ch. 4 — timbran (to build)
summary: the arrival of princess kwentrith only brings chaos
notes: cw for graphic violence, drinking
tagged: @levithestripper, @demon-of-the-ancient-world
series masterlist | general masterlist | ao3
Alethia
The arrival of Princess Kwentrith was of such staged grandeur that Alethia almost had to laugh. She knew her kind of nobility - the one that grasped for power where it was not the right place to do so. When she looked at Kwentrith, she saw a flicker of madness.
Alethia was not sure what to think of it.
Still, she smiled at the other woman courteously as she joined King Ecbert for dinner. Seated next to Athelstan, Alethia knew she was only there because king Ecbert planned to soon make use of her. Threats surrounded Wessex, and Ecbert had already poked holes into her when it came to strategies.
The king seemed to like what she said, but Alethia was always careful not to say too much. He knew that she had lost her child, and was not happy with it - it gave him one less thing to control over her.
“A monk amongst Northmen.” Kwenrith began, amused. “How interesting.”
The princess leaned towards Athelstan, smirking at him with a lazy smile. Alethia grabbed her knife a little tighter, reminding herself that this Kwentrith was seeking allies in every opportunity.
“Indeed.” Athelstan replied. “I learned a great deal.”
“I hear Northmen do not believe in marital fidelity.” Kwentrith continued, and Alethia watched as Athelstan grew more and more flustered. The Mercian princess did not seem to care. “It seems much more natural, no?”
“I do not know.” Athelstan replied curtly.
“But isn’t it?”
“Their way of life is simply different.” Athelstan forced out, and Kwentrith rolled her eyes.
“How boring.” she said, and Alethia thought the discussion would end there. Instead, the princess’ eyes landed on her.
“And you are?”
“Alethia Stahl. The woman that arrived in Wessex one day?” Alethia suggested.
“Arrived? From where?”
“I do not remember.” Alethia replied smoothly. “Many details of my home remain foggy to me until now.”
“But the English tongue is not your own.” Kwentrith noted. Alethia looked to Athelstan, who smiled in reassurance. She hoped her accent was not too strong.
“No.” Alethia admitted. “I have been learning from Athelstan.”
Kwentrith glanced back to him, and Alethia forced herself to breathe. Why was this princess so interested in Athelstan? She was staring at him like a piece of meat.
“How do they love where you are from?” Kwentrith asked in a sardonic tone. The bishop at the table cleared his throat, but Alethia ignored his pretentious holiness.
“We choose whom we love, and we can love whoever we choose, as long as they are old enough for that love.” Alethia explained curtly. Kwentrith smirked.
“What does that mean?” she inquired, her hands traveling towards Alethia’s. She drew her fingers back, forcing a smile onto her face.
“That I bed whomever I please.” Alethia replied. The bishop choked, and she thought she heard King Ecbert chuckle. “But I must disappoint you, princess. I am a widow.”
“God, how old are you?” Kwentrith continued.
“Eighteen.” Alethia said calmly. “But I have the wisdom to not throw myself into reckless danger.”
“That is debatable.” Athelstan mumbled next to her, and Alethia elbowed him playfully. She hated that Ecbert noticed the movement.
“I was shocked to hear of the death of your brother.” Ecbert said quickly, redirecting the attention of the restless princess.
“Don't worry about my brother.” Kwentrith replied. “Did you know that the Pope
has already made him a Saint? Saint Kenelm! Apparently, he lived an exemplary life!”
“Do you mean to say that he was not altogether virtuous?” Ecbert asked carefully.
“Well, he raped me when I was about 12, so you must make up your own mind.” Kwentrith said, too casually if anything. There was another choking noise from the bishop, and Alethia suddenly understood the madness in the eyes of the Mercian. She remembered when it had been reflected in her own.
A woman’s grief, a woman’s pain.
“I am sorry, princess.” Alethia said. “What was done to you was entirely and utterly wrong. If there is a hell, I would hope your brother burns in it.”
“Thank you.” Kwentrith said. “I do not think anyone has ever apologized to me for what happened. Yet, I tell so many people! They all do not seem to care!”
