#like genuinely if i could go to the gym rn i fucking would bc I WANNA BE STRONGER.

[autism-corner]

i dont want to lose weight bc what if a pretty boy needs to cling to my arm or sit on my lap?? then where would they go?

#augh #heyy dont mind me. its getting into tshirt weather =w=bb #idk further weight talk in the tags beware #i genuinely do not want to lose weight. if im ever in the gym its bc i wanna build up muscle to pick up heavy things 6=w=9 #like genuinely if i could go to the gym rn i fucking would bc I WANNA BE STRONGER. #but ive got too much going on with school and work already and i cant spare it mentally =w=bb #so looking out towards a calmer future where i can go it is. #sillyposting #anyway <3 im got new swimshorts bc the old ones were TOO TIGHT last year so i defo cant fit into them now. #which is fine =w=b #but it is a bit humbling to order xxl from a mens size. #i already know ive got fat legs but cmon. (ik all the bad talk is stupid but that wont stop the feeling so >:P ) #anyway. #as i was trying em on (these new ones fit YIPPEEE) my mom made a comment about aforementiont big ass legs. yay =3=p #thanks. really needed that. #oh well. #but yeah that got me a lil upset again. #:P #its fiiine ill be okay <3 we will just ignore anything that might become a problem and trust that it will not get to that point o7 #the voices in my head are saying something different but ive become very good at ignoring those aswell =w=bb #anyway arms and legs are really the main thing that bother me about my fat. but ill just keep thinking about levi and yakumo <333

[sylvainofruin]

happy mother’s day! it took me a long time to sign the card i bought for my mother today because when i think of her today i genuinely feel nothing which makes me sick :)

umm anywayze the last three days have been ridiculous and here is some stuff ive learned

my parents have never really done anything “parent” for me besides like give me a home and an education (huge asterisk after education)

i don’t trust my parents, but specifically i don’t trust them to protect me. i know they will always throw me into a line of fire. see: they tried to set up an arranged marriage proposal for me yesterday

i as a person with feelings ideas emotions do not matter to my dad in the slightest. i must be like an annoying house plant to him

i used to think that i needed all the love in the world to become better but when considering why others don’t feel that way had to admit this desire is fueled by the lack of love shown to me parentally and otherwise growing up. they simply didn’t love me and still not really do. i tried so hard to convince myself otherwise for so long

granted the things i’ve been thru it’s kind of a miracle that i’m not half dead in a meth house rn. do i count this as a win? eh. maybe i would be in less pain if i were fried all the time? idk lol

i feel like i need to own up to being suicidal. i’m suicidal i have always been suicidal it’s a huge part of me at this point, i mean ive been so since 13 isnt that ridiculous? its ingrained into the fibers of Me now. i need to accept its passive presence. i do not know if there will be a day in my future where i dont wake up early to think about the details of slitting my wrists in the tub and bleeding out while the water runs but i can just accept that my mind will go there instead of trying to block it out and then feeling miserable for the rest of the day. agony

i feel that my being traumatized is embarrassing personally. i am embarrassed by taking up space. i am embarrassed that talking about my life warrants pity and weird attention i don’t like it because i don’t like thinking about how everything that happened to me was wrong. i dont want to know how wrong it was because once i start considering that i will never go back. pandoras box

i do not want to get married and i would have to be strongly convinced otherwise. this is just a personal detail on the side but i think i need to put a hard stop to the marriage talk with my extended family. i will likely be shot or disowned for this

umm one other thing, which i hate about myself: this is gonna sound fucked up but i spent the summer before highschool remaking myself like from scratch. i mean i watched movie after movie that summer and took mental notes about why people liked the protagonist because i was tired of being so violently hated. i made the foundation of the personality that has carried me thru today and wearing that second skin became first nature so i kind of lost my real self bc i hated her bc everyone else hated her too. i made up a personality. i remember i loved how people liked jack sparrow so i tried out making more silly jokes taking myself less seriously. i liked movies where the protagonist fucks up but is still loved and a lot of cult classics have that so i just remember watching movie after movie like it was homework. also this was my first real exposure to movies because my parents banned movies like high school musical and barbie the princess diaries for being too adult. so. so. yeah.

life before that was so lonely i cannot describe it to you. i vividly remember in elementary school i would climb to the top of a jungle gym in the back of our playground and sit there through recess so no one could scare me or make me cry and then silently go back to class. the few times i played tag with people they would trap me and i would get scared to my core and since i had cousins at home who pushed me around full time i was really scared of being hurt like that, esp by strangers so i would freak out and have to go sit alone on the blacktop lol. lonely lonely girl. my grandfather would come from home to sit with me at lunch because kids would not let me sit at their table so he used to drive there and bring me lunch. i miss him every day.

anyways. wish i could say good days ahead but it would be a lie. signing off 🫡

#the gup diaries #sorry abt this #tw cw everything man haha

[realcube]

haikyuu!! boys with a s/o that becomes clingy/affectionate while drunk

characters: kyōtani, kenma, iwaizumi, matsukawa and bokuto

thank you anon for this marvellous request mwah

ALL CHARACTERS ARE AGED UP!

tw// drinking, suggestive themes, sexual references, swearing

Kentarō Kyōtani

kyōtani was used to having a cool, laid-back s/o who was just as awkward about physical touch as he was 

i mean, that’s kinda a part of the reason he liked you so much - so y’all could get over your awkwardness together

so imagine his surprise when his usually level-headed, calm s/o came stumbling out of the club, a blubbering mess and threw themselves into his arms, wailing something about a maths test

THE AMOUNT OF EMOTIONS THAT FLOODED HIS MIND IN THAT ONE MOMENT OMFG ADFGHJKL

he was like ‘omg why are they touching me? i kinda like it- wait are they crying? tf? i ain’t ever seen them cry before- should i help them? lord everyone is looking at us now. so what the fuck do i do- AYE DON’T TOUCH ME THERE’

so he had no choice but to dip with you flung over his shoulder lol

he took you back to your shared apartment and forced you to drink some water and instead of ordering a take-out, he just gave you his leftover burrito which he took to the club smh

it was probably cold 

but that was the best he could think of at the time bc he simply needed to shut you up with food bc the alcohol in your system was causing you to become especially touchy, hence resulting in kyōtani getting especially aroused

but the last thing he’d do is fuck you while you’re drunk and i firmly believe that despite the fact kyōtani is a bit of a lout - he still has like a basic moral compass

but i mean if you kept being so damn suggestive then it was gonna be a lot harder for him to resist his urges

you were rubbing him up and shit, calling him every pet name in the book so ofc he just stuck a burrito in your mouth and went ‘stfu 😡’

the painful part was that he was silently enjoying it too (┬┬﹏┬┬)

