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junicult · 10 months

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the bachelors and their thoughts on tattoos and piercings?? and if they have any/want any

!! the bachelors & tattoos / piercings

contains ; talk of piercings / tattoos. farmer has piercings tattoos (not specified). sfw. one minor nsfw comment in shanes (i seriously can’t help myself).

note ; i made this super quickly in literally like 10 mins😭

harvey

- he doesn’t have either.

- and he doesn’t plan on ever getting them.

- i don’t think he necessarily hates them, (on other people at least) but it’s not something he personally seeks out. like, if you just so happen to have tattoos or piercings, he doesn’t care.

- …he might be the type that doesn’t really like extensive amounts of facial piercings, tho.

- at least, if he met you and you already had those piercings, he might not want to seek a further relationship.

- if you’re already together, and extremely committed, you wanting piercings or tattoos wouldn’t change how he loves you.

- if he did have any piercings, they’d probably just be his ears. but i can’t even picture him getting any.

sam.

- LMFAO i just know he’s the person that doesn’t have any tattoos, but he constantly talks about all the tattoo’s he wants to get. (me)

- piercings, however, are a different story🤭

- he started off simple by getting his earlobe pierced for sure. definitely thought it was very “rockstar” to have.

- overtime he got a few more, (all of which taken place in sebastian’s basement), such as an upper lobe & orbital.

- and he definitely has an industrial. ik it.

- it’s probably healed too which is crazy.

- also, i think it’d be cute for him to just have a dainty little hoop on his nostril.

- when it comes to his partner, he couldn’t care less if they have any piercings / tattoos or not.

- butttt he thinks they’re so attractive. piercings especially.

- lip piercings if we’re being even more specific. ik that if u had snake bites, or an ashley piercing…phew.

- it just gives him an excuse to stare at ur lips lol.

- i feel like he would want to have his nipples pierced, but he’d never go through with it.

- same reason why he doesn’t have any tattoos.

- in general, because he skateboards and stuff, i feel like he’s immune to scratches and scrapes.

- he was also definitely the kind of kid that always had his arm in a cast or something.

- but i’ll still die on this hill: he has a low pain tolerance.

- sebastian can attest to it.

- mf is constantly squirming each time the needle even approaches his skin.

shane.

- he’s more of a tattoo kind of person then piercings.

- is it safe to say i think the majority of his are from when he was drunk😭?

- his pain tolerance is fairly high. he’s got a couple tattoo’s, that’s for sure.

- one on his arm of something gridball related to reminisce back on those days, and one on his back or maybe chest.

- of what? he doesn’t even know.

- as for piercings, definitely his regular & upper earlobes. he never changes the jewelry, it’ll always be that.

- i feel like he also has a daith just bc he heard it helps w migraines 😭

- but he is totally attracted to piercings.

- have any kind of facial piercings you want, he doesn’t care.

- but he’s an absolute sucker for body piercings, whether you have them or not.

- if u have ur belly button pierced, or even…u know…ur nipples dare i say; lord😭😭

- if ur dating, believe me he’s not ignoring those.

- when he sees u naked for the first time, or for the first time after u got those pierced—he’d be such a little asshole.

- “oh, these are nice.” he just raises his eyebrows, smirking down. “they healed?”

- if they are then…well. you already know.

- also he’s a sucker for a tramp stamp😭

- those were so popular in the 90s ik he’d lose his mind if u had one.

sebastian.

- pelican town’s unofficial piercer.

- lord.

- aside from multiple stick and pokes when he was in his teens, he doesn’t have any tattoos.

- they’re all definitely of things he looks back on and physically cringes. he doesn’t even tell people he has them, (besides sam & abby who were around when he was in that phase)

- the only reason you’d find out about them is if you saw them and asked him about it.

- as for piercings, he’s decked out.

- i’m talking lobes, orbital, helix, industrial, daith, conch. his ears are HEAVY.

- his eyebrow, nose, and lip is pierced too.

- his eyebrow might be one of his favs, and i also wholeheartedly believe that was his first ever piercing on himself when he was like 16. he stuck with it since.

- he also just has a nostril hoop. it’s black ofc.

- and…his lip piercing…

- a vertical labret 🤭🤭🤭.

- & u can disagree with me on this, but i’d like to think all of his piercings are properly cared for, cleaned, and healed. he’s not wasting any time caring for an infection.

- i also wanna say he has a few that he’s taken out as he’s gotten older.

- like his bridge piercing. he had it for a couple years before he decided to take it out, so he has a little scar there.

- i feel like abby has snake bites, which convinced him to get snake bites at one point. but when he got his labret, he took those out.

- lastly, i definitely think he had a septum at one point, but pretty quickly he realized it just didn’t suit him so he took it out.

- as for his partner, if you had any piercings—he doesn’t care. why would he?

- he’s incredibly impartial. whether you have them or don’t.

- but let me tell you…if you don’t have any, he’ll gladly change that if you ever asked😇😇

alex.

- he has none.

- zilch. zero.

- he’s not the biggest fan of a ton of piercings. unfortunately i feel like he was raised in that kind of household, so he was conditioned to feel the same way (we’ve all met george).

- like, if you have ur ears pierced or maybe one little face piercing, i don’t think he’d mind that much.

- it definitely depends on how much he likes you.

- if he met you while you had face piercings, he’d probably judge you by cover.

- but if you slowly got them after you’ve been dating a while, i feel like that’s when he’s realize how attractive they can be.

- if you got your lip pierced, and he got to see how plump your lips get from swelling—that might drive him crazy.

- everytime he leans in for a kiss you’d have to pull away, tutting, “ah-ah, no kissing.”

- it’s like ur torturing him.