Kwentrith laughed again, and Alethia looked to Athelstan worriedly. She let the evening conversation trickle on for a bit longer, and when there was a small pause, Alethia took her chance.
“I am quite tired. This evening has been so eventful. If I may be excused, I wish you all well for the negotiations.”
“Of course, Alethia. You may go.” Aethelwulf said, before his father could speak. He was trying to get her to leave, and Alethia was glad for it.
“Me as well.” Athelstan said quickly, getting up too. In her mind, Alethia cursed him a bit. Could he not try to make them look a little less like they were leaving to fuck?
As soon as they were out of the room, Alethia turned to Athelstan.
“I don’t like the way she looks at you.” she said.
“Why?” Athelstan asked, walking next to her quietly.
“Because… do you really not know?”
“No… what is it?” Athelstan continued.
“She wants to fuck you. That’s why she was asking about the Northmen.”
“Really?”
“Yes!” Alethia said, exasperated.
“Well… alright. I won’t.” Athelstan said slowly. “There’s a whole vow I am keeping to, after all.”
“Good.” Alethia replied.
“Does it bother you?”
“No.”
“You’re lying.” Athelstan observed.
Alethia hated that he was right. She shouldn’t care, really. Why did she care? “It’s disrespectful.”
“To who?” Athelstan replied. “She’s just a little insane.”
“First of all, so am I. Respect that please. Second of all, I find it disrespectful. To your… vow.”
“Alright.” Athelstan said slowly, staring at Alethia with confusion. “I won’t sleep with her, just like before.”
“Please, stay away from her.” Alethia sighed tiredly. Perhaps it was fatigue that was driving her crazy like this. Perhaps it was simply the fact that Athelstan was her only friend in the whole entire world.
The weight of being alone made Alethia feel like something was crushing her soul.
“Alethia?”
Athelstan’s voice brought her back to reality.
“Goodnight Athelstan.” She mumbled, turning away already. All she wanted was to bury her face in her pillow and sleep. Hopefully for a long time.
Behind her, Athelstan sighed in defeat. Alethia wanted to run to him and apologize. Instead, she went to bed.
The next morning, she ate her breakfast alone.
Athelstan
Whenever he thought he understood Alethia, she wiggled out of his grasp, changing again. It was as if she was not willing to be understood.
As if she wanted to hide herself from the world by always changing, always becoming someone else. The things that did not change about her were few.
Her scars, her quiet smiles, her teasing jokes. Her will to learn, her eagerness to understand. That certain something in her eyes he still could not place.
The territorial understanding of him, that was new. Athelstan thought he understood. He did not like her speaking with Prince Aethelwulf or King Ecbert either. It made sense though - they were both outsiders here, her even more than he.
Still, it hurt that she was distant after the day of Kwentrith’s arrival.
It took Athelstan a week to gather up the courage to ask her about it.
“Why does her being here bother you so much?” Athelstan asked towards the end of one of their lessons. Alethia was still struggling to understand the grammar of the Norse tongue, and Athelstan could not blame her. She mixed it up with English grammar quite often, and that was how he could tell she’d learned uite a few languages in her time.
“A Mercian princess seeking an army to win a civil war? As a woman? This means war.” Alethia replied gloomily.
“I thought you would support her claim.” Athelstan said carefully.
“I do. But the Mercians will never accept her as their ruler, not if she is a woman. Her life will not end well, and her legacy pulled through the dirt for generations to come. And I do not wish to fight in a war that is not my own. Why should I?”
“You serve the king, so you must fight for him. That is simply how it works.” Athelstan shrugged.
“Will you?”
He did not have an answer for her.
“I’ve had my share of war.” Alethia replied simply. Her green eyes looked everywhere but at him, and he knew she had gone to another place in her mind.
Athelstan returned the scrolls to their proper places in the shelves, watching as Alethia did not move from her seat. Suddenly, he noticed that she had begun to braid her hair more tightly ever since Kwentrith arrived, making it form a crown around her head. What was more, she hadn’t worn a dress since that dinner, and a knife was secured in her boot.
She truly was preparing for war, then.
Still, Alethia stuck to Athelstan like a shadow as he climbed the stairs to the main hall of the villa.