(though, he was red from blushing lol, not anger) 

and he wasn’t used to it either so obviously he was gonna get flustered, i mean, everything was happening all at once

oh and you told him ‘i love you’ and he literally combusted like lord have mercy on this man 

just that morning you were calling him your ‘annoying rat boyfriend’ (jokingly, ofc) and now you love him?-

that wasn’t the first time you told him that you loved him but he was still blushing none the less 

and he stammered out a ‘love you too’ PRAYING that you wouldn’t remember any of this the following day

anyway, he cuddled you to sleep and railed you as soon as you sobered up - the end ❤

Kenma Kozume

pov: you’re kenma happily being a wallflower in the club then your s/o approaches you, demanding for you to fuck them 

- ok, end of POV - 

anyway, your speech was slurred so kenma wasn’t really sure if that was what you were asking him to do but if it was, he would’ve happily obliged if it wasn’t for the fact you were clearly drunk

mans was blushing though

bc y’all hardly ever do it but now - all of a sudden - you were tightly wrapped around him, garbling erotic threats into his ear

kenma was worried at first but you were like..really weak

so it wasn’t hard to get you off his torso, usher you out of the club and grip your hand as he ordered a taxi 

also kenma had read enough wattpad fanfictions to know how to deal with someone while they’re drunk 

but none of those fanfictions ever mentioned a single thing about how to deal with yourself while your partner is drunk

like seriously..he was in pain

both from the throbbing erection he had and the aching embarrassment he felt - both stemming from the fact you tried to give him a lap dance in taxi ✋ please oml

anyway, he took you back to his apartment and insisted that you have a few slices of the left-over pizza in the fridge along with a glass of water

after you changed into your pyjamas, you had clearly sobered up slightly as you could now compose coherent sentences

but that wasn’t any better for him bc now you were draped over him, whimpering into his ear about how much you love him

‘i’m so lucky to have you, kenma. i love you so much. you remind me of my first cat - you’re such a cat- i mean, blessing..you’re such a blessing.’ 

ngl, at that point he would be at a loss for words, just deciding to hug you until you fall asleep

like he finds it so cute that you’re finally opening up to him about how you feel as you’re usually quite composed and restrained 

but also- what does he do now? 

you eventually fell asleep in his arms and the next day, you woke up to kenma having made breakfast and telling you how much he adores you which was..confusing, to say the least

he told you about how you acted when you were drunk and to say you were embarrassed would be an understatement 

also, he’ll tease you about it for the rest of your life ;)

Hajime Iwaizumi

literally all you had to do was send him a text like ‘iwa...,,.,...ily so mycj ❤’’ and he’s already waiting in the line to get into the club lol

he marches in there, finds you, grabs your hand and drags you home 

let’s hope that your friends know what iwaizumi looks like so they don’t have to just watch a random guy haul you out the club-

and tries to act all like angry iwaizumi >:( but when you are trailing behind him, muttering about how amazing he is, he becomes more like angy iwa grrr (* ￣︿￣)

by that, i mean that angry iwaizumi would bring you home and lecture on how irresponsible it is to get so intoxicated 

but angy iwa just takes care of you but with a disapproving scowl 

and angry iwaizumi would make nasty, bitchy remarks about how inappropriate your outfit is 

while angy iwa would be like ‘babe, your outfit is lovely but maybe wear something different next time, idk....’

either way, he takes good care of you 

he makes sure you eat (and he cooks good food btw - he doesn’t make you eat leftovers lmao) 

he lets you change into more comfortable clothes

he ensures that you don’t die in the shower 

and he forces you to go to bed

but all of that is rather difficult when you’re clinging to him like your life depends on it, raving on about how sweet of a boyfriend he is and covering his face sloppy kisses

his original plan was to go train some more in his gym (yes, there is a gym in y’alls house-) but when you were peppering his cheek in kisses, begging him to stay with you for whatever reason, of course he didn’t have the balls to leave

 so he ended up laying like a log in bed as you cuddled up to him like koala, resting your head in his chest and allowing him to run his hand through your hair as you slept

in that moment - as he stared down at your tranquil figure - he realised how grateful he was for moments like these, as he finally got see a side of you that he knew you’d almost never exhibit when you’re sober

like yeah, you often tell him how much you love him but he can always tell that it’s as if you’re setting aside your pride to say such a thing but now, you’re gushing on about it with the most genuine look in your eyes, he can tell that you’re being completely sincere 

and to say that he adores it would be an understatement 

so yeah, you were kind of a pain while drunk but you were also the most adorable thing that iwaizumi had ever laid his eyes on (. ❛ ᴗ ❛.)

Issei Matsukawa

ok so the only reason matsukawa wasn’t getting drunk with you was bc the first time y’all got drunk together he got fined for public indecency and you got done for public intoxication

so you decided that it was best (for your wallets) if you took turns getting tipsy

emphasis on ‘tipsy’ bc you both went to the bar together (along with a few friends) and you promised matsukawa that you’d only have a few drinks 

so please explain to him why he is now having to carry you bridal style out of the bar because you are too hammered to walk properly 

and he was kinda grumpy bc he had to leave his friends mid-conversation bc not only were you pestering him but also, the erotic things you were whispering in his ear caused him to get a boner

and he was getting weird looks from people as he carried you home but that was the least of his problems tbh- he didn’t even notice lol

the biggest issue on his mind rn was the fact that you made him hard yet you can’t help him bc you’re drunk smh 

like he was tempted at first bc you seemed down to do it but he quickly came back to reality and realised how morally incorrect that’d be 

so he was mumbling curses the whole way home just to tune you out bc if he paid any more attention to the racy promises you were muttering in his ear- he’d explode

he’s alright at taking care of you like he isn’t iwaizumi’s level of caring but he’s a close second, i mean he’s gotten drunk plenty of times so he knows the basics

he was like ‘drink water idk lol ’

anyway, once he handled himself he wasn’t too fazed by your lustful advances

and he was so smug about it too deadass like ‘keep talkin’ me up, (y/n), you ain’t getting shit until you’re sober.’

