which ona decides she wants to be your first kiss

a/n: this is my 50th fic for ona 🥰

‘You haven’t had your first kiss yet?’ Millie yells.

‘Damn Millie, why don’t you just let the whole team know.’ You sigh and sink down further in your seat.

The blonde’s voice had clearly carried down the length of the bus because Ella and Alessia appear soon enough.

‘Look I know you’re the team baby but seriously you haven’t had your first kiss yet?’ Less says in disbelief.

‘Guys come on, it’s not a big deal. I just haven’t found anybody I want to kiss yet.’ You try and assure them but at this point it’s too late because Millie has several of your teammates agreeing to go out to a club after the away game to try and find you someone to kiss.

Sighing once more, you realise there’s no way you would be able to get out of whatever your teammates were plotting.

Fifteen minutes later, when Millie starts questioning you about your type, you grab your airpods and phone, escaping the blonde to sit with a brunette instead.

A certain brunette that simply lets you lean into her shoulder and exhale in relief.

‘They’re trying to find you someone to kiss?’ She murmurs, letting you play with the rings on her hand.

You merely make a face and Ona laughs softly, switching the subject and asking if you’d like to watch a movie.

You’re all too happy to agree.

******

Ona helps you to put together an outfit from the limited clothes you had brought.

She’d laughed as you had voiced your complaints about being dragged out for the night.

All you wanted to do was curl up and watch a movie, maybe with your roommate watching it with you. Ona’s easily your best friend and you loved spending time with her.

The Spanish girl was someone whom you related to almost immediately, the out of place feeling being the common thread between the both of you, given that she had signed for United just before you.

It wasn't long before the two of you managed to adapt to the new team but the bond the both of you had stayed. If anything, it had only become stronger.

Ivana was nice and she often hung out with you and Ona but the friendship you had with her, wasn’t quite the same as what you had with Ona.

In fact, your best friend had a phrase she liked to use to describe how close you were, mi media naranja.

It was in Spanish so you didn’t understand but she said it translated to the other half of your orange.

You could not help but tease Ona, saying that you couldn’t believe she had compared you to an orange. The Spanish girl had blushed and stammered about how a direct translation was not the same as the original meaning.

Ona calling your name draws you out of your thoughts and she rolls her eyes at you.

‘Finally naranja. I thought I had lost you to your thoughts.’

Smiling at her sheepishly, you offer a meek apology which the Spaniard accepts easily.

Holding up two different tops, she asks, ‘Now choose, black or white?’

******

You begged Ona to come with you. And even though a part of her really wanted to stay at the hotel, she couldn’t say no to you. That’s how she finds herself all dressed up and squeezed beside you, into a cab with a bunch of your other teammates.

******

At the club, you’d hid your growing anxiety as Millie and Alessia introduced you to girl after girl, attempting to find one you liked.

It’s mildly exasperating to both your teammates that you keep making up excuses and turning all of them down.

Eventually they had given up, swearing that they would try again another night. Lessi had sarcastically mumbled something along the lines of how no one in the club was your type as she’d left to join Ella.

She was wrong and if you were being honest, there was someone who had caught your eye.

Said someone had caught your eye a long time ago and you were pretty sure you were in deep.

Taking your chance to seek her out, you begin looking all over.

It was strange that she wasn’t on the dance floor because Ona could usually be counted on to show off her dance moves even before she’d had drinks. It was also strange that you basically hadn’t seen her since Millie and Lessi had whisked you away.

You had hoped that Ona would stick around but you chalk her disappearance up to her wanting to give you some privacy.

You’d searched practically the whole club before it occurrs to you to check the toilets. Your teammates had been unhelpful when you had asked if they had seen Ona so this really was the only place she could be.

And she was. The brunette you had been searching for was leant up against the bathroom counter, an unreadable expression on her face.

‘Ona.’

Exhaling in relief, you hug her gently and Ona immediately opens her arms to you.

‘Hi.’ She softly whispers and you squeeze her waist a little harder.

‘You okay?’ She checks and you hum, turning your head so that you can breathe in the scent of her perfume.

‘Better now that I’m with you.’ You assure her and she blushes slightly and murmurs her similar thoughts. That she too felt better now that you were here with her.