“I am sorry for the way I’ve been treating you.” She said suddenly. “It isn’t right.”
“It’s alright.” Athelstan replied.
“No it’s not. It won’t happen again.” Alethia promised. Athelstan smiled softly. The words were kind, and had not been spoken to him often enough in his life. He reminded himself that this was what he was supposed to hear sometimes.
“Do you need me to forgive you?” He teased carefully.
“Yes, please.” Alethia replied snarkily, a smile reappearing on her face.
“Then, my lady, you are forgiven.”
“I am not a lady.” Alethia laughed.
“Oh Alethia. I knew you were one the moment you stepped foot into the courtyard.” Athelstan sighed.
“What do you mean?”
“Just… the way you act. You set boundaries some of us could not afford to set.”
“Oh. Well, I suppose I’ve always been a bit stubborn.”
Athelstan laughed. “A little?”
“Maybe a bit more than a little. Is it very bad?” Alethia asked.
“No, I like it. You know who you are and you aren’t afraid to say it.” Athelstan replied.
Alethia smiled at him, her ears turning a little red from his words. The way she looked at him made his stomach flutter uncomfortably.
“Thank God for my stubbornness then.” She mumbled. As the two of them rounded the corner into the Great Hall, Athelstan froze. Someone was speaking Norse, just a few paces away.
Alethia had noticed it too, and it did not take Athelstan long to recognize the voice.
“Torstein?” He asked, and the Viking man turned around, a wide smile appearing on his face.
“Priest! ” He called loudly. Athelstan could feel Alethia tense behind him, her hand wandering towards her sword.
“And who are you, shieldmaiden? ” Torstein continued, speaking to her. Looking at Alethia, Athelstan knew she had understood Torstein.
“Good job.” He praised, and Alethia blushed.
“She is not a Viking woman. ” Athelstan replied.
“What a pity. ” Torstein laughed, and Athelstan felt his hands ball into fists before he could stop the action.
“Has Ragnar returned, then? ” Athelstan asked, and Torstein nodded.
“He sent me as an envoy… ” Torstein began, before he trailed off, staring at Alethia again. “ So, you and that woman, priest? ”
“She is my student. ” Athelstan replied calmly. “Are you still following, Alethia?”
“I am trying. I think he thinks we are together.” Alethia said. “Why does everyone seem to think that?”
Athelstan could only shrug in response.
“Torstein, what is your purpose here? ” Athelstan asked again, but before the Norseman could reply, King Ecbert strolled into the Great Hall, his son in tow.
“Athelstan, translate.” King Ecbert said, turning to Torstein. Next to Athelstan, Alethia snorted quietly.
“Earl Ragnar, Earl Ingstad and King Horik wish to negotiate terms. ” Torstein said.
Athelstan translated his words, wondering who Earl Ingstad was. He had not heard of this ruler before.
“We should kill him and be done with it.” Aethelwulf said angrily. “These heathens should not touch our ground, much less raid on it.”
“Patience, my son.” Ecbert replied. Torstein looked between them nervously, and next to Athelstan, Alethia was almost holding her breath. “We shall not allow them to raid again. Athelstan, we will keep this Viking as a hostage while my son will go and negotiate with the Northmen.”
“Torstein, you must remain here while Prince Aethelwulf delivers the king’s terms to Earl Ragnar. ” Athelstan explained.
“How will the Northmen take your word seriously?” Alethia asked. “For all they know, Torstein may as well be dead.”
King Ecbert pulled something from his pocket, and Athelstan’s eyes widened.
“My arm ring!” He exclaimed. Had King Ecbert truly had it all this time?
“What is that?” Alethia asked quietly.
“It is a token of loyalty, to Ragnar. I thought I’d lost it, but evidently…” Athelstan replied.
Alethia said something in her tongue, and from her tone, it was evident she was cussing out King Ecbert in a way that she’d be able to keep her head.
“ Smart. ” Athelstan said in Norse. Alethia smirked. Athelstan really needed to learn her tongue. He could not imagine what it was like to not be able to speak your mother tongue for years on end. Living in Kattegat like that had been difficult enough, and Ragnar had made an effort to learn the language.