smh ANYWAY he thinks you’re so charming when you’re like lovey-dovey drunk but SO annoying when you’re horny drunk bc like- he can’t get some (T_T)

Kōtarō Bokuto 

best for last 👌

ok anyway he’s an athlete and he doesn’t need alcohol to have a good time- he’s forever drunk tbh- drunk on life :)

so while you’re getting hammered with your pals, he’s doing stupid shit while sober lol

once you both rendezvous outside the club to head home and you’re absolutely steamin- he’s just like ‘hi, babe! how’s your night been?’

SO OBLIVIOUS OML

anyway, he drives back to y’alls house and since you’re fatigued at first, you spent 90% of the car ride sleeping

but when you get home, more awake, you’re all up on him

but you’re not like sensual drunk- more like..emotional drunk but with love 🥺

so basically you are sobbing into his chest about whatever and bc he is an such empath he will start crying too, or at least get a bit emotional 

you could say something like, ‘omg, bo. i hardly get to see you because you’re at work so often- i wish i could spend more time with you. i miss you so much’  ╯︿╰

and he would deadass reply whole-heartedly while weeping into your shoulder, ‘I’M QUITTING VOLLEYBALL, (Y/N)!!’

(ok, so maybe he was a bit tipsy too- but like..definitely not has drunk as you)

he has no idea where to start when it comes to taking care of you but he tries (´◡` ‘) 

at the very least, he ensures that you don’t having any more alcohol and that you don’t die somehow 

he’s v overprotective though 

you could be getting a fork to eat your instant-noodles with and he’ll be like 

‘apologies ✋ but i cannot allow you to handle such a dangerous weapon while intoxicated. maybe eat with a spoon instead, idk.’ /h

other than that, he just cuddles you to sleep and deals with you in your badly hungover state the next day

#haikyuu!! #haikyu x reader #haikyū!! #haikyuu x gn!reader #haikyuu x gender neutral reader #kyotani kentaro #kyotani x y/n #kyotani fluff #kyotani x reader #kyotani hcs #kyotani headcanons #kyotani x you #kenma x reader #timeskip kenma #kenma scenario #kenma x y/n #kenma kuzome #iwaizumi imagine #kenma fluff #iwaizumi fluff #iwaizumi hcs #iwaizumi x reader #hq iwaizumi #iwaizumi x you #matsukawa fluff #hq matsukawa #matsukawa x reader #matsukawa hcs #issei x y/n #hq issei

[chrisdiels-babygirl]

Wait youre doing ships?? YESSSS OK this is nadia from the main btw

Ok so im 5'3 which is apparently SHORT but I dont think it is personally so idk. I think you've seen what I look like from my selfies in the past so Imma skip that but basically brown curly hair and brown eyes. I have seven piercings but im def planning to get more bc I'm ✨addicted✨.

Im very loud and people say i can be aggressive when they meet me but honestly I'm just very passionate so it comes across that way. Actually can ramble about anything I care about for hours (and. Oftentimes will, sorry). Im going to become a lawyer once the degree comes through so I guess thats good 😭. A huge flirt but PERSONALLY I think I suck at it i just do it for fun.

My hobbies are sewing (working on making my whole wardrobe rn), boxing (we've been OVER this), writing SOMETIMES, and I just love spending time with friends and family. I can bellydance but im HELLA shy about it. Im the mom friend and ALSO the spontaneous plans at three am friend. I need breaks from routine or I snap. Also my love language is touch starved physical touch and I will koala hug you 24/7 when im needy.

Ummmm this is dragging sooooo im gonna cut it off here 🤣 I tried not to write this with bias toward any of the boys so let's see what you come up with. hope this was okay Sof ❤❤

Hi bby, I love youuu and I hope you like it gorgeous🥰💕

@flamediel @imbrium-mare

Ok so I've took some time to think about this and I've decided that I would 100% ship you with zabdiel and its not because he's the one you like. There are aspects of you that are similar to Chris like loving piercings, being loud and a big flirt, but the rest of you screams zabdiel, which is why I could deadass see you being friends with Chris and he introduces you to zabdiel. I feel like you guys would be that couple that are genuinely also each others best friends. I see you guys on your first date and he'll ask you what you're passionate about and he'll just love listening to you ramble on and on while he looks at you with a dreamy look on his face, I could also see that being one of the things he's loves about you once you start dating, he would think its hella cute how you ramble🥺🤧 I could also see zab being there when you graduate from law school, acting like a proud boyfriend bragging and telling everyone how proud he is of you "hey this is my girlfriend and she's a badass lawyer😌"(as he should, we love a couple that supports each others careers👏🏼😌) I could see the two of you just side by side, him working on music and you sewing, he'll occasionally stop to just watch you and admire how beautiful you are, I feel like he'd also just be interested in what started out as just a bit a fabric is now a beautiful clothing piece, he'd also never fail to let you know how talented you are. I could see the both of you going to the gym together to do boxing (which nadia please do ✨the lords work✨ gives us some more boxdiel content🙏🏼) anyway I could definitely see him thinking its hot that you box. You know damn well if you writing anything his nosey ass is gon be like "lemme see😩" and he gon end up stealing it from you anyway to read it just so he can hype you up, but if its fanfic about him he ain't never gon stop teasing you about it. I could 100% see him asking you to show him how you belly dance and you'd get all shy and he'd be like "please teach me" you'd eventually give in and he'd probably just end up goofing around failing at belly dancing, making you laugh at him while appa just sits on the couch staring at him confused as fuck🤭😂 ok now let's get one thing straight I know the two of you would be the biggest baby's with each other, holding hands, make outs, pecks on the forehead and cheek, lots of cuddles, I can also see you wearing one of his hoodies that would be way to big on you and he'd just take one look at you and he'd be like "you're the most adorable person ever🥺🤧" and then he would literally smush you in cuddles.