- and if you ever convinced him to get a piercing, he’d only allow his ears.

- for tattoos, i think it’d be so sweet to imagine him wanting one that linked to his mom.

- like something she’s said before, a nickname she gave him, maybe even if she had a tattoo he’d get the same one.

- because he’s not that emotionally available, he never told anyone.

- not until u asked, and since he’s trusts you more then anyone, he doesn’t mind being vulnerable to you.

elliot.

- he has both.

- but his are just so beautiful that you’d literally see them on pinterest, y’know?

- he’s so tasteful with his piercings and tattoos.

- he’s a patchwork fan. like small separate tattoos on his arms and torso.

- each of which have meaning to him in someway.

- and his piercings are soo small and dainty. (GOLD TOO. he’s strictly gold.)

- he has a little stud on his nostril, and his ears are similar to sebastian’s.

- but he’s much more organized then anyone else. his piercings all took place over time, and they’re all matched. he’s a strict gold jewelry person.

- it just makes him look so clean and put together.

- when it comes to you, he in general doesn’t care whether you have them or not.

- physical attraction isn’t the biggest deal to him. so what if you do / don’t have piercings.

- but he can definitely appreciate if you’re just as dedicated to your jewelry / tattoos as he is.

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nygleskas · 1 year

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umm jr² loreposting by episodes. if u care.

so, me and jean met through tom. sort of. jean would visit sometimes at the parks office to chat with tom abt stuff and we'd meet bc i'm like always at the office helping around. we wouldn't rly say much to each other tho. (<- i've also met lisa through tom like this too, except we talk for a bit and she decides to adopt me as her new introverted bestie. and since we're friends i do see more of jean but not much yk)

2x23 the master plan - we'd have like a proper meeting at april's party lol. i'd go to tell april happy birthday and i'm like "heyy happy birthday april :D!... and ?.. jean-ralphio's here... That's a surprise" wFKHSN but we'd chat a bit. <- i'd probably pick up on andy/april liking e/o so for her to be w jean is so jarring to see wGHNJS. ermm we might interact more in this ep? i kinda wanna rewrite this ep so andy and april get together -> me and jean interact more but idk. ummmm also i probably realize that Oh. now that i see him for more than a minute he's kinda cute wGJHN

3x9 andy & april's wedding - btwn eps we'd chat some more :o maybe not total friend status but close. i can't think of anything rly specific for this ep we prob just talk n hang in the kitchen when he's not in kahoots w tom wgskdhnk?

3x13 the fight (my fav ep wooo) - at this point we're friends. i'm sitting w tom at a table and jean comes over to chat. during this ep jean constantly makes raps with ppl's names but just can't end them on a rhyme, so. Obviously. he tries to make one out of my name. he fails miserably and i'm like "....well i do have two first names, so you can try one with 'reyes'. ykno, maybe you can redeem yourself" and he does and fails again and me and tom are like "that's worse... How is that Worse" WKEHSJG. i feel like at some point i'd just be vibing by myself at a booth and he comes over n talks to me. everyone in this ep is so Out There (mainly cus they're drunk lol) and i'm just very To Myself and he tries to get me to have fun/be outgoing. wait he'd absolutely try to get me to dance or wtvr wHNJGSN. also i just realized i would have to not only deal w everyone being drunk (i'm the only sober one along w chris and donna) but i'd have to deal w jean being drunk.. and he's a sad drunk (or at least with snakejuice he is)... g-dwjgsdhj. i'm just sitting at the bar on my phone and he comes up like heyyy *insert stupid nickname he makes up for me here* my man hows it going and we chat which quickly turns into him just randomly discussing abt his parents unhappy marriageKWGNSJD (<- i have so much lore for their family) and i'm just like 🧍‍♂️..oh. sorry about that?? wHSKDNH

3x16 li'l sebastian - so during this ep jean tries to convince tom to join him and create entertainment 720 (multimedia conglomerate... they literally do the same stuff as waystar, but they don't Actually do it cus they're so bad at their jobs lmao), while also working on the memorial for li'l sebastian together. i would be helping them w the video presentation that happens later that night (i'd also help with smaller stuff for preparing the memorial). tom is off discussing plans with someone else and while jean and i work he talks abt entertainment 720, and how they'd need video editors and suggests i could work w them. i say i'm totally down for it and that it sounds fun and at the end of the episode when they create the company i work there with/for them :3

e720 era is very short lived but i have sm thoughts..... but i don't feel like typing them all out rn wsHN basically during e720 we become real good/best friends and also mutual pining era begins hehe