God, he would learn three languages for her. Alethia was so lonely sometimes, and Athelstan knew exactly how difficult that could be. If he could help her ward it off, he would. She was his friend, after all.
In truth, Athelstan was not so sure all the time. She made him so nervous, so afraid at times. That was not the way friends were supposed to make you feel, right?
Athelstan could barely concentrate on his job as he thought about it, Torstein’s jabs not making the situation any better. He almost breathed with relief as it was done and Alethia disappeared towards the roman bath.
“I want to go swimming.” She said, squeezing his arms gently. “Tell me if you need me to kill anyone for you.”
“What gave you the impression?” Athelstan replied lightly.
“You seemed stressed.” She shrugged.
“King Ecbert can be… intense.”
“Regicide. Haven’t had that one so far.” Alethia laughed. Athelstan looked around nervously.
“That’s treason.”
“Don’t worry. I’d only do it for you.” Alethia joked. Then, her expression grew more serious. “If someone bothered you, you’d tell me, right? I don’t know about regicide, but I’d do a lot to make sure you’re okay.”
“Why?”
“You’re my friend, Athelstan.” Alethia replied. “That’s what friends do.”
Athelstan shouldn’t have been disappointed at that, and yet, he was.
Alethia
The day was cold when Ecbert sent for her, a servant rousing her from her sleep and dragging Alethia to the library. She was still rubbing the sleep from her eyes, disgruntled to be woken this early on a Saturday when she heard Athelstan’s voice and smiled.
“ Caesar had sent his cavalry a little in advance, and was following with the rest of his forces. The battlefront was not formed according to rules of military theory, but as necessitated by the emergency and the sloping ground of the hillside. The legions were facing different ways and fighting different actions. The 9th and 10th legions were on the left,and discharged a volley of spears at the Atrebates." Athelstan translated, his finger brushing over the old scroll when Alethia slipped into the room. He looked up at her for a moment, giving Alethia a small smile.
“Yes. Always thinking, always using the terrain. Go on.” Ecbert mumbled, and Athelstan looked back down at the document.
"At the same time, the Roman cavalry and light-armed troops, seeming to appear from nowhere-"
“Ah! But he knew where. They were in here.” Ecbert interrupted. “And what of his person? What of he himself?”
"As the situation was critical, Caesar moved to the front of the line, addressed each centurion by name...And shouted encouragement to...The fragment ends here.”
“We can imagine how it really ends. We must do battle with Ragnar
Lothbrok and his allies.” Ecbert finished. “Alethia, what of your grandeur of knowledge.”
“Well, Caesar was smart to use the terrain. That’s why he’s such a decorated strategist. The terrain around the villa is not suited perfectly to the plan though. In this battle, Caesar’s enemy was at the bottom of a valley, surrounded by hills from all sides. This is not the case here.” Alethia pointed out, grabbing a map of the surroundings of the villa. She wished there was a physical map at hand.
“The villa was built atop a hill by the Romans. They considered the terrain when they did. The Northmen will be attacking from the shores, which are South. They will fight an uphill battle. Therefore, it would be smart to send the archers out first, attack them with a barrage of arrows before they can form their shieldwall.” Alethia explained. “They cannot march in that formation, so that is where they are most vulnerable.”
“I like that.” Ecbert said. “Quite a bit.”
“Well,” Alethia continued. “What we could also do is send the soldiers in waves. The Northmen may underestimate the forces the first few times, and then, if we keep sending in troops, it’ll be impossible to estimate the true size of the army.”
She shuddered involuntarily, remembering when Ramsay Bolton had used that strategy on her. “It will be difficult to surround them as Caesar did, but your men know the land. If they can figure something out, then it will be even easier to defeat them.”
“I cannot believe that Ragnar does not want to negotiate. I know him too well. He's looking for land, farming land, for his people.” Athelstan argued. Alethia suddenly felt bad, remembering that those Northmen she was helping to kill were his friends. Selfishly, Alethia also did not want to imagine how lonely she would be once Athelstan was reunited with them. She could not imagine he’d be spending much more time with her, then.
After all, Alethia knew Old English with some sufficiency now.