Send a short description and I'll ship you with a member of CNCO and tell you what I think your relationship would be like.

#flamediel #mutuals #I got all soft and mushy writing this🤧 #zabdiel de jesus #cnco #cncomusic #my asks #my asks are open #send me an ask and i'll ship you

[leejeongz]

Ateez Ideal Types

this is totally my opinion!! please don’t take anything i said here seriously because it’s probably all wrong hehe🖤

hongjoong:

i’d imagine hongjoong would be most comfortable with someone who was in the quiet side, perhaps not introverted but quiet for sure. he would fall for someone who was mysterious and had a lot to explore would since they would intrigue him the most. of course he’d want someone understanding and not clingy since he won’t be with them all the time, but he’d still want them to miss him and be loyal (that’s a given but oh well.) i think he would enjoy being with someone who likes travelling with him and enjoys going on adventures but also someone who’s down to chill in the studio with him and give him honest opinions on any new music. honesty would be important to him in an s/o i think as well as trust. since hongjoong is how should i say this... vertically challenged, i’d imagine he’d want someone who is also rather short. i always imagined hongjoong going for someone a lil edgy in how they dress and how they cut their hair (and how they do their make up, but he’d rather no make up at all) but still keeping with the quiet vibe somehow. rather than cute, i think he’d prefer a sexy person, someone who is quite flirty with him, almost dominating in fact.

seonghwa:

i think seonghwa would go for someone who was stereotypically good looking. someone who everyone thinks is good looking. someone who KNOWS they are good looking, but he doesn’t want someone who is rude or has a superiority complex bc he’s a really nice person okay 🥺pls don’t put him through that. i think he’s a fan of long straight black hair and a light make up look, perhaps with a bold red lip and a winged eye liner on date nights just to spice it up a bit. i believe seonghwa would like someone who is keen on fashion and maybe even works in the industry. like him, i think his significant other would be someone with a kind heart, even if they do look cold on the outside. honestly, i think he’d really like someone who is quite innocent despite not looking it. they gotta have some table manners, manners in general in fact. being rude,especially when it’s uncalled for, is something i’d imagine he can’t stand!!!

yunho:

i think yunho would like someone small. like real small so he can tease them. i think he would like someone with “feminine feature” such as long hair and a cute lil button nose that he could boop every once in a while. i also think he would like pale skin that matches his. honestly, i don’t see him with someone who isn’t korean because of the language barrier but if he does fall for someone who doesn’t speak korean he’d probably learn english for u because he’s a big cutie like that. personality wise i think he would match well with someone quite loud and care free like him so they can mess around together and be wild (not in that way u cheeky chappy.) i think he would want someone who is a lil clingy and someone who always wants to be around him because secretly he always wants to be around them too. he would want someone who ate a lot i feel, chubby or thin, that doesn’t matter just be able to pack away a lot of delicious food. the main thing he would want is for you to be genuinely kind and happy. i feel like he’s someone who cannot stand “fakeness” so being genuinely happy and kind to him and to others would be one of his favourite things about you.

yeosang:

as he is an innocent lil bunny himself, i think he would want someone who is also quite innocent. someone who looks innocent and actually is innocent. the person must make Yeosang feel comfortable tho, since he’s quite a quiet guy, being all up in his face 25/8 would be a fat no no for him. he strikes me as someone who doesn’t exactly have a type, but more of “if we vibe, we vibe” kind of person so it really just depends on them. although he may not have an exact type, i think he would rather be with someone who could speak korean, he is wayyy too busy to learn english fluently rn so i don’t think that would be the best for him. for some reason, i get the vibe that he would like someone who stereotypically dresses like they go to Oxford. like those round metal glasses, a pleated skirt with tights and a nice shirt and he’s on the floor passed out from ur beauty. of course since he’s a visual GOD, i can see him with someone who also has beautiful facial features and silky soft hair. i don’t think body type matters that much to him tbh.

san:

fuck me san would loveee someone sexy, i don’t take constructive criticism. like typically sexy: curvaceous, tanned, long legs, defined jaw line and an intimidating stare (did i just describe Hwasa i think i did) but at the same time, like the duality king of ateez himself, i think he would like someone who is a b i g cutie pie, especially when they’re in public bc he’d probs get jealous should anyone else see ur sexy side. i think he would like someone with an interest in their appearance, someone who likes to stay fit and healthy and goes to the gym regularly. i see him as someone who wants an s/o that he can share the spotlight with and so confidence is the key to winning his heart. i see him with someone who also likes music. someone who writes music would be so fkn hot to him and he’d love to show off your talents on ur behalf. honestly at the end of the day i think he wants someone who is proud of him. someone who can show him that they’re proud of him and are actually being serious, not just saying it because they know he likes it.

mingi:

this cutie would want someone who is also vvvv cute. someone who dresses and acts cutely would be perfect for him. i see him going for someone who is perhaps considered quite tall, but is still short to him. idk why but i get the vibe that he would like gingers, dyed or natural. i think he would like someone with doll-like eyes and an infectious, gummy smile that lights up the whole room. omg someone who is constantly laughing and smiling would be perfect for mingi, a bright personality would make him super happy and comfortable. i kinda think he would like to be babied, but he’d also want to baby his s/o so it would need to be someone who is a bit of a switch (in a non sexual way ofc.) he would perhaps want someone who was quite loud and playful, especially when the two of them were alone. he’s not really a fan of PDA i don’t think, especially in front of the members, so he wouldn’t want anyone who liked to constantly kiss him or hold onto him when out and about. behind closed doors however, pls be all over him bc he’d love that i’d imagine ahah. idk maybe it’s just me but i think he needs some validation so someone who could give him that regularly would be perfect for him, without being condescending or not understanding.