ok. time to skip to

4x6 end of the world - (my 2nd fav ep) this is the ep where Unfortunately e720 dies wHKSNG, bUT on the bright side it is also the ep where we become canon <3 at some point during the party jean texts lucy (tom's ex) to come to the party and they both reconcile/it's implied they get back together. i feel like after he sort of sets them up he decides he wants to confess to me. edit!: i believe the marching band bit is after the tomlucy stuff.....and during the marching band bit jean wears a pink/black uniform ..which are my favorite colors (and literally my hair color) 🤨🤨he could not be any less subtle (but i'm so oblivious i don't even think twice abt it.. i'm just like oh haha what a coincidence :D).....ok anyways. i'm hiding away in the pirate ship bouncy castle, just like.. in a corner on my phone. vibing. (<- one thing about me is i will be in a corner at a party) he eventually finds me and we just sit together talking. i go on a tangent about thanking him and tom for this opportunity and how fun it was to work w them (even tho they barely worked lmao) and get closer w them and blah blah blah. he's quiet during this but it's not like a bad quiet. like he's just rly listening. when i finally shut up he agrees w like. everything i said and just adds onto it. he says he really enjoyed my company and i'm like yeah :> same here and there's just a silence (tension? 🤔) for a min while we just sit together skhDNG i start to talk abt smth and he just. kisses me. and i'm frozen wsDKH he thinks my reaction is negative so he starts to apologize so i'm like ??!?!?! i'm trying to talk but i can't get the words out (i am v awkward lol) but eventually i do and i'm like "!???! NO NEEd to apologizE!! i mean i uhh i like you. too. so. yeah. There..?!? i mean.. If that kiss meant you like me?? which i hope it does? i mean it'd be kinda weird to do that if you Didn't like me??? do you?-" (bAsically i'm a mess) and he's like ! Yes! and we talk it out and we. start dating. Yeah. (ermmmmmm just had a thought . he asks if he can kiss me again bc that first kiss wasn't a ~real~ kiss and i'm like 'um. i mean Yeah. but like. i don't really know How? to kiss?? well i mean i know How, like i watch movies..but i don't know Howww to kiss?' and he just teaches me how to kiss lmaowgsjhhkn ALL WHILE? IN A BOUNCY CASLTE THAT ANYONE CAN WALK IN ON LMAOSGJNHok anyways. um. he teaches me and we're laughing and giddy . and we kiss. like for reals. ummm and he's like i wanted to do that for a whilewrkhnjhlICNAT ICANT DO THISim done goodbye oh my g-d)

ummmm during the rest of s4 we're secretly dating

i don't know Where but somewhere in season 5 we become public. no one is surprised wKHDNS except like.. ann and leslie. they're surprised for sure. esp leslie like it takes a whileeee for them to warm up to us together wlgdjhn

UHHH that's it. goodbye *runs back to my cave*

#.txt #lore tag #tweeted this earlier but figured i may as well. putthis here wHSNH i mean that's what this blog is for #ok technichally i just posted short desc's for the eps like i did not go into as much detail as i did here. for reasons.#<- i just feel embarrassed wHrhN #also Apologies for infodumping on some eps . idk how many ppl actually watch this show i just want every1 to knw the Context #also typing the eps out made me realize thisseems to happen faster than i thought .#i forgot how much time canonically passes.#queuing this bc i'm too embarrassed to post .#jean

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haruhey · 2 years

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chronological thoughts of 11x20

i left my laptop charger at home (i’m at my dorm rn) so i’m not in a good mood so let’s hope twd helps 🤩

i heard carol’s in this episode so i’m so ready rn

- LANCE 🫶

- EUGENEEE 🫶🫶🫶

- OMG CAROL AND DARYL SLAYYYYYYY

- CARYL SLAYYYYYYYY

- SEASON 7 REUNION THIS IS SICK

- opening carol scene 🫶

- oh shit oh no zeke

- ?:!-?1?-?

- A CAROL SLAY PERIODDDDD

- CAROL MAIN CHARACTER CAROL MAIN CHARACTER CAROL MAIN CHARACTER THIS IS WHAT DHE DESERVED 💕💝💝💕❣️💕💕💝❣️💕❣️❣️❣️💕💕💝

- omg daryl getting murked thats on period

- OMG HE WALKERED

- WHY DIDNT HE JUST PULL OUT THE KNIFE AND STAB AGAIN???

- OH MY GOD THE DREAM TEAM 🫶

- omg is it only them two left?

- THIS IS WHAT WE COULD HAVE HAD IN THE CARYL SPINOFF 😭😭😭

- ok but consider sebastian sucked major ass 🙄

- yumiko slay

- THEY KILLED THEM?/!-?/??2?/ HELLOOOOOOO???

- why do i kinda love the commonwealth arc

- its like all these big bads are just really selfish bitches in suits who needed to be bullied as a kid like just punch them fr and they’d crumble and i think thats so funny

- NOOO THEY TOOK DOG???

- “it isnt gonna be easy” “when was it ever?” ♥️

- why dont u just agree to do it and then convince pamela to let ur friends go and then at night kill pamela and then the next day dont show up in court

- CONNIEEEEEEEEEE I LOVE HER I LOVE HER SO MUCHHHHHH

- ?? if these bitches hurt kelly i’m gonna piss on their pillows

- omg connie is so slay

- nooo yumiko having to deal with the fact she’s not gonna know whats gonna happen to her friends for a while 💔

- YES CAROL AND DARYL ON A MISSIONNNNN

- then they’re gonna start k i s s i n g i just know it

- jesus christ i love their teamwork❣️

- um hey what the fuck

- daryl is giving very much judgemental current boyfriend looking at ur ex

- lance looks like he likes being choked a lil too much

- omg they really are zooming

- caryl prison break ♥️

- LONGING STARE??? WITH EMOTIONAL MUSIC??? BYE

- this episode is the best fr

- lmaooooo sebastian

- YOU WERE RIGHT TO LEAVE HIM BEHIND??? HE WAS SLOWING YOU DOWN??? HORNSBY STOP

- omg carol is not like the other girlies

- yes she is so slay❣️ lance hornsby rights 🫶

- why does he always look shocked scared and terrified

- nooooo bbys dont worry carol’s on it u know how she is she is going to slay!!!

- NOOOOOOO EUGENE 😭😭😭

- MY RAT MAN PLEASE I LOVE HIM 😭

- just kill her guys

- this is not the end!! period!!!

- josh mcdermitt actually pops tf off as eugene he’s so good

- lance and carol on a lil insanity date 🫶

- ummmm so lance had a crush on pamela??? and is he saying that carol has a crush on daryl???

- “which, i admit, was… mishandled” guys i literally love hornsby

- “more importantly, there’s something i wanted to ask you” hornsby wants to make out w her so hard

- WHY TF IS THIS SHOW SO DARK

- no fucking way are there whisperers down here

- omg is he gonna die

- OH MY GOD THERE ARE SO MANY

- HES GONNA LET HER DIE??