******

You both don’t really say much as you get ready for bed. It’s a comfortable silence though, as the pair of you go through the motions of a well practiced routine.

Ona showers first while you pack. Then you take your shower as Ona packs, her going a little bit further and helping you put your shin pads back into your bag as you always somehow manage to forget them.

It’s not long before you’re in bed, Ona sliding under the covers next to you. She lies there quietly until you break the silence, ‘I didn’t kiss anyone.’

Ona exhales, secretly full of relief before she asks, ‘Why not?’

‘There wasn’t anyone I wanted to kiss there. None of them were really my type.’ You mumble, cheeks heating up.

‘Do you still want your first kiss though?’ The Spaniard softly questions.

Her hand finds yours under the covers and she squeezes it reassuringly.

‘Yeah.’ You shyly admit.

Your best friend hums in response before she says, ‘Do you want to kiss me then?’

Sitting up immediately, you look at Ona with wide eyes, trying to see if she meant it.

Ona sits up too, her hand still holding yours.

‘I’m serious mi media naranja. I’d love to be your first kiss.’

Her words are sincere and the smile on her face has you nodding, even if you are a little nervous.

‘Okay.’ Your best friend’s smile widens and she squeezes your hand once more before she hops off the bed.

Ona rummages around in her bag for a bit before she finds her chapstick, which she quickly puts on.

She gives you another sweet smile, settling herself on the bed, in front of you.

‘Which way do you want to lean, mi media naranja?’

The all too familiar nickname, in Ona’s soothing, heavily accented voice melts away the last of your anxieties.

It was just you and your best friend, the girl who you had liked for ages now.

‘Right please.’

Ona gives a nod and leans left, closing the distance between the two of you until there’s just a tiny gap left.

This near, you can see all her individual eyelashes and freckles even in the weak lighting of the sole night lamp of the hotel room.

You close the tiny gap, tentatively letting your lips meet Ona’s.

Her lips are soft and you can taste the coconut of her chapstick as she kisses you back.

Drawing back a second later, you feel a smile grow on your face as you keep looking at Ona.

The same smile is mirrored on your best friend’s face.

The Spaniard blushes, scratching the back of her neck before reaching out to push a strand of hair out of your face, ‘Would now be a good time to tell you that I have a crush on you?’

You didn’t think your smile could get any bigger but it does.

Softly you say, ‘Would now be a good time to tell you that I have a crush on you too?’

Ona blushes harder, gently placing her hands on your cheeks.

‘Mi media naranja means my half-orange. I know I let you believe it means twin but it really means soulmate. The saying is encontrar tu media naranja, to find your half orange or better half. I’ve found my media naranja in you. You are my better half, my soulmate and so much more.’

‘Ona…’

Tears slip from your eyes at her heartfelt words.

‘Please don’t cry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry.’ She panickedly murmurs, using her thumbs to try and wipe them away.

You sniffle, leaning into her touch.

‘Ona, can I kiss you again?’

‘You may. Anytime you like mi media naranja.’

Pressing your lips against hers for the second time of the night, you let yourself savour the way she tastes, the way her lips move eagerly against yours.

When the need to breathe finally becomes too much, you pull away to rest your forehead against the fullback’s.

With closed eyes, you murmur, ‘Your words mean more to me than you’ll ever know, you mean more to me than you’ll ever know.’

The wobbly breath that Ona lets out makes you smile and she draws back, kissing you on your forehead.

‘I’m going to kiss you now.’, is all the warning she gives before her lips are on yours once more, until all you feel is her, filling everywhere and everything you’ve ever known.

******

This time, you’re cuddling into Ona during the journey, paying no attention to Millie’s or Alessia’s attempts to involve you in their discussion on how to get you your first kiss.

Eventually, Ona’s the one who puts a stop to it, snapping that you’d already had your first kiss and better yet, found yourself a girlfriend.