wooyoung:

oh my gosh i KNOW wooyoung loves affection so his ideal type is definitely someone who is affectionate. as sexy as he claims to be, he’s still a big cutie and i think he would want a cute s/o. i believe he would like someone sensitive that he could look out for to make him feel “manly.” i think he would thrive best in a relationship with someone who isn’t afraid of telling him to calm down when he needs to or to rest occasionally, even if he doesn’t admit to wanting that. an s/o with a great sense of humour would be perfect for him, someone who can adapt their humour to the situation would be especially cool. like him, i think he would want to date a dancer or an idol of some sort. in terms of appearance i don’t think he would be that fussy. i think he’d be a big fan someone who had nice eyebrows tho, like idk maybe he has an eyebrow kink? i think he’d love blue eyes or features that aren’t typically “korean.” i think too, he would go for someone who wasn’t too skinny but was still healthy.

jongho:

literally be his baby and his mother and you are his forever. i think jongho would LOVE to be babied just as much as he loved being the strong masculine boyfriend in the relationship. he isn’t really a fan of PDA but i think he’d make an exception for the love of his life, and he would find it cute to see someone who was touchy with their friends (but he’d also get jealous,,, a sticky one). he would like someone who is cute and their “reputation” if you will is positive and all things about them are nice. if you could sing, he would REALLY like that. like he’d be super into doing things when he knew you had a shared passion for them. appearance wise i think he would like someone kinda chubby with cute cheeks he could pinch hehe. i think he would like someone who looked natural: no make up, natural hair colour, no fillers or plastic surgery. maybe this goes without saying but i think he would want someone short, shorter or just a lil taller than him though he doesn’t mind about that, just not so tall that it looks odd ya feel?

gifs aren’t mine

#ateez #ateez ideal type #hongjoong #seonghwa #yunho #yeosang #san #mingi #wooyoung #jongho

[girltomboy]

I had... the happiest, most magical weekend with my boyfriend. I honestly had several moments where I genuinely and literally could not believe that what I was living was real. We kissed so much, hugged, watched each other, had sex, smelled each other, touched each other, slept next to each other, walked a lot. Friday we took selfies in our hotel room. I sent some to my mom and she seemed happy for us and fine, but now that I'm back home she's definitely distant and unusually quiet and she made me lie to my stepdad about who I was with. Anyway... I'd like to not think about this. This weekend is still fresh and sweet in my heart, and I feel raw sadness about having said goodbye to my love, so I'm just gonna soothe myself with what I have rn.

We stayed at a pretty nice hotel for its money. Walked through the city. God, I want to go back to Friday. Before we got to the hotel. We saw an electric box thing (???) Outside and he was like "wait, let's kiss here" and we reproduced the what if we kissed in front of the electrical box meme HDHSHZKSMD. Then when we got there we exchanged toys and gifts. He brought me so many toys omggggg and a dirty shirt of his. Hope my mom doesn't find it (and smell it) and put it in the laundry Lmfao. It's my boy. Then we made out on the bed and couldn't take our hands and mouths off of each other. Omg how I had missed him. And how I miss him. And then we went food hunting and took a long walk... we ate and his mom video called us. Then we fucked for a realllllly long time. Then sat on the balcony. Then again.......... and then we slept. He made me sleep on his left side so I can rest my head on his chest and hear his heartbeat. The sweetest everrrrrr omg. I'm about to cry.

Saturday we woke up super early, tried to fuck but couldn't really, so we showered and then went out for food again. Then we got back and ate, and afterwards we made out and split a LSD tab in half, then we took a nap cuz we were both sleepy lmao. I'll probably write a separate post about the entire acid experience. But we woke up some hours later and he wanted to go outside, but I was feeling really good at home, just there with him, but I agreed to go outside bc it's not like we went there to stay inside the whole time. So we took a LONG fucking walk, and it felt good and it was so so so nice. We walked, we laughed, we sat on benches, we looked at things, then when it got late and the acid was kind of wearing off, we headed back to the hotel, grabbed some money and went food shopping again. He bought me a small elephant plushie and I got him a small dinosaur. When we got back we ate, then tried to fuck I think??? It's getting blurry :( he couldn't keep it hard, and it made him super super sad and disappointed and confused. Even though I told him a million times that it's not a problem, it's okay, he shouldn't beat himself up or overthink it. He started wondering if he's depressed. I could see that, kinda... like, he talked about how the video game he played for so many years doesn't make him feel any joy anymore, and that he gets bored of any game he plays, and like all he does is sit on his laptop all day, being bored and switching between games or videos or anime episodes, etc. So that's probably a huge contribution. And I already sensed that. And he said he'll try to have a break from playing, just to see what he would do. Idk if it's a good idea, I mean I just don't want him to feel miserable because I know it's hard to have things to do nowadays. Or places to go. He said something about going to the gym or going to therapy. I don't know if he'll do it but I just want him to be okay and feel happy, and know I'll be by his side through everything. It seriously broke me to see him so sad and confused. And to know that he thinks there is something wrong with him. My sweet sweet sweet heart my love and my boy and my happiness. I cheered him up a little, we sat on the balcony, I loved him as much as I could, and I could not keep myself away from him. Then we played some cards, I sucked his deedee and we went to bed. I felt so tired omg. Couldn't keep my eyes open. Last thing I know he was trying to show me some memes but I couldn't register anything lol. Then we woke up but we were so sleepy we ended up sleeping later than intended. Ate some leftovers, packed our bags and cleaned the room a little, then left to the train station. We walked there and I could feel that he was sad too. I really was destroyed. He left before me, and I just went to the train station bathroom to cry. He said he felt like crying too, but called his mom. I was gutted.

I take so long to get adjusted to new places. Like, not necessarily NEW, but changes of scenery and such. In order to properly return to my routine and get back on track, I have to somehow force myself to forget what I have just lived. Or not really force myself, more like the more I get used to being back home, the more I forget the other things. And if I try to think back to my happy moments, it feels even harder to get used to being home. It doesn't help that my parents (especially my mom) is so distant RN and will probably try to talk to me, or probably doesn't care at all... who knows? But it certainly doesn't help. My bf's mom called me while I was on the train, we talked for a bit and she wished me a safe journey. I loved it and thought it was so nice of her, so cute. My mom did not call me and her texts were dry, when I got home she would not even talk to me and now they went to visit someone and left me all alone. But it's fine. I ate and cried and now I'm scared to take out everything my bf gave me, because I'm 100% sure I'll cry again, or at least the knife in my heart will start rotating.