- HIS FACE CAME OFF oh my god thats disgusting

- oh god oh no they got caught 😭😭

- OMG DARYL TO THE RESCUEEEE

- literally fuck off pamela this isnt for your people we all know that

- OMG YUMIKO SLAY

- ik if i was yumiko my pettyass would be making a show of the fact i was reading a script 😭😭

- “its uh, a great, uh, pleasure to uh, hold on let me-“

- booo this speech sucks get a new writer pamela!!!

- OMG SHES MAKING SURE THE COMMONWEALTH KNOWS WHO HE IS IN CASE PAMELA GETS “RID” OF HIM AND TO LET HIM KNOW HOW SHE REALLY FEELS IF THEY KILL HER THATS SO SLAY YUMIKO

- YUMIKO IS SO SLAYYYYYYYYYYY I LOVE HER I LOVE STRONG WOMEN ON TELEVISION I LOVE STRONG ASIAN WOMEN WITH UNAPOLOGETICALLY ASIAN NAMES I LOVE HER I LOVE HERR

- not lance pleading his case to daryl and carol as he’s covered in blood 😭😭

- “ik you heard me” “yeah, only because you wouldn’t shut up” CAROL YOURE SO LEGENDARY I LOVE HERRRRR

- carol and daryl are so tired of him pls 😭

- do u think carol and daryl like chat over tea and talk abt what they’re gonna do to hornsby or do u think carol and daryl just think the same and had the same idea without talking to each other

- “i’ve made mistakes” BRO??? WHO EVEN ARE YOU 😭😭

- SLAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY CAROL KILLED LANCE SLAYYYYYYYYYY SHES SO COOL SLAYYYYYYYY

- daryl didnt even move a finger he knew she got it

- damn rip to a real one u were so fun

- daryl dixon passenger princess❣️

- THEY TOOK DARYL’S KIDS FROM HIM DARYL YOURE SO AWESOME

- HERSHEL?? LEAVE HERSHEL ALONE LEAVE HIM ALONE GET BACK 🤺 BACK I SAY 🤺

- aisha tyler my girlie 💕

- carol daryl divide and conquer iktr iktr!!

- “i really think he believes what hes saying” girl you wrote him 😭😭 wdym “i really think” 😭😭

- this episode was so fucking good omg

#get to know haruhey #haruviews #the walking dead season 11 #the walking dead #the walking dead spoilers #twd spoilers #twd season 11 #daryl dixon #carol peletier #carol please give me a chance i’m begging you please please please

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daenystheedreamer · 2 years

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Hello! Do you have any thoughts on Jeyne Westerling (Robb’s wife)?

hmm im mostly ambivalent on her. people are so mean about her tho :( she's just a little girl who got caught up in the whirlwind. i am a sybell westerling hater and she's one of the antagonistic characters im not a #neutral about lol, i hope jeyne is able to find peace :) i kinda ignore her a bit and i feel bad abt it :( it's unfortunate how little character she's given but what little we see of her i like, i love her current emo phase rn. i like to parallel her and robb's relationship as saint irene and saint sebastian i think thats fun. the text presents their relationship as less love and more honour + youthful infatuation so i tend towards besties :)

#telling grrm i hc robb and jeyne as gbf and hag and he kills me #jeyne westerling #asoiaf #robb stark

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incorrect-ikevamp-quotes · 4 years

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[SPOILERS FOR LEO’S ROUTE❗️] okay so i just got to the bit after leo reveals what he is, and mc and comte are talking on the balcony & comte offers to turn her into a vampire if she would like. obviously mc declines but i guess my question is, how do you think leonardo would react if mc DID agree to that offer? i am enjoying his route, but i kinda get the feeling he mostly/only loves mc because she is human :/ im interested abt what might happen if she didn’t say no? thank you v much💖💖ly lots

Aww, ily3 hun tyty 💕💕💕I’ll offer my thoughts below, I hope I can answer your questions to satisfaction!

Ah yes, the point in Leo's route where I essentially get shot in the leg and limp through my walk of shame

Jk jk, but I think there has been a considerable degree of displeasure associated with Leonardo's line in the proverbial sand. No life with him can be spent as a vampire, MC must remain human. Despite his easygoing nature, he remains stalwart in his opposition no matter what the MC or Comte has to say. To summarize it quickly, Comte’s relieved exasperation at the end of Leo’s MS gets more across than I think any of my analysis can convey “Thank heavens one of you has good sense.” It offers the implication that he has tried to broach the topic with Leonardo out of concern, only to be met by a brick wall--or doesn’t try at all for fear that he’ll only ensconce Leonardo further into rejecting a greater future for him and MC.

As to how he would react I......really don’t think it would go well? Only because I think it would serve to reinforce the rifts that already exist in Leonardo’s self-perception. He would believe it was his own fault for pushing her in that direction, and while I don’t think he would hate Comte, he would definitely become estranged from one of his only close friends in life. (What GUTS ME about Comte offering to turn MC is that he is probably well aware Leo might beat the shit out of him, never talk to him again, or both--and he still fully accepts that he could lose his best friend to guarantee a future for both of them. Excuse me while I bawl in the corner) He probably wouldn’t hold it against Comte for too long, but he wouldn’t be any less aggrieved and hurt. And when Leonardo is vulnerable, he will hide and nurse his wounds until he can behave with some level of calm--or at the very least until he can pretend he’s okay after an initial explosion. He doesn’t feel comfortable troubling people with his own problems, so he tends to fall into silence when personal things come up. This doesn’t necessarily mean he resolves all of his emotional turmoil, or heals that fast; it only means that he wallows in those feelings alone unless they’re tugged out of him and worked through forcibly.

