#idk further weight talk in the tags beware

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i dont want to lose weight bc what if a pretty boy needs to cling to my arm or sit on my lap?? then where would they go?

#augh #heyy dont mind me. its getting into tshirt weather =w=bb #idk further weight talk in the tags beware #i genuinely do not want to lose weight. if im ever in the gym its bc i wanna build up muscle to pick up heavy things 6=w=9 #like genuinely if i could go to the gym rn i fucking would bc I WANNA BE STRONGER. #but ive got too much going on with school and work already and i cant spare it mentally =w=bb #so looking out towards a calmer future where i can go it is. #sillyposting #anyway <3 im got new swimshorts bc the old ones were TOO TIGHT last year so i defo cant fit into them now. #which is fine =w=b #but it is a bit humbling to order xxl from a mens size. #i already know ive got fat legs but cmon. (ik all the bad talk is stupid but that wont stop the feeling so >:P ) #anyway. #as i was trying em on (these new ones fit YIPPEEE) my mom made a comment about aforementiont big ass legs. yay =3=p #thanks. really needed that. #oh well. #but yeah that got me a lil upset again. #:P #its fiiine ill be okay <3 we will just ignore anything that might become a problem and trust that it will not get to that point o7 #the voices in my head are saying something different but ive become very good at ignoring those aswell =w=bb #anyway arms and legs are really the main thing that bother me about my fat. but ill just keep thinking about levi and yakumo <333