#i can't wait till he gets home too so we can talk #i have his hair in my phone case #literally my only source of happiness and goodness in this life #literally nothing else makes me happy other than thinking about my baby talking to my baby and of course #being with my baby but if that's not possible... well #i want to help him with his homework like i literally want to do everything with him #i'm going nuts missing him

[never-in-neverland-2]

sentimental bs

so im chilling here. 11:15 pm eastern. Can't stop thinking about how he always puts on a hat when we Skype bc he hates his hair. How he doesn't like my Spanish accent bc it's "too American" and he wants to help me fix it but I'm too shy to speak well in front of him. How his favorite color is blue just like his eyes but they can go to grey or green depending on what shirt he's wearing and the lighting. How whenever he wants to Skype he has to wait half an hour bc he's already skyping with his mom. How he can't stand that I might go study in France instead of Spain bc "Madrid is much better" even though his sis is teaching in France rn. How at 3 in the morning he skyped me drunk once and decided we were going to play strip poker but it didn't work out bc (a) how would the decks work and (b) every time I was supposed to take something off I'd just put it back on bc he was wasted and didn't notice. How he always looks at me when he thinks I don't notice him. How he wants his "pull game" to be strong so he can swing a girl 300+ miles away. He thinks that I don't notice all these things about him but I could write a novel just on the way he makes fun of himself but is genuinely trying to love himself now. I could tell you about how whenever a friend needs him he'd drop everything to help them. About how he loves his cats and dogs but if he had to pick I think he'd pick his kitten. I could tease him for hours about how much he goes to the gym but he always teases me about how I won't twirl for him. I can't find words to describe his reaction when I came back to show him my bubblegum pink hair two years ago and he called me his "strawberry girl". I could cry thinking about how bad he was but now how amazing he is. About when he left and never told me why. I found out though. My friends had told him he wasn't good enough for me and would only drag me down. That wasn't true. I was a kite flying high above the trees and with the clouds on the morning breeze but I needed and anchor and I wanted it to be him. But I was cut adrift when he left and with nothing to tie me down I floated and floated until one day around this time I texted him and said "can you make me feel better" bc my girlfriend at the time was making me feel worthless and he replied in two minutes with the word "pickles". Just one word. I laughed and the tears flowed and he called me and asked what was wrong with his girl. Why was I crying when I had all these amazing things about and around me? He is the one that helped me learn to love myself and who I am and who am I. He offers support in weird ways like telling me not to go to Mexico bc he'd worry too much but I said I'd do it anyways. I think he was a little angry. I could tell you that when he's angry with me he has a little lopsided smile and he'll bicker with me and yell but within an hour he'll come back and say "I'm sorry but I care and don't want you to be put in danger" but where is the fun in that? I could tell you that he called me at 3:34 on a Tuesday morning to say "mere you are my world. Do you know that?" And then he equated me to a candy saying that he wanted me but he didn't want to deal with the sugar crash of when I'd disappear. I could tell you about his car. God he'd wash that thing everyday if he could. He was so proud to buy it. His black mustang. What a boy. I could tell you his dad is a lawyer and his mom owns a language school where she teaches and his sister graduated from a school in Illinois to become a teacher. Do you remember the train accident in Spain a few years ago? He was there. His uncle died. He slipped into a horrible depression and thought it was his fault and I said "how could it be your fault? You weren't the driver who fell asleep" and he just left to go drink away the pain. I could give you a list of all the girls he asked me for advice on. I could rate the amount of pain I felt each time. But I can tell you that every time I'd try to follow up he'd say "no it didn't work out. I'm waiting on someone" and I can tell you I smiled so hard that my face hurt. I could describe to you how disappointed he was in me when I drunk called him that night saying that a guy was trying to touch me. How he said he wanted to be there to protect me and he doesn't think I remember but I think he was crying. How can you miss someone so much but you've never even met? I could tell you he's got family on almost all 7 continents. About how he feels more at home in Spain than his home here in the states. I could tell you how proud I am that he is where he is when he's almost given up so many times. About how fucking strong he is for standing tall after everything. It's 11:32 pm eastern. It feels like my heart is breaking yet growing every time we speak.

#love #confusion #i'm sorry

[cloudy-johnnycade]

ALL OF THE ASKS

good lord

1: Marvel or DC?

marvel all the way my dudes

2: Do you have any siblings?

yep, i have an older brother

3: Do you watch anime subbed or dubbed?

i don’t watch anime :// but if i did i guess i’d watch it subbed??

4: How old are you?

16 :)

5: What is your favorite sport?

does dance count?? imma say it does

6: Favorite soda/beverage?

m i l k

7: What is your favorite tv show?

stranger things or chicago med or oitnb 

8: Do you marathon shows or watch a few episodes at a time?

it depends, but usually a few episodes at a time 

9: How often do you exercise?

uhh i have gym class every day if that counts lmao

10: Do you wear makeup? How often?

i usually wear it every day but sometimes it just doesn’t happen ya know what i’m saying

11: Favorite Disney movie?

OH GOSH I LOVE ALL OF THEM but i really like beauty and the beast, the nightmare before christmas, and monsters inc!!

12: Would you rather watch a movie or a tv show?

a movie

13: Do you have your driver’s license?

i’m old enough but not yet :’) SOON THOUGH

14: What is your favorite animal?

i like dogs and goats and sea lions 

15: Black widow or Catwoman?

black widowwwwwww

16: favorite youtuber?

dan and phil!! they come as a package deal

17: What is your earliest memory?

i remember my grandparents old dog biting me when i tried to give her a cookie?? 

18: Favorite video game?

idfk mario kart?? i’m not much of a gamer lol

19: What is your biggest pet peeve?

ESBFKSI I HAVE SO MANY PET PEEVES IM SO NUTS but i haaaaate when people put their phone down but leave it on. like. TURN THAT SHIT OFF JUST PRESS THE GODDAMN BUTTON AND BAM ITS DONE

20: Dinosaurs or dragons?

dinosaurs are the shit bro i love them ((velociraptors are the best))

21: What is the worst injury you have ever had?

i mean i’ve had 2 back surgeries but those weren’t for injuries so idk if that counts,,, but i broke my arm once?