Basically, I see only one of two possibilities coming to fruition. The first is that he and MC would wobble only to completely fall apart if some kind of resolution could never be found. He’d continue to blame himself and start sabotaging his own happiness, and that would likely mean some level of selfishness directed at MC--resulting in anguish for the both of them. If MC takes on too much without complaint or Leonardo goes too far...I get the feeling that relationship would either end in shambles immediately, or result in a kind of twisted union in which both feel responsible for the other’s hurt but neither one can relieve it (until they’d be forced to split up before someone gets seriously hurt). They would be the source of each other’s suffering, so much so that the walls climbing between them might never again lower.

This might sound odd, but if there’s one thing that Leonardo needs it’s control when it comes to his relationships with others. It is a subtle, but acute trait that might not seem obvious knowing his magnanimous disposition. He decides if MC gets to be a vampire, he bargains with Sebastian because he refuses to be a test subject, he refuses to validate Comte’s conclusions (despite knowing he’s right) because he doesn’t want to cede the power silence/smokescreens offer his emotional vulnerabilities. Even around villains like Shakespeare and the final serial killer, pay close attention. Shakespeare begins revealing deeply personal information and wishes that Leonardo holds close to his heart on purpose, snatching Leonardo’s agency and ability to control how his feelings are being conveyed. How does Leonardo respond? With explosive, forbidding anger--instantaneous and barely contained, nothing at all like his breezy attitude and calm.

If you think about it, it’s a fairly obvious extension of the humiliating powerlessness by which he was raised (he needs to be in control; he needs to be the one who decides who gets to walk away and who doesn’t. He doesn’t come on to MC because he wants to, he does it for the sole purpose of scaring her out of wanting to be a vampire. He doesn’t even attempt to explain where he’s coming from because he falls into whole-scale panic. When he loses control of the trajectory of others--of how they perceive certain things about him--all of his charisma fails him. If he can’t explain or justify where he is mentally, when he’s too afraid they won’t hear him or care, then he needs to redirect the opposing party). Additionally, he feels responsible; that he can better adjust the outcome with his experience--and while that may be true for some things, sometimes he gets ahead of himself. Only an individual can decide their own future and their own happiness, the most others can do is enhance or worsen aspects of life. He doesn’t have enough faith that his presence is positive or worthwhile enough to guarantee his spouse’s happiness ;-;

The other possibility I see is MC coaxing him as best she can into reassurance that she’s happy with her new life. While he may have doubts, there is absolutely room for her to help him approach those fears little by little. If Leonardo has even a hint of doubt in regards to his dismal feelings about her being turned, a potential for acceptance may be nurtured. I don’t think his uncertainty would ever fully vanish; there will always be a lurking fear that a fate tied to his can only mean suffering and disappointment. Prove his worth and compassion with time, and this man will be unable to remember how life was lived before her. It would take a great deal of patience and a sizable obstacle, but it wouldn’t be impossible. His heart is much too big for that, I think.

I don’t think happiness with a turned MC is impossible, only that it would take a lot of work to swing it after a heated moment of decision. I think the way to go with Leonardo is a more enduring effort. He shows much more receptivity after years of being together. I think time, ironically, helps him relax into the possibility of forever as a couple. I think he cannot conceptualize a world in which he is in love, and that this love is not conditional--not dependent on his ability to be the perfect companion, the brilliant inventor, the equanimous mentor. I think he needs to see for himself that love can be gentle and real and whole even when he’s at his worst (by his self-perception).

Also I put some extra meta under the cut because I have brainworms and just can’t stop thinking about Leonardo rn so read if you like, but it’s more related to why he feels this way abt turning MC than necessarily about the outcome.

That being said, I'm conflicted because I don't necessarily think Leonardo only loves MC because she's human? (Rather, I think it’s more a result of his history and the values he’s developed in response to that upbringing. But I’ll loop back to this in a bit, so stay tuned)

I say this for two reasons. Firstly, I don't want to say that no person in this period shared his values (I mean look at Comte)--this would be an overstatement, even if it was rare. But it does appear that Comte and Leonardo are acute exceptions within vampire society in elevating human beings to an equal status among vampires (if not a higher status at points or depending on the person). As such, a vampire partner he’d be comfortable living with is unlikely. Human beings are more optimal in some regards (more adaptable and more egalitarian than vampires, most likely), but he also knows that he’s more susceptible to falling in love with a human; so he makes sure to squash his feelings or remove himself when his feelings become too intense.

Secondly, he's in close quarters with MC by necessity, and reacts to her isolation by virtue of the situation. That's probably half the reason they get together at all; he was fully intending to keep his distance despite his initial curiosity. One thing this signals to me is that even when Leonardo did feel attraction to any person he was in contact with, he would avoid them until they were removed from his presence--or he deflected their romantic approaches enough times for them to give up. With this in mind, it can come as no surprise that Leonardo has kept to himself for nearly five hundred years now. If it was another vampire hitting on him (especially a pureblood), he would be playing into his parents' expectations and would approach the vampire social hierarchy he was working so hard to escape. If they were human, he would deem himself a burden; he could never love them within the normal expectations of a human couple (growing old together, raising a family, etc etc). So ultimately I think it's less her being human, and more their compatibility and context.

As such, I think he just locks himself into a kind of Catch-22? Because in the end I think this is more about his own fears and insecurities--that he can never make someone happy, that he himself will never be enough (hello child of abusive home). Not to oversimplify his character, but one crucial element of his upbringing must be considered if he is to be analyzed properly.