Spanish Translations:

mi media naranja - my half-orange

encontrar tu media naranja - to meet your other half

#spanish friends i hope i got the mi media naranja phrase right 😅 #also is it obvious that i wrote this whole fic just for that kiss scene? #like i centred everything around it #ona batlle #ona batlle x reader #ona batlle imagine #muwfc x reader #muwfc imagine #espwnt x reader #espwnt imagine #woso imagine #woso imagines #woso x reader #woso fanfics #woso fanfiction #katelynnwrites #uswnt imagine #uswnt x reader

[ozzieinspacetime]

Yet again I'm thinking about the eradication of culture within the THG universe,, I have very complex opinions on culture wars within Panem and if they would exist at all in certain cases but like. Do you think they still speak Spanish in Ten? Do you think trans people can still change their names and wear what they please as long as they meet their daily quotas? Do families with religious ancestors remember to observe their holy days, even if it's in private, or was the eradication of religion in Panem so concrete that they don't remember anything at all? Much to think about

#even though THG isn't centred around its world as much as its politics (and for good reason!) i still find it fascinating to think abt #i have a LOT of thoughts about being trans in panem. specifically being trans as a victor #we know (or its implied mostly by ballad) that being queer isn't criminalised and katniss tells us people can marry who they like #but i can definitely see transness being an issue specifically for district people in the eyes of the capitol #obviously the class divide the districts represent would eradicate any possible trans healthcare #but i can see being trans as something the capitol would celebrate as unique and. almost fashionable? #so district people who have no trans medicare or even knowledge would be naturally skeptical of this 'capitol' thing #<- basically by making it a capitol thing it ellimates the rebellion present in the concept of being trans and keeps poorer ppl in line #just. something something removing everything a community could coalesce around by normalising some things and eradicating others #thg #the hunger games #thg series

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

Everything Under the Moon

Anthology of queer reimaginings of fairytales by mostly Australian authors

various genres, from contemporary to fantasy and sci-fi, mostly about older teens

mlm, sapphic, trans, nonbinary, demi, bi ace, and aromantic characters, some stories focusing on romance but many on familial relationships and siblings

#Everything Under the Moon #aroaessidhe 2024 reads #aromantic books #queer books #A really nice anthology of queer fairytales! definitely a mix of all sorts of stories. #Some were a bit forgettable (I mean I’m just not a short story person) but I really enjoyed others! I #I picked this up specifically because I heard there was an aromantic story (which I didn’t know much else about) and yeah it hit hard actua #it’s about being okay with loneliness and also centred around artists….so. it did make me cry a bit…. #I liked that a lot of them focused on platonic r/ships - most on sibling actually? I appreciate that there were a couple sapphic aces too #I will say while the illustrations are really high quality (I especially liked the naturey ones) I found a lot of them depicted the chars #as very.....disnefied? idk. thin and generic. lacking 'imperfect' features like freckles even #(when they’re described as having them) With a couple exceptions for sure - but a lot of them were a bit samey #I would have loved some authors notes or a list of the stories because I didn’t recognise which all were inspired by #(though they’re on the endpapers; just not specified which) - I did find this in a GR review tho

[infernal-house-demon]

Am I the only one who really liked the Loki series finale? I felt like it was a well thought out and satisfying (albeit tragic) end to his character arc.

#also the visuals in that episode? gorgeous #I do ship lokius and would have loved to see them become canon but #I kind of like that his arc wasn’t centred around romantic love #it was about found family and the connections he made with that group #that made him willing to sacrifice everything for them #idk I really liked it a lot #Loki #loki series #loki spoilers #loki season 2

[rahabs]

While I'm thinking deeply about this game, though, it's very frustrating to try and read fics for BG3 specifically. Beyond the Reader issue/infestation, which I mentioned already (and that I expected because of the ability to create a custom player character), almost all the pairings involve Astarion so woe be to you if you want something not Astarion-centric. Even if you don't mind consuming Astarion content it gets very frustrating after a point because it seems all the other characters (especially non-Tavs, and I don't really read Tav fics so it's usually one of the other companion pairings, sans Gale because I'm not a fan of Gale/Astarion as a ship despite loving Gale) just exist to comfort or validate Astarion. There's rarely exploration of their own traumas, their own issues--just sad wooby Astarion being comforted. And that's probably 90% of all BG3 fics.