“His men killed all of my envoys, sparing only my son, by which they sent me a simple but clear message.” Ecbert replied calmly.
“Why not send me to speak to him?” Athelstan suggested. Alethia knew Ecbert’s true answer. Athelstan was a hostage. She could not bring herself to tell him that.
“You are already too dear to me, and too important. Which is why, I think, they would kill you.” Ecbert lied smoothly.
“When? When will you attack?” Alethia asked.
“As soon as King Aelle returns with his warriors.” Ecbert replied, before turning to Athelstan. “I'm sure you would prefer that Earl Ragnar and I made peace. Perhaps then you could be at peace with yourself.”
Athelstan looked to the scrolls, not answering King Ecbert. Alethia made to help him clear his things, but King Ecbert stopped her.
“You will lead the attack of my men together with my son.” He said.
“I do not think your son or King Aelle would appreciate that very much.” Alethia said. “They are pious men, after all.”
“A pity I am well aware of.” Ecbert replied. “But you will do so regardlessly. Today, in the courtyard, my son will assess your fighting skills.”
And while Alethia did not want to fight a battle, she did like the idea of wiping Prince Aethelwulf’s awfully arrogant expression off his face in the yard.
She nodded.
“Will Athelstan be there?”
“Do you wish it?” Ecbert asked, a smile playing on his face.
“I do not care.” Alethia replied. “But if I am to put myself in danger, I would like one sane opinion to assess the risk of it. Athelstan has seen your men and the Northmen fight. It would be good to see what he thinks of my own capabilities.”
In the yard, Alethia secured her leather armor with one last pull at the strings holding it together. Prince Aethelwulf stared at her with narrowed eyes, twirling his sword in his hand. Alethia held her own loosely, letting it point to the ground.
She’d spent hours arguing with the blacksmith to improve the balance, and thanks to her tenacity, it was almost perfect now.
Soldiers were strolling around the yard, pretending to prepare themselves for battle, but their stares were quite obvious. Athelstan had taken his place next to King Ecbert, Princess Kwentrith whispering something into the King’s ear as Alethia readied herself to spar with the Prince.
He was good, supposedly.
Alethia had learnt to fight in Westeros, in a time that, compared to ninth century England, was far more modern. She hoped that it would be enough, and that she would not utterly embarrass herself in front of the entirety of the court.
She wasn’t sure if her pride as a woman allowed it.
But when the spar began, intuition took over, and Alethia’s instincts emptied her head of any doubts. Athelstan was alright, a strong fighter when he needed to be, but Aethelwulf was his father’s soldier.
His fighting style was harsh, aggressive, and Alethia reveled in it. He fought with honor.
She did not.
Alethia was not herself when she fought. She felt nothing as she parried the prince’s blows and made him dance around the yard. Nothing at all.
She wondered if, perhaps, that would change should she kill the Prince. In the blink of an eye, her blade was at his throat. All she had to do was cut.
“Yield.”
Alethia stepped back. Ecbert’s sarcastic clapping brought her back to reality. And still, she could not breathe. She could barely hear what Ecbert was saying, only that she needed to go.
There was a pain in her stomach, there where her child should have grown to be born. It was always there when Alethia had difficulties with her emotions. No one knew of it, not even Athelstan.
She did not want to burden him even more than she already did. She could not meet his eyes, not even when the riders prepared themselves for battle.
Athelstan kept his distance in turn. The palpable feeling of guilt hung between them, heavy in the air as in Alethia’s limbs. How could she fight again?
And then, the battle. Alethia swore it was all condensed into one deep breath, all the mud, all the blood, all the death. The blinding pain as a sword sliced her shoulder open, hot blood drowning in her armor.
A Northman under her hands, under her claws, dead before she knew it. Alethia had lost her sword, she realized numbly, somewhere among the masses. Where was her sword?
Could she still kill without it? Would she live without it?
Alethia kept on fighting, ducking out of the way of swords and picking up the weapons of fallen soldiers. She kept going, always driving forward. Prince Aethelwulf was somewhere closeby, slaughtering almost as much as she. He was enjoying himself.