There's something I often think about:

Comte, quoting Leonardo: "‘Not all parents love their children, or even think of them as such.’" [Though he got away and was able to make a life for himself, he had to do it alone.]

There is. A LOT to unpack here. While we may not have evidence of what his familia is like firsthand, this description tells us...so many heartbreaking things. It tells us that Leonardo never once felt like anything more than a child intended to carry on a legacy. The likelihood that his insights, his feelings, or his entire self-hood were acknowledged is pretty much at a hardcore negative three. While it's been a good number of years since he was the problem child/family disappointment, I feel like so many of those experiences seep into his capacity to properly accept the love of another person. It's a good portion of the reason he struggles so intensely with being loved despite his unfathomable wealth of affection for other people. When a person is diagnosed with unlovable and cringe for having positive feelings for others, it's not really surprising that a person might have trouble accepting a commitment or attraction to another person. There is...a kind of Sisyphus dilemma that surfaces in the wake of that kind of life, a constant push + pull between craving acceptance and either expecting it’s loss and/or fearing it’s disappointment. Though he shows signs of healing from it, there are still portions that linger. (Jean-Paul shakes him from this self-berating in his MS, but after four hundred years he still struggles to overcome those instincts. I wish there were words for the extent to which that knowledge breaks my heart...Many say time heals all wounds, but sometimes I think only others can heal them.)

Keep in mind, I don't think his enduring fallacy that "human beings are the epitome of untainted purpose and vitality" is irrelevant or less problematic here. I just think it's a reflection of a deeper disturbance and loss. It's a reflection of his parents' unilateral rejection of the kinder parts of him; his devotion to patience and understanding. It's a kind of reiteration or what he's already known: he's doing exactly what his parents did in an odd way, he's rejecting vampirism whole-scale despite evidence of both pros and cons (just as it is for humanity). I will always offer that his fear of something going wrong during the change is completely valid--but it does feel more like a fear of admitting that vampires (and eternity for that matter) aren't inherently awful. He ran away from his parents for good reason of course, but for all his running he didn’t escape their black and white logic.

It’s funny too, because his absolutism is kind of reflected in his inability to commit to a single discipline in some ways; while part of it is that he probably exhausts study, I have to wonder how much of him oscillating is a fear of eventual failure. (Think his reaction to MC’s knowledge that he can’t dance, his mortification and utter...shock that she wouldn’t use it as a way to make him feel terrible about himself). He probably prefers to hone his skills helping people because the motivation of providing relief is a much more powerful motivator than knowledge for knowledge’s own sake. He needs the impetus, that drive to move him.

Granted, I won't fault anyone for feeling like Leonardo only loves MC for her humanity. At first glance it really did feel that way! But the more I think about it, the more I feel it has more to do with the weight of his life's experience, and the parts of himself he hasn’t been able to reconcile.

Sometimes, with Leonardo, I urge gentleness. So much of who he is disguises all the ways in which he has been hurt. While his decision is selfish and foolish, it comes from a broken place. My unhappiness will always lie predominantly with the fact that he believes to his core that happiness and self-respect is something he doesn’t deserve.

#asks #ikevamp #ikemen vampire #ikevamp leonardo #ikevamp mc #ikevamp meta #ikevamp saint germain #ikevamp comte #er this response got a lot longer and more detailed than i meant it to be but uh #i hope it's helpful?#this is just how i tend to think about the game but then im also a feral leo stan alhkjadagd #im just that meme like 'i love you but i hate you but i love you' with leo LMFAO #sometimes u just gotta smack some sense into the man (which is why i love that Jean-Paul does exactly that HAHAHA)#but yeah most of the time i look at leo and have to resist the urge to cry and the recent event has been absolutely no exception #i would die for him

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reading winter soldier 2019 ig

okok so i just ended up episode 1 of winterfalcon and i got overexicted bcus bucky is way too pretty wtf ??????? so i wanted to read one of his solo hqs but i couldnt find winter soldier 2012 anywhere so im reading wintersoldier 2019 very nice very nice so see my live coments + freak outs abt the internet and my opinion at the end :D

chapter one ^_^

wtf is this really only 5 chapters short thats so lame but ok that means i can end it fast

I CANT FUCKING BELIEVE MY INTERNET STOPPED WORKING JUST BY THE MOMENT I STARTED READING THIS SHIT WTF

OK IT CAME BACK

lets get going first of all damn stop being so hot

OMG HE GOT HIS REDEMPTION NOW HE IS GONNA HELP OTHER PEOPLE TO GET REDEMPTIONED YES BUCKY BARNES CEO OF REDEMPTIONS I LOVE HIM SM

AND THE BLOODY INTERNET STOPPED AGAIN I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE tHATS WHY I HATE RAINY DAYS

OK IT CAME BACK AGAIN FOR FUCKS SAKE lets reload the page`~~~~~~~~~~~~

why are u talking to a cop no bucky no no

this just reminded me of a barry episode ive seen with my dad nice

WHO TF IS THAT MAN

im so sad so so so so so sad why

IS THAT TONY STARK????????????

ye it is that little bitch i hate you comics tony stark i hate you so much ill never forgive you for doing SHIT at empyre ohhh ill be here in my place with reed just doing nothing while someone is trying to explode the sun WELL DONE TONY WELL DONE

+ ur just an asshole the whole universe i only kinda like you in civil war because i hate steve 67897890x more

ok ends tony stark hate club

IDK WHO TF ARE YOU BUT COULD U TAKE MY HAND IM MARRIAGE ????????????

maybe thats just bcus he looks a lot like jason todd ok .. but he is still very cute and seems nice

chapter 2 ^_^

aparently his name is rj now im wondering do i search his name on the internet or do i just continue reading

MARVEL DEATH THE KID

HE IS TRYNA KILL BUCKY WTF U JUST SAD YOU ARE A FAN

stalker energy pls behave yourself rj

WTF IS THIS WHY DOES THIS KID HAVE VIBRANIUM

STOP TRYING TO BE JASON TODD YOU'RE NOT HIM

wait what if he is like a parody like wase wilson and slade wilson that would make me hate u marvel cause you could never make something as great as jason im very very sorry

also i hate that slade wade shit it doesnt even make sense like the product is amazing asf but the reason is weird idk not nice

ok he reminds me of my rpg character now im sad ..