#Strike! The! Balance! #I want more Wyll content #But most of that is Astarion-centric too #And I don't hate Astarion. #He's in my party a decent amount because I am more familiar with building rogues so he's one of my hardest melee hitters #Especially since I'm usually a lorebard if I'm not being a rogue myself #But you know. I wish the other characters got more love #Both by the fandom and by the devs #And I wish all the content wasn't so centred around him? #Not to mention it's usually like. Very OOC for Astarion himself on top of everything. #To the point where I'm left going 'hey did we play the same game and meet the same vampire...' #Which. I suppose there's the complication of Astarion also potentially being the PC #But I've never played his custom origin so I'm not sure if/how dialogue changes. #text #chey.txt

[captain-hen]

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#something else that really bothers me about the finale is. eddie dating again—dating marisol—could arguably be a more fresh and interesting #storyline. #bc with eddieana a lot of that relationship was overshadowed by eddie's issues with chris and then by him getting shot and then by #his trauma afterwards. we never actually got to see much of it. #with marisol we could actually get to see him have fun with dating and properly figure out what he likes now that he's no longer making #the mistake of trying to do everything for chris' sake. #but not only was eddie completely sidelined this season—this romantic plot with marisol was practically an afterthought in favour of #building up the buck/natalia thing as much as it could be built up over 3 episodes #DESPITE the fact that buck was already front and centre in the rest of the season and had multiple things going on #there could have been something really interesting to do with eddie's feelings of loneliness and not wanting to be alone but they made it #such an afterthought. and completely sidelined him. and ik we find it funny that buck and eddie always feel the need to only start dating #when the other does. i find it hilarious. #but it's also really frustrating that buck gets to have more plot points that aren't centered around romance #whereas the one semblance of a storyline eddie's gotten is just shoehorned in in the last two episodes #sigh #neethu speaks #negativity

[what-the-fuck-khr]

thinking. I’ve had this lightheadedness and fast heart rate before but,,,, wondering if maybe it’s a long covid thing…? it definitely wasn’t a problem over 4 years ago, I can say that much. I don’t think it’s from my most recent infection (still don’t fucking know where I got it from I fucking hate it here my god people are so selfish) but maybe from my first infection which was uhhh. 2021…? 2022 maybe…? I can’t remember what year but it was a while before we got it. bc my tests all came back completely normal, not a thing of concern was brought up at the hospital about anything. just that my heart rate was fast, lightheadedness (and if I do too much, somewhat short of breath), and somewhat high blood pressure. that’s it. and I’ve been seeing a lot of articles and threads discussing how covid can effect your entire body, how it can hide and mutate in your body even if you test negative, all the ways it effects your brain, your immune system…….. and what long covid can do (I learnt some people straight up get psychosis. Like.) and I’m wondering if maybe I’m just… very lucky that these are maybe my only symptoms (so far) as a result of it? I’m completely vaccinated (I think I’m behind one but obviously I will be trying to get it as soon as I’m able to) so I can only hope those vaccines have helped save me from something worse,,,,, I heard it’s jacking up brains in people without depression or anxiety, so I worry about what it could do to someone (me) WITH both of those things. should I try and get some kind of scan done on my brain to see…? hhhhhg,,,, just reading all this has me so stressed like it’s so scary that something this fucking dangerous is just. ignored. no one discusses it. governments all over the world are just letting thousands of people die for no fucking reason because they refuse to lose anymore money. it’s insane to me, that this is the world we live in right now. it’s fucking scary.

#anyways yeah. coming to some realisations #should I make a doctors appointment??? bring up long covid? ask for help in that area? if australia even offers any lmfao #I heard the us has long covid centres. idk if we do #should I try to ask for some kind of brain scan??? it worries me thinking about it #I’m getting an ultrasound on my heart soon to really double check but still… #like my blood tests (2-3 btw) all showed up fine. everything is fine. #and still at 24 with otherwise NO problems #my resting heart rate is anywhere between 95 when waking up and 100-110 when just. walking around the house #like????? #ooc

[rosenbergamot]

has anyone done a life series timeloop au. just any of the life series. im cooking up a secret life one but i also want to read some….. is there anybody out there cooking as well….. im shaking the bars of my enclosure!!!