When it was over, Alethia watched the Vikings retreat. She had led King Ecbert’s troops well, but still, some of them had died under her command. They dirtied her soul.
“You fought well today.” Aethelwulf told her, patting Alethia’s injured shoulder. It was not on purpose, still, a hiss of pain escaped her. She nodded, sitting down in the battlefield. There, closeby, lied a brown-haired Northman with scars similar to her own.
“ Does Odin come for your souls now? ” she asked numbly.
“ Ours, shieldmaiden. ” the man rasped.
“ I am no Northman. ” Alethia replied.
“ You are not Saxon. ”
“ No. ”
The man only stared at her with confusion. Alethia helped him drink. She did not have the heart to kill him, neither for mercy, nor for cruelty.
The Northman closed his eyes, his breathing getting more laboured. Alethia thought of what it would be like to lie down in the mud for a little while. A soldier walked up to them. Alethia thought she knew him. He was one of Ecbert’s.
He raised his spear, ready to kill Rollo, when, suddenly, Athelstan stopped him.
“No! Wait! Stop!”
“Athelstan, who is it?” Alethia asked.
“His name is Rollo. He's Ragnar Lothbrok's brother. We baptized him, but it made no difference.”
“It is unfortunate that he's practically dead.” Alehtia sighed.
“No. He's still alive.” Athelstan argued. “This is an important man. See what you can do to save him.
“He's badly wounded. There.” Alethia pointed. Athelstan nodded, instructing the soldiers, before he turned to her.
“You left.”
“I did.”
“Come back.” Athelstan said. He held out his hand. All she had to do was take it. Alethia stared at the scars of his crucifixion. Then, she took it. It was firm. Safe.
She returned to the villa for Athelstan.
Athelstan
He stayed close to Rollo, afraid to leave him. What if they ended up killing him anyway? And yet, Athelstan was torn. Alethia was somewhere closeby, getting her injuries cleaned. He didn’t even know what had happened to her, only that he should have tried harder to keep her from the battlefield.
“ Athelstan ?”
Athelstan turned back to Rollo. “ Rollo .”
“ Priest? Look at you. Horik was right. You betrayed us. ” he spat. “ These are your folk. Christians. You look like them. ”
“ What am I to you ?” Athelstan asked quietly.
Rollo only grunted in response.
“ You are my family .” Athelstan mumbled.
“ If I had enough strength to kill you now, I would. ” Rollo spat. Athelstan felt his heart sink, and he turned towards the Great Hall. The sounds of celebration were beginning to bleed out of the villa, and he was expected to join.
“Allies! Hmm!” Ecbert cheered as Athelstan entered. Alethia was seated next to Prince Aethelwulf, toying with a cup of wine. She was staring at the King, eyes dull.
“Allies and friends, huh?" Aelle continued. “When shall we attack again our wounded foe, huh?”
“And wipe them out? That might not be a good idea.” Ecbert warned.
Aelle snorted. “Of course it's a good idea. We've won half a victory. Now, with God's help, we'll annihilate our enemies, hmm?”
“Forgive me, King Aelle, but I might suggest that even the complete destruction of one Northern army will not lead to the end of their incursions. Probably quite the opposite. Motivated by greed and by the need for revenge, they're very likely to return with renewed strength.” Ecbert warned. Alethia took a heavy sip from her cup, and Athelstan noticed that she was shaking when she set it down. Ecbert did not. He continued.
“And not just once or twice, but again and again, times without number. The only way to bring an end to these incursions is to negotiate an agreement that is good for both sides. But, in the meantime, King Aelle, buying the services of these Northmen as mercenaries will certainly help us to overcome Mercia.” Ecbert suggested. Aelle seemed to think for a moment.
“Very well. As you say. But someone has to take this offer to the pagans. That is if they have not yet already sailed away.” Aelle agreed. Alethia’s eyes shot up, suddenly staring at Athelstan. They were red, the only sign that she had cried.
“Indeed.”
“Considering their treatment of our envoys so far, you're not going to have too many volunteers.” Aelle mused.
“I have a suggestion.” Ecbert began. “I think we should send Athelstan.”