PIECE OF SHIT WTF IS THIS THING STOP

WHO IS THIS MANNNNNNNNNNNNNN WHY DOES HE LOOKS LIKE JOHN CONSTATINE FROM WISH

WHY ARE U TELLING MJT (marvel jason todd) THAT HE FAILED NOOOOO

FOR FUCKS SAKE NO ONE ASKED YOU SHIT

BUCKY UR SO HOT AND SMART AND AMAZING <33333

chapter 3 lets goooooo :P

i hate you so much tony stark go away just go fucking away for once

RJ HAVING THERAPY THATS IT MY BOYYYY GIVE ME A KISS UR SO AMAZING CONGRATS SWEETIE

Pls bucky and rj i want you two to have brothers energy pls big bro bucky thats so cute

hot boy bucky by the sound of hard to kill by someone that i dont recall right now yes sirrrrrrrrr

rj tell me the truth ur transmasc right

THAT IS SO WEIRD BOOOOO BUBBLE MAN

omg this looks like mother virus created reality

NO HE IS BEING PUNCHED /snk flashbacks

HE TOOK HIS ARM

RJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJJ

RJ IS SAYING A LOT OF DEEP TRUE THINGS RN SAY IT LOUDER

he is so jason todd .....

U MADE BUCKY CRY FORGET EVRYTHING I JUST SAID FUCK YOU RJ

RJ HAS A DAD ??????????????????????/

BITCH WHAT THE FUCK

chapter 4 ^_^

IRISH AND ITALIAN HOLY FKCNG SHIT THAT IS SO HANDSOMENESS MATERIAL

that is so cool that man is so cool give him a solo comic idc he is just rj's father he is cool asf

MARRY ME RICHIE YOU'LL NEVER HAVE TO BE ALONE

richie dilf

i love single dads so much im emotional now

RJ IS CRYING THAT IS TDTAYDHS THAT IS SO

IS THAT FUCKING MAFIA ??????????????

WHY RICHIE

RJ UR SO AMAZING PLS

BUCKYYYYYYYYYYY

FIFTY FIVE THOUSAND DOLLARS THAT IS INSANE WTF

RICHIE WHY ARE U TREATING BUCKY THIS WAY I LOVED OU YOU MOTHERFUCKER

yes he is gonna help him nice bucky 1 kiss

WHERE DID U TAKE ALL THIS MONEY FROM

RICHIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

he reminds me of another rpg character omg hunter come back to me pls

NO RICHIE U FAILED ME

YES BUCKY THANK U

Im so sad i trusted you richie u were gonna be hunter u were gonna be the cool single dad ok im sad fuck you im sad

HE KILLED RICHIE ???????

i was just going to celebrate richies death but now i just remembered that bucky doesnt wanna kill anyone so he is probably gonna be sad by killing him noooooooooooooooooooooooo

chapter 5 tHE LAST ONE NO

SWEETIE UR DAD IS DEAD omg that rhymed

U LEFT HIM IN YOU CAR WTF IS YOUR PROBLEM

this looks like a life is strange scene

yes of course his life will be better but at the same he doesnt know his dad is a piece of shit he will still be pissed and probably depressed but mostly pissed actually bucky u might die

WHY IS WISH JOHN CONSTANTINE HERE I DONT LIKE YOU SIR GO AWAY LEAVE THE KID ALONE

actually how old is rj thats a good question

ok apparently google doesnt know the answer im guessing 16

HE IS SO NICE AND AMAZING AND BADASS I LOVE YOU

OMG NO NOW HE KNOWS HE KILLED HIS DAD NOOOOOOOOOO

im mad abt he punching bucky but id do the same thing he is in right to be very mad abt it ok go on

HE KILLED WISH JOHN CONSTANTINE YES RJ UR ALWAYS RIGHT

#RJ: trans rights? of course! im trans and im always right

NO IT ENDED UP ALREADY NOOOOO

ok very cool comment section now by lucas tanjisung (me) lets go

lets start by the fact that bucky is as pretty in the comics as in the movies since this is from 2019 it might be actually inspired in sebastian stan but im not sure anyways very good looking so +678 points

one thing is that after just seeing the winterfalcon episode i guess that bucky is a very right connection to this one but like a few months later with all the getting better thing and if that is the case well done marvel it looks great

other very good thing abt this shit : RJ . pls im already in love with this like psycho traumatized teenager and maybe thats because im a very big fan of marvel teenagers in general but he has a very deep backstory that could be very useful to the universe in general. idk if he is in any other comic but an origin solo for him would be top tier or one of him after wintersoldier events and him being an anti-hero of something (or maybe thinking very high rj young avenger that would be sick

now one thing that i didnt like very much is that like .. ok i get it makes sense with his whole story and all that and i like redemption arcs a lot BUT ANTI-HEROES OR JUST KILLING HEROES ARE SO MUCH NICER AND COOLER LIKE .. (okok my fav super-heroes aren't killling heroes but u have to be the best of the best to be a not killing heroe and be good u know thats why they are my fav) COMING BACK .. i just wanted to see bucky destroying enemies and boom explosion fights and all that but it was a more deep and like thoughtful comic that differs a lot to what im used to so maybe thats why i got a little weird abt it, but counting everything it is an AWESOME comic with AWESOME drawing styles and an aweome meaning that showed a lot of emotional shit abt a character i didn't know that well

i had to rate it from 1 to 10 it would probably be an 8,5 so very cool marvel well done