22: What piercings do you have/want?

i just have my ears pierced, but i wanna get more piercings on my ears! like my doubles and cartilage and shit

23: Any tattoos? if not, would you get any?

i don’t have any but lowkey i wanna get a small one somewhere,, even though my parents will murder me

24: Sexual orientation?

idk im confused rn ugh

25: What is your best subject in school?

i think i can genuinely say i don’t have one?? i just suck at everything??

26: What is your favorite book series?

the selection,,,or the maze runner,,,

27: Do you have a crush on anyone currently?

ye kinda

28: Single or in a relationship?

single but ready to mingle *puts on shades and does finger guns*

29: What character would you most like to cosplay?

hmmmmmmmm beverly marsh?? even though i could probably never pull it off??

30: Are you an introvert or an extrovert?

introvert

31: Cats or dogs?

i used to be a cat person but not aNYMORE BITCHES I LIVE FOR PUPPERS i still love cats though 

32: What is the most embarrassing thing to ever happen to you?

i was born

33: Tell me a story.

one time in middle school i was walking to class with my friend and i was talking shit about a teacher and lord behold turns out the teacher was right behind us!!! i don’t think he heard me but god if he did i swear i would have ended my life right then and there

34: What is the strangest thing you’ve ever seen someone wear?

i’ve seen a lot of weird clothing choices but someone came to school dressed as a taco once

35: Where in the world would you most like to travel?

france!

36: Favorite Pokemon?

uhhhh squirtle i guess?

37: favorite color?

purple

38: Are you religious?

i’m catholic but i’m probably the worst catholic ever ngl

39: Post a selfie

im ugly but i’ll post one in a separate post lmao

40: Have you ever left your home country/state?

yep

41: Do you prefer to travel by car or airplane?

roadtrips can be fun but airplanes are just,,,faster

42: Are you a fan of rollercoasters?

I LVOE ROLLERCOASTERS

43: What is your favorite OTP?

jonahmin ;) @dork-glasses

44: Who is your favorite Disney princess?

belle!!

45: Who is your favorite Disney prince?

eric!!

46: Who is your favorite Disney villain?

i like ursula, syndrome, captain hook, i can’t pick a fav aheofsod

47: Do you sing along to the radio?

sometimes yeah!!

48: Who is your favorite Harry Potter character?

dobby :’)

49: Any headcanons?

for what??

50: If you could have one of the Deathly Hallows (cloak of invisibility, Elder Wand, or Resurrection Stone), which would it be?

cloak of invisibility hoes ((just bc i fucking love that “MY DICK FELL OFF” vine))

51: What house would you be in Hogwarts?

imma say slytherin 

52: When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

i told my mom i love her last night idk man lol

53: Do you have any weird habits?

idk if this is necessarily weird but i’m CONSTANTLY touching my hair like its bad

54: What do you do when you’re bored?

sleep

55: What is the strangest thing you’ve seen at Walmart?

i don’t go to walmart that much tbh,,,i’m afraid i don’t really have a good story for ya,,,

56: What color are your eyes?

green

57: What is your natural hair color?

like a light brown kinda thing

58: Have you ever broken a bone? How?

i broke my arm by crawling off a couch

59: What is your favorite food?

pasta!!

60: What do you look for in a relationship?

cuddles&memes

61: If you could live in any era, which would it be and why?

bring me to the 80s goddammit 

62: How late do you usually stay up?

depends on the day. like a school day i’ll be in bed around 11 but on a weekend i have literally no sleep schedule lmao

63: What is your favorite website?

tumblr dot com idk i guess i don’t have one lol

64: Have you been to any concerts?

yep, six (paul mccartney, big time rush, 5sos, 1d, green day, and harry styles)

65: Are you involved in any extracurriculars at school?

i’m in orchestra but like i guess that doesn’t count bc its technically a class

66: If you could be the opposite gender for a day, what would you do?

beat my meat

67: What are you most proud of?

golly gee idk…….i’m proud of being in some honors classes??

68: Do you have any big regrets?

i regret everything

69: What was the best day of your life?

the day i saw harry styles!!!! love him more than anything!!!!!

70: Do you crack your knuckles?

unfortunately i hate meself

71: Do you play any instruments?

yes i sure do

72: First kiss story?

lmao thats funny

73: Do you like hot or cold weather?

cold weather 

74: What is your favorite song of all time?

i have so many i hate this question

75: Any weird talents?

my fingers are really fuckin weird and flexible it scares people sometimes 

#this took forever #anonymous

[realcube]

haikyuu!! boys dating you for a bet then falling hcs 💘

characters: oikawa, kuroo & osamu 

tw// angst to fluff, swearing, sexual references - minor dni!

OIKAWA’S AND KUROO’S ARE AGED UP !

thank you anon for this request 😚

Tōru Oikawa

everyone on the team was teasing him for getting broken up with bc he was ‘too obsessed with volleyball’

he had finally had enough and made a bet with iwaizumi, matsukawa and hanamaki that he could get a s/o quicker than any of them

they accepted ofc but that’s when oikawa learned that hanamaki was already talking to a girl he liked which meant that it was a race against time for oikawa to find someone to date

in reality, he had no interest in dating atm but he had to do this for the sake of his pride

he settled on asking you out bc you were his lab partner for chemistry and even before the bet, he was making playful flirtatious banter with you but it’s not like he had any real feelings for you which meant that breaking up with you afterwards would be simple..right?