#trafficblr #life series #life smp #traffic smp #guy whos a fan of persona series voice #‘hey do we have an ng+ au’ #anyways mines gonna be scar centred but id also love to do a pearl or gem one #i love to play around with different alliances #like timeloop means u can either keep the same story beats Or change everything up #shake it up on a fundamental level #AND THE SECRET LIFE MEANS NEW TASKS #ough do yall see the vision #secret life scar who isnt used to having friends or allies getting thrown back into the fray ans suddenly Acquiring them #or trying so hard to stay away from them bc its what he knows #also just realized i can have mumscarian in this one lets goooo #sorry got possessed bu a homosexual ghost there #anyways #i think timeloop sl scar could have a really interesting character arc and i want to explore it in relation to new alliances

[nebulouscoffee]

Friends I crave distraction. Please feel free to send me random Star Trek asks - about the shows, the characters, hot takes, theories, your fics, my fics, someone else's fics- anything is fine, I would very much welcome it

#it's been a rough week. people I know stop dying challenge :( #I'm sorry about the incoming tag rant but I literally cannot believe these last three months #I just got off the phone after what. number 7? 8? #and I feel so bad because it's not even MY immediate family so I shouldn't make this about me but like #these are still people who raised me #people who have been around since I was a kid #people I really believed were going to be around for a lot longer #(and pets. plural. what is UP with the number of deaths lately) #I'm just very exhausted with everything I'm not even crying anymore I'm literally just tired and I feel like I'm losing it #and yes I am not at the centre of these losses but it's still a cumulative effect...like spending hours & hours at funerals & on the phone #with grieving friends and family and trying to be there for them and not having any space or time to process these losses for myself #is not an unreasonable thing to feel exhausted from right? especially not after like three straight months of this? #anyway. would really like to think about people who don't really exist for the next few hours and maybe ramble a bit once I make dinner :)

[myname-isnia]

I always forget just how many love songs I have in my playlist until I’m having an ultra-love-repulsed day and have to try my best to contain my breakdown until I get home

#21 out of 61 songs are related to love in some way #and it always feels like my playlist is trying to give me as many in a row as it can #must’ve gotten like 5 one after the other while walking home today #it’s too much of a hassle to keep taking my phone out of my backpack to switch songs so I just grit my teeth and bear it #and I know my playlist literally can’t read my mood. it’s not sentient. it’s a program #but when I’m so strung out it really does feel like it’s doing it on purpose #and hearing those songs makes everything so much worse #days like these I cannot stand any mention of love or romance or sex or anything else of the sort #I can’t read or think about it without feeling awful #can’t draw can’t write can’t watch shows. nothing #worst thing is I never know when I’ll be having a day like this so I can’t prepare by isolating myself or anything #like preparing a separate playlist with no love songs #bc the only way to find out is to get triggered #which… isn’t something I particularly like doing. at all #and I can’t even indulge in my latest interests because guess fucking what it centres around #ughhhhhhhhh. why couldn’t I have just stayed bi and not have to deal with any of this

[radellama]

You know. Everything is really shit for the creative/entertainment industry right now so I hope everything goes on strike. And I hope that with everything on strike there's nothing left to be used as be ai fodder and the ai fad crashes and burns like it's supposed to

#as someone who's hobbies and bachelor degree is centred around creative and entertainment stuff... I'm so sad and angry about everything rn #kill ai and kill the people who are refusing reasonable requests from strikers #I'm so tired of everything #like man. i just like creating things and want to share it. not instilling much confidence in me that my work will be respected #hate this shit #rads talks

[itgoeso]

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#one of the most annoying parts of having bpd isn’t even part of the bpd itself but it's the stigma #and don’t get me wrong this shit is FUCKING HELL and very hard and embarrassing #but the way people think bpd is somehow the same thing as sociopathy or psychopathy is just like ?????????????? #and the way even doctors are so sensationalist about it and it does affect your overall hope for how you're gonna be able to #idk navigate life with it. because they make it look like someone who has bpd #is just the worst most difficult and awful human being on earth #like everyone else isn't difficult everyone else doesn't struggle w emotions or relationships or abandonment #and the way they approach it truly makes you feel like you're damaged for life and you're broken and you're doomed #i could go on and on about how this is just upsetting and like sometimes when people learn that i have bpd they're surprised #because i keep a lot of things and feelings to myself because i don't want to be the stereotype #i'm venting but what i mean is that i think the stigma around bpd just makes everything harder #for instance i feel the need to be centred because otherwise i'll be perceived as a bpd stereotype #so i can't get angry i can't get upset i can't get sad i can't miss someone i can't need someone #i can't fear not having someone in my life anymore i can't fear being alone and so on #i have to be manageable and cool and nonchalant and complaisant all the time #sometimes i feel like i'm not allowed to be a person BECAUSE i have bpd #but yeah i'm yet to learn to not give a shit about how people perceive me but there are days that this is harder than others