He looked up at Ecbert at the mention of his name, and yet, the tick in Alethia’s jaw did not escape him.
“But they may kill him.” King Aelle noted, staring at Athelstan as well. Athelstan wanted to run. There were entirely too many eyes on him.
“Oh, I doubt that.” Ecbert reassured. He was about to open his mouth again when Alethia suddenly stood. She swayed where she stood, and Athelstan noticed that there were winestains on her sleeves and the table.
How drunk was she?
Then, she stumbled past the men, all of them taking their eyes off of Athelstan and gluing them to her. Athelstan only gave King Ecbert an apologetic nod before he followed her out of the Great Hall and outside.
Alethia still swayed unsteadily, back to Athelstan, before she steadied herself against a fence and emptied her stomach out onto the wet ground. Athelstan hated the noise of it, and yet, he rushed to her side, pulling her freshly washed her away and almost automatically rubbing her back.
When she was done, Alethia wiped her mouth with the back of her hand. Athelstan could feel his face wrinkle in disgust, no matter how much he tried to hide it.
He hated it when people vomited. It had bothered him so much when the Vikings had feasted, never disturbed by their own actions.
“M’ sorry.” Alethia slurred, her words flowing together. “Too much. Lost [...] blood too [...].”
She managed what he presumed to be a curse, before she turned back towards the ground and hurled again.
“You’re alright.” Athelstan told her. “Let it out, you’ll feel better.”
Alethia began to say something, interrupted by her own stomach again, white-knuckled hand curled around the fence.
“Ecbert’s sending y’to [...]. I don’t [...]” Alethia continued, and at this point, Athelstan was not sure what language she was speaking, if any at all.
.
He practically carried her to her room, the stench of wine clinging to Alethia. In that moment, Athelstan found it hard to be close to her. Still, he made sure no one saw Alethia, and when they were in her room, he helped her clean herself.
“Go sleep.” he said, wiping the vomit off her hands and mouth.
“M’alright.” Alethia replied. Athelstan still tucked her into bed like a child, right after helping her change out of her dirtied clothes. He did not even see the beginnings of her form, and yet, he was ashamed.
It felt like he was taking advantage of her.
“Bertie wants t’send you as an envoy.” she said, and Athelstan had to smile at the King’s new nickname.
“I know.” Athelstan said softly.
“I want to accompany you.” she managed, her voice almost masterfully even. “Protect you.”
“Sure.” Athelstan lied. There was no way in hell she was coming with him tomorrow. He would not risk it, nor would she be in shape for it. Athelstan turned for the door when Alethia stopped him again.
“Athelstan?” she asked.
“Yes?”
Alethia hiccuped. “Stay?”
“Why?” Athelstan asked carefully.
“Afraid of the dark sometimes. Bad dreams.” she replied, patting the side of her cot. She missed, her hand slipping. Alethia sighed, before she giggled.
“I can’t. You’ll be fine.” Athelstan said. Of course, he did not know that.
“Why? Do you have a wife you didn’t tell me about? Or a husband. I don’t really care. Or I do.” Alethia mused.
Why did she care? Athelstan shook his head. “No, I don’t. Have you ever seen me with a wife?”
“No. But you are a nice person. And handsome.” Alethia said, before she burst into a fit of giggles.
“Handsome?”
“Yeah.” she replied, before she blushed furiously. “Gosh, you have nice eyes. Has anyone ever told you you have nice eyes, Athelstan?”
“I’ll stay until you fall asleep.” Athelstan assented, sitting in her chair. Alethia waved him closer, and Athelstan obliged, chair scraping across wooden floor. She took his hand, head buried in her pillow.
Athelstan took a few moments to gather the courage up before he asked his question. “You think I am handsome?” he asked finally.
No reply.
“Alethia?”
She was fast asleep, snoring softly. Athelstan shook his head. Gently, he pushed her nightgown out of the way where the wound on her shoulder had already soaked through bandages. Athelstan worked quickly, replacing them.
He saw the other scars, far more than Ragnar or Rollo had had. Athelstan ignored them. It was not his place to see, or to know.
And yet, he left her room with a heavy heart. A part of him wished that he could have stayed and soothed her scars.
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