also, asking you out would be an easy win

and it was 🤠

oikawa won the bet and regained some confidence which meant he was now free to break up with you

buuuut y’all had only just started dating so he didn’t want to break up with you before the first date so he postponed the break up until after y’all went to the movies together

then the night came - he had just came back home for your first date at the movies, he took you to see an alien invasion movie and you said you loved it

he stared at his phone which was open on IMessage, on your contact; his fingers hovered over the keypad but the words didn’t come to him the way he expected 

the more he thought about, he realised that you guys hadn’t even had your first kiss yet and he wanted to give you a sweet memory to leave you with before he inevitably dumped you so he decided to postpone the break-up again, until you guys had your first kiss 

and since his messenger was open, he invited you on a second date to the park where you had your first kiss over a shared cone of vanilla ice-cream

honestly, he had such a great time on the date that in the moment, he completely forgot about the fact he had to break-up with you so here he was again, sitting on his bed and looking down at his phone glumly as he searched his brain for the right words to say 

but when he allows his mind to wonder for too long, it always comes back to one thing

so figured that he’d hold off breaking-up with you until your first time and from there — depending on how good you are — he’ll decide whether he wants to dump you or keep you around just as a side fling

the day eventually came three months later, not that he was complaining though as he’s developed a lot more patience since he’s started dating you 

you had just came back from a date at the bowling alley and something about seeing Oikawa in bowling shoes and a partially unbuttoned shirt was enough to make you go feral so as soon as you arrived at his house, y’all went for it

in all honesty, sex with you just hit different for oikawa

it was nothing like he’s ever experienced before

like it was kind, sensual and filled with mutual praise and he truthfully never wanted it to end but once it did and he was sprawled out on the bed next you, breathing heavily with your fingers intertwined, he realised that he didn’t want to break up with anymore

the last 4 months that you guys have been dating, truthfully was the best time of his life, like he feels so happy and genuine when he’s around you, there’s no way he’d leave you now

‘I love you, (y/n).’ he hummed, turning his head to the side to look at your peaceful figure laying next him - god, you’re beautiful

‘I love you too, Tōru.’

Tetsurō Kuroo

him and bokuto had a bet to see who could fuck more ppl in a month 

the third year gym squad gc was confused but not too confused i mean this is kuroo and bokuto we’re talking about

akaashi, kenma and tsukishima were all disapproving of this idea for their own reasons

akaashi thought it was immoral while kenma and tsukishima thought it was just a ‘who can get an std first competition’

as for hinata and lev, shōyō had his bet on bokuto while lev was rooting for kuroo

kuroo was going to start his hunt for sex partners at the club tonight but he had already agreed that he’d do the business assignment with you tonight and since it was a partnered thing, he’d feel guilty if he opted out last minute 

he sat on his bed while you took a seat at his desk, working away at the project while kuroo ‘supervised’

kuroo was bummed that bokuto was probably getting laid rn while he was stuck in his room doing an assignment- WAIT

you were here with him ( •̀ ω •́ )✧ and he was like..90% sure you had the thing for him soooo

he immediately sprung up from his bed and shuffled towards you, grabbing your hips to momentarily lift you up so he could pull you away from the project and onto his lap as he sat on his bed, tracing your jaw with his finger

‘time for a break~’ he cooed in your ear, massaging your thigh with spare hand, ‘only if want though, doll.’

xdfghj OFC YOU DID

consent = given ✨

kuroo = hard

your sex = destroyed

ass = red

you = overstimulated as hell 💅

if you started during the day, expect the sun to have gone down by the time y’all were finished

he offered to take you on a date so you both could do this again sometime and you said yes

but he reassured himself that you were only a hook up- definitely nothing serious- no feelings whatsoever

so a week later, he took you on a sweet, wholesome date to a carnival and you got railed afterwards 🥰

your next few dates went in a similar way until one fateful day where you were just..tired

neither of you really wanted to smash tbh, you were just happy laying in each other’s arms 

and as time went on, you guys went on more dates where there was absolutely no sexual activities, just sweet intimacy 

and he...... liked it 

why did he like it???

you were nothing more than a sexual relief to him, right??

so why did he enjoy cuddling with you so much? shouldn’t he be fuckin you rn? but he didn’t want to...like he was lowkey vibin with you in his arm while watching modern family 

then he looked down at you in his arms, the light of the screen highlighting your features beautifully

‘i think i might actually want to marry you one day.’ he blurted out, lightly tracing the bridge of your nose with his finger

this caught you off-guard so you looked up at him, an adorable pink blush dusting your cheeks, ‘really?’ was all you could think to reply 

‘yeah.’

Osamu Miya

ofc it was a bet with atsumu ofc it was a bet with atsumu 

‘who could get the hotter s/o competition?’ and suna would decide who wins

the twins had a month to get a s/o who was hot asf

so osamu asked you out in maths bc you were the most attractive person he kinda already talks too

you said yes as you sorta kinda maybe had a lil’ thing for him

however, he didn’t even ask you out on a date

in fact, he barely even talked to you after he asked you out until the day came where suna judged which miya twin won the bet

osamu did ofc 

then he kinda forgot y’all were dating until one day you snapped him with the caption ‘???’

he was like ‘hey’

sorry i firmly believe he is the driest texter

anyway he felt bad for neglecting you for over a month so he said he’d make it up to you by taking you out to dinner

but he promised himself that dinner was only an apology and right afterwards, he’d cut you off

he was scrolling through his phone, looking for places to take you and although he wanted to just get take-out, even he knew that fast-food probably wasn’t a very romantic date idea

wait- he didn’t care about it being romantic- did he??

eventually he settled on an expensive restaurant bc getting you a take-away probably wasn’t a very good apology 

so anyway he took you out and he actually had a pretty good time ^^ 

i mean, when you coincidentally ordered the same thing off the menu as him- he kinda caught feelings

osamu would definitely realise that he fell for you faster than oikawa and kuroo

just the way his hand just feels a pull towards yours when you’re walking side-by-side is a dead giveaway

so once the date is over and he dropped you off at your house, instead of breaking up with you as he planned, he simply placed a tender kiss on your forehead and smiled, ‘we should do this again soon.’

when he saw the way your face lit up and you squealed slightly, he knew he made the right decision

#oikawa angst #haikyuu x gender neutral reader #osamu hcs #oikawa imagine #kuroo tetsuro x you #oikawa x y/n #oikawa smut #kuroo smut #haikyuu x gn!reader #osamu headcanons #osamu x self insert #osamu x y/n #oikawa fluff #osamu fluff #osamu angst #kuroo x reader #kuroo angst #kuroo fluff #kuroo x you #osamu x you