[latinokaeya-moving]

ok i gave myself 48 hours of no hating bc it was that thing’s bday but i gotta say it now. i honestly hate like 95% of ragbros content it’s so overwhelmingly extremely basic and shallow ‘sibling’ content made by people who seem to be unable to conceive of sibling relationships that don’t fit the cookie cutter ideas that r most palatable to fandom it’s boring it’s so so boring to me !!!

#x #gi posting #THIS IS NOT KA*LUC you people can die. kill yourselves #i don’t know how to explain it but it also overwhelmingly centers diluc’s feelings and perspective on EVERYTHING it’s so so lame. get back #to me when we can come up with compelling dynamics the brothers could’ve had between themselves AND their father that doesn’t solely revolve #around everything coming to a head the day of diluc’s bday w kaeya revealing his secret #i’ve talked abt this before but i ​loveee the concept of there already being resentment of some sort even during their teen years bc of #how differently crepus treated them. of the differences of how their expectations weighed on them. on being as ‘close as twins’ but still #bring vastly different people internally. #i want bratty little self centred kids who loved each other but were never the best communicators. LIKE. just! complications!! yes petty #sibling squabbling and other Siblings In Media staples are to be expected but when those kinds of punch lines n jokes #r 90% of the content for them i get so bored. i’m SO bored

[sanstropfremir]

what would you do to fix kep1er? idk if you c a r e about kepler but, thats pert of the problem,,, no one cares about kepler all that much? what went wrong? there are countless video essays explaining how the concept isnt well thought out. the music is lackluster. the other produce groups have become so popular that kepler is pushed aside. personally, i dont even think all the members fit the concept that well.

there are two kepler songs that i like, and those are mvsk and le voyage, so i would not classify myself as actually caring about them, but it is an interesting thought experiment! i know pretty much nothing about them, including on whatever their concept is, but that doesn't really factor into how to fix them, because the best way to fix them is to 1) kick the minors, 2) actually train them properly, 3) reassemble the group with proper attention paid to talent distribution. "concept" is not actually a dependable thing that will draw people to a group, you need to back that up with BOTH tangible skills and - this is extremely important - people that actually know how to work in a group together. concept is a set dressing that is meant to hook people, but it doesn't keep people, what actually keeps fans is a combination of personality and ability. and composition and teamwork are very important to help establish that. survival shows in general are not built to make groups that have good composition; how on earth do you expect a cohesive group to be made of kids who are literally fighting each other for popularity points??? you think fans understand how to assemble a balanced kpop group????? survival shows are basically an extended training period, and when you make the goal of that training period trying to catch the attention of fans as an individual and not actually forming a solid understanding of how to perform IN a group, you are going to make groups that sure, they have very popular individual members, but they have no depth or flavour as a whole because they don't know how to.

not to gas up tan or wild idol again BUT if you want an example of how to make a survival show that actually builds a cohesive group, it's literally right there. limit intake trainee size, have them do challenges that are focused on teamwork, leadership, and practical skills idols have to be able to do, and also cut down the trainees fast so there's a smaller group that spends more time together. wild idol cut the entire 45 trainee group down to 16 in the THIRD episode, so that in the rest of the episodes they could actually focus on building the working relationships between the trainees and not have them constantly fighting over popularity. and also, perhaps even the most important point: LIMITED FAN VOTING. the fan voting was a very small percentage of their final score, so each of the members that made it into the group actually made it via being judged on their merits. when a group is made of popularity contest members and only on a short term contract, they don't have any incentive or ability to actually try and truly form a group.