#winterfalcon #bucky barnes #tfatws #winter soldier #bucky #winter soldier 2019 #rj #marvel comics #avengers #marvel

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atobylotak · 7 years

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Tagged by: @thoushallfadenothere I don’t think I was tagged in this yet and I rly wanted to be Tagging: @niekonepadarysi @kwiecista idk who else has done it uh @holgerdanske @nastoychivost and whoever else just wants to do it

GENERAL

Name: Domi/Dom/Dominik Birthday: 5th November Age: 19 Sexual Orientation: Uhhh bisexual ig School Status: starting 3rd year uni this year. I graduate at the end of this year wtf

YES/NO

Drink?: Socially. Once a week at most. Smoke?: Neh Eat cake?: Yeah? Believe in true love?: uhhhh I mean -- I guess there must be some kind of chemistry between two people that just makes them click? I mean -- if two people are together and love each other, that’s true love, right? It’s not false love or anything? Shrugging emoji Afraid of the dark?: Yes it’s actually probably my number 1 fear [with exception of life after death and public speaking] Cat person?: Yeah but I also like dogs ad basically every animal

FAVOURITES

Shampoo: it’s this dove brand rn with caffeine in it apparently? It’s a 2-in-1 shampoo and conditioner ayyy Disney song: don’t get me wrong I love disney, but I’m not truly invested in it? I don’t know every song in every movie. But in saying that, I do really enjoy ‘We know the Way’ from Moana. Actress/Actor: I admire and love so many Actors -- but Sebastian Stan holds a special place in my heart tbh. I really admire the guy and basically when I was halfway through my final year of high school, I decided ‘fuck it’ and chose to pursue my dream in becoming an actor bc I wanted to be like him lmao. Other actors I like include Chris Evans, Jakub Gierszał, Jared Padalecki, Chris Pratt, And many, many more. Car: Nope Person: I can’t just choose one singular person. I like all my friends, my brother is also dank af. Also my partners? They all hold a special place in me somewhere and I care abt all of them I can’t choose a favourite. Type of Weather: Rain and storm~. Okay but also that type of weather where it’s overcast, the wind is picking up, and the faint smell of rain is in the air? My absolute fave 90s Sitcom: Idk man I never rly watched these?

QUESTIONS

What is your special talent/skill as a roleplayer?

idfk man. There’s nothing particularly special about my roleplays or anything. Maybe character breakdown? Idk I mean I personally do enjoy breaking down and analysing and developing my characters, and I do like to think I have a bit of a thing for it [I mean, I study theatre. We learn character breakdown and shit there.] But I mean I don’t think my ability is any better or unique or so than other people?

What is your favourite type of roleplay genre, and why?

I think definitely uh.... I hate the word angst -- but genres that require exploring that weaker, more vulnerable side to my muse. I don’t wanna come off as edgy and ‘ugh, I only like dark themes’ and shit. So just to clarify, I also really enjoy roleplaying the sweet romantic and heart warming stuff. I also find myself really getting muse and inspiration when writing more emotionally -- particularly when it is something sad and stuff. I enjoy exploring and developing my muse on that front -- especially bc Feliks is someone who internalises his emotions a lot, so it’s very hard to even get the chance to see these sides of him? Anything involving arguments between him and Arūnas though always makes me literally cry. It’s terrible.

Why did you pick your muse?

when I saw Fel on screen for the first time, I immediately took him in as my son. When I was just starting to get into roleplay -- I tried a couple of other characters first. Bel.arus and Chi.na. But when I got to Feliks, he was the only one that I felt truly invested in exploring more and wanting to roleplay. I found the other two a little too complicated for me to get into the mindset at the time [and now I just cbf] and Feliks now has grown and developed so much and I have 0 regrets choosing him as my muse, I honestly am proud of myself that I managed to stick with him for so long and developed him in ways I did.

if you could write any other muse - but know you don’t have the muse for him/her - who would it be?

Ukra.ine tbh. I really love her and I think about her a lot -- but I don’t think I could roleplay babusya with enough justice. Also I don’t wanna dedicate my life to another 1000+ years worth of history.

What is one thing you think you need to work on as a partner?

My time management with replies. I either reply in less than 5 minutes, or more than 3 weeks. No in between. Also I think length of threads. Sometimes my replies may get too long and I struggle with that.

What would be your warning label to other roleplayers?

I’m a really Salty Gay(tm) and will either cry to you over smth involving Feliks, or I will salt and vent about all kinds of things in the rp comm

What is your favourite episode/scene of your muse?

laffs a lot. I. I can’t bring myself to like much abt him in the show or manga bc of how he is portrayed [def in comparison to my portrayal.] I kinda did enjoy that scene between him and Lithua.nia where they’re sharing legends and stories together.

What crack!ships do you have for your muse?

Thanks to Mar I developed a liking for PolCan tbh.

What is your senpai blog?

There is one roleplayer I absolutely idolised [and still look up to today ofc.] Quite a few friends of mine know, and I think they themselves know. But I really admire Kaj on their dobrebopolskie, especially back in 2013-14. They inspired me to get back into roleplay, and also to come up with my own interpretation and portrayal, even if it conflicts with canon. To this day I still find it so amazing that I’m actually friends with them and talking to them and stuff? Bc wow 2013 me always thought I was ‘too lame’ to even associate with them.

#ooc #mun #jazzhands outta here

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