#unironically i think everyone should watch wild idol bc it's SO interesting to see how they plan everything out #like they literally engineered a perfect group by making guys flip logs and run around outside #and the way they settled who was going to end up being the leader was SO fascinating #and also very important to note that the guy who actually won the show (changsun) is not the centre #he won because he displayed the most well rounded skills and he knew how to be a leader. so they made him leader #also the outcome of wild idol was so predictable (by design) like there are literally no other combinations of people that would have worke #bc of all of what you had seen up until that point #kpop questions #kep1er #i got distracted talking about tan but my point is that kepler doesnt actually feel like a group yanno #theyre a bunch of girls together bc of a contract #and i think they fell off really hard bc mnet made them show their asses during queendom #and everyone saw that they are not really prepared to be a functional idol group #also the fact that one of the girls is already tapped to go into another group when the contract is over? #that does not smell like they care that much #text #answers #there's different degrees of caring obvs like im not expecting any of the girls to give their firstborns for kepler or whatever #but you do have to care and be invested in a group in order to make it succeed #i occasionally watch a music show stage of them and they just do not have a group vibe at ALL

[firebirdsdaughter]

While I’m thinking about it…

… You know what I think would’ve been a better s5 arc? Dealing w/ Keller’s whole ‘we hurt everyone around us’ thing. You have the perfect set up for it. Instead of trying to force Neal and Peter into being at odds, just… Have Neal realise that Peter’s fighting a losing battle for him and is taking most of the hits? He starts trying to take matters into his own hands not to be a brat bc Peter can’t just do what he wants, but bc he realises he can’t. I’d rather see a plot about Neal falling back into old habits to protect people he cares about bc he realises his actions have far reaching consequences, Neal being more self aware and considerate, in a Neal kinda way. Not Neal being whiny and waxing on about how he just wants to take stuff. Neal’s idea of taking responsibility, bc he sees how his actions have effected the lives of everyone around him, and between Hagen and the Bureau itself and everything, he’s not registering that these people are willing to deal w/ the trouble out of love for him. Feels like it’d make sense from the s4 plot, honestly, w/ Pratt targeting the people around him and then James leaving Peter to be charged w/ murder. Follow that up w/ Hagen blackmailing him and getting played by Rachel (but nix the icky love plot) etc etc. You have a set up for Neal starting to feel like he’s contaminating and harming the lives of the people around him, that he’d absolutely fall for Keller’s spiel and not realise that those people are willing to weather through things bc they’d rather have him around—but not quite totally falling for it. Just feels  like it’d make more sense.

And we still get moments like Peter shoving Neal to safety when a shot goes off (the way he held onto him after Hagen was shot, plus reacted to Neal getting shot gives me life).

#White Collar #the more I think the more I hated most of s5 #but yeah this would've been better #Neal coming to feel like he's a danger to the people around him who live normal lives #Warren Kole I mean whatever his name was gets murdered #starts to wonder what it'd be like if that happened to Peter #additionally El and Peter are dragging their feet about DC bc of him #Mozzie gets poisoned #Diana has to risk her life after having a baby #sees how conflicted Peter is about the tampered evidence #combined w/ Keller's pressuring disappearing starts to sound like what's best for everyone #but in the end he can't cut completely loose #bc he loves his family and has too much faith in them #I don't think Neal should get more bratty and self centred after everything #but I can see him convincing himself that loving him is hurting the people he loves #Adopt a Felon 101

[art-legetable]

I have weird dreams man

#So like #a lot my dreams that I remember all happen in one cohesive place #mainly centred around my home town and the house i grew up in #but its all very Different #Like there are extra spaces. things are cut. very odd. #My most recent dream of the variety. I think it was the one my brother handed to me #wasn't a bad dream but at the end I was in the basement #my brothsr will know where this is. it was on the left side to the left of where the couch was #there was a door #it was a vast room full of toys #all of them were mine #i just Knew #and as I went in to explore (there were two other people with me I don't remember who) #I saw a large computer structure set up along the wall above the door #it was also mine. all of these were mine and I had abandoned them to this pit. #anyways the computer woke up and so did everything else #and they were all angry #and they were getting ready to do something about it before I managed to stumble out of the room. #and thats all I remember but its a lot of familiar places with fucked up architecture